#i miss yurina

[sonobeunitsarecool]

Super random

Went through the Milgram channel, watched... most of the videos again, trying to see if there were any tiny details I missed All I got was: Haruka - enough for a seperate post/theory, though I think someone's already gone over it? (psych ward theory) Futa - all the cans in Backdraft say "pressure", the graffiti is too hard for me to interpret for the most part. Though, the words in bubble text around the victim's witch icon reads "killcheroy", and there's the words "pazuzu" and... SaP? SkP? Does anyone know what all the other graffiti text says, I can only read the "pressure, pressure" ones. Mu - in After Pain, when you see the time on her phone, it reads 17:20. Why was she at school at 5:20? Shidou - looking at how he holds the scissors and knife in Throw Down, and how he opens the door and holds the "promise card" in Triage, I think he's left-handed? Mahiru - in Ai nan desu yo, the clothes she wears at one point have the caption "winter style", though many of the other pictures don't seem to have been taken in winter. She's also reading a lot, which fits with her literature degree. Kazui - near the end of half, he's shown with all his different costumes, without any masks. Kotoko - in Harrow, she looks at a sign/thinks about a sign with text that's partially cut off, but reads "at around ----- on this street... ----a traffic accident occurred... if ---- , please report to the police". She also thinks back to a news report showing the location and aftermath of an accident outside a house. Was she impacted by this? Random cipher translations (using assets from laniemae's archiving)

The text under the MW bit just says MARGLIM. The banner text says "lossitarelecste" on the top and "rutiro" on the bottom, or "et sceleratis sol oritur"/"light shines even upon the wicked".

The text reads "innocent sheep" on repeat. For the goat one, it reads "guilty goat" on repeat. Text above doors for T2 is "Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate", or "abandon all hope, ye who enter here". The quote is from Dante's Inferno, the words written into the gate to hell. For the T1 key visuals, the text individual to each prisoner simply gives basic info. For example, Yuno's would be "Milgram second prisoner, eighteen age, five foot (something or other) point (something or other) height, female", with the others being in the same format. The wall behind the prisoners in Undercover just has "ft" and "ft in", for measurement. The backgrounds that look like this:

all read "every (s)aint has a past, and every sinner has a future." This is the same for some of the wallpapers, and whenever that kind of vertical text shows up (voice trailers and such). It's missing the "s" in "saint". Tags on the clothes and the tops of the cards from Undercover are all just their names. The prison jackets seem to repeat the text, "Milgram ---- prisoner (name)". The Undercover CD's cipher text just reads "Milgram prison guard Undercover Es. Es theme song CV Yurina Amami". Es's sashes read (backwards) "De omnibus dubitandum" and "Prison Officer". Are there any other ciphers that I've missed? Because I'd really like to try and translate those!

[c4llezz]

THE FANCALL

Requested: Yes. Helloo! May I request a Xiaoting x FEM reader where reader is keplian who got into the fancall and Xiaoting was just mesmerized by reader's visuals because she's like drop dead gorgeous. Xiaoting was blushing n couldn't answer her questions because she keep on stuttering, then it went viral cuz reader posted it on her Twitter. Thank you!

XIAOTING X F!READER

TW: None I think

Genre: Fluff

Word count: 864

Gif made by me!

Expect mistakes, happy reading!

When you heard Kep1er was making a summer comeback you couldn’t be more excited. You had been a fan since GP999, but when they debuted you didn't have enough money to buy their mini-album, First Impact. Being a broken student was hard.

But you HAD saved enough money and bought their new mini album, the two different versions available. And luck seems to be on your side because you also won a fancall with them. You were pretty nervous, practically shaking waiting for your turn to come.

When it finally arrived the first thing you saw was Mashiro's face and her big smile. She waved at you and you waved back with a “Hello”. You asked her a few quick questions you had already prepared before (you didn’t want to bore them not knowing what to talk about), which she answered happily. And when the time ended you said your goodbyes with you telling her over and over how pretty she looked.

Next in line was Yeseo, she had this bubbly energy that made you smile and calm your nerves more. You asked her other questions and then passed them to the next member, Xiaoting.

She really was beautiful, the first time you saw her in Girls Planet 999 she immediately caught your eye and along with Yurina, who sadly didn’t get on the group, became one of your picks. “Hi?” you said when you notice her wide eyes looking at the phone in front of her.

You saw her shaking her head before she said “Hello, hi”

“Red looks really good on you” you complimented her, referring to her hair color.

She started blushing at your comment “Th- Thank you, you too.” She laughed nervously after noticing you didn’t have any red with you “I-I mean, you are not wearing red but I bet you would look good in it”

You laughed “Thank you. I have a question for you” she nodded her head waiting for you to continue “If you could travel to any country, not work-related, which one would you like to travel to and with who”?

She was looking straight at the camera and while you thought she was thinking of an answer to your question she was really just looking at you, she hasn't met someone as pretty as you and she have seen really pretty people (her members for example) considering she was an idol and all. You heard another voice and Xiaoting cheeks turned as red as her hair. “Sorry, sorry. I think… I think I would like to go back to China, yeah. A- and maybe travel with… travel with my members”

“Do you miss it?” you asked.

“What?” she asked getting distracted again

“China” you cleared up

She nodded her head “Oh yeah” she took a deep breath to try and calm down her nerves and stay focused, why were her hands sweating? “I- I miss my family”

You heard the timer and knew it was time to pass to the next member but before the person behind the phone could take it, she said “You are really pretty, bye!” you waved at her with a smile, and you too.

Yujin was next and the first thing she said to you was “So you were the one making Xiaoting so nervous?” with a teasing smirk on her face- You saw a hand slide across the screen (probably Xiaoting’s) and hit her in the arm “Ow” she rubbed the spot where her member’s hand had been. Then she started asking you questions, even though you were supposed to be the one doing it. Yujin thought you couldn’t blame her, she was the leader and had to make sure you were a good person, even though you’ll probably never meet in person and your possibilities of being with Xiaoting were almost 0.

When the fancall ended you looked through the videos you had recorded and decided to post them on Twitter for people to look at how nice the girls were and their different answers to your questions. But the thing that got everyone’s attention was your call with Xiaoting. They started talking about how flustered she seemed and how she stuttered sometimes while answering. You probably were too nervous to notice how she was acting at the time, but after watching it again you could see her blushing a lot.

The video obviously got to the girls and they started teasing her member about it. But to Xiaoting’s defense, you were utterly gorgeous “Didn’t you see her? She was beautiful!” she said. When her members snickered, she blushed “Come on! You have to admit it”

“She definitely was. Did you know her bias is actually Mashiro?” Yujin’s comment made Xiaoting snap her head towards the Japanese and send a glare her way, who tried to hide behind the closest member. The leader chuckled at her reaction “I’m kidding. Calm down, Miss I Bet You Would Look Good In It” Everyone busted out laughing while the girls in question started blushing while rolling her eyes, she’s never going to hear the end of it. But she was hoping to see you again sometime, maybe next comeback.

[neohyxn]

ACT ONE ── diamond heart

SOLITAIRE ! act one season one the diamond heart

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in which ichika is released into the wild.

or...

in which ichika finally makes friends through her favourite game.

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it didn't take long for keita and yurina kuruta to realize their daughter was different. it didn't take long for everyone else to notice either. it wasn't hard not to spot the ever-present faraway look in ichika's eyes, nor the way she had a tendency to speak to animals or inanimate objects more then people. by the time she was ten, ichika was yet to grow out of her imaginary friend stage, refusing to speak to anyone other than 'neko'.

by the time she was fifteen, ichika, who now went by "chiku", was placed in the local rehab institute, a place for young 'struggling' teenagers who needed 'help'. it was ironic really, the girl who's surname quite literally translated to mad had been placed in place for the loonies, as so kindly out by her peers. it was there that the girl lived in for 12 more years, locked away in a room on her own, with only a stuffed cat named mouse and neko to keep her company. due to her isolation chiku still held childish qualities. she was still the same sensitive, innocent little girl she always had been, yet it was obvious there was something sharp, calculating eyes. ichika never missed anything, years of neglect and ignorance towards her had caused that. no one told chiku anything, and so she taught herself to keep an eye on everyone and anything.

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on the day that marked her twelfth year in confinement, the now pink haired girl was startled to wake up to complete darkness. the light from the camera in the corner of her room was off, the clock on her bedside table was dark, and the small window in the door showed no sign of colour outside. chiku sat up, reaching out to grab mouse, holding him to her chest. slowly, she got up, shuffling over to the door. ichika reached a hand towards the doorknob, and with baited breath, she twisted the handle.

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ichika had no idea how long it had been since she was in the 'other world', as she liked to call it. it didn't take long for her to grasp the rules of the games. arrive, take a phone and hope she didn't die. she believed the whole reason to her survival was neko, who always stayed close, whispering in her ear what to do. it was him who noticed the people who had tags on their wrists, and how they spoke of 'the beach'. of course, no one payed the pink haired "ditz", so ichika was safe to eavesdrop as she pleased. she learnt of a man called the 'hatter,' and a scary monster called 'aguni.' 

it didn't take long for ichika to make up her mind.

she wanted to find the hatter and his beast

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I'M SORRY I'M CRAP AT INTROS AND STUFF LIKE THAT, BUT PLEASE TRUST THE PROCESS.

so the first chapter will start with episode 2, however because of ichika's character, i feel like quite a bit of the plot will have changed later on

[nxmuzluv]

slow decline. | cheshire

media: my hero academia (bnha)

characters: ??? yurina, piece of shit yatarou keiichirou, ??? kamako

warnings: depictions of violence, arguments, cheating, foul language, mentions of an ed

genre: angst

word count: 8.5k

summary: attractive. wealthy. powerful. deities among a vast population of people who have mere mortals falling at their feet. they were their school’s “it couple.” a perfect pairing. a “match made in heaven.” they were made for each other. they were soulmates. oh, they were so in love. until they weren’t.

a/n: lmao wrote this while listening to “lay all your love on me” and “escapism.” btw, this is just a snippet of my bnha oc’s backstory, so enjoy !

it feels like every time yurina finds a sliver of happiness, the world bites her in the ass for it.

it happened just after graduation. scratch that. before graduation.

everyone knew that yurina was her school’s “queen.” even yurina herself knew, although she hated to admit it. she was the object of affection for a gaggle of posh preparatory school kids. “miss perfect.” with her stellar grades, talent, perceived attractiveness, and a slew of other things people find “appealing,” everyone either wanted to be her, or to be with her.

(how stupid. how shallow.)

and one of those people was yatarou keiichirou.

he was just like her. the scion of one of japan’s wealthiest families. six foot three. one of the star players of the basketball team.

(oh god, this sounded too much like a cliche american teenage film. yurina hated it.)

keiichirou had yurina enchanted. with his stupid smile and equally stupid persistence, he wouldn’t stop until he got yurina to reciprocate his “feelings.” the ravenette didn’t put much effort into that newfound “relationship,” some sick, sick part of her finding it entertaining. leading yet another airheaded boy on, like she had done for months leading up to then. oh, it gave her so much control.

but, it just… kept going.

keiichirou was persistent. too persistent. and as a result, the sick feeling soon melted away, and it was slowly replaced with a feeling yurina hadn’t felt in years. she… enjoyed being around keiichirou. a smile tugged at her lips every time she spotted him waiting outside her class for her. she felt so lighthearted when she was sitting with him at lunch. a pounding shook her chest every time they spoke after school, his voice ringing out of her phone as she flipped through homework. their relationship became more genuine than yurina would’ve liked.

but she couldn’t get enough of it. it was like a drug, and she just wanted more, more, more.

mistake number one.

everyone saw it. yurina’s friends teased her about it. others were green with envy over it. yurina was in love with yatarou keiichirou. she was in love.

mistake number two.

it happened sometime in october. at eight at night. over the phone. it’s such a vivid memory within yurina’s mind that it makes her want to puke. what made her stomach fill with butterflies now makes it churn. but, deep down, it also brings tears to her eyes. and those tears hold so many emotions it makes her want to scream.

“so, uh…” keiichirou started. it was obvious he was trying to sound less nervous than he actually was. “yuri-chan?” the girl in question answered with a hum, her heterochromic eyes leaving her paper full of equations to gaze at her phone.

(keiichirou could call her that. he could call her yuri. bless her heart, she was so in love.)

(her gaze had softened, too.)

“um, i…” he continued. both of their hearts were pounding. yurina’s was genuine, keiichirou’s was a mystery. “i forgot to mention this to you at school, but…” yurina thought his forgetfulness was just oh-so endearing. he was so nervous he forgot? how cute.

keiichirou went on to tell yurina the “obvious.” he liked her. loved her, even. just like she did. he told her that he wished he was better with words, so that he could write a heartwarming letter proclaiming his love for her. so that he could slip it into her locker before school and make it “perfect.” but he wasn’t, and so he had to resort to a phone call at eight at night. and, oh, that had yurina wrapped around his stupid little finger.

she had to hold back the elated squeal she wanted to let out, not wanting to sound like a silly schoolgirl (which she was, but poor, desperate little she couldn’t have known that then). and so, she simply asked, “you do?”

keiichirou, on edge with anticipation, answered, “yeah, i do.”

and the rest was fucking history.

mistake number three.

from then on, keiichirou and yurina were an “item,” and their school couldn’t get enough of them. they shared kisses during lunch. they talked for hours after school. they were each other’s arm candy to those high class events they were forced to go to, sneaking out each and every time to get some air (and make out) on the rooftops. yurina would go to nearly every basketball game of his and smother him in kisses (whether or not their school even won), and keiichirou would show up to her extracurriculars without fail. he would shower yurina in affection, surprising her with anything and everything she happened to look at during their dates, and pushing bouquets of ridiculously expensive roses into her arms nearly every time they saw each other.

(they went to the winter ball together, too. he was her damn escort at her debutante ball, too.)

meeting each other’s parents was… interesting to say the least.

they were elated at the news of yurina and keiichirou’s relationship. yurina had charmed keiichirou’s parents with her respectful demeanor and dry wit that peeked out every so often (and with how obvious her feelings towards their son were), and keiichirou had hachirou and kamako sold with his megawatt smile and how much he cared for their “little girl.”

(keiichirou and her father were similar, too. how funny.)

in their parents’ eyes, their relationship was heaven-sent. both of their families were a step away from royalty, brimming with wealth and influence beyond comprehension. their parents couldn’t wait for marriage. the union of their families would be plastered across nearly every newspaper. and children would be even better.

yurina’s mother said that her relationship with keiichirou was a “match made in heaven.” back then, she (with her lovesick ass) agreed. but in retrospect? those words might’ve been what sealed yurina’s fate.

and no one had the faintest clue.

in the weeks leading up to graduation, yurina noticed that something was… wrong. the people that fell at her feet (much to her annoyance) just months prior were now greeting her with shifty smiles and stuttering words. whispers fell from their lips every time she walked by, and they (stupidly) acted like she didn’t notice. yurina couldn’t care less about what they had to blabber about, but she couldn’t help but wonder…

what happened?

(maybe she should’ve stayed ignorant, actually.)

graduation continued to draw closer. yurina continued to throw herself into her studies, while desperately trying to find some time for her dear boyfriend. but each and every time they hung out, it became more and more obvious. keiichirou’s behavior was… erratic. unpredictable. it would either be distant and cold, or enthusiastic and overbearing. it was one extreme to the other and yurina just… didn’t get it. she was supposed to be the “smart” one, so why didn’t she get it?

just what the fuck was happening?!

…and then she found out.

(unfortunately.)

every time she saw keiichirou, something was different. during walks he would be silent. his steely grey eyes were far off, as if he wasn’t even aware that his girlfriend was right next to him. as they studied for finals, he would be so… distracted. as if his head was full of cotton and his ears full of water. yurina would have to say his name three times for him to respond, and would chastise him just as much for being on his phone.

(just what was he doing on there, anyways?)

(something she definitely wouldn’t like, that’s for sure.)

and even during those stupid galas, keiichirou would still act like he had no idea where he was. every time yurina would attempt to hold onto his arm (like she always did), he would push her away, mumbling some stupid excuse. and each and every time, yurina would brush it off. but that part of her brain would nag her, filling her head with paranoid thought after paranoid thought.

(did he fall out of love? oh god, please don’t let it be that.)

and sometimes, keiichirou would be the complete opposite. he would shower her in everything she desired like before, would try to steal kisses from her even while sitting in a classroom. he would do anything for her. but, this time, it was yurina’s turn to push him away. she just felt so… unsure.

(unsure? when did he ever make her feel unsure?! she was never supposed to feel fucking unsure!)

instead of feeling loving, keiichirou’s actions now felt… desperate. like he was desperately trying to make everything seem normal. desperately trying to lie to her. but when their school’s graduation ball came around, when yurina was (predictably) crowned “grad queen,” nothing felt normal. it felt… stiff. rehearsed. and even as everyone was coddling them, swooning over them, and asking for (way too many) pictures, their shaky smiles showed that they knew. everyone knew.

everyone but yurina.

the “teen dream” was falling apart, and everyone but the other half knew.

(and the worst part? it hadn’t even been a year.)

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it happened as she was just trying to get to bed.

her hair and ears tied up in a towel, damp with bath water, yurina paraded around her room as she clutched a robe to her chest and hummed a song. nakamori akina, if she remembers correctly.

(oh, who was she kidding? of course she could fucking remember.)

it was a little past nine. yurina’s lights were dim and her room was humid, filling with the smoke of her lengthy, late night bath. for some reason, her phone was constantly vibrating with notifications, and every time yurina looked, she wondered why. it was nine at night, why was her phone blowing up so much?

as they say, curiosity kills the cat.

they were mostly texts from her friend, hasegawa ai. she, yurina, and another one of their friends—honda kaede—were the trio known the world over. everyone knew them, but no one knew them. they were probably the most closely guarded group of friends to ever walk the earth.

but that isn’t the point.

ai, bless her heart, knew everything. and it could either be a blessing, or a curse. back then, yurina thought of it as a curse. why did ai have to know everything, and why did she have to pass it onto her? but now? it was honestly a bit of both.

yurina’s expectations were low as her eyes scanned over her screen, but she felt her heart drop as she read a certain message.

“yuri-chan, i’m so sorry.”

…what?

her eyebrows furrowed with sheer confusion. sorry? sorry for what? yurina knew for a fact that ai would never do anything to her, so she was sure she wasn’t apologizing for herself, but… just what in the hell was she apologizing for?

the more she read, though, the worse it got.

oh god, it was all too much. and of course ai had all of it. text messages, secret recordings… and they were all from keiichirou. the same bitch who was supposed to be her boyfriend. and, god, what was in them…

him calling a girl who wasn’t her “baby.” (it’s funny, because he called her that, too.) him admitting to using her. (it wasn’t over text, either.) him laughing with his stupid, sleazy friends and calling her a “clingy whore.” (oh, look at that. he was projecting.) yurina felt her hands tremble with every word she read. her blood grew hotter and her eyes stung, not to mention that they were blown open with pure shock. she didn’t want to keep scrolling. she didn’t. but she couldn’t find a way to stop. and as she kept going, yurina could hear her illusion shatter. again.

but the twisted cherry on top?

“like, oh my god…” that was keiichirou. and he sounded… exasperated. yurina had never heard him sound so annoyed. ever.

oh, something was so wrong.

“the bitch has daddy issues or something.” he continued. “apparently daddy failed to shower his little girl in affection as much as she would’ve liked, so now she’s clinging to me like some desperate bitch. she’s annoying as shit, but it’s a win-win for me! our little princess is clinging to my arm any chance she gets, and i’m more popular than ever. it’s fucking perfect.”

and then he laughed. all of them laughed. at the sound of yurina’s boyfriend calling her a “desperate bitch.”

jesus fucking christ.

yurina had to resist the urge to toss her phone across her room, slamming it down with shaky hands, wide eyes, and fast breaths. he was using her. keiichirou was using her, and all while cheating on her with some fucking gold digger.

oh, she’s heard this one before.

yurina tried to keep it in. she really did. but the longer she thought about it, the more it drilled itself into her head, the worse it got. how could she be so stupid?! she loved him, but the entire fucking time he had her dancing in his little palm. the entire fucking time he was using her as a way to feel better about himself.

she knew his stupid fucking smiles were shifty.

everyone used her. keiichirou shouldn’t have been different.

and yet, yurina still fell in love with him.

tears fell from her eyes as she clutched the towel on her head, her nails digging into the material. her body shook as sobs wracked her frame, but soon, her sadness—her sheer heartbreak—was replaced with searing anger.

a scream tore from yurina’s throat. rest assured, she damn near rose hell that day.

it was a teary, messy, and violent breakdown, filled with mantras of “i hate him. i hate him. i hate him.” yurina threw things off her counters, kicked over her dresser, and even tore claw shaped holes into her chair. she was nothing but sheer anger, even if heartbroken tears spilled from her eyes almost uncontrollably. she kept screaming, even if her throat was raw with emotion. but, god, she didn’t care.

(not caring would kind of become her thing.)

eventually, her anger simmered down, reverting right back to the sadness and heartbreak that started it all. she sunk to her floor, surrounded by broken bottles and the pungent smell of expensive french perfumes.

yurina’s eyes were blurry with tears. at one point, her towel had fallen off her head, revealing her damp hair that only stuck to her face. and sitting on the floor, figuratively and literally at her lowest point, she had never felt worse. god, she looked horrible.

not even seconds later, though, kamako—her mother—came rushing into her daughter’s room.

she looked nearly as disheveled as yurina did, tugging at the collar of her kimono to straighten it. concern was written all over her face, her yellow eyes slightly wide with surprise. “princess?” she spoke.

that single word was enough to break yurina down again, another sob falling from her lips as her head snapped up to meet her mother’s concerned amber gaze. and even though it felt as if her throat was full of blood and tears, yurina mustered up enough energy—harbored enough hate—to scream out four words that would seal the fates of both her and yatarou keiichirou.

“i fucking hate him!”

(a far cry from before, huh? when almost all yurina could talk about was how in love they were.)

…and then she collapsed into tears, into her mother’s arms, and stayed there for what felt like an eternity.

(wherever her father was? only god knows.)

(but of course he wouldn’t be there to comfort his only fucking daughter.)

(...he and keiichirou really were similar.)

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for the first time in a long time, yurina felt fifteen again. it was a sick parallel, but she felt as if she was sobbing into her mother’s chest, desperate and unsure after she discovered her father’s affair. after her father ignored her because she had. as she sat with her head on kamako’s shoulder, staring at her carpet with glossy, red eyes, yurina couldn’t help but think back to that shitty time in her life.

but, instead of the woman being cheated on being her mother, it was her. and it felt a thousand times shittier than before.

yurina and kamako sat in silence for… a while. and it was comforting. after screaming her ass off for only god knows how long, it was comforting to finally get silence. to finally take a damned break after… all of that.

the raven-haired teenager couldn’t bring herself to speak, but thankfully, kamako broke the silence for her. with an arm slung around her daughter’s shoulder, the 43-year-old feline rubbed yurina’s arm in rhythmic, comforting strokes.

“it hurts, doesn’t it, baby?” kamako asked, playing with a strand of yurina’s long hair. the teenager in question sighed, staring at her carpet with such an empty look that it was hard to tell if that was really her.

“like hell.” yurina answered, her voice raw and trembling. it was almost as if tears were still bubbling within her chest, and it sucked.

kamako shifted her position, pulling her daughter just a smidge closer. “well, it’s sick and twisted but,” she rested her chin on yurina’s head, not really caring about the dampness of her hair. “at least you’ve got a mother who can understand.”

yurina bit her lip at that.

the thing is, that was exactly the point.

when her father’s affair was found out, yurina was there. in fact, she was the one who broke the news to her mother. she saw how it affected her, how stressed out she became by the day. she was the one who witnessed their violent arguments, and the aftermath of vases shattered and glass broken. and she watched as her parents’ marriage broke down, and as a half-brother she didn’t want was tossed into their lives.

yurina had witnessed it all.

(god, her life was such a fucking soap opera.)

and yet…

her throat got tight. even after all of that, yurina still fell in love with her father’s fucking mirror image. she watched the light leave her mother’s eyes as she learned that the man she loved had stabbed her in the back, and yet yurina still clung to a relationship that was doomed from the fucking start.

she was supposed to know, and yet that still happened.

god.

“mom.” she spoke, tears threatening to slip out of her heterochromic eyes. kamako hummed. “why… why did this have to happen to me?”

asking such a question pissed yurina off. it filled her head with thoughts of him and it made her so damn angry. everyone fed her the lie that she and keiichirou were “perfect” for each other, and yurina sat there and believed them. they were supposed to be something, they had so much planned (well, yurina had). and keiichirou ruined everything.

she still couldn’t understand, and it made her blood boil. why, why, why?! why did it have to be her?!

(why did it have to be them?)

yurina clenched her jaw, trembling as her thoughts only got worse. the prolonged silence pushed her over the edge again, and a broken sob left her lips as tears finally spilled from her eyes. “i…” she croaked out. “i was so happy. why did it… why did he…?”

kamako clutched onto her daughter, almost as if yurina was going to disappear. “oh, sweetie…” she whispered. yurina could feel herself crack, and her tears kept flowing even though she desperately wanted them to stop. she kept sobbing and sobbing and sobbing, and her mind kept flashing back to everything that she had. everything that could’ve been. why? why was her life so fucking terrible?

“do you think you could talk about it, baby?” kamako asked, her voice as soft as silken sheets. granted, yurina wanted to do something much worse, but talking could… help. the eighteen year old wiped fresh tears from her face, tried to harden her expression, and nodded.

“sure.” she answered. it stung to speak, but she pushed the pain to the darkest corners of her mind (such sick foreshadowing). “i need to get all of this… shit off my fucking—”

yurina paused. she nearly forgot that her mother was right next to her. the last time she swore in front of her she almost got her ears torn off. the girl bit her lip, trying to keep those twisted emotions from bubbling over yet again. she huffed. “sorry, mom.”

the woman in question smiled, although it was a rather… bittersweet one. kamako pulled her daughter even closer. “it’s alright, princess.” she said. it would be rather… wrong to tell yurina off for simply swearing, especially when she looked like—well, more like when she just—went through hell and back. and if she did, kamako would be no better than her stupid husband.

(and yurina’s sorry excuse of a father.)

yurina sighed, sinking further into her mother’s embrace. “i loved him, mom. i did.” she spoke, her voice flat. hidden under her flat, dejected tone, however, was a myriad of emotions. sadness, regret, betrayal… anger. “and he… he made me look so stupid.”

the 18-year-old pushed her tears away. pushed all those shitty emotions away until they were nothing more than a distant memory. pushed them so far to the back of her mind that she wouldn’t have to feel anything anymore. so that she wouldn’t have to feel her heart shattering the longer she thought about her failed relationship.

(another fucking failed relationship.)

yurina took another breath, and from then on, she couldn’t stop. “i… i don’t know how i fell in love with someone like him.” she breathed out. “i don’t know how he did it, but god, he was so sweet. he gave me everything. i gave him everything. and… and he… he turned around and—” yurina dug her nails into her arms, her eyebrows furrowing with an anger she never thought she’d ever feel. her eyes stung. her chest was tight.

god, she had never felt so pathetic.

the teenager sniffed. “...all he fed me were lies. all of it.” yurina’s voice was quiet now. subdued. trying in a desperate attempt to quell its own fury. “he played me like a damn violin. he made me look like a fucking fool, and i’m supposed to be the smart one. god damn it, mom, why did it have to be me?!”

yurina shattered again. no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t keep her tears at bay. and kamako held her like the world was ending, her face contorting with sympathy. “baby girl…” she spoke, her voice in a mere whisper. “it was never your fault, sweetie. it’ll never be your fault. remember that, alright?” yurina’s tears had simmered down into muffled sobs, but the dull ache in her heart still remained. for some stupid reason, it still yearned for the boy that broke her heart. yearned for a feeling that slipped through her fingers twice over.

and she hated it.

“i’m not stupid.” the teenager choked out, pushing out broken phrases through a throat thick with tears. “i’m not fucking stupid, and yet he made me look like a damn idiot!” yurina was a mess, pushing back her damp hair and staring at her floor with bloodshot eyes. “he played me like a motherfucker, mom… all because i fell in love with him! all because i… i—”

kamako kissed her daughter on the forehead, and if she could’ve pulled her closer, she would’ve. “i know, sweetheart.” the woman whispered. “i can’t tell you that it’ll be okay, because clearly it isn’t. but…” kamako trailed off, letting out a heavy breath. “you didn’t deserve that, baby.”

yurina didn’t even bother to wipe her tears away anymore. “i know that.” she spoke, her voice seemingly cracking with every word. “and that’s what sucks.” kamako’s already downtrodden expression shifted at her daughter’s words, clutching onto the teenager’s hand. seeing yurina so heartbroken killed her, especially since that was the last thing kamako wanted to happen to her own daughter. she wanted yurina’s life to be as far from her own as possible, but it seems like history was fated to repeat itself regardless. like the world was just far too cruel.

kamako sighed. “here’s something better, sweetie.” she said. “he didn’t deserve you.”

something inside yurina clicked. her mother was… right. as much as she wanted to say “but i loved him so much,” what good was there in saying that? she loved keiichirou, yes, but he fucked it up. if he truly loved her, he wouldn’t have ripped her heart to shreds, and yurina had far better things to do than to waste her breath on a bitch that didn’t even care.

all yurina could manage was a simple nod as she wiped her face. kamako weaved her hands through her daughter’s hair, picking through the knots that had seemingly just appeared. “now, baby girl,” the older woman said, her voice still silky smooth. “what do you want to do about it?”

yurina didn’t even have to think about her answer. “i never want to see his ass again.” her voice was now calm. composed. even though you could still hear the tears, it was as if yurina pulled herself together in a matter of minutes. “i want to make yatarou keiichirou’s life a living hell, mom.” yurina could feel her rage bubbling up again, threatening to erupt at practically any moment. but, instead of wanting to manifest into tears and incessant yelling, it wanted to manifest into stone cold vengeance.

kamako hummed. “and i’ll be there with you every step of the way, darling.”

and what a relief that was. what a relief that yurina’s mother wasn’t like her father. that she didn’t pretend as if her own daughter didn’t exist. that she didn’t run away from her problems. that she was actually there for her fucking teenage daughter. what a fucking relief.

after all, it was just mother and daughter, in this bullshit together.

-

graduation was… exhausting, and yurina knew it wasn’t supposed to feel that way.

she was valedictorian, yes, her school’s “star student” or whatever, but when you’re graduating alongside someone you loathe, it isn’t the most ideal. the entire time it was just pretend, pretend, pretend. yurina had to pretend that she and keiichirou were still their school’s biggest obsession, all for the gaggle of social climbers that wouldn’t stop fawning over them. she spotted her father in the crowd, pretending that he wanted to be there. for a split second, his face dropped, showing just how little he fucking cared. but his expression would shift every time, and he would plaster on a tight grin that was simply too stiff to be real. oh, it pissed yurina off.

(she caught her mother in the crowd, though. beaming with such genuine pride even though she was sitting next to her sorry excuse of a husband. that made her feel a little better.)

(and the rest of her family was there, too. the sight of her cousins cheering as loudly as they possibly could every time her name was mentioned made her heart flutter.)

(almost everyone in her class cheered once her name was called, actually. as if she would ever give two shits about them, though.)

but worst of all?

keiichirou was smiling like an idiot the entire time. holding onto her like an oh-so doting boyfriend and pretending as if he wasn’t such a huge piece of shit. yurina knew everything, and for him to act as if he wasn’t actively thinking about another bitch? oh, that was rich.

(her life really was the definition of “not all that glitters is gold,” huh?)

after graduation, keiichirou never left yurina’s head, and god, wasn’t it annoying. even as her family’s annual trip to france was approaching (where she would have to be stuck with another person she fucking hated), her mind was full of him. but instead of those lovey-dovey thoughts she had floating around in her head a few months prior, however, all yurina could think of was how to ruin keiichirou’s life.

as the days went by, it slowly dawned upon her that she and keiichirou were technically still together, even though he didn’t give a shit and she hated his guts. and as much as she wanted to shove any and all memories of him to the back of her mind and forget he ever existed, yurina needed to truly end it, or else it would follow her for the rest of her life.

and that’s one thing she detested.

so one day, she invited him over.

and, god, wasn’t it infuriating.

yurina sat on the edge of her bed, stone faced and cold hearted. it was a stark difference in comparison to the scorching cup of coffee she held in her hands, its temperature heating up her calloused palms. despite what was going to occur within the next few minutes, yurina’s mind was as blank as her expression, as if what was going to happen wouldn’t piss her off.

the ravenette heard footsteps, and her jaw tightened. she let out a breath, heavy with emotion. yurina knew exactly who those footsteps belonged to. yatarou keiichirou.

her ex-boyfriend.

yurina kept her door open, and the second she saw keiichirou’s face, it took everything in her not to start screaming. her gaze steeled, glossing over with a sort of darkness that could only be described as pure loathing.

“yuri-chan, we haven’t seen each other in a month.” keiichirou began, and the mere sound of his voice already made her want to roll her eyes. “what made you—”

god, he was so annoying. for him to just waltz into her bedroom and act as if he didn’t ruin her life? and for him to call her yuri? keiichirou truly had no shame, and it pissed yurina off. she looked up through her eyelashes, but it wasn’t the flirtatious stare that had every boy before keiichirou captivated, it was cold. hard. dark. deadly.

that certainly made him shut up.

(thank fuck.)

“get out of my room, keiichirou.” yurina spoke, her tone devoid of any and all emotion. the sound of her voice, completely and utterly lacking the love that it possessed just months before, threw keiichirou for a loop. and on top of that, she called him keiichirou. his full name. she hadn’t called him that in… forever. it was always kei before. or baby, or… something else. never keiichirou. never his name.

just what happened?

(oh, he knew what happened.)

keiichirou attempted to speak, but yurina cut him off so quickly it almost made his head spin. “get out.” she repeated. “i don’t want to speak to you here. so get out.”

“yuri-chan—” he choked out. that almost made yurina burst a blood vessel.

“stop calling me that!” she exclaimed, her voice almost rising to a full-on yell. keiichirou stepped back, clearly surprised. and if yurina wasn’t so pissed, that would’ve filled her with sick satisfaction. “and stop freezing. when i say do something the first time, do it. now get. out.”

yurina didn’t sound like keiichirou’s girlfriend. instead, she sounded like his boss. his dictator.

(and, god, didn’t she love it.)

keiichirou huffed, but he surrendered regardless, retracting his foot from yurina’s carpet and stepping out of the doorway he barely entered. yurina let out a breath, as well, closing her eyes in a desperate attempt to regulate her rampant emotions. her thoughts were running wild, and she couldn’t make sense of any of them. she clutched her mug so hard it could’ve shattered. but she placed it down, stood up, and walked out. into a hallway with the boy that never loved her.

yurina closed her door behind her, and immediately took to staring daggers through her ex-boyfriend. he stared back with such a pitiful look in his eyes that it almost made yurina laugh, and it was nothing but heavy, crushing silence for what felt like hours.

that was until yurina finally spoke.

“so, when were you going to tell me that you were cheating on me, keiichirou.” she said, and she could feel keiichirou’s heart sink. it sounded like a question, but it definitely wasn’t. yurina didn’t need an answer, because she already knew. the answer was never.

and that was the worst fucking part.

“w-what?” he stuttered out. yurina let out a breath at that, trying so desperately to reel it in just for now.

“what do you mean ‘what,’ you idiot?” yurina asked, her tone harsh and dripping with venom. “there are three fucking people in this relationship, and it’s your fault. did you ever even love me in the first place? oh wait, no you fucking didn’t.”

keiichirou faltered. “yuri—” he began, but sighed before he could add that dreaded ‘-chan.’ “yurina, what are you talking about? i do love you—”

“can it.” she spat. “if you really fucking loved me, you wouldn't have called me a ‘desperate bitch’ behind my fucking back!” and that’s when he froze. how… did she know that? she wasn’t supposed to know that. he said that in a locker room… there wasn’t anyone who ratted him out, was there?

(oh, what an idiot.)

“yurina, i…” keiichirou tried to pick his words carefully. tried to craft another perfect lie. “i would never say that. you know that—”

“oh, shut the fuck up!” yurina exclaimed, trying not to punch a hole through her expensive mahogany door. “you would say that because you did! i heard it, and you can thank ai for that.” keiichirou couldn’t respond to that. he tried to think back to just who ai was, and then it clicked. one of yurina’s best friends. one-third of her little posse. of course yurina would find out.

(that lying little fuck.)

“you just sit here and lie, lie, lie! that’s all you fucking do!” yurina kept going, her anger rising with every word. “and you seriously thought that i wouldn’t find out eventually? well i did, and now we’re no longer a thing.”

keiichirou stuttered. “w-what?” he asked. “when the hell did that happen?”

“just now, genius.” yurina responded. that clipped tone never left her voice. “scratch that, a month ago. what? you thought that when i found out you were cheating on me with some whore, that i would just sweep that shit under the rug? that i wouldn’t drop your ass? you’re fucking funny, keiichirou!”

all yurina saw was red. she didn’t see her loving, doting boyfriend anymore. she saw a liar, a cheater, and some nobody who was just like everyone fucking else. and, honestly, she should’ve seen that a while ago.

“and don’t even get me started…” she continued, digging such deep crescents into her palms that they almost bled. “fucking another desperate bitch was one thing, but then you had to go ahead and use me like some basic ass social climber? your depravity really has no damn limits.” both of their chests were heaving now. yurina’s anger was already at its peak, and keiichirou’s was steadily approaching.

(for whatever fucking reason.)

“oh my god…” keiichirou sounded exasperated. yurina’s heard this one before. “well, maybe i wouldn’t have had to do that if you weren’t so damn clingy!”

it was as if her entire world came to a screeching halt.

yurina’s heterochromic eyes were as wide as saucers now. did he… really just…? his words were so achingly familiar that it hurt. it stung. but most of all, it made her angry. fire lit on the tip of her tongue, setting her words—her emotions—ablaze.

“oh, fuck you!” yurina screeched. she took a step forward for the first time since she entered that hallway, then another, and another… until she was standing right in front of him. and she shoved him with all her might, pouring every bit of her anger into that one movement. keiichirou was nearly sent tumbling, and yurina would be lying if she said that she didn’t want to see him bust his shit.

“so now you want to turn this on me?!” she exclaimed. “oh, this is rich. this is so fucking rich… you’re just like him, you asshole! you’re just like my fucking father! and you know what’s real funny? i told you. you knew what he did. i trusted you! and you know what your sorry ass did? you did the same fucking thing. and you did it to me! go fuck yourself!”

yurina’s throat was raw as she spat out those last three words. her chest was heaving, and her eyes burned with tears. but this time, they weren't for the loss of her “perfect” relationship, or for what could’ve been. they were for herself.

(finally.)

“yurina… i’m…” keiichirou said, his voice now reduced to a mere whisper. it was a far cry from before, and it made yurina so angry. “i’m sorry.”

“no you’re not. you’re not fucking sorry.” yurina whispered, her voice shaky with tears that she didn’t want to come. “you’re only sorry because you got caught, keiichirou. you’re only sorry because you didn’t get the chance to squeeze me for everything that i was worth. you’re only sorry for yourself. you’re only sorry because you got fucking caught!”

yurina shoved a vase off of a table, its green porcelain shattering and spreading across the freshly polished floors. keiichirou flinched, staring at his ex-girlfriend with fear in his eyes.

all of this was painfully familiar, and the shattering of that vase brought yurina right back to three years ago. her, fifteen years old, peeking from behind a wall and watching as her father shattered a glass table. watching as her mother flinched with such fear. back then, she thought that her mother didn’t deserve that. back then, she thought that she would never become her father.

and now here she was, shattering vases just like dear old dad.

but looking at the boy she used to love, fear glossing over his features, yurina didn’t feel like she felt three years ago. she didn’t feel pity or remorse. in fact, she felt as if keiichirou deserved it. in fact, she felt as if he deserved worse.

“it’s funny. hilarious even, because you really thought you won. you really did.” yurina spoke, her voice simmering down into an emotion that was far too unreadable. “but guess what? you’re a fucking idiot, yatarou keiichirou.”

they stared at each other again, the thick silence dragging on, and on, and on. and once again, yurina was the one to break it.

“get out, keiichirou.” she said, her voice as flat as it was at the beginning. “i never want to see your ass again.”

he tried to protest, his mouth falling open and broken words falling out of them. his desperate attempt at damage control (or rather, his desperate attempt to save his own ass) made yurina so furious, she almost broke something else.

“get out!” she screamed. at that point, she could’ve coughed up blood. keiichirou flinched again, and with one last heartbroken look (fucking liar) and one last attempt at choking out some sappy bullshit that he didn’t even mean, he turned around and left.

and not once did he look back.

that made everything so much easier.

yurina stood there, hand on the table, staring at the pieces of shattered porcelain that dotted the floors with glossy eyes. she didn’t even realize that she was crying until her tears hit the ground. the teenager hastily tried to wipe them away, but they just kept coming. a choked sob fell from her lips, and another… and another, until there were just too many to count.

(why? why the fuck was she crying?)

yurina sank to the floor, where she buried her face into her knees and sobbed. and as if it was a miracle, her mother came up just moments later.

(bless her perfect timing.)

kamako stared at her daughter, utterly heartbroken for the second time, and it took everything in her not to begin crying herself. she didn’t have the heart to tell yurina that she ran into keiichirou, either, not after he was the one who caused all of this.

the woman was quiet as she sat down next to yurina, sans her gradually decreasing sobs, and silence—much more comfortable than before—settled over mother and daughter. but once yurina broke it, her voice was hoarse. raw. chocked so full of emotion that it broke kamako’s heart.

“i’m sorry, mom.” yurina whispered. her mother sighed, leaning her head on her baby’s shoulder. “i’m sorry, too.” she echoed, her voice thick with tears as she ran her hand over her daughter’s hair. just like she had done so many times before.

meanwhile, yurina continued to stare at the floor, thoughts running rampant within her head yet again.

she was right.

the world really did come back and bite her in the ass.

-

months had gone by since then, and now, college admissions were around the corner.

yurina had applied for nearly every ritzy, elite college under the sun, and it was no surprise that she was a shoo-in for all of them (she had the highest exam scores out of her entire class, for god’s sake). she had her eye on an ivy league one in the states, or in some posh one for typical aristocratic children in england. despite that, however, yurina was unsure if college was even for her anymore.

her entire life, that’s what she’d been looking forward to. her entire life, she’d been groomed for that. graduate, go to a good—no, great—college, show off how good the family is, and then we’ll drag you right back. that’s all her life was.

but now, did she even care?

(no. no she didn’t.)

for the last few months, yurina’s mind was stuck on keiichirou (again, jesus fucking christ). she had been so angry since their “relationship” ended in a screaming match, and it was slowly starting to consume her whole. ever since then, her thoughts were only getting darker.

the only thing on yurina’s mind was revenge. that keiichirou couldn’t live knowing that he ruined everything. it made her so mad. how could he go on with his life when he had ruined hers? how? it was all his fault, and he just got to forget that it ever happened? the mere thought of him—going off, getting that prized sports scholarship that he droned on and on about to her just months ago, and replacing her with that bitch—pissed yurina off. he got to live his life, while yurina spent months wondering where it all went fucking wrong.

and one day, it dawned upon her.

if yurina didn’t get to live her life, then keiichirou didn’t either.

he never fucking deserved it, anyways.

so she unblocked his number, calling him again for the first time since summer break began. hearing his voice (his stupid, grating voice) made her want to scream, but she plastered on a stiff smile and made her voice so sickly sweet, it was almost disgusting. and just like keiichirou had, she lied.

yurina told him that she heard that he had gotten that little scholarship, and that she was so proud of him. she told him that even though their relationship crashed and burned, she just wanted to congratulate him. and when he began to get skeptical, she just played up her charm. like always.

that had him agreeing in a heartbeat.

(what a fucking fool.)

they met in an alleyway. in one of those posh shopping districts in downtown kyoto. where she and keiichirou used to go all the time, and where he used to plow through his father’s credit card just for her. it was such sick irony for yurina to choose a place like that.

she had a big blue shopping bag in her manicured hands, keiichirou’s favorite color. it had a little gift in it, something from his favorite brand.

(sad that he would never get to take it home, though.)

yurina gave him the biggest hug once she saw him, and keiichirou never even realized that she was faking it. she stared at him with a smile that was almost unsettling, and he had no clue that his stupid scholarship wouldn’t matter after yurina was done with him.

“was it hard?” yurina asked, her sweet tone such a far cry from how she normally spoke. from how she had spoken to keiichirou months before.

“huh?” keiichirou asked, snapping himself out of the sort of daze he had been in. “oh, no. of course not. i was one of the two out of the entire team to get awarded it, actually.” yurina’s unsettling smile grew. she was pretending that she cared. pretending that she was proud of him. just like he had done the entire time.

“that’s nice.” yurina said, her voice soft. “i never knew that.” there was a pout in her voice, but she knew exactly why she didn’t know. and keiichirou knew, as well.

(looks like he didn’t want to admit it, though.)

(coward.)

“uh… yeah.” he said, as hesitant as always. yurina hummed, and silence fell over them again. it seemed as if there was a lot of that between them recently. the ravenette sighed through her nose, placing the bag down without saying a word. all keiichirou did was watch.

“well, kei, i just wanted to give you this.” yurina spoke. “and a little… something else, too.”

before keiichirou had a chance to process the fact that yurina just called him “kei” for the first time in forever, she placed a hand onto his cheek, her nails grazing his skin. and before he had a chance to process that…

“i hope you know that you deserve this, sweetie.”

…he felt a knife plunge through his chest.

blood erupted from the wound, painting yurina’s cheek red. and keiichirou felt so much pain, his steely gray eyes blown open with pure shock. before he had a chance to bring a shaky hand to his injury, yurina stabbed him again. and again. and again. and again.

keiichirou’s eyes dulled, and yurina could see the life leaving him as the seconds passed. she kept going, and before she knew it, she stabbed right through his face. it was so bloody, but yurina didn’t stop. her jaw was clenched with anger, and hot tears clouded her vision just as much as the blood was. and as her sobs mixed with her screams, her rage—her sheer need for revenge—was the only thing pushing her forward.

and then, all of a sudden, it all simmered down. keiichirou fell to the ground.

dead.

yurina stepped back, staring down at the body of her ex-boyfriend with cold, dead eyes. she aggressively wiped the tears that stained her cheeks away, smearing the blood of the boy she used to love across her face. despite that, though, memories that she thought she had shoved to the deepest corners of her mind assaulted her yet again.

tears stung her eyes, and she wiped them away again. she tried so hard not to think about what they had. about everything they did. about how it was all doomed from the start, and how she would never get it back now. she tried, but it just kept coming back.

(but why? she was free now. why was she crying?)

yurina looked at the face of her ex-boyfriend. of yatarou keiichirou. a face she used to beam at and smother in kisses. a face that had her lighting up every time she saw it. it was now mangled beyond recognition, smeared in blood and gaping stab wounds. the boy that greeted her with hugs that lasted a lifetime was now dead in an alleyway. a faceless corpse. just another statistic.

(oh, how it derailed so quickly.)

yurina dried her tears again, merging into the dull brick of the wall behind her. her eyes never left the body of the boy who used to be the center of her universe.

when she said she never wanted to see his ass again, she meant it.

-

it had been a month since keiichirou died. since yurina killed him.

in that time, she had gotten his little slut, too. but unlike keiichirou, not a tear was shed over her. what was interesting, however, is that keiichirou’s parents had no idea that yurina and their darling son had broken up. they (foolishly) thought that she was just as distraught as them at the news of keiichirou’s murder, and she sure acted that way once they met up for dinner. they went on and on about how he had so much to live for, about how he was so close to getting into the college he had always dreamed of. and as much as yurina wanted to roll her eyes at every word, she simply nodded along, shed a few calculated tears, and spouted out the lie that she “wished he was here now.”

(hilarious.)

the funeral was in a few weeks, and of course, yurina was expected to attend. in the meantime, however, she had other things to do.

yurina closed the door behind her as quietly as she could manage, drunkenly leaning against it. one of her “friends” (or rather, one of her braindead followers) drove her home, but she was surprised that she didn’t collapse in the middle of the courtyard. the teenager let out a deep sigh, internally pleading for her pounding headache to just leave her alone.

stumbling into the kitchen, yurina swung open the refrigerator, leaning her scorching forehead onto its cool surface. her clouded eyes scanned over its contents, and it took everything in her not to snatch up her mother’s thousand dollar bottle of wine.

she opted for a tub of ice cream, instead. freshly bought and still unopened. it was vanilla, too. yurina grabbed a spoon, stuck a spoonful into her mouth, and slid down the counter.

the ravenette was almost in a daze as she shoved ice cream into her mouth, plowing through nearly half of it without even realizing. she stared off into the darkness, and the only thing preventing her from going completely mad was the endless drone of thoughts festering within her mind. yurina thought back to everything that had happened to her within the past year, and to where she was now. drunk, exhausted, and trying her hardest not to cry.

(binging, too. she would have to throw it up later.)

a boy that loved her unconditionally turned out to be a liar and a cheater (she’s heard this story before), and a lovesick (idiot) little girl turned into a heartbroken woman—a murderer—who couldn’t give two shits about love.

yurina sighed. she was right back to her old ways, huh?

looks like one slow decline really did begin another.

[withoutrunes]

More Montwise Magnificence

Oh my GOD

So Montwise  Montwise, the city where you find BOTH of THESE people.

That’s the former champion- a brutally powerful NPC you can fight to get a red chest and a hidden item- and Bandelam, the current champion in Hikari’s Chapter Two Montwise route, who is the chapter boss.

As it turns out, after the arena has been cleared and changed...

There is yet MORE bullshit in Montwise regarding the arena champs.

So this woman, Yurinas, comes up to the party, and asks for help.  Her childhood friend, who is so very precious to her, is trying to join the tournament to earn some money.  He hopes to use it for him and Yurinas.  Yurinas, though, knows that he’s kinda useless in a fight, and is afraid he’ll get hurt or even killed in the arena- while things have improved since the days when Bandelam was champ, it’s still a fighting arena and people still get hurt.

So she asks you to stop a guy from being in the tournament.  You do- you can knock him out with Throne or with Castti, and there’s probably other ways to do it- but then you get forcefully recruited to fight the champion yourself to make up for the missing guy. 

The champion who, at the time you do the quest, will almost certainly flatten you.

Afterwards, you go into the arena’s backrooms, where the Champion...

Takes off her helmet.

Yurinas, the quest giver, turns out to be the champion.  She didn’t want him to find out, which he inevitably would if they fought.

This is her info, which is a BITCH to get a hold of- and only AFTER you face her in the tournament!

Montwise is a wild ass place.  Also remarkably progressive; of the three arena champs we know of in Montwise, two of them have been women!  Though notably, only the Former Champion is not a sword wielder- both Bandelam and Yurinas use a sword, but if I recall correctly, the Former Champion wields a spear.

[euxeris]

Ranking Milgram Trial 1 Cover Songs

Hibana - I think I'm kind of biased bc Es is my favorite but OH MY GOD round of applause for Yurina Amami. Es's voice is so lovely in this song and shows both softness and power! Love it!

Otome Dissection - MUU NEVER MISSES. rare W from the French. Arisa Kori strikes again.

Liar Dance - it's just a bop. Shidou's voice fits this so well and it's just catchy. I'd never heard this song before Milgram and it was a good first impression.

Mozaik Role - ...Fuuta I'll give credit when it's due. His cover is so good it actually makes me want to get up and roll around on my bedroom floor. However he could never beat my gf Muu.

Anti Beat - Aimi has the most lovely voice. Also the key that this song is in made me cry tears of joy. It's so good, Kotoko is so cool I just love it all. She got below Fuuta purely bc I like Mozaik Role better...

Two Breaths Walking - SHUN HORIE DOES IT AGAIN. I don't know why this cover is so much lower than I expected, but I truly do love it a lot. Haruka never fails to get the best songs.

Monopoisoner - ...I've listened to this song like once and genuinely forgot what it sounded like. I do remember that the instrumental is a bop though. And of course, you could never go wrong with Hanae Natsuki

Cowardly Montblanc - Ngl I was going to put him higher but I realized I never listen to his song help- Kazui you madman love you and your youness.

Psychogram - people ask why Mahiru got guilty when this was the cover song - but she devoured Psychogram, truly! I just wish the instrumental was a bit heavier bc that's what I really appreciated about the song.

Sticky Bug - it feels criminal to rank Yuno's cover this low. it's the pafu pafu Nya Nya song... I feel ashamed, but I promise you that I love this song a lot.

Positive Parade - Nothing's wrong with it? But it doesn't stick out to me? Sorry Amane... you are amazing though keep girlbossing.

[11queensupreme11]

If you could give all your OCs Visions, what would they be

Did not read the pjo fic on quotev i uh

was watching fairy tail at that point and yelling at Laxus because he is Kind Of A Jerk

oooh i like this question! there’s this ongoing discussion about how characters get their visions based on the personality, so going off on that... 

here’s the most common descriptions of all 7 visions that I could find: 

Pyro: determination and passion

Geo: unusually hardworking almost to the extreme, but very perseverant 

Hydro: has a strong set of values/personal belief system

Cryo: suffers from internal conflict; duality 

Anemo: doesn’t believe in themselves, always unsatisfied with current achievements and believes they could do better

Electro: views world differently than the others; unique

Dendro: obsessive(?) drive to achieve their goal and be done with it

^ Those were all copy-pasted from various sites that I found. I’m not sure how accurate those are though... 

Now onto my OCs! Uh.... so, I have a lot of OCs but 99% of them come from unpublished WIPs 🤡

In chronological order....

Shiina Todoroki from Steal Her Heart: pyro (and if it could be blue flames like Dabi, then that’d be even better)

Esmerelda Black from the Aletheia series: geo

Étienne Rosier from the Aletheia series: electro

Erina Bogdanovic from Beauty and the Beast (abandoned WIP): cryo

Cecilia Miyano from Missing Pieces (WIP): anemo

Yurina Katsuno from Love Shot!: geo

Midori Murayama from Adore U: anemo

Sunhee Cheon from Lady Liberty (abandoned WIP): hydro

Mizuhime Uchiumi from Tsunami: hydro (duh, she’s literally a water manipulator)

Daneliya Bolatova from Want You Back (WIP): dendro

Celine Dietrich from The Price of Perfection (WIP): pyro

Euphrasia from Girl Almighty (WIP): hydro

AND OMG LAXUS??? 

BRO I HAD A HUGE CRUSH ON HIM WHEN I USED TO WATCH FAIRY TAIL! 😭😭😭 he’s just so huge and buff and 🥴

[duckydae]

what are your favourite 'created for television' songs? like survival show mission songs, not osts. i feel like i never see people talking about them outside of the context of the show

quickfire 'signal song' ranking

o.o.o - girls planet

here i am - boys planet

just dance - mixnine (the show was a trip but this song is so good)

nekoya - produce 48

nayana - produce

same, same but different - my teenage girl (i didn't watch the show but the theme song was good)

if a theme song ain't here it means i haven't seen it or i hated it

some of my favourites are:

sixteen (twenty-fifteen)

do it again + going crazy

i have a soft-spot for these two and as someone who biased sana from the sixteen days it was great to hear her actually have lines before the twice version came out

produce series one / two (twenty-sixteen / seventeen)

don't matter + pretty girl

i didn't really enjoy most of the produce battle songs, they just felt derivative or each other and they are objectively good songs. these were the only two that really caught my attention, especially 'don't matter' which just had the right kind of bite to it - but i'm always a sucker for a jazz influence. though to be fair i didn't watch series two. also, series one's signal song sucks ass.

produce 48 (twenty-eighteen)

you're in love, aren't you? + rumour

y'all have no idea, but i cried tears of joy when yena came out as centre position as not only was it my preferred finale song but my from the first episode one-pick got centre! also chowon's "madewa~" is truly iconic.

'rumour' was the best of a bad bunch for me.

under nineteen (twenty-eighteen)

shooting star!

i'm really surprised i like 'shooting star' because mbc survival show music ain't really for me but there's just something about this one (probably seunghwan)

queendom one (twenty-nineteen)

destiny + lion

'lion' was the first g-idle song i ever heard (i'd maybe heard 'latata' in passing) so i was blown away by their performance as i'd began watching after the show had aired for aoa but came out of it loving mamamoo + g-idle. *also, oh my girl's cover of lovelyz 'destiny' is still one of my favourite survival show covers.

good girls (twenty-twenty)

witch!

i watched good girls for 'witch'. i'm a sone and it got randomly recommended to me and because i saw hyoyeon, ailee and jamie in the cast (who i didn't actually recognise at first) i figured i'd give it a go.

i implore you all to watch it (if you can get past jamie's nails on a chalkboad aave usage) because it's got a great cast and sleeq's whole arc is brilliant and whilst i think the girls struggle to fully embrace her, making a point to bring attention to queer issues and feminism on mnet of all places is truly applaudable (her reaction to hyoyeon is also me.)

girls planet 999 (twenty-twenty)

snake + u+me=love

until recently i didn't ever think i could love a survival show cast as much as i loved the girls of girls planet.

produce48 was a trip and i barely remember watching it because i watched all twelve eps in one sitting (i know) right after it had wrapped but girls planet...

the signal song's piano version still makes me tear up.

'snake' and 'u+me' are just such incredible songs and whilst i don't mind the other two (i'm still pissed we missed out on luofei, bora, reina and yurina in 'utopia') they just don't have the same bite.

'snake' was everything it needed to be and 'u+me' was everything i never imagined it being.

also shine? team two? tears of joy. (switch shana + myah with yurina + yujin - or don't and team two i would've been very happy with that debut group)

girls planet also has my one of my favourite ballad covers on a survival show, 'missing you' by btob (the other being p48 itnw)

queendom two (twenty-twenty-two)

pose + red sun

i actually really enjoyed all the new songs on queendom two (as much of a trash dumpster it was) these two were just my favourites.

the other songs have sections or parts that i really like ('the girls' + 'ka-boom' bridges) but the two highlighted i loved the whole songs.

*'the girls' also sounds very much like exo's 'can't bring me down' like seriously, if you like one you'll enjoy the other.

and 'red sun' was a repurposed gfriend song so i'm not surprised i liked it.

'pose' was just perfect for loona (coming from someone who is very hit-or-miss with their discography)

the only songs i didn't love were wjsn's, it just wasn't for me and as much as i loved the message of brave girls, their vocals are not for me at all.

boys planet (twenty-twenty-three)

en garde + over me + jelly pop

'en garde' is immaculate. seunghwan vocal redemption, hiroto screentime (kinda), me loosing the idgaf war with gunwook, hui stopped showboating. (though he didn't have to take his ego-bruise out on seunghwan.)

here's my thing with 'over me' i like the song, i do but i'd be lying if i told you jay's vocals weren't doing the heavy lifting. i'm an exo-l, sexy r'n'b songs don't do jack shit for me if your vocals aren't up to scratch because it's nothing i haven't heard before and jay truly makes 'over me' stand out - as much as i love hao.

phanbin stared into my fucking soul during his 'jelly pop' floor entrance with jay and it is one of the hottest shit i've ever seen on a variety show and then to come out and shake his cute little ass? duality people. he was also styled immaculately.

i honestly like all the artist battle and finale songs, these are just my favourites.

(i'll add queendom puzzle when the series wraps)

honourable mentions!

show me - tea party - imidation (2021)

dancing king - exo ft. yoo jaesuk (2016)

[pastelrose-vivi]

June 2022 Comeback/Debut Ranking

17. Like A Diamond- Kang Hyewon (feat. Stella Jang

I’m so glad that she’s making music solo, I love her voice and I was worried that she would pursue an acting career post-Izone. However, I would really like it if she released something other than a ballad lol. I just don’t really like them.

16. Yet To Come- BTS

I’m looking forward to their solo work during their hiatus and I liked the message of this song a lot. However,,, I just didn’t like the song itself. Not my vibe

15. Pop!- bugAboo

A solid first comeback from them! I like their debut better though, because this song feels so flat. Every section feel the same as the others except the post chorus which is just eh anyway. I look forward to their future work!

14. Flip That- Loona

I was looking forward to Loona’s return to a bright concept so much,,, I just wish it was executed differently. The song feels so empty (in a bad way) and the b-sides don’t stand up to their previous work. Frankly I wish they’d stay with their girl crush stuff if this is what their dreamlike concept is because I also don’t like Butterfly, but I know this is an unpopular opinion. We’ll see what they do next!

13. Crazy- Wonho

Not my favorite of his songs, but still solid! He’s got a vibe and he’s sticking to it.

12. Stay This Way- Fromis_9

Fromis are doing a good job for themselves under Hybe, I’m happy for them. The song feels a little bit flat but it’s a more chill song so it works better than in other songs.

11. Ring The Alarm- Kard

I’ve been waiting for their return! I’m glad that they’re back and it seems like they’re doing even better than before the hiatus. Not an exceptional song but still a solid Kard banger.

10. Cherish- Kawaguchi Yurina

A very quick comeback from Yurina! I think I prefer Look At Me but a very sweet song nonetheless

9. Villain- Pixy

I’ve been waiting for a Pixy comeback, but unfortunately it didn’t fully live up to my expectations. I want to love it and it may grow on me in the future but as of right now, I only like it

8. Pop!- Nayeon

The first solo debut from Twice! The song fits her so well. The b sides let me down a bit but it is just her first solo project so we’ll see where she goes.

7. Circus- Stray Kids

Stray Kids’ Japanese tracks have been hit or miss for me but this was definitely a hit. I love the concept.

6. Hit Ya!- Lapillus

Another GP999 debut! And another solid girl group debut from this year. I know people didn’t like the empty chorus and instrumental second verse but I really enjoyed it, I thought it worked. I like the new trend with girl group debuts for the song to feel more like an intro than, like, an actual song. I think Le Sserafim and NMixx fall under this category too.

5. Undo- Heize

Big fan of the city pop vibe here. Heize will alway deliver great music.

4. Up!- Kep1er

I really liked the concept change! They pulled it off just as well as they did Wa Da Da. I loved the rap sections, truly my favorite parts of the song.

3. Loca Loca- Kang Soyeon

I hadn’t realized she was a singer when I saw her on Singles Inferno, but she’s a really good one. I hope she releases more music because this song slaps but I know she already has a different career.

2. Heartburn- Sunmi

So happy to hear new music from her, and she did not disappoint. Sunmi never misses.

1. Love Shhh!- Jo Yuri

I’m surprised at how high this one is. I wasn’t a big fan of Glassy but I wanted to check out her next song anyway even if I didn’t have high expectations, but she blew my expectations out of the water. I have been replaying this song so much since it came out

Top 5 B-sides

1. Attention-Kep1er

2. No Problem- Nayeon (feat. Felix)

3. Le Voya9e- Kep1er

4. Candyfloss- Nayeon

5. Pale Blue Dot- Loona

[googoojeu]

so,,,,,,, i said that i finished three fics in a day,,,,,,,,,,,,,

and i've been silent since i posted that,,,,,,,,,,,,,, so i'm breaking my silence,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

i changed phones because my old one died,,,, problem is i wrote all my fics in my notes app,,,, i didn't transfer them to my google docs YET because i thought it wouldn't die but IT DID so i'm over here fuming because i have to start from scratch AGAIN

also,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i'm still not over yurina so that's why i haven't started writing them again anyways so

[centerxiaoting]

yurina in utopia

[sajusua]

[jeunnie]

sometimes i really wish mnet would’ve pulled a planet pass on Yurina on the last episode. she’s really missed in kep1er

[sxxft-yoon]

my opinions about gp999 combination mission performances

DISCLAIMER: this is just my opinion and my music taste, please respect it and be nice!💕

•we are• original song: we are - woo won jae line-up: kim bora, wen zhe, nagai manami

my opinion: i might be biased but YES they had the fun part, the personal part, the iconic chorus, everything without even being rappers. so much respect to all three, because they all nailed it and manami might be my new jpick!

mvp: nagai manami (j-group)

•no excuses• original song: no excuses - megan trainor line-up: yang zige, kim suyeon, ezaki hikaru

my opinion: facial expressions on point, choreography is cool and nice, suyeon's flip is impressive and i'm proud that she did it even though she struggled before and that's it i guess...not many ,,wow" factors, but a nice performance overall.

mvp: kim suyeon (k-group)

•missing you• original song: missing you - btob line-up: kubo reina, kawaguchi yurina, leung cheukying, zhou xinyu, lee hyewon, an jeongmin

my opinion: damn. so many amazing vocalists here, i don't think i can pick one mvp! an jeongmin's voice is heavenly and REINAAAAAA oh my gosh. i'm impressed by yurina's vocals, she's a good singer but to be honest, i would love the performance even more if hyewon and yurina switched parts haha the c-girls did a really nice job rapping too!

mvp: oh damn, this was hard but kubo reina (j-group)

•ice cream•

original song: ice cream - blackpink

line-up: kim dayeon, guinn myah, huening bahiyyih, hsu nientzu, wu tammy, chen hsinwei, ikema ruan, kishida ririka, fujimoto ayaka

my opinion: oh no, getting the side to side flashbacks with underage girls doing these concepts but this was actually better than i expected! dayeon really did her best with the choreo and i can gurantee that she won't stay 9th. i think ruan overdid the facial expressions but i won't be mad at her ok? lol overall, a nice performance and tammy's energy!!!!

mvp: kim dayeon (k-group)

•vvs•

original song: vvs - miranni, munchman, khundi panda, mushvenom

line-up: lee chaeyun, liang jiao, kamimoto kotone

my opinion: oh dear, here we go. this is objectively the worst performance of this round even though it hurts me to say that because kotone was lit. jiao, what were you thinking going for rap when you have no experience in rapping? funny thing is, they're saying they aren't cute but in reality, cute is the only way to describe this...it's sad but this is a no-no. respect for trying tho.

mvp: kamimoto kotone (j-group)

•all about you•

original song: all about you - taeyeon

line-up: choi yeyoung, huang xingqiao, sakurai miu

my opinion: i didn't expect this one to be this amazing but yeah here we are! although i didn't have high expectations for xingqiao, she really did great and i think it's her best performance so far. sad that miu got no screentime but yeyoung get that angel edit!!!

mvp: choi yeyoung (k-group)

•mafia in the morning•

original song: mafia in the morning - itzy

line-up: huh jiwon, fu yaning, sakamoto mashiro

my opinion: yaning being traumatised from being a leader lol i think she absolutely slayed and this might be my favorite 3 member performance, they did so well and i didn't know jiwon can sing like this! mashiro best leader btw unpoluar but yaning singing > yaning rapping

mvp: fu yaning (c-group)

•my house•

original song: my house - 2pm

line-up: seo youngeun, wang yale, kuwahara ayana

my opinion: remember what i said about icecream? ayana is younger than me and dancing to this song. it kinda threw me off but she did good so i'll take that. yale's vocal tone is so good for this concept but the real star here is youngeun, she's an amazing singer and i sincerely hope she gets in omg!

mvp: seo youngeun (k-group)

•my sea•

original song: my sea - iu

line-up: jeong jiyoon, kim chaehyun, xu ziyin, li yiman, nonaka shana, sakamoto shihona

my opinion: nOegEee no ok sorry ;-; shana you did great! the song is ridiculously high and even though jiyoon didn't hit that high note, i think she did so well and her face at the end almost made me cry, gosh i'm so emo. chaehyun is main vocal material! and for once the judges praised the girls, finally!

mvp: nonaka shana (j-group)

•salute•

original song: salute - little mix

line-up: cai bing, chiayi, zhang luofei, kim doah, yoon jia, kim hyerim, shima moka, arai risako, hayase hana

my opinion: idk if it's just me, a cute concept enthusiast, but ice cream was better than this. i think they all tried to overshadow each other and were stressed about the caibing situation that they couldn't have that great enegry i wanted to see. i think it was cool and all that but again, nothing ,,wowed" me that much

mvp: cai bing (c-group)

•fate•

original song: fate - lee sunhee

line-up: choi yujin, kang yeseo, su ruiqi, shen xiaoting, yamauchi moana, may

my opinion: didn't notice moana at all which is sad but their expressions matched the song so well and yeseo's acting surprised me, damn i'm emo again! they definitely are the avengers of gp999, especially with dance skills like that. i wish we'd get better camerawork than zooming on xiaoting's chin tho

mvp: kang yeseo (k-group)

(only 10 images allowed so no yeseo)😭

so this is it. feel free to disagree haha

[smuttyassholes]

I think the most robbed was Yurina honestly. Looks like Da Yeon paid well (they went to her fvcking house?¿) and bought her spot - successfully kicking Yuri out. So Rui Qi was robbed af too. After she performed The Eve by EXO she showed how much versatility she had. The only other robbed one for my was my baby Myah. She has really strong visuals and improved a lot.

Honestly the line up is shameless.

Chaehyun - only got picked because of her looks.

Bahiyyih - only got picked because of her brother and sister.

Yujin - only got picked because she’s Yujin.

Dayeon- if she didn’t pay, it’s because mnet played favorites.

Youngeun - is genuinely talented and should be protected at all costs.

Yeseo- only picked because she looks like Jungkook

Mashiro - already had an album out or something I think. I kind of ignored her though the whole show by accident.

Hikaru & Shen Xiao Ting - were the PM’s favorites from the beginning

No one that actually put EFFORT into their time there go to debut.

Aight, imma go through the members and throw in my unwanted two cents. But I know for damn sure Dayeon didn't pay because homegirl's from Jellyfish, they ain't go no god damn money, and if they do, it goes to the boy groups (Love vixx and verivery though, don't get me wrong.)

Chaehyun - Deserved to debut, but definitely not as the center. She'd be a great sub vocal to the group, main even but I personally like Youngeun's voice better. Eighth or ninth would've been better. Xiaoting deserved.

Bahiyyih - You said it, you meant it, and I stand by it. Especially because how high her rank was when it's never been that high. I think she could've used more trainee time. Her voice is nice and all, but the stage presence really lacks for me. I forget she's there. I hope she can grow the same way Hyewon and Sohye did, but honestly, I can't with her right now. Mnet wanted someone's fanbase to rely on and I think that's the only reason she got planet pass. Doah should've got that, though. Fight me on it. Replaced Yurina.

Yujin - Deserved her spot in my opinion. I liked her in CLC but she had a point when she said she felt invisible. She never stood out to me. The cute concepts definitely suited her and I think her main vocal part in "Shoot" added to her hype. Love her.

Dayeon - Mnet played favorites too hard. The "masters" obviously didn't pick her for a reason. I love her, don't get me wrong, but we really can't ignore that she made it that high because they made Cai Bing look like a bitch. Like, girl's got it all but it never would've been highlighted if Cai Bing didn't fall. I think mnet wanted her that high to show that whoever gets ranked first ends up debuting or something. Probably didn't want the masters to look like idiots for ranking her first just for her to not make it.

Youngeun - Would die for her. I'm solo stanning for her. Will be buying her photocards in place of albums.

Yeseo - Gotta disagree because she does have her fanbase from her group. Didn't really see it coming though since she hasn't been that high in a while. Would've preferred to see her go back to Busters so they could get some spotlight time. But I like her so I'm not really pressed. Replaced Ruiqi in my opinion.

Mashiro - That leadership, bless. Homegirl's a blessing. Talented, yes, but I think the hype came from her being "ex-jyp" and how Yeji said some stuff about her a week or two ago. And when she performed MITM, there were some articles about how she only chose it to show jyp and itzy "what they're missing". Y'know what they say, any publicity counts. But I saw her coming around this rank.

Hikaru - Deserved it but her initial spot as J01 probably helped. Honestly, when she did that one song during the creation mission, I kinda hated it. But she's consistent and we stan that.

Xiaoting - My poor baby was really used as "see, we ARE global" card in the end and I hate it. Didn't stand out in Chuang2020 (also why Ruiqi should've debuted. Her fans doubled from what they were in that show) and most likely wouldn't have lasted long here if not for her C01 spot. She is consistent. Never once showed something that she didn't eat up. Mnet used her definitely.

I think mnet knew this would flop like crazy and no wonder they had an announcement about bringing back Produce a few weeks ago.

Anyways, stan Youngeun ✌😗

- asshole 4

[cjmoved]

i miss her (yurina)