#everything about moist von lipwig is insane to me and ill never get over any of it. character ever

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kinda heartbreaking to me that moist REPEATEDLY says he likes the kind of people who are everything he isn't. like. the fact that he's been running away from himself, truly himself, for so long that when it catches up to him, he can't help but despite it. and admire and actively LIKE the people who are everything he isn't and it just points to a self hatred and derealization so strong that its self destructive too. he'll never be those people and he'll always either feel guilty in their presence or simply just full of emotion he doesn't know how to deal with. he even says in the beginning of going postal that he LOVES honest people, loves when they shake his hand and look into his eyes to find out who he is, bc he has a whole rack of selves he can offer them. and that's the thing, isn't it. he doesn't show his real self to anyone till going postal and even then the only one he offers it to WILLINGLY is adora. until going postal he doesn't think himself capable of having a 'real' self. how gut wrenching that is. like yeah yeah he was a conman that was the whole POINT but he spent his life hiding behind layers and layers of mask and the fact that he LIKES honest people instead of despising them. god.