I would love to know about books that changed your life…favorite books?
oh boy okay buckle up! let's talk books! [thank you so much for asking, i love talking about this stuff ilysm]
so i am currently reading decreation by anne carson which i am really loving, and i reckon that's instantly on the list so we'll start there.
lemme break it up by genre with everything i can think of off the top of my head [and see on my shelf right now] also YOU ASKED SORRY BUT IM BOUT TO RUN WILD ALSO IM DEFINITELY FORGETTING LIKE A HUNDRED GOOD BOOKS HERE
short-story/poetry collections [aka the main thing i read most these days]
brute by emily skaja
flèche by mary jean chan
deaf republic by ilya kaminsky
autobiography of red by anne carson
foreign soil by maxine beneba-clarke [changed me forever]
bluets by maggie nelson
her body and other parties by carmen maria machado [idk if this entire collection is on the favs list, but some of them? woof]
classics
an oresteia translated by anne carson
narcissus and echo [from metamorphoses] by ovid
the bacchae by euripides
old [and old-er] lit
macbeth by willy shakes [see: my blog description]
hamlet by willy shakes
a streetcar named desire by tennessee williams
the end of the affair by graham greene
contemporary lit
nightbitch by rachel yoder [who else out here turning into a dog when their husband is away for work?? just me?]
the secret history by donna tartt [duh]
milk fed by melissa broder
year of wonders by geraldine brooks [this book has everything: the plague, self-flaggelation, gore, fucking the local priest!]
call me by your name by andré aciman [lots of discourse around this one but you can't deny that the writing is beautiful]
a book that is not a favourite but certainly changed me as a person lmao
crash by j. g. ballard
fav series of all time!!!!
the skulduggery pleasant series by derek landy. idgaf! that irish man changed my life, go read it that shit is timeless. sorcery? friendship? vampires? violence? incredible stuff. the birth of my whimsy.
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Round 8: Semi- finals
AN: This one is a little long so I put the keep reading thing on it. Its 1,875 words.
iKon 8th member AU
July 2016
The excitement was high backstage. The remaining six contestants will have solo performances with a special guest performers. All of them matched-up to go against another contestant. The contestant who earned the most amount of money during their match-up will advance to the final round, while the other gets eliminated. Making it this far should be accomplishment enough but for Asuka it isn't. She wants to show everyone, especially her female fans, that she can win it. The fans didn't approve of her in the beginning and wouldn't include her in the fan chants but since the show has started they have sent her nothing but love and she's even received some fan mail.
Asuka Pov
I'm sitting in the room for my team putting some finishing touches on my verses. I have a surprise guest tonight to feature on my song. I get up to go find Joon-Kyung oppa to get some feedback on what I wrote but when I open the door Xitsuh is standing outside of it. “Did you need something?” I start to look around to find any excuse to run away because the whole pretending someone called my name thing I usually do with YoYo whenever he tries to make really bad jokes, simply won't work in this situation because alas there isn't anyone in the hallway with us, just my luck. “I just learned that I'm going against you tonight and came to wish you luck.” But before I can thank him he continues speaking. “Hopefully whatever rhymes you have in your hand there are better than your little boyfriends disses.” He smirks and walks away before I can make any type of comeback. Things like this are what make me hellbent on winning, the men here are so misogynistic and egotistical I often wonder how they're gonna take it when a woman knocks them off of that pedestal. I roll my eyes and turn around to continue on my journey in finding the man I need. But once again i'm stopped when I see a familiar figure wearing my favorite hat on him. “Jae won?” he turns around at the sound of my voice and smiles “Nuna just the woman I was looking for.” I smile shyly “It seems like i'm a woman in high demand today.” He raises an eyebrow at my confession. “Xitsuh came to the room and just wanted to trash talk.” “Well what’d he say?” “He came and said he wanted to wish me luck, but then turned around and said he hopes I wrote something good tonight, then proceeded to call you my “Boyfriend.” I don't take much notice to how he stiffens at the mention of me being chastised about our relationship or whatever this is. “So… Boyfriend huh?” I roll my eyes which also seems to be popular tonight and walk away before he grabs my arm and pulls me back into his chest. “You shouldn't walk away from your boyfriend nuna it's rude.” “I don't believe you've actually asked me to be your girlfriend mister.”
Jae won POV
“I don't believe you've actually asked me to be your girlfriend mister.”
I freeze up again and the box in my back pocket feels heavier than before. I went and got her a gift to make asking this a little less awkward. “Actually that's why I was looking for you.” She turns around a little and tilts her head at me, I can tell she's trying to act casual but her wide eyes are a dead give away of her nerves. Her eyes -- they always giver her away, she's really bad at concealing her feelings, all you have to do is look into those beautiful brown eyes of hers. I reach into my back pocket. “Turn around, close your eyes, and move your hair for me please.” she hesitates but moves her hair off her neck anyway. I take a breath and pull the necklace from the box and slide it around her neck and fasten it. “Ok open.” she looks down at it and looks back up at me. “I know we've only known each other for about 7 months, but there's just something about you. I can't even lie, you stay on my mind a lot. Whenever I see you I get lost in you all the damn time. I know it's quick but i'd like to take you on a date if you'll let me?” She smiles real big and shakes her head really fast and I can't help but laugh at how cute she is. But before we get to enjoy our little moment Joon-Kyung hyung comes up smirking knowingly “I'd hate to break up this little moment lovebirds but Ms Asuka you're up kid.” with that he walks away “Damnit I didn't even get him to look over my verses.” I turn to her and notice she's nervous again. I grab her shoulders to grab her attention. “No matter what you have written down I know you're gonna kill it.” She smiles and hears her name getting called so she starts jogging away but does a U turn and I get confused “Did yo-” I'm cut off by her smashing her lips into mine and running off again.
Asuka POV
I smile glad to know that he's here to support me and that the boys are somewhere watching me. The beat i'm doing my first verse on to get the crowd hype, starts playing and I take that as my cue to walk out and start rapping
Bobby called said let me get the car key, you don't want it with the Osaka Barbie, keep marquis, everything sparkly (man down) hit em on a walkie talkie. Hit em, knock knock tell em let me in. my name ring bells, bitch buzz me in, and I only stop for pedestrians or real real bad lesbians. Hit em with the mac hit em with the tec 9 hit em with the rugger by the intersex line put my whole burrough on my back and i'm gooda i don't wanna hear what you would, what you coulda I represent all the girls that stood up, used to drink water with a little bit of sugar now i'm in the gym with my squats and my sit ups young japan pin up, i'm that bitch yea I been up now i'm tellin YG to step his bid up!
The crowd gets hype and before I start my actual song i notice i already have $2,000 on the board. The lights get darker and my second beat starts and I take a deep breath and start rapping again
Better move, better make a better move, Better run quick, hide, 'cause see me I never lose
Better shoot, take a shot better shoot, I’ma get what's mine, get the product and the loot, better grind, Tell me where I've gotta go and get it, tell me what I gotta do, I gotta get the benefits and look around, tell me what I gotta go against, Tryna show me who can stop me, I’ma show you I'ma win, 'Cause I am the queen, I am what they want, I have something that cannot be bought, I am the queen, yes I am a boss, I'm in command, I take no days off
Before the hook can start my special guest comes out and the crowd goes even more nuts when the doors open and Jooheon steps out. He starts rapping his part and I look out into the crowd and notice their shocked faces. Everyone most likely thought I would pull some strings and bring someone from YG like G dragon who I haven't even met yet, Mino, Joon oppa thought I'd bring Jae won back, or maybe even one of the boys but I wanted to go out of the box and out of YG so I called up Jooheon, who I met at an awards show a few months ago even though i've been a fan of his for awhile, I was ecstatic when he said yes. While he's rapping I go out into the crowd and they get even louder.
You don’t gotta watch that throne 'cause it's mine, Give that crown 'cause it been my time, There ain’t never be another quite like I, cause if crime pays them i'm bout that life, where? Tell where the queens is at?, independent women that don't need a king for that, 'Cause I am the queen, I am what they want, I have something that cannot be bought, I am the queen, yes I am a boss, I'm in command, I take no days off
When the song ends and I look up at the board I notice that I earned $6,780,000, which is 3x what Xitsuh made which means i'm going to the finals and his ass is going home! I run to Jooheon and thank him for coming and performing with me and as we walk backstage he says ��“Anytime, anything for my big sister” and he smiles. As soon as I step foot off stage I'm bombarded with hugs and and Joon kyung even goes as far as putting me onto his shoulder. “You did fucking amazing!! See whatd I tell you the rap barbie got this in the bag.” He's become keen on calling me the “rap barbie” because he says my face and personality dont match my style of rapping. I smile but see Jae standing against a wall waiting patiently for me to be done. I excuse myself and walk over to him. “See what happens when you have confidence in yourself?” I blush but thank him anyway. He leans in and kisses my forehead and says “I have to go i'm supposed to be in the studio right now, I snuck out to see you and if I don't get back now my manager is gonna have my ass on a plate.” I laugh and thank him for coming but before he walks away we hear someone gasping and I turn around and my jaw drops when I notice that Bobby is standing just a few feet away in what looks like...my jacket? I run up and jump into his arms and wrap my legs around him and hug until he can't breathe. “Nuna.. as much as I love your hugs i'd like to live to see you make it to the finals so please let go.” “What are you doing here? And who said you could wear my jacket?” I let him go and he looks back at Jae then back at me and raises his eyebrow. “Shouldn't I be the one asking the questions?” before I could answer Jae comes and wraps his arm around my waist. “I asked her out on a date if that's alright with you.” Jae knows how much I love Bobby and how close we are so I smile hearing that he cares about his opinion. Bobby smiles that goofy smile of his and I laugh.
“Of course it's alright i'm glad you finally did it, you guys were starting to make me sick.”
Authors note: This one is a little long but im happy with it and hope everyone likes it!! I've never been in a relationship myself so im sorry if Jae and Asuka are cringy but I love them!
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DopeLoverx: all these spikes and shit
DanielTheKing: you thought you was a god?
ThatsTy: like y df my nigga aint puttin his hand up like he blokn det shit?
DopeLoverx: let me move
ThatsTy: yuh
ThatsTy: i did
DanielTheKing: we can swap dope
DopeLoverx: ty besti
ThatsTy: like shiiid im Vip,
DanielTheKing: they can't attack u
DanielTheKing: but they can hug u
DanielTheKing: z
ThatsTy: mfs still huggn me
Guest_EvilXMarc: are my spikes in your way?
DopeLoverx: YES!
DopeLoverx: >>>>>>
DanielTheKing: ion feel em
Guest_EvilXMarc: oh lol
DopeLoverx: lol
ThatsTy: but wen i wasnt vip tryna hug a girl det was vip i kouldnt
DanielTheKing: damn ty
Guest_EvilXMarc: they look sexy
Guest_EvilXMarc: .
DanielTheKing: errbody love u
ThatsTy: sit weird
DopeLoverx: lmfao
DopeLoverx: z
DopeLoverx: right
ThatsTy: my first imvu account i was 13, llf den i neva got on afta i turned 14 n hea i am 2day
ThatsTy: gah bak on 2 years ago
DanielTheKing: z
DanielTheKing: you go way back then
DanielTheKing: yah they changed that vip shit
ThatsTy: fakts
DanielTheKing: when it first came out u couldn't nun to vip
DanielTheKing: u was a peasant
ThatsTy: nah
Guest_EvilXMarc: .
Guest_EvilXMarc: lol
ThatsTy: u still kant G
Guest_EvilXMarc: >.>
DanielTheKing: how they huggin u then
ThatsTy: buh ion undastand how dey huggn me cus dude next to me was vip she hugged him n he basically pushed ha ass
ThatsTy: im like wtf?
DanielTheKing: z
DanielTheKing: ur vip broke
ThatsTy: i need my money bak
Guest_EvilXMarc: is he typin about me?
DanielTheKing: nah
Guest_EvilXMarc: oh
DanielTheKing: sumtin else marc
Guest_EvilXMarc: im too high
Guest_EvilXMarc: smh
DanielTheKing: z
DanielTheKing: i be tha only sober mf on imvu
Guest_EvilXMarc: tryna slide on ole girl next to me
ThatsTy: nah
DopeLoverx: lol
Guest_EvilXMarc: >.>
DopeLoverx: its new years
ThatsTy: z
Guest_EvilXMarc: happy new years to everyone
Guest_EvilXMarc: hope you guys get drunk
DanielTheKing: it must be new yrs erryday for sum folks then
ThatsTy: gne head n slide
ThatsTy: G
ThatsTy: its a open spot nex to ha
ThatsTy: @Dope
ThatsTy: yoo
Guest_EvilXMarc: @strawberry
Guest_EvilXMarc: have a boyfriend?
DopeLoverx: when he move i want my corner seat back
DopeLoverx: z
Guest_EvilXMarc: oop
DanielTheKing: lol
ThatsTy: u havn a photo shoot dope?
DopeLoverx: not rih now why
ThatsTy: kus llf u dne changed hella times i just noticed det
ThatsTy: i thought u was leavn n kummin bak buh u neva left
DopeLoverx: cause the organe was getting on my nerves
Guest_EvilXMarc: tryna show off in front of her new friend
DanielTheKing: z
Guest_EvilXMarc: @Marcus
ThatsTy: dead asf
DopeLoverx: and the way my back look in the white was frustrating
Guest_EvilXMarc: lol.
DopeLoverx: so i had to change again
ThatsTy: uuh huh
ThatsTy: i see
DopeLoverx: yuh
DopeLoverx rolls eyes
ThatsTy: llf i jus asked sweetheart a nigga was curious, i dead ass thought u was takn pics of yaself
Guest_EvilXMarc: @strawberry imma sing to ya
Guest_EvilXMarc: hold up
DanielTheKing: z
Guest_EvilXMarc: lmaoo
DanielTheKing: -dies-
DanielTheKing: wah u gon sing
Guest_EvilXMarc: idek
Guest_EvilXMarc: gimmie some
DopeLoverx: dont encourage him
DopeLoverx: <<
ThatsTy: he muss b on mobile ion see nobody name strawberry n hea
DanielTheKing: z
Guest_EvilXMarc: i need a love song
DopeLoverx: ikr
DanielTheKing: that her mobile name
ThatsTy: uhh huh
ThatsTy: i see
DanielTheKing: dope they be comin for u
Guest_EvilXMarc: @magnolia tell your friend to stop cappin
DopeLoverx: smh idk why
ThatsTy: z
Guest_EvilXMarc: she know she want me to sing to her
Guest_EvilXMarc: .
DopeLoverx: i dont
ThatsTy: z
Guest_EvilXMarc: lol dont be rude
Guest_EvilXMarc: 😂
DopeLoverx: besti wyd
ThatsTy: <
DanielTheKing: bout to go turn on this heat
ThatsTy: yooo
DopeLoverx: lol
DanielTheKing: cold af
DopeLoverx: YOOOOOOO
DopeLoverx: llol
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DopeLoverx: z
DopeLoverx: i wanna watch a movie
DopeLoverx: any suggestions
DanielTheKing: lol idk @ dope
DanielTheKing: what u like
DopeLoverx: action adventure thriller
DopeLoverx: i kinda want a good thriller
DanielTheKing: thrillers be havin u on that edge of ya seat
DopeLoverx: my lips are numb
DopeLoverx: im never doing this shit again
DopeLoverx: omm
DanielTheKing: doin what
DopeLoverx: drinking
DopeLoverx: i dont drink
DopeLoverx: tryna be cool and shit
ThatsTy: yall Daniel finna die
DopeLoverx: >>
DopeLoverx: why
DanielTheKing: damn
ThatsTy: kus his girl gne kill em
DanielTheKing: drank too much huh
DanielTheKing: aye man its a new yr
ThatsTy: nah ion do det no mo
ThatsTy: im tied asf tho
DanielTheKing: can't put that on me so soon
DopeLoverx: what did u do
ThatsTy: ima b da one dets gne get killed by my girl tbh
DanielTheKing: idk what ty talkin bout
DanielTheKing: i was doin me
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DopeLoverx: ty butt dont make my head hurt
DopeLoverx: lol
DopeLoverx: im so confused
ThatsTy: nah ima blame u too so yo girl kan kill u too
DopeLoverx: Seee thats why you my fam
ThatsTy: dets y he dyin llf
DopeLoverx: you already knew
DopeLoverx: z
DanielTheKing: yah
ThatsTy: im tied asf
ThatsTy: its 3:45
DanielTheKing: hell yeah it is
DopeLoverx slips on dawsons breek
ThatsTy: tf is det?
DanielTheKing: a song
ThatsTy: oh ok
ThatsTy: buh she dancin on beat doe
ThatsTy: z
ThatsTy: well she was
DopeLoverx: my bihh lookin like oooo yo bihhh lookin like naaahhhh
DopeLoverx: Droptop freak and she flossin
DopeLoverx: ayeee
DopeLoverx twerks
DopeLoverx: my bihh loookin likoooo yo bih lookin like nah nah
DanielTheKing: so Ty u drug free
DopeLoverx: i fuckin love that song
DopeLoverx: z
DanielTheKing: i can tell
DopeLoverx: thats all i wanted to hear
DanielTheKing: z
DanielTheKing: damn i hate shop on here
DopeLoverx: im done
DopeLoverx: im sleepy kinda
DopeLoverx: if i get another new years text
DopeLoverx: im turning my phone off
DanielTheKing: ooo that alcohol kickn in
DopeLoverx: my lips are still numb
DopeLoverx: i keep biting them
DanielTheKing: i guess u gotta sleep it off
DopeLoverx: i gotta work tomorrow
DopeLoverx: z
DopeLoverx: im a light weight
DanielTheKing: wha time
DopeLoverx: i cant smoke either cause the weed too stong
DopeLoverx: my nepheew got me some gas 1 time
DopeLoverx: im thinking im taking that shit
DopeLoverx: till i hit it forreal
DopeLoverx: almost died
DanielTheKing: lol
DanielTheKing: were you coughing?
DopeLoverx: when i was hitting it nahh
DopeLoverx: not till the last hit
DanielTheKing: gon cough out ya lungs on tha floor
DopeLoverx: shit was painful
DopeLoverx: and i was passed out in the next room
DopeLoverx: shit was uncontrollable
DanielTheKing: awwww
DopeLoverx: i dont do drugs
DanielTheKing: say no to drugs
DopeLoverx: lol
DopeLoverx: riii
DopeLoverx: im a good girl
DopeLoverx: see:)
DopeLoverx: my high tho is sex frfr
DanielTheKing: lol
DopeLoverx: good sex younger looking skin
DopeLoverx: more smiles
DopeLoverx: lol
DanielTheKing whispers: whats ya fav position?
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lllol are u serious whats urs
DanielTheKing whispers: doggy and cowgirl lol
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DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: oo. depends on teh mood
KGTF: Yoo
DopeLoverx: HAPPY NEW YEARS!
DopeLoverx: WHATS GOOD MF
DanielTheKing whispers: a quiet place is a good thriller
KGTF: Happy New Years
KGTF: Lmaoo
KGTF: And Shii CHiLlin
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i saw it it was kinda like bird box hella random
DopeLoverx: how was it it bringing in 2019
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DanielTheKing: damn he left quick
DanielTheKing whispers: u saw searching?
DopeLoverx: lol
DopeLoverx: i tild u i was boring
DopeLoverx: z
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll yep seen that 1 too
DanielTheKing whispers: damn you seen it all
DanielTheKing whispers: movie buff ass
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i love watching good movies i use to live at teh theater
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i use to wanna be a actress
DanielTheKing whispers: u saw the commuter?
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: nahhh lol
DanielTheKing whispers: damn it'd be cool hanging wit u i love watching movies together
DanielTheKing whispers: its pretty good
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i dont think i have
DanielTheKing whispers: and i love thrillers
DanielTheKing whispers: and romance haha and action
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: aww
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: im sure ur a romantic
DanielTheKing whispers: only for the right woman
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: ") i wou;dnt expect otehrwise
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DanielTheKing whispers: what time is work
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: 3p i close
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: im fucking pissed too
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: but its whatever
DanielTheKing whispers: u got time
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: oh yeahh
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: did u make breakfast
DanielTheKing whispers: i been in here the whole time
DanielTheKing whispers: loll
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DanielTheKing whispers: ima make it later in tha day
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: what was he talking about getting u in trouble
DanielTheKing whispers: oh cause i got a bestie thats a female
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: hmmm
DanielTheKing: yaasss its warm now
DopeLoverx: lol me and blankie making sweet warmth right now
DanielTheKing: haha thats wassup
DanielTheKing whispers: why you say hmmm?
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i dont wanna get u in trouble
DanielTheKing whispers: loll ima not stop having friends cause my gf
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: tho me and toast got something i still move like im single lol
DanielTheKing whispers: people like me and i can help ppl by being me so i cant stop
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: um lol
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DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: thats no how that shit works
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DanielTheKing whispers: what u mean
DopeLoverx: people are so weird
DopeLoverx: :x
DanielTheKing: jump out a plane #2019
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: you respect her wishes no friends mean no friends lmfao
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DanielTheKing whispers: Nah b thats not me if i can help someone ima do it
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DanielTheKing whispers: i give a part of myself to my gf no1 else gets that should be enuff
DanielTheKing whispers: you can't hog some1 for yourself ppl aren't made like that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: thninks about my clingy nature
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: >> um yeah right
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DanielTheKing whispers: ima be a psychologist
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: thats a pefect idea i wanted to be a thearpist
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: bro swear we friends af
DanielTheKing whispers: ppl seem to love getting advice from me lol
DanielTheKing whispers: so we aint go sumn special goin on?
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: cause u talk to people in a way they understand
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: wait huh
DanielTheKing whispers: people are simple to me
DanielTheKing whispers: im just messin wit u
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: you a scorpio tho
DanielTheKing whispers: we vibe really well i love your energy and honesty even tho u try to hide it sometimes
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: hide my energy?
DanielTheKing whispers: nah your feelings
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: rolls eyes
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: what feelings lol
DanielTheKing whispers: like if you feeling a way about something you tend to tuck it away at times
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: no comment
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DanielTheKing whispers: its cool...i know most guys are terrible listeners
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DanielTheKing whispers: why you feel like im a good fit as ya bestie
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: cause u fun to talk to u keep the convo going you always roll with the vibe i throw
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: imvu dont do that shit nomore
DanielTheKing whispers: gotta make tha most of the time u have
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: on earth?
DanielTheKing whispers: plus your vibe is fun lol you always on sum crazy
DanielTheKing whispers: nah with the ppl you come in contact with
DanielTheKing whispers: anything can happen a person mite have to leave imvu for some months
DanielTheKing whispers: then that energy aint there no more
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DanielTheKing whispers: that was random af
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: nah its a convo never feel like that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: with me
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: cause i try key word TRY not to hold back with you
DanielTheKing whispers: im not expecting you to lay it all on me cause u still gettn to know me
DanielTheKing whispers: i just know that as people we go thru so much
DanielTheKing whispers: and alot of times we dont have ppl to just express ourselves to or with
DanielTheKing whispers: so we carry alot of pain with us and its rough
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: your gonna make me cry that shit is so real
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: the people im around i dont expess myself too
DanielTheKing whispers: like you could be a kid who went thru abuse but couldn't say nun or cps would come take u
DanielTheKing whispers: that shit don't go away
DanielTheKing whispers: or if ya parents was on drugs or u saw someone u was close to commit suicide
DanielTheKing whispers: its alot of shit
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: that happen to you
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: <<
DanielTheKing whispers: so i just say ppl need to just be them cause its not guide book to this life shit
DanielTheKing whispers: shit alot happen to me lol
DanielTheKing whispers: but parental abuse was something yes
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: mom or dad
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: <<
DanielTheKing whispers: dad
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: alcohol?
DanielTheKing whispers: nah just cause he could
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: beat u woop you verbal?
DanielTheKing whispers: beat down with items, fist, verbal all that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: im so sorry
DanielTheKing whispers: i wasn't even mad bout that abuse cause shit happens
DanielTheKing whispers: i was more mad at the adults around who knew and aint do shit
DanielTheKing whispers: they just let it happen
DanielTheKing whispers: that was my proof to know adults are fucked up
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: not even adults just some peopl
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: people
DanielTheKing whispers: that shit drove me insane tho
DanielTheKing whispers: couldn't trust nobody forever
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: smh
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: since then ...
DanielTheKing whispers: that shit warped my personality for many yrs lol
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: how
DanielTheKing whispers: like i didn't wanna be a victim
DanielTheKing whispers: but i couldn't be me without existing with that pain
DanielTheKing whispers: so i kinda acted like someone else for a time being
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: what was your safe place like someone else who?
DanielTheKing whispers: like i just was trying to hang with otha ppl who were prob bad for me
DanielTheKing whispers: just to avoid living with reality
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: do u ever feel like it happen for a reason
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: it being 2019
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: like have you grown into a better you
DanielTheKing: hell nah i wouldn't wish that on anyone
DanielTheKing whispers: but um
DanielTheKing whispers: i've grown alot since then
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: got caught slippin
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lmfaoo
DanielTheKing whispers: the only thing that came out of it was me being able to know how much pain the world is in
DanielTheKing whispers: and how easy it is to hide it cause i hid it very well and i still hide it at times
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: ....
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: <<
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: the realest shit i was told as a child when i tried to express my feelings like the REAL shit
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: "sounds like a personal problem" and "Noone cares"
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: but i dont feel that way
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i care about people
DanielTheKing: your fam tell u they love u
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lmfao
DanielTheKing whispers: this damn thing keep fuckn up
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: there u go
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: z
DanielTheKing whispers: but my parents never told me that
DanielTheKing whispers: nore any of my fam
DanielTheKing: i grew up fast af
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: my dad died protecting me
DanielTheKing whispers: this mf cursor boy
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: my mom had been thru some shit b4 that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: when i was in HS she told me everyday just dont come home pregnant
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i dont even be out like that lol
DanielTheKing whispers: man shit
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: she got preg young with my sister and got married young and then the crack era hit
DanielTheKing whispers: i never had one sex talk with my parent
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and their dad my sister and brother
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: their dad was hooked on drugs
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and my mom was taking care of them
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: holding shit down
DanielTheKing whispers: i fell into porn at 10 and foul language
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: until my moms mom died then she had to take in her lil sister
DanielTheKing whispers: ever since then i felt like an adult lol
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and her husband the fatehr of her two childer hooked on drugs raped my moms little sister
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and that shit fucked her up
DanielTheKing whispers: wtf
DanielTheKing whispers: you can unsee shit ya know
DanielTheKing whispers: can't
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: then fast forward 4 years later she meets my pops
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: whos a family man supporter all that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: never married has me lol
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and not even a year after that hes gone
DanielTheKing whispers: shit cray
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: so my mom gonna became
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: different ig
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: always over protective controling
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: grumpy
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i hate to say it lol
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: she didnt like hugging us
DanielTheKing whispers: being a parent is hard af and scary
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: or kissing us
DanielTheKing whispers: my parents never hugged till i was grown
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: ikr
DanielTheKing whispers: well my mom at least
DanielTheKing whispers: my dad shit
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol shit cray
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: my moms been in and out the hospital
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: she let me kiss her and tell her i love her i had to leav her there 1 night
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: after going thru this break up
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: like god knew i needed someone
DanielTheKing whispers: the world is fucked up man
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: like walking around straght face any dude looking at me getting mugged
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol but inside lol
DanielTheKing whispers: and ppl try to act like we all doing well like everything all good
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i just wanted a genuine hug
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: someone i felt like i could trust to tell me they love me
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: all i got is my mama
DanielTheKing whispers: ikr
DanielTheKing whispers: the i love you words genuinely with a hug touches your soul
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: my brother and sister different dad they blamed my mother for their fater raping our aunt
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and they didnt like me cause i was born outside
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: so just imagine thru the years
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol the saltynesss and shade
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol the fakeness
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol it was sad
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: we just started getting along again but tbh i still dont trust them sometimes
DanielTheKing whispers: i bet it was
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i dont trust their intentions
DanielTheKing whispers: i wouldn't honestly some shit just dont go away
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i make more money than they ever and my dad before he died set me and my other brother up really well with money
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: so they use me sometimes
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: but because my heart is so giving
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: it hurts hwne i need them in return and they cant deliver i dont want the money i just want my sister ya know
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i dont want shit you have lol
DanielTheKing whispers: like one reason i wouldn't wish this on anyone cause i was paranoid one time
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: just show me you care about me like yall care about each other
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: a little of what i been thru as far as family lol
DanielTheKing whispers: the word family don't mean nun to me
DanielTheKing whispers: i've seen fam do some dispicable things to each other and its sad
DanielTheKing whispers: yall blood
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: thats why i adored my ex he was family oriented
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DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: always with his family or doing something for his family
DanielTheKing whispers: i do alot for my fam tho
DanielTheKing whispers: thats why my last 5 yrs been hellacious to some degree
DanielTheKing whispers: somebody always need sum and i dont ask for nun in return
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: bro ya boy broke my heart lmfao
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: im still kinda shell shocked
DanielTheKing whispers: my boy?
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: ya boy meaning the dude
DanielTheKing whispers: oh
DanielTheKing: since we scorpios lol
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DanielTheKing whispers: oh my goddddddd
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lmfao
DanielTheKing whispers: this cursor is annoying
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: rofl
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: but yeah and then when i see him
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: all i get is Im sorry
DanielTheKing whispers: im sorry cause i miss that good pussy
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: 6 mos i went over that shit like where is baby somethings wrong why cant i get in touch
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DanielTheKing whispers: they right tho
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: then wehn i did talk to him
DanielTheKing whispers: times does heal most things
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: he was like we gonna be together again and i love you this and that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and i saw the bitch
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: he was with on thanks giving
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i asked him before that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: a few days before cause it was his birthday
DanielTheKing whispers: was his new chick looking like nahhhhhhh?
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i wished him a hbd
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i asked him if he had a girl or was talking to anyone
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: he straight up lied to me bro
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and said NO
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DanielTheKing whispers: wtf
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: im thinking we gonna be together again and then i saw the bitch
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: he sending me pics of us
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: frm the summer before
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and shit
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: AND YOU GOT A WHOLE BITCH!
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: he dosnt know i know but after i saw that shit i stopped talking to him
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i dont ever wanna feel like that again left in the dark
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: like i trusted u
DanielTheKing whispers: damn love
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: if u need sum and i got it u got it
DanielTheKing whispers: that relationship really fucked wit u
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i question my sanity still
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: like was i crazy for believeing it was real
DanielTheKing whispers: nah
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: like what did i do wrong for him to do that to me
DanielTheKing whispers: you wanted it be real cause you were giving it your all
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: he had me thinking it was forever shit lol
DanielTheKing whispers: it wasnt u it was him
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i feel so stupid
DanielTheKing whispers: u gave ya energy to tha wrong nigga
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i never saw this guy coming
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i use to tell him you never know someone until at least 2 -3 years
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: in a relationship
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: 4 years lateer
DanielTheKing whispers: relationships are for adults tho
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: this shit happens
DanielTheKing whispers: its hard af if u still learning yourself
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: yeah we were young
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: jhene aiko was our summer song lol
DanielTheKing whispers: like if iwas in a relationship when i was younger
DanielTheKing whispers: i would've been a savage i swear
DanielTheKing whispers: i didn't give no fucks
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DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: see that relationship turned me into a savage loll
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i was talking to mad dude
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: not to sound like a hoe
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i was faithful for 4 years even after he ghosted me
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i had a 1 night stand
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: started fucking this dude i met over th esummer lol
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: it was crazy
DanielTheKing whispers: im still a savage tho
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: ive calm down since then
DanielTheKing whispers: i just don't act on it
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: u?
DanielTheKing whispers: yah
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: really? lol
DanielTheKing whispers: i can't make a woman fall in love with me and drop her like a brick cause idc
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DanielTheKing whispers: but i wouldn't do that
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol i still dont get it
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and then feed me bullshit
DanielTheKing: i can't i would feel guilty now
DanielTheKing: but catch me some yrs ago
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: smh lol ive never been dirty like that
DanielTheKing whispers: i would sell u a dream like a mf
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: but its fuck him now
DanielTheKing whispers: and have u thinkn all kinda shi
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: where ever he is now i hope he realizes he broke someones heart who rode for them
DanielTheKing whispers: i like a woman with a nice body
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: we use to have this thing where we would fall out and be liek nahh we together till the lord says otehrwise
DanielTheKing whispers: so she can be my snack lol
DanielTheKing whispers: z
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol and the lord sid otehrwise
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: llol
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: u a scorpio i know u a freak
DanielTheKing whispers: shit a extra freak
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol i know
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: well
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: i dont know know but im sure
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol youd def keeo me wet
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: but
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: on that note
DopeLoverx yawns
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: its about time for me to goto bedddddd
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: <<
DanielTheKing whispers: lol
DanielTheKing whispers: id be askn can i hit it in tha mornin too
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: lol be good
DanielTheKing whispers: i needa hit tha gym soon
DanielTheKing whispers: this 6'4ness i going to waste =((
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: loll
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: well babe
DopeLoverx hugs u
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: im headed out
DanielTheKing hugs u back
DanielTheKing whispers: sweet dreams strawberry
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: you have a wonderful night as always a pleasure
DanielTheKing whispers: big factz!!
DanielTheKing whispers: nite
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=es3Fm7dLm2o
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: tell me youll listen to it
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: and tell me what u think
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DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: this is my sleep mood rihgt now
DanielTheKing whispers: i got u ima leave a message for u
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: mk hhun
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: good night
DanielTheKing whispers: b4 u go
DanielTheKing: z
DanielTheKing whispers: u know what's tha best
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: <<
DopeLoverx > DanielTheKing: ??
DanielTheKing whispers: when someone u really vibe with tell u why you mean something to them
DanielTheKing whispers: to hear that is priceless it feels like time stopped for a sec
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