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manygreetingsfriend · 2 years

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i don’t think there’s anything that makes me feel like a shit stain on my parents’ doormat than the way my father just. couldn’t give less of a shit about my lifelong, intensely phobic fear of spiders. there’s no one i hate asking for help from more. i will be nearly catatonic in fear trying to communicate where it is and he will just. lackadaisically make his way over when convenient and just. stare at me. and just ask over and over again where is it. where is it. and then say he can’t help me if i won’t show him. and leave lmfao

#anyway. can’t wait to move out and cut them off <3 #fulfilling the family tradition of the eldest daughter being cut off by cutting myself off first <333 #have my therapist apt tomorrow and i GUESS i should bring up the childhood memory #of me begging my father for help bc of a spider #and he crushed it under a paper towel and then proceeded to push the paper towel into my face #as i cowered against a wall lmao lmao lmao

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