#for my tagging purposes srysry

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korn desperately trying to find common ground with ink since she is pat’s other bestie and he just ends up saying “i was a lesbian, once.”

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good lord maybe im just a little crazy but bad buddy really just. god. my homosexual bestie pran has really really gotten to me. literally something something about the cycle of fated love and doom.

like. i think most people agree that the thing that sticks out with bad buddy compared to others that it does such a good job with showing that characters have a history together rather than just saying it and putting none of the work in it really does feel like pat and pran have known each other for so long and that they are so integral to one another outside of the basic haha they have been rivals since birth because their parents hate each other and all with like. idk other shows that want us to believe people have had this long and impactful relationship it is rarely there. like the people are literally strangers and nothing about their shared history has truly effected one another but pat and pran do very clearly remember each other in a way that informs how they act towards one another, you can see why they argue the way they do but also now why it is so easy for them to actually get along and be friendly

it especially shines with pran because he is so genuinely affected by things, because its always been him who's life getting all fucked up because of things that happen between him and pat like in the ep when he's just. miserable and crying under that bed while pat's dad is just going off about how 3 years ago pran always was following pat around and copying him and saying how he's just an awful and jealous boy and like pat's not agreeing but its been said, and even if pat doesnt believe that its something that pran does seem to believe, because he takes the blame and says its true and he's sorry and that he will leave so that he doesnt cause issues again which is like. god. and then the flashback happens about their misunderstanding 3 years ago with them getting along, even being more than friendly. its that exact thing pat's dad is calling pran jealous for and they are doing it together knowingly and having fun with it and then suddenly it gets ruined with parents showing up and pran's being transferred while pat stays and even though the flashback only shows pat being blamed by their friends for pran having to leave its so clear that pran feels the other way around, because he had to leave and he always needs to be ready to leave because he's the real problem and pat has seemed unaffected every time by whats happening so it has to be him like im assuming he wasnt supposed to play at the concert with pat specially and then being friends/in love with him ofc too but pran like going against his parents to do that with pat and all.

its something that has affected the way pran still is today, clearly, and the way pat responds is informed by that same history and it shows! their shared history has such a weight with it to them and they literally cant seem to escape each other (from birth, everything that happened in their childhood, pran transferring back without knowing theyd be at the same college, their friend groups always at each others throats, living across the hall from one another, etcetcetc) and they know that they will never be able to get away from one another but they are also scared that history will continue to repeat itself and they will be punished for their proximity to each other and the fondness but they cant do anything about it, because the connection is supposed to be there and they want it so bad but they feel doomed about what that means and like with them always saying stuff like you're my bad luck it always happens when i'm with you its just. they are so aware of it but truly arent making any moves to stop it from happening like always.

they’ve been forced to be rivals since birth so the only time they were ever allowed to spend together was when they were competing so its something that has become so truly important for both of them but neither are able to come out and say it. its all about this fucking competition its all about how their relationship is supposed to be all competing its all about how the love they shared in the last cycle was ruined at a music competition in highschool its all about well maybe maybe this time it will turn out different. there is just something so overwhelming for both of them AND me with them feeling like they are fated to be together but doomed to repeat a cycle that will never allow them to be.

and literally like everything i learn about pran and pat’s like shared history makes me evil. everything is so much. the fact they used to have a cans on a string to talk and pat’s kept it still despite pran being gone for 3 years and just threw it thru his window bcuz pran wldnt pick up his calls. pat keeping pran’s guitar safe all these years and waiting to give it back to him to see if he missed it missed playing wanted it back (easily read as if pran missed him missed what they had wanted him back). pat trying to make pran a guitar pick out of his student id and when pran wouldnt let him making it out of his own bcuz he really didnt want pran to get hurt (and it specifically being of his face which is just :|). pran’s repeated jealously over the same girl with pat, the flashback of him being so !!! when pat was like i’ll see you there and him getting that second drink only to hand both away to the first person he sees bcuz pat is in with her and he wasnt waiting specifically for pran like he had hoped. etcetc.

and then with ink... there is something that is just so much about her being introduced to be a point of conflict giving pran a bracelet she wanted to give him back then before he moved away and also having given pat one years ago so now they have matching ones with little 'p' charms followed by pran asking her if she liked pat and her saying no and that hes just a friend like pran and when she asks if pran wanted to know so he could hit on her and he avoids answering and struggles to find a reason as to why he wouldnt want to hit on her as an excuse because he cant just. come out and say why without having to truly confirm that he’s gay and has feelings for pat (which. basically happens at the end of this ep to himself. kms)

and the. god the ending of ep 4. i feel like shit!!! i really do!!! like them both asking if the other likes ink and pran is obviously so worried about the answer but so is pat and pran really thinks that the reason pat is worried is the same reason that pran is but the countdown happens and pran says no while pat says yes and pran just. seems so devastated. and then pat goes on to try and ask that if pran was her if he would like him and pran is like no you dont have good qualities why would i.

and then pat starts listing off things he's done for pran, rather than things that are just good about himself in general (which is like dude. cmon. even if pat doesnt really realize he wants to know if pran as himself would like him bcuz well. ur in love with him and u want him to like you back) and he keeps pushing it while pran is having flashbacks from highschool to present of all those moments and his eyes are glassy and pat is pushing and pushing would you like me would you like me and pran just goes i... hate you. and turns around

and for a moment it seems like pat is heartbroken bcuz for a second he really thought he would get the answer he wanted to hear much like pran before but he snaps back so fast and starts going like okay dude so mean<3 and says 'even i like myself' (which, arough bcuz pran very obviously hates himself and a handful of it stems from everything that has happened surrounding pat bcuz hes the one who has been punished the most by it all. i have a lot of thoughts about it obvi and im suffering) and then after a few seconds pran turns back around to look at pat and he's literally. you can see he started crying and then he covers his face to keep crying.

it sucks it sucks!!! he really thought for a moment that pat felt the same way back and then it felt like he was being mocked and he feels stupid and heartbroken bcuz for pran, the cycles of fated love and doom that come with his feelings towards pat is a one sided thing. its always completely his fault in his mind bcuz again, he's the one who's always losing. he had to move away, he's the one who's in love with him, he's the one who's misreading signals, he's the one who's like this while pat is just living his life and pran is what is causing all the problems bcuz the problem is and always will be pran's one sided feelings for pat. even if its like not true really, thats what is and always has been true to pran and i feel like shit and i wanna scream.

this is like probably incomprehensible nonsense i am just constantly full of feelings and thoughts about the cycles and fate and love and doom and my homosexual bestie pran.

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pran: korn is like a baikal seal to me......

pat: hey baby? what the hell does that mean?

pran: don't know how he got there.

pat: got where?

pran: ...my heart.