#haha :) yeah :) that's socal baby! :)

[sleepys-dailysongs]

Song of the Day

Lil Bit by Nelly, Florida Georgia Line

Lyrics:

What up, Nelly?

You ready to do another one, bruh?

Talk to 'em (uh, uh, uh, uh), haha

Yeah, runnin' all red lights

Pull up to the club, just to get, to get ahead, right

I do this shit er'ry night

You can call it limelight, I'ma call it my life

Shawty lookin' alright

TK jeans on, skin-skin-skintight

She be shakin' that taillight

Got me froze in the road like a deer in the headlights (uh, uh, yeah)

Oh, Backwoods, wanna know if you can roll

Got Cîroc on the rocks, ice-cold

Got the coupe on the new town road

Real low, oh

I know we just met, but, girl, let's roll

Let's roll, whoa, let's roll, let's roll

I'll go anywhere you wanna go

Let's go, oh

And she said, "Take me to the country, show me where you from"

I said, "Shawty, you gon' love me and we gon' have some fun"

I'll break out my big wheel and you can climb on up

Girl, I think you a big deal, now show your boy some love

Huh, just a lil' bit

Just a lil' bit (uh)

Just a lil' bit (yeah)

Just a lil' bit (uh)

We gon' have some fun

Just a lil' bit (uh)

Just a lil' bit (yeah)

Just a lil' bit

Yeah, we gon' have some-

Shawty messin' with a pro now (woo)

I'm a pro now

I'm the who, what, when, where to go now

Shows sold out

From the front to the back, hip-hop or the hoedown

Got the game on the go route

I'm the black Tom Brady in this, I'm the G.O.A.T. now (haha)

Shawty, I'm so wow

Orleans out to SoCal

Better know now

I know we just met, but, girl, let's roll

Let's roll, whoa, let's roll, let's roll

I'll go anywhere you wanna go

Let's go, oh (ayy, ayy, ayy)

And she said, "Take me to the country, show me where you from" (let's ride)

I said, "Shawty, you gon' love me and we gon' have some fun"

I'll break out my big wheel and you can climb on up

Girl, I think you a big deal, now show your boy some love

Huh, just a lil' bit

Just a lil' bit (yeah, baby, uh)

Just a lil' bit (yeah)

Just a lil' bit (uh)

We gon' have some fun

Just a lil' bit (uh)

Just a lil' bit (yeah)

Just a lil' bit (haha, uh, yeah, yeah)

Oh, Backwoods, wanna know if you can roll

Got Cîroc on the rocks, ice-cold

Got the coupe on the new town road (uh, uh, uh)

Real low, oh

Oh, Backwoods, wanna know if you can roll (can she roll?)

Got Cîroc on the rocks, ice-cold

Got the coupe on the new town road

Real low, oh

And she said, "Take me to the country, show me where you from"

I said, "Shawty, you gon' love me and we gon' have some fun" (we back, man)

I'll break out my big wheel and you can climb on up

Girl, I think you a big deal, now show your boy some love

Huh, just a lil' bit (ayy, ayy)

Just a lil' bit (come on, ayy, ayy)

Just a lil' bit (ayy, ayy)

Just a lil' bit

We gon' have some fun (ayy, ayy)

Just a lil' bit (ayy, ayy)

Just a lil' bit (ayy, ayy)

Just a lil' bit

We gon' have some fun

[cosmo-era-yuto]

In the continued string of parallels between us, I'm also half!... But not Japanese. But my father refused to teach me Cantonese or let me go to Chinese School, so I never learned it. But I *did* learn Japanese! Still, I'm envious that your mom is helping you learn and keeping you culturally connected. That's so great!

I liked J-pop more back when I was a high school student, but as time went on I got increasingly into J-rock, which I still love a lot!

Oh yeah. Triple H's style was awesome. Sometimes it wouldn't be my style but I still admired its uniqueness and boldness.

Yeah, it took awhile for me to memorize names and faces too. I studied like how I would for a test, haha. It took maybe two week, so in the grand scheme of things it wasn't very long. I had more trouble with mixing up names and faces rather than not being able to tell them apart, though. I came remember who I had more difficulty with... Maybe just remembering the names of Hongseok and Shinwon because I was unfamiliar with Korean names? I can see how you had terrible with Kino and Hong, and Yeo One is also a little similar. You know though, I still have trouble telling Yeo One's voice also from the others. Sometimes he sounds like Kino, sometimes like Shinwon (to me). T_T

I dl'd a bunch of albums from other groups and I like the music a lot, but I don't learn anyone's names expect through osmosis. I also don't wait for cbs or follow them on sns. PTG is the only one. So they're the ult, obviously. Maybe second ranking for me includes Oneus, sf9, Monsta X, EXO, SHINee, Stray Kids, Kim Donghan's solo work, Taemin's solo work, GOT7 (r.i.p.), and Bi/Rain (my OG kpop love). Third tier is ONF, SuJu, Block B, seventeen, VIXX, BAP, Woosung's solo stuff, Eric Nam, Dreamcatcher, and TVXQ. I don't really listen to gg.

I love KARD's title tracks, I really should listen to their albums! But I *have* watched a lot of BM on Dive studios. He and I are both from SoCal, so just listening to him makes me feel like I'm in CA again.

Wow it’s an absolute coincidence that we got paired up together! I’m glad, too, but sometimes it’s hard for her. She’s been here for about 16 years and she’s told me that she’s starting to forget words or how to phrase something, and certain words she pronounce don’t sound the same they used to so she might also be gaining an American accent :(

All the more reason for me to learn so that she can actually speak Japanese to someone on a regular basis.

Oh yeah, their singing voices! I have the same issue with Yeo One and Shinwon, usually I know the difference between their voices but sometimes I still mix them up. I’ve only recently been able to distinguish Kino’s voice, I used to mix his up with Yeo One as well and Hongseok.

Oh that’s interesting! I don’t get an album unless I really “stan” the group, even if I like the music. Also I would say I like an even mixture, but in terms of just listening to songs and not really knowing the group, I think I listen to girl groups more. Also I don’t really listen to soloists. I’ve heard about a lot of really good ones, both male and female, but I haven’t had the drive to listen to any of them yet ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I definitely got into Kard because of BM (but Jiwoo is actually my bias)! I still don’t really know the members that well, but I’m an avid listener of their music. Do you have a favorite title track? Mine is Red Moon, I even learned the dance to the chorus! And if you’re looking for album recommendations I would say Red Moon, as that is also my favorite album of theirs, and a Way With Words. If the albums are too much, then few individual songs I’d recommend would be Go Baby, Dimelo, and I Can’t Stop, Jinikka.

Anyhow, it was lovely speaking to you again, until next time 👾

[touchd0wn-boy]

going to get a bit pretentious about silly things now because i love being pretentious about silly things <33

like. this band. this fucking band. yeah they’re the dick joke band and the haha funny naked dudes band and the nostalgia bait legacy act band that peaked in the early aughts but i’m literally so so serious about them.

the fact that we’re here at all, y’know. that all this drama and tragedy and heartache that’s haunted this band for twenty years has led us here again. a couple of years ago i was sure that mark&tom’s relationship was just so irreparably damaged that there would be no coming back from that. the fact that they pretty much went no-contact for five years (for the second time in their lives) and it took the double tragedy of tom's divorce and mark's cancer to make them talk with each other at all, but that was the thing that made them finally move past their issues and finally heal that rift between them and now they're friends again and talking to each other multiple times a day and making music together like they used to and now!!! now! after almost nine years they'll be on a stage together again, in front of thousands of people and so many thousands more watching from all over the world, singing the songs they wrote together. it's all cyclical, baby.

they literally deserve so much. they deserve the rock & roll hall of fame, they deserve a grammy, they deserve a thousand serious docudramas and books and prestige television shows where they’re played by some way too hot SoCal skater twinks, they deserve youtube think pieces and endless podcasts about the rise and fall and rise again of these stupid silly old men and their stupid silly band they started together in a garage in san diego.

you know. the best friends/confidants/soul mates of it all.

wait it's like 3 am here i gotta get my soppy earnest post about blink out of the way now everybody stop looking at me

[the-noodle-king]

G&M How would they Introduce or Describe each other? What is their Goal/Goals? Do they have any (other) Nicknames or Titles? How did they earn them? How do they feel about them? Do they have any Tattoos? Do they have any special Meaning? What are their Hobbies? What Element would they Bend in ATLA? What is their favourite Fashion Style? If they had a Legendary/Epic Skin for Halloween, What would it be? Where did they Grow Up? What was it like for them Growing Up? What’s their Base like

How would they Introduce or Describe each other? 

Grunt (Imitating Muscle): “Super Tall, Ultra Strong, Always Stoic Muscle Is Here To Glare All Your Problems Away!”

Muscle (Imitating Grunt): “Uh, I’m Grunt, And I’ll Uh, Talk a Lot, and Um, Kiss Good- Babe I can’t Do This”

Grunt: “Noah’s always been a big softie, ever since we were kids. He puts on a great ‘tough guy’ act, bein’ tall an’ broad an’ all, and he’s really good at looking right through ya like he’s thinkin’ about doing something terrible to ya, even though really he’s just thinkin’ about lunch or petting kittens or something. Actually it’d probably be puppies. He loves dogs, big ones especially, when he was real little- before we even met, I think when he lived in Michigan? Anyway yeah when he lived in Michigan his family had this HUGE st bernard and when they moved to- Huh? Oh sorry off topic, anyway, Noah! Yeah big softie, you know I’d say he couldn’t hurt a fly but for the whole, you know, mercenary thing.”

Muscle: “Marino? Oh well he’s... He’s, y’know... Fuck, uh what was the question? Describe Marino, right, right uh... Well he’s Marino. He’s like a forest fire. Like this big, raging inferno, bright and- *Cough* And hot, and, and uh... Shit I forgot what I was gonna say. He uh, he takes my breath away, haha! And my words. I remember when we first met, he was so loud and rowdy and scrappy... He beat up three kids bigger ‘an I was, first thing I though was ‘Wow I’d better steer clear of that kid’, and then he came right up to me, split lip, bloody knuckles, and he says “Sup”. First time I brought him ‘round my house I think my Ma blew a blood vessel in her neck... Oh sorry, I uh, trailed off there... What was the uh...”

What is their Goal/Goals? 

If you asked them I think their heads would explode. Neither of them has any clue what they want in the future. The only thing Muscle wanted as a kid was to escape his Ma and live his life for himself, and the only thing Marino ever set his heart on was Muscle. Running away together, becoming mercenaries, living their lives moment to moment... Is as far as either of them ever really got in the ‘life goals’ department.

Grunt: “Goal 1... Is figure out Goal 2!”

Do they have any other Nicknames or Titles? How did they earn them? How do they feel about them? 

When Marino was a kid he got dubbed Marino Matón, because he got in a lot of fights. He got called a lot less pleasant stuff too. Back when he was a kid he kinda liked the nicknames, the reputation, but nowadays if someone tried to call him Matón, he’d probably break their nose.

Noah on the other hand, spent the first 15 years of his life extremely blended into the background. He was very quiet, well behaved, didn’t excel at any of his studies but did well enough to glide by completely unnoticed. When his Ma got a promotion and they moved clean across the country from Michigan to SoCal, he didn’t even have any friends to miss, or miss him back. So off the radar only a handful of people (mainly teachers) even noticed when he didn’t come back to school one semester. When he started hanging out with Marino though... Well, he collected a few nicknames here and there, but nothing that really stuck. ‘Stretch’ was popular the year he shot up to 6ft.

Do they have any Tattoos? Do they have any special Meaning? 

Marino has a couple of tattoos, one behind his right shoulder of a red baby dragon, it was his first tattoo that he got on his 16th birthday, and he picked it because he liked it (and also maybe because Noah pointed it out?). He has another on his left thigh which is a little more complex, with a detailed ring running around it, and some tribal-spiked type patterns running down the outer side and finishing in a point above his knee, all in black. He decided to get it in solidarity with Noah getting his first tattoo. And finally he got Noah’s name with a little heart next to it on the left side of his chest, over his heart.

Noah went with Marino when he got his first tattoo on his 16th, but couldn’t psych himself up enough to get one too, then when Noah himself turned 21 he decided on something he wanted, getting a thick rainbow band around his right upper arm. A few years later he and Marino got each others names over their hearts, as something a little more quiet and private than a proposal, or rings.

What are their Hobbies? 

When they’re ‘on the job’ so to speak, hired for this or that but not actually in the field, Marino likes to practice in shooting ranges or tinker with his gear, and Noah finds assembling and disassembling his shotgun relaxing.

Off the job however, they both like to read, although Noah is more of a science papers, wildlife studies and gritty sci-fi/crime fiction novels kinda guy, and Marino is more of an extra trashy romance novelettes and ‘Ooo this one has dragons who can turn into hot guys in it’ medium quality high-fantasy novels kinda guy.

Marino also likes to play sports, mostly football and basketball, but Noah turned him onto tennis. Noah himself on the other hand really prefers to watch sports rather than play, particularly ice hockey; Marino once surprised him with tickets to a Michigan Wolverines game and he was extremely grateful.

What Elements would they Bend in ATLA? 

Earth and Air, specifically, Marino would bend Earth and Noah would bend Air, and people who tried to fight them would always get caught off guard by it, expecting the big guy to lug a rock at them and suddenly having the little one burst clean out of the ground.

What is their favourite Fashion Style? 

Marino likes to dress comfortably, but also look cool, but also like he’s not trying to look cool, but also also not like he’s not not trying like he still looks put together but-

Noah likes sweaters.

If they had a Legendary/Epic Skin for Halloween, What would it be? 

Legendary skin, Donnie & Clyde, 1920′s and 30′s aesthetics, classical mobster looks, Grunt has a hat, Muscle’s hair is slicked back, their guns are Tommy-Gun-esque, it’s just full of pulpy anachronisms. One of the more Halloween-Costume type skins rather than them actually being monsters or such.

Where did they Grow Up? 

Noah mostly grew up in Detroit, Michigan, before he moved to to San Diego, Southern California, where Marino grew up.

What was it like for them Growing Up? 

Marino grew up with 2 older sisters, a much older brother and a decently younger sister, his mother, her wife (Who he never really took to calling step-mom, so she was just Lucille), and the occasional visit from his dad and his partner of the month. He was a happy kid until about 5 or 6, then he started to get bullied pretty bad. He would defend himself, then get in trouble for it, then he’d get bullied more, he’d defend himself, and so on. By the time he was 10 he had a ‘reputation’ as a problem child with a bad temper who liked to fight. 1 out of 3, he did like to fight. If he was going to get treated like dirt and punished for it no matter what happened, he figured the other guys might as well lose some teeth.

Noah on the other hand grew up more or less alone. No siblings, an aunt he never met, his Ma, a dad without a name or face left in any photos, and a grandfather he got dumped on for the summer. He can’t remember being happy before he met Marino. Can’t remember a lot of his childhood actually. Doesn’t like to get into the parts he can.

When Marino decided he and this tall, stiff new kid were going to be friends, it shook Noah’s world to the core, he changed almost over night. Marino taught Noah to stand up for himself, and Noah taught Marino he didn’t have to fight alone.

What’s their Home/Base like?

The main problem with being transitory mercenaries is, well, not really having a place to call home, or even to call base reliably.

Some jobs they get set up in barracks, others a motel. If they get a real cushy bodyguarding job maybe an actual hotel room. In between jobs they tend to find somewhere out of the way to rent. Noah likes when they stay somewhere further out in the countryside, Marino prefers inner city apartments, and they take turns choosing where they stay to keep it fresh.

[coqnitive-blog]

coqnitive: a studyblr intro

hello friends! my name is amanda, and i’ve been lurking around the studyblr community for a while, but now that i’m finally in college and getting settled in, i’ve decided to make my own to motivate myself to be more productive

here are the classes that i’m taking this semester and what you could expect to see posts about:

compsci (i have no programming experience so it’s been a struggle)

intermediate korean

drugs and the brain course

a few facts about me:

i’m 18, isfp, from socal, currently attending uni in norcal

intended cogsci major (hence my url!)

i’m terribly shy and have difficulty initiating conversation but im gonna try my best to break out of my shell both online and irl lool but i love talking to people !!

i love languages

i self-learned korean for several years until i came to uni and decided to take a class because i lost self-motivation but now i’m really excited about improving so if you’re a korean learner hmu and we can practice together!

i really also want to improve my mandarin and learn japanese but baby steps, baby steps 😛

music: i LOVE day6 their music is amazing and i’m blown away by their talent but other groups i love are got7, svt, bts, nct, red velvet, blackpink, sam kim, a ton of osts, and honestly so many more i’m trash

fav shows: the flash and the office; i’m currently watch the flash and the kdrama the best hit but college classes r hard man; my fav kdrama is age of youth but i’ve seen so many

i’m always up for any show/drama recs too!!

i love marvel and superhero movies actually

i really like the color yellow it makes me happy

i’m taking an archery course at my uni and i’m bad and athletically challenged but its super fun and that’s all that matters right ? haha

my hobbies include listening to music, walking aimlessly around campus and thinking, exploring cafes and stationary shops, crying over day6, accumulating cute notebooks and stationary and noT ACTUALLY USING THEM i need to stop

also it’s my dream to study abroad in either korea or japan !

studyblrs that i love and inspired me to make one: @studylustre , @studyquill , @studykouffee , @studywithinspo , @studyign, @sushi-studies , @studyrose 

and yeah that’s about it! thanks for reading and sorry for the long intro post but if you’re a studyblr please reblog or message me cuz i need to follow more people!

[gendryw4ters-blog]

Gonna send this in now; don't worry about responding for a while, it's almost time for me to go to bed and you have fun things to do! Lieb: As anyone can tell you, Lieb doesn’t give a shit. Not about how much his clothes cost, if he went to college, the type of beer he drinks, and who he loves. Which means of course he’s punk, through and through. This comes through from old-school punk, like the Ramones, and through more modern groups like Palma Violets, Arctic Monkeys, and (1/?)

i am HYPED for this oh man!! yay!! thank you! <3

FIDLAR, his choice of pre-gaming music. He’s the cultural heir to the Beastie Boys and Nirvana and he’s proud of it. Jamie T’s songs feel like they fit that particular sentiment, with the chorus of “Sticks n Stones” REALLY summing up Lieb: “When there’s no one left to fight/Boys like him don’t shine so bright/Soon as I see the dust settle/He’s out on the town tryin’ to find trouble”.Wavves and FIDLAR (two of my favorite bands) bring in the SoCal element to Lieb. I feel like even though in (2/?)

canon he’s so damn proud of being from there, in a modern AU, he’d constantly be trying to distance himself from the general hippie reputation in favor for the grittiness of NorCal or even claiming New York (“Well, Web’s from there, and I lived with him before we came out here, so really, I am a New Yorker. And the Ramones would’ve loved me, so fuck off.”). Toye: Much like how Ron and Lip are Joy Division and New Order, the Joes are the Ramones and the Clash or the Damned: same genre, same (3/?)

circles, still different enough to be their own. Joe definitely is more in touch with his emotions outside of pissed off than Lieb, and he doesn’t really care as much about his reputation as long as he’s not publicly considered weak or soft, which leads into what I (lovingly) refer to as “1980s emo”. As with Oasis vs. Blur, the Smiths vs. the Cure is a huge debate (I’m firmly with the Cure on this one), but as long as there are songs he can mope around to, Joe doesn’t care. He does fit more (4/?

into 90s and 2000s alt in terms of his reactions and how he conducts himself, so I think Tame Impala, Pixies, and The Strokes fit him well in that area. They rep his outer reputation to people. But he’s a softie and as much as he denies it, he’s the guy who lays in bed and listens to mostly sad or apathetic music for a few days after a break up, then gets mad and makes himself get over it. Also, for some reason, this tattoo metaphor for the Joes (Lieb is stick-and-pokes done by a friend (5/6)

with some shitty alcohol and not quite legally and Joe is one of those old schools at an obscure but critically acclaimed parlor) popped in my head??? Do with it what you will. So that’s my thoughts, and I think I’m going to take a bit of a break w/the mixes. Would you like me to send in one or non-music things or something else? (6/6)

LIEB:

firstly; you’re absolutely right. lieb doesn’t give a shit about ANY of that- like he isn’t a very materialistic person at all, more concerned with collecting experience than he is with collecting actual things (aside from records, which i think perhaps he’d have a lot of- it ties in with the Web/Brooklyn Baby thing too because he’d be in awe of Web’s record collection and all of his rare finds and he genuinely does think Web is cooler than him because of that) (okay maybe not QUITE cooler than him but, yknow, close ahah). 

i actually have a whole document i did one night on why jamie t and joseph liebgott are the same person (which in retrospect would have been better as a powerpoint presentation tbh), but yeah, i think sticks and stones sums him up particularly well in that respect. it’s not even that he’s necessarily always seeking to fight, just that there is nothing else to do but fight. the kids i work with have a grand total of zero things to do at lunchtimes so they just fight for fun, which i think is something that comes with lieb quite a lot- and, presumably, jamie t. both of them have grown a lot though, and i think that becomes evident through music moreso than anything else. take sticks and stones and compare it to trouble, is what i think i mean?? idk im rambling here definitely but!! i hope you get what i mean kind of haha

ALSO i love FIDLAR and im always shook when i meet other people who do too so like!! that’s fucking awesome. and also that’s an interesting take on lieb actually! i wanted to include things to do with california because i knew his home state kind of played a big part in shaping his identity, but im afraid i was less aware of the north/south divide in terms of culturey things so!! learning that was cool, and yeah i could absolutely see him as claiming new yorker status on behalf of web omg!

TOYE:

fuck fuck i’m laughing so hard ok so I did my analyses of the Joes last night, and we have pretty much the same things to say about the Joy-Toye. I didn’t go into relationships b/w other mixes but wow, ok, 95% of it is what I had. I can still send it in, but it’s basically the same thing

first of all it’s both hilarious and wonderful that we reached the same conclusion on toye omg- like, we must obviously be doing something right if we’ve BOTH reached the same point of conclusion right?? right?? ahah

i dont really know what else to say on the matter of toye since youve worded it so brilliantly in your ask, like oh gosh, the image of him lying around after a heartbreak listening to mopey music is just like- agh i wanna give him a hug and tell him everythings going to be fine

ALSO THE TATTOO METAPHOR IS REALLY COOL AND I LIKE THAT A LOT

im tempted to write something but! i dont know what but i just, gosh its a great metaphor and great imagery too!! thank you for this!!

and also!! you do whatever you like rae honestly! im always around to chat or discuss music or the shows or anything you wanna!! you’re super cool and thank you so much for these mix things because i really appreciate them a lot!!

much love! and i hope that all is well!! <3

[steamishot]

Post Valentines Day

it’s been raining all week... and although it was nice for the first day or two, i’m missing the california sunshine. i feel so spoiled that i can barely go a few days without sunshine whereas months of this weather is the reality for a lot of places on our planet. 

i’m officially done with my class. i did the most work i ever did for my class the last week and a half or so. i worked intentionally, and not as a perfectionist. i acted more than i thought and i was on the grind. i was okay with my coding not being perfect, as long as i had some output. i was pretty behind, because of my breakup/dating someone new, family coming over for my brother’s wedding, and the wedding, being promoted at work etc... and at one point had like 4 overdue assignments. however, i hustled and pulled things out of my ass and made it work. average grade in the class is an A- (not that grades really matter in this class) but i did alright. 

i took this monday off of work to work on my project for class. the morning of, i dreaded texting my supervisor asking for a day off, because of the bad memories i had with my old boss. however, she was super cool about it. i had asked to take a day off for “personal reasons” and she responded with “of course!”. i was also gone on wednesday for i-9 training. so i missed 2 days this week and i’m not super behind, but i’m not on top of things either. but whatever, it’s da freakin weekend.

matt has been stressed out about getting into residency, and it seems like it’s pretty crippling to him. last weekend when we hung out, the plan was to meet at a restaurant in pasadena. it was raining that day. i had arrived there first and he was to arrive in 5 minutes. however, when he got to the parking lot, he received a phone call from his dad saying he got into a car accident and needs him to pick up his grandma who was sitting in the backseat. luckily no one got hurt. so he had to go back to take care of things, his grandma wanted to go to the ER because she was vomiting (i think out of psychological reasons). i waited for him for about a little over an hour, working on my project in my car in the rain. their car (although old) got totaled. but yeah in the 5 months or so i’ve known him, his grandma has been to the ER twice, and his mom once. he was really grateful that i was patiently waiting for him.

on wednesday, we facetimed til like 12:30am... and he semi jokingly asked me if i’m coming with him to new york or florida (if he gets into the residency program there). i said i don’t know. but inside, i was happy that he asked/considered it. ideally, he would get into arrowhead, or if not, another socal school. i really hope he can get in somewhere though and get on with his career in medicine. he also said “i just noticed again that you have double eyelids. that’s pretty good”. which cracks me up whenever i think about it. 

yesterday for valentines day, we went to sawtelle and ate at butcher’s dog. i used to go there with david and i haven’t gone since for fear of bumping into him (because he works in that area). we ate happy hour food and it was pretty good. he said “you want to go buy flowers? i feel like i should buy you flowers.” and i was like lol wtf, what am i gonna with flowers. i told him i got him something and not to worry about getting me anything- he can just pay for my food :). anyway, i got him an uni jetstream multicolored pen, which comes in a box. i attached a card that said “you stole my heart” with an anatomical drawing of a rib (without the heart). he was so so touched by my gift and didn’t know how to act and said he needs to process what just happened because no one usually gets him gifts. he was really grateful for what i thought was a small but cute gesture. he made the prayer/thank you gesture with his hands. and he lit up for the rest of the night. prior to that, i could tell he was stressed out/ kinda thinking about residency. he said “you’re something” and “you’re the best”. haha

then we got a hojicha latte next door and walked around looking for maybe dessert. we almost walked into blockheads but decided not to, and we ended up eating a second dinner at hide sushi. it was great- we had yellowtail, albacore, scallop, and toro. throughout the night, he kept thinking about the gift i gave him, saying weird things like “if i stole your heart, how are you alive” and then “i will protect your heart and keep it safe” etc. 

ended the night getting some hot chocolate at starbucks. and he got two drinks (he falls for deals, and at the time there was a buy one get one espresso drink, so he got two). we were showing affection/kissing/making out outside of his car at the lower level in the parking lot, which didn’t have many cars. at one point, it got pretty heated as he stuck his hand down my pants and fingered me for a bit. it was so hot haha. then we said bye and drove off. 

this weekend, we had planned to go on a small trip somewhere. at first, he thought horseback riding in temecula, then said he’s not 100% ecstatic about that. then he went on to say that he doesn’t find most things that fun anymore or something. and i’m like oh dear, this is like david. and i realized that he’s saying things like this because he’s so fixated on getting into residency and fear of uncertainty. he mentioned that he feels he can’t have fun or go on any big trips right now until he finds out what happens. so it made me see that there’s a human side to everyone. and to learn how to be more empathetic and understanding. that although they are two different guys, some things that guys do are the same. he is going on a volunteering trip to TJ tomorrow, which requires him to wake up at 3:30am and drive to UCLA, where a student org drives the volunteers down to TJ for a full day volunteer event, and they don’t get back until 9pm. we were struggling a little deciding on a place to go for sunday and monday and going back and forth between even going anywhere or not because of the rain and the fact that he’ll be tired from saturday. at first, i was a little annoyed because i thought he was just coming up with reasons as to why we can’t go somewhere, but after more consideration, i realize that he’s just stressed out, and understandably so. he handled the situation about the car accident pretty well and 90% of the time he’s pretty calm in what could be stressful situations. so i think now that he’s showing signs of stress, i should accept it and be there for him (instead of making it all about me me me) because it must be very important to him. 

anyway, we decided on san diego. i’ve been doing most of the planning and he just pays for everything haha. most of the times he doesn’t have a preference and just goes along with what i want to do or eat. i feel i am maybe just destined to be the planner in the relationship, but i dont mind it much because he spends a lot of money on us. it was different with david when i used to plan AND pay for stuff. if he can take care of the bigger expenses, and i’ll get him a gift every once in a while and do the planning/make the decisions, i’ll be happy.

after our hangout, he texted me thanks again and he wanted to give me his heart as well. he also said i’m the cutest thing in the world to him, which is like the mushiest he’s been in a while. i told him that i’m honored.  

edit: one conversation i want to remember from this night was how we were talking about his weight gain. he said interview season got him stressed out and the abundance of food he gets when he travels to the interviews was the reason why he gained weight. he said prior to that when he was just studying and working out all the time, he weighed 180 and had abs lol. in my head i was like wtf where was i then? anyway, he was wearing a dress shirt from work that day and his neck is bigger from his weight gain. i tried buttoning up the top button but he said he’s too fat now. he started talking about how when fat people lay down it’s hard to breathe because of all the weight that’s on their lungs/chest. i jokingly said yea i know how that feels (when he lies on top of me). and he said well it’s not for the whole night! and then he went on to talk about baby bonding and how mothers are supposed to put their babies back in their crib after bonding with them on her bed. this is so that the mother doesn’t accidentally crush the baby while she’s asleep. he said that he thinks about that when he sleeps with me, like i’m the baby and he’s the mother LOL 

[a-tale-of-legends]

Kinda???? Like yeah, it would be foolish to think that these some ( key word: some )types of practices didn't help society, of we're drawing parallels to the real world. Team Rocket is the most noticable, with mewtwo and everything, but I wouldn't be surprised if other Teams like Plasma, Galactic or the Aether Foundation did to( the last one tried to recreate the god of Pokemon).

But big evil teams are ironically, easy to condemn and take down. But, as you said, some of these practices are what the Pokemon are built upon, so there much more subtle. And while it's going to be harder to condemn by a socal standpoint ( as in most people would grow ignorant to the truth die to years and years of being fed this one narrative). But it's still possible!

I guess what I'm trying to say here is yes, but it's very nuanced. If your going for pure, almost all of these experiments/ foundations are corrupt and are built on these inhumane practices, then yeah, they should be condemned,even if it made the Pokemon world better. Good things in life can come from terrible terrible people, there's no denying that. I have an unfinished oc named Violet. She was born via an experiment to become Mewtwo's trainer, given that she was made with mews DNA ( so while she looks mostly human, she's technically a human pokemon hybrid? Still working things out). Yo keep a long story short, the only reason she's not in the control of Team Rocket, or died from Mewtwo himself, was cause of one scientist having a change of heart and fleeing with her as a baby, and ended up becoming her father figure in the process. This doesn't negate the terrible things he has done, essential both in conducting experiments on a Pokemon and a child, however.

( honestly in general I guess what I'm trying to say is do what you want! I feel like I'm going all over the place rather than not giving you an answer, haha)

Sullied Research.

I have a question for all of my Pokemon friends, if the Pokemon world was made better thanks to shall we say controversial, unethical, and immoral research should it and the people involved be condemned?

Also I have a idea for a OC in the Crimeverse who basically is this concept personified. A Scientist/Doctor who conducted unethical and inhumane experiments and business practices. 

What are your thoughts on this?

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BEYOND SOCAL

i'm so behind. i apologize. AHHH. ok i'll start from the beginning. DAY UNO: okay so i remember the night before i was so excited. your flight came in at like 7:10 and i slept at 3 cos AHH gonna see my baby soon!!! we were also staying up playing hay day and crossy road. (i love our quirky games HAHA.) sooo morning of... drove to pick you up. SAW U AND AH. okay... i get so excited when i see you after a while. i almost feel awkward. like what do i do with my hands?!? i just wanna kiss and hug you but meh... but whatever. WE WERE TOGETHER:)) so we got to my apartment. i cleaned it up very nicely for you!! i hope you thought it was cute. we "watched" bob burgers and then i made you vienna sausage and rice and egg and you watched the nature channel... you're weird. then we slept and chilled a bit. and then you wanted panda. PANDA of all things. walking hand in hand to school was very lovely, i loved it! then we're eating panda, yum yum! you met Ben (i know he's a bit much) and you met the rest of my friends!!! they liked you, you liked them. i'm a happy gal. TU TU for the rest of the night! we were drunk-o by the time the night ended. but it was a successful kickback. RAVE DAZE: tbh. just having it you and me is something that i love. yeah, it's fun when we have our friends around but i love every once in a while going to events just you and me. partly because we're basically the same person!! our weird dances, THAT WHITE PERSON DANCE... and our worm dance. all of it comes out when no one is around. when our friends are around, we're not as weird. so when it's us two, i'm glad it comes out. OK. i just want to apologize for this rave. weak sets, weak drugs. overall the rave experience was just meh. i felt bad because you came all this way for nothing. OH AND THANK U FOR ILLENIUM MERCH. my first merch ever :-( i almost cried bc you were going to get me the $79 jersey. you're so real for that. i love you. there was that straight away right next to outer realm and to be honest i almost started to get a bad roll because it reminded me of escape and how bad things got and bLAH BLAH. but i didn't. i danced the night away with you. just me. my baby and our favorite music in our favorite scene. overall, this whole trip thing was what i've been looking forward to in a while. it's what got me through hard times. like... get through this final and then you can see marcel!! issa struggle being away from you. having other people be near you while i can't. only hearing your voice through a camera. i miss you so much it hurts. i'm so happy to see where we are right now. not everything is perfect but we're learning and we're growing. round 2 is going pretty swell so far. thank you for coming down to be with me. i'm so happy with you, you're my forever bae, my rave bae. i love you till forever!! ♥️