#i was unsure if it was digital or watercolor at first tbh

[raveartts]

[thesem]

I picked up Rebelle for super cheap so I decided to ink and color some sketches I did back a little back (the first fanart I did for Disco Elysium actually). I was going to do these in watercolor irl, but decided to try out the program. I’d have to get used to it, but it’s pretty nice. Unsure about the inking tbh. But I’m just not a fan of most digital inking programs haha

[windydrawallday]

ART SUMMARY 2022

I know you all here didn't see a big chunk of these but I want to make a tradition to track it here too x'D.

... what a freaking year this was. I-- I admit I had moments I didn't know I would make it this far because tbh stuff irl happened (that I just chatted with a few friends about, I'm not ready to say it in public), and... it was all hard. Harder than I thought it would be, AGH. But if there's one thing this year left me is: if you wish to see the things you want, DO IT. Do it in your own way, at your own pacing. Take the risk, and dive into new things even if you feel unsure or scared because you never tried them before. And yeah, most of the time you will be on your own and it feels so discouraging but... then when? If you wait for it, you will probably DIE before seeing it become true. ALRIGHT, IT SOUNDS TOO EXTREME but I'm not lying about it. The truth hurts, but this truth teaches too. Back to the art before I cry over the keyboard: I'm really proud of all these pieces. I switched styles like wildfire but I learned to perfection many and gosh, regain and surpass old techniques like digital watercolors. Same feeling for all the sketches that were left as WIPs haha. I think this is the first time I can say that because I usually feel guilty about hoarding so much unfinished stuff. (And well, there's unfinished stuff I'm guilty about but it doesn't overshadow all the stuff I did!). All I want is to... KEEP BEING BRAVE and tackle stuff instead of waiting for it. No more waiting: I'LL MAKE MY OWN and I will enjoy it and put a smile on each one that finds me through it!. I will step on the spotlight and try to not run from it like I always did all my life. All of that makes me feel dizzy and/or I'm waiting to be executed but haha NO, WINDY! You need it. It will do good for me. ... and do backgrounds cheeses loui Windy, it's time to learn to do those hahaha. And... thank you for being there. You all know how you contributed to help me reach this far. Small or big, everything counts. More for someone like me that has few of everything but because of that, I treasure everything. I wish you all an incredible year and, whatever happened -or not- this 2022 for you, I hope you keep fighting to make your dreams true too!.

～ Windy Drawallday

[bastardmotherfucker]

alright alright: this is the plan I think and tbh I'm unsure how realistic it is & also of my time frame. but within the next two years I need to really be able to hold a job up -- enough to at least make as much as i get from disability, so that until I can work enough to support myself independently i can figure out some sort of roomate situation to scrape by after i age out of my housing assistance.

edit: I have two years for sure to sort all this shit out ! starting like, yesterday ! lol

but anyways, here are the ideas:

work part time at some hourly job that DOESN'T stress me out unbearably and make me want to kms bc of the mental health decline from exhaustion and emotional drainage & unfulfillment + resulting inevitable self worth / competency etc issues. physical labor ok as long as I can keep up on self care, i.e. stuff like garden work / being outdoors etc is fine. current top conteders are:

- bud trimmer

- ????

- good will if i have to resort to retail

WHILE i go about hourly jobs for survival, i want to continue working on art related options and thinking abt how to go abt returning to school & when i could even do that, realistically, and i owe several hundred dollars before I can register again and need to be able to you know, pay bills. live life.

top contenders:

- selling patches online, wherever i can tbh ? both handpainted & screen printed ones. I have to really solidly wrap my head around shipping costs and etsy fees first so i can make sure i do more than break even. it's mind numbing and makes me feel stupid as hell

- freelance illustration / commissions, selling art at whatever appropriate vendor spaces etc etc. this requires really broadening my skill set first which is what I will continue to work on presently and throughout the next two years. I'll need to create a new art blog for posts, and try to actually learn how to use social media to promote myself (ugh)

(caseworker said there's lots of summer opportunities, i need to figure out what exactly those are and what the process would be)

actual list of things I could gladly make repeatedly that are probably my best contenders for selling in general:

- nature paintings (in form of monochromatic patches, gouache & watercolor, digital, pencil, ink illustrations) (this also means hunting for references that aren't other people's art photography, i.e. a chance to focus on the area I live in ! hell yeah pacific northwest !! tho there are some things i can feel good abt doing w/o refs, like birch & aspen things which are always fun )

- teeth. bones. teeth and bones with PLANTS. I can draw and paint a million of these forever. any form. there are people who would pay for these things and I am one of them

- tarot themed art !!!!! what the fuck !!!! how do I not do a lot of this already. i think it's just bc it takes a lot of work & thought. it's an endeavor for sure. my only tarot painting took a full large watercolor page of various doodles and notes and thoughts and it was still kind of a copy of widely used concepts, the most original thing abt it was the aurora borealis as the crown + celestial guidance symbolism.

- ??????? something else. i forgot. i will have to add to this list

edit: BUGS oh my god of course, duh

misc goals:

i haven't 100% given up on programming, but i understand now that computer science is really not my route. I don't want to give up on writing programs ? but i don't want to do things like, search optimization etc if that is any kind of clarification. i barely understand what I'm talking abt. i don't want to give up on game design :( i just don't know what my options really are and what i should focus on in the meantime !!!!