#i was like. oh. hey. maybe my voice isnt the most fuckin annoying worst thing in the world

[soldier-poet-king]

In the euphoria of it being Friday and getting to leave work early and go home and play bg3, I had forgotten the absolute most horrifying thing my father said to me this morning

"you're starting to sound a lot like your mother" and given my parents marriage this has the added implication of (derogatory)

I'm just ???? HELL IM IN HELL?? I am 27 how tf is my voice apparently changing, is this puberty part 2??? Like? Is it not enough that all my mother's relatives think I'm her spitting image and CONSTANTLY remind me of that fact (but ofc still retain a few distinctive features of my father like forehead/eyebrows/mouth so I can't even escape either of them in the mirror)

But no now I also apparently have to SOUND like her??? Y'know the voice in my head that fuels so much of my self loathing? As if I already didn't hate my voice because I spent my childhood being told to be quiet because I was annoying, being told my voice was grating in its pitch and intensity, etc etc etc + PLUS hating it for Gender Reasons???

Can we give a bitch a break. For once.

[shimadagans]

im furious w my coworker bs under the cut

so i have this one coworker that. i dunno whats goin on but. she’s worked at my work for about 5 months? 6 maybe? and like. I’ve only been here for a year or so but. 

when I first started, someone told me that I was doing something wrong? I’d listen. If i was unsure of something? id ask for clarification. so much, until i was afraid i was annoying all my more senior coworkers.

but this coworker of mine. she just. doesn’t. she fucks up menial tasks and then either leaves without explaining whats going on or says “oh i didnt know” to which usually someone replies “ok, just ask next time youre unsure” (she doesnt. ever)

the one thing shes good at is talking to ppl. not even like. helping ppl find things. literally just chatting. BUT not all of our job is just. talking to ppl. on the rare occasion she actually tries to help someone find something (something like 30% of the time if i had to guess) she either a) shows them something that has nothing to do with what theyre looking for or b) lies about what the thing does. 

and beyond that she doesnt do....nearly any other part of her job, at least not correctly or well. we’re supposed to like. watch “zones” of the place to watch out for stuff going on and she always....leaves hers....without telling anyone so it always a game of “where’s whatshername??” “I dunno”

she doesnt ever like. clean the place when we’re slow, which is...in our description...all she does is find the nearest coworker and start chatting. even if theyre doing something, even if theyre helping someone find something. shes so infamous for just. standing around n chatting that sometimes, when she clocks out, she just. follows another one of my coworkers around and tries to talk to her. she did this for 30 min after her shift ended one time, while Other Coworker was....yknow. working.

the back room at work is rly narrow with a countertop for a table n i always get to work before my shift starts n hang out in the back room so i can like. mentally prepare myself for being a fake social butterfly all day. n when we get shipment it goes in the back door and into the same back room. this wonderful coworker of mine happens to be receiving shipment, so i scoot my chair as close to the table thing as it can go and say “some of these boxes are real big, be careful” n not 5 minutes later she hits my back (right above my discolated disc, mind you) with a 25 pound box n goes in the most fake sounding voice ive ever fuckin heard “ohhhhh my goooood im soooooo sorry” to which i go “nah, its cool, its time for me to go clock in, im heading up”

a few days later she starts insisting she should spot me for lunch to apologize (i find out later this isnt her idea, but the idea of another (very sweet) coworker) and when i say “no thank you, not necessary” she keeps. insisting. following me around the store.

TODAY. today. she fucks me up big time.

i clock out n go to the bathroom at work which is notorious for lookin locked and not being locked and is NOT PUBLIC and only for employees/children/pregnant ppl which is A Known Rule by everyone who works here. while im in there a CUSTOMER who is neither pregnant nor a child opens the door. hey guess what, im trans and already have awfl terrible bad bad bathroom anxiety and i kinda say “whoa whoa whoa” n the guy goes “sorry!” and leaves n closes the door. I finish up n come out and guess who’s standing right outside the door n didnt do anything to stop Customer from trying to open the door? Wonderful coworker!!! she says not a word to me, just keeps chatting to whoever shes talking to. I turn to Customer and say, “Haha, sorry, yeah, it’s not a public bathroom” and he goes “oh sorry i was just trying to get some paper towels, I spilled something on the floor” which makes me LOOK at Coworker.....who knows if something spills shes supposed to clean it up and she goes “oh, right, dont worry about it” which makes me think she TOLD Customer to go into the bathroom which HE CANT DO BECAUSE RULES and didnt want to!!! clean it up herself!!! just wanted to keep talking!!! meanwhile my ass mightve been outed in the WORST WAY to a fuckin STRANGER for no good fuckin reason. thanks coworker.

I cant tell if shes purposefully fucking with me now or if shes like. THAT fuckin oblivious.