#i dont want anything. i want to lie in a ditch until moss grows over me.

[notquiteaghost]

small scream of a post. i am hitting my limit on being in my parents' house but i dont leave until monday, and my mother has been asking what i want for my birthday so i said well ive been wanting an armchair for my bedroom so i stop sitting on my bed hunched entirely over, and then i said can you give me a budget and she didn't, so then i said ok ive looked online and ive found this one and it's £250?, and she did not say anything until i was on my way to bed when she said if they pay with the argos card the payment's not due for six months so maybe over those six months i cld save something to contribute to the cost, and just. i know £250 isnt a small amount of money!! that's why i asked for a budget!!! i don't need it and i definitely don't need it to be new and why cant she just say "no that's too expensive" because now im going to have to ask for something else and she's gonna get all guilty about it and i hate. making her upset. this is why i dont fucking ask for things.