#i should be doing homework but i cant stop thinking of the Ari and Dante and then I made this

[wormstacheangel]

Cas is drunk

"Just...one kiss. How do you know you don't like boys if you haven't kissed one?"

"I just do."

"Come on." Cas walked in between Dean's legs, a dumb smile on his lips. "Just one kiss."

"Dude, we said no kissing. One of the first rules I gave you when you came out to me."

"Rules are meant to be broken. We break them all the time!"

Cas reached over to cradle Dean's head. Watching him with a soft look as his fingertips touched him so gently. Nothing like the way he has been touched before but that's what Cas does. He knows him the way nobody ever tried to know him. But he's only his best friend.

"Cas-"

"Shhh," Cas tells him, his eyes brows knitting together as his eyes are locked on his lips. A thumb softly brushed his lower lip before Cas started to lean in. "One kiss."

Dean didn't move. Didn't stop him. Cas kissed him once. Twice. Three times and Dean wasn't sure if he was kissing him back but he forced his arms to stay on his side.

"Anything?" Cas asked when he finally did pull away. A faraway look on his eyes with a blush from the kiss or the alcohol he didn't know. 

"Nope."

"Well, at least we got one thing from it."

"What?"

"I got to kiss the boy I'm in love with."

"Whatever, dude." Dean gently shoved him away as Cas laughed before ordering another beer for both of them.

It took three weeks for Dean to finally forget the tingle of the kiss on his lips.

-

He knocked at Cas's door

"Dean."

"Hey, Cas."

"Finally done ignoring me."

"I wasn't...You didn't call me either."

"It's called giving someone space." 

"Well, that's what I was doing."

"Oh, so you weren't off in a gay panic?"

"Screw you, Cas."

"I'm sorry." He laughed. "You're still my best friend then?"

"Yeah."

"Still my person?"

Dean rolls his eyes as he stuffs his hands in his front pants pockets. "Yeah. Whatever."

"Do you wanna go out?"

Dean looked up at him. Eyebrows raised. "Like a date?"

"No, I meant just as we usually hang out but if you wanna see it as a first date-"

"Fuck you, dude."

"I mean I'm not stopping you."

They don't talk about the kiss.

Cas talks about another guy from work and Dean is happy for his best friend.

-

"Oh, I made out with Meg last weekend-"

"What? I thought you said you only liked guys?"

"Bisexual. I like everyone, dumbass."

"Then why are you obsessed with me."

"Cause while I like everyone I only love you."

"Oh." He paused. "Why do I feel like you're always teasing me."

"Cause you're dumb and easy to tease."

"Then why do you like me so much?"

"Same reason. Plus you're cute."

"Why do I put up with you?"

"Cause I'm cute."

They both laugh.

-

Dean never likes anyone Cas talks about. He doesn't know why.

"Why are you angry?"

"I'm not!"

"Is it cause I talk about Benny too much?"

"No! Why would I care about that asshole?"

"He's not an asshole! He's nice and he likes me."

"I don't want to hear that, Cas."

"Why not?"

"So what? Are you over me or whatever?"

Cas blinks at him a couple of times before his jaw sets. "No. Stupidly enough I still love you."

Dean doesn't understand the relief that floods him. 

"You know what's really annoying, Dean?" Dean doesn't answer as Cas gets too close to his face. "It's that whenever I kiss anybody - anybody at all! - I can only think of you! Do you know how frustrating that is?"

Dean doesn't answer. 

"If you can't be my best friend and be happy for me then I'm leaving."

Dean doesn't stop him. 

-

Dean gets angrier as the days pass without Cas. 

"What the hell is your problem?" Charlie yelled at him as Dean punched his bathroom mirror without thinking. He was sitting at the kitchen table with her bandaging him up. "You've been so mad lately, dude. It's scary now."

"I'm...I'm sorry. I-I don't know why."

Charlie sighed and the anger in her eyes turned to pity. "You know why, Dean. You gotta accept it now."

"What are you talking about."

"Cas."

"What about him?"

"You love him."

"No. I mean...I do but we're just-"

"No, Dean. No. You love Cas." Dean just looked at her and stared at her lips as she said, "You're in love with him."

"Why are you saying that?"

"Cause it's true."

Dean shakes his head but feels Charlie reaching over to wipe away tears from his cheek. He cries. He cried and she held him.

-

It takes a few days but Dean is standing at Cas's door again.

"Dean."

"Hey, Cas." 

Cas doesn't look like he was gonna say anything else so Dean continued.

"Can we talk?"

"If you're done being an asshole."

"I'm done."

"Good." Cas stepped aside to let Dean into his apartment. "Do you remember when we kissed?"

"I thought you said you're done being an asshole."

"Just answer me."

"Fine. Yes."

"I told you I felt nothing from it?"

Cas rolls his eyes and crosses his arms over his chest. "I remember."

"Well, I lied." 

Cas's arms squeezed closer to him as he stared back at him, confused with narrowed eyes. "What do you mean?"

"I lied." Dean stepped closer to him. Cas's eyes widened as he looked him up and down. Probably trying to figure out if he was drunk. "I lied to you, Cas."

"Dean?"

"I felt something. I haven't stopped feeling it. And I think...I think I'm okay with feeling it." Dean was now standing in Cas's personal space. "Can I ask you to kiss me again?"

Cas shook his head. "No. No, I want you to kiss me."

So Dean kissed him. Kissed him again and again. Holding him and finally letting himself accept the love Cas has been offering. Finally being able to love Cas back the way he deserved.

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