#i just had definitely less time and inspiration for drawing lately or even visiting tumblr really

[tereferka]

Worry is like a rocking chair, it keeps you occupied, but it gets you nowhere

I am very happy to present to you all my fanart I made for @vashwoodbigbang event! Made in collaboration with @snowpoet123 - author of the absolutely amazing bittersweet fanfiction that you will be able to read on her AO3 account! And here is a direct link to her work❤

Thank you @snowpoet123 for everything, it was fun to illustrate your work 🧡

[lovelivingmydreams]

Paper Flowers: By any other name

Happy New year! I’m back with the fifth chapter. Other chapters are listed in the master post under Paper Flowers.

Thomas gets tmakes a fun youtube Video. Patton thinks there might be a breakthrough with Virgil. And Roman gets a surprise.

Thomas and Joan are sitting down at Joan’s kitchen table for a youtube video.

Earlier that week Thomas had sent out a tweet to ask the Fanders to send in questions and links for them to react to.

The video was a lot of fun so far. They saw cute dog video’s, inspiring coming out video’s, and then there was the artwork inspired by his vine stuff. Some fanders made misleading complement themed cards, and there were cute drawings of his teacher and dad character. And of course there was that stainglass/yingyang drawing of the Prince and his nemesis.

“This is just amazing, you guys are all so talented.” He gushes, not for the first time as he studies the gorgeous detailing on the latter. This must’ve taken hours and he can’t get over the fact that something he did inspired that.

The questions were fun to answer too. What subject is teacher’s favorite? What is Dad’s favorite cookie? What was the funniest interaction he’d ever had after a storytime? Some serious ones too. How did Joan know they were non binary?

What made him decide to come out as gay to his Christian parents? How did he know it was the right time?

Is it hard being out and proud while being a public figure?

Tips on how to handle social anxiety.

“Okay, final question, I peeked on this one,” Joan admitted, making Thomas let out a dramatic scandalized gasp. “I wanted to make sure we’d end the video on a fun note. Go on read it.”

Joan is chuckling already, so Thomas quickly reads the comment.

“Thomas love your content! But the people need to know. Is it Marcus or Kevin?”

Thomas frowns in confusion. There is a link and when he clicks on it he is brought to a long reblog chain on tumblr. He quickly reads through the first few posts and snorts.

“Oh My Goodness, that is just amazing!” he squeals in delight. He loves that the fanders are so enthusiastic about those two. And from what he can tell both ‘armies’ are battling it out in good fun.

“Well, I can’t confirm, nor deny either name at this time. But I think he’d very much approve of the one his faithful minions have chosen for him. Personally I do think Kevin would be hilarious though.”

Joan chuckles and nods in agreement.

“We might learn the dark overlord’s true name someday,” Thomas smiles. “But for now, take it easy guys galls and non-binary palls. Peace out!”

“Are you quite done Princey?” Virgil huffed. Roman had been laughing nonstop since Thomas heard about the debate going on in the Fanders comunity.

“Sorry. I’ll stop. Honestly it’s not that funny. Please do forgive me… Kevin,” And just like that he was doubled over again. Virgil groaned in annoyance.

“Okay, okay, I’m done. I honestly didn’t mean to. You can’t always help it when you laugh though. And you must admit it is a little funny,” Roman said once he got a hold of himself, whipping the mirth out of his eyes.

“What’s all this commotion about?” Patton wondered as he entered the commons.

Virgil tensed up. Patton had been… Different lately. He’d been checking if Virgil took enough food when he ate in his room, and that he ate everything when Roman coaxed him into eating with the others. He knocked more often to check if Virgil had laundry to be done, or to tell him that it was time for him to go to bed. He was taking this whole dad thing a little too seriously.

And some part of Virgil wanted to just accept and appreciate the effort, but the other kept wondering why Patton was doing all that for him when he clearly wanted him to just move back downstairs already.

It was in the little things. The way Patton would tense when he entered the room. How he would hesitate before smiling at him or greeting him. The way his voice wavered when he asked him stuff. And sometimes Patton would say stuff like “I don’t care how Deceit does things, but up here we…” Insert whatever rule Patton was trying to get Virgil to accept.

Honestly. He didn’t mind doing chores. Even if it was redundant when you can just will stuff to be clean. He didn’t mind making an appearance in the commons once a day either. Patton had just jumped from not involving him in anything into expecting him to fight him on everything.

Sure he’d roll his eyes and huff a little, but he wasn’t that difficult. Patton clearly expected him to be though. Perhaps even expected him to get tired of the rules and leave.

The problem was, Virgil had actually tried a few times in the beginning, and he couldn’t go back downstairs. Not really. Not for more than a visit when Thomas was asleep. The rest of the time, he was stuck in the in between only able to go to the upper commons.

Virgil’s best guess at how this worked was that Thomas had acknowledged his existence, but was still trying to push him down most of the time.

It’d been Janus’ decision to reveal this truth, when Virgil had been triggered into a panic attack one morning out of seemingly nowhere. Janus and Remus had been very calm that day and that had been exactly what had made Virgil worry that something big was coming. Janus realized this was not a healthy environment for him. So he lifted the denial on Thomas’ anxiety and told Patton and the others that Virgil would be living with them from now on.

Next thing Virgil knew his room was moved up, just not all the way.

He wasn’t sure, but he felt like he’d gotten closer to the upper level since he and Roman became friends. Logan didn’t seem to care one way or another. So that left Patton as the one to push him down right?

Virgil closed his eyes to calm his reeling thoughts for a moment. He couldn’t get swept up by his own head when in public. Princey got it by now, but how would he explain this to Patton.

“Oh, hello Padre. Kevin and I were just discussing the latest video and…”

Then Virgil found himself crouching on the kitchen counter ready for an attack. Patton’s high pitched squeal had been unexpected and terrifying.

Roman, once he recovered from his own surprise, moved a little closer to Virgil, putting himself in between him and the perceived danger. It helped calming him down a lot faster and adjust his position to look more casual and less terrified.

Patton was still squealing and clapping. It seemed like he had missed Virgil’s panicked reaction.

“Your name is Kevin?” he gushed.

“No,” Virgil objected immediately. Holding up both hands in a stop sign.

“That’s just one of the names the fanders gave the villain character. Princey thinks he’s hilarious for calling me that,” he explained.

Patton deflated. “Oh… Well, it’s nice the fanders enjoy your character so much,” he smiled awkwardly. Virgil suppressed the urge to roll his eyes. He wanted to get out of here, like now.

“Padre! You just must see the gorgeous artwork this fander did about the prince!” Roman declared as he grabbed Patton by the arm and led him away.

Virgil finally fully relaxed. Roman was really pulling through on every level.

Protecting him from Patton’s parenting, deflecting Logan’s tough questions, and even making Virgil feel appreciated. Whenever Virgil had had a rough day of keeping Thomas safe, Roman would come find him in the field and just hang with him, humming his favorite music, set up one of his favorite movies with him, telling him stories of his grand adventures. Just hanging out. Once they did each other’s nails. That was a lot of fun. Virgil had actually quit nailbiting  all together because he didn’t want to ruin them.

At first Roman had tried gifts and lavish praise, but that did not sit well with Virgil. He panicked over not being able to live up to the praise or give good gifts in return. And Roman listened and adapted.

Virgil in turn had been trying to give Roman verbal praise whenever he did something nice for him, or did a good job with Thomas. It was hard for Virgil to say this stuff out loud though.

Virgil entered his room trying to think of a way to thank Roman for today without making it awkward for the both of them.

His eye fell on some purple craft paper. One of Roman’s early gifts. He’d thought that maybe Virgil might enjoy creating things to take his mind of off his worries every once in a while.

Virgil had never really found a good project to use it for… But now.

When Roman got back to his room after bidding Patton a good day he could feel a slow rhythmic knock on his door. They never agreed on a code, but he could tell that this was just Virgil trying to get his attention, but that he could take his time if needed.

He decided to note down his new idea for a Vine first so he wouldn’t lose it. When he opened the door, Virgil was nowhere to be seen. Not that Roman noticed right away, he was far too focused on the purple paper rose hanging from the doorframe by a piece of yarn.

It was clearly hand crafted. Which must have taken Virgil quite some effort. He carefully untied the flower and brought it to his room where he put it on his vanity in a little vase.

He smiled softly at the little token of appreciation. A friendship with the emo knight wasn’t always easy to navigate. But it was definitely worth it.

He picked up the idea again, confident it would be another hit.

The dark overlord scowled at the bright morning sky. "Curse you, eternal sun." He turns his attention to the star map on the table in front of him "and every single one of you stars." He raised a picture of the solar system and glared. "And to hell with all you planets! I hate you all!" Then he dramatically turned and picked up a small ball resembling a certain non-planet. "Except for you,” he says softly stroking the ball delicately as if to comfort it. “You get me. You may stay."

Next: everyone falls

[safrona-shadowsun]

🕸 ⭐️ 💡 🦋 🐲 🎨 📌 💖 🖤 ♨️ ✒️ 💭 🎵 🎇 🌻 🌩 🔑 💎 🏆 🎬

{ Well then. o.o So this will be under a line for sheer length. All obviously ooc. Thanks…for reading if you do? @gwenya }

🕸 1. Who’s the oldest character of yours that you still use? Technically, it would be my Forsaken character @gravekeeper-anna​. I’ve had her for about a decade, and she started off as human, roleplayed through her fall to Undeath. She shares that trophy with Safrona here herself, as both are interconnected in a way. I think of Anna as an original feature movie, and Safrona as the remake of it and taken in a new direction or…maybe the sequel. Something like that.

⭐️ 2. Who’s the oldest character of yours, defunct or not? This is a hard one! Most of the older characters I’ve had I’ve killed off in some fashion as I can’t seem to keep up on alts very well. I believe one of the oldest characters in theory that I have is a Kaldorei rogue by the name of Serynith, which I am thinking about remaking as a Demon Huntress. She was a bit of a scamp, a trickster, a flirty little sneakthief with a good heart. I am not sure how becoming a Demon Huntress would change her, so it’s something I’m still ultimately mulling over. As I said–I’m pretty bad with keeping up on alts.

💡 3. Has creating a character ever made you realize something about yourself? Oh, it’s made me realize plenty about myself. One of the biggest things that creating a character has made me realize is that I can’t carry on with a character if I get no interaction with them. The characters I play are reactive to the people they meet, influenced by them as well as the environment and life they live, and they help to carve out their story. I could write on my own about a character, create a novel and my own world around them…but honestly that would get very boring for me, if not entirely frustrating. It’s the interaction with other writers that I enjoy about creating characters, and why Roleplaying is the theme I enjoy most to write in and learn from.

🦋 4. Any minor characters that have either taken over or branched off into their own stories? I used to have a few that acted as sort of NPC’s to my main character and an Rp partner I had for a while. The one that has probably outlasted the rest is Lady Ravona, who is Safrona’s adopted mother and can be found here on Tumblr @bloodbrew​. I don’t often play her so much these days, as again she gets little interaction and I haven’t really been that interested in writing for except as the occasional voice that pesters Saf when she visits the Baron’s manor in the Ghostlands. But she’s vain, a tempting songstress, easily riled, and probably still a bit crazy, and the Baron keeps her occupied when she gets out of line. Overall, she wants to be a Grandmother and see little baby Bloodbrews carry on a (literally) dead line, but Safrona is less than willing to provide.

🐲 5. Do you prefer to make human, animal, monster, or _____ characters? Why? I definitely try to stick with human-esque characters, though I do enjoy the interaction between a character and their pets, or when a familiar might become a focus and I have to challenge myself to write for them. Coal, @gravekeeper-anna​‘s familiar actually has quite the little backstory behind him, including being one of the few that has known the Gravekeep in the past and experienced her changes. Overall I prefer humanoid characters because in essence they can embody the animalistic, or the monstrous within their eccentricities.

🎨 6. When creating a character, do you come up with the visual concept or the written concept first? I think it’s sort of a balance between, a small starter concept and then a look I have in mind, and then I have a character. I don’t start really sketching characters until I’ve started Rping with them – that’s when they really give me a personality to work with.

📌 7. Do you have characters that you know you’ll never use, but can’t bear to get rid of/recycle? I have a few characters that are just silly ‘fluff’ characters that I find funny, like my Death Knight gnome ‘Deathdoll” that I never really do anything on, but just look and grin at. I don’t even leave the Character Load Screen in the game for these ones, and I doubt I’ll ever be leveling it very far in game.

💖 8. Is there a character that embodies your good traits, or traits you wish you had? Answered here.

🖤 9. Is there a character that embodies your bad traits? Several characters? Which ones and what traits? I….suppose if anything my ‘bad’ traits are my pull toward the macabre and creepy, which probably is embodied  slightly by my liking for the Forsaken in @gravekeeper-anna, but more graphically by my Forsaken Monk @danseindeath, who is a bit of a horror show that I don’t quite have an established RP voice for yet. I suppose it’s the aesthetic I like the most. @lay-sister-rose has some of my socializing problems injected in her personality. Saf is can seem emotionally unavailable like I can, but she is far more on the Aquarian spectrum than myself, especially now since I returned to playing her character for the past couple of years after some…changes.

♨️ 10. Is there a character that explores your interests or fetishes (orrrr is that just all of you characters)? Truthfully, I’m kinda careful about putting my characters into romances too quickly, let alone letting them explore their sexuality with anyone, because I’m probably…just picky about who I write that kind of stuff with. I don’t like that to be the central guiding force of my writing in the end, which is sort of where I’ve been before and eventually lost interest or just remember having very creepy experiences with writing partners. Though I can say that @lay-sister-rose has an artist’s soul and has…probably interesting ideas about her sensuality regarding artistry that she just doesn’t know how to convey yet. If anything, my interests run the scope of darker themes that I probably wouldn’t ever touch irl – it’s just where a character, like Safrona ended up down on her messed up road, and I find it interesting to pry into the psychology of her sensuality and desire.

✒️ 11. If you have characters that embody certain traits of yours—good or bad—has writing them changed how you view those traits? Has it affected you in any way?  Answered here.

💭 12.   Do you fantasize about being any of your characters, or are you more detached? Definitely more detached from my characters. They are creative outlets that I see as creations, and I hurt them, put them through messes, see them evolve. Sometimes I have killed them. I don’t want to be them, but I love them in my own twisted way. They are my art pieces.

🎵 13. Do you create playlists for your characters? Answered here.

🎇 14. When writing for specific characters, is there anything you have to do to get into the right mindset? Sometimes, it takes me putting on a playlist, but more often than not it’s just me reading a previous lengthy post for the character in mind or a previously written Rp post. Sometimes my character just evades me, and there’s nothing I can do to get rid of the block. When yer brain is tired it’s tired.

🌻 15. Which character is your guilty pleasure? Probably right now it’s Saraj, though I don’t play him very much ICly. I suppose I just don’t feel I’m intelligent enough to write him most of the time, but he’s a bit of casual fun when he slips in with the occasional word.

🌩 16. Is there a character of yours who’s a real struggle to write/draw? Why do you think that is? I’ve been wanting to draw up Saraj, and be proud of it, but let’s face it: Ethereal’s are complicated to draw. I also struggle with writing for Quintin @delaurac. For now, I just don’t know what I’m doing with him in writing, and I haven’t drawn him up satisfyingly yet. But I usually have a problem with male characters. One day it will be a hurdle I overcome, if I’m really inspired and really put myself to it.

🔑 17. Which character is the easiest to draw/write? Saf is definitely the easiest to draw/write, as she is the one I write and play for the most. She’s a default blood elf in looks, and having a very clear idea of what she looks like and acts like in my mind really helps writing and drawing overall. It’s probably why I have the most art done of Saf.

💎 18. Is there anything you really wish you could do, character-design-wise, that you feel is outside your current skillset? A concept that you wish you could pull off but are uncertain about? I think overall I need to just practice as far as art goes, and stay cohesive with a character’s design. I want to draw male characters better and work on more action-y poses. As far as writing goes, again just having the chance to write and pop out something decent and interesting is enough for me. I’ll like to write more for other characters perhaps, when my mind is able to handle them, or when I decide I can put Saf up on a little bit of a higher shelf to play with someone else. I want to get the design for my most played characters to a point where I am comfortable and happy with them all…but that takes time and patience and…being focused on art, and I just haven’t been lately.

🏆 19. What’s more important to you: visual design, unique personality, a trendy character aesthetic, etc? If you’re not sure, then what’s the first thing you usually nail down in a character?  For me, a character is not ‘alive’ until I have a little backstory for them and feel I can Rp, or write for them. Getting down a personality or a small base concept for a character is pretty integral for me wanting to play them, even in-game. If I do not have any sort of concept in mind, I lose interest pretty quickly in the character.

🎬 20. Do you ever plan to do anything (comic, animation, etc) with your characters? Or are you just happy to have them? Actually, Safrona /@gravekeeperanna ‘s original concept started off waaay back when I was in high school, a tragic heroine in a short ghost story I wrote that got published to the school newspaper lol. She haunted me a few years later when I discovered WoW, and she became her own character. My first warlock, and my favorite class! I drew her ALOT, and experimented with comic panels and things, and I’ve always been very inspired by comic book art since high school. While I am happy to have the characters and be able to write for them now, I imagine one day I miiiight want to create a comic if I can get motivated to actually finish a project, but only time will really tell.