#fellas is it gay to envy your rival so much you wanna be him

[multitrack-drifting]

thinking a Lot about Vox's design and how curious it is that he just. doesn't even have a normal head, y'know? how his face is a screen he can, and does, project anything he wants on

i wonder if it represents just how fake of a person he is. throughout the years he changed his way of speaking, his style and outfit, he even found a way to replace his monitor. he constantly introduces new show formats and products. he reinvents and remakes himself again and again and again to capture people's fleeting attention, and yet he fails every single time, because during his numerous public appearances and shows he expresses no genuine personality for his audience to hold onto, so they only watch him for the content he can provide, disregarding Vox himself just as a tool to deliver their entertainment and services, as background noise. this being exactly why he needs to hypnotize his viewers: as a last-ditch effort to retain their attention

i wonder if that's why he needs Velvette and why she views herself as the backbone of their team - her job is making the Vees a media presence, building the parasocial relationship Vox never could. presenting them not as a team of people built on the shared desire for power, but as a friend group their followers can relate to and adore. in reality, Vox probably wouldn't care too much about replacing them for more powerful allies, but in Velvette's posts here they are, the bestest of buddies, with Vox and Valentino having a very public romantic thing going on, despite it being evident from Vox's private acting with Valentino just how much he annoys Vox

i wonder if that is exactly why Vox despises Alastor. the man using his actual real life name in hell, someone who's been in hell for almost a century yet who barely needs to change anything about himself because he's just so effortlessly charming and attention-captivating that he simply doesn't need to. Alastor's podcast is centered on him and people still want to hear more of it. the moment Alastor appears people immediately switch their focus from Vox to him. i wonder if Vox loathes how he can only thrive in absence of Alastor because the moment Alastor comes on air Vox always becomes second best

y'know. i think about it a normal amount. yeah