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This year has whizzed by, I can’t believe how quickly its flown. Looking back, 2023 has been a much better year than 2022, but the anxiety and OCD still remain. I really want to stop it as it’s the feelings of dread, and something bad happening, that cripple me. Going to try and manage it more next year.

But, yes, it’s been a much better year. It was lovely to get away to Harrogate for a few days, and to visit the British Library in Boston Spa to do some research. Was also a thrill to visit Esholt where Emmerdale used to be filmed - so surreal!

It was also wonderful to be invited to a volunteer’s garden party hosted by the Duchess of Northumberland at the Alnwick Garden. My Mam was my plus one and it was so special, love her and Dad so much, and Dad had a lovely big birthday in June. I also saw Miriam Margolyes at the City Hall in Newcastle - she’s filth and I love it! But also, an amazing story teller and so captivating, I love her.

Still doing my job and I love it, it can be a bit stressful doing all the things I do as I’m only doing a few days, but still love it. It’s an amazing place with so many brilliant people. The insecurities still remain, but hopefully next year I’m still doing what I’m doing. I love it. It was quite overwhelming to get praise for things I did, makes it all worthwhile.

Have loved gardening for my Nana, loved seeing the garden full of flowers from seed. I love her so so so much. Haven’t baked much this year, but would like to do more cooking next year. I got back into writing in the Autumn as I sent my script off to the BBC Writers Room. I know nothing will happen as it isn’t great, but had nothing to lose. I’m planning on keeping at it though as I loved revisiting it again.

The Tories are still in the shitter hahahahaha! There’ll be an election in 2024 which will be horrible, just hope Labour win even though I doubt they will as I’m very pessimistic about those polls. Losing Paul O’Grady in March was a shocker, finding out the day after my 30th birthday (he died on my actual birthday) that he had died was devastating and so shocking. What a talent!

Still very much single, haha! I’m not really bothered about finding anyone - not something on my list really. 31 in March, I really am getting old argh. Hope 2024 is a good year. I still need to be more kind to myself. As with last year, I pray and hope all of my family stay safe. Mam has had me worried, especially in November when she fainted, but need to keep an eye out. But, yes, I hope and pray all of my family stay safe. I love them so much - Mam, Dad, Nana, Auntie Lilian, Trevor, Jan, Pam, everyone. Hope everyone is ok in 2024. 

Happy New Year to everyone! xxx