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bunnyboy-juice · 3 months

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NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???

#personal #i am emotional yes #over the years ive had this blog I've made a few posts abt being femme #nd whether they're serious or jokey..... inevitably someone in the tags goes “ohhh yeah bc pink”#or in the case of what inspired this post: someone going “what about the pink ones” on my praying mantis post #and im just.#sick of it. im sick of femme being equated to pink and frilly girlie behaviors.#im sick of femme being equated to skirts and heels. to makeup. to skincare. to pristine nails exactly almond shaped.#im sick of ppl acting like All femmes aspire to this shit. im sick of femms being reduced to this shit.#and i love pink! i love pink! my phone theme is quite literally just black and pink all over.#im just. so tired of any expression of Femme identity being shoehorned into being a Specific type of femininity #especially as someone who DOES get dysphoric wearing skirts. wearing dresses. embodying the femme aesthetic yall are so set on making #if u guys wanna rb this i truly dont care #i just needed to scream #and this is one small thing #but the 2nd largest category of anon hate i have gotten since making this blog is str8 up homophobia from other “queer” folks #saying i cant be femme bc of how i present. calling me slurs (and using them as such) bc they cant understand femme as anything but that #my wife and i have our users in our personal discord server set as 2 different things of anon hate ive gotten #i have had OTHER FEMMES tell me i am not femme. femmes who Know im femme who still call me butch. femmes who ive corrected and been blocked #-by bc of it. the number 1 largest demographic of queerfolk who have me blocked rn is TME femmes who embody pink also #and i dont think its a coincidence at all. (and i know this bc i go to try and follow these ppl bc they get rbed on my dash & i cant)#and ik their blogs arent deleted bc some of them don't block my wife (tall. white. butch) and it cant be politics cause her and i rb #a lot of the same political shit (fuck. i think she rbs More than i do even. this is genuinely mainly a nsft blog)#and usually i don't say anything but im having a bad day so i get to be angry about this and if anyone fucking tries me i will block u #idc if we've been mutuals 4ever. im judt so tired of feeling like i am not Enough as a femme bc i dont embody this shit #im sick of this lameass lip service to he/him gnc femmes etc when the thin white 50s housewife femme is still what is preferred and loved #im sick of this lamesss lip service when y'all feel entitled to theorizing on other femmes genders bc u cant conceptualize a femme who does #wanna be hypetfeminine. im sick of it. im sick of it. im sick of it.#celebrity bun

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sockdooe · 1 month

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I don’t know if maybe it’s just me, but is anyone else seeing a rise of people claiming that they could do a better rewrite of Voltron and then immediately say they’d make K/L cannon or Adash/ canon?

I don’t know about anyone else but I genuinely don’t think making ships canon would make the show better.

In fact I think It’d make it worse.

And considering shiro isn’t even mentioned in these and if he is it’s just to be Keith dad…. Is telling.

#listen do what you want but I’m really tired of people genuinely thinking they can do better and then forget the main story of Voltron #I’m being so dead serious #Voltron was never supposed to be about ships or which ones would be canon #it’s about 5 teens/young adult forced into space to be the ‘hero’ against a empire that’s been around for more than their entire life times #and the fact this shit keeps populating the shiro tag is what pisses me off more #I feel like I’m the only one in this fandom that enjoys ships for what they are: FUN #I have tons of ships!!! I don’t want any of them to be cannon!!! even if I love them so much!!!! why? because ships don’t need to be canon!!#you can just simply enjoy having your headcanons and making art/writing and have it be fun!!!!#nothing has to be canon #I don’t know why especially this fandom is so obsessed with it but it’s driving me CRAZY #and what makes it worse is that every time they talk about making K/L cannon is that ‘it deserves to be’#NO IT DOESNT #IT REALLY DOESNT #VOLTRON HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ROMATIC RELATİONSHİPS #UNPOPULAR OPINION BUT IT REALLY DOESNT #you want to do a re-write do it! but dont do it just because you want to make a ship CANON #because that’s not re-writing it’s just fan fiction #you are just writing a fanfic #I want to re-write Voltron too but I actually want the show to improve and be BETTER AND LOVE ITS CHARACTERS #I WANT THEM TO BE BUIKT UO THE WAY THEY SHOUKDVE BEEN #ships don’t belong in canon #sure is it maybe nice when it happens cool but let it happen without dismissing the other characters #not because fans wanted it #also stop fucking populating the shiro tag lest I come at you with a lead pipe #Voltron #voltron legendary defender #vld

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forbiddentaako · 2 months

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more monochrome practice I suppose

#tumblr getting this version of this drawing bc i dont want to get in trouble for drawing them nakey #so its date night vibes instead of like eden vibes #i have such complicated feelings about this ship in part bc we havent really met lilith so dont know what shes about yet #but i know in my heart there was a time they loved each other so much and so this is that #honestly would love so much to get backstory on the eden crew and the happenings there even just like a flashback in an episode or somethin #but lowkey im on the 'hoping they get divorced but deeply care about one another and are a part of each others lives' train #bc thats kind of more interesting to me than them getting back together bc i think the crux of it is how much theyve changed and a part of #their relationship getting to the point where lilith disappeared maybe being them both trying to desperately to salvage it and in doing so #making it worse bc they felt like they ruined their lives to be together and so what was the point of it all if they weren't anymore?? but #like theyre immortal so of course theyre going to change and of course theres a chance that the relationship doesnt work even if they deepl #love one another and always will and i just like the closure of that and admitting they arent right for each other in that way anymore but #they still love and care about each other and will never lose that #this is rambling and doesnt make as much sense as when i was typing it on a different post i am wondering now if theres a limit on how many #tags i can put here bc im just yapping at this point whoops #anyway i need to buck up and actually finish/post that draft i have about my very long and complicated hazbin ship opinions #lucilith #hazbin hotel #lilith morningstar #lilith hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lilith #lucifer hazbin hotel #hazbin lucifer #hazbin hotel lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin lilith

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hella1975 · 3 months

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so there's a reason my new job got back to me so quickly about my application and that's bc it's an absolute fucking shambles like actually perfect timing for me to decide to rewatch the bear bc i have never more felt like ive been thrown into a broke on-its-knees establishment trying to crawl its way up the ladder where i am somehow a godsend to them. my old job was crazy and shambolic in the sense that the industry is just Like That but this one?????? insanity. every 5 mins i am questioning what im doing with my life. ive already had a walk-in fridge moment

#so i explained before that there's 3 venues and on my very first shift they had me doing the restaurant venue for 2 hours #which was FINE like i was a bit cautious bc my manager is VERY stressed all the time and the place generally feels like it's falling apart #not the building itself just. the way it's run like it's just got new owners and the previous manager apparently #EMPTIED THE TILLS AND TRASHED THE PLACE like cost them THOUSANDS of pounds and on top of that #there was beef with the head chef and the new owners that meant he left and took the ENTIRE BACK OF HOUSE WITH HIM #THERE ARE NO KITCHEN STAFF ATM. I HAVE TO LIE AND TELL CUSTOMERS WE DONT HAVE FOOD ATM BC OF 'REFURBISHMENT'#WHEN IN ACTUALITY THE /RESTAURANT/ DOESNT HAVE CHEFS. DO YOU KNOW HOW CRAZY THAT IS #and then the front of house staff are very lacking aside maybe 2 people we're ALL NEW and all of them EXCEPT ME #LIKE LITERALLY JUST ME IM THE ONLY EXCEPTION. ALL OF THEM ARE UNTRAINED #so when i applied with bar training coffee training and very solid waitressing skills they genuinely treated me like a saviour #like i am FENDING off shifts tbh im in a v good position bc they need me too much to get shitty w me if i refuse hours but i can literally #have as many as i want bc they will just give me them. like they're obsessed w me im rota'd for over 60 hours this week #but anyway that very first shift after 2 hours in the restaurant i then walked to the mini golf venue on the OTHER SIDE OF TOWN #and my manager stayed for 30 MINUTES. IF THAT. and showed me around the place + how to close THEN LEFT ME THERE #FIRST DAY HE GAVE ME THE KEYS AND LEFT ME TO RUN AN ENTIRE VENUE. IT'S NOT SMALL EITHER IT'S A WHOLE BAR #AND I HAD TO CLOSE ON MY OWN TOO and ironically the shift itself went rlly well like it was so chill #it was kinda boring but honestly i kinda rated it it's v easy money and the close went perfectly nothing cropped up that i was unsure about #and then. AND THEN. i havent even ranted to my mutuals about this yet bc i was acc so horrified by it but i locked the front doors #and went to lock the gate AND THE KEY GOT STUCK IN THE LOCK. WOULD NOT COME OUT. HELLA VS KEYS ROUND 3927593 #my mum even showed up and tried to help me wrestle this thing out i called my manager and he literally told me to just snap it #bc he'd rather a snapped key that NO ONE could get out than just leave it there overnight but bc of my recent house key moment #i was like AM I FUCK SNAPPING THIS KEY. WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING. so i had to just leave it and at the time #i was realllyyyyyyyyyy beating myself up but my manager is actually rlly nice he's just stretched v thin #and ive also had time to be like uhh actually they shouldnt have left a random 21 y/o girl alone with the keys on her first day #omg i havent even talked about what happened on saturday. ACTUAL SHAMBLES #LIKE THIS /\/\ ISNT EVEN CLOSE TO EVERYTHING! IM RUNNING OUT OF TAG ROOM! IM GONNA REBLOG THIS TONIGHT W MORE PROBABLY!#BC GUESS WHO IS WORKING A CLOSE LATER AT THE NIGHTCLUB THEN OPENING THE RESTAURANT AT 8AM. GUESS #hella slaves to capitalism

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mirpkechi · 11 days

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hi chat take my notes on getting to oxford and this dumb doodle of akiren

#miro draws for once #holy shit i never use this tag #need to draw more. whatever #oxford university #dream uni tbh . . . haven't even done my gcses but i know what i have to do #i'm going to do further maths since i'm in top set for my gcses along with triple science [year 9 teacher confirmed i'm more than qualified #then for college i'll aim for A*AA i think for physics/maths/further maths respectively #iirc oxford doesnt do astrophysics as an undergrad course so i'll take physics as my undergrad #sighs.#backup plan is in medicine because that's always been something at the back of my head #sighhsssss. i can't stop thinking about this #shut it miro ! get your gcses done first ! [had a panic attack over mastering CAD [solidworks] in under 3 months]#sigh. normal tag time ?!#my art #traditional art #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #persona 5 #study notes #studyblr #if i dont get into oxford i WILL kill myself

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toytulini · 4 months

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if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.

#toy txt post #or maybe i am just sameface syndrome #but also different face syndrome #two characters will have the same face but then the next time i draw those characters its a different face than they had last time!#i know part of it is being out of practice but also there is definitely an element of feeling constrained by human facial structure lmao #the monsters have Their Own Problems but like. no one has a face like bokrae no matter how inconsistent i am about drawing her #her features are iconic enough to her that you can tell everytime #birdie???? i faceclaimed eartha kitt for her and im still struggling cos i feel weird about faceclaiming as a concept #but even then 😭 one time i was trying to give headloose a face and someone was like wow he looks like birdie!#me 😭😭😭😭😭 what!!!!!! hes not supposed to!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i need to practice. features #you know the worst part about coming up w a bunch of fuckin Scenarios in my brain for ocs is that i have even fucking Drawn them yet #to give them like. iconic staple features and figure out what their faces look like. which feels like it would really help to have that #knowledge and muscle memory before i jump into trying to draw intense scenes with difficult poses!!#not to mention. listen. i can do the monster faces. somewhat. the bodies??????????? well for one. theyre too big everytime #im convinced i could be trying to draw bokrae on like a full ass wall size paper like a mural thing and run out of room. it just keeps #happening. i have no sense of scale for them either. by which i mean i struggle w scale already and also cant decide what i want it to be #and ive tried to handwave it away by being like ohhh uh. birdie casts spells on them to change their sizes for convenience but also #no. perhaps that explanation works for other ppl. @ myself tho its not good enough i Know Better!!!!!!#agh!!!!!!! i really need to figure out bokrae's Teeth also. like i dont. i coukd get away with it. but i should. and i want to.#anyway all this to say that i need to give these characters faces and body designs (actually the body designs for humanoid ocs is the easy #part. the faces are whats stumping me? well. i need more practice w all the body types again but like i Know what im Going For at least.#for the most part anyway. havent fully figured out heights. struggling w characters that i want to make short but give imposing tall energy #on occasion? birdie can be short all day long no problem. I want Alasdair to be short enough that he has a bunch of short boyfriends that #feel tall around him? bytte was going to be like 6ft max but then i thought about making her taller and like. what if i made her taller #headloose is not that /short/ but he is Not Tall and prolly pretty lean? twink build for sure #and of course all these short /tall distinctions come with a bias of relativity to my own height which i categorize as medium height #but short ppl call me tall and insist its not average and tall ppl call me short. (5'6) and then i have to factor in how the gender changes #the dynamic of a height like my height is Short For A Man but medium to tall for a Woman. which id argue is medium height bc mens heights #are socially held to high standards (hehe) and also i know ethnicity/race is also a factor? but im out of tags. rip. bye

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peppermintpegis · 10 months

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netflix one piece live action feels a little like fanfic in that it makes sure it hits all the important notes but doesnt do all the work to make them hit which works in fic where the reader is supposed to bring all the emotional story investment from the original but doesnt work in a multi million adaptation that is supposed to be able to stand on its own or even serve as an intro to the series. it even does this in service to have more koby and helmeppo gay moments in this essay i w

#one piece #opla #the fleshing out of koby and helmeppo is like honestly good its a beacon of light its truly really fun #and all the actors are great it is just what they are given .#they didnt let nami do any real betraying. they didnt even have her steal the merry!! she just stole the map that they added in!!!!#ddont get me started on the gutting of sanjis intro. i dont give a shit about if don krieg appears or not i need to see this guy fuckin #feed the hand thats about to kill him im going to start shaking like a dog.#im almost madder krieg appeared for just a little id rather have that time be used for. anything else really.#like have one of arlongs guys starved half to death when they get to arlong park!or idk anything! no gin appears look its gin! you know him #sanji doesnt even get to beat the shit out of a shitty guest. like i guess he does a little but it feels so blink and you miss it #+the first like two eps were good!! buggys great hes scary and weird and fun. i dont mind that he sticks around longer in theory #but the way he is comedic relief instead of basically every character having funny bits is like. ahghhhgggg. its a symptom of this really #mean and edgy feeling the whole thing has. like the removal of people missing usopps pirate calling :( and how cocoyashi didnt know #nami was working to help them. like p. please. can we have caring and bonds in this world?? trust and love???#anyway. sorry for having expectations of a netflix show im so close to putting this into a more proper form rather than tags. just to get i #all out of my system cause fuck man.#anyway solid 7/10 not as bad as it couldve been

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carcarrot · 4 months

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do i really want to make individual drinks again

#reaching back into the file cabinets of my mind to remember how i made certain drinks when i worked at the cafe #in preparation for the possibility of this new job #it would certainly mean far less goofing off time than i have at my current job. and i value my goofing off time dearly #but the people here are so fucking annoying lmao. i hate them soooo much #not that the people at this new job would be any better. we're still dealing with investment bankers #godddddd. what i really would want (which would be impossible)#would be to go back to working at the cafe but like. still have paid time off and insurance lmao #but the cafe was a small business and he was not offering paid time off and insurance. and the pay was way less #but i did get to play whatever music i wanted. unfortunately you cant live on that #like i can always say no to this new job if its offered to me. but is my goofing off time worth:#2 dollars less in pay and a half hour to an hour's more commute. well i dont know #a shorter commute would mean i could sleep more. and have more time at home .#i mean i probably don't Need all this goofing off time. but its nice #i dont knowwwwwww #like even though im a bit nervous abt doing it again i know that i would easily fall back into the routine of making drinks #which i was fairly good at. my one drawback is that i cant do latte art but i dont know that theyd really care here #and (because i found the menu of where id work) theres not a ton of drink options?? just the standard stuff #its being called a starbucks cafe but 1) its not managed by them and 2) it does not have their 5 billion drink options #so thats good. less to worry about #doesnt look like i even have to make anything foodwise which i had to at the cafe #here it looks like people can just buy a pastry and thats it #the hours are like. the same i work now. also good #sorry im like using this post to think through my thoughts.#uhhhh oh i looked up the manager who looks like a weenie so im not keen on the prospect of interviewing with him #but i probably would have thought that about my current manager if id seen a pic of him prior to interviewing. i guess???#and with these kind of catering units it seems you dont often deal directly with the manager that much anyway #i just gotta see if i get good vibes #rn i have unsure vibes. but i need a sign to see if this could be good for me #oh id also save money on transportation. and taxes! bc i wouldnt be working in ny anymore #lol oops tag limit. well i hope you enjoyed my job thoughts you probably didnt i know i didnt

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socksandbuttons · 1 year

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when i made an underrem 'height' chart BUT theyre like smallified versions SO I CAN DRAW THEM BETTER AND CONSISTANTLY THUS NOT A VERY USEFUL CHART.

#like i can tell u how tall dream is vs asgore undyne is slightly shorter than dream #alphys and nightmare are around the shortest (not including the children)#muffet is JUST slgihtly taller than them. TSIURIS HEIGHT IS AN ENIGMA SOMETIMES WE'LL GET TO HER LATER #gaster???????? MY AVERAGE MAN??? good LUCK me #grillby has yet to even be in this au by the way hes not EVEN HERE i dont what to do with him yet so #(more designwise i mean. i dont need a story for him in this i have ENOUGH)#mettaton is like... maybe average sized i dont KNOW hes short than dream and undyne taller than muffet and MMM #WE DONT HAVE NUMBERS BTW U JUST HAVE TO G U ES S #its just cause im bad with heights so. i need a comparison to understand Tallness #anyway um i dont what brought this up i think i was thinking of something else #i really should share undyne or something cause i love her casual outfit cause HELLO beautiful lady THAR SHE BE #alyphs has every right to crush on her are U KIDDING #muffet is so proud of that woman (but also impressed how oblivious she can be about the swooning ladies)#underrem #goes in the tag because im just typing things now

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tapewormsoda · 4 months

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breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh

#helix.txt #gross i ended up spilling my guts in tags. look at them fucking writhing on the floor all bloody #dont rb please #vent #to quote fall out boy i knew it was over i just didn't know the date #yeah that's it. fall out boy can fix this.#i will feel better if i go listen to bang the doldrums #and infinity on high in general #and folie a deux. folie a fucking deux how i love that album #my chem will make me better. gerard way save me #god what a weird feeling. you used to know me better than any other person but then you moved hundreds of miles away and it worked #for a while. then two years later you said it wasnt working and that this was best for both of us. guess i never got the memo for that one #hope we treat other people better because i wasn't as kind as i should have been towards the end and you were never as thoughtful or con-#-siderate as i needed towards the end. we grew apart because you're bad at keeping contact over messaging #and in some ways the cracks in the foundation that grew from that were my fault too i guess. our conversations always felt one sided #maybe i was smothering you #you could never seem to keep more than a passing recollection of the things i liked or even pay much attention to them #but i wasn't great about that either #we just became different people. you weren't what i wanted or needed and you couldn't do long distance. whatever #i know it was the right thing i just wish it hadn't made me feel so damn awful #will we still talk after this? who knows. we didn't end on bad terms but things are definitely weird #and considering your track record with people you can only talk to online i'm not optimistic #you tried to break things off initially by saying you'd said you would improve in the past with nothing to show for it #something i didn't disagree with but i said it didn't bother me much. and it didn't #but it's complicated now. i did deserve better. but you made it clear i'm not getting it from you #you weren't as present or thoughtful as i needed #i wasn't there in person the way you needed and certainly not as considerate as i should have been. and for that second part i'm truly sorr #anyways. sorry. i'd been thinking about it for a long time anyway. i didn't want to admit it because i didn't like to think #about what it might bring. maybe i should have been braver #right. that's enough

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mymp3 · 8 months

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okay I got feelings out of my system. I'm a changed man now.

#lack of sleep and annoying opinions on twitter is an awful terrible mix #nothing annoys me more than peoples insistance on things (right or wrong) and go online publicly to argue about it #i think fandom #i think what im trying to say is fandom in a lot of aspects just annoys me #ppls insistence on what canon is #not letting ppl just have fun and talk about hcs or whatever #not letting ppl breathe #idk like i know i say a lot of stuff on here #but no matter what i say or do i never ask or want to be the end all be all of a character or a property or smth #because yeah i know im wrong sometimes i know ive got hcs that dont match up with the intendes vision or whatver #i just like having fun #and sometimes fandom spaces make me want to blow something up #honestly I'm just gonna take a break from twt #maybe even tumblr until i can play reload #i need to go back to limiting my social media to only tumblr and stuff.#small circle. no tags. just screaming into a void #its perfect #okay rant actually over now #I'm a changed man

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im-still-watching-anime · 1 year

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man does anyone else just constantly forget neji died?? i was rewatching the war arc and got to it like HUH OH YEAH like i remember shikaku and inoichi more than him because i just didn’t like the writing for his and repressed it too much so now whenever i see any reference to it my brain blue screens for like 20 seconds straight

#it simply does not compute #like don’t get me wrong im into tragedy and well written character deaths ALWAYS get me #but idk i just thought neji was a poor choice if you HAD to kill one of the konoha twelve off #not that i WANTED any of them to die but i do think someone else would have been a better option #or killing off more than one would have balanced it better #and then it was also just how it was crammed between all the other big events so we had to rush past it #shout out to the fillers always knowing naruto deaths aren’t striking hard enough and giving the dead characters more significance lol #can always tell someone is about to die when the fillers start giving them all the meaningful moments rip #idk though even the folllow up grieving and references just didn’t add enough #plus how it kind of just contradicted the main goal of the series idk #i just don’t like it so my brain is just like what death???#probably would stick better if i ever rewatched post war or if i watched boruto though #but i dont so i continue to relive the ‘wtf why :/‘ every time i remember it lol #naruto shippuden spoilers #naruto spoilers #?????#does anyone need that tag???#idk i added it in case

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hundredowls · 9 months

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silly oc doodle..... ballroom yuri

#ocs #ok so im gonna ramble/complain in the tags for a bit bc i love to complain its mostly not even gonna be relevant to the ocs but anyway ok #yknow that diagram abt art skills thats like ability to see/ability to draw #im at the BAD PART OF IT RN #i wanna draw fanart so bad but then i get annoyed bc the fanart doesnt look as good as the source material GHRG which is a totally #unreasonable thing to think bc source material is drawn by Professionals but you know how it is. Art Hard etc etc complain etc etc #need to do more studies etc etc #i wanna be able to draw really good so i can draw the things i love!!!!! even if its hard and tedious i wanna practise!!!! i love art!!!!!!#dont think about whats easy think about whats fun - bokuto koutarou etc #anyway everyday i am sad i have to sit in front of a desk for 8 hours instead of practising drawing :( i wanna table at a con this year....#but is there even time.....#ANYWAY this is somewhat relevant bc in an effort to be less hard on myself mayhaps i will try draw more oc things so i dont feel pressure #(self imposed)#to make it perfect kjskjkd #or at least not as much #and hopefully get over my brain's tendency to Compare Everything #i have like 3 vague sets of ocs (one less vague than the others ive posted one of the characters from that on my main art blog before sjdks #these two are from the next less vague set there is a plot premise and some side characters too. shdks #i thought abt them a couple months ago but then i watched strictly ballroom w sophie n i was reminded of them again #anyway im not good at coming up w fully fleshed out stories i just like to doodle ppl n think of random connected scenarios sometimes sdjk #i did a mini free online life drawing course in the break n i tried to apply what i learnt here.... i will keep practising when i can.....#well. if u read all the way to the end. hello :) KJASKA #im going to shower....

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tsukana · 11 months

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this isnt meant to be neg at all but i do genuinely want to know quackity and/or the qsmp admins reasonings for the server hours during the purgatory event being what they are. Because even as a viewer in PST zone, i was very ? when they dropped it since like. theres already been repeated issues with events being so late for EU time zone streamers and for a 2 week long server wide event to be like that was. surprising?

#qsmp #there isnt rly a question or statement to rhis other than wanting to know what the thought process/purpose of it was.#because even the later streamers go live late enough that a 5 hour cutoff would be before what the cutoff is rn #and i think it would make more sense for them to push a server time limit earlier into pst rather than the opposite #this is also just a little funny to me when i remember qsmp events r typically set in Pacific time #as someone whos job often involves needing to remember time cutoffs in eastern and whos used to seeing events being kept in EST nof PST #tsu talks #qpurgatory #lmk if i should tag anything else #i dont think this warrants a crit or neg tag? but

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40steps · 3 months

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hey i’m a mutual who dropped out in 7th grade and i just want u to know that things will be ok. i’m going back to school this year and like you can just stop either temporarily or permanently. i promise u it will be ok

:((( thank u so much this means a lot to hear . my plan has been to drop out for like two years at this point but i never really expected it to feel this much like a huge change even though it was always going to be. and my mother asked me if i just wanted to drop out when i told her i didn't want to go in today and it's sent me on a downward spiral. sorry for putting this on your dash board whoever is online and whoever saw it.

#ugh whatever sorry these tags r going to be so whiny don't look at them if u dont want to see that.#UGHHHEH its just so much. because at least having the option to have somewhere to go every day even if i never take it has been like.#almost some sort of comfort to me. because i don't want to sit around every day if it's not my choice to be doing so.#but i've never had a job. i don't know how to write a resume i don't know how to answer interview questions i don't know anywhere that #would take me that i can get to on my own since i can't drive. but if i don't get a job. i'll be sitting around broke and miserable until #applications for the course i want open up. and i don't know how to do that. the more i think abt it today the more dropping out feels #like the best option but it doesn't make it feel less like the huge step i know it'll be. i don't have a life without school. it's the only #place i ever see my few irls. it's my one source of human interaction every week. what do i do if it's not there for the next #half a year. assuming i passed the test i needed to pass and also get into the course i want. i don't know.#and everythings in my favour!! everything is going for me!! i have it easier than so many kids at my school!#my mother is a teacher and she gets me so many of the things i need because she knows the system. literally two weeks ago she got it set up #so that i don't have to go to one of my classes because it was making me miserable and i was complaining abt it constantly.#and i just feel bad that all of her effort will have gone to waste? i know she's done everything she can but it still hasn't fixed my #hatred for the school system and i feel so bad. I DONT KNWO WAHT TO DO!!! IM GOING TO KILL MY SELF!!!#whatever what ever. i;m overreacting it's what ever

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#god i have such a migraine i Rly do not need to be dealing w my mother's bullshit tonight #yes yeah lets go on a rant abt how much u hate having me around bc im disabled and cant do things myself #and rn can barely get out of bed let alone make food for myself #so u *offered* to make me dinner and when i accepted that offer and asked for a safe food so i wouldnt set off my other health issues #u threw a Fit bc it takes more than 10 mins to make and now ur storming around huffing and puffing #and going on abt how ur apparently my slave and i take advantage of u #...whaT?#i didnt ask u to do anything. u offered. and since then i've told u 4 times to just forget it nvm i'll skip dinner #but bc u know i have severe blood sugar issues and that would be bad for me u r now claiming ur 'trapped' doing this #aight #ok #just cut the shit and tell me u think im a burden and h8 me for existing #and that ur mother was right when she said i ruined ur life by being born the way i am #im so so tired of this fucking bullshit dance u keep doing #i get it u wish i was either normal or dead #sadly i am not. but ur truly making me consider the latter option these days jfc #ughhshshsjdj #ableism #ask to tag #fr tell me and i'll tag this w w/e u need i dont wanna trigger ppl w her nonsense #im too tired to even consider all the applicable tags rn #but just lmk

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