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me staring at eyrie’s family being a metaphor for differences in grief and thus how grief changes/stagnates/brings out the worst in people like we’re gonna keep creating the same dynamics huh brain

#eyrie’s mother’s grief over her husband #both eyrie and their twins grief over losing children—the differences between them #their twin’s name is odvirn #but odvirn being so much like his father and how grief took those wonderful things about his father #his compassion his sense of duty and purpose his strong sense of justice and love #odvirn becoming his paranoid righteous man dedicated to his own sense of right and wrong #his stagnation being one of being stuck in the past #eyrie’s own stagnation falling into a long lasting depression that had them isolating and so absorbed in themselves their marriage #ended up falling apart. even as they screamed on the inside for it to not be like this #anything else. let it have been anything else but they’re trapped in their own body #paralyzed by grief. terrified of a baby’s cry—cold sweats at the sound #they wanted nothing more than to hear their daughter take a deep breath and cry for life but she could only ever whimper #in many a sense grief moved eyrie to the worst of their mother’s traits #her deep internal life. her self sufficiency and dependability. her quiet gentleness #eyrie absorbed into their internals. self sufficieny leading to tragic loneliness #their dependability becoming wanting to do everything—shoulder all of the burdens #the gentleness given to being and emotional push over/punching bag #they aren’t as much like this anymore w it having been 40+ years #still it remains part of them #oc: eyrie kisne #i will have more thought these two being siblings some days

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