#i wouldn't be able to take it again so 🤞🤞🤞

[mymadmedleyw]

-(totally unrelated-to-everything-that-are-going-on) real-life situation but I am freaking out, so irl rant-

Wish me luck! 🍀

Tomorrow morning I'll have a talking with the institution I'd like to study from February. And I'm totally panicking right now.

(And I really hope the administrational site for my application won't be glitchy - the deadline for everything is midnight. I uploaded every necessary document which I have in my possession but the page still says those are 'under processing'. - which about I have a constant 'mild' panic and I couldn't sleep at all.)

Anyway, just now, trying to figure out what they will ask tomorrow from me, I wrote a little draft about my related knowledge and experience in the field that my hoped studies are. I tried to seem wise with the wordings but damn, writing anything more serious is much more harder than writing fics - where I rarely care about to be seemed smart.

Good thing is though, that writing in English and having half of my thoughts in English by now (due to writing fics through the past few years) meant help, but still. This is much more different now!

I'm freaking out. This is what I want. And this is what I want since I finished my BSc studies last year. But I am so scared about it right now when finally MSc is an armreach away. I'm excited but at the same time damn scared.

(Sorry, I had to let this out...)

Once I'll have that talk tomorrow, and once the administration is done too, everything depends on the other candidates and on their points. I don't dare to say that everything is a straight path from there but people are not really that masochistic to learn Master's Finance in a foreign (2nd) language... So, (I hope) that I don't have to much to worry about since that point.

But I am panicking now and I fear to have a panic attack about it. Just imagine the green light: once, I am in, I have to give my 100%+ focus on my studies to understand it, then, during the last semesters write a thesis in English. No wonder I'm panicking...

This is my dream for a while, but still. What the hell!

[fishermanshook]

Forever Yours (yan!timekeeper x gn!reader)

tw: mentions of kidnapping (ooc as shit)

yan!vertin who, at first, wasn't interested in having a relationship with you that wasn't purely for work reasons. As the timekeeper, she simply just doesn't have the time to support your relationship and it wouldn't be fair to either of you. So, she keeps her head low when the two of you pass by each other. A simple nod and small smile was enough for the both of you as you trekked in different directions.

yan!vertin who starts to see you more often. Not on purpose and certainly is just coincidental that you get put in her group for a mission. Whether it be to stop an accident from taking place or trying to change the past, she finds herself looking for you in her crowd.

yan!vertin who starts to walk by you on purpose now. Doing anything in her power to be able to get to talk to you more. You don't seem to mind though, putting your work on hold just to have a conversation with her. How sweet, she thinks. You have to care, even if it may be only an inch of your heart that does.

yan!vertin who starts taking more of a liking to you. Finding herself stumbling on her words and turning beet red whenever you’re around. Sonneto catches on, as it’s obvious to see what’s happening. But that’s just what she thinks. What she doesn’t know, is that these pure affectionate thoughts she has of you start to turn more obsessive by the second.

yan!vertin who catches herself thinking about you more than she should. It’s becoming a problem and both her and Sonneto know it. Yet, she can’t bring herself to confess, let alone get over you. She’s to scared of rejection, too scared to be left without love again. But the storms coming soon, she better think of something quick.

yan!vertin who explains the situation to you. Saying you must come with her or you and everything and everyone you love will be wiped from existence. Vertin knows you know about the storm, but your knowledge of it is so small that she can design intricate lies that weave into each other like a web. She extends the tragedy to something even more horrifying that at first, she struggles to get you to go. But after a lot of convincing and tears (yours and hers combined), you agree to come with her. Vertin takes your hand in hers and leads you to elsewhere.

yan!vertin who brings you to a different area, and while you're still struggling to wrap your head around everything, you can barely make out the mumble of words coming from behind you.

"I'm so sorry, you'll understand soon."

Before you can comprehend what she means, you black out. You still won't know what she means until you wake from your forced slumber, and find yourself inside of her suitcase. Alone and cold, you wait for her presence.

She's the only person you'll ever see from here on out.

note: happy holidays everyone! enjoy this first (of hopefully many 🤞) reverse 1999 fic! stay safe, love y’all! #vertins wife #i wanna redo my entire blog you guys

(2023)©️fishermanshook — do not steal, translate, plagiarize, or repost my work on any other platform

[silenzahra]

Once again: thank you 💖

I've been having a few hard days this week, both with my job being so stressing and tiring, and still trying to slowly process the loss of my old blog despite having already started to work on building this one. As well as, well... experiencing a terrible burnout that won't let me enjoy my biggest passions just yet (reading and writing).

And then... there you all go again. Making me feel loved and supported with the two posts I've fixed so far. Not only many of you were so kind as to reblog again my adored Luigi the Bookworm post after I fixed it, but also have showered my beloved Luaisy story in love and compliments, and many of you even re-read it! Like... what? Am I really deserving of such honor? 🥹

I don't wanna mention you all so as not to be bothering you with "thank you" posts all the time, so if you've supported my Luaisy fanfic in any way, consider yourselves included here! But... I just had to express all my gratitude towards each and every one of you, because, truly, this story means everything to me. I love the Mario Brothers and their beautiful and platonic bond, and I adore other couples such as Mareach and Luisley (I mean, who doesn't?).

But Luaisy... Luaisy owns my heart entirely. I can't even start to explain what this couple means to me, what it makes me feel to see them together in any lovely piece of art, or read about them in any amazing fanfic, or writing about them myself. I mean, I could, but then I wouldn't be able to stop 🤭 Just know that I love both reading and writing about them even if right now I'm unable to do either.

So this is a big THANK YOU to each of you for supporting Green, Orange and a bit of Purple despite being a story that's a few months old 💖

You guys really make me feel so good 🥰🫂💖

Also, just so you know, I'll be gone till tomorrow, so I'll still take some time to check my tags, messages and such. This weekend I'd like to bring back both my beloved musicians headcanons and my post of Luigi serenading Daisy, as well as answering my pending asks. And I can't forget about my side blog for the translations of the songs that are important for Luigi and Daisy in my lore!

We'll see if I can get to everything, I don't wanna pressure myself so as not to increase the burnout I'm going through 😅 Please bear with me if I haven't answered you yet, I'm trying to be more present IRL so as to feel better soon and, hopefully, be entirely recovered as soon as possible! 🤞

Still, I'm totally fine with you tagging me in your stuff, though please remember that right now I don't feel like reading. Sorry 😅 (This only means that I'll take long to get to your stuff.)

Anyways, and aside from my plans and such, what I mean with this post is: thank you. You all make me so happy 💖💖💖

[m0r1bund]

I want to step aside and say I'm grateful for everyone who has shared my adoptables, bought 'em, enjoyed them with your eyeballs, or just hung around in general. I don't like to mix money with art, but these past two months I've been in a tight position where I needed to to make ends meet. I didn't want to lead with this because we're all broke motherfuckers out here, and you know how it is. being poor can be the most shameful and humiliating thing in the world, even when you know in your forebrain that it's not something you can necessarily control.

Thankfully, this is a transition period. I'm lucky to have the support of really cool people who have made it possible for me to secure some work doing what I love. 🤞 with any luck, we will be out of the woods soon.

As much as I hem and haw about making money off of my art, this has been an encouraging experience. I've enjoyed being able to act on design ideas that wouldn't fit into my own stories, but are really fun in someone else's hands. I also learned a lot during this brief return to the adoptable market, which I will share below, in hopes that maybe it can help others who find themselves in the same position.

I've been strict with pricing my work hourly, rather than just slapping on a price that "feels right" for the perceived complexity/finish/originality of the design. It's like pulling teeth, because I'm always slower than I think I am. I try to hold onto a piece of advice that I heard somewhere, which I will paraphrase poorly. Basically, even though your instinct might be to make a lot of small, affordable things, so you're not putting all your eggs in one basket or setting yourself up for disappointment if there's no bites, it's sometimes more "efficient" to do expensive jobs that are few and far in-between. there is... obvious... tension between this and my feelings about accessibility. one thing wins over the other when you're in survival mode, for better or worse. but i feel fortunate to be able to eat today so that i can pay it forward tomorrow.

i've tried to be conscientious of overhead, platform fees, and invisible labor. I probably would have made more money if I had conducted sales as auctions and exchanged money through direct invoices, but I chose to use ko-fi and fixed prices because that meant there was less friction between sharing my work, conducting a sale, exchanging money, and distributing the files. This might seem like a deranged tradeoff (surely it would be more worthwhile to just exchange a few emails) but it reflects the state of mind I was in before I received the news about my new job. If I wanted to keep doing this for what seemed like an indefinite amount of time, I needed to make it as simple as possible.

in line with the above, I chose to make adoptables rather than open commissions because the risk of losing time without any financial return was acceptable to me. time and technical effort was not my limiting resource, haha... I really respect commission work, but it's challenging for me to do. maybe you can guess from my desire to use ko-fi that it takes more effort for me to translate a client's vision into visual art than it takes for me to spitball an idea and hope someone will like it enough to take it home. I already prioritize this more "intensive" work as part of my (current) dayjob, so it's better for me to pick the path of least resistance in this case.

all of this rides on having a following. honestly, i wasn't sure things would work out here on tumblr. i have traditionally sold adoptables over on deviantart, where I have a larger following. dA recently enshittified (again) so this blog became an impromptu experiment in critter sales. I'm happy that I haven't had to touch dA, in the end, and I really owe that to you guys. thank you! (again!!)

[miabebe]

hello bub

just checking in again. i am so excited for every fic you’ll be posting. you have a lot of them going on but the quality never declines!!!! i love that for u

always remember to take care of yourself because a happy and healthy writer is the best writer.

it also made me wonder, what if you are best-selling novel author who writes on tumblr for fun? you write so well i won’t shut up about it ever.

sooooo lucky to have u here, lovelots

Hi zen ❤️ gosh it's been a bit of a tough time so true to my name I've been missing in action 🥲 I'm really hoping I can have some work out later this week 🤞

HAHA omg that's probably the best compliment I've ever received for my work, you made my day, I love you 🫂 but no I'm definitely not a professional writer, I wouldn't be able to keep up with a deadline to save my life 😭

[v-3ntii]

𝐓𝐎𝐊𝐘𝐎 𝐑𝐄𝐕. 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐈𝐒 𝐇𝐔𝐑𝐓

additional notes : male reader, not req.

characters : mikey , baji , chifuyu

warnings : mentions of blood , reader getting hurt, mentions of fights , blades , bat , hospitals , ambulances , violence

category : slight angst to fluff <3

note: FEMALE ALINGED READERS DNI!

𝐌𝐈𝐊𝐄𝐘

mans would go batshit crazy

y'know the dark impulse??

so you guys were fighting a gang, and someone from the said gang decided to play dirty 😧

they took a bat and went to whack you on the head.

you fell to the floor with blood dripping down bc- you just got HIT BY A BAT???

so when he saw your body on the ground, he immediately ran over, eyes become super super dark.

darker than they've ever been.

" hey ...you just hurt my boyfriend. "

gives them the signature kick

dosen't stop there tho 😹

punches them until their face becomes disfigured.

" mikey...please just stop. "

if you were conscious you would say that, the poor guy's face alr got disfigured 💀💀

if you aren't, then mikey would probably take his life.

defo would just take u to the hospital himself bc ambulances r useless 🤨

" y/n, don't worry... I've taken care of that guy, yeah? "

dosen't care if he's going to be leaving his entire gang behind to just bring u to the hospital

#4liferzzz 😹😹

really told the dude ' datte kimi yowaimo' thru his punches and kicks 🤞

he would buy all of your favourite snacks, bring you to restaurants, help you whenever you needed help after you're discharged.

oh, he bans you from the gang until you're fully fully recovered.

gives you night rides on his bike tho

𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐅𝐔𝐘𝐔

" y/n! are you okay? "

defo going to check on you first.

you got stabbed...OF COURSE HE IS GOING TO CHECK ON YOU??

might cry

if you insist that you're okay, he would be hesitant

but he would leave you there and deal with the guy, the blade's handle facing the sky so it won't dig deeper into you.

" you little shit...look at what you've done! "

punches, punches, punches.

when the guy is on the verge of death, chifuyu would leave him there and go to your side.

he would scoop you up, and bring you to the hospital w you on his lap.

how he managed to balance you? nobody knows.

again, ambulances are useless 🙄

would be so scared, wouldn't leave the hospital AT ALL.

would sleep in a chair beside you on the hospital bed, and bring some of his mangas for you to read when he visits

when you're discharged, he would help you shower, even if you tell him that you are able to shower.

he doesn't think dirty. his only thought is that he is helping his injured boyfriend to shower.

chifuyu is so sweet :((

where can i find a chifuyu 🙂

𝐁𝐀𝐉𝐈

would just freeze there for awhile.

takes one glance at your limp body on the ground, blood flowing out from a wound in your head-

and he loses it.

runs up to the guy, starts throwing punches everywhere- blood splattering all over his face and clothes.

after he's beaten the guy half to death does he realise

that you. are. hurt.

rushes to your side, mumbling apologies over and over.

actually calls the ambulance because he just doesn't know what to do anymore.

you might die bc of that...AMBULANCES ARE SO USELESS

would stay by your side the whole time, and actually blames it on himself. :(

apologise after you wake up, please.

just apologise.

a lot, a lot, a lot of cuddles. this cuddling addiction will probably last for a whole week.

you're not complaining tho

© saiiyana

[billiejean485]

(INSANELY BIG SPOILERS FOR MY FIC

so they'll be under the cut

I warned you!)

... Guess who!

(takes place somewhere around the 2/4th of Book 2 - How A Cat Tamed A Wolf)

.... If you got it right, and I believe you have, here comes the big explanation. And MORE SPOILERS .

Brace yourselves.

So, at the very beginning, a year and a half ago, when I was just getting fresh ideas for the story, this kinda just slipped through.

Why? Because, sadly, most of my OCs fall in love with the main male protagonist of the story, and I never even tried to stop this.

Yes, it's sappy, it's cringe-y and well overused in any fandom - yet I'm still a sucker for those plots.

However, being a Love Square shipper, this brought troubles to the table I haven't been able to sort out to this day.

Reminds me kinda of my days in the Kingdom Hearts fandom, where I shipped Sora and Kairi but added my own OC to the story. However, I managed to work things out there without touching the canon OTP, and they never went beyond friendship. However, HERE, I didn't even think of going down that road.

Don't get me wrong - Luna/Amani wasn't supposed to fall in love with Chat Noir right from the start. It took well over a year for her, as well as his best efforts to break the walls she had unknowingly put up between herself and every other living being.

However, one thing I wasn't gonna do with Amani was use the typical 'she was scarred by love/other people before and has closed up because of that' trope. I wanted to try something new.

Amani is not your typical girl. She's okay with physical closeness but has experienced affection like 10 times less than Adrien - emotional counted. So the Cat had a lot of groundwork laid out for him in order to reach her - and we know Adrien just loves getting in people's personal space as much as it's possible. However, he ended up doing it a little too much with Amani.

And here comes the problem: by then, Luna/Amani learned both his and Ladybug's identities, and has been keeping them secret from the two as best as she could. But because she knows who they are, she knows how much they're already meant for each other. And now que the gifs I set above.

She's trying to keep her emotions under check, but is failing fast after she realizes she has them. And to make matters worse - we know how much Ladybug has been turning down Chat, and Adrien didn't get the hots for Marinette yet, as this was a fic I was making during Season 4 and the story will probably still be most relevant to it.

So - you have a confused Cat who just wants a good relationship, a lovestruck Wolf - and a little Bug who has no idea what is happening behind her back while she's still pining after her Perfect Prince Charming.

... I still haven't worked out the kinks, nor do I know how I will. Mostly, I let the story write itself, but it didn't get me anywhere (during the time I was actually able to write without hating the canon...); I am now torn between the two ships.

However - for all this time.... I never saw Adrien getting anywhere with Amani - mostly because she wouldn't let him. And to be fair - we all know he has a special spot in his heart for his Lady that only another equally special girl could take and, well.... I don't think Amani is that girl.

But don't you worry - I have so much planned for these two that his episode with Kagami is going to be very short in comparison and probably completely forgotten at the end. (Then again.... the canon might beat me to it and kill me before I manage to write anything... :') )

... Wish both me and my girl some luck! 🍀🤞😂 We're gonna need all of it for the roller-coaster ride that's ahead of us.

[bunny-hoodlum]

I'm gonna perform some really funky surgery on Runner's High

Okay, so real talk: Ch 14 was shoehorned and it killed the promised payoff that there was going to be more rivalry hijinks between NaruHina that was going to blow up into something crazy (like the 3some itself). And that was going to conclude that arc. That was the plan and I have said why I felt like I couldn't do it, but that didn't mean I couldn't have taken a break until I was able to do it.

So really, if I'm having burnout right now, Ch 14 should've actually been the warning sign, and I ignored it. 😩 (I'm bummed I decided against having a guitar, becuz I literally need a secondary hobby to get away from writing. 😅 I'm too obsessed with productivity. I honestly should just get serious about drawing instead tho).

So once again, I can't sleep becuz I'm thinking like a workaholic, but yeah, I've worked out a general outline to add that cut content back into the timeline between Ch 13 and Ch 15. I realized 'Oh, if I hate Ch 14 that much, I could just write everything I need and replace it outright, even it ends up being 10k long', but part of me wants to combine Ch 15, 16, 17, and I think it was also 18, because they're all on the same day.

And I say funky surgery, becuz though I will shamefully be fudging my kudos and comment count, I just don't want to lose the wonderful comments I have received all along these recent chapters, especially last chapter.

So what I'm going to do is, when I'm all refreshed, is sit down and write the new shit, rewrite combined chapters, try to meld the new stuff into what I have already established currently, so that way I'm not just utterly retconning a whole bunch of stuff that readers are already invested in, and just replace the rich text altogether.

Sounds super messy. I would love to use a legend with symbols to designate new stuff from old stuff, hopefully that wouldn't be too immersion-breaking if it's just at the start of the appropriate paragraphs. 🤔 But yeah, that's what I'm thinking about right now.

And of course I want to work on it now, but I really need to take that break, haha. 😂

In hindsight, if the 3some is what ends the arc, the current stuff that's already established might not make much sense, or will have to be changed a lot in order to work.

I might reblog with an update if I somehow pulled off a miracle, or if I failed, lmao. And if I fail, then Plan B is the cut content one-shot collection, and I just move on with the mess I created. 😅

Wish me luck? 🤞