the tides know our names- 9/?
Summary: -takes place after the movie- Orm is working with Arthur to try to help Atlantis move forward when Elara has a vision of his death. As part of an order of Atlanteans dating back to the reign of King Atlan known as Tidewatchers, it is her duty to warn the king of her vision. Predicting and reading the future through the tides of fate has never been easy but Elara is in for the challenge of a lifetime working with her former king to save his life.
Part: 9/?
Word Count: 2,299
Warnings: alcohol mention
Read on Ao3 / start from the beginning
Author's Note: apparently I forgot to post this chapter on here when I wrote it days ago. whoops. Sorry about that.
Working hard to be less aware of how close she and Orm suddenly were, Elara looked down to the coral reef below them. She kept her eyes locked on Calysa until the party was hidden from view by the coral reef. And, just like that, she and Orm were on their way to the surface and an uncertain fate.
-
Assuming they wouldn’t have been crushed by the ocean or exhaustion, it would have taken surface dwellers weeks to swim to their destination from Atlantis. Elara and Orm, however, managed it in the better part of a day.
Several hours of that, and by far the day’s longest stretch of time was spent travelling with the humpback whales. They had decided it best to stay with the pod for several hours in the name of stealth. It wasn’t til they were leagues and leagues away that they broke formation and struck out on their own. Elara had scanned the tides for any sign of a tail and, finding none, they changed headings for the Gulf of Mexico.
If they weren’t trying so hard to hide their tracks, they likely could have made the journey in just a couple hours. Atlanteans are extremely strong swimmers to begin with but Orm could cut through the water like a missile. Elara found herself having to do her best just to keep up with him. The last thing she wanted was him thinking of her as dead weight by asking him to slow down.
They hardly talked on their journey except to suggest a course change. They swam alongside other pods of whales and numerous schools of ocean life. Part of it was for stealth but to Elara, it seemed like it was something else for the prince. It felt like Orm was trying to soak up as much of the ocean while he could.
Throughout most of the day, Orm wore a look of complete concentration but there were times- when they swam with the stingrays or over a seabed of vibrant sea anemones that his expression changed. He seemed to be trying to remember and bask in everything about life below the waves while he still could.
While Elara had a fondness for the surface, she found herself doing the same. There really was nothing like the freedom and the ease of the ocean. Everything that felt so natural down here just felt stiffer and more bogged down up above.
Atlanteans in general had a superior sense of direction and location so Elara and Orm were able to find the correct inlet in the gulf of Mexico that would lead to the cottage Arthur’s friend was lending them. It really was an ideal location: close to the ocean but secluded and away from prying eyes.
At sunset, after all the effort and planning, they reached the surface with very little ceremony. They had been under the waves and then they stood on the shore, their fet still in the shallow tides.
Elara was exhausted physically and emotionally and wanted nothing more than to go inside and fall straight to sleep wherever she landed. But she stayed where she was. Orm seemed unwilling to move farther inland from where he stood on the shore. Almost to give him permission, she turned around to face the ocean they’d just swam through. Very slowly, Orm turned to join her.
They said nothing, just watching the sun set as they said their silent goodbyes to the waves. As the sun finally passed below the horizon, Elara felt all of the exhaustion of the day hit her anew. She didn’t want Orm to feel alone in this but the need to rest was not to be ignored.
She sighed, turning ever so slightly so she could look at him and the ocean as she said, “I’m going in. I’ll see what there is to eat.”
When he didn’t reply she turned back around and began walking up the beach to the cottage. Surprisingly, a beat later, she heard the splash of the waves as he followed her.
-
Their first couple days on the surface were miserable. Elara mostly blamed Orm for this but it was partially her fault. They’d gotten off to a rough start when, minutes after entering the safe house, she’d suggested that they change and dry off. He’d looked at her stiffly even as he dripped onto the lovely wood floors as he’d asked her “why on earth would I want to do that?”
She’d just sort of blinked at him and then went back to making dinner for them both. She understood being proud of the water and all but hadn’t had enough energy to explain to him how uncomfortable it was to slog about on the surface in drenched clothing. She’d decided this was just going to be one of those things that she’d let him discover on his own.
The first night she’d decided to let him sulk. She left food on the counter, but as he seemed disinclined to get up from where he sat soaking the couch she took her food to the furthest bedroom she’d decided to claim as her own. After eating she’d meant to shower but warm as she was in her dry clothes, she fell right to sleep.
The next day wasn’t much better. He’d at least changed into some different clothes but his mood wasn’t any better. She didn’t want him to get into the habit of relying on her to do cleaning and cooking but she also feared the idea of his clothes from yesterday laying in a sodden pile on the wood floors and growing mold. Instead she’d told him she was taking her wet clothes out to the deck to dry in the sun and suggested he joined her. To his credit he did but he was taciturn and silent.
He had a lot of resentment brewing and it seemed the list of things he resented about surface life only grew. He resented having to be told how to prepare food on the surface. He didn’t like the beeps from the microwave and he hated all of the food items that were highly processed. He complained about various packing materials and non-recyclable containers.
Bearing his complaints as best she could, she decided to go to the store and find some things he might like more like biodegradable packages, and loads of organic vegetables and meats that were as organic and unprocessed as she could find. Down below, Atlanteans ate a lot of what the surface might call seafood but she was convinced he’d hate something about their presentation so she’d opted for land meat instead. She invited him along to the store with her but he seemed disinterested in any interaction with the surface dwellers. Elara sighed and went without him.
Unfortunately, his mood didn’t improve the next day; if anything his frustration had grown and been joined by a sort of restlessness. He assented to cooking lessons but she sensed it was less to do with any real interest and more so he could have something to do with his hands.
He liked what she’d picked up better or at least complained less about it and he seemed to at least get some satisfaction out of chopping vegetables and fruits so she made burritos one day and a stew the next that would require his skills.
He wasn’t as bad as he could of been but he was miserable and by proximity he was making her miserable too. She tried to relax, to read what books were in the cottage or to try to meditate on the tides but Orm’s nervous energy was infectious. If he wasn’t pacing or chopping, he was surveying the land and house. Sometimes he’d scoff at something but, happily, he kept whatever dissatisfaction he had to himself.
She understood what he was feeling and certainly didn’t hold it against him but it was a lot to handle. She tried to keep to the common areas in case he had a surface question or seas forbid he wanted to talk instead of pacing about or practicing training routines. Not that she minded seeing him work through fighting forms through the windows but it was kind of hard to pretend to focus on anything else when he moved like that. At one point all of his anxious presence got to be too much for her and retreated to her room.
She’d said she was going to meditate the tides but really she took a bath and tried to unwind. She did actually try to glimpse relevant patterns but their future was as frustratingly muddy as it had been before they’d come up here. She tried to check in on Arthur but she failed to glean anything useful or any kind of progress.
She also tried suggesting that she take him into town to maybe see some local life but he was decidedly against such plans and she didn’t have it in her to argue with him. Did she think getting out of that house and off that beach would help? Yes. But she knew it would take more than just a few days for him to be desperate enough for that.
At first she’d thought it was convenient that the cottage was right off the beach but now it felt more like a curse. Because anytime they went outside or looked out the window, there was the ocean staring back at them.
She’d had a moment where she considered inviting him out for a swim with her but, she almost worried that if she got him back in the water she wouldn’t be able to get him back out of it again. Orm seemed to be on a similar wavelength because he never got close to it.
It felt like there was some invisible boundary line between them and the beach that he refused to cross. At first she thought that he was trying to resist temptation but then she sensed something else from him that shocked her. It felt, in that glimmer, that he was almost punishing himself for something by keeping his distance. The idea seemed so strange to Elara but, a couple times after she’d caught him looking out the windows he’d had this look in his eye that seemed to confirm her sense.
Four days passed in this kind of purgatory. They talked little but most of what they said was functional and pertained to tasks that needed doing. She would have loved to try to talk him through this but she didn’t feel she had that right.
On top of all this, she was endlessly restless as well at being essentially cooped up but she was doing her best to give him space. It was all driving her crazy. So on the fourth day, after failing to persuade him to go to town with her, she’d decided that something had to give. Remembering a very memorable evening she’d had out once as a Tidewatcher apprentice on the surface she went to town alone to get some supplies.
-
Carrying her spoils back to the house in her reusable bags, Elara began to wonder if she’d gotten too much or if this was even a good idea. Entering the cottage, she saw Orm in a short-sleeved shirt doing some of his training forms, the muscles in his arms tensing and relaxing in mesmerizing ways. No, she decided on the spot, this was definitely a good idea.
Not addressing the prince, Elara went to the kitchen where she began to unpack her purchases. There were a lot of bottles and they basically filled the counters. Trying to position them all, she knocked a, thankfully non-glass bottle on the floor on her foot. At her muttered oath, Orm stepped in before seeing her purchases.
He had frown of confusion on his face, “What is all this?”
“This, my prince,” Elara said motioning before her to the many bottles of alcohol, “Is how we’re going to spend our friday night: partying like the surface folk.”
Orm’s frown was now one of distaste. “I have no interest in ‘partying’ especially not as they do up here.”
Elara had expected that, “aha! That is exactly why you need to.”
Orm began to turn away but Elara stopped him, “Orm wait.”
He paused, perhaps only because she’d called him by his name and not his title for the first time.
“Listen, I know it’s hard for you being up here. It’s driving you crazy and I get it. It’s hard for me too. But it’s not going to get easier by us ignoring each other and hoping we can get back to Atlantis tomorrow.”
He was silent for a moment before saying slowly, “I’m not trying to ignore you.”
“Well it still feels like you are,” she said sighing. “Listen, I’m not asking you to like all this but could you try to accept that this is happening? Arthur said he wanted you to get to know the surface and you’re not going to do that by pacing and training here all day everyday.”
He said nothing and she couldn’t read him so she kept going. “I’m not asking you to go out to a bar with me or go out and befriend the local townsfolk. Just work with me here.”
Finally, as if he might actually be taking her words to heart, he asked, “What would you have me do?”
“Tonight,” she said, “I want us to drink and if we’re feeling festive maybe actually talk to each other.”
He was still highly unhappy and hesitant as hell, but, to his credit he followed her into the kitchen to look at their collection of alcohol.
“Where do we start?”
A/N: hehehehehehe. Yeah buddy it is surface shenanigans time. XD
In other news, as much as I love to write Orm's redemption, it was actually a lot of fun writing him being sulky and petulant in this chapter. As they say "Orm wasn't saved in a day!" okay so the original saying might have had to do with Rome, but whatevs. Despite my first thoughts for this chapter, I realized it was wildly optimistic to assume that after trying to wage war with the surface that he wouldn't be a Supreme Unhappy Camper if he was stuck up here. So that's what I was trying to stay true to here.
Alright enough rambling, hope you guys liked!
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[Coco] The Bedside Ghost, Ch. 8
Title: The Bedside Ghost
Summary: The bell falls but, instead of waking up in the Land of the Dead, Ernesto de la Cruz finds himself with a broken spine - and an unwanted guest at his bedside who claims he can let him have the sweet release of death, if he gives back what he took from him…
Characters: Ernesto de la Cruz, Coco Rivera, Héctor Rivera, Julio Rivera, Imelda Rivera.
Rating: T
Status: in progress
[This is the fic’s tag for all chapters up.]
[Also on Ao3]
A/N: I mean, we all knew this realization was coming.
(Also there is art of a scene in chapter 3 look at this guys look I love it)
***
When her papá comes home, Coco is asleep on the windowsill.
She snuck to the window in the middle of the night, as she does most nights, to wait for her papá. She doesn’t know how much time she’s spent straining her eyes in the dark, hoping to see him suddenly step out of the shadows and under the light of the moon, smiling, with the guitar in his hands to sing her their secret song. She often hums it very quietly as she stares out of the window, hoping that it will bring him home.
But it never did so far and always, without fail, she falls asleep well before dawn despite her best efforts to stay awake. Always, she awakens in the morning in her mother’s bed, in her embrace. And each time, her mother doesn’t say a word - like she hasn’t found her asleep at the window, and taken her to bed. She will comfort her, but never talk about it.
Coco suspects it hurts her mamá even more than it hurts her, but she doesn’t know how to help. All that she knows is that everything will be better when papá comes home, so she keeps waiting by the window - and this time, she doesn’t awaken in her mamá bed. When her eyes snap open she’s still there, the world outside still dark, and the door is rattling. She almost shrieks, but then a voice rings out on the other side, and it’s a voice she knows.
“Coco, plase! I’m so sorry! I wanted to come back!”
“Papá!”
There is joy, but there’s also fear. Her papá is crying out, his voice thin and frightened, like he’s trying to get away from something dangerous out there in the dark. She can’t see him from the window, can’t see anything, and the door rattles again. He’s trying to get in and can’t, he’s locked outside and calling out for her to let him in.
“Coco! Let me come home!”
She tries to open the door to let her papá in, but she can’t: she’s too small and the door’s handle is too high up, it shakes and rattles just above her reach. “I can’t reach!” she cries out, and turns to grab a chair to climb on, or call for her mamá and her uncles, or both - but the room is gone, the house is gone, and around her there is nothing but darkness.
She takes a step back, shrieking for her papá to come in, come in right now, and that is when the door stops rattling… and finally, slowly, creaks open.
Moonlight spills on her, and there is a moment of relief, the simple certainty that all is going to be well - but when she turns, it’s not her papá she sees. Before her face, there is a grinning skull with a golden tooth; it takes her a moment to recognize it as his guitar.
But her papá is not the one holding it. She can only see his shadow, but it’s slightly too short and much too broad. She knows who it belongs to. “… Tío Neto? Where’s papá?”
A few moments of silence, and then Ernesto de la Cruz - who’s not really her tío but may very well be, her papá always said he’s his hermano in all but blood - sinks on one knee, one hand still holding the guitar. With the other, he’s handing her a songbook with a red cover that seems to be dripping color, turning his hand just as red.
“He’s never coming home, Coco. Take this back.”
She doesn’t want that dripping songbook, she wants her papá and she wants to scream as much, but words stay stuck in her throat. In the end, she just starts crying.
“You took our song,” she chokes out.
“Lo siento.”
“I want him back. Where is he?”
Ernesto bows his head, and says nothing. Something red drips from his hands and from the eyes of the skull guitar, like it’s weeping along with her. Somewhere outside a train whistles, pulling into the station, and Coco knows that her papá is not on it.
***
“What do you mean, there will be no trains?”
To be entirely fair, Imelda hadn’t meant to shout. Not so loud, at least; she was perfectly aware that the little man before her, overseeing a small station in the vast middle of nowhere, had no more power to get trains moving than she did.
But she had travelled through most of the day to get there, and was supposed to catch her connection, a night train to Mexico City. Only that everything had been delayed, over and over, and now - in the middle of the night - they were telling her that was apparently no train was going to show up at all.
It had proved to be too much for her patience, which was already wearing thin. She was tired to the bone and was stuck there, with no idea how long it would take to get to her destination - all while being entirely cut off from both Coco and the rest of her family. Jesus Christ himself could have descended from heaven in a cloud of light and glory to explain her what was wrong with the trains, and would have received the same amount of shouting.
“Señora, please. We are doing our best to resolve the situation,” the man, whose name was indeed Jesus, was explaining. “A tree fell on the tracks, and a railroad switch has been damaged. It needs to be repaired, and no trains can run until then. The technicians will keep us updated - they hope trains can resume running by morning.”
That’s not good enough, Imelda wanted to say. By morning she was supposed to be in Mexico City already, not still halfway… but even if she said as much, it would change precisely nothing. So she breathed in, and forced herself to calm down.
“I understand. How long would the train ride to Mexico City be?”
“That depends on the route. A direct train would take no more than three hours, but…”
“But the first trains will have to pick up passengers from other affected stations on the way.”
“Precisely. That means there will almost certainly be diversions. It’s unlikely we’ll have any direct trains again until tomorrow afternoon, so a morning train would likely still get you there earlier. I am truly sorry about this. Do you have urgent business in Mexico City?”
The most urgent that there could be, Imelda thought, but didn’t say as much aloud. “I see. I’ll wait here and get on the first train.”
“At the station? That may not be ideal for a woman travelling alone. There is an inn, not far–”
“I want to be on the very first train to Mexico City that runs through this station. I will wait here,” Imelda cut him off, and went back to the waiting room. There were a few more passengers who had decided to do the same, but not that many: most had probably checked into the inn for the night. Imelda found a seat at the far end of the room that put some distance between her and everyone else, put down her suitcase, and opened it.
Rosita had packed her something to eat, muttering that she wished she’d had more forewarning to make her a proper meal for the journey. Imelda hadn’t touched any yet, but that seemed the right moment. There was bread, some cold cuts, hard cheese and fruit; more than enough to see her through until she reached her destination. Still, when she reached for the food, her eye fell on something else entirely, causing her hand to still.
Amongst her spare clothes, there was a shoe with button eyes: the bizarre doll her brothers had made for Victoria. She must have slipped it in her luggage while she wasn’t looking.
She never goes to bed without it. How is she sleeping now?
The thought brought back a memory, little Coco trying to stay awake to wait for her father, and suddenly she wasn’t hungry anymore. Imelda found herself unable to put the doll back in her suitcase; she just stared at it, wishing to go home and waiting for the next train to bring her further away from it.
She hated having to wait, but at the moment it was all she could do.
***
“There is nothing else we can do, is there?”
Doctor Rojas shook his head with a sigh, his expression grim, as he kept putting his instruments back in his bag after cleaning each of them with rubbing alcohol. On the table, the basin full of hot water was still steaming weakly. The water itself was tinged with blood.
“I took away as much infected tissue as I could see. I am afraid there is little else that can be done, other than keeping him comfortable,” he said. “He won’t feel pain, at least.”
Griselda nodded, and her gaze paused on blood-stained towels. “The ulcer on his elbow–”
“It is likely where it started, yes,” the doctor replied, and heaved out a long sigh before turning. In the harsh sunlight that had begun creeping in through the window, he looked almost as tired as she felt. “If he were in better health I would probably suggest we proceed with amputation - but now, in all conscience, I cannot do it. I fear the infection is already in his bloodstream, and that would render it useless - or worse. Surgery itself could kill him.”
“If there is a chance, isn’t it your duty–”
“He is very weak, Griselda. I was almost expecting his heart to give out the moment I gave him the first injection. God forgive me, part of me hoped it would. I fear we’ve reached the point when fighting a lost battle to keep him alive is no longer a humane thing to do.”
There were a few moments of silence, then Griselda slowly nodded. It was nothing she hadn’t expected to hear, after all. She looked down at Ernesto de la Cruz, still unconscious but no longer crying out. Doctor Rojas had injected him with some anaesthetic to help him rest, as well as a mixture of drugs and antibiotics that Griselda had never thought she’d see used on anything short of a horse. Much of what had followed had been grim, and it had been a relief when she had bandaged his ulcers again, hiding them from sight.
He was resting on his back again, on clean sheets, with an oxygen mask firmly over his mouth and nose and another IV needle in his arm. Griselda reached to brush his hair off his forehead. He was still warm, but not enough for her to recoil. “The fever has gone down.”
“It is a temporary relief. I have little hope that these antibiotics will be more effective than what he’s been having so far, in the long run,” doctor Rojas said, and closed his bag with a loud clack. “Either way, I will leave you some bottles and a prescription. I have done all that I could possibly do, Griselda, and perhaps more than I should have. My suggestion is that you let it run its course. If he wishes to be brought outside, allow it whatever his condition may be. Let him enjoy what he can. You will know the end is nearing when–”
“I know what will happen,” Griselda cut him off, her voice tight. A memory emerged from the back of her mind, one of her own brothers sweating and trembling as his skin went clammy and cold, gasping that it had been all his fault, that he should have let them cut off his leg.
Jorge had died without getting to see a priest, but he was a good man, had always been a good man; perhaps sisterly love had blinded her to some of his flaws but the fact stayed that, even without the last rites, Griselda had never feared for the fate of his soul.
For the restless soul before her, things were very different. “I’ll have Padre Fernando come in for the last rites. Will he be able to speak?” she asked. She knew a priest could give absolution to an unconscious man, too - she’d seen it happen countless times - but would it be enough to absolve him of murder without a proper confession? She feared it wouldn’t.
“He should be, yes. Give him some time to awaken, first. He’ll be confused for a while.”
That was all she needed to know, at the moment. Griselda thanked doctor Rojas for all of his help and watched him leave the room for the last time before she sat again by de la Cruz’s bed. She placed a cold compress on his forehead, adjusted the pillow beneath his head, and waited in silence for him to wake up.
***
For a long time after awakening Coco sat by the window and stared at the bustling street outside, so very different from the darkness in her dream.
It was far from the first time she dreamed of waiting for her father at the window, as she had when she was a little girl and still hoped to see him walking through the door again. And sometimes, in the dream, he did return; then there would be smiles, her mother’s the brightest of all, the biggest hug, and music. It was a happy dream, most times, if painful upon awakening - but that night, it had turned into a nightmare the light of day couldn’t shake off.
She couldn’t remember all details, but what she did recall clung to her. Perhaps leaving the room and going out for a walk would help, but she dared not do so. There was a phone on the small table by her bed, a marvel that surpassed even the luxury of hot running water in the bathroom, and she’d been told that any call for her would be put through from the lobby.
Someone could call any moment with information about her papá’s whereabouts; she couldn’t bear the thought of missing that call, even though of course they would leave a message for her. Her father’s return home had been delayed enough as things were.
After about a hour’s wait, Coco had dared make one call to Santa Cecilia to leave another message for her family - a very short one, because she didn’t want to hold the line for too long. She’d told Paula that she was well, that she sent everyone her love, and that she would be back soon - again. Then she had put the phone down, and the wait continued.
Having nothing to do was the hardest part of it all. She wasn’t used to staying idle and, most of all, she had nothing to distract herself from her own thoughts and the nebulous memories of the dream that had plagued her night. A hour passed, then two and three; as lunch time approached, she began fearing that perhaps they had called just as she was calling the inn in Santa Cecilia. Maybe they had left a message. Maybe she should go downstairs and ask.
Or maybe she was simply being paranoid, and too impatient. Isabella had been eager to help and had said she would do her best to get the records found as soon as possible, but that didn’t mean she could work miracles. It may very well take another day, or maybe two, or three or even a week, before anything concerning her papá could be found in the archive.
And you can’t stress out like this for a week, a voice that sounded much like Rosita’s chided her from the back of her mind. You didn’t even finish your breakfast. This isn’t good for you. Or your baby, if there is one.
The thought caused Coco to bite her lower lip, and reach to rest a hand on her stomach. The more she thought about it, the more certain she became that she was, indeed, with child. Looking back and counting the days, she could very well be in her tenth week or even further along… and she hadn’t told her family yet. She hadn’t told her husband yet.
It would serve no purpose but to make the worry at the moment, she told herself, and she knew it was true: Julio especially may downright panic if he knew. But at the same time, keeping it to herself made her feel more alone than she ever had before. Perhaps she should see a doctor right away, really. If she asked in the lobby where she could find–
A sudden, loud ringing noise caused her to recoil. It was a harsh and unpleasant sound, and it took her a moment to realize that it had come from the phone. Coco rose quickly, almost stumbling on her way to it - one of her legs felt numb, served her right for folding it beneath her - and grabbed the receiver before it could ring a third time. “Yes?”
The voice on the other side was wonderfully familiar, and the one she’d most wished to hear, aside perhaps from that of her daughter. And her husband. And her mother.
“Socorro, dear, is that you? It’s Isabella. We believe we have found his folder. It matches what you said, but we need you to confirm it for us. How soon can you make it here…?”
***
“Padre Fernando will be here soon, señor de la Cruz. Do you understand what I’m saying?”
Griselda waited in silence as he stared at her for a few moments and then, slowly, tilted his head in what she supposed was an attempt at a nod. He was still slow on the uptake, but he seemed to understand what was going on.
“Can you talk, señor?”
He swallowed. “Yes,” he rasped. “Water.”
She poured some water from the pitcher, and held up his head to help him drink. Even so, it took the better part of a minute and some water spilled. Griselda settled his head back on the pillow and put the glass down; she was about to speak again, but he got there first. He seemed slightly more aware, more alert, his gaze no longer as clouded.
“What happened?”
“You became sick last night,” Griselda said, reaching for a tissue. I feared you’d die in my arms, she thought, but didn’t say as much aloud. “Very sick. Don’t you remember?”
He seemed to think if over for a few instants. “Heath,” he finally mumbled. “I remember I was burning. It thought I was in Hell. Wasn’t too far off, I guess.”
Griselda barely restrained from crossing herself. “You had very high fever. It has gone down some now. Doctor Rojas was here, to give you some more antibiotics and–”
“And now you have called a priest,” he cut her off. “It’s almost… almost over, isn’t it?”
There was a pleading quality to his voice that made Griselda’s heart clench. She nodded as she wiped his chin dry with the tissue, avoiding his gaze.
Fighting a lost battle to keep him alive is no longer a humane thing to do.
“Sí, señor. It’s almost over.”
“Not yet, though. We both go home, or neither does. Héctor told me.”
It was far from a cold day, but Griselda found herself shivering all the same, wondering what nightmares had ravaged his mind before doctor Rojas had given him an injection to let him rest. Part of her wanted to ask, but she found she didn’t quite wish to know. “Regardless, you have little time. With everything else settled, you need to worry about your soul.”
“Why? You’re doing such a good job on my behalf,” he muttered, and gave a weak grin at the unimpressed look that gained him. “I will see the priest, if it’s so important to you.”
“It is. Will you confess–”
“I like priests. I fucked one, once. And a nun. Not at the same time, though.”
“… Are you trying to get a rise out of me just now?”
There was a rasping sound that might have been a laugh. In a way, it was a relief. “Maybe,” de la Cruz said, then, “I’ll confess what I see fit. The secret of confession and all that.”
Fair enough, Griselda supposed. It was not up to her to question what he would or would not confess. She would get him a priest; the rest was up to him. “Of course. I didn’t mean to pry.”
El se��or de la Cruz closed his eyes, and let out a long sigh. “I’d really rather sleep,” he murmured, and he did sound dreadfully tired. It stirred some pity in her chest, and Griselda reached to brush back his hair. She glanced towards the drugs she used to help him sleep.
“After your last rites,” she promised, and was about to ask him if he wished her to close the window when he opened his eyes again and spoke.
“There is something I need you to do. Once I’m gone, if… if I’m allowed to go.”
“You told me already, señor. The tapes–”
“No, not those,” he cut her off, and swallowed a couple of times before speaking again. When he did, his voice was little above a whisper and his gaze was fixed someplace above her left shoulder, as though he was looking behind her rather than at her. “It’s about a guitar.”
***
“What do you mean, she has left??”
This time, at least, Imelda had fully meant to shout. She felt as though she would explode otherwise, all of the worry and frustration and exhaustion that had been building up suddenly too much for her to handle. The journey to Mexico City had been hell, the cab ride to the mansion - thank God everyone and their dog seemed to know where it was - vomit-inducing, but she could have dealt with all of that. She had.
What she could not deal with was a weasel of a man looking at her through the gate, refusing to let her in and telling her that her daughter was not there anymore.
“Señora, please,” the man said, holding up his hands. It would only occur to Imelda later that her reaction may not have been the kind that would make him want to open the gate between them. “I’m telling you, she took a cab two days ago and–”
“A cab to where?”
“I don’t know! Maybe el señor de la Cruz–”
“El señor de la Cruz will tell me himself, then,” Imelda spat, anger threatening to choke her.
It was a curse, wasn’t it? Forget music, he was her problem. Had that man taken it upon himself to break her family apart? First he’d taken her husband away from Santa Cecilia, filling his head with childish dreams if glory, and now she’d lured her daughter away, too, with the nebulous promise of news about her good for nothing father.
I should have slammed the door in his face when he first suggested that tour of Mexico. I should have burned that letter when I received it.
“Señora Rivera–”
“El señor de la Cruz will see me now, ” Imelda cut him off, gripping the metal bars of the gate so tightly her knuckles turned white. “Open this gate, and–”
“Juan? Who is it?” a woman’s voice rang out. Imelda tore her gaze away from the man - who, unbeknownst to her, let out a long sigh of relief - to turn towards its source.
Two were people walking away from the mansion and up to the gate: a tall, imposing woman who had to be well in her sixties, and a priest who was maybe a few years older than that.
For several moments Imelda could only stare in silence, her eyes fixed on the priest, on his grim expression, on the small suitcase he was carrying. She had seen priests with that same look on their face and a similar suitcase leaving dying men’s homes before, after giving them their last rites. Realization hit her like a bucket of cold water and caused her anger to sputter out, replaced by a sense of sudden incredulity.
“Ernesto,” she found herself saying numbly. She had known that he wasn’t well - he’d hinted as much in his letter - but somehow she hadn’t thought for a moment that the situation could be that desperate; she hadn’t thought she would arrive to find him at death’s door.
It felt wrong on a fundamental level to imagine him on his deathbed, even though she knew what a dreadful accident he’d had and how many years had passed. In her memory he was still twenty-five, eager to travel Mexico to play for crowds, full of bluster and bull-headed optimism that never failed to rub off Héctor - and that sometimes, just sometimes, she had even found somewhat amusing herself. But now he was dying, or already dead.
The thought made her feel sick; she had never wished him ill. Not that much, at least.
“Señora? Can we help?” the woman asked, a concerned frown on her face.
“Ernesto,” Imelda repeated, finally tearing her gaze away from the priest. “Is he… did he…?”
The woman shook her head. “No, not yet. He’s sleeping now, though, so I’m afraid he won’t be able to see anyone for a few more hours,” she said, and gestured for the man - Juan - to open the gate. “May I ask…?”
“My name is Imelda Rivera. He wrote to me about a month ago.”
The woman’s expression lit up in recognition. “Oh! You must be Coco’s mother,” she said, and some of the numbness faded away, replaced by a sort of relief. Maybe she would know where her daughter was, after all. “I’m Griselda Lopez. I’m truly sorry you were faced with such grim news as soon as you arrived,” she added, and tilted her head towards the priest. “This is Padre Fernando.”
“My pleasure,” he said, and Imelda acknowledged him with a polite nod before turning her attention back to Griselda.
“I came looking for my daughter,” she said, trying to keep her voice as calm as possible, and her eyes darted to Juan, who flinched. “He told me she has left, but she never said she was coming home, either. Do you have any idea…?”
“Oh, yes. She’s still in Mexico City, but she had to stay in a hotel, for…” the woman paused, and Imelda could see the hesitation crossing her features before she spoke again. “I am certain she’ll be more than happy to explain you everything,” she finally said, and gestured for Juan to leave.
She waited for him to be on his way back towards the mansion before she poke again, and that told Imelda that whatever she was about to say, she didn’t want anyone but herself and the priest to hear. And was it her, or did that Griselda keep glancing at the priest, as though she was trying to guess something from his expression alone?
Unaware of her quizzical glance, or perhaps all too aware of it, Griselda spoke again. “I have called a cab to bring Padre Fernando back to the city. I am certain he’ll have no objections if you take advantage - it is all paid for,” she added, and Padre Fernando smiled.
“I don’t mind at all. I would like some company on the way back. Giving a man his last rites is always rather taxing on one’s heart.”
Imelda bit her lower lip. Part of her still wanted to march inside and demand explanations right away, but she was willing to hold her tongue and wait another while if that meant she would be able to see Coco soon, and ask what in the world was going on to her directly.
Plus, she found she didn’t want to see Ernesto, or whatever had become of the man she’d known, on his deathbed.
“I believe I will take you up on that offer, thank you,” she said, and glanced towards the mansion. It was in the middle of a large garden, and white as marble; it made her think more of a mausoleum than a home. Fitting, for a dying man. “… I had no idea he was that sick.”
That caused Padre Fernando’s smile to fade. “His suffering is almost over. I find some comfort in thinking about it this way.”
“Of course,” Imelda said, and turned away from the mansion, trying to ignore the stab of pity. Perhaps she was supposed to say something, leave a message for him when he woke up - if he did wake up. But she could think of nothing to say; too many years had passed since they had been… not friends, never quite friends, but close enough acquaintances. Too many years, over half their lives, and Héctor was no longer there to bind them in any way.
There was nothing she could do to help him, anyway. Best to leave him in peace. All that she could do - all that she should focus on - was finding Coco and bringing her home. So she said little more until the cab arrived, until she climbed on it and told the driver the name of the hotel where, according to Griselda, Coco was staying.
As the cab pulled away she did not look back, not expecting to see that mansion again - much less to set foot in it.
Then again, she expected nothing of what was about to hit her.
***
“Sit down, dear, sit. It’s dreadfully hot outside, isn’t it? Have some water.”
Coco smiled, agreed that it was unseasonably warm, and had a few gulps of water - but all of it felt forced, like someone else was pulling the strings to make her go through the motions. It had taken the cab forty minutes to get Coco to her destination - the longest, most agonizing forty minutes she had ever lived through. She had waited for her father her entire life, and now that the end was so close time seemed to stretch on and on.
“Eduardo wanted to start searching on Wednesday, that lazy bum, but he owes me a favor or two and that got him going. I’m sure that he’s nowhere as busy as he claims he is all the time. And this dust allergy of his that comes and goes - excuses, excuses, excuses,” Isabella was muttering, searching through her desk drawers. If they were as messy as the rest of her office was, it was no wonder she had trouble finding what she was looking for.
That thought, and her words, got a small smile out of Coco despite the tightness in her stomach. “Muchas gracias,” she said. “It means a lot to me.”
“Oh, it was nothing,” Isabella replied. “It doesn’t say where he was buried, but - oh, no, dear, it is all right!” she said quickly, clearly noticing the dismay on her face. “There is a reference number. It might take some time to dig out the old register and find out what the matching lot is, but it can be done. It will be done as quickly as possible, if you confirm this is him,” she added, and finally put something in front of her - a yellowish folder, stained by humidity and still smelling like dust. Coco faintly wondered how much longer it would have taken for it and its contents to be eaten away by rats and mould, and the thought made her nauseous.
But it’s here. I have it. I made it on time, she thought, and she forced herself to ignore the insidious fear that perhaps they got the wrong folder, or maybe something had happened to that register. Rats, mould, perhaps a fire, any kind of damage to make it unreadable–
No. Don’t. It will be all right. It must be.
“You can open it, dear,” Isabella spoke, her voice gentle, and Coco recoiled. She hadn’t realized she’d been staring down at the folder for several moments in complete silence.
“Oh. I… my apologies,” Coco said quickly, and reached to take the folder with shaky hands.
“No need to apologize, this must be very stressful for you. Take your time. I am afraid you cannot take it away - it is for identification purposes, you understand - but you can look all you want while here. A couple of pictures there may not be very pleasant to look at, I fear.”
“I understand,” Coco said, marveling at how firm her voice sounded despite everything. She drew in a deep breath and opened the folder, expecting to see a dead body.
Her papá smiled at her. For a moment everything stilled, and Coco forgot how to breathe.
The face looking up at her wasn’t that of a corpse: Héctor Rivera, aged twenty-one, was giving her that boyish grin of his she had never forgotten. He looked so much like her in that photo, with the same smile and cheekbones… and he was so, so young. It struck ever even harder than it ever had before that he’d been little more than a boy.
“This photo…” she whispered, her throat tight. Her fingers reached to stroke its surface, tracing his features, and she almost feared her touch alone would make it crumble to dust.
“It was found on him,” Isabella said, very gently, and refilled her glass with some more water. “It is him, isn’t it?” she asked. Coco nodded, unable to force out any words.
“We should be able to release that photo to you, once the formalities are all taken care of.”
With another nod, Coco put down the photograph - it took an effort, it truly did - and looked at the next sheet in the folder. There was an inventory of what the body had been found with, which wasn’t much. A salmon-colored charro suit, as she’d known; a few pesos in his pockets, as well as a photo of himself in the breast pocket… and that was all, or almost.
An empty bottle of tequila, resting in the crook of his right arm.
Coco paused, and read the sentence again - first with a sort of numbness, and then with growing confusion. That didn’t make any sense; Ernesto had said that her papá had felt sick on the way to the station, collapsed, and died within minutes. He’d said that he’d taken his songbook and guitar, and left. Why would her father have a bottle on him when found?
And why was his suitcase not mentioned anywhere in the list? Surely he must have had one with him, if he was about to travel home. Had Ernesto taken the entire suitcase, too, along with the songbook and guitar? It was possible, she supposed, but something about that scenario felt wrong… though not as wrong as that bottle. It didn’t fit Ernesto’s tale at all.
“Dear, is everything well? Do drink something, you’re so pale…!”
Isabella’s voice sounded distant, her words inconsequential. Heart beating somewhere in her throat, Coco turned the page with hands that were surprisingly firm - and found herself looking at two more pictures, taken from different angles: her father’s body, as it had been found the following morning. The photographs were old and slightly grainy, but she did recognize him; he looked like he was sleeping, slumped against an old brick wall, with his head head bent over his shoulder.
And sure enough, there was a bottle tucked in the crook of his arm that had no reason to be there. It looked wrong; it looked staged. But why….?
For the songs. They made me famous. It was all I had ever wanted.
“Señora Rivera? Socorro? Ay, are you all right? Do you need–?”
Whatever she said next, Coco did not hear. The world around her seemed to spin, and that photograph was all she could see clearly. On its own, it showed a travelling musician who had drunk himself into unconsciousness and death. With what she knew now - with what Ernesto had told her - it gave a different story. With the mind’s eye she saw her father’s best friend, his hermano, propping his body up against a wall and placing the empty bottle on him before running away into the dark, with his guitar and songbook, like a thief. Like a murderer.
He never made it, but he always meant to go back home.
With the songbook. He’d tried to return home with his songbook, with their song, and Ernesto wouldn’t let it happen. He hadn’t let it happen. Was that why he’d been so sure she was in danger over that accursed thing, that his manager would go as far as harming her? Because he, too, had stolen a life to keep it? How had her father really died, so suddenly, so young?
No, Coco thought desperately, no. She was going loca, it couldn’t be.They’d been children together; they had gotten into all sort of mischief, grown up, played, drank, sung together. Ernesto had been her papá’s best man at the wedding, the one he had chosen as her godfather, who had told her all those stories about him. He’d wept with her for him, tried to fix what he’d done. He may have stolen his songs, but not his life. He would have never…!
“I know how far a man can go when he thinks he stands to lose everything,” he’d said.
“Even a rat becomes dangerous when cornered,” he’d said.
Nausea hit her like a physical blow, and she felt bile rising in her throat. Coco let go of the folder as though it had caught fire and tried to stand, to walk away, to get outside and breathe in some air, but she never managed to take more than a few steps.
The world around her spun, her insides clenched, and her knees hit the floor before Isabella could get to her. Bile burned her throat and mouth, her eyes watered, and the room became dark - almost as dark as in her dream, when Ernesto had loomed over her.
In the darkness she hadn’t seen his face but, she now remembered, she had seen his hands - holding her papá’s songbook and guitar, and dripping with blood.
***
“What do you mean, she’s not here?”
“It means what I said, señora. The only Rivera we have had as our guest in the past month is Diego Rivera, and I am fairly sure he’s not your daughter,” the clerk added, so haughtily that it took all of Imelda’s willpower not to take off her boot and give him a lesson he wouldn’t ever forget. “Now please, lower your voice before I–”
Whatever he threatened next - call the security, most likely - was entirely lost to Imelda. She didn’t care how fancy that hotel was and how superior that clerk thought he may be: that was the place where she had been told Coco was staying, so she had to be there - and if not, they must have some idea of where she may be now.
She didn’t care if that man decided to call the army on her: she was not leaving that lobby without an answer, and she was not leaving that city without Coco. What would she even tell to Victoria and Julio if she returned alone, with no clue as to where–
Wait. Julio.
“… Would be quite a regrettable incident for this establishment, so I will once again–”
“Martinez,” Imelda muttered, caused the man to pause and blink.
“Excuse me?”
“She’s married. Socorro Rivera-Martinez,” she said, and stared at the man in the eye. “She may be under her husband’s name. Did a Socorro Martinez check in in the past two days?”
The clerk blinked, taken aback, then his gaze brightened as though something in his mind had just clicked. “Oh! Yes, now that you mention it, there is a Señora Martinez… let me see…” he mumbled, and went to check the booking. His demeanor changed so quickly it was almost unreal. “Yes, indeed. Socorro Marinez - she’s staying in room 217.”
“Good. I’ll be going upstairs.”
“She’s not in - she asked us to call a cab for her earlier today. B-But she will return!” the clerk added quickly after Imelda gave him one, long look. “She didn’t take her luggage, did not check out… she might be back shortly. Perhaps you’d like to wait in the lounge, or–”
“… Mamá?”
For a moment, Imelda didn’t register the voice coming from behind her as her daughter’s. Coco was a woman, approaching her thirtieth birthday; her voice was softer than her own, her tone gentler, but she certainly didn’t sound like a scared young girl. Not anymore.
Mamá… is papá ever coming home?
Imelda’s stomach sank, and she turned slowly, barely registering the look of alarm on the clerk’s face. Coco was standing only a few steps away, and she looked ill. Her skin was ashen gray with red blotches, her eyes puffy, her lower lip trembling; when she blinked, tears spilled down her cheeks. Imelda had never seen her in such a state, and it caused her anger to vanish, her worry to turn into something closer to terror. Within a second she regretted all of the sharp words she had uttered when they had last spoken, every minute of cold silence.
“Coco,” she called out, dropping her small suitcase and taking a few quick steps forward. “What happened? What’s wrong, mija?”
She reached out to press a hand on her forehead and see if she had fever, but Coco moved first. She threw herself at her like she hadn’t since she was only a little girl with scraped-up knees, buried her face against her shoulder, and let out a gut-wrenching cry of grief. For a time she just kept sobbing, unable to utter a single word, and Imelda could only hold her tight, mind reeling with questions she couldn’t ask - not yet, not until she’d calmed down.
But even amongst that confusion there was one certainty, solid as stone: her daughter needed her, and she was exactly where she was meant to be.
***
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