#grandparents is goooooood

[hidinhaydn]

Goooooood

It's almost 2am here and the birds are chirping so beautifully

It's the same bird I used to hear chirp outside the window at my grandparents' summer house the summer nights I spent there when my grandma would read me fairytales to fall asleep to, and the sky outside was pink, and the sheets were so fluffy and my feet were cold.

I slammed my head on the angled wood ceiling a lot on accident because my bed was pushed back to the corner of the room.

God I love hearing just one sound and remembering those nights. I feel very lucky to have these memories, they're some of the most precious things I have.

[hollandsmoose]

LIIIISTEN i was born before my parents got married but my younger siblings weren’t so when my grandparents gave us money for the holidays i always got less bc i was assigned bastard at birth in my grandmothers eyes 😂🤙🏼

OH MY GOOOOOOOD SCSJSHSK WHAT THE FUCK

mate, i'm actually like ???? that's so mean of her shsjsjsjs

[egotheplanet]

Lemme TELL YALL,,,

My mama MY BABE my LOVE my WHOLE HEART

My motheR!!!!

Had my sister and myself when she was 19-22 !!! A YOUNGIN!!!

My dad was in the marines and he was a MAJOR PIECE OF SHIT ! Beat her, cheated on her, even beat on her while she held my older sister (as a baby), spat on her, and verbally abused her too

So my mom was unbelievably strong and DIVORCED HIM !! WHAT A FUCKING QUEEN I CANT BELIEVE IT SHES AMAZING!! I was only a very very small and new baby and have no memory of ANY of this but here we go

He (being the absolute piece of shit he is) refused to pay child support. Even going as far as to move to North Carolina (we live in Florida) to avoid it and us. My mom, still super young and living with my grandparents and two very young babies didn’t wanna chase him for the $. She was scared, understandably so! Every few years we’d run into him and she’d get into a panic! I remember a specific instance when we were at fuckin Walmart of all places and he walked past us with his new girlfriend. She gripped my hand to the cart so fuckin tight omg I still remember the grip what like 14 years later?! He didn’t even recognize me. My sister? He recognized her and wanted to ruffle her hair and my mom was all “Fuck you!” And we BOUNCED!

Fast forward to now. 2019 ! My mom is fucking amazing. She works in child protective investigations (not the crappy one that hurt families or steal kids, she investigates abuse and such) and we have our own place! Have had it for almost 7 years now!!

The thing is... now my sister and I are 18 and 20 ! So we are ADULTS. My dad very recently tried to contact ME. Last year. And I know that seems like forever ago for a lotta people but for someone who never ever had a father, that’s a recent sighting for me. I was naive and really wanted a whole family so I gave him the time of day. Very skeptical but wanting it desperately. He took me to get food, clothes, shoes — ANYTHING I WANTED. but I’m not an idiot. I knew he was using the money he kept for himself rather than giving my mother. I knew he didn’t REALLY want anything to do with me. I would go home after he took me out for ice cream and bullshit and tell my mom. I’d tell her what he’d say and she’d clarify what was really going on Behind the Scenes™️ so to speak. I remember how he would ask about my sister. Ashlynn this. Ashlynn that. How’s Ashlynn? What’s she up to? Now my sister was barely old enough at the time to remember some of what he did. She wanted NOTHINNNNNG to do with him when he popped up out of nowhere wanting to be our pal our buddy our friend. So I told him the truth, “She actually doesn’t want me to talk to you about her. She doesn’t want you in her life.” And knowing full well I was telling that to a violent man. I said it in public with a grain of nerve. He took it okay and that was that. I went home and told my mom what happened and asked her “He asks for every detail about Ashlynn, but barely anything about me???”

Turns out. He doesn’t believe I’m his actual child. Which was one of his bullshit reasons he didn’t pay child support. Which, DNA testing fuckin proves otherwise but go off. Another reason was that he lived in North Carolina and couldn’t see us so what was the point in paying for us when he didn’t get to see us. Yes. I’m not making this up.

Then, feeling more up to it. I asked him why he beat my mother. He pretended to be perplexed. “What? I NEVER hit anyone! I’d never hit a woman.” I listed one of the specific instances. The time he threw my mother through a screen door while she fucking held my sister. He denied that ever happened.

That was very clearly the last straw for me. He was a liar and a horrible person and I never saw him again. I blocked him and every family member I could even think of that would find my pages.

Fastforward to NOW ! BaM!!

My moms best friends husband is a bailiff (the cop who stands by a judge in a courtroom). He’s a fucking AMAZING man. A perfect father to his own kids and I’ve come to think of him as a dad sometimes lmao. He takes me fishing and stuff and it honestly makes me cry a lil so we gonna move on to the next bit.

As someone who spends his career in the courtroom, he came to know a lot of the common cases that breeze through.

Now, after my mom told him what happened to her and us.. he was fucking flabberghasted. Utterly shocked a human could do that to anyone and get away with any of it. Not even go to jail once or get kicked out of the military. Not even a stern talking to.

Well it just so happens that one of the most COMMON lawsuits he sees... is that of mother’s suing for child support. More specifically lack there of! Especially when their kids turn 18. My sister is 20 and I’m 18. We’ve tried contacting my father. I gave him a goooooood chance to try and be an ok person. I’m an extremely forgiving and trusting person and if you come across as heinous just KNOW THAT YOU’RE BEYOND HELP!!

Anyway. The long story short is that my real family and everyone we know is urging my mother to sue my father for lack of child support and overall distress he’s caused.

I end this with::::: do you think my mom should sue or leave it alone? She’s scared about having to see him but she also desperately wants justice/closure.

[seenashwrite]

14.07 Round-Up

Hey, good ep! And my cursory research into that *ahem* who was name-dropped right around the time we got a glimpse of what appears to be dollar bin Terminator hath yielded a most interesting factoid and visual aid. Read on!

Where my brain went, bullet style.... well that sounded somewhat violent.... oh, you know what I mean... it’s basically what I would’ve live-blogged

mood lighting in the priest’s office, how romantic

that’s a helluva gastric ulcer along with the consumption

*sigh* you don’t get an MRI and noggin’ monitorin’ along with a work-up for G.I. and/or respiratory symptoms, just in case any of y’all ever come down with the consumption ulcers and hesitate getting it checked out; they’ll do a CT, it’s no biggie, it’s fine, EVERYTHING’S FINE #VACCINATE YOUR NEPHILIM

hammered at The Ox Lodge, eh? Boy, if I had a dime for every time I’ve uttered that same phrase... hey, good on ya, Nicky, for resisting the urge to 86 another of your only leads

hey, Dean, can you talk about ghouls and vamps a little louder, I don’t think they heard you over in the next unit clearly enough

yes, Sam, tests, that’s how it works

hey so was that Pixel commercial national? did everyone get to experience that divine hilarity? FLASH! AH-AHHHHHHH! I digress

yes, Dean, tests, that’s how it works

I love those drag queen fake lashes they always have on Ruthie

do some Castiel dialysis! [seconds later] damn, I’m good

do some Dean dialysis! [seconds later] damn, I’m.... well I dunno what, sounds like he’s getting some angel radio reverb... that needs some analysis...

yes, random person, turn your back on a complete stranger in a dark alley... I hope she’s a vamp... that would’ve been an AWESOME scene.... show Nick’s still got the Luci Juice... why am I not on this writing staff

ah, a Ketch mention... DHJ continues to elude me on the Christmas movie front, though I *did* catch (heh... ketch) one of the two I’m gunning for the other night, more on that later... I also made a Cheesy Christmas Movie bingo card I’ll post at some point once I get it typed up.... I’ve digressed again

so he’s never driven before and his first shot’s at the Impala? I mean, I get the “awwwwww” factor, but ‘cmon, now

oh goooooood song choice

“No. It’s not.” ----> BWAH-HA-HAHAHAHAHAHA

Dean’s a great big brother

see, THIS is the ep they should’ve had the grandparent visit happen in, I’d have found that more of impact, him trusting Dean enough to tell him he’d looked up Kelly’s parents and ask him to take him to their house and then Dean trust him enough to go in there alone and not spill any beans, I’d have liked it infinitely better here vs. the fishing randomness

halftime

straight talk: I’m cool if they let Jack die... I like the kid (and the actor) I just don’t see much story there at this point

welp, glad Sergei the Shaman was but a hop-skip away

Cas sitting on that puffy just made me snort-giggle

I *really* like this character, which probably means he’ll eat it in the not-so-distant future

oooooh.... THE PLOT THICKENS... sort-of.... this Michael arc’s stagnating and I’m about to “I Don’t Care Anymore” level

you know what all this goose chase is gonna come down to, that it’s a deeeeeeemon, Nicky ---> god I’m good

 Abraxas, eh? now that I’m at ‘puter, TO THE GOOGLE

Abraxas is a term used by the Basilideans, a Gnostic sect of the second century, designating the Supreme Being or god whom they worshiped. They believed that Jesus Christ emanated from Abraxas and was a phantom while here on earth. They believed the name contained great mysteries because it contained the seven Greek letters when computed numerically equaled the number 365, which is the number of days in the year. It was further believed that Abraxas commanded 365 gods, each possessing a virtue, so there was a virtue for each day of the year.

Basilides used the voice Abraxas as a name of divinity; He said that he was the supreme deity among the seven principal ones, and that he was endowed with 365 virtues. This was something symbolic and has to do with the Greek numeration: a = 1, b = 2, r = 100, a = 1, x = 60, a = 1, s = 200, TOTAL 365. That is, the sum of the numerical values that they attributed to each letter of the word Abraxas forms a total of 365, which corresponded to the 365 days of the solar year, or what is equal a cycle of “divine action”, the set of the 365 successive manifestations attributed to God in one year.

It was believed that Abraxas was the name of a god who represented Good and Evil, a god and deity worshiped and a feared demon in a single entity. He was considered the oldest of the gods

However, older mythologists place Abraxas among the Egyptian gods, while some demonologists cite him to be a demon with the head of a king and serpents forming his feet. He has been represented on amulets with a whip in his hand. The mystic word abracadabra was derived from his name.

But fuck all that, ‘cause:

Symbology: The meaning of the double snake tail that forms the legs of the solar cock of the Abraxas. One is the ascending serpent, the copper serpent of Moses, the other is the descending serpent.

Abracadabra, bitches. #solarcock 

I can only dream that he’ll be sporting a fedora along with the whip.

dammit, writers, that was prime hand-chopping opportunity right there, c’mon, let practical effects get their shitty rocks off

that big ass scroll for like four lines of Latin or whatever the hell?

if Chuck shows up Imma shart

ohhhh I get it.... I also can’t wait for these gifs of the ooze... minus that last bit, why they insist on dayglo neon on high def instead of a nice creepy fade-in is just *beyond* me... 

but I did want some more Empty / Entity action, so fine, I’ll take it

Okay, well, good ep, and-------

[preview plays]

IS THAT MY BITCH???? IS MY BITCH BACK IN TOWN??? AND DO I DETECT SOME HAIR COLOR MORE IN THE ELLE DRIVER LANE?

Oh, Lily. J’adore.

[rogesims]

Elimination

And it's ELIMINATION NIGHT! The Brothers reunited in the living room in front of the huge TV and waited for Ninja to show up.

"Goooooood evening, Twitter! Are you ready for our first Big Brother Sims Elimination? Let's begin!"

"Chopping Block Squad, how are you feeling? Optimistic?"

Dustin answered first: "I don't think I could be bad!"

"My tan is done and my hair is laid, so I'm feeling stunning", said Nina

"I'm at peace, independently of the results" finalized Salim.

"To show support to Dustin, here in the studios is his WHOLE family! Your mom, dad, little brother and grandparents are here!"

The Brokes and Newbies showed up on the screen and Dustin couldn't help but cry.

"Here on my other side, showing all their love to their beloved Nina, is her family!"

Katrina, Don and Dina appeared, screaming her name and clapping. Nina screamed!

"Oh my Watcher!!! Even Don left the hospital to come! Thank you, guys!"

"Salim, you probably expect nothing from this segment of the show, right? There aren't any of your relatives on the save."

"Well, yeah, I'm cool with that." Salim answered.

A video showed up on the screen.

"Hey, Salim, it's Baba"

It was HIS FAMILY!

His dad Fahrid, his mom Fatima and his little sister Aisha!

"The producers asked us a video sending you love. You left Al-Simhara with big dreams, and we're so proud of you, every day."

"Always, habun" said his mom.

Aisha ended: "A wan you to win this! I want you to lend me some money!"

Ninja came back to the screen.

"Well, now that everyone is energized, let's not waste time! Let's get to the results. Are you all ready?"

"The sim on the Chopping Block who goes home first, totalizing 40% of the votes, is DUSTIN BROKE! Come outside, Dustin!"

And, just like that, we have our first Brother going through the door!

At the House front door, Plumbob Network correspondent, Baby Ariel, waited for the Eliminated.

"Is this thing on. Yeah? Ok.

ahem, AHEM!

HEEEEYYYY SWEEETIES! This is your girl Baby Ariel with the Elimination Interviews. Who comes thru? The suspense is killing me!!!"

"Dustin, our first Eliminated! Tell all our watchers, how are you feeling?"

"Guys, I'm really happy! My family came to support me. That's a first. Also, all these people are CRAZY!"

"This was Dustin Broke, everybody. Back to you, Ninja!"

[cdc1345711]

Prime Order:The Truth

(I will tell you the story of one 16 yr old girl who in the night is Dream Maker,Illusionist of Dreams but during the day she is.......)

‘Starla.......Miss Starla Cosmas?’

Starla:Huh?(waking up from daydreaming)”

Mrs. Margarot:Mind telling us the truth behind Edgar Allen Poe’s ‘Tell-Tale Heart’ poem?”

Starla:Well basically it’s mostly about a person wanting something that frightens him to end but in doing so he is consumed by guilt until he eventually couldn’t take it and tells the truth”

Mrs.Margarot:That is correct Starla”

(Everyone cheers her on......except one spoiled rich brat)

(After school Starla and her friends-Trevor,Tamyra,Rachel,Devon and Darrel-walk out together discussing their weekend plans)

Trevor:So we decided to go to the mall later,wanna come with us Star?”

Starla:That sounds wonder.....(her phone rings)hold on for just a second,Hello Grandpa(listens to what he says)really? right now but......Yes I know I have to but......okay fine,i’ll be there soon(hangs up and looks to her friends)sorry guys I gotta do something with my Grandpa,maybe we can hang out next weekend?”

Tamyra:You said that last weekend......”

Rachel:And the week before that......”

Darrel:And before that........”

Devon:Technically you’ve been saying that for the past 11 weekends,counting this one”

Starla:Wow 11-but this will be it-gotta go bye”

Rachel:Mmmm-mmm what is wrong with that girl?”

Trevor:Have you guys ever wonder what she and her Gramps do every weekend?”

Darrel:Whatever it is,it’s not our business”

Trevor:Still,don’t you think it’s total crap she blows us off-her best friends every other day? in fact when was it the last time we were at her place?”

Devon:When we were exactly 8 years of age,well 8 for you Trevor but 7 to me,Rachel,Tamyra,8 for Darrel and 6 for Starla”

Trevor:You know your Identic Memory scares us sometimes Dev but come on,we deserve to know-what do you say?”

(The group looks at each other and come to a conclusion)

Rachel:Okay we’re in”

Trevor:Yes-let’s go”

(The friends catch up to Starla behind the bush and keep a watchful eyes on her)

Starla:I’m here Zella,activate the portal”

(The gang look in confusion as she said ‘Portal’ then in mere seconds a portal opens up)

 Devon:Holy Crows.....(Amazed by the portal’s appearance)”

Trevor:Shhhh-be quiet Dev”

Starla:Activating ‘Dream Maker’ uniform(She presses a button and her Dream Maker costume appears-stupefying her spying friends)entering now(enters the portal)”

Tamyra:Okay-what is going on?......”

Rachel:(Seeing Trevor walking up to the portal)Trev,what are you doing???”

Trevor:(Walking towards the portal)Come on guys,we’re too far to stop now.....”

(The group enters the portal one at a time while Dream Maker meets up with the rest of the Prime Order)

Dream Maker:So where is THE EVIL now?”

Sleep Master:He is currently attacking the ‘CatDog’ universe,we suspect to suck the evil out of the Greasers and Rancid Rabbit”

Repulse:Well what are we waiting for let’s stop us some Implings”

SM:Zella if you please.....”

Zella:On it Sleeps(pushes some buttons on her gloves)one portal to ‘CatDog’”

DM:Yay(in a not fully happy tone)”

Maze:(Noticing she is down)What’s wrong Star?,you usually enjoy going to these different cartoon worlds”

DM:It’s nothing, just......after school my friends asked me to hang out with them at the mall but you called and......”

SM:I understand you’re sad Young one but you must understand we have a duty to maintain order in all universes”

DM:I understand Grandpa it’s just......sometimes I want to have at least one weekend to hangout with them instead of just......(Sleep Master gives her a hug)”

SM:I get it-tell you what if we finish this mission early you can hangout with your friends the whole weekend,how’s that?”

DM:(Over joyed)REALLY?-then what are we doing here? let’s get those Implings”

SM:That’s my little fighter(rubs her head)”

(The team enter the portal and just when they leave Starla’s friends pop up at the base)

Trevor:(Looking at the enormous base)Wow.....look at all of this”

Tamyra:This is some real ‘Star Wars/Star Trek’ stuff right here”

Darrel:Dang-Star’s Grandparents must be rich or work for the government or something”

Devon:(Completely mind-blown)um uh uh uh uh(brings out his inhaler)this is so awesome”

Rachel:Hey Star?-you here?”

Trevor:She must be here somewhere let’s check it out”

Tamyra:I swear if a Xenomorph pops out and eats us off one by one I’m leaving you guys”

(As the wayward stowaways explore the base the Prime Order is fighting EVIL and his Implings trying to stop him from draining the evil out of the Greasers and Rancid Rabbit)

Maze:These shadowy S.O.Bs aren’t going down easily”

Repulse:(Cutting himself so the attacks hit the Implings)Yeah I’m running out of places to cut on me”

Accel:(Inflicting as much pain on the enemies he can)Just as you take one down tons more take it’s place”

Sleep Master:(Taking on EVIL himself)Keep on my Order”

EVIL:You’re out of luck old man-i’ll decimate this world along with countless others”

Sleep Master:Not today-ZELLA,DREAM MAKER NOW!!!!!!!”

(Dream Maker and Zella blast THE EVIL with light canons-which weekends the embodiment of EVIL)

EVIL:GAAAAAAAAH(the Implings stop attacking the PO and retreat to protect their lord)this isn’t over Sleep Master-I will end you”

SM:And we’ll be waiting”

DM:We did(does a victory dance)oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah(checks her phone)and just enough time to catch up to my friends at the mall”

Set Zero:(Noticing a blinking red light on Zella’s gloves)Uh Zell-you’re gloves beeping”

Zella:WHAT????(checks it out)the’re intruders in the base”

DM:(Aggravatingly)OH COME ON SERIOUSLY???????”

(The PO arrive at the base)

SM:Split up everyone,Maze,Repulse you two go to the west wing,Void,Set Zero check the east wing,Accel,Zella second floor,I’ll Check the Basement while Dream Maker stays here,alright move out”

(The group go to their designated places as Dream Maker stays in the Counseling Room)

Dream Maker:This is such bologna,I was this close to hanging out with our friends(phone rings)what is it Repulse?”

Repulse:Those sorry bastards ransacked my room”

Maze:Mine too,turned it into a bigger pig sty than it already was”

DM:Really? that’s odd?”

Accel:Same for me and Zella”

Set Zero:Same with me and Void(checks his room)wait aren’t those my panties?”

Void:(Blushing red)uuuuuh”

DM:I’m checking my room,call you when(hears a loud ‘BANG’)I’ll call you back(goes to investigate)okay Star you got this,you got this(she opens the door and puts her batons to the throat of......)TREVOR??????”

Trevor:Hey Star(waves to her along with Tamyra,Rachel,Darrel and Devon)”

DM:Tamyra,Rachel,Darrel,Devon,how?......What?.......When?.......Huh?”

Rachel:Hey Starla......”

DM:How did you guys get here?”

Darrel:We entered the same portal you went into and then we ended up here”

Tamyra:And what exactly is here?”

Starla:Oh no no no no no-you guys gotta leave before......”

Set zero:(Along with Void,Accel,Zella,Maze and Repulse)DREAM MAKER WHAT’S......(sees her friends)Oh......”

Repulse:(Bringing out his knife and about to cut his chest)AAAH”

Starla:No Repulse don’t.....”

Repulse:Dream Maker-you know these pendehos?(Spanish for ‘Dumb-Ass)”

Starla:They’re my friends”

Darrel:And we’re not ‘pendehos’ scar guy”

Trevor:Wait ‘Dream Maker’? isn’t that your ‘Prime Order’ name?”

Starla:Ah-ha yeah”

Devon:So.......you’re a super hero like the Hulk or Martian Manhunter?

Tamyra:Why didn’t you tell us about this?”

Starla:Uh I told you guys a bajillion times about the Prime Order”

Darrel:But we didn’t think they were true

Trevor:So you’re literally a team of super powered people who fight the bad guys?”

Devon:Wait so you do have powers?......are you like......a mutant?”

Starla:Like from X-Men,not necessarily it’s actually hereditary,like on my Dad’s side,even though Professor X did want to recruit me”

Devon:(About to spasm out)You.....you.....you met Charles Xavier.....Professor X......oh my Goooooood,what about Batman?”

Starla:Which Batman(hearing that made Devon faint)”

Set Zero:Is Nerd Boy okay?”

Starla:Yes he just fainted,he’ll be back soon-But really you guys gotta go now or else my Grandpa will flip his.......”

‘Flip my WHAT??????’

(Sleep Master appears behind the PO-scaring them half to death-and looks at his Granddaughter with angry disappointed eyes)

Starla:Hey Grandpa(rubbing her arm)found the intruders”

Devon:(Waking up to see Sleep Master)Mr.Seriphos? is that you?”

Sleep Master:Hello Devon,Trevor,Rachel,Tamyra and Darrel-Starla may I have a word with you ‘privately’?(Starla just gulps and walks with her Grandpa as everyone looks in depressed confusion as to whats gonna happen to her)”

Devon:So.....exactly what are your powers?(Everyone just looks at him)Just trying to break the silence”

Trevor:Too soon Dev,too soon”

(Starla is alone with Sleep Master)

Starla:You’re probably disappointed in me for allowing none Prime Order members to enter the base or for not closing the portal in time huh?”

Sleep Master:(Just stares at her)”

Starla:Well I’m sorry and yes I know it’s our duty to uphold Order but these guys are my friends and every day I tell them about our adventures knowing they don’t believe them.......until now,so...........what are you gonna do with them and what’s my punishment?”

(But before he could utter a word the gang enters the room)

Trevor:Mr.Seriphos please don’t punish Star,we’re the ones who spied on her and who entered your portal”

Rachel:We just wanted to see what you guys were doing”

Tamyra:It sucks to be left in the dark you know”

Darrel:We didn’t mean to her in trouble”

Devon:Please Mr.Seriphos”

Starla:(Happy her friends are standing up for her)Oh you guys(looking like she might cry)”

Sleep Master:I had no intention on punishing my Granddaughter nor you lot,I merely just wanted to ask her what we should do with the 5 of you”

Devon:Oh please Mr.Seriphos we can keep a secret promise,especially since Starla’s a super hero”

Sleep Master:We’re not superheroes Devon,we’re merely super powered individuals who maintain order in the different Cartoon Worlds”

Devon:Still.......”

Trevor:Anyway what are you gonna do with us?”

Starla:Well........”

(The team drops the group outside of their base)

Rachel:Wow-I can’t believe we’re allowed to go to the PO base”

Devon:This is now the greatest day of my life,say Starla how do you join the team.....”

Starla:You got to have reality warping powers to join,sorry Dev”

Devon:Awe darn it(everyone laughs)”

Starla:Hey it’s not super late-we could still hit the mall,if you guys still want to go?”

Trevor:Okay,but tomorrow we’re going back to that base to get a proper tour”

Starla:Deal”

Trevor:And maybe go on a few missions with you?”

Starla:Don’t push it”

(So Starla the ‘Dream Maker’ and her small band of friends head out to the Mall only to await their next encounter at the Prime Order base)

THE END

[bre95611]

Oh my GOOOOOOOD husband's grandparents are coming to visit and they'll be here tomorrow and WE ARE NOT READY.

Mozz is being an asshole, and I'm so tired. But I have to clean the whole house. And all I want to do is drink cheap beer, binge Psych, and work on my meta. But NO I have to be a responsible adult and do shit. UGH.

[crookedpostfury-blog]

35 Productive Things to Do When You Are Bored at Home

The funny thing about life is that you only think of fun things to do like picking up a new song on the guitar or planting new herbs in the garden, on busy days. On the days when you’re actually free, all you end up doing is scrolling through Instagram and envying other people’s lives. Then you feel bad about not doing enough and spend another day in bed- moping.

It’s time to break that cycle. We are creating a reference point for you. We are creating a list of the most productive things to do when you’re bored at home. So that next weekend, you put your phone away and make the best of the free time at hand. Always love yourself. Bonus: You’ll have plenty to boast about later.

1. Give yourself a manicure or pedicure.

2. Doodle or colour a mandala.

3. Check out YouTube tutorials and practice a headstand.

4. Write a poem or write in a journal.

5. Read a book.

6. Listen to music and dance like crazy alone!

7. Stretch. It feels goooooood.

8. Wake up early and watch the sun rise.

9. Go for a hike somewhere you have not been.

10. Redecorate your living space and get rid of clutter.

11. Do a photoshoot with yourself. Sexier the better!

12. Try out the new café near your house.

13. Take a long shower.

14. Create a vision board for yourself.

15. Try learning a new language. All it takes is a simple app.

16. Update your resume.

17. Take a trial class for a new activity you’ve wanted to try.

18. Collect and donate old clothes or other items to your local charity.

19. Call friends over and play Uno.

20. Tye-dye clothes or bedsheets.

21. Go to a play or musical.

22. Watch motivational speakers talk about a subject relevant to your life.

23. Start a kitchen garden.

24. Clean out your Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter. Remove meaningless contacts or content.

25. Research dream careers.

26. Clean your makeup brushes.

27. Meal prep for the upcoming week.

28. Help out a friend with a project.

29. Go to the gym, go for a walk, a run, sit-ups, anything you can for a little bit of exercise.

30. Cuddle with a pet.

31. Facetime with your grandparents!

32. Print and frame a new quote.

33. Bake healthy desserts.

34. Try on a new home-made face mask.

35. Learn up a new rap and practice and make a video.

With these new suggestions in the picture, there is no way you’ll be getting bored any time soon. We dare you to try out each one of these, each weekend. Have fun!

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[kai-keda]

Hello, Kairi. Hope you are doing well today. I watch your latest video on youtube and wanted to ask a question but didn't think it would be appropriate to ask on there. I wanted to ask (if not too personal) what you deal with on a daily since you were diagnosed with bipolar? I do not know much about it besides what I hear but nowadays it hard to believe from others if they never had it before. I'm going to look into myself but wanted your point of view. Thank you for your time.

Well, currently at the time of writing this I’m in a manic phase but I can feel the switch to depression coming on. My cycle usually starts with mania and then goes into depression immediately after.

Mania and hypomania(a lesser form of mania) is what most people call the “highs” but they’re not without their faults despite the slang implying only good things

Since I’m aware of it now I can hold myself back but I have wanted to go on a crazy shopping spree all day today. Like. All day. Luckily I was with my brother which was good but I have to avoid sites like Amazon since he’s gone home now cause I really want to buy those glass Dragon Ball’s but I don’t have the budget so I can’t but ahhhh I really want some Gatorade, too. If I go to the store right now, I’m guaranteed to hit up at least two different stores, buying way more than what I need of each thing (like I want to get 3 packs of Gatorade right now. Really bad.) and then going to get some sushi. Which is also expensive. Dammit me now I really want that sushi.

I seriously want to go shopping really bad right now. Really crazy bad. I just want to go spend all my money but I caaaaaan’t cause that’s not goooooood and I know it’s the mania and not even that I really want those things. Try having a manic phase at a convention. Man that’s crazy.

Hopefully, if I manage to survive this without spending too much money, the depressed phase won’t be as bad. At the very least I won’t be wallowing in self pity about spending too much money but I might end up finding other reasons to wallow. (Sorry if y’all have to put up with that, tumblr.)

The other thing about mania is that you’re constantly full of energy and your work ethic is through-the-roof-way-too-much. Why do you think that video ended up being made? See, that’s an example of how it’s not just about being really happy or really sad. I was super manic so I had energy to do something and I wanted to dish out a video, it just so happened that I was really upset writing and reading that script. I was very sad, but still manic and not depressed.

I also end up starting and never finishing a ton of projects for that reason. My cycles usually only last a week or two but they happen very frequently. Because they happen so quickly, though, I will sometime’s start big projects that are impossible to get done in a couple of days and then hit a depression where I lose interest in doing anything I love to do, including working on the video my manic self started. So animation is doubly screwed for me as something I can’t do.

The anger episodes tend to happen if I’m in a bad mood for whatever reason, like lack of sleep or hunger, and am manic. Again, mania isn’t just about being “happy” just as depression isn’t about being “sad”. My irritability in my mania is easily triggered where I’m just being an all around unpleasant person to be around who becomes super selfish and whiny. Hence “they’re impossible to deal with”. Recently my irritability was going off when I was hungry so I was getting some food and drove ten above the speed-limit on the highway because I was invincible and was frustrated with traffic. I almost caused a serious wreck doing that.

Oh yeah, invincibility, that’s a thing.

Luckily my feelings of invincibility manifest themselves in my idea of being able to go without sleep for 12 hours in a stream or start a project and attempt to finish it in a time that would make a college animation student blush and not the more serious stuff like having INSANE sexual desires and the urge to follow through with them(let’s just say that I’ve seriously considered becoming a “lady of the night” during manic phases and thank God for church and a strong stubborn will for “waiting until marriage” cause that can of worms does NOT need to open lol) but sometimes it also means other things like almost causing a wreck because I can survive anything or taking a 2+ hour drive from my grandparents to my house starting at 2 in the morning because “that’s not a big deal” and doing the same thing several times, tbh.

Well, that’s all I can think of to say about the mania.

Now the depression is stuff I’ve talked about on my blog before and it’s really hard for me to describe. The only way I really can describe the feeling is through purple prose like being in a room with no doors or windows, suffocating in freezing cold while having shadows of “kill yourself” whispered to you constantly. And I mean constantly. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, the only reason I’m alive right now is because I’m a coward who is terrified of the idea of infinity.

It’s not being “sad” it’s a new and unique feeling entirely. Like this underlying feeling that separates mania from hyperness only impossible to describe because there’s nothing like it. There’s nothing outside of it to compare it to.

I won’t go into too much detail about that because I already have recently but trust me, it’s really hard.

Now the REALLY FUN ONE: Mania+Depression

Yes, they can happen at the same time and it sucks and those are the hardest ones to get through. And they happen to me a lot.

Imagine all the intensity of the manic emotions only it’s all negative. That’s why I have episodes where I just go off and post after post after post after post is me talking about all the reasons I hate myself and suddenly there’s 10 more essays by me in ten minutes. All expressing negative emotions.

That sucks.

I think now that I’ve finally had one of my manic phases after getting used to the meds I have a better sense of what “normal” is cause I’m not constantly going through cycles, I have moments of calm between them. Until I had this manic phase I was constantly thinking I HAD to be in either a manic or depressed phase or both but that’s not the case.

During those normal times I’m just normal save for outbursts so hopefully the medicine can make those times last longer.I know this is crazy, wildly in-depth but, hey, I’m manic right now, what can you expect, really? I hope I answered your question and thanks for asking. It makes me feel a lot better having gotten to explain it all on paper like that.

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20 question tag!

WHAT I was actually tagged in a thing! @planter-lester tagged me so thanks! Let’s start...

name: Jennifer

nickname: Jenny (really everyone only calls me Jenny tho not Jennifer)

zodiac sign: I’m on the last day of Taurus so Taurus and Gemini really

height: 5′8″ buT I WANT TO BE TALLER

orientation: heterosexual bro but support the gay pls (happy pride month btw)

nationality: I live in America but my grandparents are Italian so pizza

favorite fruit: watermelon is so damn goooooood

favorite season: I really love all of the seasons so much but spring

favorite book: i could be really generic and say harry potter but harry potter

favorite flower: uhmmmm i like sunflowers because vincent van gogh

favorite scent: freshly baked coooookies 

favorite color: any shade of blue really 

favorite animal: MAN I LOVE ANIMALS i’ll just go with alpacas

average amount of sleep: usually 4-5 hours but if i’m lucky i’ll get 6

cat or dog: DOGS ALL THE WAY I WILL FIGHT YOU but i mean cats are cute

number of blankets you sleep with: usually 3 even in the summer sometimes i honestly love to cuddle

dream trip: well i mean England would be great but i would have to say like a two week long cruise in the Bahamas and stuff

blog created: i made it on new years day this year but i didn’t use it really until march

i’m tagging @phanisthetearinmyheart , @phananddragonsfics , @danisnotoffice , @imnotjustacasualphan , and @danielhowellsbooty

You guys don’t have to do it if you don’t want to :P