#except wizard and mage i think theyre fine

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made a tierlist of ocs for organizational purposes

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what are some of mod dave's aus

uhh ok this is a fucking plethora

SO I HAVE!!

HUMANSTUCK - i just imagine this one by default,,, uhh john was definitely born in athens greece. terezis been chinese / korean this whole time idk what youre talking abou-,t-

DEMIGODSTUCK - i Know i have gone into detail about on this blog before. my favorite concepts from this one are greyro ace vitiligo aphrodite son karkat who doesnt feel like he fits in with his cabin cause they make fun of him for being “ugly” and “loveless” and then he comes around and completes a quest and becomes head counselor, and uhhh hephaestus dirk who has pyrokinesis and also loses an arm so now hes got a metal one he built himself

DONT LOOK DOWN - my greyromantic human-collegestuck 18kword banekat fic im writing which ive Also mentioned on this blog before

DEAD KIDS - this is based off a katie alender book called “the dead girls of hysteria hall” please read that book its fucking phenomenal dave is the one who inherited the asylum and all the homestuck girls are the ghosts trapped inside its made my friends cry before when i made them read it hal almost busted out his witch charm and warded me away cause of dead kids

DONT STARVE - where everyone lives in the 1920s and they get sucked into tim burton minecraft island hell and they all gotta survive there (handmaid is definitely charlie. it fucks aradia up cause she Knows. think like winona. she gets one free night without being consumed by the darkness itself cause Family Reasons)

MINECRAFT - this one is where a lot of people are like sentient humanoid half-creatures like sollux is half creeper half human and dont. uh. dont get him mad. also drowned eridan and feferi but theyre not dead or brainless they just be lookin like that. its cool !! you know !!!

MEDIEVALSTUCK - terezi is an oracle of the church except not anymore shes blasphemous and gets exiled and its her and a bunch of friends who are all like “wow the kingdom thought i was weird too lets all have an adventure together”!! examples: dave cant be a knight cause his eyes are red and that means hes the devil. sollux is a mage who specializes in death-related magic so obviously he brought upon this plague. rose is a lesbian thats not allowed also shes a WITCH. kanayas a vampire. shes just a vampire. she proposes to rose with a sword

EARTH INVASION - this is a no-sburb au where the alternian empire came and took over earth as a colony, also all the trolls exist at the same time as the revolution so like the whole vantas family gets to help out, and the humans are taken as like property cause theyre Technically Lowbloods but theyre Not having it so they all escape and join the rebellion and take down the GOVERNMENT

TROLLSTUCK - daves a mutantblood (same idea where all troll generations exist at the same time) and he finds the vantas rebellion and JADE is a LIMEBLOOD and she is NOT having a good time but shshhs shh its ok shes an olive its FINE

BLOOD / KIDSWAP - kanaya is the vantas and she thinks shes so clever cause shes posing as a bronzeblood. there IS sburb in this one. also dave egbert and john harley. love those boys. jade lalonde is a terrifying concept if she ever goes grimdark run away immediately

OPPOSITESTUCK - jade is the main character and she just wants everyone to shut the fuck up. this is also a sburb au and she hates her land its Too Loud. uhh rose is a being of chaos and exists in the void outside of spacetime itself. and john is a little bastard. tavros is now The Antichad. which is a valid ancestor name actually-

CYBERSTUCK - this one is really really specific, uhh its a post-apocalyptic dystopian cyberpunk futuristic humanstuck where the city everyone lives in once flourished with the help of several versions of androids, but as they advanced they needed more and more power which became fucking nuclear and there was a fallout. so now everythings radioactive, everyones scrounging to survive, androids from “the underground” (the main core of where most of specifically the power droids were kept) are SUPER fucking valuable cause theyre able to give you power, and the radioactivity mutated a lot of people so instead of zombies there are just mutants. and roxy is one of them but theyre still sentient so they look like fucking HEINOUSTUCK roxy but theyre still like. vibing

MAFIASTUCK - where everyone does Illegal Things but mostly not like morally illegal things. just like. yknow daves a thief and. sollux is the most wanted anonymous hacker in texas,, uh. dirk commits arson sometimes,. vriska is vriska,.. jane is in on some high key white collar crimes in the crockercorp company,, and poor john is just this normal idiot surrounded by all of this at college and hes like “god. i hate you all. please be normal”

MIRACULOUS LADYBUG - uhh john has a miraculous and its firefly themed and thats his name !! “firefly”!!! his Big Power is like “typhoon” or some shit he can make a big storm Go and serenity the firefly is his little fuckin uhhh Friend. the Miraculous Animal i forgot what it was called

YOUTUBERSTUCK - this ones based off unus annus p much where like theyre all youtubers and thats how they all met like john and dahnte (banes oc, ive also talked about dahnte) are unus annus and dave and sollux are like. good mythical morning and roxy is an asmr channel and kanaya is a makeup tutorial channel and jade has a vlog with her dog and its called doggy vloggies and eridan does all these science experiments and jane has a baking channel and nepeta ,, she just like. does, what she does and people like her. she doesnt have a genre. shes just nepeta on youtube. and shes a fucking hit. also dirk and jake make music

then like i obviously have concept aus that are pretty much just designs, like gemstuck where theyre all . ,, steven universe gems, and then rwbystuck where theyre all at beacon academy and have their own semblances, and a one piece au where theyre all pirates and some of them ate the Big Shit Fruits, and my own flavor of demonstuck cause who doesnt have a demonstuck, and stardew valley stuck (which i call starstuck valley) where a couple of them are farmers on their own respective farms and they all come together amidst the idiot villagers and go “hey did that wizard make you drink that leaf juice soup too or like is that just me”, and a survivalstuck where the whole premise is like. “the forest” kinda game. oh shit your plane went down and youre stranded in the woods. find your friends and survive. maybe dont get near those eight-armed women with no heads. thats a good idea

long story short i have. uh. a plethora

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oc talk

tw for death talk

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“why are you crying?”

that was what my first therapist said to me after she asked me about my ocs for the first time. i started crying about them on instinct. no i wasnt talking about anything sad, i was simply talking about them. i dont even know how to describe anymore what they are to me. are they me? an extension of me? or just characters? i cant answer that because i dont know. at first they were just playthings. i made up scenarios in my head because i was bored. i used to be so excited to go to bed at night just so i can imagine them in my head with whatever story line i had. then those thoughts shifted to the day, then whenever i listened to music. slowly they just became a common part of my mind. 

theyre so different. most of my current characters didnt exist in middle school. Kristen and Cameron were the first ones and then came others. Then i scrapped the others because i didnt like them anymore. Their names were Ryan and Sabrina, I stole Sabrina’s character design and gave it to Davorin’s mother Agatha eventually. So i guess she still lives on?

 i cant even remember how others came to be, soon i wanted Cameron to have a brother which birthed Andrew, but i wanted them to have more friends then i watched fairy tail and thought wow a fire and ice wizard at each others throats is good then i made Luke and Max except i later scrapped the rivals now theyre good friends but then Max needed a friend which birthed Robert but then Robert started getting used more and then he became a vampire and then i switched his name to Davorin.  

Stella, Teddy, and Jet were all main characters at that time. eventually i decided it was too bloated and deleted them. i always hated getting rid of them like that. it made me really happy when i finally decided on a way to keep them alive. make them side characters at Davorin and Vince’s old school. 

i literally cant tell you how Nate and Blake started, the only thing i remember was their powers were completely different than now. Nates eyes were his powers. He could see the future in short bursts. Now he’s just a powerful mage. Blake used portals to fight. Hopping around confusing the enemy and attack a weak spot. Now Blake is a swordsman with magic and also part dragon due to being experimented on. i later gave Blake’s powers to Vince’s brother Bryce. its weird to think they just. showed up.

before my meds before my therapist i laid on my bathroom floor bawling my eyes out. wanting nothing more than to never wake up again, to end it right there. i looked up to the ceiling begging for a way out, but then i suddenly got so scared thinking of them. if i died who would carry out their legacy? if i died so would they. and they dont deserve that. i thought of them trapped in my mind forever, i dont want that. i want people to know who they are. i need people to know who they are. i cant give them up. im a selfish owner, i cant bring myself to let other people handle them. it was the only thing that made me want to stay alive. the only thing i could bring myself to live for. 

as soon as i can get this game made. as soon as people know who they are. i can die. i always knew that. when i would tell myself no one would ever love me. when i tell myself that im going to be alone forever. even if one day im alone in an apartment begging for companionship. i know i could leave peacefully one day.  as soon as theyre set free. 

its stupid right? to cling to life with a bunch of characters who dont exist? i must have been blessed with something to think of them right? theres a reason i thought of them. 

i cling to them. i beg them to never leave me. for them to be the only constant ill ever have in my life. my life isnt mine, its theirs. im just their vessel and im fine with that. i like to think that i cry because theyre happy. theyre happy someone finally besides me cares. i cant describe how emotional i get over them. its a big wave at once.

im. not used to talking about them in person and i dont think i ever will be. i cry as soon as i get some words out about them. it hits me all at once when i mention them out loud. the only reason im alive. its scary in a way, to think one day ill be ready to die.