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#i shoulda just walked out but it. doesn't even register til much later cause of all the praise n cause i'm probably dissociating like hell
kindacreepy-kindaugly
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If I absolutely have to feel like shit could it at least be cause I let it happen again instead of cause I feel like I didn't do good enough
#beatin myself over the head w/ a stick like YOU. DO. NOT. NEED. HIS. APPROVAL.
#he's just tryin to dig in any insecurity he can get his goddamn hands on it doesn't mean shit
#like yea i know i'm ~ outta practice ~ cause that literally just means i'm not performin at a professional fucking level
#you couldn't tell the difference if you stopped tRYIN TO SHOVE THINGS DOWN MY FUCKING THROAT FFS
#i shoulda just walked out but it. doesn't even register til much later cause of all the praise n cause i'm probably dissociating like hell
#like. are you fucking negging me
#yes. yes he is
#or some other adjacent tactic that rly shouldn't work on me anymore but here we are
#it'd be funny if it wasn't so damn pathetic
#which is smth i say a lot lately
#i have no idea if i should like......try to give myself some credit for the few boundaries i did manage to hold
#cause i mean i did......refuse to sleep anywhere near him w/o surveillance
#especially not in the damn car cause i could end up literally anywhere
#my mistake was compromisin on the sex stuff cause when i say no it becomes a negotiation n i always end up agreeing to smth
#which woulda been fine if he didn't then go on to be a dick about that something
#n also if it wasn't pretty fucked up to take it as a negotiation startin point
#if i say i don't wanna have sex you know damn well i mean the entire thing no matter how many loopholes your definition has
#hard limits aren't the fucking startin point for a compromise they're the bottom line
#but he knows all that. he's not stupid he just doesn't care.
#meanwhile i'm a fucking idiot for lettin him get away w/ it
#i was doin so well. i mean sure i was losin my fucking mind but i wasn't even struggling not to go to him
#why can't he just fucking leave me alone if i'm not even a good fuck anymore
#spdrvent
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