#flutterguyposts

[emoflutterguy]

GUYS IM GETTING MY ANGEL FANGS DONE ON SUNDAY

if u have had that piercing please tell me what the healing process is like

im doing plenty of research and i have been since i was 16 bc thats how long ive wanted the piercing

but the more info, the merrier

[emoflutterguy]

i love when being sick means u get to lay in bed and sleep and drink vitamin water and eat mashed potatoes this is great

well the pounding headache isnt so great, nor is the chihuahua shivering but oh well

[emoflutterguy]

i dont understand peiple who are mean to animals. why do u have beef with this little critter that just wants some pets and some grub

look at this guy

look at him he is just a baby (hes 10)

yes this was an excuse to post pictures of my beloved big boy on The Tumblr just pretend u dont see my chins

[emoflutterguy]

jesus fucking christ growing up and finding out the people who were shitty to u are massive hypocrites is . insane

TRIGGER WARNING FOR LIKE ABUSIVE FRIENDSHIP??? this is a little bit of a ventpost about how my shitty best friend in freshman year forced his transmedicalist idea of masculinity onto me only to grow up a little bit and start dating a cis guy and fall into the trap that most of us trans guys also fall into with cis guys of “oh hes cis so i obviously need to be Girly now”

thats ur tl;dr, read on if ure interested in the juicy details below the cut

so when i was in freshman year i met a kid who was supposedly a year older than me (he wasnt) but he was also a freshman because he got held back a year (he didn���t) (he was a filthy liar)

anyways he just so happens to be a trans guy and thats not where my problem lies with this guy . i wish it was that simple .

now im also a trans guy, and i had just come out at that point when we had met, like im talking i had just freshly come out as a trans man a month before we had met. i had no idea what i was doing or how to act or dress or how to be masculine, and he was like oh let me coach u on how to be a trans man The Right Way

and his “coaching” was terrible advice that literally any trans man whos been trans for more than 5 seconds would tell u is terrible advice;

he told me to eat, sleep and shit in my binder, he told me to abandon all girly clothing and only wear HIS clothes because HIS clothes were cool and masculine and would make me pass better (they didn’t), he told me not to wear makeup unless he was the one who did it, he shamed me for not passing well enough (i was 15 and had a baby face, as well as having big ass man biddies and also being chubby) and he gave me the worlds worst first masculine haircut and dyed it an eye bleeding orange in his kitchen. he forced me to listen to his music only because my music taste was supposedly terrible and he was the one who could drive so he got to choose the playlist (spoiler alert he wasnt legally supposed to be driving without an adult over the age of 25 but that was unbeknownst to me)

basically he told me that fundamentally, i was wrong because i wasn’t him

and any ounce of femininity i dared to show and be comfortable with was also fundamentally wrong

one time while we were all hanging out at my house (him, me, my mom and her boyfriend at the time) and i was talking about how bad i wanted to get on testosterone because i just wanted to feel like a normal teenage boy.

.and get this.

he told me i was “too girly” and “not manly enough” and i “didn’t pass well enough” to go on testosterone

and he told me he thought i was faking being trans for attention and he didnt think i was actually trans because i “wasnt trying hard enough” like he was

i promise this is relevant later im not just saying this to vent

he was also a horrendously shitty person to me and everyone else at the time, and im not saying this because im still salty, no bitch i was 15 he was 15 we were both kids kids are gonna be weird and mean sometimes, but “kids being kids” is not supposed to leave u with trauma that u may never heal from . and he did that to me . but thats irrelevant

anyways, now onto the part thats kind of funny in a fucked up way

so me and his ex boyfriend are best friends now because we both survived the fucked up shit he put us both through, at the same time might i add, and we often talk about how our respective relationships with him still affect us to this day

and today we were talking about going to a concert for a band we both really like that was introduced to us by our mutual enemy, the guy this post is about

and naturally the conversation turned to what hes up to now because my bestie likes to sometimes look at his social media out of curiosity and he told me

that evil bad guy mc bad

is now in a relationship with a cis biker guy

and dresses in crop tops and mini skirts and thigh highs and wears wigs and makeup now

and good for him if he genuinely just enjoys dressing like that now, if thats all it is then im glad hes finally had some character development

but i just have a feeling thats not what this is, that hes doing this solely for the validation of his fuck ass boyfriend

and the thing is, i would feel bad if it was literally Anyone Else going through that, but he did the same thing to me, to his ex who is now my bestie, to my other friends who used to be friends with him, to anyone who’s ever known him honestly.

and i dont wish him ill anymore. i really dont, i could not care less, and this post will probably be the last time i ever think about him because i really could not care about him less at this point, but its insane to me that he used to be so like firm in his opinion that men who were feminine werent real men, and he actively enjoyed making me feel like shit for being too feminine, and now he’s doing the same thing he used to make fun of me for.

maybe im just salty because i never got a real apology from him, but at this point i dont even want an apology from him because i know that it would be more akin to colleen ballinger’s “toxic gossip train” video than a real apology

well i think ive yapped on about this enough if u read all the way here thanks lol

[emoflutterguy]

hi im alive

read more if u wanna hear me yap about where ive been in 2025 so far

sorry if i scared any of my beloved mutuals by going basically dead for the past 5 months, it was my final semester of my senior year of high school and i really wanted to finish off strong so i put most of my energy towards doing just that. and boy have i, let me tell u im finishing off with all A’s, exempting out of all my exams, so im done with high school now even though i dont graduate for another week and a half!!

i also dyed my hair red. here are some excerpts

i also went to prom. i wanted to wear a suit but i pussied out because my boyfriend’s mom is kinda transphobic but whatever i still slayed in my dress

guys i didnt think i would get this far. first i was a kindergartener, then i was getting promoted from elementary school to middle school, then suddenly im a freshman and oh my god now im a senior and oh would u look at that im graduating. what the fawk.

i got the mental illness real bad so those of u out there who also didnt know what to do with urselves when u actually did make it that far, help ! please ! 😭🙏

all i can really make sense of my feelings now is : thank god its over. worst 4 years of my life

[emoflutterguy]

made this for a friend who i might have a platonic crush on ,,, this is one of his characters who i thought looked cool so i drew him :3

[emoflutterguy]

new pfp moment

ft my rendition of flutterguy

[emoflutterguy]

just wound up all my yarn into cakes. i cant feel my ass but at least my comically large yarn collection is neat

[emoflutterguy]

just painstakingly wrote out the song lyrics to 4 different songs, one on each side, on the soles of an old pair of vans given to me by an ex boyfriend. the lyrics come from these songs:

no children - the mountain goats (left shoe, inside sole)

drunk drivers, killer whales - car seat headrest (left shoe, outside sole)

high to death - car seat headrest (right shoe, inside sole)

sober to death - car seat headrest (right shoe, outside sole)

yes i am mentally ill and no that relationship did not go well

[emoflutterguy]

i showed u my wenis please respond