#i gave you $500 for the ps4 we bought together

[semercury]

People are like "what are you like when you're angry? I bet it's scary. It's always the quiet ones who are scariest."

Babygirl you have no idea.

[lexamous18]

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Your love is like Poison 0. It kills me that you'd send her surprises through the mail...but never one to me in the last six years. 0. It kills me that you guys went on dinner dates but I had to settle for ramein or McDonald's 0. It kills me when I ask "Are we okay" and I receive an "Mhm" instead of "yes why wouldn't we be" 0. It kills me when I tell you how I got the job but I'm let down again by them making me start from the bottom up but you don't say anything consoling back. 0. It kills me when you say "well you can't be loving through the phone" but all it takes is a "Goodmorning" to show it. 0. It kills me when I'm crying and you say it makes you uncomfortable. 0. It kills me when I say we don't talk much anymore I wish that it would change...and you proceed to still not answer my calls" 0. It kills me that I have to write this rather then tell you because I know you won't listen. 0. It kills me telling you I'm working with your ex girlfriend and you proceed to laugh as if it's funny that you left me for her just two years ago. 0. It kills me thinking I went out with my last $10 to spend making the house look cleaner when you came home an you walked in screaming how much of a mess it was. 0. It kills me to think you and your mother sang a song about me dying but I'm told to "take it as a joke" 0. It kills me think when your friends put me down I'm just supposed to forgive An let go in your eyes. 0. It kills me thinking how 10 miles was to far to drive to see me back in the day but you just drove over an hour to see a girl in Eutis. 0. It kills me knowing you promised I got a whole day with you...instead I only received 9hrs. 0. It kills me saying we'd road trip back to Florida but instead you made me fly back. 0. It kills me thinking you're man enough to fuck me but can't go inside he store to buy a pregnancy test. 0. It kills me to think of Valentine's Day you take me to a hotel filled with roaches but took her to a suite that cost over $500. 0. It kills me to think you told me you turned in the marriage papers but in reality they were in your burn box. 0. It kills me to think I bought a wedding band for you...the next day you told me you didn't want to get married. 0. It kills me thinking I gave up two full time jobs and my everyday life in Florida to move to Las Vegas to be with you...but that still wasn't enough. 0. It kills me thinking you left me for her...came to see me telling me you love both her and I but can't leave her because it'll hurt her...meanwhile I'm the one really suffering. 0. It kills me thinking she cheated on you and I sent you picture proof...but you were so in denial that it didn't happen. But yet the day I hang out with a guy I'm cheating in your eyes and you say I broke our trust. 0. It kills me thinking we never had our sushi date because you claimed "I don't like eating in busy restaurants" 0. It kills me how I listen to your friend saying he gave up a deployment to Germany for his gf of only six months...but you decided to take a year long deployment to Afghanistan 0. It kills me how your "friends" let you down constantly but I'm there to consul you everytime...yet you never tell me how you appreciate me. 0. It kills me that when I was trying to better myself you say I was fucking up the relationship because I hadn't moved there yet. 0. It kills me when I think about how you tell everyone we argue but really we never talk about our problems and you're making me look crazy. 0. It kills me that you thinking your mother buying me a gift card makes up for not answering my calls as I cried on the phone when you broke up with me. 0. It kills me to think you both blocked my number that night...and nobody still to this day feels bad for hurting me. 0. It kills me to think you were grounded yet your mom allowed you to go to the movies with exes as long as I didn't tag along. 0. It kills me thinking I was blamed for you having poor grades when really it was her fault for being a shitty parent. Seeing as how you've had bad grades for years. 0. It kills me that you put everything on me somedays "lex sell the furniture" "lex find a home for Keeley" 0. It kills me that it took you two years of making me the back burner for you to ask "I'm hurting you aren't I?" 0. It kills me that nobody seemed concerned with how I got to the airport the day you left 0. It kills me when your friends say "wtf wallace why would you bring your gf to a work breakfast" the first five minutes into the door...yet you called me rude for being silent. 0. It kills me when you give your friend money to pick you up from the airport an he lies saying he gave me a ride there...yet really I walked. Somehow he's still a good friend to you though. 0. It kills me you saying I can't really have any friends over because you don't like them. 0. It kills me thinking you sold your kayak, laptop, PS4 for her but if I ask for $5 from you I'm the bad guy. 0. It kills me three days of taking me to work you say you could've just rode the bus because it's inconvenient to you. Note it's 27 degrees out...25mph wind and $7 a day the last month to take a bus. 0. It kills me when I ask you to put pictures of us on Facebook you claim you can't because your mom doesn't like me. 0. It kills me when I was crying that night an you told me how not even your grandma liked me. 0. It kills me how you claim you want to spend time with everyone but yet you spent a total of 14hrs with me...and a week with everyone else. 0. It kills me when I say we haven't spent time together an you respond "we just got done living together" 0. It kills me when I know I have to keep talking an talking on the phone just so you'll actually talk to me for once. 0. It kills me when I bring up if your sister was in the same situations I was in with you that they're somehow justified. 0. It kills me when you claim I was clingy in the past because I wanted to see you for more than once every two weeks. 0. It kills me that your friend called me "sketch" yet he just flaked on your going away party...some friend right? Or shall I say friends because it was all of them. 0. It kills me when you say you took this career for "us" yet you dumped me shortly after you took on this journey. 0. It kills me to think you forgot to pick me up from work but I'm the bad guy because I woke you up 0. It kills me to think when I bring up how upset you make me about all the things you did for her...you tell me not to disrespect her as if she didn't cheat on you an use you for money. 0. It kills me that two years ago on Valentine's Day while I was throwing up you got a call from your mother an we had to leave that instant for pictures 0. It kills me that you won't call me during an argument but text me 0. It kills me that you bitch me out for dating someone after you yet you're the one who broke up with me and wouldn't take me back. 0. It kills me to think you just added the girl you left me for on Facebook and tried to justify that you had a great unargumentive relationship even though she cheated on you the whole time.