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#i get now why she's been so upset this WHOLE time✌️✌️
asexual-levia-tan · 1 year
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thinking about. the second bunny boy event..........
also thinking about i have free lonely devil vouchers ive never used and a valentines mammon i never got. i should do that between events...
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candyskiez · 9 months
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I know it probably wasn't meant to be a trans allegory but GOD does Steven's time with the diamonds resonate as a trans allegory to me. Like. Everyone disregarding his name. Being forced to wear uncomfortable clothing. People regarding his name as a funny joke. Being told he's just being childish. "I just want you to be yourself!" The ripping the fucking gem out SCREAMS of it. The purity talk. And just the. God. The scene where it showed Pink, then Rose, then Steven got me so hard as a trans person because it just. Reminds me SO much of just. Trans. So much trans. Because it just reminds me of looking at the past versions of me before I figured myself out. They're still a part of me, they still made up a lot of my life, but I am not them anymore. And that's what that scene resonates to me so much as. That gem is not Pink or Rose anymore. Reminds me of that one thing that goes "my parents were right, I DID kill their son." Pink is gone, Rose is gone, Steven is neither of them Steven is MORE Steven is alive and he is not that girl, he is not that girl, he doesn't want her name or her dresses or her life or her room, this is HIS body now, this is how HE sounds, he's not pretending to be someone else. This is who he is. He is not Pink or Rose. He is Steven. She's gone.
And god the scene where he hugs pink Steven just. It reminds me so much of accepting my gender or gender euphoria or just the realization of that's what I am, I am me, I am not broken, I am whole and i am not that girl. I don't need to be that girl because it doesn't make me happy. It's okay that I'm not that girl.
And just the. I am a child. What's your excuse? And the absolute "so what?" of that. Yeah, I'm a kid. This is still me. Why do you care so much about my body? Why does me being happy upset you so much? The girl you knew is gone, and maybe she never existed. It's your fault she's gone, and now I'm left, and it's my gem. It's my body. And this is who I've ALWAYS been.
The "I've always been me" line resonates so much. "I've always been this. I just needed to figure it out." Not how being trans works for everyone, ofc, everyone's relationship with their gender is different, this is just the vibes I get from this specific thing.
I do also like to dabble in reading Rose as a trans allegory too. Because I am self indulgent shh. And that ones less "I always was this" and more so "being the person I used to be made me miserable and I hated my own body, I hated my own life. So I grew into this new body that I love, and chose a new name, and a new identity that makes me happy." Which,, am I overanalyzing. I dunno man I like hitting my favorite characters with the transgender beam.
You can also read it with the lense of "I killed that old version of me and I am a woman now. This is who I am. That person is dead." Which. Once again. Am I overanalyzing. This feels too easy to read as trans. I am probably overanalyzing.
Anyways the way gender works for different people is really interesting, I like Steven Universe, I like making my favorites stories trans allegory-ified, and I cannot be stopped. Peace ✌️
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sapphicromanoffxo · 11 months
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Picnic Date | n.r. x w.m
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Pairing: Natasha Romanoff x Wanda Maximoff
Warnings: Natasha has a penis, beefy Nat, outdoor sex, blow job, fingering
Word count: 2,296
Summary: After being on back to back missions for weeks, Natasha decided to have a little picnic with her girlfriend.
A/N: I know it's just supposed to be a drabble request but...yeah. ✌️
╰┈➤ Masterlist
Natasha had become utterly drained from a relentless string of missions that she's being sent to and was desperate for some rest. Wanda, witnessing Natasha's exhaustion, did her best to comfort her every time she returned home for a brief mission break. However , Wanda was getting impatient because she missed spending time with her love. It had been two whole months without any intimate moments, and it was making her very upset.
Summer had come to New York, and Natasha finally got the break she deserved. She had a whole month off, and she planned to use it to be with her magical girlfriend. So, she thought it would be nice to have a picnic date to relax to welcome the season and spend time together.
Truth be told, Natasha was acutely aware of Wanda's pent-up desires. It became abundantly clear when Wanda practically pounced on her the moment she stepped out from the quinjet, their lips meeting in a fierce and passionate kiss. Natasha welcomed the fiery embrace, but she also realised that Wanda's desires were on the brink of overwhelming her. Wanda's hands roamed freely, and Natasha found herself struggling to calm the eager witch.
"Detka, relax. I'm back now, alright? I'm not going anywhere," Natasha reassured Wanda, wrapping her in a comforting embrace.
"You've been away for so long. I've been missing you so badly, baby," Wanda whispered, her eyes filled with longing.
"I understand, detka," Natasha said, gently stroking Wanda's hair. "But can I at least take a quick shower and get some sleep? I promise I'll make it up to you."
Wanda pouted but nodded in agreement, understanding that the spy needed some time to decompress and rest. She knew their moments together would come, and she eagerly awaited the time when Natasha would be all hers once again. But damn her hormones. She was already vibrating with need since Natasha left a clear instruction to not touch herself.
Natasha had returned home three days ago, and Wanda is still untouched. The witch found herself in a constant battle to keep her desires at bay, and the wait was becoming maddeningly frustrating.
Wanda was even perplexed when Natasha suggested they go on a picnic date. Wanda couldn't help but wonder why her lover, who had been away for so long, would choose a picnic over a lazy afternoon where they can have sex all day long.
"Natasha! I don't want to go on a picnic date. I want to be be fucked. That's it."
Expecting this reaction from Wanda, Natasha let out a sigh and gently touched her girlfriend's cheek. "Hey, I made a promise that I'll make it up to you," she began, her voice filled with sincerity. "But can we just enjoy this beautiful new season together? Besides, I've been stuck in Siberia for a whole week, freezing to death, and right now, I need some warmth in my body."
Wanda couldn't resist a playful grin at Natasha's words. "Oh, I can warm you up very nicely, you know," she teased.
Natasha chuckled, her eyes dancing with a mixture of desire and amusement. "I'm fully aware of that," she replied with a wink. "Now, do me a favor, and wear that cute dress I got for you in Italy. I'll start preparing our food for this afternoon."
With a gentle kiss on Wanda's forehead, Natasha left their room and made her way to the kitchen. She was determined to create a memorable picnic experience for them. She began by frying marinated chicken breasts, ensuring she got her much-needed protein after her time in Siberia. Meanwhile, she checked on the blueberry cheesecake she had prepared the night before. The sight of the luscious dessert made her anticipate the picnic even more, knowing that their meal would be both delicious and delightful.
Natasha had meticulously packed a selection of chocolates, knowing that Wanda had an undeniable sweet tooth. She also included a few of Wanda's favorite snacks. Natasha had taken the time to ensure that their drinks were just right. There was a bottle of red wine for Wanda, her indulgence of choice, and a carbonated drink for herself. Natasha knew that a glass or two of wine had the power to unleash Wanda's playful and mischievous side. She had every intention of pushing Wanda to her limits during their date, teasing her until she's feeling too desperate. In reality, this seemingly innocent picnic date was just a cover for what she had planned.
Hand in hand, the two of them ventured into the woods of the compound, following a secluded trail that would lead them to their secret spot. Natasha had made sure that no prying eyes could spot them, as she had something rather scandalous in mind.
Once they reached their chosen location, Wanda set up the blanket and eagerly unloaded the contents of the basket Natasha had brought. She couldn't help but admit that this date was turning out to be much better than expected. Seeing Natasha so relaxed and laid-back was a rare and delightful sight.
Natasha found a comfortable spot with her back resting against the sturdy tree trunk, the rough bark serving as a natural support. She extended her legs, creating a welcoming space where Wanda lay down.
They shared stories of what they did when they were not together, occasionally stealing bites from each other's food.
Natasha's fingers are gently toying with the strands of Wanda's hair. With a playful curiosity in her voice, she inquired, "How come your hair color is now almost blonde?"
Wanda couldn't help but chuckle at the memory. "Sam was so bored one evening and decided it would be a fantastic idea to dye my hair. Vision was there to supervise the whole thing. It turned out to be so damn funny."
"It looks good on you, baby. You're so gorgeous."
Then suddenly, Natasha's hands groped Wanda's boobs since the dress was showing off her bouncy cleavage and could not resist anymore.
"Sweetheart, you look so good in this dress. Your tits looks delicious as fuck. I can bury my face in there all day. You are not even wearing a bra. What a bad girl, you are."
"Natasha, you have been teasing me for too long." Wanda whimpers every time the redhead pinches her nipples.
"I know you love it when I tease you like this. I bet you are already wet for me," Natasha continued kneading Wanda tits while playing with her nipples which are now fully exposed. Natasha leaned down to plant kisses on Wanda's shoulder blade and the right side of her neck, leaving a few hickeys behind.
"Baby, sit on my lap. I want to see you."
Wanda obeyed Natasha's wish and the spy already had her palm up, ready to cup the witch's throbbing center.
"My, my. You are not also wearing your panties," Natasha groaned when she felt that Wanda was already dripping wet and circled the sensitive clit. "Were you expecting this to happen, huh?"
"Natasha! Please. Stop torturing me like this." Wanda leaned down and kissed Natasha desperately, her moans being swallowed by the kiss.
"I will fuck you good, Wanda." And the witch screamed when she felt two fingers enter her with no warning.
"Oh my god, Natasha! That feels good baby, keep going."
"Quiet down for me, princess. You don't want the others to hear like this? Or would you like to let them see how desperate you are for me? Riding my fingers like it's your damn job."
"No no no. Only you can see me like this. Ah!"
Natasha's curled fingers are going in and out harshly, hitting Wanda's g-spot perfectly. "You're so good for me like this, Wanda." She added another finger and Wanda's moans are getting louder at each thrust of her fingers.
"Love, fuck. I'm going to cum. Please let me cum!"
"Cum anytime you want, baby." With that, Wanda's orgasm flooded her senses at a rate which was too overwhelming and made her body collapse atop Natasha.
"I've got you. I'm here, baby. Deep breaths for me."
It took a minute for Wanda's erratic heart to calm down. She finally had her release that she's been craving for months. "I love you, Natty."
"You always say that everytime I make you cum." Natasha smirks at Wanda's blissful face. They made out for a while and Wanda noticed the bulge on Natasha's crotch.
"Let me take care of this now, baby. Please?"
Wanda decided to unravel the layers of Natasha's upper clothes. She reached for the zipper of Natasha's leather jacket, tugging it down with deliberate slowness, revealing a black tank top underneath. Natasha's breath hitched, her eyes locked onto Wanda's.With the jacket now partially open, Wanda slipped her hands inside, running her palms along Natasha's biceps. Each touch was filled with tenderness and desire, making Natasha's heart race. The jacket slid off Natasha's shoulders.
"Put your mouth on me, Princess."
Wanda changed her position and was kneeling sideways. She carefully pulled down Natasha's pants and her hard cock sprung out proudly. The spy reached Wanda's exposed ass and gave a good slap on her buttcheck.
"Suck me off now, detka. Go on."
Wanda almost rolled her eyes at Natasha's impatience but just simply leaned down to take the whole length in her mouth. Her mouth feels so warm and Natasha gathered Wanda's hair in her hands
"That's good, baby. Nice and slow for me."
Wanda continued sucking Natasha's length but was suddenly stopped by the spy. "Ride me, baby. Reverse cowgirl, yes?"
This position is one of Wanda's favorite. She can already anticipate how Natasha is going to fill her up from behind. She trusts that Natasha will be able to hold her weight since her girlfriend has muscles for days. The stretch in her walls was so satisfying as she sank down. "Oh god, love. You feel so good inside me."
"Uh-huh. You've been a good girl for me, Wanda. It's time for me to properly fuck you. Lean back."
Wanda did as she's told and Natasha planted her feet on the ground to stabilise herself and gripped on Wanda's hips.
"Natasha, please move."
"As you wish, Princess."
The redhead started her thrust slowly, feeling how Wanda's heated core is clenching on her cock. The tightness of her pussy is so addicting. Hearing her girlfriend moaning her name pushed her to pound from below.
"Yes! Right there, right there! Please don't stop!"
"I miss this pussy so much. You're all I think about whenever I'm away." Natasha reached down and played with Wanda's clit. Wanda whined even more for the added sensation.
"Natasha, baby. I want to see your face. Please."
They changed their position again and now, Wanda is laying down on the blanket and Natasha on top of her. Wanda immediately wrapped her legs around Natasha's waist.
The spy didn't waste anymore seconds and penetrated Wanda with so much force. "Baby, you're so tight. Jesus, I'm not going to last long."
"I'm close. I'm close! Please go faster!" Wanda clawed Natasha's arms as the older woman pounded her from above.
"Ahhh shit! Wanda, Wanda!" Natasha pulled out after a while and felt proud of herself when she saw how Wanda's pussy was oozing with her cum.
"Look at that, I gave you a creampie. Don't move, I'll take a photo of this." The spy held Wanda's legs up so her seeds won't spill out and took a photo of Wanda's abused hole.
"You're so bad, Natasha."
"You enjoy it when I'm being bad," Natasha whispered, her fingers deftly adjusting Wanda's dress and Natasha put on her pants as well. "Come here."
Leaning against the sturdy tree, Natasha motioned for Wanda to settle into her lap.
"I feel so happy when you're home," Wanda confessed, her gaze soft as she gently held Natasha's face. "I wish you didn't have to leave. Every time you go on a mission, it feels like my heart's being torn in two."
"I hate being apart from you, my love," Natasha replied, her voice tinged with sincerity. "But you know I can't refuse the missions they assign me."
Wanda nodded, her eyes clouded with concern. "I understand that, but I can't help but worry. I'm afraid something might happen to you out there."
Natasha's heart ached at Wanda's genuine concern, knowing that every mission brought a new set of risks.
"Hey, I have a little something for you," the spy's voice held a hint of excitement as she retrieved a ring from her pocket, presenting it to Wanda. "I snagged this while I was chasing my target in the bustling streets of Hungary. I had to duck into an alley to avoid pursuit, and there was this street vendor selling jewelries. This ring, it just reminded me of you, and I can't even remember how much I handed the vendor, I was in such a rush."
"Natasha! You really can't resist, can you? Buying me a ring while you're in the middle of chasing a target," Wanda exclaimed, affectionately slapping Natasha's arm.
Natasha grinned, undeterred. "It's worth it, my love." Carefully, she slid the ring onto Wanda's right hand. "See? It fits you perfectly."
Wanda examined the ring closely, her eyes lighting up. "It's beautiful."
Wanda couldn't help but feel a lump in her throat. Her heart swelled with love for the woman beside her. "You're too sweet for me," she whispered, her voice filled with gratitude and affection.
Natasha leaned in, brushing a strand of Wanda's hair away from her face. Their eyes locked in an intimate connection. "Only for you, detka. I love you."
"What do you think about round 2?" Wanda suggested wickedly.
"Oh, sweetheart. I'm going to ruin you."
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colourmeastonished · 4 years
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#hoo boy has it been an emotional roller-coaster of a week#first I'm off my meds for days bc the gp messed up my prescription#then turns out I was right 2 wks ago when I guessed my grl was having second thoughts#but I'd talked myself out of that bc surely if she's leaving me on read for 2wks and delaying catching up it's just cos she's busy?#like if she wanted to end things she wouldn't have stretched it out like that??#but nope I was right in the first place but it took her the whole 2wks to figure out what I guessed like a day after we last saw each other#so we end things on good terms but I'm still frustrated and upset by how she dealt with it#but I feel ok with how it went down at the same time?? so why then have I spent the last 3 days listening to the same album on loop#and crying whenever I think about her??#but also we're cool we're chill we're friends and she's tagging me in memes and I'm to message her b4 I watch the final ep of bly manor#because it's all chill ✌️#and I can't sleep and I've had headaches every day this week#and I shouldn't be this cut up about something I've had enough time to process#but then I remember that she was all 'its just you and me we're the only people who matter in this we should take this at our own pace -#- we'll figure it out' etc. etc. and I'm so frustrated now I'm realising she was mostly reassuring herself!!#and I have no hard feelings bc she's been going through it!! And I figured she still hadn't resolved some hangups from her last relationship#so it was bad timing and incompatible baggage and all the hurt was accidental#and that kinda makes it worse!!!#and I wanna get petty or angry or whatever but it wouldn't be fair and I just don't have it in me!!#all I have is empathy and compasison for her and I guess I'm just kinda mourning the potential#isn't it just nice to be wanted??? and to be told that??? to be somebody's first thought in the morning and last thought at night???#but it wasn't just her and me it was her and me and her ex#and once it got more real like once we made it official she couldn't see me through all of the baggage#and I was patient and understanding and took it all in my stride and that wasn't enough!!! Bc it wasn't about me!!!#I'm going round in circles#and on top of all that the conversations around reclaim these streets and kicking off#and I'm grappling with bad memories and I'm spitting mad about what's been going down but that's a rough headspace for me!!#a productive headspace but a rough one!! And I'm bouncing between that and this and also all my preexisting stress#and I'm mad at myself for letting a relationship gut me to thoroughly!!!#my thoughts
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Ruby & Cosmo
Ruby: Quick question
Cosmo: Yeah?
Ruby: are we exclusive?
Cosmo: We’ve not talked about it
Cosmo: Do you want to be?
Ruby: this is us talking about it
Ruby: do you?
Cosmo: Yeah but we hadn’t, so obviously I don’t have the answer to that before we have
Cosmo: I’ve not been going out on any other dates
Ruby: I was taking it for granted that you liked me & it made sense that was what was happening or going to happen
Cosmo: That’s good for me too
Cosmo: I wasn’t going to suggest anything or attempt to tie you down if that wasn’t what you had in mind
Ruby: what was today?
Cosmo: ?
Cosmo: I don’t know what you mean
Ruby: if not a date how do you define you and the girl from breakfast getting cosy on a stepladder?
Cosmo: Helping out a friend?
Cosmo: They needed extra hands to decorate, it wasn’t just us, her two roommates and their friends were helping out too
Ruby: I’ve seen your locker room pics of your friends, they don’t look like the one you posted
Cosmo: She lives next-door, at my ma’s place
Cosmo: that’s why
Cosmo: and how I met them, obviously
Ruby: explains why you didn’t say anything, not why you were giving her free promo that looks like a magazine shoot
Cosmo: It was just a photo
Cosmo: I can delete it though, if it makes you feel uncomfortable
Ruby: it’s not about how I feel
Cosmo: Of course it is
Cosmo: I can see why it would upset you
Ruby: no, you two are the focus here
Ruby: friends don’t post pics like that of each other
Ruby: ✌️😘😜 I’d accept
Cosmo: but I did
Cosmo: if it’s not acceptable then I can only delete it and apologize now
Ruby: yeah you did & you can see how it looks, ask yourself why
Ruby: & her how she feels
Cosmo: Okay
Cosmo: I will
Ruby: I’m not coming 2nd to this whole thing
Cosmo: You’re not
Cosmo: I have plenty of priorities and responsibilities
Ruby: same, but romantically it was you, so tell me where I stand when you work it out
Cosmo: I don’t need to work anything out, I told you, I haven’t been seeing anyone else
Cosmo: I can see how it looked romantic to you now, but it wasn’t
Ruby: fine, that’s that
Cosmo: Is it?
Ruby: do you want to keep trying to convince me of something here or are you done?
Cosmo: No, I’m not keeping you
Cosmo: I’m not guilty of anything and you are welcome to stay in a mood about it
Ruby: you’re welcome not to patronize me ever, I’m entitled to know what’s going on & now I do
Cosmo: You came in here with a preconceived idea of what’s going on and you don’t want to actually hear what I have to say or what is because it doesn’t fit that
Cosmo: That’s it, there’s nothing else I can say because I’ve told you the truth
Ruby: I don’t see you coming to me & saying hey, about that photo
Ruby: what else do you want me to do?
Cosmo: Nothing, it’s fine that you have
Cosmo: it’s just not productive to continue the conversation if you aren’t taking me at my word, that’s all
Ruby: everyone’s talking about it & my silence is deafening, I asked you to make it make sense, that’s all
Cosmo: I’m deleting it anyway
Cosmo: They’re just projecting because none of them are allowed female friends, I’m not taking my cues from what they say and think
Ruby: she’s your only female friend, it looks suspect
Cosmo: because they’re my friends, and there are no females in the industry around us
Ruby: yeah, but if I had male friends who weren’t gay iceskaters & I suddenly started spending what spare time I have there & posting pics on the feed, you’d have questions
Ruby: accusations look different, do you clock a single screenshot being fired at you, no
Cosmo: Maybe
Cosmo: I didn’t say it made you a terrible person, just that at a point it’s pointless if you don’t actually want a conversation
Ruby: I started a conversation & you treated me like I’m a paranoid, jealous nightmare
Ruby: the tone’s so dismissive you could be a judge in competition
Cosmo: You came at me with the same energy
Ruby: you’re a stud & I look stupid, of course you’re above what people are saying & thinking
Cosmo: They’re the stupid ones
Cosmo: Come on, you can’t care what they think
Cosmo: and they don’t even think it, they’re just trying to get me in trouble for banter
Cosmo: It’s gone
Ruby: I’m not apologizing to you for all my friends lining up with their fake pity getting to me
Cosmo: I don’t want you to
Cosmo: I’m sorry they’re doing that
Ruby: it’s what happens when it looks like you’re getting cheated on
Cosmo: If they’re bringing their insecurities to it, yeah
Cosmo: understandably so
Ruby: she’d make anyone insecure
Ruby: you couldn’t get an ugly friend ffs
Cosmo: I don’t see her like that
Ruby: you’re alone there, babes
Cosmo: I understand she’s attractive
Cosmo: but she would make no sense in this world
Ruby: I thought that but was gonna go somewhere like, she’s like a sister or a cousin
Ruby: you do like her though, don’t you? you just can’t make her fit into your life
Cosmo: No, I’m not related to her
Cosmo: Yeah, she’s my friend
Ruby: picking apart the words to avoid the meaning isn’t it, I know you understand me rn
Cosmo: I know I’ve told you it’s not romantic and she’s my friend loads of times now
Cosmo: I have to say no to you for you to drop it?
Ruby: you’ve talked about her loads, nothing about me
Cosmo: Because you asked about her
Cosmo: this whole convo is about me and her, allegedly
Ruby: yeah, this convo & your schedule
Cosmo: nah, my schedule is exams, training and games
Cosmo: like I said, she lives next door, that’s probably why it seems like that
Ruby: when you’re giving her the day & you can’t even give me a line that’s reassuring, that’s how it seems
Cosmo: This just has my guard up
Cosmo: Come on, how do I make it up to you then?
Ruby: anywhere we go out around here we’re putting on a show, deleted is not forgotten
Cosmo: We can do that
Ruby: I don’t have the energy, I’m doing exams too when I’m not chasing you for explanations
Cosmo: Then don’t waste it
Cosmo: you don’t have anything to prove to anyone
Cosmo: and we could actually do fun things together instead of this
Ruby: if you want to prove to me that you want us to do anything together, you know where I live
Cosmo: We’re good then?
Ruby: we were & I don’t ever think listening to my friends is a good idea
Ruby: chucking you for having beautiful friends feels drastic
Cosmo: You know why they’re like that, it’s not their fault
Cosmo: footballers cheating isn’t an unfounded stereotype so
Ruby: I know I don’t get that vibe from you
Cosmo: I’ll text you when I’ve booked something then
Ruby: I’m not going to bring it up again
Cosmo: It’s cool, I’m glad we sorted it
Ruby: I was jealous, a little bit, hands in the air over it
Cosmo: Yeah?
Cosmo: well, you don’t need to be, trust
Ruby: 😬 don’t yeah me like that, it’s embarrassing
Cosmo: how’s it embarrassing, you like me
Ruby: the insecurity jumping out immediately is
Ruby: I wasn’t aware I had any
Cosmo: Doesn’t everyone?
Ruby: over boys who aren’t their boyfriends having friends? No
Cosmo: Clearly all your mates do or they just like giving you batshit advice for a laugh
Ruby: we slag off my friends, I want to be someone you like
Cosmo: I do like you
Ruby: can we erase this & start over?
Cosmo: I’m not going to pretend I didn’t upset you
Ruby: so not that but me having anything to prove & you having anything to make up for
Cosmo: Sure, I like the sound of that
Ruby: ❤️
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