#feels like Im just gonna be hit with random waves of heartbreak over it today

[raksh-writes]

We just got pretty heart-breaking news relating our dog and now I don't know what to do with myself, so I figured I might just as well share. Maybe it'll help, who knows.

Long story short, today was the day we had scheduled leg surgery for our doggo, but when we went in and the vet started to check her, he heard something he didn't like, so we did an x-ray aaaaaand it turned out she actually has a sick heart. And like, significantly. The surgery was canceled, while the vet explained to us what's going on with the x-ray and a comparison of how it Should look and yeah, her heart's basically twice the size it should be, pushing her trachea into her spine, where there should quite a bit of space there, and tbh, now it makes sense why she's been less and less energetic lately. We've been seeing it for months now, she doesn't run around or sprint the way she used to, and she also eats way less, sometimes doesn't even come in for her evening meal when before she was Always ecstatic about it. It's-- well, I didn't expect it to hit me the way it did, but damn... The vet was straight with us too - dogs with heart diseases always die, the question is what's exactly the sickness and how to maybe elongate the time with meds, but how long does she actually have?

He gave us a contact for a specialist, so we'll definitely be trying to get an appointment with him, but... yeah. We thought we were going for a relatively straightforward leg surgery and to get hit with this news was... rough.

It's a sad day today ngl...

[vyvesvi]

Comments on my Top 19 Boy Group Songs of 2019! (doesn’t include solo artists or non-korean releases, and includes songs that came out before 2019 that I only started liking this year)

blacklist vyvesvi’s year if you don’t wanna be hit by a bunch of these long posts!

The list copied from my larger post:

boyness - pdx101

pirate king or wave - ateez

blOssOm - onlyoneof

network love - seventeen

vibe - 1 team

hit - seventeen

humph! - pentagon

days gone by - day6

bloom bloom - the boyz

crown - txt

heartbreak terminal or savanna - onlyoneof

breathe - ab6ix

habits - day6

so cool - day6

wannabe - golden child

baby - the rose

oh my! - seventeen

moonwalker - seventeen

escape - vixx

italicized are songs that I listened to a lot!

I couldn’t choose between the ateez songs or the onlyoneof songs rip so this is really like a top 21 whoops

put in order from most to least liked below!

vibe 

network love 

hit 

pirate king 

wave 

boyness 

so cool 

wannabe 

escape 

savanna 

moonwalker 

breathe 

oh my! 

heartbreak terminal 

humph! 

blOsssOm 

days gone by 

crown 

habits 

baby 

bloom bloom

okay straight up all of ateez’s title tracks and then onlyoneof’s albums just started playing and that’s why there are 21 songs now except i legit would’ve just added all of them but that would be a bit much to add lol so im stopping here...anyways listen to bOss, hala hala, say my name, desert, and fragile

Comments:

boy groups...did well this year. sometimes it feels like there’s a lot of random noise whatever music coming out (which can be catchy sometimes) but looking at this list...hm. it seems that we let sm and jyp convince us that they make All of the Boy Group Music.

there are a lot of rookie groups on here oml. I’ll count pdx101, so there are 9 songs by rookies on my list, which is less than half but still. pretty high.

it’s clear that i biased ateez and onlyone of this year with a side of seventeen, which is super unexpected.

i stan onlyoneof (give us a fan name pls) and sorta stan seventeen (because of performance team/jun for the most part) but i don’t really know ateez members beyond some of their names? i deadass found out that they were an 8 member group like,,,last week. i thought there were at least 11 of them...their music just sounds like they need to have more members to do cool formations idk idk

so for there to be so many ateez songs (why am i saying that, there’s only 2 lol) i clearly need to start stanning (i stand by this though)

this is the first year there’s no bts, but that’s because i decided to be a title track only jin/hyung line main stan and don’t listen to their bsides anymore. 

my friend introduced me to 1team like a week ago and um. I’ve listened to vibe at least 100 times on repeat its so good oml...whatever that concept is bgs could do that and nothing else and i would just be constantly falling over myself it’s just so...ahhhh??? serotonin???? STAN 1TEAM

vibe, crown, savanna, and breathe are all debuts TTTT...they’re all so good and different genres i would recommend them all

x1 would probably be here if not for the controversy :(

i wish vixx was still active because they almost fell off of the list this year TTTTT

wannabe! i was forced to cover a golcha song and i hated it but wannabe really is that bitch and i take back whatever i said about golcha before lol...the choreo is not as cool as it could be tho

bloom bloom on the other hand...whoever choreographed it had their third eye  w i d e  open for that one omfg...the flower popping dance I Am  D E C E A S E D I LOVE IT SM ;; ...the dance is almost better than the song tbh...i feel like its old news but i was introduced to it this year so whatever

day6! they popped off on the days gone by album and that’s that on that. it’s brian’s birthday today blow a kiss to the sky for him or get bad luck for a month and a half

habits deadass came out like 3 years ago but i remembered it this year and listened to it a good 40-70 times.

network love is the best song seventeen released this year no other comments.

moment of silence for victon’s i’m fine that just came on but i didn’t add it to this list bc it’s old and i appreciated before this year (stan victon and x1 ty)

i had more to say but i forget sry...

but i still had more to say for this than the gg one which is. unacceptable. so im gonna go back (into my queue lol) and add more.

anyways STAN ONLYONEOF + 1TEAM they’re super small :(