#haebinrk

[rkhyunjae-blog]

your thoughts on your sunbaes.

“who?”

@haebinrk: “haebin noona, she always treated me nicely-- even if i started out as someone... that didn’t have tge best impression, the way she managed the team and helped us behind the scene was always very nice. i appreciate her alot. i regret the falling out we had last year, i hope we can get past it.”

@rkxkikwang : “kikwang hyung... well he is interesting, his height doesn’t represent his attitude on the court. if he had been taller maybe he would have been an ace... or maybe even a setter. but that wouldn’t be good because then i would have taken his spot... i respect hyung alot, even if i don’t show it well. he is a good libero as well. very trustworthy.”

@rkjhyxk: “then joohyuk hyung. when i was in school, he helped me get closer to everyone, even though i really didn’t care or mind being alone. i don’t think that i would have become as good of a setter i am now, without him... without anyone of my sunbae’s helping me become a little friendlier. joohyuk, is someone i look up to in many ways. he’s a great ace too, very reliable.”

[rkxkikwang]

                                             THE CHAOS TRIO

                                         Kikwang x Haebin x Joohyuk

The libero, the manager and the middle blocker. When they first met, they never imagined how invincible the three of them would become as a team. They would fight together, win and lose, laugh and cry and become a family. There would be nobody to destroy them, but themselves. What will happen to this Chaos Trio?

[rkmg]

What would your personal ascot be along with what would you call your fans?

“isn’t an ascot something fancy and silk that you wear around your neck? i’d have to say a red one… no, i’m joking, i feel like this is really asking about a mascot, otherwise these two things are wildly different and your mind is more creative than mine is. taking the actual question into account, i have no idea. maybe something dealing with art? that’s about as detailed of an answer as i can give. do people usually have mascots? other than… teams? my high school basketball team used to have a mascot. a game is divided into quarters, you know? and during the breaks, especially the halftime break, it would come out and try to hype people up. i rarely saw it myself since i was in the locker rooms strategizing, but i can’t see that being the case for idol performances. i don’t really think it makes sense for idols. if i had a mascot running around on stage, i would be distracted. won would want me to say wildcat, though, so i guess i will. what team? maybe my fans could be something like… ‘poppies’? because that’s the name of one of my favorite monet paintings. but, i don’t really know. i haven’t thought much about any of this. i doubt this answer is good but it’s all i’ve got.”

[seungcheolrk]

As you have reached another step on your path, are you hoping it stays in the direction you want?

“I don’t think I really understand what you mean, I—” he pauses for a moment, a thoughtful expression on his soft features. “wouldn’t everyone want things to go the way that they want? that sounds selfish, but I don’t think it has to be. for convex, I want things to go well for all of us. I wanted us to recover well from the stage incident, both literally and in terms of our reputation, and I’m comfortable saying we did. then, everything with rome… I want us to be able to bounce back well and continue to show that we are a strong team, and I want rome to be safe and happy and healthy with what he chooses to do in his future, too.” he sucks in a deep breath. “so I guess… I am hoping it stays in the direction I want, but the direction I want isn’t as selfish as I think it sounds when I say it out loud. I want more of the members to get opportunities like woohyun did at the samsung show— to show that convex is a talented group individually and together, and for more members to do things that they enjoy. I want to see everyone happy— that’s the direction I want. of course I’d be hopeful for that.” 

[rknvna]

What flower do you think represents you the most and why?

“in all honesty, i am not the type that gets too fussed over flowers. they’re very pretty, absolutely -- but that’s all they do for me, i’m afraid. i do remember picking a flower when i was at royal, however ... what was it ...” < ` bites her lip while her gaze trails away in though, freezing for a big before her face lights up in remembrance ; > “ah, the white iris flower! it represented being captivating with timeless eloquence and well ... i would hope that was a pretty good descriptor of myself. so, i would stick with that, then.”

[ncbodyknows]

What challenges have you set for yourself this year?

“I haven’t actually set any challenges for myself...” he commented thoughtfully, and honestly he could have just ended it there, but now that he thought about it he was actually kind of intrigued about what result he would reach. “If I had to pick something I guess... Yes, I’d want to become better at dancing. I think I’ve already improved a lot, but I’m still absolutely hopeless. The comments I’ve got the most are on my dancing, and if I’m actually going to do this kind of thing even if just to promote my art I need to catch people’s eyes in a good way. I don’t think I can do that with only my voice even if I do receive praises for it. I guess it makes me happy... Just a bit though.” He felt a bit sheepish admitting to something that wasn’t related to his trade making him feel good, something that had until now simply been nothing but a hobby.

“Other than that, I want to become a better artist. I’m always looking to improve no matter what. Until now I’ve only really done digital art for commissions so if anything that’s a skill I want to improve a lot on since it’s kind of the way I make money. I wanted to be a painter, but honestly I receive more recognition for my digital art, so maybe I should consider changing goals. I also want to get more into animations. My nicovideo account has been getting more attention so it’d be kind of cool to be able to impress my audience even more. I do think the stills are cool and all and Ramyeon ssi does a great job at adding the effects, but I just, you know, wish I could do more. Maybe one day I can get on the level of people like Sidu-san.”

“And I guess... I also have to improve myself as a person. I hate myself and other people hate me too, and until now I’ve been accepting that as a fact, but I’m just... Well, I’m tired of watching people hang out and have fun and then looking at me and feeling like they have to force themselves to ask me to come along and then get relieved when I say no. It kind of really sucks. I guess even I have managed to meet people that I don’t want to let down and disappoint. I’m afraid that one day the people I’ve actually dared to start caring about will be fed up with me and leave me. So if anything... I think this one is the most important. I want to learn how to not push people away and I want to learn... to learn how to love again.”

[memoirsofrkxjiyeon]

How many sea shells are by the sea shore? Also what is your favorite kind of shell and why? :)

honestyhour ; ♥ 

“Many sea shells are by the seashore, can you find me sea shell by the sea shore? I don’t really have favorite shell unless you count Squirtle as he got a shell right?”

[rkgray]

// the urge

@haebinrk

[/trigger warning: mentions of alcohol and vomitting]

he still felt sick. even after calling it a night and getting out of there, and even after being slapped in the face by the fresh, icey winter air. his liver was gradually revolting against the mass of soju he had been consuming over the last week. it was probably a good idea to listen to his own body's needs and that seemed to be rest right now. plenty of rest.

but in order to lay down on his bed, he needed to get to his apartment first. or at least to some kind of lodging. laying in the streets, sleeping was neither a good nor a healthy idea, especially not during midwinter. so he dragged his body past several bars and restaurants he had visited over the span of the last nights, squinting his eyes everytime he saw a street sign in order to stay in a tiny bit orientated.

a steady urge to empty his stomache tingled in his throat, as he kept stumbling foward. it felt like people stared at him, but most certainly they were not since ass drunk guys around here weren't that rare and nobody remembered his face anyway which made things even sadder and more pitiful for him. "oh, pardon." he mumbled to a couple walking by, before running straight into another person. "i apologi..." he attempted to say, when that feeling from earlier returned and his body reacted. holding his hand in front of his mouth, he stared at the female in front of him, shocked, as stomache contents run through his fingers, drippling down her coat.

[rkhyunjae-blog]

「 warm heart? 」

still... two months had passed by since  he had joined the volleyball club. jaehyun didn’t really feel the need to socialize outside of practice with anyone. which was usual for him. a lone wolf some might call him-- however it was simply that he couldn’t be bothered making friends. even though for some reason, there were a pair of two seniors in the club that seemed to at least want to try him.

jaehyun didn’t understand why but he needed their trust to be able to play with them properly. “i’m gonna go fill my water bottle,” he said to the coach and left the gym-- on his way to the water fountain he saw the club’s manager, surrounded by seniors... ‘from another club?’ he thought, casually filling his bottle up with water.

from his point of view, she looked uncomfortable, however he couldn’t tell-- maybe they were asking her questions. however one of the guys sudenly took a hold of her arm, keeping her in place.

‘...’ jaehyun stood there, staring for a couple seconds... out of no where he stood next to the group, staring at the hand. he grabbed the male’s wrist and squeezed it hard until he let go of the female, “you are bothering her, how about you leave our manager alone, s u n b a e?” his tone was sarcastic and sisrespectful, however the seniors couldn’t do anything... he was as tall as them, most likely stronger... but his charisma clearly was too much for them, “noona, lets go.” jaehyun walked behind the older female and pushed her back lightly, hinting that she should start walking.

                                                     「 a starter for @haebinrk 」

[rkxkikwang]

&& the fear in my veins

@haebinrk

kikwang was in fact no scardey cat, but he abysmally hated puppets and dolls. in hindsight he should have known better or at least expected for the the class who had put all their work into this haunted house to use at least some puppets to decorate the creepy scenery. it was a classic after all. he still disliked it with wholeheartly. shivering he sat in the corner of the horror house, staring at the ground and trying to think about how to get out of this place without running into one of the puppets. there was more than one way out, somehow he would manage he thought. but whenever he looked up in order to make out the exit, his gaze was magically drawn to wherever the puppets and dolls lurked out. creepy as fuck. his legs were like jelly, and however he tried to calm himself down, his heart pumped like crazy.

when time passed without anyone passing by (other students who he could have clinged to), he wondered if it was already that late that people had just left and had forgotten about him. "hello? is there someone?" he asked, not able to raise his head up in fear he would look straight into the puppets freaking faces again. "i need help..." he said, his voice slowly turning whiny. looking around he tried to make out the silhouettes of his surroundings. crawling might look pathetic, but kikwang didn't cared anymore. he just wanted to get out, away from these things. the male regretted to have come here, making a fool out of himself.

[rkxkikwang]

&& when the world falls down

starter for @haebinrk & @rkjhxyk

⌈ "I will follow you to the ends of the world." ⌋

there was something comfortable in their chill outs they had from time to time. even when they often watched exciting volleyball matches on tv, kikwang found their get-togethers more than relaxing. spending time with his beloved ones was his favorite passtime after all. besides that it always felt like the world was just alright, whenever they sat together, the three of them on the couch, enjoying the night.

since the three of them had been a trio for a few years now, they were closest than ever which ended in developing a few habits that might seem odd to outsiders. that night he was sitting between haebin and joohyuk. letting the female rest her head, he as well leaned his cheek against her soft hair, his left hand gently stroking her. she was warm and smelled sweet, kikwang couldn't help but cuddle with her to all his likings.

besides showering their queen with affection he displayed another habit which origined from the time they were still playing in a volleyball team together. he often helped haebin to easened the stiff muscles from teammates during breaktimes, which he gladly did to joohyuk from time to time. tonight as well, his right hand fondled his best buddies knee and thigh. glancing down he grinned at the muscular upper leg which he used to nimble at whenever he had the chance. while the others was still focusing on the volleyball match on tv, kikwang couldn't hold back and slowly let his hand wander towards the taller male's body center. he grinned at joohyuk and rested his hand right next to the other's groin. not only joohyuk knew what provocation meant.