#i'm 30 and sound like i'm 15 hahaha i'm crying

[willinglyghoulified]

Good news and bad(ish?) news.

The good news is that I got my AO3 account set up successfully and I've learned a little about how to navigate the site! So my fanfics will be available there within the following weeks when I get time to transfer them over.

The bad news is that work has me so tired and burnt out that it may be a while before I finish the current chapter in book 3 of my Fallout 4 fanfic or the current chapter in my Fallout New Vegas fanfic.

I wrote a bit of a blog in case anyone woud like to read, but it's mostly me rambling about life updates in general. Anywho, I'll keep y'all posted. ♥ Thank you to everyone who is reading/voting on my stories on Wattpad, also!

I had a migraine for the first time in a long time tonight, brought on by the dust and shit in the warehouse that has been irritating my sinuses. I'm fighting off a sinus infection before it gets worse. We had an extra day off for Labor Day but suffered for it the following week when we worked 12 1/2 hours straight the very next day. The following days were two 10 hour days and a 9 1/2 hour day.

Aside from work and writing, my husband has decided that he would like to take up streaming because his favorite hobby has always been gaming and he hasn't really done anything like that before. So I've been maneuvering furniture around and buying some things for him like a desk and monitor and whatnot so that he can have his own office. :) I'm excited for both him and me because all I can manage to do lately is boot up my PlayStation or Xbox, so streaming may be in the near future for me as well. I'll definitely keep everyone updated if something like that happens, because I may do more than gaming. I'm thinking crochet tutorials, speed drawings, write-with-me's, etc.

Anyways, I miss you, mutuals, and I'm glad I got to blog a little bit before crashing. This is the first time I've opened my laptop in days, and it feels weirdly nice to just type on the keyboard.

[spreadwardiard]

5, 13, 15, 20, 22, 27, and 30 for the song asks friend!!! <3

OOOH! Thank you friend! I'll try not to get long winded about muuuusic lol.

5:A song that needs to be played LOUD

Okay I'm gonna start off immediately in the deep end here and say Pop/Stars VS Megalovania by DJ Cutman! I never played Undertale myself, but I really liked a lot of the music in it, and this mash up is to die for!! It mashes up perfectly and I always have to turn it up!

13:One of your favorite 80’s songs

I had to research some release dates of things for this one hahaha. I have so much music on my playlists that I'm not sure what is from when anymore! But I always loved Take on Me by Aha!

15:A song that is a cover by another artist

Omg where to even start... I have so many song covers that I love. I could go the safe route and say Hurt by Johnny Cash. but ooooooh I also really like I Really Want To Stay at Your House by Thai McGraith for any Cyberpunk fans out there.

20:A song that has many meanings to you

Ooooh I think for this one I'm gonna have to go a little more obscure and reach for my FAVORITE band. Bran-new Love Song by the Pillows is my choice here. Its a nostalgic song for me, reminds me of the slower days of childhood but also has a strange melancholy to the sound of it that just... chefs kiss. It reminds me of days gone by, of new loves being forged, and of the bittersweet that comes with it.

22:A song that moves you forward

Ha! I like Huton no Naka Kara Detakunai by Gokumon. I know this probably isn't exactly what this prompt means by moving forward, but this song DEF gets me out of bed in the morning (which, in my opinion is moving forward XD) and is so very relatable.

27:A song that breaks your heart

This is a hard one theres so many good songs to choose from. So many have made me weep. But ooo I think Take me to Church by Hozier. It just hits really close to home for me.

30:A song that reminds you of yourself

omg Chandelier by Sia. Especially with the music video. idk, it just hits me in weird place and honestly this also could be a song that breaks my heart considering it does make me cry like everytime i listen to it.

[lavander-yarn]

3,12,14,15,17,30,33,36,37,40,45,46,47,48,49,51,52,53,54,57,60,61,64,66,71,73,74,89,90,94,95 👀🤭opps take your time 🥰🤗🦋💜🖤✨🐇

Wooooow hahaha

3. When is your birthday? June 27th 🦀

12. What was your last dream about? already answered 🥺 (ft. Crush, you know who)

14. Are you psychic in any way? yes I am, i have had profetic dreams but they become true months or years later, so I guess I have a psychic delay hahaha

15. Favorite song? Oooh this is a hard question, today I'm going to choose lover lover by James Iha

17. Who would be your ideal partner? I think I have answered this to you before, but my ideal partner should make me feel safe and really loved, in the most truthful way

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? Only two

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Oat with amaranto typically known as atole and quesadillas or sincronizadas, or Mokka coffee without milk. If I can't take breakfast at home i can have coffee and amaranto cookies at the studio (loves amaranto btw)

36. Favorite clean word? que onda (what's up)

37. Favorite swear word? no mamar (no fucking way)

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? umm totally secret? Not really, but it's not too late for one. Goblin dudes stay away

45. What is your favorite accent? I don't have one hehe

46. What is your personality type? Idk, everytime I do the test the answer it's different, and I always forget the name of it

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? My Sakura embroidered bomber jacket, it costed like $1500 pesos, worth it every cent

48. Can you curl your tongue? Yep

49. Are you an innie or an outie? I'm an innie

51. Are you scared of spiders? Not at all

52. Favorite food? Tostadas! A flat and dry tortilla and you can put it on whatever you want (today I ate tostadas hahaha)

53. Favorite foreign food? Red and green curry

54. Are you a clean or messy person? I'm both, it depends on the day and how lazy I feel

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? It takes me like an hour. When I had long hair, it took me more 😱

60. Do you talk to yourself? Yes, i do talk a lot with myself

61. Do you sing to yourself? Yes, i do

64. Are you a gossip? Only if it's a very good gossiping, i guess I'm guilty

66. Do you like long or short hair? I like both 🤗

71. What makes you nervous? situations that seem out of my control make me nervous, or some people in a good and in a bad way

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Sometimes I do, i try not to because I know I can sound rude

74. Are you ticklish? Not anymore, i used to be ticklish when I was a kid

89. Do you like your age? Yes i do like it

90. What makes you angry? People who don't listen and situations

94. What are you strengths? I'm resilient, i have the strength to fight for a better life, and I also have a good memory except for art history facts hahahaha the irony...

95. What are your weaknesses? Um I'm always late, I'm a social misfit, I'm a creep I'm a weirdo, i don't like to go outside and it's worst with faraway places, lately I've been procrastinating, i can be cold when I'm in a bad mood or when i dislike people, i cry when somebody close to me scolds me

Fiufff those were a lot of questions (⁠；⁠^⁠ω⁠^⁠）Thank you! I hope you have a good day 🦋💗

[ethereal-smoke]

1-155? Sorry I'm nosy. You don't have to if you don't want. Whatever you wish to answer is fine by me.

hahaha i’ll do it. i’ll just omit ones i don’t want to answer, if there are any.

1: Name: bridgette2: Age: 183: 3 Fears: vomit, falling, needles4: 3 things I love: tattoos, matt, art5: 4 turns on: biting, choking, grinding, touching my neck6: 4 turns off: being gross, touching my neck in a bad way, not being confident in what you’re doing, too aggressive7: My best friend: shannyn 8: Sexual orientation: bisexual9: My best first date: going to deadpool, then going to see captain america right afterward10: How tall am I: 5′5″11: What do I miss: having a lot of close friends12: What time were I born: 3:21 pm13: Favourite color: black14: Do I have a crush: my boyfriend15: Favourite quote: nobody exists on purpose, nobody belongs anywhere, everybody’s gonna die, now come watch tv.16: Favourite place: colorado17: Favourite food: orange chicken? cheeseburgers?18: Do I use sarcasm: yes19: What am I listening to right now: the gentle hum of my laptop20: First thing I notice in new person: their attitude21: Shoe size: 8.522: Eye color: green23: Hair color: currently? red24: Favourite style of clothing: black hahaha25: Ever done a prank call?: yes27: Meaning behind my URL: i just wanted to sound cool28: Favourite movie: donnie darko or watchmen29: Favourite song: millstone, nightmare, idk30: Favourite band: i don’t really have one anymore i listen to a lot of things31: How I feel right now: tired32: Someone I love: matt33: My current relationship status: taken34: My relationship with my parents: interesting but better than it used to be35: Favourite holiday: halloween36: Tattoos and piercing i have: one piercing, three tattoos37: Tattoos and piercing i want: a million tattoos, one more piercing38: The reason I joined Tumblr: i was really into fandoms at the time39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: no but we also don’t ever talk40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: YES i love them41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: yes :042: When did I last hold hands?: yesterday43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: like an hour44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: no shhhh45: Where am I right now?: my bed46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: shannyn47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: loud lol48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: yup49: Am I excited for anything?: the future50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: i do now51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: too frequently52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: today53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: it better be for a damn good reason or someone is getting punched54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: not anymore you fucking snake lol55: What is something I disliked about today?: missed opportunities56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: idkkkkk something dumb like lana del rey57: What do I think about most? the past58: What’s my strangest talent?: i can fold my tongue into thirds59: Do I have any strange phobias? i fucking hate escalators omg60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: behind61: What was the last lie I told? that it was no big deal62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: phone63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: both64: Do I believe in magic?: yeeeeeee65: Do I believe in luck?: of course66: What’s the weather like right now?: cloudy, cold67: What was the last book I’ve read?: fight club68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: lol yes69: Do I have any nicknames?: bridge, babe70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? i bent my wrist all the way back once, fucked it up pretty good71: Do I spend money or save it? a good balance of both72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? nope73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? no fuck that74: Favourite animal? ilove snakes tbh75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? sleeping lol76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? satantino77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: anything by cage the elephant or glass animals78: How can you win my heart?: with puppies79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: suck my fuck80: What is my favorite word? sonder81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: lol no82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? my fav quote probably83: Do I have any relatives in jail? hahaha not to my knowledge84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? ability to change the past85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? who i hate the most86: What is my current desktop picture? idk some default one i’m laazy87: Had sex? yup88: Bought condoms? nope89: Gotten pregnant? nope90: Failed a class? nope91: Kissed a boy? yee92: Kissed a girl? yup93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yes94: Had job? of course95: Left the house without my wallet? unfortunately96: Bullied someone on the internet? no97: Had sex in public? define public98: Played on a sports team? hahaha does marching band count99: Smoked weed? lol yeah100: Did drugs? yup101: Smoked cigarettes? nah fuck that102: Drank alcohol? yes103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? nope i love burgers104: Been overweight? nope105: Been underweight? kinda106: Been to a wedding? yup107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? longer than that108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? lol what a joke109: Been outside my home country? no :?110: Gotten my heart broken? oh yeah111: Been to a professional sports game? nah112: Broken a bone? nope113: Cut myself? yes114: Been to prom? yup115: Been in airplane? no116: Fly by helicopter? nooooo117: What concerts have I been to? omg like 53  i’m not gonna list them all118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yeah haha that worked out119: Learned another language? sortof120: Wore make up? yes121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? nah i was 18122: Had oral sex? indeed123: Dyed my hair? yes124: Voted in a presidential election? yup!125: Rode in an ambulance? noooooo126: Had a surgery? oral surgery127: Met someone famous? yes128: Stalked someone on a social network? lol hahaha 129: Peed outside? no haha130: Been fishing? nope131: Helped with charity? mhmmm132: Been rejected by a crush? yeahhhh133: Broken a mirror? probably134: What do I want for birthday? that d135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? none i hate kids136: Was I named after anyone? the saint probably137: Do I like my handwriting? no lol138: What was my favourite toy as a child? a stuffed bunny named...bunny139: Favourite Tv Show? always sunny in philly140: Where do I want to live when older? colorado141: Play any musical instrument? clarinet142: One of my scars, how did I get it? box cutting incident143: Favourite pizza topping? cheese i hate shit on my pizza144: Am I afraid of the dark? not so much145: Am I afraid of heights? no but the sensation of falling is the worst146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? nope147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? my life hahaha i’m joking... lol148: What I’m really bad at. being good at keeping relationships149: What my greatest achievments are: getting straight a’s my first semester of college, getting into art shows, that sort of thing150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: idkkkk151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: cry a lot because the biggest source of my anxiety is money :////152: What do I like about myself? my eyes tbh153: My closest Tumblr friend: idkkk154: Something I fantasise about: making out with christmas from the bond movies omg what a lady