#i was rewatching black butler

[toomanyideasandfandoms]

I've been reading some of the Death Seeker Creator content, and was wondering what exactly was the appeal for them? Even if their sanity is fractured, the desire to live would be an instinctual drive for the Creator to avoid it. Then I realized: when a person is in a life or death situation, the body releases a shit-ton of chemicals into the nervous system due to the fight-or-flight response. Adrenaline, cortisol, all that junk is being flooded into the Creators system each time right before they die.

Could they have become addicted to the feeling? Is the Death Seeking Creator now the equivalent of an adrenaline junkie going to mad lengths to get their fix?

That essentially is the answer anon, relatively speaking. It's hard to fully explain it without getting into why I written this au and why (I assume) others enjoy it just as much.

The fact of the matter is, most aus I've seen, while beautifully written and amazing to read, don't really take their writing to a certain point. Like you said the will to live is instinctual, but that will can be broken. I wanted a creator that had that will broken, just at the point of no return in terms of their mental sanity.

While I know I've said there is potential healing from that state, I don't really like or want to focus on it. That part is more so for those who want a happy ending for this au.

But what I enjoy is the pure angst and horror the characters will go through, seeing the one thing they love the most and cherished to the point it was more of a cultish obsession than an actual religious faith wither into nothingness by their own hand. And my main reasons are because honestly, if I was in this sort of situation. I would be this creator. I wouldn't have that spiteful drive to live if every time I ran it only ended in another death.

Though in all likelihood, becoming a death seeking junkie would be spiteful in a way. The thought process would be "if I have to be the one who dies for the god's entertainment, I might as well make it more fun. More gruesome, more...entertaining."

I guess you could say this is just purely...whump? Is, is that the right term? I'm not familiar with it so idk please correct me. Either way this is just me wanting to take the cult side of the sagau to the next step where the characters actions have the worst case consequences. No world ending scenario, but they would prefer it to be that instead of seeing their beloved seek death before their eyes.

That's essentially my reasons, though for those reading please do not assume this means I'm mentally unwell. I am as sound as anyone else who enjoys these fics, I actively advise against getting deep into my au if you at all believe you're meant to die like this creator. You are not, your life is precious and should be taken care of with the utmost respect. Do not put those who love you into that same suffering the characters go through.

Honestly I don't even know if everything I written can fully explain the point of making and reading this au. I actually didn't expect it to pick up like it did, I was mainly dumping it for myself more than anything. I know not many like the more extreme cult aus, which is perfectly fine in all honesty. Even I want some more wholesome aus from time to time depending on my mood.

Sorry if this isn't exactly what you asked, I tend to not really focus on the logical side of things when it comes to fics and aus. I mainly just prefer to talk about ideas and potentially creative things then focus on the details such as the whys.

[chasiufan]

this was supposed to be more colorful but I figured emo dull colors would fit more cause it’s black butler

[t4toro]

they are t4t. to me

[anantaru]

sometimes zhongli gives me tanaka core 🧚🏻‍♀️

[anewp0tat0]

he's simply one hell of a nanny yes yes

[imjustmarcy]

Begging on my knees for more fans to write more dadbastian content now that the anime is back 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[lover-cook]

Sometimes half the fun of having fictional parent f/os is really funny cause sometimes you see a character who the whole fandom has the hots for meanwhile I’m here like… yep that’s my parent everyone find’s them EXTREMELY attractive

Anyways parental f/o havers imagine teasing the CRAP your parental f/o over people thirsting after them <3

[magpigment]

In my entire defense. I think it's funny 

[kyorru]

“bocchan, i threw up”

[imintobones]

POV: you are Sebastian about to get a massive blade through your back

[thatgirlonstage]

The fucking STATE of where black butler is currently available for streaming

Netflix has season 2 and ONLY SEASON 2, which is fucking hilarious

The crunch has just book of Atlantic for some reason????

Hulu has s1 & s2, the only reasonable one, but it’s still missing a bunch of it obviously

Book of circus is???? I think maybe on funimation premium rn i don’t have that one so I can’t tell for certain

And if you want to watch book of murder without resorting to the high seas god fucking help you

I’m going to end up shelling out for the blu-rays to have this mess (affectionate) of anime in physical media aren’t I

[greyslates]

rewatching black butler for the nostalgia in 2023

[nekucreates]

I’m rewatching Black Butler Book of Circus to catch back up to prepare for the newest season, and wouldn’t it be wild if Sebastian had seduced Joker instead of Beast? I think he could pull it off. I just think it’d be funny if he got Joker to be smitten with him, and maybe things could have resolved better (or not, because this arc is sad). Just a thought. I think Sebastian would be indifferent no matter what gender he seduces, as long as they’re not annoying to him like Grell (I love Grell). Give Sebastian lots of smitten admirers in each arc.

[somnas-writes]

I really appreciate how Sebastian carries Ciel around like a little ragdoll during fights.

[hakogyi]

hey remember that black butler s1 episode about the ice sculpting competition where sebastian got jealous that someone else made undertaker laugh??

did we all just forget that this violent, bloodthirsty, self-proclaimed emotionless beast got so upset about undertaker finding someone else hilarious, and realising he wasn't needed to make undertaker laugh this time. i can't stop thinking about this

[plunderingpennies]

Thinking about Eric and Alan again