#i think i needed to hear this though

[seedlessmuffins]

hi, k!

i hope you don't mind me coming here and bringing some silly information. but idk, i felt like doing it right now since you liked that post about the water and how much this element remembers and holds a piece of everything that touches it.

some people here in brazil believe that the sea is a healer. one of our national religions has a goddess called iemanjá and it is said she protects the ones connected with the sea, oceans, and water. on some special dates, people go to the sea so that it can take "all the bad energy" and bring renewal and good things to those who believe.

i know you were having rough days, my dear. and your pain is yours and unfortunately, no one knows exactly how you feel. but what i can do is offer my shoulder for you to lay your head on whenever you need it. it is a bit cold around here right now, but next time i go to the sea i'll think about you and wish you all the good things you deserve.

be happy, you have to be! a kiss on your forehead <3

hello my darling nikka 🫂

i love seeing you in my asks, and please don't apologize for sending me information about water, i love the water and i love hearing about it so much.

that belief that the water heals is something that i feel so strongly! i have never been a person who has connected with religions, but the closest thing i have felt to that connection is how i feel around water. i have grown up on a coastal city by the ocean, surrounded by lakes and rivers, and as a competitive swimmer, i have also grown up in the pool. water is my safe place, my healing place, where i have grown my community, a career, my confidence, and it is how i have gotten out of every down moment in my life. it is my lifeline, and being at a pool, lake, or ocean is an otherworldly, out-of-body experience for me.

you said that people in brazil go to the sea on special dates to let the sea take the bad energy, i kind of do something similar! on january first there is a "polar bear swim" where people gather on the beach to swim in the ocean to start the new year! it is freezing, because it is winter in canada, but it is so refreshing it feels like rebirth each time. i think ive said this here before, but every march 11 i swim 6km to support icelandic celebrations of survival.

this also reminds me of my all time favourite book, why we swim by bonnie tsui, where she says that humans swim for five reasons: survival, well-being, community, competition, and flow. this book changed by life, and ever since i have tried to be mindful about all the ways that swimming and water have impacted my life through the five pillars of the book (if you can, you should read it! definitely an amazing book). water heals! it has healed me this week for sure, it is the only reason i am still here today.

thank you so much for your kind words, darling, i don't think i will ever be able to fully articulate how much you and your support means to me. you are so wonderful, and you have a beautiful soul that lights up my life. i will take all of my well wishes for you to the ocean as well, and hope that they travel across the world from the pacific to the atlantic to reach you safely and bless you with joy-filled days to come 🫶

my infinite gratitude for this nikka, this was like comfort food for my soul and i am forever thankful i met you and that you care about me as much as i care about you 🥰💗