#even if our song is trash at least we became a meme once again.

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My Dumbass 5SOS Experiance // Part Uno

I know exactly what you’re thinking. I know, because well, I am one of you. The 5SOSFam that is; I made it sound like we’re our own separate alien race. But look at the people we stan... It makes a little too much sense, doesn’t it? Not even a paragraph in, and I’m already unraveling a conspiracy theory like Shane Dawson. You know him- “You look so fucking something, in my underwear while she wearing them! There’s my poop stain, on her butt.” Yeah, that funny motherfucker. 

You’re probably thinking- ‘Oh, just another fan who really wants the same thing I do.’

I’m not gonna pretend, or lie to make my situation seem special. You’re fucking right, that is exactly who I am. We all have our bumps in the road, after all, we’re all human. Or aliens, I don’t really know anymore. It’s not only science that has gone too far at this point, I am now a contributing factor to the random things that make you question what the fuck this world is becoming.

I’m not about to level with you, or give you a sob story. It could seem that way, but every detail I write is a detail I wouldn’t ever erase. Every problem I’ve encountered, or dumb ass decision I’ve written is something that made me the well rounded person I am today. These are past events, though I am currently handling some of the debris of them. I’m still coping with illness, and things like that. When I write these events, just know, while they are awful I am used to them. That sounds bad, but I don’t know any different. They do hurt greatly at times, but that’s just building more character and strength in the end. 

-Trigger/Graphic Event Warning-

Let’s start out simple and #relatable; I struggle(d) with:

Bi-Polar Depression (Mood swings between extremely jolly, and devastatingly upset.) 

Anxiety (Having a hard time staying composed in times of little stress, or in many social situations.) 

Insomnia (Getting little to no sleep/getting no well-rested sleep at night.) 

Self-Harm (Hurting yourself in ways such as eating disorders, or various forms of mutilation.)

Suicide (Trying to end your own life.)

Those are the things this is somewhat covering, but by no means are they the point I’m trying to make. They aren’t what make up me, and they aren’t what make up this letter. 

To understand the substance of the seemingly overused words on your screen, you need to know a bit about who I am first. Otherwise this could seem like every generic fanfiction. You know what I’m talking about. Eyes are always called orbs. Every meeting involves someone spilling something on someone else. Dicks are always refferred to as members. Calum is usually an asshole with a tragic life story. Mikey is usually a bad boy; who gets a soft spot for the main girl for some unknown reason. Ashton is either super sweet in his old dad way, or a complete arrogant prick. Luke, well he always bounces between popular and nerdy often. Have I made my point?

I’m gonna get relatable again when I say, there isn’t a lot I’m good at. When I am good at something, it has no use in my daily life. I can’t divide fractions, but I can hit every note in guitar hero. I can’t socially interact, but I can make bomb-ass Turkey Bacon Cojacks. I don’t know where all the states are, but I can rap Migrane. My skills are only useful to me, basically. My point being, I was practically useless in class. When I was staying home from school on the normal, from avoiding my problems and lack of motivation, I felt so useless. Like as useless as a newspaper is to a teenager. 

We all have some activity that makes us feel important, though. To Donald Trump, it’s putting down anyone who isn’t a straight white male. To Bo Burnham, it’s making people laugh with his odd perspective and unique means of comedy. Me? It’s always been when I’m on stage. I love hearing my voice being amplified to bring together people from all walks of life. When I’m writing lyrics, I feel like every syllable can make a difference in someone’s life. There’s just something thrilling about worrying you’ll sing the wrong lyric, and doing so because you were worrying about it. 

I’m not gonna say this was always my passion; when I was younger I made a very motivational speech about wanting to be a mermaid. “I WILL be a mermaid, and I WILL live under the sea.” If you think that’s odd, I know of a kid who wanted to be a trash compactor. After I discovered I couldn’t grow a tail, and I ended up not being a fan of swimming in a casino, I wanted to preform. That’s been my dream since I can remember. I’ve always been pretty witty, like I’d have to leave my wit behind   before boarding a plane it’s so sharp. I learned I get more happiness when making others smile, than I do by making myself smile.

A stage is the one place I’m not useless, and being a musician is what I was born to do. I will look anyone in the eye and tell them I'm gonna be so famous one day, because that's exactly what I believe. I know I'm not where I want to be, so it's as simple as I'm gonna move. You need to remember that the only way you can fail is if you give up. It's pretty annoying how bad I am at that. I don't only try to achieve my goals, I try to over-achieve them. I live off my intuition, I'm definitely the ride-or-die type of person in EVERYTHING I do. Making a fool of myself? I'll record it so people can hold it against me for the rest of my life. Dissapointing my parents? Well I am going to Uni for music with no back up plan. Meet 5sos? Well... That's where this fiasco begins.

Welcome to the jungle my fellow fam.

Let’s go back to the first weekend of May 2017. Yes, I really did start this journey on a weekend in May. Yes, I really did it just so I can make that reference. Maybe I started a bit before that, but I committed to it on that first Saturday. At that time I had been in the fam for a couple of months, and  I did go through the phase when I couldn’t tell Lucifer and Ashtonio apart. I however didn’t assume Calcium was Asian, I assumed he was Hispanic. I mean have you seen the ‘Hey Everybody!’ video? That was rhetorical, of course you have. He walked dogs, he was practically Ceasar911! 

Well at this time I was still self-harming, I was still suicidal, and music is very influential to me. I tend to form bonds with songs because music tends to be my main comfort. Music has always been there when no one ever was. There's just such an intense bond for me, with listening and creating it. When I write I don't just think about lyrics, I can hear the chord progressions and melodies. Unfortunately I don't have enough experience with intstruments yet to share the finished product of my own music. 

With 5SOS however, that connection was a lot different. I  appreciate the artists always, though I never tend to feel anything more than that. I didn't feel that at all, I felt a boner. I'm kidding, I just really wanted to say that. Usually with musicians, since I am a fellow musican, I tend to idolize the ones who make music I enjoy. Yes, I know I'm stating the obvious. The thing is, after the whole initiation of binging keeks, interviews, funny moments, and the movie- I didn't once feel like they were above me in any way. Not even in a sexual dream  enduced by falling asleep to Aerosmith. No, that wasn't too specific of a scenario.

They just made me feel understood in a way no one has. Not just because I'm so proud about being a gigantic dork. We were in the same boat, we had the same oar, we wanted  to get to the same island that appearantly no one has heard of, we had the same belief that it exists, and the same thing  about not being satisfyed with any of the millions of already existing islands. That was quite the metaphor, hehe. It's chalked down to similar situations, interests, humor, personalities, and  impeccable music taste. It could also be that we are close in age, but then I'd be connected to millions of other people. That doesn't sound possible for me at the moment, but wait a couple years.

So I was chilling, laughing at Calcium crossing the border with his homie Mike, when I had the thought- What if I met them? In my mind, I thought there would be at least a year before they come to Illinois again, so I had time to save money. It became a goal for me, one I was quite sure would never happen. As we discussed, I'm an over achiever with all of my goals. So what did I do? Well it would be so easy to say I wrote each of them a letter. I can't do anything that simple, I'm far too creative for that simplicity. 

From then to now, in almost a years time, so much happened from there. I met one of my closest friends who happens to be an Aussie; all because of a 5sos meme post, and her lack of ability to use Instagram properly. My family fell apart, and I'm not keen on going into detail. Let's just say I've gotten to consider the 5SOSFam as my only real family. I love you guys, you're a wonderful group of humans with a trail mix variety of nuts. Thank you for existing, and for reading this far. 

Over the time I worked, I wrote and drafted maybe 500 different letters? As of late, I actually haven't gotten any letters finished. I made 4 bracelets, not a giant accomplishment. I'm 4/5 the way done with a poster I designed for Calcium. I made Lucas a fetus 5SOS wooden box, and a 5SOS money jar. I wrote Mikey a novel about him as a superhero, with a fan-art for it. That's kind of big actually cause I've never finished writing a longer story before. There's more things, but I don't want to get too technical with it.

I think I have to say the thing that I put most my effort in was a large journal for Ashton. That's because it's filled with art, tumblr posts, and lyrics. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to all of those things. At this point it has some holes because I've drafted the entire 100 or 200 pages over at least 8 different times. Nothing in it is original to the day I started, I made so many mistakes early 2017 for myself and that journal. I was working on the journal when I decided to attempt suicide for the second time.

It's completely crazy, but I've been through a lot with that journal. All of that started with the smallest idea. From the time I started to right now, I've changed so fucking much. I know how to handle my illness, I'm clean of self-harm, I lost a family and gained a new one, I failed at dying and learned how to live, I made an amazing friend, I got closer with my already existing amazing friend, I got a drum-kit, I somehow became a good lyricist, I found my music sound, my singing voice matured unbelievably, I got and lost pets, I got and lost relationships, I'm now in Uni, I'm more independent... I'm finally at the point where I can believe it does in fact get better.

That seems crazy given I've gone through more in 2017-2018 than I did when I came out about my depression, but maybe that's because I know how to spin it. I know how to handle life. Now everytime I'm scared to do something, I do it. Cause that is how you live, that's how you write, that's how you learn. I wouldn't recognize myself. I've gone from broken, bullied, and suicidal to seeing the beauty in my missing pieces, realizing I deserve better, and actually getting out of bed.

I think it might be because of the journal... 

Hear me out, hear me out. I'm not saying it made me who I am, there's a difference between knowing and believing. Just like the difference between reading and comprehending. The difference between seeing and feeling. When I started that I could only talk the talk. Hell, when I started I had a case of putting them on a pedestal. It was never intentional, at the time I didn't even think I was worth anything. Now I see them as equals in most ways, cause when I see them be how they are I feel like I belong somewhere. I mean, I've always strayed from the majority just because I'd rather be myself and be disliked than be liked for being someone I'm not. I never saw the appeal in fitting in other than having someone to sit with at lunch. I didn't need to belong, even though it would have been nice to feel at home somewhere.

That's what I got when I found the dorks. I don't have to play a part to feel like I belong around them. I can be me, and still feel like I fit in. Not conformity, but genuine compatibility. Before them I was made fun of for being weird. I was made fun of for having my own style, for the song references no one understood, for how much I giggle. I was made fun of for my a many ambitious, none of which being realistic. But I still do all of these things. I still sing louder than everyone else. I still air drum and head bang to songs like Careless Whisper because it's really funny in contrast. I still play games, randomly balance objects on my head, dance in public because I don't give a shit about what people think when I'm having fun. 5SOS just helped me realize that girl who I wished I wasn't for most of my life, is actually the only person I'd ever want to be. Unless I could be Will Smith as Deadpool, then I immediately trash my last statement. 

This is gonna get a bit heavy for a moment, but during that last attempt, as I was losing life I was legit thinking about them. How messed up is that? My life was so shitty my dying thoughts were about four idiots from Sydney. But that's how it was, they were my coping skill. I couldn't hold onto life for me after that, so I held on for them. Not because they'd know the difference if I was gone, let's be real, they wouldn't. If they knew of me then maybe, but I was so low on life's food chain at that point. I held onto the idea of making this epic stuff, and handing it to them. 

I'm not even done with the journal!

I had a history of putting too much of myself into things and then being let down and loosing that part of me. So I don't do it, but it became something I did without realizing it. I don't know what I thought would happen. Maybe they'd like who I was, and would want to have a conversation. Maybe I'd be thrown into the fanfic life and get to hang out. Like a beach bonfire filled with laughter, various awesome people, classic rock, teasing, and knowing me, lots of dick jokes accompanying many innuendos. Maybe I'd end up in LA, and get signed to a rock label. I know I'm saying it like it's simple, trust me, I know all too well the effort it takes.

I gained some real maturity, and became even more well rounded. Though I was always the mature one who made a few mistakes here and there. That's one of the reasons I didn't fit in, I was like a 30 year old when I was 13. I'm not gonna say it wouldn't be cool to end up being their home diggle, but now I'm living for me. I saved myself, and they influenced me to. They leant me a helping hand. It would be epic to chill, or to collab on a song. Hell, if I got an opportunity to get signed to Hi or Hey I'd take it in a heartbeat. A small part of it is because I think the dorks are cool in their own odd way, but mostly because the company itself is an awesome fit for me. It produces the same sound I'd like to make, and it sends the same message-

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Sesame Street: 10 Hilarious (& Adorable) Bert And Ernie Memes

As hard as it may be to believe, it's now officially been 50 years since the beloved furry little friends of Sesame Street entered our lives. Over the last five decades, adorable Muppet characters such as Big Bird, Grover, Elmo, Baby Bear, The Count, Zoe, Oscar the Grouch, Telly, Slimy, Murray, Snuffy, Julia, and many more have educated generations after generations about important life skills children need to learn.

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Bert and Ernie have remained the series' constant. Their friendship is as strong as it has ever been, and it remains one of the series' most reliable sources of humor and heart in equal measure. Here, we're reviewing some of the most adorable and hilarious memes the internet has come up with that perfectly highlight the comedic duo's bromance.

10 Bert's banana phone

Generally speaking, Ernie can frustrate Bert far more often than not. The hilarity of their friendship is created by their Odd Couple like personalities, and in particular Ernie's childish behaviors and Bert's stuffy personality.

In this meme, however, things are momentarily flipped on their head. Bert is clearly trying to avoid dealing with yet another of Ernie's ridiculous antics, and if that means he'll have to put a banana in his ear, then so be it. Then again, maybe he just wants a phone that matches his own complexion.

9 Can you tell me how to get to Sesame Sleep?

In addition to being Sesame Street's own version of The Odd Couple, Bert and Ernie clearly often struggle with understanding each other's language, so to speak. Something that exacerbates that fact is Ernie's unflagging innocence and cheeriness, and Bert's far more world weary and sarcastic demeanor.

Take, for example, this hilarious interaction between the duo. As Ernie sings the praises of the amazing powers of sleep, an exhausted Bert is forced to indulge his enthusiastic best buddy for far longer than he would clearly like to be awake.

8 Muppet math

Sesame Street has done a lot when it comes to teaching kids basic life skills and kindergarten essentials. One of the recurring features of the series is the fact that each episode is brought to you by a certain letter and a certain number, which then go on to feature in skits and storylines.

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This meme seems like it's brought to you by the number 4, and also the number 1. The design of Muppets is a large part of what makes these characters so vibrant and adorably lovable, and it's amazing how much personality can be conveyed by four round Muppet eyes and a very, very bushy unibrow.

7 Gone fishin'

Sometimes, the simplest memes are the funniest. And sometimes, there are some memes you can just hear practically in a nanosecond. Bert and Ernie's voices are incredibly distinctive, instantly recognizable among the vast catalog of Muppets that reside on Sesame Street.

But besides Ernie's beloved rubber duckie song, and his distinct laugh, there's one particular phrase from a 1980s skit that is undoubtedly familiar to every dedicated Sesame Street fan everywhere: Ernie's adorable, hopeful attempt at calling fish.

6 Hey, those guys look familiar... kind of

We've already talked about the key role that the unique designs of Muppet puppets play into the realization of the many, many distinct characters on Sesame Street. But as this honestly jarring meme shows us, the role that design plays in creating characters really can't be overstated.

Because honestly, these guys are kind of terrifying. For some reason, the duo don't work together with their felt colors flipped, and somehow, the designs no longer match their character's personalities. Sorry, Eert and Bernie. We're sticking with Bert and Ernie.

5 Who, me?

Sesame Street might be a show designed for preschool and kindergarten audiences, but sometimes, the words of encouragement offered by the beloved citizens of the Street are even more valuable to adults. Motivational memes are a real highlight of meme culture on the internet, even if most memes are far more frequently judgmental and dark.

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And in this particular meme, Bert and Ernie's lessons about the letter U suddenly become turned toward the viewer as a sweet message of encouragement from everyone's favorite roommates.

4 Be honest: are you Bert or Ernie?

As we've already said, the differences in Bert and Ernie's levels of maturity and personalities are precisely what make this duo so reliably hilarious. And nowadays, in the heyday of memes being used as expressions of relatable experiences, it's not hard to see how this particular exchange became a meme.

Sometimes, it's easy to be oblivious and cheerful like Ernie, even when you're staring the answer right in the face. And sometimes, it's easy to be fed up and tired just like Bert - all while kind of feeling like, to borrow Forky from Toy Story 4's self-identifying refrain, trash.

3 I scream, you scream, we all scream for...

Sometimes, the best memes are born of puns that would normally make you roll your eyes or sigh. We like to think of these as the "dad joke" memes - memes that use humor that would never really work in any true sense of comedy, but are so endearingly stupid that they wind up getting a chuckle or two out of you.

The example of the exchange in the meme above - "Say, Ernie, would you like some ice cream?" "Sherbert." - is a perfect instance of this. And honestly, whether you'd rather have some ice cream or sherbet after reading it, you have to at least laugh a little at the cheerful look on their faces.

2 If he just ignores it long enough...

How many ways can we restate the fact that Bert and Ernie are polar opposites, and that's what makes them so wonderful together? We're not sure. But once again, that key part of their relationship is what makes this meme such a hilarious and adorable reminder of their bond.

There's no telling what antics Ernie will get up to at any given time, including showing up wearing a hat filled with fruit. But you can always count on Bert to want absolutely nothing to do with it, even if he winds up getting pulled into the adventure in the end. The look on his face here says it all, really.

1 Bert and Ernie: inventors of sarcasm

Normally, Bert is the one of the duo who could best be described as deadpan and snarky. But sometimes, Ernie's idealistic innocence winds up leading to moments that are just so wonderfully filled with sarcasm, it's impossible to not burst out laughing at them.

Take, for example, this apparent generation-defining interaction between the longtime best friends. A nicely dressed Bert genuinely asks Ernie how he looks in his suit, only for Ernie to be literal as always and inform Bert that he looks with his eyes. Ernie's right, of course, but not necessarily helpful. And even Bert's expression as he awaits the answer makes it seem like he knows what kind of outcome he's going to get, before it happens.

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source https://screenrant.com/sesame-street-tv-show-hilarious-adorable-bert-ernie-memes/