#i remember the road trip and the snowball fight at a mcdonald's. i remember exploring the campus late at night. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

andromeda3116 · 2 years

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for some unfathomable reason, i've been thinking a lot lately about this insane comedic original story i started when i was first at college and didn't have internet, way back in 2008, and i went back and tracked it down (on Ye Olde LiveJournal, which hauntingly still exists in the aether) and like. i still kinda have a fondness for it. it's ridiculous and extremely 2008, both in terms of being dated and in terms of who i was a person then, but i still kinda wish i'd ever finished it. the idea has milled about in my head of actually handling the concept now, as an adult, but tbh, i don't think it would really translate into my style now. it just exists as an artifact of my sense of humor circa age seventeen.

i can still remember being the person who wrote it, sitting in that dorm at that desk on that dinosaur laptop and you know, sometimes i still miss her.

#i think about that first semester-and-a-half of college sometimes and i ache #that was the me with the full scholarship and a bright future #the me who was a theatre major; who went to parties and had friends; who had no cares in the world and so little fear #the me before the fall; or more accurately the me between the falls when i thought i was rising #it was just an illusion of course; in retrospect i see that it was always inevitable #but i still remember that girl with some fondness in spite of her cringe #she was clueless - it was falling but she thought she was flying and it did really feel so good to fly #the last three months of 2008 and first three months of 2009 were the best stretch of my life #everything felt possible. i felt invincible. like a character in a story surrounded by friends having minor adventures #i remember the road trip and the snowball fight at a mcdonald's. i remember exploring the campus late at night.#i remember climbing the ladder to the fly system. sneaking onto the roof. peanut-butter-and marshmallow-cream sandwiches.#i remember driving home on the highway with the windows down singing ''born to run''#my second run at college (the successful one) ended up being much lonelier and more disappointing. not the fun college au of that first try #don't mind me i'm just feeling a little nostalgic and remorseful

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