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taintedges · 4 months

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*tiny little polished shoes running across igneous rock* inkblade headcanons perchance?

You can’t just say perchance!

However, I am absolutely honored to be asked. All takes place after junior year.

This one, I thought of after the little epilogue they had. With them hinting that Adaine and Aelwyn will hunt their mother down maybe during summer break, they will probably need a little party of their own to do that.

So the rest of the bad kids are busy. Kristen and her four-god pantheon, Riz trying and failing to de-stress, Fig’s podcast with Sandra Lynn ep. 69, Fabian buffing up to welcome his new sibling, Gorgug probably busy in his new bench with Mary Ann. And going back to the forest of Sylvaire is certainly going to be difficult for just two wizards.

Jawbone trying to both be a helpful parent and school counselor, suggests they bring trg or now high five heroes(?), let's face it they need some practical applications outside school.

Adaine absolutely hates this idea and does not think another wizard would be useful (she strongly emphasizes that Oisin should be excluded)

Aelwyn provides her own sassy remarks but surprisingly becomes the mediator when an argument happens, which is often.. usually when Oisin tries to refine parts of the plan and puts forward his many “better” ideas which, of course, he has.

And even when Adaine admits to herself that his plan makes more sense she doesn’t ever give up an argument. At first, Oisin doesn’t reciprocate but his cattiness comes out and the whole thing just escalates.

During travel when the silence is too awkward, Oisin will start talking about a book he really likes, and Adaine just roasts his taste even though she probably thinks the opposite.

They may have saved each other from dying multiple times in combat and will awkwardly say thank you after.

There are times when the forest gets too dark and Adaine remembers the last time she was there and how scary it was to face her fears alone. She often wonders if it was the same when Oisin died before getting forced with a rage star in him.

Sometimes they stay up talking at night when she can’t trance and finds him the only one still awake.

When they start to become familiar with each other’s magic, they become totally in sync during a battle (the rest of the group pretends not to notice how good they work together).

Sometimes Oisin wonders how Adaine would know something about his magic that he didn’t talk about (in my head, when tbk snooped around Ruben’s house and Adaine was in his wizard’s tower, I think she studied everything she found and probably took some of his stuff too, perhaps his quill and Oisin certainly notice it missing and wonders how it got into Adaine’s backpack. He doesn’t take the quill back after seeing that Adaine likes using it.)

Adaine also would threaten Oisin to teach her how he created the spells inside ping pong balls all while making remarks about what he did.

Oisin carries Boggy around when the familiar doesn’t immediately follow Adaine. Adaine just assumes Boggy always follows her and Oisin secretly likes stealing Boggy, who is just happy to be here because he now has two parents.

I think Oisin’s crush on Adaine dissipates and only comes back 10x harder at the end of their quest when he sees how capable she is.

Here’s a fun one. Coming back after their adventure, a party at Seacaster Manor in anticipation for senior year.

Adaine gets drunk on bad baby milk and insists on playing beer pong with Oisin.

Ivy is teasing because Oisin actually cannot make a shot (for real, not on purpose).

The drunker Adaine gets the more careless she becomes and hurls the ping pong ball at Oisin and boy do they hurt.

Bickering starts and tbk and trg are no help until Ragh intervenes and puts them on time-out upstairs. Bad idea.

Probably for the first time, Adaine admits that she thought he was cute and bluntly asks him if it was all a ruse to undermine her party and WHY HE MESSAGED HER SORRY AT THE CAFETERIA he could have just not said anything and left her alone.

Oisin does admit that he did like her then and he still likes her now, but the rest of senior year is just Oisin groveling.

Adaine has many times placed ping pong balls with spells written in them in his locker so that when he opens it, his things just fly out and he has to clean it up (I rewatched the scene and Adaine’s really disappointed expression tells me she will not let this go). trg finds this absolutely hilarious and are the ones who kept telling her his locker combinations.

Oisin continues therapy sessions with Jawbone and they find each other there after school.

One time Adaine accidentally left Boggy in Jawbone’s office so Oisin comes to her after to return him.

And every single time after that, Adaine just leaves Boggy on purpose. Jawbone notices (because Boggy just stares at him with his big round eyes. Boggy knows what to do even when Adaine doesn't tell him) but doesn’t say a thing.

One time, tbk are outside on one of the benches when Oisin comes to return Boggy, Kristen’s like, "What’s going on are you co-parenting?"

There’s no formal conversation, just a mutual understanding that Adaine isn’t angry anymore and trusts Oisin to always bring Boggy back.

Do they talk during these interactions? Not at first. But after it became a routine, now they hang out in the library, in Mordred Manor, and of course at Basrar’s.

Some days, Adaine doesn’t leave Boggy at all and Oisin just knows to find her at the end of the day.

This might have been too long.

I cannot write romance for the life of me but I try. Perchance these would suffice because this is a crisis and we are in drought!

INKBLADE NATION WE MAY HAVE LOST THE BATTLE BUT WE STAY WINNING THE WAR!

#i am awake for 24 hours idk what i’ve written #i feel delirious #it was a really expensive quill #boggy has to be included okay #inkblade #oisaine #adaine x oisin #adaine abernant #oisin hakinvar #good night

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blushingbaka · 4 years

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SAME I still have fixed favourite characters but I swerve for the others so easily it's embarrassing HAHA THEYRE JUST ALL SO LOVABLE!! I'm pretty sure you can tell from my requests but my favs are oikawa, kirishima and bakugo :D that being said, idk if I'm supposed to send it in a separate ask but could I request kirishima + 3am + vase and oikawa + 6am + strawberries (sorry if I did anything wrongly this is my first time requesting anything >///<)

I REALLY F E E L YOU ANON ! i’m always swerving on the daily lolol ahhhh i’m so excited to know your favs now though ! tysm for sending in these requests babe ! don’t worry, you did it exactly right ! i’ve only written the kirishima drabble as of right now so that’s what I’m posting ! I’ll have to post the oikawa one separately, but I’ll also add its link here when i finish it !

i’m so happy you requested for kirishima tho! he’s such a big sweetheart, i love him :’) hope you enjoy it bby !!❤️❤️❤️

[ 3:00 am ]

The first thing you became aware of when you were pulled from your sleep was the feeling of Kirishima’s calloused thumb gently swiping across your cheekbone. You slowly became aware that he was repeating your name, trying to coax you to fully open your eyes. When you did, you were greeted with his familiar toothy grin and those soft crimson eyes that have always seemed to contradict his quirk. The sight softly tugged at the corners of your mouth, a small smile gracing your features. You lifted your hand to lazily trace the edge of his jaw guard, muttering a soft greeting. You’re only sightly aware of the crick in your neck that was caused from accidentally falling asleep on the couch.

“What time is it?” you whispered hoarsely, your voice still thick with drowsiness. Your question caused your boyfriend’s smile to falter and his eyes fell to the floor, his tongue darting out to wet his lips, which you knew was a nervous habit of his.

“Too late” he muttered firmly as if he was reprimanding himself with his own words. “A situation came up on patrol, and it took a while to settle it” he softly explained, looking back up to your eyes, and his own were swimming with guilt. You simply chuckled reaching up with your other hand so you could pull him in for a soft kiss. After you pulled apart, you still held his face close, forcing him to look into your eyes.

“It’s okay. You know, believe or not, I am very aware I’m dating a pro hero” you teased him, pressing a swift kiss to the tip of his nose. It’s not like he had done anything wrong. Being a pro hero didn’t entail having clean cut hours, and it was your choice to attempt to wait up for him.

“It’s not very manly to have your love waiting for you though” he chuckled, but it came out more as a frustrated huff. “I did bring you these though” a hint of that toothy grin reappeared as he reached beside the couch to grab something. His hands held the vase that normally sat on your kitchen counter, but now it was filled with a fresh bouquet of your favorite flowers. “I noticed the others were dying this morning” he added.

“What kind of flower shop is open this late at night?” You asked amused, feeling more awake now from the soft fluttering of butterflies in your stomach.

“The smart kind” he easily retorted. “Boyfriends make mistakes 24/7 y’know?” He smirked slightly, placing the vase on your coffee table.

“Hmmm…. I wouldn’t know. Mine is perfect” you smirked, giving him a small wink. His eyes slightly widened at your words, his signature crimson color now also dusting his cheeks.

“That’s just the sleepiness talking.” He finally responded, but you were pleased to see that there was now a content smile resting on his features. He swooped down to plant a loving kiss on your forehead, and his hands found yours, giving them a gentle squeeze. “Let’s get you to bed” he whispered, and you happily complied now that he was here to join you.

✰ 100 followers event ✰

#kirishima x reader #anon babes !!#mads 100 followers event !!#answered

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shieldfansunite · 5 years

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Fanfic Questions

Taken from @ao3commentoftheday

Fandom Questions

1. What was the first fandom you got involved in?

Heroes of Olympus !! Yup I started writing fanfic for the HoO fandom.

2. What is your latest fandom?

The Hunger Games. Right now I'm writing with a Hunger Games OC <kinda oc kinda just merged fandoms>

3. What is the best fandom you’ve ever been involved in?

This is hard, I think HoO, just because people interacted a lot with my writing. I love the AOS fandom but not a lot of people comment.

4. Do you regret getting involved in any fandoms?

Kane Chronicles. I only write stuff for it for like 2 months, and now I have no inspiration for it. Yet a lot of people keep asking me to write more.

5. Which fandoms have your written fanfiction for?

Heroes of Olympus, Percy Jackson, Hunger Games, Agents of SHIELD, and Kane Chronicles. I can't think of anything else.

6. List your OTP from each fandom you’ve been involved in.

I have a "one OTP per fandom" rule so here's the short list.

PJO - Percabeth

HOO - Jasper

KC - Sadie and Anubis

7. List your NoTPs from each fandom you’ve been in.

As far as NOTPs go I've really only had them for SHIELD. And they are Fitzaida and Skimmons.

8. How did you get involved in your latest fandom?

Honestly I just went "I want to rewatch Hunger Games and read the books" and next thing I know I'm writing OC fanfics about them.

9. What are the best things about your current fandom?

Shield is my current fandom and I think the few people who do comment really leave long meaningful comments instead of small things.

10. Is there a fandom you read fic from but don’t write in?

Marvel. I've never written something from Marvel but I want to.

Ship Questions for your Current Fandom

11. Who is your current OTP?

Fitzsimmons obviously.

12. Who is your current OT3?

Not romantic but the Bus Kids. Daisy, Jemma, and Fitz.

13. Any NoTPs?

Fitzaida and *romantic* Skimmons.

14. Go on, who are your BroTPs?

Fitzhunter

Fitzenoch

Fitzdaisy

Skimmons

Fitzdeke

15. Is there an obscure ship which you love?

I love Raina and Gordon, and the Coulson and Audrey *the cellist.*

16. Are their any popular ships in your fandom which you dislike?

Skyward, it used to be a NOTP but at this point I just don't like it.

17. Who was your first OTP and are they still your favourite?

Fitzsimmons and yes. Forever and always.

18. What ship have you written the most about?

Hehe Fitzsimmons.

19. Is there a ship which you wished you could get behind, but you just don’t feel them?

Philinda. I mean it has cute moments and everyone loves them but I just, they're meh for me. I really want to be hyped for them but I'm not.

20. Any ships which you surprised yourself by liking?

Dekedaisy. Or Lemonsquake. Honestly I don't like how much I like it 😂

Author Questions

21. What was the first fanfic you ever wrote?

It was a multi chapter one shot fic collection for HOO. I believe.

22. Is there anything you regret writing?

Yes. 2 fics. Horus' Heir, and Ocean's Twins. Neither are finished and I hate how I left them but don't have the effort to finish them.

23. Name a fic you’ve written that you’re especially fond of & explain why you like it.

From the Rubble. It's a AU version of season 5 episode 22 and I love it because it challenges me to have to look up things and is emotional and angsty.

24. What fic do you desperately need to rewrite or edit?

So I am rewriting one right now. *From the Rubble.* Also I want to rewrite some of my WIPs and finish them.

25. What’s your most popular fanfic?

A Heroes of Olympus dabbles collection fic on wattpad with 106k views.

26. How do you come up with your fanfic titles?

I have NO clue. I just think if random ideas till something sticks.

27. What do you hate more: Coming up with titles or writing summaries?

Summaries. Because I want to have something catching to make people read, without spoiling things.

28. If someone were to draw a piece of fanart for your story, which story would it be and what would the picture be of?

I would LOVE a sketch of From the Rubble. With Jemma by his beside, where he's asleep or awake and they're looking at his x-ray. Or when he's in a wheelchair and yeet.

29. Do you have a beta reader? Why/Why not?

I have one for From the Rubble, Bella. Just so I can make sure it's good and emotional and flows.

30. What inspires you to write?

A lot of things. My fandoms. Prompts. Au ideas I think of etc.

31. What’s the nicest thing someone has ever said about your writing?

That I could write an episode of SHIELD. I cried.

32. Do you listen to music when you write or does music inspire you? If so, which band or genre of music does it for you?

I do. I have different playlists for characters. *Some are my OCs, some are canon* and I'll listen to it when writing about that character.

33. Do you write oneshots, multi-chapter fics or huuuuuge epics?

I try and challenge myself to write all. But more my One Shots become multi chapter and my multi chapters become huge epics 😂

34. What’s the word count on your longest fic?

23,764 words and counting for my fic From the Rubble, and I'm only on chapter 3. I probably have longer ones on wattpad but idk. Also

35. Do you write drabbles? If so, what do you normally write them about?

I usually find dialogue prompts and write a drabble based on it when I'm in a writers block rut. Usually Fitzsimmons though.

36. What’s your favourite genre to write?

I love writing angst. Whoops.

37. First person or third person - what do you write in and why?

Usually third person, but when I am doing more emotional based things first. Basically if there's action, third. If its little action and mostly emotion firt.

38. Do you use established canon characters or do you create OCs?

Both. I usually write canon character but try and expand on OCs on occasion.

39. What is you greatest strength as a writer?

How fast I can write. I can usually write 5+ pages or more in an hour if I'm really focused.

40. What do you struggle the most with in your writing?

I struggle with revising and editing because I get excited to share my work.

Fanfiction Questions

41. List and link to 5 fanfics you are currently reading:

1. https://archiveofourown.org/works/16032374/chapters/37421072 *consequences*

2. https://archiveofourown.org/works/3711769 *actually haven't technically started this one*

3. https://archiveofourown.org/works/10702368 *because little Fitz*

4. https://archiveofourown.org/works/7252501/chapters/16466803 *I started this forever ago*

5. https://archiveofourown.org/works/18466984/chapters/43752301 *promised a friend I'd read this*

42. List and link to 5 fanfiction authors who are amazing:

This is hard because I don't read fanfic as much as I write. But Nindragon on Ao3 and biochemsimmons on Instagram. I can't think of any others I have read. Sorry.

43. Is there anyone in your fandom who really inspires you?

I mean this is hard. A lot of writers really I aspire me. But I think Bella does the most. Just because we share angst ideas and I get muse from them.

44. What ship do you feel needs more attention?

PLEASE write more Deke and Daisy stuff people. I'm begging.

45. What is your all time favourite fanfic?

Consequences *link above*

46. If someone was to read one of your fanfics, which fic would you recommend to them and why?

From the Rubble. Because it's an idea I'm committed to so I am putting a lot of effort into it. I'm making myself edit it a lot and writing longer chapters. I think it's the best I've done.

47. Archive Of Our Own, Fanfiction.net or Tumblr - where do you prefer to post and why?

Ao3. I hardly use tumblr and fanfiction.net confuses me and I forgot it existed.

48. Do you leave reviews when you read fanfiction? Why/Why not?

I try to! I know how important they are to writers so if I like the fic I try and say something about it. Even if it's small.

49. Do you care if people comment/reblog your writing? Why/why not?

I love when people share my work with others. Comments mean so much to me and the more comments I get the more dedicated I am to a fic.

50. How did you get into reading and/or writing fanfiction?

Um I read HOO and had to wait for the next book. No one I knew liked it so I started looking for things relating to it, like edits. Stumbled on fanfiction and thought "I like writing. I'll try this."

51. Rant or Gush about one thing you love or hate in the world of fanfiction! Go!

I hate when I work really hard on a fic and no one really tells what the think. And if I get a comment its "update." Because I want to know how my reading affected you. I also love being able to change different things I don't like in my favorite show 😂

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runningwhilenotdying · 6 years

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So! This is quite late but I’ve been crazy busy with school and I knew typing all this out would be A Task. This race was about 10,000 times harder than I thought it would be. I thought that I respected the marathon distance going in but it turned out I absolutely did not. My time was quite a bit slower than I was expecting even though I didn’t have an exact goal in mind and my splits were ridiculously positive (pic 7). I’m honestly not disappointed at all though. The marathon is a mean, tough race but I’m even meaner and tougher and that is absolutely something to celebrate. Full race recap under the cut because it’s almost as long as the marathon itself.

- The day before the marathon was pretty much ideal actually. Did my 3 km shakeout run in the morning, made pancakes, lounged around my house, and picked up my bib. My super old family friend/honorary sister was in town to run the half and my mom was running the 5k, so we all went out for delicious pasta the night before along with my boyfriend and my friend’s mom.

- I slept AWFULLY the night before. I lay awake for ages, then slept in short little bursts that probably added up to like 3 hours overall. My cat also woke me up at 5 by biting my feet and I almost tossed him out the window.

- Woke up for real at 6:15, miraculously not tired and not particularly nervous either. I had a bagel with PB and a cup of coffee, put on a huge pile of throwaway clothes over my race outfit, and took an Uber to the start

- I was paranoid about road closures so I gave myself a ton of extra time, but we ended up not having any trouble at all. That meant I got to the start just over an hour early, which was a big problem considering the temperature was a degree or so above freezing

- I waited for my friend to show up, walking around in aimless circles to keep warm. She showed up about 20 minutes early, we took some nice pictures in our 5000 layers, and got into our corrals right around when the gun went off for the elite corral

- This is a FAST race, so my corral was pretty far back and it took about 15 minutes from there to actually cross the line. I was planning on throwing away my fleece, hat, and two pairs of mittens at the start but I ended up keeping them on. I got rid of the mittens and fleece by kilometre 4 and kept the hat until around kilometre 24

- By the time I started, my feet were completely frozen. I spent the first few kilometres wiggling my toes trying to get the feeling back, but I was basically running on ice blocks until the 5k mark

- Other than that though, I felt awesome for the beginning of the race. The energy of the crowd and the other racers were infectious. I was checking my watch every kilometre, and my splits were a bit faster than planned but I didn’t worry too much about reigning it in. I’d been having a bunch of random pains all down my right side all through taper, but I wasn’t feeling anything

- I decided not to count down kilometres or even think about the overall distance until 10k, and I actually did a pretty good job of that. I started having a dull pain in my right hip around 8 km, but other than that I was feeling awesome and determined to enjoy the race for as long as I could

- Between 10k and the halfway mark, things gradually got a bit harder, but I generally still felt in control. My breathing was still good and I was sticking to my schedule for taking energy blocks. But my hip was still nagging and my left hip flexor had joined in as well. The pain was super mild, but I was anxious about it getting worse and that started affecting my mental game in general

- The last time I felt genuinely good was probably around 19 km, right before the half-marathoners split off. We went past a huge cheering station where they were blasting Abba and giving high fives. I was so psyched I actually sang along to most of the chorus of Mamma Mia as I ran past

- Once the half-marathoners split off it got quiet fast. Less than one third of the racers were doing the marathon, so suddenly there were a lot fewer runners and barely any spectators. I was starting to feel sick and my hips were still hurting and I was grappling with the idea of running the complete distance I’d already ran again

- This is where it started getting hard. I’d brought headphones to listen to music, but I wanted to put off using them until I absolutely NEEDED a power-up, so I was pretty much alone with my thoughts until I gave in at 28 km. At this point finishing seemed completely unfathomable and I was starting to wonder what the hell I was doing this for

- The race basically just got harder from here. I was feeling sicker and I started putting off my scheduled energy blocks. I was supposed to take a Gu at 24 km, but I couldn’t even imagine putting it in my stomach. I don’t remember when I started worrying about DNFing again, but it was probably around this point. 28ish km to 32 km was probably the hardest part of the race mentally

- When I finally hit the 32 km mark, things turned around a bit. 32 km was the point last year where I slammed headlong into the wall and dropped out because I couldn’t walk in a straight line or carry a train of thought. So when I got here this time, I realized that even though I felt like absolute shit, I was doing 100 times better than last year. This is when I realized that I probably actually was going to finish

- Even though my mental state improved a tiny bit, my physical state was getting worse and worse. Starting at 32 km, I let myself walk the first minute of every kilometre. This 100% saved me mentally because it gave me something to look forward to every kilometre. It also let me stretch my hips out a bit, which definitely helped physically

- Even with the walking breaks, I was in the absolute worst pain of my life for the last 8 km or so. The only thing stopping me from walking the rest of the way was my desire to be finished the fucking marathon as soon as possible. I wasn’t checking my pace anymore, but I was probably down to around 6:30/km not counting the walking breaks

- Every 900ish metre stretch between walking breaks felt impossible and never-ending, and once I was walking, starting up again after 1 minute was the worst kind of mental challenge. The last few kilometres are pretty hazy in my memory, but I distinctly remember thinking “am I actually going to DNF with less than 2 km to go? IDK. Maybe”

- Finally, finally, I hit 41 km and took my last walking break. That was when I remembered that the total distance was 42.2 km, not just 42. It sounds ridiculous, but the thought of that extra 200 metres was almost more than I could bear as I finished my last walking break

- Every step of that last 1(.2) kilometre was a fight. I was checking my watch every half block and counting down the individual metres. With 600ish metres to go, I saw my mom cheering on the sidelines and almost broke down. She started trying to run with me down the sidewalk, but I discovered later that I’d somehow averaged 4:59/km for the last 800 metres of the race, so she couldn’t keep up with me

- I started seeing signs counting down the last 400 metres and finally accepted that I was definitely going to finish. I took out my headphones to hear the crowd for the last moments, and heard the announcer call my name as I came up on the finish line

- Stepping across the line was the most overwhelming moment of my life. I’d felt so awful for so long, but I’d fought through it. The fact that I DNFed last year and left feeling like such a failure made it even more powerful. As soon as I crossed the line I started full-on weeping, hand over my mouth, sobbing at full volume. Some of it was pain, but most of it was pride and astonishment

- My friend and her mom started calling my name and I walked over to them. Opened my mouth to say hi to them and instead threw up twice directly at their feet, so I guess I can really have no doubt in my mind that I gave the race everything I had

Anyway, this is by far the longest tumblr post I’ve ever written and I’m sure no one’s still reading, so I’ll wrap it up. Four days later, I’m still walking on air over this. My right knee and hip still hurt like a bitch, but I’m happy, and proud, and I ran a FREAKING MARATHON

#runblr #rcoctober2018 #2018runclub #race recap #marathon #fitblr

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alwaysfine · 6 years

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𝐈𝐓’𝐒 𝐎𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐈 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐘 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐈𝐅𝐔𝐋 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐋 𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐊𝐀 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐒 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐒 !

i honestly can’t believe it’s been a year already. it has actually flown by. originally on my multi muse, moving amanda and jesse to their own blogs was the best decision and i’ve been so thankful i did ever since. if i’m being honest, the only reason why i made jesse a sideblog at all was because i was so in love with the url ( badbagelll ) that i couldn’t not. but it turned out better than i could’ve ever anticipated. i’m so grateful for all the wonderful writing partners i’ve been blessed to not only write with, but get to know out of character. all of you are such kind, strong, inspiring, and golden hearted human beings with such creative minds and exceptional talent. i often ask myself what on earth i did, and how i got so lucky to meet you all.

i am so incredibly honored to have the opportunity to bring the independent, strong, unfairly gorgeous, quick witted, badass, and beautifully flawed amanda rollins to life. and not only do i get the pleasure of writing amanda, but our precious bad bagel, jesse.

all in all, amanda @ sonny in that gif is me @ every single person who i write with, who has ever messaged me ooc, and anyone who simply follows this blog. i can honestly say that writing these two characters has been the highlight of my writing journey. i adore each and every one of you, and i look forward to another year. xoxo.

******* under the cut i’m going to be gushing over those of you who still have your blogs and have truly helped to make this past year 𝚎𝚡𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 !

THE ELITE SQUAD.

@amaroed / dany ! writing nick and amanda with you has brought so much absolute joy into my life??? i’ve loved every single one of our threads and memes from them switching the sugar to salt at the precinct kitchenette to amanda becoming nick for halloween to nick trying to keep amanda awake after she caught a bullet to the side. you capture nick so well, and your love for him and danny himself exudes every time you write him. it’s honestly so beautiful to see. after writing with you, i can honestly say that my love for nick amaro increased even more. you are such a talented writer, and i’m forever honored to write with you!

@battleincarnate / maddie ! maddie maddie maddie, my iconic, legendary cher stan. i actually adore you so much i can’t even fully explain. from the first time i talked to you ooc, you just exuded genuine kindness, and were so chill and easy to talk to. i feel like that’s unfortunately super rare, so i just wanna thank you for that??? you’re such a rad friend, and i’m so lucky to have you!! ok as for muses go, i don’t even know where to start?? firstly, your writing is gorgeous and your ability to switch between muses like elliot stabler and ali dilaurentis is remarkable. secondly, what we’ve developed between elliot and amanda is truly one of my favorite relationships i’ve had the pleasure of establishing on this blog, even though we’ve never even gotten to see them together onscreen. i have loved every single thread we’ve ever done. from the first thread we did where they first meet and they literally want to kill each other, to them arguing over who gets to drive on their first day as partners, to all the million and ten things we’ve discussed on discord like their hardcore car karaoke parties and the fact that amanda will ask elliot to walk her down the isle in any verse where she’s married. amanda may be one of the biggest pains in his ass, and elliot may be one of the biggest pains in hers, but they love each other sm it’s so precious. amanda is also so much like elliot it kills me, and the dynamic we’ve created is literal gold. the phrase like father, like daughter has never applied more. he’s the king and she’s the lionheart without a doubt!

@cabotiisms / claire ! like i told you over discord, your portrayal of alex made me love her even more which, i didn’t even think was possible. your grasp on alex’s character, her motives, the way her mind works, is so on point. your love and passion for doing right by alex is so obvious when you write her. now, the big and little sister dynamic we’ve created for alex and amanda makes me smile so much i can’t even explain. i live for alex trying to get amanda out of the messes she gets herself into aka saving her little sister from being ripped to shreds by mom, and in general just being the sister she deserves. the threads we have going right now are quite literally perfect, and i adore them. and out of character? i love yelling at you about how dirty the svu writers did alex, and how dirty they’re currently doing amanda by bringing in cardio douche. but even more importantly, you are one of the most genuinely sweet people i’ve ever met. i adore you, and am so thankful we’re friends!

@drftwood / catie ! i don’t even know where to start. ok firstly, your ability to bring to life so many beautiful oc’s and occasional canon characters absolutely astounds me. you are so creative, all the ideas you come up with are so intriguing, and you have the ability to turn one small detail into an entire beautiful character so effortlessly. it’s so incredible. and this creativity so obviously carries into your writing. your writing is so fucking gorgeous i can’t even believe. every single character that we’ve ever written together has turned into such a beautiful relationship for amanda. chris, alex, and now jr? i mean, jr is such an important person in amanda’s canon now, and i can’t imagine altering her canon storyline in any other way, nor can i imagine anyone else taking on his role except for you. next, i can’t end this without saying how much i love talking to you ooc. like, from the minute we started talking when we started plotting amanda and alex, i knew we were gonna be friends. AND I WAS SO RIGHT. you have such a kind soul and such a big heart, you deserve all the happiness in the world. i am so lucky and proud to be able to call you a friend and ily!!

@etlegis / shep ! ok we literally started talking like 24 hours ago but i already adore you and your peter stone. it’s so obvious that you have his character down in your writing. it’s like i read your starter, and it felt like i was in an episode of svu. not only is your characterization of stone on point, but you are the GREATEST ooc. it was so easy to start talking to you, instafriends some may call it, and we just fell down a rollins/stone hole and i’m not even mad about it. you are such a gem in this community already and i’m so glad you’re here!!

@hellhaths / lara ! lara, i fucking adore you. like for real. i could tell from the second we started talking ooc that we were going to be friends. and i’m proud to say i was very right. you are such an exceptional writer, i can’t properly explain. you put so much into every character you write, and it truly amazes me. now, i think we both know i have to talk about your olivia ‘ squad mom ’ benson because …. wow. from the first introduction to your writing, the first thought i had was ‘ she’s literally olivia benson.’ and that first thread we did with amanda asking olivia about elliot while she was trying to figure out the situation with nick, and not only did it wreck my heart, but it was the beginning of the most legendary olivia / amanda dynamic i could’ve ever asked for. SHE’S LITERALLY HER MOTHER. liv arguing with amanda to stop playing angry birds because it kills her phone battery, confining amanda to desk duty when she does something dumb, taking away amanda’s keys …. the list is literally endless. despite how bratty liv’s dorter gets, we all know she still loves her. listen, you understand the complexities of liv so well, it absolutely astounds me. with twenty seasons of evolution to work with, you incorporate all of it so beautifully. you have her voice and mannerisms down to a tee, and i am so honored to write with you and call you a friend. i’m sending you all the love and light in the world right now, and just know i’m here for you always.

@moontide / angie ! girl, your amanda is so important to my jesse idk if i can even properly put it into words. when i first started writing jesse, i had no idea what type of interactions i would get. truthfully, i thought nobody would show any interest whatsoever and she would just be another blog that faded away. WHAT I NEVER IMAGINED IS WHAT I’VE WRITTEN WITH YOU. the amanda/jesse dynamic we’ve created is so complex and beautiful, and i love it so much. every single heart breaking thread and verse we’ve started or discussed, i love. jesse is so her mama’s daughter, and being able to have those interactions means so much to me, i just have to say thank you. and your amanda? so fantastic. i absolutely love the life you bring to her, and i’m so so so honored to write with you. and remember, even when she’s being a brat, jesse loves her mama more than anything.

@o188 / sunny ! holy shit!!! ok so, i need to start by telling you how big of a part you played in me giving amanda her own blog in the first place. when i found your blog and read your writing, i was, for the lack of a better word, s h o o k. to this day, i am still astounded anytime i read one of your replies, because when you write sonny, you become sonny carisi. from writing his dialogue, to his mannerisms, it’s perfection. and you yourself as a human being???? you’re actually golden and ily. you welcomed me into this community with so much warmth and love and i can never thank you enough!! ok, so now for muses. let me just start with the jesse/sonny dynamic. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SOMETHING SO PURE???? sonny carisi is the Best Dad, and jesse loves him endlessly, ok? alright, now for sonny and amanda. listen, i can’t even accurately explain how much my amanda loves your sonny. she would quite literally try and catch a falling star for him if he asked. writing amanda so open and trusting whenever she’s with him is so freakin’ beautiful, okay?? i’ve adored every single thread and meme we’ve ever started with them, from amanda telling him she’s pregnant with g, to the morning after, to post book of esther. their dynamic is so freakin’ important and what we’ve created with them is truly one of my favorite relationships i’ve ever written. oh, and writing them as parents of their precious baby girls?? quite literally makes my heart grow ten sizes. they are so soft, so beautiful, and i am both honored and grateful to have the opportunity to write that with you!!

@painbled / peaches ! cracks knuckles alright here goes!! HI I FREAKING LOVE YOU. you are one of the most genuine human beings i’ve met on here, and i am forever grateful that i chose to write topanga way back when. there was a chunk of time where we fell out of contact, but the second we started talking again, it was like NO TIME AT ALL HAD PASSED. that’s a true testament to our friendship, and i’m forever grateful for that! then, you went and decided to write noah porter benson aka amanda’s lil baby that’s not actually her baby, but she loves him like he is. she would throw down so hard for him, i’m forever emotional about it. the thread we have where liv’s in the hospital has me wrecked, but i also love it because there are so many mama!amanda vibes aimed at noah happening that it makes my heart warmer than the sun. then there’s jess and noah, and good freakin’ lord. THEY’RE SO CUTE I CAN BARELY STAND IT. they are freakin’ in love with each other and icb they’re gonna get married and have a family and liv and amanda are gonna be grandparents to the same kids. listen, both me, amanda, and jesse’s lives wouldn’t be the same without you and your muses in them. you are such a talented writer, and i will forever tell you that whenever you need reminding. thunder, lightning. peaches and honey always!!

@southbronxabogado / adrien ! wow wow wow wow wow. first of all, you are actually rafael barba. i’m convinced. every single thread is so accurate and it brings me so much joy to watch you bring him to life and give him the treatment he deserves. now, the relationship we’ve developed between amanda and rafael is truly one of my favorites. i went from oh yeah they’d be cute, to holy fucking shit they’re perfect in 0.000001 seconds after we first started plotting them. the dynamic they have is so genuine, and the way he treats her just makes my heart so happy. i’ve adored every thread we’ve ever started, from amanda thinking she freakin’ broke the toaster to the throwback thread of him taking her to that fancy benefit. now last but definitely not least, can i just say how wonderful you are ooc? like, i know i can jump into your im’s and start screaming at you enthusiastically in all caps about our idiots without worry. plotting and writing with you has been such a pleasure, and i absolutely adore you. truly. i can’t wait for all the million other things i’m sure we’ll do.

@thingsmissed / jennifer ! ok, so i haven’t really gotten much of a chance to write amanda or jesse with any of your muses, but i absolutely love having you on my dash and talking to you ooc! you put so much effort into all your muses, and it’s absolutely inspiring. you are without a doubt one of the sweetest people with one of the most genuinely kind, caring, and giving hearts that i’ve had the pleasure of meeting on here. you are always so much fun to talk to ooc, and i can always feel your kindness exuding through the screen. you are a very talented writer and i hope you never doubt that!!

#earlier this week marked #one year as amanda and jesse #i can't believe it #guys this is over 2000 words #aka i'm certain i've written more in this post #than i have written ic in the month of october thus far #lol #it's fineeeee #but seriously thank you guys sm for sticking with me wow #xoxoxoxo #( 05. OOC / should probably be doing homework. )

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feua-old · 6 years

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57 facts about me

I was tagged by @plumbbby so thank you!!!

1. I am pansexual

2. I share my birthday with my cousin and my art teacher

3. My birthday is 1/23/04 (it's in numerical order)

4. I have pretty bad anxiety + depression

5. I take piano

6. I want to learn how to play a ukelele (I might be getting one if I can convince my mom)

7. Eveyone says that I sing good but I dont really know??

8. I will avoid pictures at any and every chance I get

9. If I look at myself too long in the mirror, I'll start to cry

10. I cut my hair short and changed my hairstyle to try and forget the old me who was friends with a toxic person

11. I've never dated anyone

12. I'm pretty sure I had a crush on Stella in Lemonade Mouth but I thought that I just thought she was cool

13. I have like 10 irl friends (maybe???)

14. I memorized the entirety of Hamilton

15. I can rap Guns and Ships

16. My music taste goes from rock to soft songs

17. I've written atleast 3 different essays in one night (not at the same time)

18. In 5th grade, my D.A.R.E essay was chosen to be read at graduation and I had to read it front of my entire grade

19. I used to like science but my science teacher got mad at me for having a panic attack

20. Same with English, except he actively made fun of my anxiety (might I add that both teachers were male)

21. A girl I'm not friends with told one of my favorite teachers that the English teacher was making fun of my anxiety and she got pissed off that he was treating me like that

22. I'm very self conscious about my body

23. I like dark, oversized shirts but I don't own any

24. I quote vines constantly

25. I say, "Spill the tea, sis" all the time

26. My friends say I'm the equivalent to "What the fuck, Richard?"

27. I learned the beginning of the Mii theme on piano

28. Same with Welcome to the Black Parade

29. I absolutely s u c k at math

30. I work best when listening to music

31. I get stressed easily

32. I hate it when people try to motivate me because I let everyone down

33. If they tell me I cant do it, I'll either agree or do it out of pure spite

34. I've lived in the same place my entire life

35. I really like creative writing

36. And art

37. I never go outside voluntarily

38. I used to play baseball

39. But then I discovered video games

40. I very much dislike sports

41. I'm an atheist

42. I used to think that I had to wear makeup (idk why because my mom doesnt wear it and almost no one else in my family does)

43. Same thing with dresses and skirts

44. Once I got into an argument with a kid over a glue gun in shop class, I dared him to burn me, he did, I didnt flinch and he became scared and gave me the glue gun

45. Another time, a friend did the devils pinch thing on me when I wasnt paying attention and I never acknowledged it and continued to do my work

46. My 5'5" ass scares many people. I am full of anxiety and rage

47. I'm allergic to dogs

48. I think dogs are really gross tbh, no offense

49. I like crime and forensic shows

50. My school only teaches Spanish and I want to learn French

51. I'm a w f u l at texting people that I havent seen in a while

52. We had to paint self portraits and my teacher had to help me mix my hair and eye color because they're so complicated

53. Sleeping is amazing but I dont get enough

54. I slept for 18 hours straight once

55. And I've stayed awake for almost 2 days in a row

56. I tried coffee once and it was absolutely disgusting

57. I really like Disney and Pixar movies

I tag whoever wants to do this because it is a lot of work and I dont want to force anyone

#tag game #rachael talks #yikes this took a while but im very tired #if you read all of it #good job

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mcrmadness · 4 years

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I was happily writing a random fanfic (Richy/Igor because why not) when the news about dä tour hit, I had an adrenaline rush and now my mood hit the rock bottom. And I don’t know what to think.

I’m so tired and also angry at my brain, because of my mental health stuff. I feel like the way I’m living my life is just... bad. Like, idk, it feels like depression even. And it scares the shit out of me. I can still remember very well how my life was like when I was depressed when I was 15-17, it got better only when I started antidepressants. It’s like... I don’t want to die but also life feels so pointless? I have a strong will to live but at the same time I feel like I’m more of living in some sort of limbo between life and death. I only exist, and it’s so hard to reach out to my dreams when the dissociation hits everytime and if that doesn’t, then anxiety does. I usually have been able to deal with anxiety and it has helped a great deal when I just accepted it as a part of me and something I just have to survive with. It made life so much easier when I wasn’t trying to fight against myself all the time, but let it be and exists there.

For years I have been wondering about depression tho because I have the tendency for that but just the thought of that always freaks me out so much I go into denial. I just don’t want to face the feels I had that night when I have no other way out but to start antidepressants. I was feeling so shitty those days and it grew so unbearable I could not continue like that anymore. Since I quite antidepressants in 2013, I have been so afraid that the depression would come back one day because I promised myself I won’t start eating them ever again and if it was to come back, I would not have that form of escape anymore. I don’t want to eat meds ever again but what do you do if you feel so shitty and can’t fix it yourself? At its worst it was me in the shower wishing I could also just go through the drain with the water and stop existing. That happened almost every time I was in the shower, I was just staring at the water going down the drain and wished that was me.

I hate it so much that not only can our bodies decide whenever to die, also our brains can malfunction on a daily basis like mine does. Lately I have been having these short episodes of what I would call as depressive feels. Usually I get these during autumn and not during spring. I know that for some people spring is the worst depression time and for me the seasonal affective disorder has always been the exact opposite aka happy and energic during spring and summer, and flegmatic and tired during autumn and winter; so having these in the middle of March is really weird.

One of the biggest reasons for why I’m against antidepressants on myself is that they absolutely killed my creativity AND my emotions. I was not able to create as much as what I used to do before them. Everything I drew or wrote was very shallow and emotionless, it was so hard to get anything started and done and to get any kind of depth to anything so that even the coloring work and everything was not that good. I see this still today if I take something I drew before, during and after meds.This is especially visible with my texts as I wrote several short fanfics around that time and once I started writing again in 2018, my texts were suddenly so much smoother to read. And between 2013 and 2018 I had only written school essays and screamed my thoughts into the void called the internet so there wasn’t really any practice going on that could have affected my skills.

With meds I just always felt that something was lacking from my art and texts and it was really frustrating to me because at the time I did not know what was it, everything just felt so much more difficult than what they should have been and I needed so much effort to even get something drawn or written and none of that was as good as what it should have been with that amount of effort. It’s so different now when I haven’t been eating them for almost 8 years. I just wrote 6 pages of fanfiction here and altho it is slightly tacky sounding, I guess I could treat it just as a draft and it’s more important to write down the dialog and events, I can always work on the other stuff whenever I go through that text next time.

Anyhow, I’m even more exhausted now than what I was before. Maybe I will go to sofa soon and try to watch a movie or something, maybe I will fall asleep on the sofa. I’ve been so incredibly tired every day since last weekend. Yesterday I barely could keep my eyes open before midnight. I had woken up around 1pm or so and I was already so tired at night that I just had to go to bed at 1am and I fell asleep immediately. Every day has been feeling like some non-stop jetlag, or as if I had stayed up over 24 hours despite sleeping just enough. Last night I again slept about 7-8 hours, have been awake for almost 10 hours now and my whole body is trembling because of how tired I already am.

#mcrmadness' random stuff #mental illness

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aju-naisu · 7 years

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everybody clap your hands

(aka, seventeen’s daily interactions in the form of a Skype chat)

Chapter 1: only the best

Summary:

NAEGAHOSH: you know what fuck all of you, there’s no damn respect in this house, you can all go die

DadCoups: CONFIRMED!!

dabasaurus: i have porn

Jesus: whAT

NAEGAHOSH: ..you can live

NAEGAHOSH: for slightly longer.

Jesus: nO TAKE THAT SIN AWAY CLEANSE YOURSELVES

Warnings: swear words ; crack fic?? idk man this is just my inner thoughts written out ; religious jokes (probably be warned, it’s not intentional to offend or harm anyone in anyway)

Notes:

based on “national hot dad alliance is now calling...” by @owlinaminor and @dicaeopolis

where it all begins (aka chapter 1 of emotional trash dump)

Word Count: a sad 900 words of vomit or so

May 28, 2017 1:24 PM

NAEGAHOSH created ‘the best unit in the universe’

NAEGAHOSH added Prince of China, dabasaurus, Little giant

NAEGAHOSH: welcome, everyone to the place where only the best can be

Little giant: Well then,

NAEGAHOSH has been removed from the group

dabasaurus: OOOOHHHHH BUURRRRNNED

Little giant: Now only the best are here

dabasaurus: lol

NAEGAHOSH has been added to the group

NAEGAHOSH: thanks jun

Prince of China: No problem

dabasaurus: nooooo why’d you add him back we were just starting to get into the details of the story!!!

NAEGAHOSH: whTA DID YOU SAY YOU LITTLE BASTARD

Prince of China: What story?

dabasaurus: never mind it’s ruined now >:(

4:20 PM

NAEGAHOSH: 4:20

Little giant: 4:20

dabasaurus: 4:20

4:21 PM

Prince of China: 4:20

Prince of China: Dang it

dabasaurus: lololl what a loser

6:14 PM

NAEGAHOSH: so i was thinking

NAEGAHOSH: why don’t we add the others

dabasaurus: okay everyone but seungkwan

Little giant: Whys that

dabasaurus: i thought this chat was only for the best

Little giant: oh lolol

Prine of China: Haha

NAEGAHOSH: so is that a yeah?

Little giant: hell yeah

NAEGAHOSH added sunshine rainbows ☀️🌈, DadCoups, memelord and 4 others

May 29, 2017

10:56 AM

DadCoups: What is this?

sunshine rainbows ☀️🌈: its a chat cant u c

DadCoups: Well, yeah, I can see, but, what is it for?

sunshine rainbows ☀️🌈: hm beats me

NAEGAHOSH: idk either really, it began with a chat with us performance unit and then we added you guys so

DadCoups: Ah, I see.

May 30, 2017

8:14 AM

2gud4u: u kno i’ve been meaning to ask but

2gud4u: y aren’t our little jihoonie and seungkwanie in this chat while the rest of us r?

Jesus: I don’t know, why don’t you add them?

2gud4u: good idea

NAEGAHOSH: nO

2gud4u: wait whut y

NAEGAHOSH: ji’s just gonna get mad and leave

2gud4u: i don’t think so