#genuinely sometimes forget that he dies bc it still doesnt feel real to me

[ellabswilliamson]

In my head Joel didn't actually die but fell into a coma for a few weeks. His recovery was super slow and rough, and he'll never be the same, but he's fine!

[ringmyheart]

Can I request Vin Jin boyfriend headcanons and some fluff? (You don't have to force yourself)

(This and the other vin jin rq were merged!)

Honestly the way I see it, it doesn’t matter if you’re a very calm person or outgoing person. No matter what this relationship is gonna end up being considerably chaotic

He ropes you into everything he does. Doesn’t matter if u r a design student or an architecture student or if ur on the opposite side of the school from him, u r practically in his class. Dating him is like signing a contract sealing away ur own life bc he makes it a point to be ALWAYS w u

In class he doesn’t gaf if the teacher has ur seat on the other end of class, he is somehow finding a way to sit next to u against ur will or not. And when the teacher moves u two away from eachother INTENTIONALLY bc of this, he is threatening whoever happened to sit next to u to trade seats w him. He will go as far as to dress up as them to make it look like they’re them to be next to u and he’s so dramatic ab it.... being away from u felt like u were star crossed lovers whom the world was fiercely against

And if UR against this cuz ur tired of getting in trouble in class, or if you reject any of his advances, he’s gonna be really, really, really offended. He will at first sputter and be kinda shy and embarrassed about it, before he goes “fine! Have fun on your own without me, the greatest thing in your fucking life!”

He move seats back and will glare at you periodically every five minutes to pavlov dog you so that every five minutes every day, even when he’s not there, you feel the burning stare of vin jin

If you’re his s/o, he’ll buy you a matching pair of sunglasses so ur the freshest looking couple around Seoul (they’re hideous and thick but he thinks u look fly)

The glasses don’t have nearly as many layers as his does for himself so u can see, and u wonder how he managed to make them just as bulky and if he did it on purpose to sabotage u. Like “did u make my glasses purposefully ugly so no one else will want me?”

U have to dodge a punch after saying anything like that ab his fashion decisions LMAOAO

He’s rlly proud of u two matching. With the glasses and anything in general. He’ll make you wear a jacket matching his, or the same shoes and he will stop people in the hall and be like “wait. Notice anything cool ab us today?? Cooler than normal??”

And when they don’t respond he boasts “that’s right!! Me and my other half r matching. Look at us and weep, losers.” He thinks u two look so good....... if ur enthusiastic ab wearing matching things too he is elated u have to pray that tomorrow he won’t show up w another “if lost return to Vin Jin” “I’m Vin Jin” pair of jackets or anything of the like bc it happens SO OFTEN

And on the topic of sharing when it’s cold he likes to share jackets and blankets w u. Ur desks r moved by eachother by vin jin himself and u two share one blanket over u and shiver bc he just likes it, sharing w u plus he’s slightly warmer. And yes if you guys had indivizual blankets you would be warmer, but u guys have to struggle together he doesn’t care what anyone says (yes even ur protests ur sharing that one blanket wether he has to wrap it around u himself and tear up the one u brought on ur own or what”

He is so blind in love that he cannot tell when u guys suck at stuff. Like if ur in the wrong he doesnt care ur RIGHT and he’s taking that to the grave. He can belittle u and call u out but if someone else says ur in the wrong it’s on sight

Will die protecting ur name even when ur the one who was genuinely wrong

He forces u to make a beat for him to rap to. He loves rapping and wants to enjoy it w u, so ur forcefed YouTube videos of how to beatbox so u can be his bgm and eventually u probably just start to enjoy it to

And u always start a beat and he starts busting out rhymes and it’s SO BAD. It doesn’t matter if ur good at beatboxing if vin Jin is on the track w u it’s gonna sound terrible he brings the quality down immensely but u two just cannot tell

Like after a two session ur like “omg... that was so good. We should go pro?” “Fuck yea we should we’re better than those posers” “we could rlly make it in the industry fr” no u absolutely could not

During the school festival, u sang with him and it was SO bad. Half the crowd is gonna have 2 be hospitalized but u two had FUN up on the stage

Like I said, he has absolute faith in u. All u do is right. If ur driving a car for the first time, he is going to be ur little hype man doesn’t matter if u suck. U hit a curb and he went “YES babe!! Ur killing it cant wait till u hit the road bby” Ur not allowed to touch a car for the next two years now bc he kept cheering u on when u we’re doing CLEARLY wrong things

On a plane u r looking for the bathroom like pensively and u see a handle and look back and r like “is this it???” And vin jin thinking u r all righteous will go “yea babe go for it” and u open it and u depressurizate the cabin immediately

Now both on like 5 no fly lists

He loves to do things with u, like I mentioned earlier, and things he wouldn’t do alone he’ll do w u. Like drawing alone?? Boring. Drawing w Y/N??!!! Who knows what could happen..... so much fun could ensue. Maybe he will draw u cutely. Maybe he will draw u so ugly u will be forced to engage in a fight.

He likes to play just dance w u and compete for the “greats/all star!” Little titles above, and it becomes like a Friday night ritual for u two to turn just dance on and just go at it. But sometimes he’ll get too intense and suddenly he’s actually fighting for the chance to beat u. Will trip u so u lose on purpose

He makes u listen to him sing and rap to u. And u try to leave and he hugs tightly and is like LISTEN IFS FOR U, DONT BE UNGRATEFUL and now u have to listen

He makes u a mixtape of songs he made himself and they are all considerably worse than “remember the times we had”. It’s uploaded on SoundCloud and all the comments r hate and u listen to it a lot bc u know he loves u sm he made u a mixtape ya ur gonna play that but everyone else hates it w a passion

Like the comments r like:

Daniel: well.... it’s definitely a song 😅 I’m glad you love (y/n) so much!

Duke: he’s not making it out the hood 😐

Zach: never let this man in a studio AGAIN

Mary: this should’ve stayed in the CD

(Y/N): love it! 😍

Zoe: kill your producer 💀

Mira: ...

He’s overprotective too

If someone looks at u for more than a second he’ll go “what?? U think she is hot, huh? I’ll kick ur ass fucking perv.... cmon babe let’s go”

Will throw his arm around u and streer u the opposite way of any potentially good looking ppl to keep ur eyes on him

Oh Daniel is coming?? What a coincidence u and vin Jin suddenly have to turn the corner to the other way of ur classroom for some reason

Eli is near?!!! Oh no u just got milk spilt in ur eye!! Oh no now he has to wipe ur eyes and u two have to leave the cafeteria whatever will he do

It’s not that he doesn’t have faith in u, he doesn’t have faith in other men. Like he thinks they r all competition, and doesn’t doubt ur loyalty rather doubts how good he can b for u

WILL beat someone up for u. If someone smokes while ur around suddenly his fists r swinging at them cuz even if u smoke or vape urself no one else can get that stuff in ur lungs but YOU or HIM!!

If ur crossing the street and a car almost hits u, it’s the cars fault and he’s kicking the license plate and cursing it out for almost touching u “stupid fucking piece of metal”

Is the type of boyfriend to call u when he knows ur in an Uber and be like “babe u got ur gun w u right?? Oh don’t forget ur BOMB and ur MACHETE!! Yeah just left the house I killed some ppl nbd haha anyways HRU what’s ur Uber driver like” so the driver of ur car won’t even think ab kidnapping u. He has got ur back even when u do not want it

He doesn’t want u to see his eyes, so he’ll tell you to look away so he can take his glasses off and look at u in full color in all ur glory but he never tells u WHY he’s telling u to look away u think it’s a weird thing of his, or he’s insecure ab his face which is partially true but really he’s taking his glasses off and just looking at u. Adoringly.....

He hates PDA. He loves PDA. Do u see his dilemma

Like he loves PDA but doesn’t want anyone seeing him vulnerable even u.... so he’ll hold ur hand and be like “EWWW WHAT R U DOING GET YR HAND OFF MINE”

If u take the lead THATS best bc he can blame it on u and it’s ur fault he HAS to lock fingers w u cuz u did it to him first and he has an excuse to touch u and v like u started this im just sending u ur own energy back 😤

The type to be just like blind, overwhelmed in love. Always thinks ab u, always wants to be w u, worries ab u a lot and frets over u without showing it.... he hates it and loves it to death. Despises it but wouldn’t give it up for anything in the world

Eats lunch w u in the cafeteria and if u sit w someone else u r the ultimate traitor and he will trash talk u to hide his hurt to Mary the entire lunchtime. Kinda possessive.... wants u to also only think about him

WOULDNT EVER fight u for real. Play fights occur VERY often, like pillow fights, tripping ur foot when u say a joke insulting him, grabbing ur collar but he would sooner die than lay a finger on u

Verbal fights happen a lot and if he ever like LOSES it he may lash out and almost hit u and follow thru. I don’t think he’d be able to catch himself that quickly, and if he ever did he’d regret it for the rest of his life. Literally until the day dies he will take it to his grave

He may not sputter out apologieswill just look at u incredulously and then at his hands because what had he done? What did he just do? To you???????? (Y/n))))?????? His (y/n)??? Light of his life?

Will apologize probably over text or through a note or call, and if u don’t respond he is consumed by regret and tries to find u instantly like runs back to ur place

If u forgive him he feels bad still, because does he deserve it? And he might just isolate himself for a bit bc he can’t face u and if it left a scar he is dead inside. It kills him, literally

I could go on w this but I’ll probably save it for another separate pair of hcs later 😭

If u guys ever break up he will fight for u again and won’t stop till ur back together like flowers in ur locker every day, chocolate give during lunch, etc. He wont ever give up hope that he can win u over again and be w u again. He would keep trying, when he wakes up his first thought is ur name in a cold panic bc he can’t rest easy till ur his again and he will try and show off and poorly serenade u and trash his price and be corny and cheesy to get u back

Will set up a performance w the school to let him rap w a mic during lunch for u and he’s saying bars like “(read in bad rapping voice w inconsistent beat) (y/n), love of my life, uh, without you I’d die, uh. Please won’t you take me back? Yuh, without you ima have a heart attack. (Wha!). (Y/n), love of my life, yeah, without you I’m in strife, yup! Please be mine again, (babe), I can never rest till then.”

If the embarrassment doesn’t make u take him back so he’ll pls stop, and when he stands up on the lunch tables to do a little performance doesn’t do it either, then the odd sincerity of his voice and pain in his look (even tho while rapping he sticks out his lower lip in a weird pout) definitely, hopefully will

U make everything worth it !! Truly the light of his life

I hope these were what u wanted, I just had fun w them and wrote stuff that came off the top of my head when I thought of VJ!! ❤️

[everybrook]

Brook's souls wandered around after his death and was able to resurrect himself, even though he was just bones... Is Brook technically immortal?

i have a lot of thoughts and headcanons about Brook’s quasi-immortality so, first off, thank you for this ask! second off, i’m very unorganized w how i explain things, so i apologize in advance. now, here’s what i think

- it can be assumed that the yomi yomi no mi will only bring the user back once, if only because Brook already knew what the fruit did before he ate it. that means someone else had to have had it once and died, letting it respawn. so Brook probably won’t just keep coming back. im sure Brook is fine w that tho, bc he seems like someone who would absolutely hate being immortal. do you know how many crews he’d lose? i don’t know if he could do that shit a second time

- of course, Brook’s soul is stronger than most souls! he can take out “fake souls” by pure force of will, power a dead body with no other real “power source” (when he was on the florian triangle, i imagine he probablt didn’t eat a whole lot. if all the bodies rotted to nothing, all the food probably did, too. brook must not need food, otherwise he would have died again), and purposely detach from his body and move around on his own. you could argue that this may very well mean Brook would be strong enough to, if he so desired, turn around if he died. of course, his soul is visibly tethered to his body when he does this, so it’s unclear if he would actually be able to control it still when he dies again. this is probably not something Brook will want to test, though

- as i mentioned earlier, Brook probably doesn’t need to eat, but he can. his soul can replicate most normal bodily functions, but i don’t think it necessarily has to. a while back someone sent me an ask suggesting everything he does—eating, sleeping, breathing—is completely voluntary. i agree! and Brook, being someone who has been alone for so long, probably decides to voluntarily breathe, eat, etc because everyone else does. it’s a connection to other people! he likes being included in stuff! (i think he also sometimes forgets he can opt out of this sort of thing...)

- example: Brook is strangled and decapitated. he chokes when strangled, but losing his head doesn’t. inhibit his breathing, or kill him. he doesn’t need to breathe, because he’s powered by his soul, not by oxygen. usually, though, he still chooses to. he wants to be included!

- other example: on punk hazard Brook falls victim to sleeping gas (either bc he forgets he doesn’t have to, or bc the gas took out everyone else and he doesn’t want to be left out/alone. depends how sad you want to be!), later, however, Brook is able to rescue Kine’mon when Kine’mon falls victim to a different gas without being affected himself. (if i’m remembering right, the other gas worked by affecting the skin, so it might just be that Brook didn’t have the skin for it to matter, but...) (it’s also like. an off panel thing, so i don’t know that Brook actually ran into the gas (it’s not rlly addressed), but i’m assuming given that. he sort of had to in order to retrieve Kine’mon since Kine’mon was in it)

- what i think makes this pretty clear is that Brook actually admits to faking some stuff to be included! when asked why he took a coat despite the fact he can’t feel cold, he admits he did so because he wanted to join in feeling cold with everyone else

- the only maybe-exception to this would be exhaustion. Brook gets tired regularly. most of his fights seem to end when he realizes he’s out of energy rather than when he’s in pain. i guess even soul power is not infinite. in his original fight with Ryuma, he seems more like he cedes defeat when realizes he can’t defend himself / his hair from Ryuma. it’s not injury that makes him give up, even though Ryuma fractured a piece of his skull.

- Brook’s soul-powered body has other effects as well! he’s immune to a lot of stuff other people arent, and so is much more durable and harder to kill.

- it’s unclear to me if Brook can really feel physical pain. this one is also hard to deal with since shonen characters always have high pain tolerance, but brook doesn’t really react to pain like he should? if he can feel pain, i think he feels it differently than other people. as mentioned, he was stabbed through his eye socket by Ryuma and didn’t seem too affected by it. despite the fact he can see, he was more by his skull cracking. being decapitated doesnt hurt, being shocked is easily walked off. again, i don’t know for sure. it’s hard to tell if this is Shonen Pain Tolerance or genuine inability to feel pain like others do. but, as mentioned, Brook usually seems exhausted after fights rather than hurt. he usually cedes defeat due to admitting a difference in skill rather than actual suffering.

- you can run an electric current through Brook (nami has more than once), you can “dehydrate” him (a guy tried at fishman island) and he’ll be fine (so he probs can’t die of thirst), you can decapitate him and he’ll put his head back on. i assume he could reattach limbs and be fine as well, should the need arise. he regularly tears his own head in half to store things inside. he can’t be affected by poison because there’s nothing TO affect, and he probably can’t get most sicknesses. he can’t feel cold, so he probably can’t freeze to death. with the fact he’s still active and agile at the age of 90, i don’t know that aging really affects him. when aged down in film z, he says the only difference is his hair is nicer. Brook’s bones can be cracked and he’ll put them back together with milk! Brook says the only way to kill him is to destroy his body, but how destroyed is enough? if you break his bones he can fix them! if you cut Brook into pieces, could he still be healed? how small would you have to go till he died? if you ground him to dust, would he die, or could you pour milk on him and find he’d reassemble himself? you could probably burn him, but honestly at this point i don’t know if id bet on it. the only reliable method with which one can kill Brook is to drown him. that might be his only weakness. Brook might be literally fucking unstoppable

(- also, this is just a personal headcanon i find relevant and not smth canon-supported, but i like the idea that sea water affects Brook differently than other DF users since he doesn’t have lungs and doesn’t necessarily need to breathe. Brook doesn’t drown when submerged, and instead the sea slowly erodes the yomi yomi no mi’s connection of soul and body. sapping the strength taken further, the sea instead literally saps his life away. the end result is the same, though, and after a few minutes held under water Brook is dead.)

- and these are my thoughts on Brook’s quasi-immortality. ive been looking for an excuse to make this post for a while, so thank you!

[jess-oh]

Reflection

It is currently 1:13am and I know that I should just go to sleep and last year, I totally would have but I have some things that I want to get done first. I wasn’t originally going to write one of these today but I do think that it’s important that I start to process everything that’s happened over the past few days.

Robbin’s death hit me really hard. Especially knowing that they pulled the plug on his life. No one saw it coming. He just suddenly had a seizure, a heart attack, and died. And not one person thought this could ever happen. Sometimes I forget that it happened bc it just seems so crazy that it actually happened. But this is real. And now he’s gone. But it was really nice talking to Loren today bc she told me that he actually ended up dying naturally. His heart just stopped beating around 6am on Saturday morning. And that actually made me feel extremely relieved. I’m happy that he got to go in his own time. When I first heard that they were going to pull the plug and donate his organs, I was so heartbroken. Because that last fleeting bit of hope that I had was just snatched away from me so quickly. They were going to get rid of that chance of survival. So the fact that he got to leave in his own time was really encouraging for me. But I didn’t want him to die in vain. This morning, I was still a little depressed but managed to roll out of bed and get ready for the day. I was sad that Dana didn’t come today but it’s almost better that she did. Because I don’t know if I’m ready to tell Dana about Robbin yet. Oh, I did take the chance to talk to Angela yesterday though and she was surprisingly attentive and I can tell that she really does have a heart for the ministry and I am really glad. I thought about confessing to her my fears towards her before but I decided against. Maybe sometime in the future. But it wasn’t the right moment. Anyway, I felt like a soldier today. Moreso on my way home. But I did. This morning, we got into the van like any other day and it was fine. And I really tried to lift my hands to Jesus and just praise Him and really not care about what anyone else did or saw. I just wanted to pour out my heart because I needed to and I didn’t really care what anyone else thought. And honestly, I was a bit distracted and couldn’t fully focus during service but post service was great! I excitedly got awesome food, joined Daniel to whom I don’t usually talk to but I definitely want to invest into him this year and make sure he’s okay. I’m pretty sure he’s a victim of peer pressure and drinking at school and I want to drill into his head that I’m here for him and he shouldn’t feel so alone and ashamed over it. I am here for him. Ready to listen. And I understand his struggle. I actually thought about speaking up about how I struggled with alcohol at the beginning of the school year when P. Josh brought it up today but there wasn’t really time to respond. I don’t think he wanted a response either. But I do want Daniel to know that I am here for him. I’m trying really hard to invest into people this year. Not just because of the resolve that I made at winter retreat but mostly because of Robbin. He passed away and I don’t know if he ever accepted Christ into his life and I don’t want to make that same mistake again. I want to make sure that all the people in my life that I love and care about know who He is bc that’s the greatest gift of all. And I’m sure I’m going to lose some friends along the way which I’m actually really afraid of but I can start with making that culture shift at Lakeview. But yeah, back to lunch. We were eating and I really wanted to invest and dedicate my attention to the people I was sitting next to. People that I didn’t usually talk to. I asked Amanda about her mission trip and we shared our joy for the field together. I encouraged Claire to come to the lock-in. I asked Daniel how his week was. I invited more people to join us. It was really nice. And during college hour today, we did a Bible study and I was separated from Claire and instead talked to Johnny and his friend Albert. Which was good bc I actually wanted to talk to Johnny more anyway. But after we finished discussing the Word, I asked him about whether or not he would come to the lock-in and man, I really wish I just prayed in that moment when I wanted to but I didn’t. I just said that I would pray for him and I will. But I asked him about why he didn’t want to go to the lock-in and what’s been going on in his life recently and I think he’s entering a dry season and I just really encouraged him to come—and not for his friends but so that he could really take the time to rekindle his relationship with God. He doesn’t need to get straight with God before coming to the lock-in. God wants him to come as he is and I don’t know what’s weighing down his heart and I don’t think he knows either but I do pray that he would just be able to confess and give it up to the Lord and let him take care of it. And I really genuinely meant what I said. And I asked if we could hangout sometime in the future and he suggested spring break so we’re aiming for that rn. I’m hoping we can hangout sooner like before the lock-in but regardless, I want to grow deeper in my relationship with him. Eunice and Jason too. Eunice ended up coming to church today and I’ve been playing dumb and I feel so bad about it. I know that she doesn’t want to come out to Movement bc most everyone knows about what happened and I’m just doing my best to reach out to her and meet with her one-on-one. I know that she doesn’t want to tell me bc she feels a lot of shame. I don’t know exactly what she’s going through or why she went to such far lengths to pretend to be a student at Northwestern since last semester. I don’t know. Maybe she needed to leave home bc she found herself in a toxic situation. And for a long time I just saw her as one of the “popular people” at Sa-Rang but it’s not that at all. Now I actually see her as human and for who she is. And I can’t even imagine the pain that she’s currently enduring through or the shame that she must feel. The fact that she’s still coming out to Lakeview at all is amazing in itself. And I feel terrible. And I want nothing more than to be there for her and allow her to open herself up to me and confess everything that she’s done over the past year in her own time. I don’t want to force her too and I don’t want her to feel any worse than she already does bc word spread and I know now too. Because I am not judging her for it. Not at all. In fact, I just want to be there for her and love upon her and show her what true unconditional love and compassion looks like. And more than anything, i want her to confront these things and confess and repent to the Lord. And get closure. And that’s why I think it’s so important for her to come to the lock-in. I just really want to pour my heart out onto her and let her know just how much God truly loves her for who she is and doesn’t care about all her mistakes and sin. He loves her just as she is. And He wants nothing more than for her to just come back home. But I’m also trying to meet up with Jason and I pushed it again today and now we’re meeting sooner, which is gr9!!!! We’re actually meeting the day before I get paid so I am a bit worried about money but hopefully it’ll be okay. Or I’ll just get something really small. But I remember Jason said that he’s depressed too so he gets what I’m going through and at first, I was eager to deny my depression and was almost offended that he called me depressed. But I was. And I still am. And it sucks. And I’m hoping that we can share life together and help build each other up when we get to meet up. 

And finally, I really want to fly in for Robbin’s funeral out of respect and not obligation and just to be with family and mourn together. But there’s really no good time to do it. If we do it this week, I’ll miss my membership service on Sunday. If we do it next week, I’ll miss Movement’s lock-in and won’t be able to really love and pray for my fellow brothers and sisters. If it was the week after that, that’d be ideal but it seems pretty unlikely to do it so far into the future. Sigh. One way or the other, I have to make a sacrifice. I do think I would rather miss the membership service because there’s always next time than to miss the opportunity of really loving upon Eunice, Jason, Johnny, Daniel, Dana, Angela, and so many more people. 

and real quick before I head out for the night, yesterday, Saturday, I had a one-on-one with Pastor Josh and he was surprisingly understanding. And I told him about my depression and my cousin passing away and everything and even my asperger’s which i almost never ever ever mention bc i’m pretty ashamed of it. but i did. and he understood and just wanted to encourage me. and i was a little bit triggered when he mentioned how when he offers to pay for food, that’s him genuinely wanting to pay and i was yelled of embarrassment. but it is interesting. for angela, she doesnt like to accept money bc of pride. for me, i feel like a burden. and that’s just something we both need to work on. it would have been so much cheaper for me and easier on my bank account if i just let pastor josh treat but i refused. but i am really glad that we got to talk and spend some time together. i was actually getting a bit scared that we wouldn’t be able to meet.