#guiltyofnopoetry

[veronicavai]

Get home safe.

After some while all of this will make sense.

Looking forward speaking to you soon.

Asking questions about the journey you have taken.

Your lost baggage and delayed flights.

I will listen to all of what you have to say.

You can tell me bout Beijing and Dominican Republic.

Late nights and diverse sunrises.

Friends you have made along the way.

I will listen to all of what you have to say.

You can tell me about your plans for the future.

So just get home safe.

[veronicavai]

Believe me when I say

How thoughts of yours can be deceiving

And tides are changing from these winds,

You act like nothing is receiving

Oblivion to thunders of the storms.

I won't remind you of the day nor night

When decisions made were put to bed,

How lonely felt the time of day and evening,

How past was nothing but mistakes in light.

You will cry wolf for days in hunger feelings

Despite the fact that you have lived,

In painful but glorious affection

And did not surrender to doubts that were around.

Listening to: Michel Legrand - My Funny Valentine

[veronicavai]

I will remember

I’ve been counting to ten, till the ten got the grip.

Yearning for past and the past right behind me,

Calling for sense in the dreams of surrender,

Asking for help from the people who owned me.

Skills are far from pretender of knowing

Of the path that is yet to be seen.

Sow the seeds of my thoughts and beginnings,

Reap the lengths of the ones that I don’t.

Show me light at the end of the tunnel,

Give me hope that is worth to be lived.

When I’m thinking of swallowing anger

And the anger’s the one who goes free.

[veronicavai]

first - bassline, then rhythm, and - melody..

I have come across this brilliant, provocative, alluringly talented musician who has instantly took my heart away. Not being able to stop myself from viewing his performances again and again, on a repeat, absorbing music coming from his guitar, the connection them two have, and something so inspiringly special about his personality, I gave in. A deeply serious musician, in many ways – one of a kind. Someone who has so much passion and love for a guitar as I do, will agree after listening to his music. I cannot wait to experience his performance live. What makes this even more special – he comes from Bristol. (heart)

[veronicavai]

Where are you?

I had an accident the other day. Nothing too serious, just a heartbreak, realising that I cannot reach out and be around.

Where we can drink a couple of bottles of wine, maybe even Korean, not knowing eachother, stay up all night, and talk and be silent and talk again. Mostly about affection, music and life. But only how we individually anticipate it. And the morning after decide we can move in together. Alright roomie?

Having a clear memory of your face, drifted look in your wolf eyes and gripping presence, I absolutely do not remember your voice. (You used to sing at me with your partner guitar and ukulele, telling me how much minor you can get out of that major) And I was gone; Galaxies, constellations, random feelings. Experiencing placebo effects from the past, pleasant side effects. The ones that made me this way.

I hate to acknowledge that we are couple of hours away from each other.

Desperate to express how much I miss my dear friend.

Come to me

Love, Ponky x

Listening to : Skalpel - If music was that easy

[veronicavai]

Я проиграла.

Я раскидаю все по сторонам и дам себе свободы, а годы,

По тишине и праву сло́ва разобью, в пепел превращу -

Да и по ветру, на волне разовью.

Пью, - соберу себя и без выдоха, без голоса,

Задену вдохновленный ум по поводу,

Чтобы пылью не покрылась воля - я себя испытываю,

Это мой беспрерывный квест, что без переменчивых мест.

И не зря ты волновалась, мам, когда глаза пьяные в хлам.

Задаюсь вопросом, что так нельзя, и кто был из нас прав? - твой нрав.

Руки к глазам, и я там, где без воздуха дышать сложно, но можно.

[veronicavai]

No drama Life to be a fuNking ‘no-pasa nada’ In ain’t no rush but steady pacing I get a clue by learning a lesson And then comes a second guess No drama

[veronicavai]

and I'll use you as a warning sign that if you talk enough sense, then you lose your mind and I've moved further than I thought I could but I missed you more than I thought I would

[veronicavai]

I have cried for months, brother. I had to learn how to breath again. Faced with the phenomenon of ones surrender to disbelief - inability and refusal to accept that what was happening inside of me was true or real - I ran.

I ran with my feet not touching the ground. I have ran with my eyes closed, spreading evenly amongst those fears that chased me. I have cried for months, brother.. and I have been through this before.

So there I was... Rebelled, lost and tired. I ran until I stopped. Not being present felt meaningless, destructive and causing great and irreparable damage. I held my breath almost torn and misguided. The truth is, I do not think like others, now this is comfortable, and this is present. I am learning myself.

Sincerely hoping that all you are going through - people you get to meet, places you get to see, experience that you carry, laughter that fills your soul, music that brings the tears of joy, sadness that inspires you in a moment - has the effect on you. That you flourish in the time of night and get good rest in the time of day.

I miss you more than I thought I could.

All Melody. All of it.

Love.

Veronika

Listening to : radiohead - codex

[veronicavai]

Так странно жить в разных часовых поясах.

Я подвожу итоги этого дня, когда ты только должен начать его проживать.

Ведь у тебя время назад.

И у меня уже сегодня, когда у тебя еще вчера.

Так странно жить в разных часовых поясах ..

я буду ждать тебя здесь.

[veronicavai]

rhythm is universe