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Fallout: Cendre’s Backstory (OC)

This is a quick summary of Cendre’s Backstory. I might add some details later for myself buuuuut... I guess that’s most of the thing i can say for now about my OC :) Hope you’ll enjoy!

Cendre was born in a small village called Sunshine Tidings and located in the western area of the Commonwealth. They lived there with their single mother and three or four other small families. A rather peaceful and prosperous community, their main means of survival being trade with caravans, repair services and a bit of agriculture. All together, they succeeded in defending their little business against the raiders, making use of deterrence, weapons, or even capsules. Life was not easy, but they had been holding up for about thirty years and nothing seemed to break the little community of Sunshine Tidings.

But one day, when Cendre was only 24 years old, a group of super mutants arrived ... They massacred the inhabitants who had failed to escape and pursued the others in order to quench their thirst for blood. Cendre was one of those who was leaking, out of ammo, one of the mutants on their heels. Fortunately (or not), they managed to take refuge in a burrow, large enough for them but too small for their pursuer, although he had tried to dig a passage to his prey. Though, after a quarter of an hour, the giant abandoned the task and left. Cendre, remained in their hiding place for a long time despite the humidity and the presence of radioactive waste. The fear of a mutant that would await them at the exit was paralyzing them. Later, after several long hours, their mother finally found them and managed to extirpate her child from their shelter, but it was already too late ... The young person was then suffering from the effects of radiation.

Cendre had to remain bedridden for several weeks, ill and very weak. Impossible for their mother to go get a doctor with all the work at the farm following the attack of the mutants. Moreover, she could not leave her child in such bad condition alone. Not to mention that the other inhabitants were beginning to wonder. Indeed, the mother had hidden her child since she had found them to avoid exposing their alarming state. The distorted skin, the loss of hair, the hoarse voice, the nose that has had crumbled ... no doubt, Ash was now a ghoul despite all the care that was brought to them. Unfortunately, the secret was discovered by one of the inhabitants who had thought proper to poke around. Obviously, the news raised fear in the community. The others suggested to the mother to kill the ghoul, persuaded that the creature would become feral, but it was out of the question for the woman to kill her child, feral or not! At the end, the community decided one evening to block the accesses of the house and burn it to get rid of the ghoul and the traitress. The mother, however, succeeded to carry Cendre away from the flames, into the cellar, in the midst of their stores of provisions. But if her child had been saved from the fire, her, on the other hand, succumbed to her burns in the arms of the ghoul. Grieved by grief, anger and loneliness, Cendre stayed for a very long time in the cellar of their house. They survived at first with the meager supplies offered by their reserve. Then, thanks to the body of their mother, the survival instinct gaining the upper hand over their reluctance to human flesh. Their last meal resulted from a long reflection embellished with anxiety attacks, remorse, anger and fear of becoming the feral ghoul so dreaded. And finally, ignoring the fear that twisted their stomach, the young ghoul went out of the rubble and ashes of their house, frightening the remains of the inhabitants. But soon they would return to exterminate them and they were far from being able to fend themsleves in their physical and mental state. Cendre left alone, equipped with a hunting-knife, a few provisions and money stolen from what had formerly been their friends. They took the direction of the South, wandering from left to right to escape any complications that might have been fatal to them. During the first six months, Cendre had to learn to run away without getting caught - communication does not always go very well when being a ghoul - and to hide. Thus they sharpened their perception, their agility, and their endurance. Having regained strength, the following six months were then devoted to hunting and defense. But nothing was easy. Sometimes the young ghoul would not eat for three days in a row . Sometimes they would get beaten up by humans or get caught by some Raiders. Cendre will never forget that day when they were one of their prisonners. They had humiliated them and hurt them. The humans had thought funny to sharp their teeth to make them look like a feral ghoul. Fortunately, they didn't have the time to work on all their teeth, another Raiders clan came from nowhere and a fight began. The ghoul managed to run away, tears in their eyes, three sharp teeth and blood in their mouth. No, life wasn't easy at all and Cendre started to blame humans. They hated them for what they had done. As they headed to the south, Cendre reached the Glowing Sea while trying to escape a group of angry raiders. They wandered over the devastated land for several days with the desire to die. However, once again, they was saved by their survival instinct when a Deathclaw hunted them. By the biggest chance - or luck - the ghoul managed to defeat the beast. This sudden victory made them regain confidence in themselves and Cendre resumed the direction of the North with the aim of revenge. Cendre spent another year alone, perfecting their talents of survival and murder in the South of the Commonwealth. They trained first on creatures little aggressive then more dangerous and finally packs. Then came small groups of humans, usually Gunners or Raiders. Once almost sure of their abilities, the ghoul began to attack small camps, stealing valuables, equipment and weapons. Their small collection gathering lasted about two months and allowed them to materially prepare for their objective. Now properly equipped and protected, things seemed almost easier. Killing became child's play. One day, the ghoul found an abandoned camp. Everything had been taken except ... A dog. The poor beast had been locked up in her cage for several days already. She was thin, barely standing and although she seemed suspicious of the silhouette in front of her cage, a ray of hope lit up her eyes. Cendre, not insensitive to the sad situation of the animal, encamped a few days there to take care of the dog. They nourished her, nursed her, and soon  they became friends. A month later, Cendre returned to Sunshine Tidings, their sniper on their shoulder and Mardi-Gras, their dog, by their side. Nobody survived. The ghoul and the dog remained on the place for three months in order to rest from their usual vagrancy and profit by bargaining with the caravans passing there. One of the caravan leaders who regularly returned to Sunshine Tidings informed the young ghoul that they might find some opportunities in the city, notably as a mercenary. However, Cendre did not know the city and the idea of being in a dangerous and unknown place did not reassure them. The merchant then offered them to work as a caravan escort, as long as the ghoul hides their face to avoid customers running away. For a year, Cendre escorted the Commonwealth caravans, learning in passing the relief of Boston and its surroundings. Once more confident, Cendre and Mardi-Gras left the caravans to accumulate doubtful little jobs in the big city and its outskirts. Killing strangers paid well! Especially as, during the first six months, the ghoul would take every single job proposed to them except those that asked for the murder of a ghoul or brought them in the direction of Diamond City. It was better not to approach this place when we were a ghoul since the election of the Mayor McDonnough even with covered face. After 3 years and 7 months since leaving their mother's home, Cendre managed to make a name for themselves in the Commonwealth. And even if they and their dog have been pursued several times by the Brotherhood of Steel, Gunners and some influential groups of raiders, the duo continues the assassinations successfully to the point of being recommended from one employer to another. No more hidden face and no more ungreatful murderers, Cendre could finally openly afford to refuse the assassination of a ghoul and stand up to humans. At the age of 28, they were determined enough to approach the urban community and a year later, Cendre is even considering joining Goodneighbor.