#i hated that so much. why cant my brain decide if im terrified or numb | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

soul-spoken · 5 months

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I wasn't expecting the overwhelming panic seeing and hearing that brought. I'm usually fine, hell - I actively listen to songs reminiscent of everything so often.

I wasn't expecting that tone of voice, the setting, any of it, to send me into a spiral.

I hate feeling so scared, especially over nothing but a video.

I need to calm down, get some air.

#i feel dizzy.#i hated that so much. why cant my brain decide if im terrified or numb #why do i catch myself romanticizing things when if im faced with it i react so badly #why do i catch myself still falling for the manipulation at times. when i react with fear to that voice #why did i let myself get into this shit #why did i ever fall for any of it. why am i so confused #why cant i just move on. why cant i just be numb to it and joke about it all. why cant i stick to laughing at how stupid he really was #i should go outside or something. clear my head. calm down #why did something so dumb. a literal video. do this to me? why do i react like this

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