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#i haven't cried in a while and it feels nice so. i would've written this in my journal but i'm just too tired right now
rabidcriterion · 6 months
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okay so i finally got to quit my job today and like. i went out last night to a friend's birthday dinner and tonight i went out to another friend's birthday dinner in the same group and my mum cracked the shits at me when i mentioned that it was for the same group and basically cried and guilted me into comforting her because i. didn't stay home to put up the tree. apparently the tradition is to put it up only on fridays and saturdays which. of course i have never ever heard before
and so of course i had to sit and listen to her fucking crying about it and listen to dad tell me that she's had such a tough year like. bro what the fuck do you think i quit my job for? this year was fucking hellish
i just wanted to kinda do something nice for myself to celebrate that this is over. i've been feeling sad on and off today all day, nearly crying at work and shit.
it feels like something's been taken from me with work too. like i really liked the actual work for the most part, it was just shitty behaviour from students and coworkers and parents and management that did it really. and so i feel like i've somehow lost a massive opportunity to have an okay job
and i didn't read the stupid listing for my new one properly and i forgot that it's only for six months and. oh my god it's good to be out of that job, it really is but i'm just. i want to know for certain that it'll be okay and that i'll be away from any situations like the one i just left. and i had to leave my coworker bestie behind at my job and she's so nice and lovely and they were mean to her too and i just feel horrible about it!!!!
i'm crying typing this i'm just so upset by everything right now. i can't even cry loudly because my parents will hear and want me to talk about it, they never leave me alone when i'm crying anymore they always force themselves into my room and make me talk about it. i've never had a history of self harm or anything they're just really fucking annoying because they think it's the only way
i hate having to parent my own mother i hate being forced into it i hate living in this house and i hated my job. at least that part's over now but now i have to spend the holidays in this stupid house with these stupid fucking people who never fucking GO anywhere so they're always around
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photogirl894 · 1 year
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can i ask for prompt 6 “I don’t know if I want to yell at you or kiss you.” with crosshair? i feel like it’s something he’d actually say
Man, I haven't written for Crosshair in a while! I've kinda missed that a bit. Yeah I can definitely do that! 😊 This turned out a little longer than I anticipated, so just a heads up!
"Telling You to Run"
6. “I don’t know if I want to yell at you or kiss you.”
Pairing: Crosshair x fem reader
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"What did you do this time?"
Hunter asked Crosshair this as the two of you rushed into the ship just as it was taking off, the two of you glaring vibroblades at each other.
"What you should be asking is what did she do," Crosshair fired back, pointing at you. "She got in my way and I couldn't take the shot to take down that assassin Droid."
"Got in your way? The Droid attacked me, you idiot!" you snapped back.
"Because you went back after I told you to leave," he said.
Rolling your eyes, you replied, "It would've gone after you if I hadn't, so I helped save your life."
"She's got a point, Crosshair," spoke up Wrecker.
Crosshair grimaced at his brother before growling and sticking a toothpick into his mouth. Then pointing a finger at you, he stated, "Telling you to run is not something I do lightly. I expect you to listen next time." Before you had a chance to respond, he turned on his heel and trudged away.
You growled and clenched your fists in frustration. In the time you'd been with the Bad Batch, you just couldn't understand why Crosshair was the way he was with you. Sometimes he was nice enough that you thought you two could be friends and then others, he treated you like this. What did he want from you? Did he want you two to get along or did he just not like you? Every time you found yourself liking him just enough, he pulled the rug out from under you and it was aggravating. You wanted to like him, as both a friend and possibly something more from time to time, but he did not make it easy.
"That ungrateful prick! I save his life and this is how he thanks me? Maybe I should've just let the Droid get him," you cried out.
"You don't mean that," said Hunter.
"And what did he mean by telling me to run isn't something he does lightly? I don't understand," you added.
Hunter and the others all exchanged looks with each other before he said, "We'll leave that to Crosshair to explain."
Unsatisfied with that answer, you just scoffed and said as you dropped into one of the seats, "Whatever. Wake me when we land." Then you folded your arms across your chest, closed your eyes and decided to sleep the rest of the flight to your next destination.
The next thing you knew, you were being shaken awake. Though, you expected to look up and see Hunter or one of the other Clones, but instead you were met with the stoic face of Crosshair.
"How typical. You fall asleep and I have to wake you up," he remarked. Then he gestured with his head to the open door and said, "Come on, let's go. The others are already ahead of us." Then right away, he started towards the door.
You sat all the way upright in your chair and cried out before he could leave the ship, "What did you mean, Crosshair? I need to know."
He stopped just short of the doorway and then took a step back to look at you. "What are you talking about?"
Standing up, you stated, "You said to me 'telling you to run is not something I do lightly'. What did that mean?"
He shook his head. "It didn't mean anything," he said.
"Yeah, I know that's not true," you said back immediately. "What is your deal? Why will you not talk to me?"
"There's nothing to talk about. Not like you'll listen, anyway," he said with a snarky tone, putting a hand on his hip.
Your jaw dropped in astonishment. "Why do I even bother with you? It's clear to me that you'll never like me, so I don't know why I continue to try."
Crosshair's eyes flashed briefly with frustration before he stepped forward towards you. "I ask myself that every day about you," he said firmly, "and you're wrong. I told you to run because I care enough about you to not want to see you in any danger."
You opened your mouth to respond, but then your ears registered what he'd actually said...and you were rendered speechless. Did he just say he cared about you?
Then he kept going, "I would rather be shot a thousand times than see you get hurt. Though, it doesn't seem to matter to you, anyway, because you never listen and it infuriates me! So much so that I don't know if I want to yell at you or kiss you!"
Startled, your head reared back slightly. You had no idea that he felt this way about you and hearing it from him both confused you and almost relieved you. He did like you, more than you thought. He just showed it in a different way...though it made you realize that you probably didn't make things easy for him either.
For a small moment, you two just stared at each other, feeling the weight of Crosshair's words hang in the air between you, until finally you took a step closer to him and said in a softer voice, "I'm sorry...I'm listening to you now."
Crosshair didn't seem to expect such a calm response from you and he appeared perplexed for a second before his expression softened and he moved closer to you, coming directly in front of you. "I don't do the things I do to fight you. I do them to protect you. Do you understand? I'm not the best at expressing myself, but if I tell you to run, then I need you to run because I won't see anything happen to you."
You bowed your head. "I understand."
A look of relief crossed his normally stoic face.
"Did that help you decide?" you asked.
"Decide what?" he questioned.
With an inviting grin on your face, you told him, "You said you didn't know if you wanted to yell at me or kiss me. So...what's it gonna be, Crosshair?"
Crosshair smirked deliberately at you before his hands came up to cup your jaw. Then he brought his lips firmly and ardently to yours, kissing you in the ship for what felt like eternity, knowing his choice had been made well before you even asked the question.
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wastelandcth · 3 years
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In the Mountains - cth
summary: who would've thought hiking with the boys would have ended up being so eventful? as the fifth member of 5sos with a crush on a certain bass player, you’re about to find out. 
author’s notes: thanks to @calumspupils for sending this request in! I hope you enjoy it!
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You didn't really know how you'd gotten to this point in your life. How you had ended up in a band with four people you'd give the world to, it all still seemed like a fever dream. Most mornings you'd wake up either on a tour bus or in a hotel room miles from home wondering if this was your real-life and it wasn't until you were sat at breakfast with your bandmates that you realized how grateful you were for the twists and turns that had led to your crazy life.
Some days you'd play shows and feel like you were on top of the world, rocking out on stage with your best friends. Some nights the views from the airplanes you'd grown used to being on took your breath away for so long you were afraid you'd actually imagined it all. That all the cameras flashing and fans screaming out lyrics you'd written with the four guys on stage next to you were a figment of your imagination and you'd wake up one day to find it all gone.
"Hey, I know you don't love hiking but...I'm sure we'll make it fun," Calum's voice rang out in the car, bringing you back to the moment at present, "And I'll be there to tell you all the jokes and point out cool rocks," he said with a wink.
Calum Hood. You'd turned your head to face him, the California sun was hitting his skin and making him glow. His bright smile adorning his face as the sunglasses he was wearing slid down his nose to reveal those brown eyes you'd fallen for. His soft voice and gentle teasing bringing warmth to your stomach that always seem to linger whenever you two were alone. It was something that you thought you'd kept to yourself, a little secret, but the comments online only left you a blushing mess.
If you were being honest, you'd been in love with Calum since the first months you'd spent with the band, getting to know each other and making sure you'd be a good fit into the group. those weeks had been filled with outings together where all five of you would spend hours on end telling stories about growing up and then laughing over how the internet blew up when they introduced you to their fanbase. But those few weeks were also spent trying your best to not make a fool of yourself in front of Calum, who seemed to always be at the right place whenever you stumbled or when your voice would crack while you were practicing alone.
You two had clicked instantly, both stuck to each other's hip as you took on the world. You'd write together, spending hours on a couch drafting out possible songs and humming along to tracks that had potential in matching the band's sound. You'd even become neighbors at one point when you'd first moved into the city to be closer for band work. He'd helped you move into the apartment next to his and you'd spent many weekends at each other's place, laughing over the awkward silences when you'd both caught each other glancing for a few seconds too long.
So you were in love with your bandmate, your best friend, with Calum Hood. How bad could it be?
Apparently, very bad. You and Calum had never been the subtle type and although you both pretty much knew there was more than friendship between you two, no one made a move to make it more. Ashton had asked you once when you two had gone out for lunch after a studio session.
"I just can't understand why you two haven't already gotten over it and got together. You'd thought about it, he's thought about it. Just do it," Ashton huffed, shaking his head as he watched you tense up and shake your head.
"The band is what's important, Ash. We can't let our feelings get in the way of fucking up what all five of us have created. He knows that and I do too," you'd replied, laughing quietly as Ashton only shook his head and mumbled something under his breath.
But Ashton was always one to try and make others happy in his own special way. And that's how you found yourself in the car with Calum on the way out of the city for a hike you were less than excited about. You knew Ashton was up to something when he'd texted the group saying that you and Calum would have to drive to the trail together since you wouldn't fit in his car with Luke, Mike, and their partners. As a form of payback, you'd purposefully told Calum to pick you up thirty minutes after the original time to make sure you were the last ones to get there because there was nothing more than Ashton hated than being late. And that's how you found yourself driving out of the city with Calum, lost in your own head over how beautiful he looked.
"Mhm, you always make things fun," you chuckled and winked back at him, "We're gonna need it especially now that we're late and Ashton will definitely kill us."
The hike had gone surprisingly good considering three of you were not the most athletics and Luke and Michael had constantly been racing seeing who could go the farthest faster. Ashton had tried his best to keep everyone on track until you and Calum had teased him about being the mom friend as he'd set up his phone on a rock to shoot an update video for fans to let them know about the band had been up to. It had all been going according to plan until you moved closer to Calum and twisted your ankle, ending up on the floor staring up at the blue sky.
"Oh my god, I'm going to die. Just leave me here to die because I'm not making it," you cried out, "This is the end of me!"
In a matter of seconds since your back had hit the ground, four familiar faces hovered above you, one of them looking more concerned than the others. The pain shot through your spine and down your leg, your eyes closing as you tried to stop the tears from falling down your cheeks. Soon enough you found yourself being lifted up from the ground and a warm body pressed against your back. You could hear all the guys fighting over what to do, which meant your ankle wasn't twisted backward since none of them had screamed or puked their guts out. Their voices all mumbled into one as you breathed through the pain and it wasn't until Calum's warm breath was hitting your ear that you felt yourself take a deep breath in and open your eyes.
"I'm gonna stay here with you until Ash and the others can get a ranger to bring a car or something like that, okay?" he mumbled softly, his hand rubbing at your back as he helped you sit back against a rock.
"Please don't let my leg fall off, I need it to run on stage and to kick Michael when he steals my food," you whined.
"That's not gonna happen, okay? I think you just twisted it and it's all going to be okay, sweet girl," Calum mumbled and kissed your forehead, "Promise."
The sun was still high in the sky by the time you started thinking Ashton had left you both in the desert. You'd both been sitting on the ground together, watching as  your ankle grew and grew in size as the time passed by. The pain had dulled and your head was resting on his shoulder when your brain had started to think of the worst.
"You know, this wouldn't have happened if you were Australian. Us Aussies are known for our athleticism," Calum chuckled as he nudged your side with his elbow, "It's a well-known fact."
"I can do a better Australian accent than all four of you," you scoffed, rolling your eyes as you smacked his thigh, "And I can outrun pretty much all of you except Ash."
"Except right now."
"Calum Hood, I swear if you don't stop making fun of me-"
"What? Are you gonna hit me again? I dare you-"
You don't know what came over you. Maybe it was the heat of the sun beaming down on you both. Or maybe the fact that you were thirsty since Michael had taken the only backpack with water with him before you two realized it but Calum's lips looked very nice and it took no self-restraint for you to lean in and stop him mid-sentence.
"Maybe you should twist your ankle more often, huh?" Calum chuckled as you both pulled away, "Or bully you more often."
"Shut up and kiss me again, idiot," you laughed and pulled him back in for another kiss.
"Who knew all I had to do was get you two alone on a hiking trail for you to finally kiss, huh?" Ashton's chuckled made you both pull away, making you both look like a deer caught in headlights.
"Oh shut up, I'm never going on a hike with any of you again," you huffed and gratefully took the park ranger’s hand as he helped you on to what looked like a golf car.
It was a short trip back to the medical center, where they treated your very swollen ankle with ice while you downed all the water you could get your hands on. But you were grateful that Calum hadn't left your side once, his hand in yours as you squeezed it whenever you'd hit a bump or when the park ranger wrapped your ankle. His hand was still in yours as you both drove back to the city and it never left yours even when you both laid on the couch in his living room that night, drifting off in each other's company for once accepting that maybe, just maybe, this could be more than just stolen glances.
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ohdeersthings · 3 years
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Love Festival
Kirishima Eijiro x F!OC
Summary: Being Fatgums adopted daughter can be challenging, especially when it comes to meeting his new interns while also having to keep watch over Eri.
Quirk: Ram
Quirk fact: Bring able to run, jump and react like a Ram, the user is able to also headbutt and cause great damage with their strength and horns. They also can digest anything like a Ram. Also has a fluffy wool tail, and a wool band around both wrists. Her legs from the waist down are ram legs, so she looks more like a Mythical Fawn.
Warnings: Fluff, cursing, enjoy!!
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"Oh hey Eraser Head! What's going on?" Fatgum answered his phone while sitting at his desk in his office at Fatgum Agency. "Fatgum, Midoriya and Togata have requested for Eri to be present at our School Festival, seeing as how Eri has bonded with Aki, do you think she'd be willing to join her on that day?" Aizawa questioned, standing outside Eri's hospital room where the young girl was currently having her lunch.
Fatgum pondered for a moment,"Well I don't see why she couldn't. I guess she could use a break too, between her assignments and being with Eri at the hospital, I'm sure she'd love it!" "Alright, I'll be sure to let the class know so they don't freak out. Speaking of, only Amajiki and the others in the Big Three have met Aki right? She was away on another assignment when Work Studies happened," Aizawa knew his students would probably freak out when seeing Eri's caregiver and friend, who was the same age as them but on a whole other level.
"You're correct, so Kirishima hasn't met her. It'll be fine though, I have full confidence that everything will be fine," Fatgum smiled into the phone, nonchalant about anything going on. "Alright, we'll discuss details later then," with that the two hung up.
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"Oh hey Togata!" Midoriya called out to Togata, waving him over from where Togata was hiding behind the bush. Togata narrowed his eyes, realizing he'd been found out before he can surprise them.
The dance team looked on in surprise as Togata stuck his bottom out from the bush, Eri standing beside him looking surprised as well, "Hey guys! I brought a PEACH for ya,"
"Eri!" Midoroya called out as he, Uraraka and Tsuyu ran up to greet them. "That dress looks so cute," Tsuyu commented, "You are precious!" Uraraka gushing in fondness. The girls couldn't help the big smiles on their faces.
"Midoriya, I finally got permission from the Principle," Togata climbed out of the bush and began brushing off his pants as Aizawa spoke, "in order for her to not get stressed, we're allowing her to roam around today before the Festival, also there's someone you all need to meet as well,"
The other dance team members came forward to introduce themselves to the young girl. "Well hello there, you must be Eri, I'm Iida, nice to meet you," "Wassup I'm Mineta, man you're gonna be a looker when you're older huh~" Mineta smirked, but the young girl hid behind Togata, "I want Aki,"
The name had taken them by surprise, "Aki? Whose that?" Midoriya questioned, confusion written on the Work Study kids faces. "Oh right, you haven't met her yet. Aki is Eri's caregiver, well when she's not on Assignments for Fatgum," Togata explained, "Eri can be a little shy around new people, but her and Aki get along very well,"
"Its perfectly alright to be shy," Iida commented, softening his voice to not scare Eri further. "Let's start the tour! Aki should be here soon, so I wanna show her as much of the school as I can so she can see what we do here, you wanna come along too Midoriya?" Togata extended the offer, knowing that since Aki isn't here, Eri might be calm with Midoriya around too. "You bet!" "Hey Dance Team! New idea!" Kirishima's voice broke out, before realizing Eri was there.
"Oh hey Eri! Wait, we've never been officially introduced," Kirishima crouched down to meet Eri's gaze when another voice broke out.
"I'm so sorry I'm late, someone decided to rob a gas station on the way over and I couldn't just leave the situation," it was a soft, silky voice that came from behind Aizawa. The students all turned their attention to see a young dark skinned girl about their age.
Her hair was a dark auburn red that came to below her shoulder blades, soft waves accentuating her purple eyes that seemed to have a swirl of white in them but were framed with thin gold wired glasses. Freckles dawned her nose and cheeks that were flushed with red, giving her an innocent look. What caught their attention the most was the Ram horns that protuded from her head, her legs being Ran legs with red fur like her hair but black hooves. Her outfit consisted of a off the shoulder wool dress she seemed to be wearing that came to stop at her upper thighs, a bell was wrapped around her neck and jingled everytime she moved, of course it also brought attention to her chest that was framed by the wool.
Some of the boys blushed, and Kirishima found himself entranced by her. "Aki!" Eri exclaimed, walking over to the girl who crouched down to her height, "I missed you!" Eri reached her arms out to her, Aki smiling and welcoming the girl into her arms, "I missed you too," giving Eri a nuzzle as the girls closed their eyes and embraced eachother.
"So you're Aki! It's a pleasure to meet you!" Midoroiya smiled, the class seemingly broken from the momentary shock. "The pleasure is all mine! Thank you for what you did for Eri, I would've been on the assignment too if Papa hadn't sent me on a different one," Aki greeted, before realizing she needed to properly introduce herself.
Standing up, Eri still in her arms as she bowed, "I'm sorry! My name is Toyomitsu Aki, it's so nice to meet you all, please call me Aki!" Straightening up, Eri wrapped her arms around Aki as rested her head on Aki's shoulder.
"Wait, Toyomitsu? Why does that sound familiar?" Kirishima wondered aloud, rubbing his head as if it would bring the answer to him. "WAIT I KNOW YOU!" Midoriya yelled out, eyes growing wide as he pointed toward Aki,"YOU'RE RAM-RAM, THE YOUNGEST PERSON TO EVER BECOME A HERO, YOU'RE ALSO FATGUMS DAUGHTER!" Now the students outside all yelled in shock, "WHAT!?"
"Oops, guess the cats out of the bag," Togata laughed, Aizawa just shaking his head in embarrassment from his students. "WAIT, you're really Fatgum's daughter!? Why didn't I know this!" Kirishima cried out, his head a mess knowing the girl he found cute was actually his Mentors daughter.
"Yeah, Papa adopted me when I was a baby, I hope this doesn't affect us becoming friends?" Aki smiled nervously, her small tail twitching in anticipation. "No way! That's so cool, let's take a break everyone, it's tea time!" Mina chimed in, hoping to calm everyone down from the excitement, "There will be more time to explain later, get on with the tour, we don't have time to waste," Aizawa called out, Togata and Aki nodding as Midoriya went to go change his clothes really quick.
"So if you're Fatgums daughter, you must know Amajiki right?" Kirishima questioned, trying to push through his nerves in front of the pretty Ram girl. He was determined to get to know his Mentors daughter. "Definitely! Tama-Kun is so nice, I love going on assignments with him, especially when he shares his food with me like Papa," Aki gushed, her red cheeks getting even darker with excitement, a closed eye smile making Kirishimas cheeks match hers in color. "My name is Kirishima Eijiro, my hero name is Red Riot, I'm actually a new intern at your father's agency for my Work Study," He introduced himself, holding out a hand in greeting.
Aki's jaw dropped and sparkles seemed to erupt from no where, "NO WAY! Papa has told me all about Red Riot, your name is a play off of Crimson Riot right!? I love that, he's such an amazing Hero!" Aki rambled, Kirishima feeling himself fall even harder.
Togata chuckled and took Eri from Aki, who was so engrossed in her conversation she didn't even seem to notice the weight lifted from her arms. Eri looked between the two red heads and noticed that Aki looks so happy, like when she finds a good object to chew on, then again anything was good to chew on for Aki.
"Totally manly right! Hey, are you gonna be here for our School Festival? It'll be totally killer, we're putting on a performance!" "Of course, I'll be chapperoning Eri that day so we won't miss it," The two had seemed to have fallen into their own little world, the other students just watching in amazement.
"I don't think I've seen Kirishima this excited before," Tsuyu commented, Uraraka and Mina nodding in agreement. "Oh jeez, he's got it bad," Ojiro laughed, Mineta seething from the mouth that he didn't get to touch the pretty animal girl. "He's got what?" Shoji asked, looking to Ojiro for answers, although Hagakure answered instead, "Kirishima is totally falling for Aki! What better romance is that!? An employee and the Bosses daughter? It's so forbidden but romantic!" Hagakure couldn't contain her excitement and started to swoon, Mina grabbing her shoulders as she tries to balance her friend.
"Hey Aki! Let's get this show on the road!" Togata called out, waving his arm to grab her attention. "Oh, coming MiMi-Kun! I guess I should go, we'll talk again soon, right?" Aki questioned, taking Kirishimas hands into her own, a bright smile on her face as her eyes seemed to sparkle. Kirishima felt his face warm up, but nodded, a nervous smile on his face from how close she was,"Definitely, we can meet up sometime at the agency maybe,"
"See ya later," she giggled, walking over and taking Eri's hand into her own. Kirishima could only watch with his heart beating out of his chest as the beautiful girl left, when he felt a hand on his back slap him forward, "OH MY GOSH KIRISHIMA, YOU'RE SO LUCKY, YOU SLY THING YOU!" Mina exclaimed, repeatedly hitting him in her excitement. "Way to go dude," Ojiro laughed, the rest of the students all smiling and calling out their support for him. "Come guys this is so not manly," he whined, embarrassed having realized they watched him and Aki. Yet he smiled and couldn't help but think 'Maybe this Festival will be good,'
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Walking around the school seemed to excite Eri and Aki, both wondering how all the different classes worked and what each class would put on for the School Festival.
Meeting up with Amajiki and Hado excited Aki to the point of her having steam come out of her nose in puffs, "Tama-Kun!Nene-chan!" She called out to them, Nejire flying over in greeting as they began to discuss the beauty pagent in detail and how Nejire was going to win this year.
"Hey! Maybe you should join Aki! I bet you'd be a shoe in for runner up!!" Hado squealed, wanting the girl who was like a little sister to join in on the fun. "Oh I'd live to Nene-chan but I'm not a student here," Aki smiled, though Midoriya thought her smile seemed a little forced, "plus I wouldn't wanna ruin your chances by competing, I'll be sure to cheer you on though!" Aki grinned, giving Hado two thumbs up who returned it. Eri looking between the two and then to her hands, mimicking them but smaller, though everyone swooned.
After visiting the Support Class last, they went to Lunch Rush's in the cafeteria to give Eri somthing to eat to finalize the tour. "Well that's all of U.A!" "What did you think of our School Eri?" Midoriya questioned, Eri though looked unsure, "I..I don't know," both boys looked at eachother nervously, but Aki smiled at her which gave Eri enough courage to continue, "But I can see how hard everyone is working, so I do wanna see how it turns out," Aki gave her a grin, proud of Eri for trying to speak out more and explain her thoughts and feelings.
At the end of the day, they returned Midoriya to Heights Alliance and said goodbye. "We'll be back on the day of the festival," Togata explained, pumping his arm in excitement, "So make sure it's killer,"
As they went to leave, Aki spoke up, "I will catch up with you in a moment MiMi-Kun, I wanna ask Midoriya somthing really quick," Togata nodded and escorted Eri out.
"What is it Aki? Is everything okay?" Aki stared at him for a second, before her eyes sharpened and it made him jump back, "What is your deal with Eri? What are you hoping to gain?" "W-what?" Midoriya was taken back, 'How can such a sweet and cute girl get terrifying to quickly!?'
"You seem very focused on making her happy. Why? I don't want anyone near Eri who was bad intentions," "It's not like that! When we found Eri that first time, I was so upset we couldn't do anything. I beat myself up everytime I think about it, I wanna be a hero that saves people with a smile. But Eri hasn't smiled once, so I wanna help her smile. I wanna help her become a child again, especially after what she went through," Midoriya was firm with his answer, now staring Aki back in the eyes, hoping to show her the true meaning of his intentions.
Aki suddenly smiled, sparkles surrounding her like with Kirishima earlier, "Okie dokie. I hope your goals come true," Midoriya sweat dropped, 'How bipolar can she be?' Aki then bit her lip nervously, arms behind her back as she shuffled, "I do have one more question, more of a favor though,"
This caught him by surprise, "Sure, what is it?" Holding out a folded up paper, she asked, "Can you give this to Kiri-kun for me?" "Huh!? KIRISHIMA!?" "Y-Yes, I know this sounds silly but.. he's very cute," Aki admitted, her face turning red and her tail stub swished back and forth.
"U-uh sure, I can give this to him. Wouldn't you wanna give it to him in person though," "I-I don't know..I don't wanna over step," "Nonsense, come on,"
With that Midoriya led her inside, the rest of the class unwinding in the main sitting area, though they looked in surprise with the girl in tow with Midoriya. "Hello again!" Mina greeted, "Guys this is Toyomitsu Aki, she's Eri's caregiver," Midoriya introduced the girl, her bowing to the class with a smile.
"Hello everyone, so pleased to meet you," her smile made them all flushed, 'SO CUTE'. "So what are you doing here? Is everything okay?" Jirou questioned, "I-I was hoping to speak to u-uh..Kirishima-kun," Aki was embarrassed, now noticing how many people were staring at her intensely.
"Did someone call me? Oh hey Aki! What's up?" Kirishima questioned, having just walked out of the kitchen, but smiled big when he saw the beautiful girl from this morning.
"H-hi! I just wanted to u-uh, give this to you," stumbling over her words, she tried to act relaxed but was dying on the inside and outside. "O-Oh, thanks," Kirishima blushed, taking the folded up note from her out stretched hand, when their fingers touched however they both jumped apart and their faces burned red.
Of course, Mineta took this time to try and sneak up behind the girl. Reaching his hand out to flip the bottom of her dress, mumbling on how it was so short, it'd be a crime to not go through with it. Thankfully, Kirishima took notice and pulled her to him, hardening his hand as he punched him away, "KNOCK IT OFF," He growled, holding Aki close in his left arm.
Aki shivered, noticing how his muscles squeezed her like she'd dissappear if he let her go. Tapping his chest, he realized he was holding her and jumped back, "I'm so sorry! He can just never keep his hands to himself and it'd be so unmanly if me to not step in," Kirishima freaked out, waving his hands and trying to plead his case. He froze though when Aki walked up and gave him a kiss on the cheek, "It's alright, thanks for being my Hero," she winked, suddenly finding some courage in his embarrassment. "I'll see you at the festival like we talked about earlier, right?" Aki asked, let her hands rest on his chest, "U-Uh YYEaH Suree," his voice cracked, his whole mind running in auto pilot. "Awesome, I'll see you then," she turned on her hoof and began walking toward the exit, she looked over to the class in a whole and waved goodnight before exiting Heights Alliance.
A loud thud made everyone turn toward where Kirishima was, noticing he'd fallen over, his eyes swirling and a giant grin in his red face. "Aki's so cute," he chucked, Kaminari and Sero whooping for him while Iida lectured about proper PDA in the presence of others. All Kirishina knew is that the festival couldn't come soon enough.
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On the day of the festival, Aki and Eri sat in the back if a taxi has Togata sat up front and was going over the schedule for the day. "We'll catch 1-As performance, then race over to 1-B for their play, then it'll be lunch and the pagent, does that sound alright?" He turned to face the horned girls in the back, Eri's outfit was a cute red and white dress while Aki wore her usual wool dress only this time it was red to compliment her hair.
"Sounds great, we can probably catch 1-A setting up before they perform," "oo~you just wanna catch Kirishima before he performs, maybe to wish him luck~" Togata teased, Aki gritting her teeth and raising her hood, kicking him in the back if the head leaving a hoof print, "Hehe, nevermind," Togata smiled, Eri looking up at Aki, "Do you like Kirishima?" "U-uh well, I admire him so to say," Aki tripped over her words as Togata laughed at her misfortune.
Once they'd arrived at the school, Aki mentioned she was going to see Nejire before 1-A to wish her luck before she got ready.
"Nene-chan, are you in here?" Aki knocked, hearing a lot of voices from inside the dressing room. Opening the door, Aki was met with Hado, Yuyu, and a few other students. "Oh sorry, I just wanted to come wish you luck," Aki smiled, holding her hands together in front of her.
"Ram-Ram!?" The other students exclaimed, shocked that a young hero would show up here. "Oh hello! Wonderful to meet you," she bowed, greeting them as they momentarily freaked out before bowing back.
"Hey hey! What're you doing here Aki? Where's Eri? Or Togata?" "They went to go see 1-A real quick, I was about to go see them, just wanted to see you first," Aki sheepishly explained, Testutestu suddenly appeared in front of the girls face making her lean back in surprise.
"Wait a second are you that girl Kirishima is always talking about!? The pretty red haired Ram girl that is Fatgums daughter!" Aki flushed hearing the red haired boys name.
"Well it's nice to know he thinks of me," she said happily, before looking at the clock, "I've gotta go, I hope everything goes good for you girls!" She cheered, waving as she walked out leaving the others stunned, "Why does Kirishima always get the good opportunities," Testutestu cried out, falling to his knees depressed that a beautiful girl like that was already taken by Kirishima.
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"Hey! I'm not too late am I?" Aki called out, running up to the 1-A group. "Oh Ram-Ram! Welcome," Yamomo greeted, fiddling with her keyboard to make sure it was on the right setting. "We've still got about twenty minutes until we go on, Midoriya should've been back by now, he went to go get rope earlier," Kirishima mentioned, cheeks going a light pink at facing Aki again.
"Well I'm sure it'll be amazing, are you doing special affects?" Aki questioned, leaning close into Kirishimas personal space, "Y-Yeah, I hope you'll enjoy them," he smiled, running a hand through his hair. "HEY SHITTY HAIR, LETS GO WE AINT GOT ALL DAY!" Bakugou yelled out then realized Kirishima was talking to a girl.
"Hey Sheep Ass! What're you doing in here?! Don't be trying to pull anything dammit," Bakugou seethed, his teeth gritting together in annoyance of a new person.
"I was just wishing you guys luck," Aki began to ring her hands nervously, "Well we don't need luck! We'll kick ass either way dammit!" Bakugou exclaimed, getting in her face. Aki decided he needed to calm down and quit yelling.
Ramming her head into his stomach, Bakugou lurched forward coughing as he fell to the ground holding his stomach,"Damn Ram Bitch. What the fuck was that for," he gasped, rolling around on the floor in pain. "I didn't appreciate you being in my face," she calmly spoke, turning to Kirishima again who looked at her in awe at her strength.
"I'll leave you to it, you'll do amazing," her lips pressed to his cheek again, although this time they grazed the corner of his mouth slightly. Giggling she turned and left the room.
Silence ticked by for a second before Kirishima belted out, "GUYS THIS HAS TO BE AMAZING, TOP NOTCH MANLY," He hardened up without knowing, the others in the class around him sweat dropping at the sudden mood change.
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As the curtains opened and a deafening explosion happened, Aki smiled as Jirou started her song, the dancers and musicians knocking it out of the ball park all at once.
The beat had Aki dancing in place, Togata laughing at her as Eri watched in surprise of Midoroiya dancing, well at least until he went off stage for some reason. "He left," "He'll be back, let's keep watching," Togata assured her, the music still blaring into their ears.
The song kept continuing to grow in progress when all of a sudden a lot of special effects went off, Uraraka swinging out to the crowd and lifting some audience members off the ground, one of them being Aki who laughed and brought Eri with her who couldn't hold it in any longer, throwing her arms out and laughing, a giant smile on her face. Aki and Togata had tears in their eyes as they smiled, knowing this young girl had finally broken free from her shackles of a pervious life. Aki hugged her tight before spinning in a circle with her, both girls laughing together in glee as Togata cheered them on. The song came to an end as the audience screamed and cheered, Aki and Eri now holding onto Togata as the three of them embraced in a hug. Eri had finally smiled and it made the two older ones warm with happiness.
As the gym filled out, the three met up with Midoriya on his way back in, Togata congratulating him on a job well done. "It was so crazy! First there was a loud sound and it was scary, but then everyone started jumping, even Aki was dancing and then Deku you went away for a little bit. But then there was a spinning guy and it started to get cold and I saw a lot of birds and people went "Wow" and you know what I said? Wow too!" Eri rambled on, her arms being thrown everywhere in excitement as Togata and Aki copied her from her side. "It was so much fun! Especially when Aki flew in the air with me and we danced," Eri stopped when she noticed Midioriya getting tears in his eyes, "I'm so glad you had fun Eri," this caused Eri to smile wide at him, Aki not able to hold it in anymore and swooped her up, spinning in circles as both girls laughed together. The boys looking on with their own smiles.
Heading outside, they met up with some of the boys that were melting the ice. "Ah dang this ice is too big, hey Bakugou can you-" "Kick Force!" A voice cut off Kaminari as a blur of red jumped in the air and came down on the giant block of ice, breaking it into little pieces. "Whoa!" Peoole passing by stopped and stared, Aki standing up and fixing her glasses. "Is this okay?" She asked, tilting her head with a smile.
"Hey its Ram-Ram!" "I didn't know she'd be here!" "She's so cute!" Voices came from behind her, causing her to turn over her shoulder and smile at the students and give a wave causing them all to flush red from the adorableness.
"Hey Aki! How'd you like the show?" Kirishima asked, hands on his hips, but he quickly put them put to catch Aki who jumped at him, landing in his arms as hers went around his neck that was turning red, "It was so amazing! The lighting, the music, the dancing, it was so beautiful! The affects were so awesome too! It was a rush of adrenaline for sure," Aki couldn't help but gush over the performance, Kirishima grinning and twirled her around, cheeks still flushed, "THAT'S GREAT! I'm so glad you guys enjoyed it! I did happen to catch you dancing a few moves too," he winked, catching her off guard but she laughed and nodded, finally getting set back in the ground.
Togata watched for a second before smirking, "You know we still have about two hours or so before the pagent, why don't you show Aki the rest of the festival Kirishima!" Aki and Kirishima turned bright red, but both agreed to it as the rest of the class came out to begin their own sight seeing if the festival too. Kirishima grabbed Aki's hand and began to drag her out of sight, she looked back over her shoulder to see Togata and Eri waving to her, both smiling as she disappeared from sight.
Both red heads walked around, looking at all the different food vendors and games, before coming upon the High Striker game, where you bring the hammer down to ring the bell and win a prize. They went to walk past it before Aki noticed fluffy Ram and Shark plushies. Kirishima looked to her and then the prizes before waking up to the student running it. "Hey dude! What do you have to do to win those two?" Pointing to the plushies Aki was eyeing. "You've gotta ring the high bell, you only get one try though," the student informed, gesturing to the tallest one they had which looked to be about fifty feet high. Kirishima grabbed the hammer, Aki stopping him momentarily, "You don't have to do that Kiri-Kun" she informed, but he shook his head, "It wouldn't be very manly of me to not win a pretty girl the plushies she wants, so just sit back and watch," he grinned at her before turning his attention to the game in front of him. He hardened his body as he swung the hammer up and brought it down full force, the little rod shooting straight up and knocking into the bell, denting it but ringing it nonetheless.
Aki cheered in amazement as Kirishima was handed the two plushies, the student behind the counter complaining to himself about needing a new bell now. Aki was handed both but then looked to Kirishima and handed him back the Ram one. "Seems only fair you get one too, right," she giggled, Kirishima smiling and nodding, taking Aki's free hand into his again as they continued down the path. Both could agree that this was probably the best day ever.
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Standing at the gate to see the three off, Aki and Kirishima stared at each other for a minute before smiling softly to one another. "I'm glad you could join us, maybe you can come back another time?" Kirishima asked, hopeful he'd get to see her again, preferably outside of Work Studies and School. "Mmm, I don't know. I have my assignments and taking care of Eri too," Aki admitted, her purple eyes staring into his Ruby red eyes that were full of hope.
"Actually, I guess it's alright to tell you that you'll be seeing everyone alot more. We're planning on moving Eri into the dorms here, to keep a better eye on her and her progress with her quirk. Of course, her care taker is gonna have to be with her," Aizawas voice cut in, making both teens turn toward him in shock before turning back to each other.
Kirishima whooped and picked up Aki, spinning her around as they both laughed, setting her back in the ground, he blurted out, "Would you like to go out sometime?!" He realized what he said and burned red, but kept his eyes trained on her shocked face but she soon smiled shyly and nodded, "I'd love to, maybe you can show me a nice Cafe around here?" She asked, Kirishima nodding as he took out his phone to get her number so they can plan it for the day she comes back.
Aizawa and Togata watched the two as Midoriya and Eri said goodbye a little ways to the side, "I'm gonna regret this aren't I," Aizawa sighed, feeling the need to go to bed after such a long day, "Awe come on Eraser Head, it's cute," Aizawa merely shook his head, turning to walk off, "Some School Festival this turned out be," Togata only laughed and called out, "I'm pretty sure you mean Love Festival!"
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Hiiiii. Hope you enjoyed it. Let me know your thoughts! I know some people don't like OCs that much but I thought I'd give it a try.
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This morning’s list:
Play that funky music 11:00 am wild cherry—And just when it hit me
Somebody turned around and shouted Lay down the boogie and play that funky music 'til you die, heh heh
'Til you die, yeah (What?)
I tried to understand this (Yeah)
Heh, I thought that they were out of their minds
Heh, how could I be so foolish, how could I
To not see I was the one behind?—(well…….sometimes the music just speaks for itself. )
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Happiness 11:04 Taylor Swift
Past the blood and bruise
Past the curses and cries
Beyond the terror in the nightfall
Haunted by the look in my eyes
That would've loved you for a lifetime
Leave it all behind
And there is happiness
All you want from me now is the green light of forgiveness
You haven't met the new me yet
And I think she'll give you that— (well, I’ll be honest. When this played this morning, I was feeling very generous. But it’s been a long day.)
11:11 the pleasure is all mine bjork—The pleasure is all mine
To get to be the generous one
Is the strongest stance
The pleasure is all mine
To finally let go
And evenly flow
Roots people 11:11 robin Williams—Hari Krishna, Hare Rama
Hare Rama, Hari Krishna
Monkey island 13th floor elevators—Well, here I am on monkey island
Hiding behind a rock
I'm all dressed up with my monkey suit
Pretending to be something I'm not
Well, there's one thing about these monkeys, baby
They don't know I'm around
But, uh, that's pretty good, 'cause if they knew
They'd probably come and put me down I guess I must be doing okay
'Cause they haven't come and got me yet—-funny, isn’t it? This song playing today.
Big love Fleetwood Mac 11:16–I wake up
Alone with it all
I wake up
But only to fall
Wouldn’t it be nice the Beach boys 1122–
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But let's talk about it
Harmony Elton John 1122 —Haven't seen your face for a while
Have you quit doing time for me
In any case I set my own pace by stealing the show
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thom Yorke the axe 1125–
I'm pierced by long nails
I thought we had a deal
I thought we had a deal
I thought we had a deal
I thought we had a deal
I thought we had a deal
I thought we had a deal (uh oh, sounds like someone threw in the towel. And I think I know who.)
You wooden soldiers
I'm daring you to turn yourselves on
“Soldiers are, for the most part, given orders about when and where they should strike. Therefore, they need someone to “turn them on”. Yorke is suggesting those soldiers (whoever they may be) are as useless as toy soldiers because they are powerless without someone to guide them, and he is daring them to operate on their own and make their own decisions.”
11:33 deado Stephen Malkmus—Feel the work
Of the tooth-impacting jerks (reference to how I always clench the right side of my mouth since using the word pendulum. It’s written about with Lorde’s song, biting down.
Smoking in the fog
Set a trap in the mirage—this line right here
Well we'll never see the rights
That won't see the libel till you file the fine
Life’s a gas t Rex 1137
I could’ve turned you into a priestess—yes this song played twice today
1139 my winding wheel Ryan Adams—'Cause I feel just like a map
Without a single place to go of interest
And I'm further North than South—
(I actually had my directions mixed up and it was only last week that I realized I had them reversed; my tree used to be my point for the south, but it’s actually north, so this lyric is coming from her. Also when I went past her tonight, some fresh bark had been torn off and left for me to see.)
Porn songs Sarah Silverman 1144–You give yourself to
All of us
Sharing all your
Nakedness—This is a reference to all the sex stuff
The jean genie bowie 11:44–Talking 'bout Monroe and walking on Snow White—coke reference
Poor little Greenie— The things they’ve been doing to the earth
She loves him, she loves him, but just for a short while— this is about me and Jack, and how we only got a little time together
She’ll scratch in the sand, won’t let go his hand
And keeps all your dead hair for making up underwear—This is a comment about how they used my personal concerns to make dolls and workings. Probably Jack’s too.
Also; this song was Gina’s calling card, a fake spirit guide that the tarot reader made up
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11:50 Duran Duran hungry like the wolf —
earth is afire—poison in the earth
Woman you want me, give me a sign—(me thinking blond was flirting with me )
And catch my breathing even closer behind
In touch with the ground
I'm on the hunt, I'm after you
Straddle the line, in discord and rhyme—(partially a comment about my ability to be in both worlds at the same time)
I’m on the hunt, I’m after you
Stalked in the forest, too close to hide (Who would think someone could be stalked in a park, right—You wouldn’t believe the things you can do to psychologically fuck someone up)
I’ll be upon you by the moonlight —reference to spells
You feel my heat, I'm just a moment behind— (wherever I went, there were things constantly left for me. For example I just went to pick up a salad, and a feather was left there on the floor. This has always been the case: they leave me feathers as a calling card everywhere. No one‘s going to notice a feather except for me.)
Scent and a sound, I’m lost and I’m found
Burning the ground (more poisoning the earth), I break from the crowd
I’m on the hunt, I’m after you(Sometimes this line is about them after me, sometimes it’s about me after them)
11:55 le fille a qui je pense—Je sais bien, je sais bien qu’autour de moi on dit
Que de jour en jour je me détruis
Car sans l’amour qu'elle m'avait donné
Ça ne sert à rien d'exister
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John my beloved 11:57 sufjan —
Such a waste, your beautiful face
Stumbling carpet arise If history speaks of two baby teeth—this line is about the baby & stella being the way to shake me up
They said beware, Lord, hear my prayer
I’ve wasted my throes on your head
So can we be friends, sweetly
Before the mystery ends?
I love you more than the world can contain
In its lonely and ramshackle head
There’s only a shadow of me; in a matter of speaking, I'm dead
I’m holding my breath
Counting my cards down to one
Jesus, I need you, be near me, come shield me
From fossils that fall on my head
Some Kind of wonderful joss stone 12:01–He almost drives me out of my mind
I get these funny little feelings inside a me
Chills run up and down my spine— this is a reference to confusing malevolent spirits for psychic Jakk
Silver train 12:07 Rolling Stones—And I did not know her name
But I sure love the way
That she laughed and took my money
And I did not know her name
And I did not know her name
But I sure loved the way
That she laughed and called me honey—well this one hurts.
This song is apparently about a sexworker and a john who came to see her; then they showed me this super sad artist guy who came and saw me a few times. Apparently he was sent by blond. And he taped the sessions.
He came and saw me three or four times I think. Listed off a bunch of people who had died. Should have figured.
The Shadowlands Ryan Adams 1212–Reach out into the darkness
And find my little girl
Cause she's angry like a salesman
Who just couldn't make a sale—this is about me
Please lead her to the mountain
Most people never find a love
Sometimes you just can't be a man
Sometimes you just can't be a man
When you're living in the darkness
Of the shadowlands—addiction
1217 smash the mirror The Who—You don't answer my call
With even a nod or a wink
Can you hear me
Or do I surmise?
That you fear me, can you feel my temper
RISE
“As in “Go To The Mirror”, it’s Tommy’s psychological perception of himself that makes him deaf, dumb and blind. This image he has of himself must be destroyed – both figuratively in his mind, and literally in the mirror – for him to regain his senses.”
12:19 moon age daydream bowie—Keep your 'lectric eye on me babe—blond’s telepathy
Put your ray gun to my head
Press your space face close to mine, love—psychic Jakk is often called a spaceman
Keep your mouth shut, but listen to the word inside—(often my mind was shown pictures, other than hearing commands very strongly)
Keep your head on, but open up your eyes real wide—(open your eyes of perception)
Keep the change strong, let the things you've torn aside(kinda about how I let everything go and just fell
Into psychic communication and let it take everything over)
There isn't any room to hide—there was no getting away from it
Let it go—instrumental karaoke 12:22–once, Stella and I were on Skype and she had just seen frozen. And she did a dance routine for me with her little brother following along to this song. I have some screen shots of it.
I mostly know she’s always sending me counsel whenever it plays, like “chill out aunt tinka” or trying to help me put things in perspective.
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12:26 Hannah hunt vampire weekend—And I walked into town
To buy some kindling for the fire
Hannah tore the New York Times up into pieces
“He doesn’t chop wood for the fire, he buys it. Hannah, meanwhile highlights this detachment from the city by tearing the Times to shreds.”
“Hannah is a Jewish name. In the Old Testament, Hannah is the mother of Samuel, and she symbolizes self-sacrifice in the name of faith. It might be a stretch, but maybe Ezra is not just singing about a girl. Maybe he means religion, too, and since he himself is Jewish he would be parting essentially with that religion, expressing his disbelief in those relationships, the one he had with Hannah and the one he had with religion.”
A man of faith said hidden eyes
Could see what I was thinking
I just smiled and told him
That was only true of Hannah
If I can't trust you then damn it, Hannah
There's no future
You and me, we got our own sense of time
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12:34 everything now arcade fire—this also played at 8:26 tonight.
It has a lot of meaning; it was symbolic of my inner shift that began in 2017 where I understood that through Stella’s death I had gone through sort of my own rebirth, and my life had to be about seeking something else that was true to my core. NYC no longer made sense, I was deeply vulnerable, and I heard a call that was more about what could I do for the world.
I’ve said this before but arcade fire was my first show in a long time, and my first at msg. I was still far gone enough that I was holding 4 framed pictures of stella in my arms doing the show. This song is definitely a symbolic one for us, and it’s been a very long, strange trip since that night.
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