#i dont want to join a discord server full of strangers i just wanna have a quick look at the language and go

[actualbird]

me, scrolling thru ur blog for my daily regularly scheduled serotonin: wow a marluke update! gonna save that for myself as a treat

oh, what’s this ?

HOMESTUCK????

QUADRANTS?????

AND NOW YOU GOT ME THINKING ABOUT IF LUKE MIGHTVE PROJECTED A LITTTTLE TOO HARD ON HOMESTUCK CHARACTERS. WE KNOW HE WAS A SHERLOCK STAN, WHAT IF HE DOWNLOADED TUMBLR, DISCORD, ETC?

AND BY THAT SAME VEIN MARIUS IS PROBABLY OLD ENOUGH TO START HAVING UNADVISABLE FREE INTERNET ACCESS.

what if vyn and artem had tumblr blogs

look what you’ve done to me i’m in sheer pain

-🤡

HELLO, CLOWN!!! i cant remember if youve messaged before with this designated emoji but the clown after This Whole Ask made me cackle. i honk my clown nose along with you.

man, i KNOW luke was into fandoms. i KNOW he has discord, in fact i have an entire fic draft that has this whole fucking premise, it's titled "→ lukeonthebrightside just slid into the server."

lemme get the rest of it, heres the summary without any scene excerpts:

The year is 2021. Luke Pearce, fifteen years old, is told by the school guidance counselor that he needs more friends. Too shy to interact with his non-Ria classmates, he ends up going online and joining an ACD Sherlock Holmes fandom Discord server.

heres a scene i managed to scribble before i made 85 more tot wips:

thegeekery You can’t be serious. Please tell me you’re not serious. You Cannot be 15 years old, holy shit. How are you 15 years old and in a server for Arthur Conan Doyle Sherlock fans. The books. You're messing with us, you are not 15. lukeonthebrightside ? why would i lie about being fifteen? thegeekery To give us an ulcer, like you usually do? I mean this in the most loving way possible, btw. WaffleTime YEAH LMAO, TO PUNK US? it’s not out of character for u lol lukeonthebrightside [attachment.png] thegeekery Uh. WaffleTime BOY??? IS THAT YOUR FUCKING BIRTH CERTIFICATE???? OH MY GOD thegeekery Okay, no, hold up, real talk Luke, you should not. Be sending stuff like this. To a server full of strangers. Actually, can we get a @mod in here? I don’t think I have the EQ to handle this very well. lukeonthebrightside huh why did i do something wrong thegeekery Luke, that has your address on it. jeeperscreepers Give me a moment, I’m backreading. Oh, geez. Hm. lukeonthebrightside meet me in DMs please. WaffleTime ohhhhh somebodys in TROUBLEEEEEE

i got super emo about this wip actually, i wanna go back to it because i wanna explore luke's younger days before super spy training and terminal illness fucked with his head. i am convinced that even before those things, inside of luke, there was like...this want to be with people. and yet this fear that he doesnt deserve to be.

also i just want to write luke being a stupid kid doing stupid kid things on the internet and having a server of very protective fandom adults bonking him on the head and telling him to be safer online and also to be less hard on himself

irt to marius on the internet, i talk about that (and vyn being hilarious on twitter) in these posts!!: nxx boys on social media: part 1 tiktok. part 2 vyn on twitter.

i.....do not believe vyn would be on tumblr. if he did, you will have to give me some time to figure it out. artem, however, i have thought about and to me, it's possible he would have a tumblr.

actually, heres a secret: i was planning on making a STUPIDLY IN CHARACTER artem rp blog. like, not even styled as an rp blog. it's. it's Artem's Blog. the blog title would be "My Thoughts" and his bio is just "Hello. I hope you find this interesting." and his theme is the default theme and all he reblogs are movie reviews and recipes. nothing in the tags ever. and many long posts about his interests with linked and Chicago Manual Of Style cited sources. no pictures. he was born in 2001, the era of "dont even put ur name online."

im....still on the fence whether i wanna do that blog actually kJBSJDKFS IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY

in this entire response, i did not tackle how luke interacts with homestuck. because im saving this for another ask i have in my inbox, asking me what luke's classpect would be. and now i have to become a hermit in the mountains, studying the lore and theses on classpects, to come up with my view and opinion.

youre in pain, clown? i am too.

and ive come to enjoy it :')

[sassabyte]

Man, i tell you, i just wanna be a normal teenager, growing up from a toddler to being 10 i was happy, a normal kid, once i entered the internet this is where i started to degrade, i had a tablet and a LOT of freedom online, with little to no restrictions, that was when the issues started, in 2016 -2017 (or 2018 i dont remember) there was a craze with sans fangirls, and i joined in, growing up i had social issues, i was isolated from the group of kids i had at school, that wouldve been fine if i wasnt harrassed by some classmates, it got to my head and i wanted to make the people around me suffer aswell, this was an inconscious mindset i used to have, and so, i jumped in and started pumping out content as a sans fangirl, when really all i wanted was everyone's eyes to be on me, i had no care for the implications i just wanted for people to know i exist, plus being insulted over the internet by strangers is a lot less hurtful than being pushed into a puddle of rainwater by kids laughing at you, infact some people are flattered that a stranger online would go out of their way to have you on their mind, negative or not its a recomforting thought, especially to a kid thats been lacking interactions and attention growing up. Then i joined discord, and thats when shit really went way too far, i spent a year or two on discord just talking to my friends strictly, not joining public servers, then, in mid 2018, i joined kittydog's public server at the time (heavn i think?), at first i went unnoticed, i'd barely showed up, after a while late 2018 i met 2 horny kids(?), and we became friends, i was having fun at that time and felt comfortable, one of them left the friend group at some point and me and the remaining friends felt barely anything and moved on quick, at some point i was added into one of the guy that left's group, with pure strangers, thats when it went to shit, at aome point we started dating, but it wasnt really dating, it was just manipulation, he mostly just asked me for sexual favors online because we didnt know each other in real life, and thats good because i cant imagine what would've happened to me if we physically knew each other, and me, having barely started puberty and knowing no better, i provided, and god i wish i had just left that group he added me in then things would be so much better as of current, i wouldve been so much happier and wouldnt carry such a heavy burden of knowing someone has nude images of my 13 y.o body, knows where i live, knows my full real name, its all so much, im overwhelmed, i just wanna preserve my golden years of being a teenager, which is why i went off discord, to focus on this year of school, to reinvent my life.