#for a while anyway like. emil definitely does genuinely get attached to absinthe it just comes from a different place

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it's hard for absinthe to look at emil sometimes. knowing they are around the same age but absinthe was allowed to grow even if via severely imperfect means, but emil is. hes always going to be the young boy who was experimented on & hurt repeatedly until everyone around him died. he feels guilty for being allowed to move on from that part of their life while emil isnt & emil cant even remember it until the lab... & when emil technically gets to move on from that body, from being that small abused boy, instead he has to live wearing his sister's face. his sister who no longer got to look like herself a very long time ago, instead resembling an actual horrifying monster. absinthe often feels his own life has gone far too smoothly compared to emil & halua. to everyone he knows, really. it weighs on him heavily

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omg for the f/o asks i would like to hear more abt absinthe/weiss or hildemet or hilde & hancock

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sorry if thats too much i am the Mr curious

>:) you will get answers for all of these & all of them because i'm sick in the head. Mr curious & mr insanity- wait thats someone else. stream dpr ian i guess!!

under cut bc you know me this will be long

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2 - How did you and your f/o come to know each other prior to your relationship? Was it an extended slowburn or a near-immediate whirlwind affair?

good lird.

absinthe & weiss: well. what absinthe expected: an antagonistic book he may or may not end up fighting while having very mixed feelings about it due to knowing how that book came to even be. what he got: a grumpy pretentious dick who is clearly a good person at heart. it was absolutely a slow burn & weiss considered him a ditz for a little while but was a bit taken aback by how surprisingly knowledgeable & dependable absinthe turned out to be. they met bc absinthe took some of the forest of myth inhabitants' deathdream (or deathdroom if you prefer) onto himself thinking he'd be completely immune to it & ended up sunk into a really deep deathdream, & obviously nier & weiss went in there to save him like they did everyone else. i think Something clicked really quickly with them but it wasn't like. romantic in nature to begin with. it developed that way they just get on well no matter what

hildegarde & emet: 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 sorry i felt compelled. i mean look at shadowbringers. what the fuck ever. they're. i mean they sure know each other before dating. & i mean it's not a slow burn exactly. it's. emet yearns for him the moment he recognises the soul colour. emet also gets weirdly attached to him independently from that. emet does not like that. hildegarde ends up relying on & trusting him more than he does the scions even after the "betrayal". emet teaches him black magic. hildegarde really wishes they didn't have to fight in the end & truly genuinely wishes there was another option. & they're getting married anyway #mydeusexmachina

hildegarde & hancock: they actually grew close surprisingly quickly considering the walls both of them put up?? which is probably why tbh. hilde found him really charming & charismatic, which no one really understood lmfao, & hancock wasnt particularly intimidated knowing this was the warrior of light eikon slayer blablablah bc he Looked Pretty Pathetic & he found the contrast really endearing. it wasn't explicitly romantic until post endwalker though. & they spent a LOT of time together before that! very much & slow burn & hancock was aware of his own feelings for a long time there. hilde wasnt. he doesnt know jackkk shitttt

3 - Who was the one to pursue the relationship? Was it even reciprocated at first? Was it a big deal, or did you instead forgo a "confession" and one day just quietly acknowledge that you're basically a couple?

absinthe & weiss: definitely not one-sided. i don't actually think either of them "pursued" a relationship per se, it kinda just. happened. when absinthe tells emil about his feelings for weiss emil kinda just goes "oh... i thought you guys were a thing already..." & absinthe has to reckon with that. this of course leads to emil (& later kainé.) making attempts at matchmaking but less "getting them together" way & more "getting them to acknowledge they are together" way. & they do that by teasing the shit out of both of them in various ways. kainé can & will weaponise this during arguments with weiss & they have to get a tantrum hole for him within a week. you know the tantrum hole. from the flaming skull comic. this but for weiss. his rectangle tantrum hole

hildegarde & emet: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH head in my hands. it was "reciprocated" but they felt about each other in very different ways despite it being love on both ends. GESTURES TOWARD SHB. they did not get together then at all Obviously. they lived pretty much like a couple once emet came back but it did take them having an (imperfect) actual conversation about Things for them to really... get anywhere. it's a mess in there

hildegarde & hancock: theeee one-sided pininggggg which was actually not that one-sided hilde just hadn't thought about it that hard bc for the longest time he was perfectly fine being best friends who fuck. at some point it became that & also something else & he wasn't sure what to do about it so he did nothing. a LOT of shit happened between 6.5 & 7.0 tho bc emet came back + they had enough development to actually get together + hancock was straightforward about his own feelings & they also got together + working out a stable solution between the three of them?? (which is just making sure hancock & emet get along which they do surprisingly well happy throuple thriday yay) hancock kept it to himself for a while bc the notion of courting the warrior of light felt way beyond him bc he's not nearly as important in the grand scheme of things & he's overall relatively content with how things are but he, as he liked to call it, decided to be selfish for once & ask for a bit more of the wol's time despite him being needed to save the world & whatnot. & hilde was basically like :0 whoa! i hadnt thought about it like that before! let me ask my gay thing at home

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1 - What terms of endearment do you and your f/o use for each other? Are there any particular nick/petnames that get used depending on specific contexts?

absinthe & weiss: lol. absinthe calls him sir pages when being overtly reverent (& completely genuinely too. like this is serious shit for him. everyone is fucking embarrassed bc that's cringe as hell) & otherwise calls him every nickname he finds nice enough. weissy is of course one that comes to mind... weiss usually calls him a hopeless dolt which is correct & yes it functions as a petname for him. you know how he gets. oh he also calls him a charlatan at times

hildegarde & emet: ah hah hah... flattery will get you nowhere, dear boy... 🚬 that aside. of course we get dears. emet isn't actually much for petnames but azem functions as one due to being a thing pretty much only he & hildegarde know about in as much depth as they do. & ofc hilde being. well. him. he uses it both when he's annoyed & when he feels like establishing to everyone in the room they have a special connection. like how i say my wife. grins. hilde gets so fucking smug when he realises that's what's happening on the other hand hildegarde is reaaally fucking annoying with petnames oooh my love my light sweetheart darling... they actually do share some of these (emet can say sweetheart & darling sometimes. but only sometimes. he has to be feeling real tender & willing to be more openly affectionate which he's actually a bit shy about a fair amount of the time. died & reverted to his ancient self in a lot of ways i fear just with a shit ton of trauma added & all that) but hilde uses them way more liberally now there's bedroom-exclusive petnames & they are entirely based on what hilde likes to be called. like doll. kinda shit emet says if he wants hilde to stop arguing over inconsequential shit

hildegarde & hancock: nobody wants to know the fucking petnames hancock can come up with. NOBODY. but he does. you know his ass uses hingan terms of endearment too. "my dear hildegarde" wasn't enough they told him go big or go home & he went unnecessarily big. sadly hildegarde finds it cute & calls him a lot of annoying petnames too but love is the most recurring one

7 - What circumstances are cause for celebration between you and your f/o? ex. Birthdates, anniversaries, holidays, accomplishments etc.? How do you like to celebrate these occasions?

absinthe & weiss: in post-canon they definitely celebrate emil & yonah's birthdays. absinthe & weiss push for celebrating nier & kainé's as well, & since neither of them know their own birthdays absinthe & weiss' birthdays end up getting celebrated on the same day which happens to be the day the gang got them to fully out loud say alright yes fine maybe we are married by vibes. now having lived as long as he has & knowing all that he knows absinthe is very particular about dates. it's not really celebrations much but he does go out & visit certain places every year to honour them & what happened there, like the shadowlord's castle or the lab. & eventually weiss starts tagging along

hildemet+hancock: emet is a lot more fussy about dates than he would care to admit... in part because he has a reason to care about time passing now. things don't blend in like they used to. he's very mindful of anniversaries & birthdays, though not particularly his own. was actually quite content when hancock "pressured" hildegarde into picking a birthdate since he didn't know his own, so he could "have one date to send him gifts for rather than sending them the whole year round" (it does not stop him it was an excuse for them to have something to celebrate). special modern au note that they celebrate all big jewish holidays 💥

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1 - Are you and your f/o subject to difficulties in your relationship? Does this angst take the form of interpersonal problems, or bigger circumstances happening around the two of you?

absinthe & weiss: i honestly can't really imagine them legitimately arguing... like, weiss is horrified when absinthe drains his own lifeforce to save others but he does consider it to be worth it so he can't be too upset. & absinthe doesn't like arguing. they're weirdly stable considering the people that they are

hildegarde & emet: (scared smile) they need to stop putting hildegarde in life or death situations man. the current biggest strain in their relationship is that he keeps ending up nearly getting himself killed & comes home an amorphous blob more often than not (the more his aether drains the more he struggles to maintain his form). they bicker a fair bit & have a LOT. of baggage. but it never comes anywhere close to earth shattering final days divorce

hildegarde & hancock: sighhh. they don't like to be verbally vulnerable with each other..... problems ensue. biggest difference is that hildegarde fucking despises lolorito & deeply deeply wishes hancock understood that poverty isn't the only bad thing that's happened to him. but it also took hildegarde a very long time to tell hancock literally anything about him (like. post shb) despite how much hancock's seen him get all fucked up. they have had pretty bad arguments though which seems uncharacteristic for them with hancock's whole thing being about keeping the peace with Everyone & hildegarde being a bit of a doormat by nature. hancock Did try protecting hildegarde exactly once, got hurt about it, & he had never seen hildegarde this mad before nor has he seen hildegarde this mad since. & it takes a lot for hildegarde to be outright furious

6 - If your f/o suffers a terrible fate in their source, did you nyx the angst altogether to give them a happy story? Does your f/o come from an otherwise normal story and you chose to pile on the angst voluntarily?

(smiles) what do you think :3

as with all things i stick to canon & simply elaborate or stack things on top so the impact of everything remains relatively the same. i absolutely hate undermining the impact of things like character death if they happen for a reason that i can get with (you know, unlike yotsuyu & other such cases) just because i want a character to live. i have to find much more convoluted ways for them to live in the end, because i'll be real i genuinely think hildegarde would've died in post shadowbringers if he didn't have emet in his head for a while, & it has to fit canon to a degree. that said

absinthe & weiss: didn't nyx anything, i merely gave him a freaky ass powerful wizard-scientist who can & will give him a physical vessel to avoid him evaporating into the general atmosphere LMAO. i don't think i added much angst it's mostly just the consequences of absinthe as a character. the angst comes from what he knows & what he's been through, & the fact that he knows things about weiss' past that weiss doesn't AND that weiss cares about him enough that seeing absinthe hurt affects him

hildegarde & emet: sighhh takes long drag. there's a shit ton of angst in canon & i added a shit ton of angst on top of that because hildegarde is just... so miserable for so so long. & emet is also so miserable. it kinda had to be all miserable for a while. but they get a happy ending bc i fucking said so!!!! #yaoiwin

hilde & hancock do actually get some added angst because it's funny LOL! get tormented blond man with the beautiful eyes!