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danandfuckingjonlmao · 2 years

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typically whenever put into a fight or flight situation my brain chooses “fight”. want an example?? ok!!

when i got the notification saying “dan and phil finally tell the truth” i was filled with terror. so instead of not watching it (flight), my fear turned instantly into uncontrollable rage. i started SCREAMING at the video the following: “NO THEY FUCKING DONT!! YOU ARENT TELLING US SHIT!! I DONT WANNA KNOW!! SHUT UP SHUT UP SHIT UP!! FUCK YOU!!” while clicking on the video and sitting through the advert. got through the video a shaking mess. need to do some breathing exercises.

glad to know that the video was what all joint content has been since they came out: oversharing about their shared s*x life without giving specifics of their relationship. like yes kings leave me in the dark. don’t tell me shit. i don’t wanna know <3

so that’s the story of how my psychological response to the video was to throw hands with dan and phil through my phone because i am sane and healthy and normal

#dnp #dan and phil #phan #amazingphil #daniel howell #dystopia daily #phil lester #guys my chest is so tight #one day i’ll be able to watch joint content for the first time without feeling physically i’ll #i just have this constant fear that they’re gonna gaslight me akdbdkhfkdhfjd #idk how to explain it i just have a very fragile grip on reality that is ready to shatter at any minute #my biggest fear is that i’ll encounter something that will make me completely reassess reality #like i often feel afraid that i will look outside and see cartoon bread driving a toaster bc of that episode of rick and morty #what would i do if i saw that?? how would i cope?? i would simply cease to exist #anyway i’m insane 😃 and i’m allowed to say that bc i am actually insane ask my psychiatrist #hope you got through that phannies even though i know for a fact that you didn’t #i didn’t either i’m dissociating now #danisnotonfire #dan howell #yeet my deet

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