#i can't believe u made me use my brain cells

[luckybunny555]

Secret admirer

You receive a strange gift and find out the identity of your secret admirer.

Amber Freeman x GN!/Fem!Reader(no pronouns but for sapphics)

Warnings: creepy behavior, stalking, cursing, usual Ghostface behavior, a little bit of trust issues, being "attacked" but not harmed, mentions of murder and violence(no big description tho), a little suggestive in the end(as a treat ;) )

a/n: Part 2. No bad ending, again. I mentioned a song at some point and if you don't listen to it while reading ur not getting the whole experience, disappointing. also, this one's a bit scarier than part one(at least in my opinion). I'm sorry if ur not actually a scared little bitch like I am, but I made the readed very scared because yes. I didn't proof-read the end bc I used every single brain cell I have to finish this today. I might read it later but no promises.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Because you were texting Amber, you didn't worry about walking home alone. The sun was setting, but you were reaching the front door already.

Amber

I can't believe you fell for that

You

Wha-

Mindy had a straight face when

she said that

I thought she just remembered

the movie better than me

Amber

I literally made you watch it a

hundread times

how could you not remember

also, lmk when you get home

You

what did u expect

I also closed my eyes a hundread

times bc I got scared

I'm already unlocking the door

Amber

ok good

told u you'd be safe with me

;)

You felt a warm feeling in your chest, stupidly staring at her message. The smile on your face was an evident sign of how whipped you were for her. Stepping into your home, you lock the door again, not taking your eyes off your phone.

Amber

I'm throwing a party saturday

My parents will be out, they

got a wedding or smth

ur coming, right?

Your smile grew. "Mom?" you shouted, your voice echoing through the empty house. You finally looked away from your phone, scanning the space around you. The house seemed empty, which was unusual. By that time, your mom should be home. All you could hear was faint music, which your mom probably forgot to turn off before she left the house. You walked towards the kitchen, answering Amber's text.

You

ofc, I never miss ur parties

Amber

Liar

You've missed 3 of my parties

You

ok true, but it wasn't on purpose

I don't have plans this saturday

You find a note on the fridge, "Meeting w/ client @ 5pm". Right. That's where your mom was. You place your phone on the counter, opening the fridge and looking for something to eat. Your phone vibrates again, another notification from Amber

Amber

brb, I'm gonna shower

You read the text from afar, still standing in front of the refrigerator. Grabbing a few ingredients, you place them on the counter, turning off your phone screen. More attuned to your surroundings, you recognize the song playing in the background. "We Belong Together" by Ritchie Valens. You didn't remember where you heard it, though. It was just familiar. And nice to listen to while you cook.

Focused on preparing your food, you're startled by the doorbell. You look at the door with your heart already racing. It was a mundane situation, but does anything feel normal when there's a masked killer around?

Slowly, you approach the door. But instead of opening, you look through the window beside it. No one was there. You can feel your heart pounding in your chest, but you try to brush it off. "These fucking kids," you mutter to yourself, walking back to the kitchen.

You

I'm so stupid lol

Some dumb kid just ding-dong

ditched me and I got so scared

Not so long after, you hear the doorbell ring again. You try to convince yourself it's just a stupid prank. A terrible one to play when Ghostface is a threat, but kids are like that, right? This time, you quickly approach the door, determined to catch the person, opening it even though your hands are shaking.

Still, no one is there. But you find something. There's a box on the floor, with a pink bow on top and a note. "Sorry for scaring you :(". You hesitate, but take the box and lock the door again. You put it on the counter, unsure whether or not you should open it. Could it be from that admirer? Or was it from someone else? Before opening it, you decide to get a second opinion.

You

they left a box at my door

there's a note, "sorry for scaring

you"

should I open it?

I think it's from that stalker, but

idk

You wait a few seconds, but she doesn't read your texts. Maybe you should wait longer, but you're curious. It could be great, it could be horrible. Either way, you wanted to know. Maybe your mind was just being dramatic and this was actually a genuine apology gift. You shake the box, trying to make out what it could be, but it doesn't make a lot of noise. Must be something soft and light.

With your hands slightly trembling, you open it. It takes you a split second to understand it, but once you recognize it, you bring your hand to cover your mouth, your breath catching in your throat. Your favorite stuffed animal, one from your collection, with its head cut off. Beside it, another note. "Why didn't you write me back? >:("

Your head was filled with questions, "did they break into my house?", "how did they get it?", "are they still around?". Your phone rings, snapping you out of your momentary trance. It's Amber's number. She probably read your texts and her protective instinct kicked in. Your right hand was still covering your mouth as you reached for your phone. "Amber?"

"Hello, [name]," you don't recognize the voice. It wasn't Amber's, it was a male voice. And then it hits you: Amber's phone was cloned. By Ghostface. At that realization, you gasp, feeling your heart pounding as if it's trying to escape your chest. "Did you like my gift? And my sweet letters?"

You're too shocked to answer. Frozen in place, your only movements are involuntary. The trembling of your hands, the rise and fall of your chest, the accelerated breathing and heartbeats. An uncontrollable fear takes over you. Your eyes are glued to the torn out toy in front of you.

"Will you forgive me for loving you so much that I'm willing to protect you from everything… and everyone?" They speak again, and you slowly remove your hand from your face, supporting your weight against the counter, feeling weak in the knees.

An ounce of rationality is still left in you, despite the terrifying situation you find yourself in. "Where are you?" You ask with your voice shaking, a satisfying sound for Ghostface.

"Don't worry, I'm not inside... yet," the implied threat makes you shut your eyes instinctively, wishing that everything would disappear. But it isn't the brightest idea, so you open them again and look around, trying to stay alert. "Let's play a game, I'll give you three chances to guess who I am. You have to play by the rules. No calling for help, and don't close your curtains. I need to see if you're playing fair."

The last sentence sends a shiver down your spine. They could see you. Your gaze shifts to the window, terrified to see what you'd find. But hopefully, or not, you only saw the sky turning dark. "No..." Your voice shakes again, and you try to hold back your tears of desperation, "I know better than to play games with you."

"Oh, you don't want to play?" They sound displeased, which fills you with dread. "Let's skip forward then, I'll show you who I am," they say impatiently, "Open the front door."

By that time, the tears were falling to your cheeks. Your pants and gasps were audible through the phone, and it felt like your heartbeats were too. You couldn't move, and you obviously didn't want to let them in, but maybe the choice was merely an illusion. Your cries become more evident through the phone.

"Open the damn door, [name], or I'll get in myself and I won't be as nice as I would be," the caller threatened, and you are completely taken over by fear, filling every fiber of your body.

"Please, don't hurt me," you sob, begging for mercy as you turn around, facing the door a few steps ahead of you. You slowly walk towards it, continuing to plead.

"That's not my plan, sweetheart," Ghostface replies on the phone, "as long as you do what I say."

Your hands never trembled as much as they did once they touched the doorhandle. With a deep, shaky exhale, you open the door, facing the terrifying tall frame, covered in black and hidden behind the Ghostface mask. You let out a whimper as more tears fell to your cheeks. You gasp once your eyes meet the shiny blade in their hand.

In a startling, quick move, you were trapped against the wall, with the knife pressed to your neck, and you drop your phone on the floor. Instinctively, you scream, but the gloved hand covers your mouth before you can make a sound loud enough to be heard. They close the door with their feet, the loud noise making you jump in place. You shut your eyes, not wanting to face them.

The two of you were silent for a moment, the faint music filling the eerie atmosphere along with your sobs and loud breaths, followed by Ghostface's amused chuckle. They slowly removed the hand from your mouth, allowing you to breathe more easily, and you open your eyes, scanning the view in front of you. You didn't make a sound, and you tried your best to steady your breaths as much as you could before you had a heart attack.

"I told you I wouldn't hurt you if you behaved," they break the silence, and amidst the turmoil in your mind, you question their intentions and reasons. What made you different to them? Why hadn't they attacked you immediately, like they did with Tara and Vince?

Well, for one, all their love letters and gifts. Somehow, you had Ghostface in love with you, and you just realized that. Two people in one. And now, you could figure out who they actually were.

"Curious?" They ask, noticing the expression on your face, how you bit your lip, making it seem like the wheels in your mind were turning. "Go on, turn it off," the command, tapping on the voice modifier from the mask with their free hand. Your sobs had momentarily ceased, but your hands were still shaking when you hesitantly reached to press the button. You hear a low chuckle behind the mask, "recognize me now?"

It took you a moment to believe it. To make sense of it. Your eyes widened, and the look on your face was clearly of shock. Subconsciously, your lips part slightly in disbelief. How could it be her? "Amber?" you whisper, your voice faltering with hesitancy. You earn a mischevous giggle from the girl in front of you.

Her free hand reaches up, taking off her mask and throwing it on the floor, once again making you jump at the noise. There's a wicked smile imprinted on her face, staining her image in your mind. Noticing your furrowed brows, her expression changes slightly to one of pity, or remorse.

She pouts, her gaze meeting yours with a sympathetic look, "Aw, baby, I'm sorry I had to scare you," her tone changes to a sickingly sweet, an implied mocking of your position and reaction. "I just find it so cute, y'know?"

You weren't expecting that to be her motive. Deep down, it was starting to make you angry at her. But this feeling was buried by the sensation of the cold blade against your neck. And she still had a lot of explaining to do.

"Remember the first time I made you watch Stab?" She asks you, her voice laced with amusement, and a smile growing on her face. "I mean, it' wasn't even such a scary movie, but you were so terrified," she laughs, and even in that terrible moment, you love the sound.

Imperceptibly, she placed a hand on your hip, keeping you in place and maintaining her control. She looks at you with a sweet, satisfied expression. "It was so adorable. I loved how scared you got," she confessed with such a natural, charismatic demeanor, as if she hadn't planned a whole terrifying scene, just for you.

“You were clinging to me and you wanted me to protect you so bad. And I realized, I wanted that too.” With a wide smile, she chuckles mischievously. Her eyes observe you attentively, taking in every detail, every subtle movement. She loved to see your tear-stained cheeks and glossy eyes. It was terrible, and she knew that, but didn't you look impossibly beautiful in that moment? "That night," she continues, her face getting closer to yours as her eyes find your parted lips, "you begged me to let you stay over and to sleep with me. It was fucking cute, seriously," her eyes meet yours again as she lets out a low chuckle. Even though you hated that moment, how scared you were, you still found the genuity in everything she was saying.

"I could barely sleep, because it felt so good to hold you close, and I really felt like I was protecting you, y’know?" Her tone escalates with passion, emphasizing the sincerity in her words. "From what? Nothing. But it was nice.”

It was infuriating to hear everything. To go through all that terror, just because... she liked it? Why would she go so far to scare you?

“But with time you got over it and you didn’t need me anymore. And I still wanted that. I wanted you to need me to protect you," she continues her monologue, a classic after villain reveals. It was really starting to feel like you were in a stupid slasher movie that she likes so much. "I needed some threat, something dangerous to scare you."

You finally find the courage to cut her off, "That's why you did all of this?" Your tone gave away how irritated you were, although still fearful, "Because you wanted me to feel like... I was in a fucking horror movie?" Your voice becomes slightly bolder, in spite of the risk. You couldn't believe her.

She feigns being offended, then exhales with a quiet chuckle. "Sweetheart, the threats were already there," she responds, her grip tightening in response to her growing intensity. "Like that Vince guy. Gosh, he was a weird fucking creep. And you were scared of him, I know that, but he could actually hurt you. And I would never let that happen," she continues to explain her twisted motives. "It couldn’t be anyone else, because I never wanted you to get hurt. I wouldn’t trust anyone else."

At that mention, you recall his murder. You were with your friends at that bar the night he was killed. You were worried about your safety. He was into Liv, and you could very well be his next target. Amber had noticed the way you held her hand in that moment, tightly with worry, but the threat was real, and she wanted to protect you. Which is exactly what she did. What better way to keep you safe than to eliminate the threat? That's how her mind worked.

The slightest hint of understanding was appearing in your expression. A hint that Amber didn't miss, ever so attentive. "Do you get it now?" she asks genuinely, as if everything she did was right. "It had to be me. Because I would never hurt you. Because other people would," her tone is so sweet and caring, you forget she is the one holding the knife to your neck.

Actually, it doesn't matter. She might be holding it, but it means nothing. The girl in front you could've killed you long ago, yet she was confessing everything she did for you, without drawing a single drop of your blood. She might as well be holding the blade against her heart, because the girl is crazy for you, quite literally. If you got hurt, by any means, it would break her. From the moment she fell for you, protecting you was a necessary act to protect herself.

With that understanding, the clarity of your realization, your anger gradually faded. Her elaborate, sick and twisted web had the purpose of protecting you. She was poisoned with love. Could you blame her for her whole performance? (You totally could)

But you didn't. For the same reason you answered your stalker's letters, and opened the gift box. For the same reason you let Amber convince you to watch Stab a thousand times, despite hating horror movies. Yes, you have terrible taste for lovers. But you love the thrill. With her, you'd have security, protection, a little bit of action and lots of excitement. It was a twisted game, but you knew in the end it was safe to play. Because she was completely, head over heels in love with you.

[...]

[iris-sistibly]

Yeah babes, I'm exhausted. Episode 14 is fucking exhausting! Also I'm not in my usual enthusiastic mood because I'm not okay (not because of the show) but I'm trying to get my shit together, so I apologize if this seems a bit...unlively

📍Writer and director were definitely trolling when Hae-in saw the old man visiting his presumably wife's grave. It was like a fucking premonition of the finale's episode it made me worry for a moment.

📍Aunt Beom-ja and hubby #4's moments are basically what cheered me up, they're my second favorite couple next to my BaekHong loves of course, I can't wait for them to get married and live happily in Yongdu-ri.

📍I'm glad Da-hye ended up not going to her abusive ex and stayed with Soo-cheol instead. However, I am still worried about her, Geon-u and Soo-cheol. Da-hye's ex is like a fucking rabid dog, no brain cells but is still capable of hurting anyone. I sure hope Soo-cheol's been training well.

📍I kinda anticipated this bittersweet moments of BaekHong, I can't even count how many times I ugly cried in this episode, but I'm glad Hae-in took the surgery. It pains me to see that her happiest memories with Hyun-woo disappeared just like that, but the fact that Hyun-woo's name remained in her subconscious tells us that she hasn't completely forgotten. In previous episodes, Hyun-woo was mostly the one who saves her, but I do believe that in the next episode or in the finale, she'll be able to save him. That being said, I hope she finds the video Hyun-woo secretly recorded so she'll know the truth.

📍Should I even talk more about Eun-seong? Nah, I'm tired of talking shit about him. He's that pathetic and delusional that he's not even worth my time anymore. I still believe in my gut feeling that what I predicted about his fate will come true though. 🤷

📍I can't believe we are almost at the end of the tunnel. After everything that happened, I sure as hell am expecting not only a happy ending, but a satisfying one. Episode 16 better be the best episode.

[hard-core-super-star]

here I am to answer while I almost fall asleep again, mainly because it's almost 2am, I don't know how I'm still standing ye ye ye. It would be funny if you weren't, but since the topic was that anon's ideas, there was no way you weren't right. naaaah, I don't need to do it, I think you're doing great. I will continue my hard work, which is to keep laughing 😔

I don't believe you anticipated that I was going to say something... but um, if you were multitasking I think it's okay? I guess you're right and emily dickinson approves this statement. I heard that in some countries the word “chemistry” doesn’t exist, so they use gwen and peter as a synonym. kind of yes? because you will have transformed into him and you'll know that you are there... I don't know, it's quite confusing. yup, the multiverse is pure madness.

nope, that's not me. exactly what I've been doing up until now... maybe I-- kdhskskssksk yeah, but shhh, don't think about it too much 😶 c'mooon, do you really think my only brain cell is capable of doing this? I mean, If you want me to finish the sentences it would only be fair for you to do the same, right? 👀

I feel like I should be offended by this. good to know you didn't think about doing exactly that, it would be horrible if you thought about doing that. since you're not thinking about sharing any more thoughts I wouldn't want to hear it either because it wouldn't make me more excited. and since you didn't ask, I'm not going to answer that it would be interesting for half-smut, like, to almost happen but R isn't ready for it yet and the fact that Kate respects this decision would also be something “shocking” for R.

okay, I'll trust you and your words then. so it looks like your days of semi-refreshments have arrived. ksjskskak I'm going to start writing a little line on paper every time I understand a reference you make.

I've never seen anyone say that english is weird, you couldn't be more right lmao. wowwowow, paris? that's so cool- even though you couldn't speak french hsjskakk 😭 what was it like when you went there? I swear I could make fun of you for that, but then I'd be attacking myself too because I'm exactly like that lmao. and okay, your fear of sounding like a gringa is totally plausible because it really is embarrassing af- I'm glad you agree that their relationship goes beyond that, even if it's something obvious lol. I wonder how much pain she really hides, not only from others but also from herself, you know? that would be so cute stop ashwajdksk she was definitely going to turn into a mess, but a happy mess, like, look at her making friends and finally having people around 🥺

– 🌟

i want to scold you for being awake at 2am but i can't bring myself to do it because seeing another message from you made my night 19x times better so 😶 it’s about to be 10pm for me so, it's not super late but i’m definitely a little drowsy. [also, i’m starting to realize we both overestimated the time difference between us lmao] look at you, finally starting to admit how right i am all the time, i knew you could do it. hmmm, nope, i think we ALL require a comment from you. definitely not just me.

well, believe it ‘cause that's what happened 👍 look at that, even more evidence of me being right, i’ll take that star any time. skskdkdj yup, that sounds about right. i think i need to go watch the amazing spiderman now 😅 i think we can excuse narcissism this time, right? i feel like the context makes it...better lmao. you could almost call it the multiverse of madness…get it? …i’ll see myself out 🙃

whatever you say 👀 says the person refusing to give me another star, when it comes to compliments though well, let's just say you… uh huh, i’ll stop thinking about it, say some more obvious things and wake up to everyone calling me out about it. subtlety isn't really my strong suit, as i’m sure you've noticed. i’m sure you and your one braincell will manage just fine. and before you start, you're the one who started the unfinished sentences thing so you owe me at least four sentences before i even think about giving you mine.

nope, you should take it as a compliment. i’m glad we’re on the same page about all the things i certainly won't be doing. i don't have way too many thoughts about alpha!kate at all and i definitely don't want to talk about her at all. it’s not like the only thing stopping me right now is my tiredness, not at all. i’m so glad you didn't answer the question i didn't ask because it's not like i think that's a great idea and i certainly won't be stealing it. and i definitely don't want you to ask any questions about this AU or alpha!kate at all.

thank you, i appreciate your trust. you’re going to run out space very quickly, i make like two references per message and we have…about four conversations going on rn.

really??? i saw it once somewhere and it's never left my mind. it's such a pain in the ass sometimes which is probably why i ignore most grammar rules and just write what i want lmao. which usually means i add a crap ton of commas to every sentence. Grammarly hates me. my spanish came through and saved my ass ‘cause my french was very limited at the time. i honestly had a great time though, my mom and i decided it would be much more fun to travel for my 15th birthday instead of having the traditional quinceañera thingy and i absolutely made the right decision. i love traveling and paris is lovely, i don't care if it’s overrated. i’m glad you understand my pain and my fear, it's also embarrassing af having to pronounce certain things [like carne asada, for example] the “American Way” so people understand what i mean. it's exactly why i don't go to Chipotle. [i also just don't like it but that's not as fun to say] yeah, i think kate just really needs someone to be in her corner and who better than her literal idol, right? i feel like she's very self-aware of how obsessive she sounds sometimes but she does it anyway to annoy clint. she probably hides any and all pain she's ever felt and then makes a slightly heavy joke that makes everyone go like ‘???’ which just makes her retreat even further. oh for sure. i think she’d also be genuinely surprised that yelena doesn't seem to hate her. they're definitely friends but they act like they have a rivalry going on which is all fun and games until yelena accidentally hurts kate’s feelings which just results in endless puppy dog eyes.

[mdverse]

Hey! So your Furtana art (and art in general) always brings me such joy and I think I feel similarly about Finn as you do, i.e. can't really love canon him but I do like aspects of his character and therefore like my headcanon of him. So I just wanted to ask, what would you change about canon Finn to make him more easily likeable? What do you think are the best things about him, and do you have any headcanons you'd like to share? :) (could be Furtana related haha, or not)

hi!! am glad my art can make u happy (especially the furtana stuff, they really have become my comfort trio haha).

i do want to warn you that i'm not great at analysing characters (or anything else ngl my brain is often very empty), and i'm even worse at putting my thoughts into words, but i'll do my best for u :)

i think the main thing i would change isn't even an aspect of Finn himself, honestly. if anything, the most important change i'd want would be for the characters around him to hold him accountable for his actions. bc let's face it, Finn gets away with saying a lot of things. he's the only character i can think of rn who used two different slurs, in addition to the entirety of mash-off/ikag, and probably more things that i can't remember off the top of my head, and the only time i know that someone for sure made him actually think about the consequences of his words was Burt. also santana slapping him, but idk if that really counts. i know u just watched ikag so i don't really need to go into the fact that pretty much no one tries to knock some sense into him (the kurt/klaine aspect of the outing really irks me and i don't feel like getting into that here but ugh). with the r-word i think he did realise immediately that he was wrong to say it and i think he regretted it, but my point is. most people around him didn't hold him accountable for the hurtful things he said and did, so he was able to get away with doing things without really thinking about the gravity of his actions. and that's really frustrating, bc we see that burt yelling at finn does actually have an effect - it's clumsy but he does try to support kurt after that. and i think we see it in s4 with him defending unique when she is dead set on playing rizzo; he knows there are risks in letting her do so, but he is 100% willing to protect her to the best of his abilities. he's capable of growth, and i think he's also willing to learn, it just seems to take a lot for him to get there sometimes. which actually leads pretty well into why i like vb au furtana! the thing about santana is that she just,, doesn't take people's bullshit. she's stubborn and won't shy away from a fight, even if she stands no chance of winning, which means that growing up together, santana would've always been ready and willing to throw finn's mistakes in his face. very bluntly. it most definitely also means that finn and santana fought a lot as children - usually over dumb stuff bc, yknow, they were kids. but regardless of what it was, finn would come out of the conflict with a new understanding of what he did wrong and most importantly, why it was wrong for him to do x thing. which isn't to say that vb au santana had a fantastic moral compass as a child, bc she did also treat kurt (among others) like trash for a while, but her constant presence and bullshit detector play a big part in preventing vb au finn from turning into canon finn.

in terms of what i do like about him... i think it's kinda similar to your recent post about santana and how you like that she's cruel and messy (i do too! wasn't sure how to respond to that post bc words are hard but,,, its sth i enjoy exploring in vb au... just letting her be harsh and defensive at times... but that's a whole other thing lmao anyway back to finn). i like that he's flawed. i like that he's confused, that he doesn't really know what he wants in life, especially after high school. i like that he's insecure, that he lashes out at people (though sometimes his anger issues worry me and make me think that he needed therapy. tbh a lot of the glee characters needed therapy but that's a whole other post again), that he feels like the (stupid) high school hierarchy is extremely important, that he struggles to merge that part of his life with his love for the glee club. he feels grounded, yknow? i love me some character flaws that make them instantly relatable. but i think what i love about him the most is how kind he can be. it feels weird to type that right after bringing up some of his worst moments on the show, but he really does have some incredibly sweet moments with people. to me, his growth shows the most in s4, bc teacher!finn had some moments where you could just tell that even if he didn't know what he was doing, even if he was scared to be leading these kids by himself, he still cared about them so much. things like helping artie make grease happen, helping ryder with his dyslexia, trying to help the s4 newbies bond with each other, making sure the club didn't fall apart after their sectionals. i am still judging him for deciding to do gangnam style but that's unimportant rn. idk i'm really losing my train of thought now so i'll just finish with this: finn is a sweet but dumb boy. he has golden retriever/dumb ginger cat energy written all over him and i just desperately wish he had been given more chances to properly grow from his mistakes, instead of pretty much everyone (except burt hummel, king, icon) glossing over it.

one more thing tho! i am once again shamelessly self-promoting but i know that watching ikag was a struggle for u and i humbly offer my version of santana's coming out in hopes that it's a more pleasant experience for u...

[anchorandrope]

Don't you get tired of playing dumb? I mean sent you links with screenshots and debunks and yall block them and dismiss them BECAUSE yall conspiracy theorists who can not handle facts. And then yall play victim and pretend yall can't read the facts when yall block them out? How do you live with lying even to yourself everyday? Louis said he was worried about conspiracy theorists and many others are for valid reasons. I won't even start with taking resposibility for your actions.

*sighs*

okay sweetheart let’s make a couple of things clear because your two brain cells dont get tired of saying bullshit

its my blog, i answer what i want, when i want and how i want

i dont have the obligation to respond to absolutely anything that you or someone else tells me. in my blog i answer what i want and how i want; many times i answered you but instead of directly answering your ask i uploaded an “x” or a “.” or gave rb to a post and in the tags i put “@anon this is for u” but of course those kind of answers for you are not valid, you need attention, you need me to upload your stupid ask.

i have no obligation to respond to harassers.

you’re playing dumb, not me

you come to my blog telling me that you have evidence that “debunks” a situation but when i show you proof that yours is false, suddenly you disappear and change the subject, like when you sent me a message saying that rbb and sbb was “debunked” because it was “verified” that it was the sound guy and i gave rb to a post that explained that that was a lie and in the tags i put that it was for you, or like when i told you to debunk everything that was in many links that i put about babygate and from there instead of sending me “proof” that louis is a father you started insulting me.

making a pretext of something isnt synonymous with debunking something

pretext –> a reason given in justification of a course of action that is not the real reason.

debunk –> expose the falseness or hollowness of (a myth, idea, or belief).

if you come to my ask to tell me that closeting doesnt exist, that the industry isnt that bad, that everyone is straight until its “proven” otherwise, that louis and harry treated each other as normal friends, that all the incongruities of briana’s pregnancies are normal, that its impossible to have beards nowadays, etc: surprise! those are pretexts. stop using the word debunk because you are not debunking anything.

raising your point of view isnt synonymous with insulting

raised point(s) –> refers to some ideas or arguments that were put forward by someone in the discussion. once someone has raised their points, anyone might invite everyone in the discussion to consider the points that were just made, in order to discuss the raised points in further details.

insult –> speak to or treat with disrespect or scornful abuse.

so when you tell me to k*ll myself, that louis hates me, that im not a real fan, etc. you are not defending your point of view, you are insulting me.

extra fact: did you know that people who only and just only insult when it comes to defending them points of view is because they are often not sure what they think is true and/or dont feel well informed about it?

nobody forces you to believe in anything

dont you want to be a larrie? dont be an larrie lol, nobody cares if you are a larrie or not, you are an anonymous from tumblr literally nobody cares who you are or what you think.

i wont waste my time answering every message you send me

many, if not most, of the messages you send me, i have already answered them or gave rb or i made a post talking about it. dont you want to take the time to find the answer to your questions? im not going to do it for you.

the one who has questions and wants to answer them, takes the time to search. the one who has questions and doesnt take the time to search is because they doesnt want to know the answer.

i wont change my point of view

i’ve been receiving messages like yours for years and years, i’ve been reading posts from accounts dedicated to just harassing larries and “debunking” larry for years, i’ve been harassed for years. and surprise, im still here. do you really think that your message is so special as to change my opinion? and if you dont want to change my opinion, why are you sending me messages? just to harass me?

if you are aware that you only send me messages to harass me, there is not much i can tell you, since for you harassment is not bad except in certain cases (in the case that the person harassed is you because you only care about you) and that doesnt have to do with a fandom, it has to do with personal values. do you know what the funniest thing is? surely in instagram you make yourself look like an “activist” and anonymously you are this type person...

if you dont like my blog just ignore it

you dont like me? dont follow me, you dont like me? dont look at my blog, you dont like me? block me, you dont like me? ignore me.

you have no excuses to harass me, the only reason you have is because you are my fan, you just want my attention.

harassing is online abuse.

so please stop bothering

also, stop using the “louis hates you for being larrie” because when he was asked about it he literally answered this

kisses and stream the larry anthem

[aactyng-blog]

creative. writing.

hello, dear diary, dearest life, dearest today

look at me, i'm vietnamese and speaking english.

look at me, my skin, bones, and blood are vietnamese, and i don't know how to speak vietnamese

looking deeper

i see that i'm very 'american'

i eat american food, drink american water

so how could i not speak american, think american

it's in my cells, in my dna, who i am

but i am still

vietnamese

dearest love, i am here for u

gonna go write in my planner, brb

ok i'm back

i didn't write much

caamfest is looking at me

dearest love, i am here for u. we are trying our best, doing the most

but remember

i am living

i am alive

and my life

of happiness

is the only real thing

i should prioritize

don't chase

the unreal

it will disappear

be in the present moment

it is the only real thing

breathe

your lungs are here for u

it's been a while since i've written this way

is tumblr really the place to do it

i used to keep google docs

nothing lasts forever

except impermanence

or so it seems

the bell just rang for 8

and i don't think i can keep writing until 8:30a

creative writing.

i don't have

i

i

i

i'm 30

i vape

but i won't

after i finish this one

i used to do a lot of drugs

i used to drink a lot of alcohol

or am i thinking i did it more than i did

well, i did do a lot

looking back

i feel sad

i didn't think that i needed help

at the time

maybe i'm still in denial

creative

i am creative

i am living

i am creating

i am living

there is much suffering in me

from ancestors and i learn about their suffering

even if i didn't learn, that suffering exists in other forms

i think if i learn, i will suffer less

but i need to learn how to suffer less

in order to suffer less

dearest love, dearest self, dearest tri ky

i don't fully understand what that word means

but i think i will

and i think the journey to know will be good

i woke up

when i was 30

i started w a rude awakening

almost ended life just as it was about to begin

maybe the end is what made me wake up

and that still makes me sad

i can't comprehend

i want lotuses

but not at the cost of mud

so i will forgo the lotuses

that's not how

that's not the way

it works

bc even if i give up my lotuses

there will still be mud

or maybe that's what becoming a monastic, nun is

i give up the lotuses

and live in such a way

there will be less mud

wow

profound

i feel possessed

when i translate

live

after a while i feel tired

sometimes i get overwhelmed

but in the groove

i don't think much

even though i'm using all the brain power i possess

aside from communicating w the organs

the organs work to power my brain

my body works

it works

hard

dearest love

thank u

thank u so much

for being here for me

i see the work u do

i see the suffering u suffer

and i wish to relieve that suffering

we will do it together

hold my hand

i love u

i will understand u

i will always b here for u

i am always here for u

my right shoulder is tense

tight

i love u

barely 10 minutes

dearest love

i love u very much

i see u

i celebrate u

and i

believe in u

once upon a time, there was a girl

who worked at a noodle shop

back in the day

waaaayyyy back in the day

and one day a princess came

and she fell in love

haha, but she didn't know

the girl was just

taken aback

and wanted to be her friend

wanted to keep looking at the princess

staring

being v weird

and so she pulled back

the noodle girl hid

until the princess left

little did she know

the princess saw noodle girl a couple of days ago

and mustered up the courage to visit the noodle shop

heart pounding, the princess tried to act normal

while eating noodles at the noodle shop

paid

and left

and gasped for air

bc the princess was holding her breath the whole time

which made eating noodles very difficult

i'm chain smoking

this vape has got to run out soon

dearest love

we're coming up on 15 minutes

and i think this is it

i love u

have a wonderful thursday

april 14

accept me

breathe in the moment

dwell in the moment

i am always here for u

bye

i love u

kisses and hugs

warmth

see u laterrrr

<3

[got7official]

Honestly, you're going too far right now. I do understand that what Jackson did was wrong and that he should just have apologized instead of reacting like he did. But saying that he has no braincells? Because he made a mistake, he didn't even understand? How tf is he supposed to know that? In my country live more than a few pocs and I didn't even know that. And the comments he got were mostly hate comments, you can't expect him to read through all to maybe find 1 or 2 educational comments...

honey i was patient with jackson ALLLLLL day yesterday, and after how he outright dismissed black fans’ opinions and feelings, you aren’t gonna find me coddling him like that.  if u went back and read the letter i posted to him, maybe you’d be able to understand better.  but in short, i was on his instagram a lot yesterday, and while yes there was ppl there just to drag him, i can vouch that the majority of them (that weren’t c-jackys babying him) were people educating him were doing it as constructively as can be done through ig comments.  hell, so many of us always started our posts off with ‘i love you jackson but…’  no one expects jackson or you or anyone from other cultures/countries to become socially aware of racial issues you’ve had no exposure to up til now in a matter of minutes, but is it really too much to ask for y’all to show a willingness to listen and to learn?  because most ppl would have taken the time to actually own up to the fact they made a mistake, would have apologized for causing offense even if unintentional, and would start to educate themselves on the culture they say to love so much.  and ofc, jackson did none of these things and instead trying to defend his behavior.  if he didn’t know what he was talking about, he shoulda asked calmly for clarification or kept his mouth shut.

that’s why i said i didn’t know if i still believed he was in possession of such brain cells… i never said he didn’t have any.

[candzylandgirl-blog]

By the way the dude on new edition is bobby brown cunt muncher Steve eurkle was even a hottie if u saw his true self so was culkini foita prob cunt muncher get over it carpet popper pumper bitch yes me gibbs on ncis always been a hottie to so the fuck what with compliments its natural unlike u carpet muncher ho n,muncher hi let me let u know the fucking diff 8n giving a teen or kid a true compliment they hot or cute is a compliment to make them feel good not a fuck fest cunt big diff u tell ure own dam kids in this world they pretty or handsome don't u for compliments learn fucking shit just cause five a compliment don't mean shit its a dam fucking compliment even a baby is cute ure so fucking ignorant even,if a pic is fake or poster o he hot etc its just a dam pic n compliment u ignorant cunt even,there cartoon characters not real n hot its a god dam compliment honey even Naruto is a hottie he not real honey its a compliment they did a good job n made a hottie even they made the girls pretty its a compliment honey all nothing more u ignorant cunt u tell,ure own daughter she pretty don't u its a compliment isn't it a foolish fantasy is a compliment toward illegal,8nvasion people watching me n,give them,what they deserve its a compliment for ure foolishness not for uvto god dam believe cunt u have notvrealized I known u been watching longer than ubthink me bathing etc etc etc its what u deserve cunttttttt its a deservation fantasyvforcure invasion not real cunt muncher don't watch people illegal,invading then go assuming shit cunt some are not stupid so how was it to watch me no I do not like porn crap but did u enjoy following me around uvgod dam fool o did I fantasize having sex with loads of guts n shit for u fooooollllllllllllll did u enjoy it o did i talk fantasizing nbshit o did u enjoy it foooolllllllllllllllll ure ignorant o did u enjoy watching me fantasize about famous people u get jealous o bless ure ignorant god dam foolish heart thongs were done for reasons s u fooooollllllll don't assume n accuse n rumor to much now fooollllll see what happens when u invade a smarty pants I tried to tell u fuck off in the began foooollllll,u know u burn n karma hitting u over ure ignorance not i,o did I fantasize about a 18 yr old n his father for u god dam fooooollllllllllll o u enjoy my bath days back then ignorant sick fuck u nastyyy/ its not real its what u deserved to make yourself look foolish n just a fantasy to do it not real honey well go on n keep burning yourself with the world to more ignorance. Y I don't like watching tv or movies anymore honey hate the sex shit in it there is my reason besides not being able to sit still very long but that's the major reason never even watched it really when had it everything gotta be sexual I don't like it honey so there my reason I have something to watch off another person but don't now do i can't stand the shit is that proof enough for u or I would have my own cable by now I ain't wasting my time besides tv n shit give off cancer rays no thank u n bigger they are higher apt for it no thank uso do vehicles no thank u just like a tv u can turn it on start it n it can take 1 min sitting there n cancer even the heat n air in vehicles tradition fumes carbon monoxide etc etc etc same with air craft so yes go travel constant have nice cancer days mire u do higher apt watch that tv all day. Even computers phones tablets etc even just talking on a cell,phone 1 min can cause brain cancer using it can cause cancer but what fucking can't a blow dryer a curling iron certain soaps food shampoo etc etc etc etc hair products can what fucking can't so Enjoyvure precious luxury out there even electric van cause u cancer tradition n shit going through it mire u use more u plug higher apt u are for radition electrical cancer I rather live with the omish they do all natural n horses no electric more healthier than u elec stoves n gas even cause carbon monoxide brain killer n cancer fireplaces n ure gighercrisk at elec ones so enjoy ure god dam luxury no thank u I will become the omish I rather