HP FESTS: DHr Monsterfucking Minifest
DHr Monsterfucking Minifest 2021:
Claws Out by Palio - E, one-shot - Hermione accidentally lands herself in Hell and at the mercy of a possessive, arrogant demon that wants to keep her – and his claws are sharper than hers.
tilhørighet by vesperics - E, one-shot - She wasn’t sure if it was relief she felt, realizing that the shape of the dragon was rippling into something else. Despite how disturbed Malfoy had seemed, she would prefer to be in a secluded space with his human counterpart rather than the other one. But—still. There was something she was waiting for.
C’est Toi Pour Moi by sweetestsorrows (katschako) - E, one-shot - After tragedy strikes, a young shark-hybrid is thrust into a vast ocean where he must learn to fend for himself. Ostracised by other sea creatures, mythical beings, and humans alike, Draco resigns himself to a life of solitude. He survives by trusting no one and prioritises his own well-being above all else. Then, one small decision changes everything.
Scent of My Sanity by Pia_Bartolini - E, one-shot - When a last minute trip for the ministry goes awry, Hermione Granger is stuck balancing her penultimate legislative goal and a set of new, very inconvenient side effects. Enter Draco Malfoy, the man who has exactly the potion she needs and less discretion than she wants.
Hummingbirds and Hawthorns by trix_of_bella - E, one-shot - He stumbled upon the flower shop entirely by accident. Or so he thought. Furthermore, there was something very different about Hermione Granger now and every part of Draco was screaming to figure it out. -- A story about fate.
Hic Est Draco by sarena - E, 3 chapters - Hermione waited for him to open his eyes and slipped her fingertips between the buttons of his shirt again. The guarded expression reappeared on Draco's face. He searched hers, and when she smiled at the same time as she stroked over his scales, he exhaled heavily. "I'm—" "Half a dragon, I know." Hermione pulled his shirt out of his trousers and flicked the bottommost button open. "—not fully human." "I figured that out when I felt the scales." She looked down and opened the next button. His lower torso shimmered in the ambient lighting as he flexed his abdomen involuntarily. Her breath caught. "Beautiful." He put his fingers under her chin and tipped her head up until he caught her eyes. "I'm not fully human, Hermione." Finally, it clicked. Written for the DHr Monsterfucking Fest 2021. What it says on the tin.
The Guardian by TeTe91 - E, one-shot - The night magic the Dark Lord had created was incredibly scary, but remarkable at the same time. Somehow, he had managed to warp spacetime in the darkness, to create pockets in the shadows, only accessible while the sun was down. However, space was not the only thing he had forced his will onto with this new strand of magic, but also matter - magical beings - creating them from seemingly nothing. Those monsters were unlike anything they had ever seen before. Their bloodlust seemed boundless in the way they drenched the land they guarded with blood, dyeing the soil red. Like most of the abandoned Death Eater operation bases, a creature of the night protected the premises. A ferocious beast, which didn’t hesitate to tear wizards to shreds. Curses were useless against it, simply bouncing off its skin. Protective spells could only hold it at bay for so long. The creature was the perfect killer. The restriction to the grounds it protected was the sole reason any witch or wizard had escaped with their lives.
Your Witch by This_Stranger_Cyr - E, one-shot - Hermione Granger. Muggleborn. Human. And the unfortunate recipient of an incubus' obsession. Oh my.
Le Portriat de L'agonie by viridianatnight - E, one-shot - When a portrait is placed in Draco's bedroom, he finds himself falling into the depths of the beguiling art. A young woman, stuck forever in a gilded cage on a vermillion chaise with no companion but him. By the time a connection is formed, it's too little too late. Demon Hermione x Manipulated Draco
Aunt Flo's a B**** by TJ_Dubs- E, 3 chapters - 1998 had been the worst year of Hermine’s life. She’d been on the run from the government. She had lived outside, in a tent, for months. She’d been tortured by a crazy woman. She broke in, and out, of the most secure bank in the world. She had to watch as her friends, and school were blown to bits around her. That summer was full of funerals of people she had come to know and love. Oh, and she’d been bitten by a werewolf.
La Vie En Rose by rizzlewrites - E, one-shot - The unravelling of his mind, when it finally happens, is a simple matter of stepping across a line.
Serpens in Norba Sentinum by Keii_sha - E, one-shot - Hermione worries as several people in her village were found cursed to stone, finding herself in the midst of grieving families pleading for justice and protection inside the Holy Grounds of Thonusae. With the sudden disappearance of the Head Priest, it had made the people desperate enough to seek help from the mainland, with no choice but to promise an abundant share of crops as payment. A fellow nun assured her that help would arrive soon, a savior from the Kingdom, a Malfoy. Somehow, the assurance felt like a looming threat, whether for her or for the people, she doesn’t know.
Tenebrous by In_Dreams- E, one-shot - Shadows haunt his sleep and drive Draco into the forest late at night. But the air bristles with a different sort of magic, and he's not alone. Dramione. Written for the DHr Monsterfucking Fest.
The Labyrinth by AccioMjolnir - E, one-shot - After he failed in his mission from the Dark Lord to murder Dumbledore at the end of sixth year, Draco Malfoy disappeared. It was widely assumed that he was killed for his failure. However, when the war drags on and the hunt for the horcrux leads the Golden Trio to a mysterious labyrinth, they make a shocking discovery.
Ruined Potions by LadyofBoneandIvory - E, one-shot - In their Fifth Year, Hermione promised Draco that she would never tell another soul about the feather incident. That is, until many years later when Auror Hermione Granger learns about a peculiar case that only she can handle. Something about an avian-like monster occupying the halls of Malfoy Manor.
Under Your Skin by This_Stranger_Cyr - E, one-shot - Draco Malfoy had travelled across space and time to have his second chance. He was finally going to have her, if only as a bloody Veela.
Deadliest Poisons by raoremrao - E, one-shot - Draco is sent to investigate claims of a Harpy prowling the forest of Dean and hunting people down on the behalf of the Care of Magical Creatures Department. A Harpy hasn't been seen for nearly a century so he has his doubts but when he steps right into her nest while looking around, he gets way more than he's paid for.
To Feel Her Teeth by DarkoftheMoon - E, one-shot - On a cold night Draco encounters something unexpected in the Forbidden Forest. What he sees consumes him, and he wants to be devoured.
Epilimnion by witchsoup - E, one-shot - The tournament was supposed to be safe. Dumbledore was a personal friend of the chieftain, spoke Mermish, commanded the waters of the Black Lake and the movements of the Giant Squid. There was nothing to be afraid of, until the others (the Delacour girl, the Ravenclaw chaser, fucking Weasley) surfaced at the end of the hour. And Granger did not.
Lonely Moments by IfBrainsWereGold - E, one-shot - Hermione swallowed visibly, her eyes straining to look at him. He looked in pain; trying so hard to control himself, to stay together. Desperately trying to hide the animal he had become. But his eyes were betraying him. Despite them being black bottomless pits, he looked feral. An animal held back by the last thin thread of its leash.
To Know You in the Dark by inred - E, WIP - Here are a handful of facts: One: Prophecies—true prophecies—exist outside of the human experience of time and hold no power over reality. They are descriptions of things, as those things are. They are never wrong. They are not subject to change. Two: Hermione Granger is a Muggle-born witch. She can use Muggle probability and statistics and advanced Arithmancy, and— She has fought and won a war centered in no small part around a prophecy, a prophecy she has helped realize. Ooa’s words are not a matter of belief, they are not something she can walk out on. Three: Agreeing has been a mistake. A moment ago she was free to fall in love—with anyone. The next, the unbreakable chains of prophecy—of what was, is, and will be—shackle her to a non-human Being. Cupid and Psyche Dramione Remix
Sex On Fire by helenaeldritch - E, one-shot - The phrase 'smoldering passion' takes on a whole new meaning.
Where Angels Fear to Tread by megsivy - E, 9 chapters - Draco Malfoy loathed Hermione Granger. He hated everything about the witch; from the prissy way she spoke at him in the monthly interdepartmental meetings, to the hideously outdated robes she wore to work every day. With everything he had, he despised her existence. Until one day...he didn’t. (In other words, the one where Draco doesn’t know he’s a Veela and finds out through a series of increasingly embarrassing events.) Veela!Draco fic <3
The Narrow Escape of Anthony Goldstein by FedonCiadale - T, 4 chapters - Veela Draco gets in real trouble and panic when his mate and wife Hermione who has been oblivious about his condition for years demands something he'd rather not do but still feels obliged to try.
Sweet Sacrifice by TheWanderersWanderingDaughter - E, one-shot - A werwolf terrorizes a small rural village. They're getting desperate. They've tried everything. It's too clever--they fear they have a demon on their hands. Hermione Granger (a muggle) wanders into its path, fights it, lives--and learns there's no escape. There was more movement then, and this time beyond a doubt it was not the wind, because it moved in the opposite direction it blew, and from between two thick bunches of tall grass, in the darkness between a yellow eye appeared and stared at her. Her knees went weak. She almost dropped her dagger. “You should not be outside, maiden,” it repeated, its delivery horrifyingly playful though the voice had gone deeper. “For now I have seen and smelled you I will not forget you.” There was the sound of a deep inhale and a slow exhale following after. A ragged sigh. The eye did not blink. It did not break its stare, and stunned, the maiden could not look away.
A Slippery Situation by peachy_V - E, one-shot - Working at the magical marine conservatory Hermione Granger never expected to be so intrigued by their newest resident.
Beyond Closed Doors by yanitaag - E, 2 chapters - “Draco, I want to be with you for eternity.” Hermione announced. His head snapped up, “You already know I can’t do this to you.” “And I’ve already made my mind up so there is nothing you can do about it. Isn’t it my choice to decide, after all? Or is it that you don’t want me anymore?” She watched him closely, paying attention to his every movement. He was nearly still, his face giving nothing away. With the speed of light he was standing in front of her and she was sitting alone on the couch glaring up at him, her arms crossed in front of her chest.
Love Thy Neighbor by forbiddenforester - E, one-shot - Draco Malfoy knew something was off with Hermione Granger...but what?
How to Tame your Draco by CarrieMaxwell - M, one-shot - Hermione is called in to assess a case involving Malfoy Manor and gets more than she bargained for...
Redemption by yanitaag - M, one-shot - His life had changed once more after a walk near the Black Lake late in the night. Greyback shouldn't have been there, how did he get through the wards? The bite was vile, bleeding unstoppably, Draco almost died that night, thank Merlin he wasn't alone.
uncoffined by malfoysbrunette - not rated, one-shot - “At that moment she hated him. She hated him for going somewhere she couldn’t follow. She hated him for promising to always be there for her, making her believe that promise and then leaving anyway. But how could she truly hate him when she loved him so much, when she feels so incomplete without him.”
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all she knows is how to survive (but, tell me, how do you die?)
summary:
Harry, it's not as bad as you think."
"Hermione,” she seethes out, hair frizzing at the output of excess magic, “I'm 20, just ended the Second Wizarding War, have absolutely no prospects about what I want to do for the rest of my life seeing as I’m still ‘mentally unstable’ by Ministry standards, and now, just when I’ve convinced Andromeda to let me have an active part in Teddy’s life, I’ve been made guardian to the daughter of bloody fucking Voldemort and Bellatrix Lestrange! Do you know what this means? My godfather's killer had sex with my wanna-be killer, and now, I'm left with the results - what happened to safe sex, huh? Not to mention, I might add, that both of them are involved with the death of Remus and Tonks and Sirius and Dumbledore and bloody fucking Snape! So yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm as fucked as I think it am if not more."
“When she puts it that way, Hermione…”
“Okay, yes, I get it, Ron. Harry's more fucked up than I thought, but we can work with this.
–-
Spoiler Alert: They kinda failed to work with it.
CHAPTER 3: time ends at my touch (and releases with my breath)
CHAPTER SUMMARY: Harry takes a trip through London, ready to reclaim what was lost.
Chapter 2 | Chapter 4
[START BRIEF.]
BRIEF NO.: #454
DATE: 26 October, 1999
LOCATION: Grimmauld Place; Diagon Alley;
OCCASION: [CONFIDENTIAL] {CONT.}
OBJECTIVE(S): Survive [redacted]; Pick up Hermione’s book; Don’t set off Hermione’s alarm;
ADDITIONAL NOTES: Don’t get into any shit: stay inconspicuous; keep your head about you; pick up some cinnamon for Ron later; END ADDITIONAL NOTES.
{CONT. Next Page.}
…
Grimmauld Place is not a house of warmth; from the imposing exterior to the drab and decayed interior, it does not elicit a single sense of warm feeling. Yet, Harry feels more at home in this decaying place than she does in any other location. And yet, it is not the same for Ron and Hermione; they belong to open windows and warm fireplaces, the heat of the sun and softness of weathered rugs.
(The warmth of love and the bliss of being together –)
Harry wants them to move out, wants them to build a life in the sun, away from the dreariness and darkness that consume her.
They refuse.
And so, time ticks on, second after second, day after day.
(week after week, month after month, year after year, wish after wish, hope after hope – )
There is a grandfather clock on the third landing; it is weathered and worn, chiming only a few times a day, at random intervals, instead of the usual hour-chime. The arms are twisted yet still points to the allocated number, strange symbols inscribed in their gold arms, dull and shining all at once. Sometime, when her head is too full and about to explode like one of Seamus’ cauldrons, she goes up there, her back pressed against the stair rail as her eyes trace the slow travel of the minute hand obsessively, the ticking calming the thrum in her head and igniting the cool calmness in her blood. She likes the way it forges on, not a care for those who it affects; she likes the way it continues without pause, spilling blood and bringing life all the same.
She wishes – she wishes that could be her, calm and collected and forging ahead without care for those she loves. It would be so much simpler.
(It would be far more terrible, far worse than her measly, broken mind can construct or conjure.)
Still, it is a routine for her now; to watch the ticking of time obsessively, to revel in the thrum of the clock and the chime of the hour and the calmness of her mind. Time has stolen so much from her (days with Sirius, weeks and years with her parents and nights looking after Teddy when Remus and Tonks are out –) but it has also given her this: an escape from her mind and her soul, broken as it is, like a clock refusing to forge on.
Perhaps once Hermione and Ron would’ve questioned it, but now they too understand that this helps her cope; helps her stay sane, it helps her calm the torrent that is her mind.
(Perhaps this is what Snape meant when he said to clear the mind.)
When she sits, her back against the stair rail, it is only her and the ticking of time.
(It is only her and her mind and her thoughts. It is only her and all she has lost.)
She rests her head against the rail, closing her eyes and opening her senses, the tick of the clock enchanting and the thrum of the blood in her veins soothing.
She hears a creak, soft and gentle and terrifying.
“Harry?”
It’s Hermione.
Harry springs her eyes open, setting her green, green, orbs on her best friend; Hermione’s hair is in a haphazard plait, swung over her left shoulder. The blue wool jumper reminds her of Hermione’s mum whilst her feet are sockless, probably cold against the wooden floor.
“You should wear some socks, ‘Mione.”
Harry turns her head back, watching the slow, rapid, journey of the second hand. “Your feet are gonna get cold.”
There’s a gentle thud beside her; she turns her head left and studies Hermione. Her eyes are wide and bright, her lips pulled into a gentle smile as she gazes at Harry. She’s always been slightly taller than Harry, but it feels gargantuan, now – she’s probably half-a-head taller than Harry now, even taller at gala’s and events since she’s started wearing those accursed heels.
(Harry threw her pair out the rather abysmally tiny toilet window when Hermione tried to convince her to wear them; who needs Death Eaters when you’ve got stilettos?)
Hermione’s eyes are chocolate brown, tiny flecks of green and yellow in their depths. There’s a stray piece of hair escaping her plait, curling like chocolate wisps.
Harry leans forward, tucking it behind Mione's earring-adorned ear before resting her head onto the older girl’s shoulder, resting against the soft wool, hair falling like autumn branches against her face. There is a slight hum before Hermione rests her head atop Harry’s, searching for Harry’s ring-adorned fingers before tangling them together, each crevice and crook filled with each other’s pale flesh.
Hermione’s nails are painted a vibrant blue (matching her jumper, Harry silently notes) whilst Harry’s is chipped green, thin decorative lines of black and white fading away; Harry’s finger’s are adorned with various rings, some copper, others silver and gold, forged in fire and in beautiful shapes, her favourite an emerald-studded crescent moon she had found whilst cleaning the drawing room, tucked into the nook of a spare drawer. There’s a bracelet on Hermione’s wrist, thin chained silver that Harry had bought for her seventeenth birthday, her first charm given on the same day, an animated lion emblem that roared ever so fiercely. A book charm on her eighteenth, a cassette on her nineteenth, the following year a carbon copy of her wand.
(Harry plans to give a quill on her twenty-first.)
Her fingers are empty though (Harry wonders how long that’ll last with a quirk of her lips), only slightly longer than Harry’s with faint palm lines, skin smooth and slightly dry.
Harry should get her some moisturiser.
They stay simply against each other, revelling in the warmth and love they hold for each other. It is simple, this relationship of theirs.
It is forged from magic and tears and friendship, this sisterhood of theirs.
The lull of the clock would be enough to carry her to sleep, if not for Hermione’s persistence.
“Harry.”
She hums back, weariness and warmth and slumber all within her grasp.
“You know it’s time.”
Harry stills. Yes, it is time, isn’t it?
She squeezes her eyes shut, rabid panic channelling through her blood, overtaking her heart and mind, and causing a grim layer of sadness to settle like snow.
“Does it have to be?” She whispers, eyes wide like windows and now panicked, shivering like an animal in danger.
Hermione twists her lips, heart breaking at the sight of her brave, beautiful, terrified, best friend.
“Yes.”
Hermione’s heart shatters like shards of stained glass.
“It does.”
And so, the darkness settles once more, gripping her heart and her mind and always overcoming time.
***
The late October wind is brisk against Harry’s form, a chilling embrace and a warm goodbye in order to make way for the descent of colder times. Her hands, soft and scarred, are bundled within her pockets, not a pair of gloves to be seen. A Gryffindor scarf wrapped around her face, hiding her pink cheeks and pale complexion, and Harry’s mind is not focused on the cold, freezing as it is, but instead on the journey through London.
Perhaps she should apparate, but being simply a face within a sea of people is comforting, if dangerous.
Her boots thud gently across the concrete, like the beat of her heart, thudding on and on despite her wanting it to stop. Her thumb traces the grooves of her rings as she boards the bus, pulling out some spare change and moving on up the stairs. Harry chooses a seat on the upper deck, choosing a seat at the back, against the window as she leans her face against it, observing the moving traffic as her face, slowly warming due to heat of the bus, grows cool by pressing it against the window. There is a slow kerfuffle, only waiting for a pram to board the bus as she watches from above, and then they are off, zooming down the streets of London.
There is slow chatter, the cries of the child from the pram downstairs and the chattering of another one; she watches out the window, cars passing by and the odd taxi or motorcycle. Shops, one after the other, the local newsagents or even a spare furniture shop, stuffed with sofas and beds and armchairs. The traffic slows, irritated tempers rising as the child in the pram cries on and on, louder and louder as even the denizens on her floor, few and far in between on the second floor, grow irritated, the rattle having no effect as the traffic continues to trail.
There’s a slight whiff of smoke, burning her lungs as she turns her head around; she follows the smell, noticing a teen in the back, clearly bunking school guessing by the way he’s dressed. The cigarette is clearly between his fingers, tapping rhythmically against the window, bdum-bdum-bdum, like a set of drums, on and on and on. His eyes are vacant, bringing the lit cigarette to his lips familiarly, inhaling through the nose, and exhaling the smoke through the mouth, practised and disciplined. His shirt is buttoned up, the first two popped open and the third pulled straight off, a black blazer covering it with a school logo on the pocket, a handkerchief tucked in it.
Fancy.
His shoes are scuffed, not dress shoes but ordinary Nike trainers, like the ones she sees on the muggle billboards. His jaw, on the other hand, seems close to swelling, and his lip is busted, dried blood on his white collar no doubt from earlier dripping. He brings the cigarette to his lips again, they’re quite cheap nowadays, Harry knows, brings it to his chapped, blood-dried lips, pulling it away as he exhales the smoke and as his other hand seems to fiddle with his sleeve buttons, fingers rooting under and tracing something on his wrist obsessively, the very notion so familiar to her, like seeing a familiar lover with a stranger.
He brings the cigarette to his lips, placing it feather light in between, trying to inhale.
Harry tilts her head, licking her lips.
She wants it, that cigarette.
“You alright?”
His eyes widen, choking on his breath as he splutters, tiny drops of tobacco-laden dust settling on his shirt as he pulls the cigarette away.
“Shit.”
They say at the same time, Harry’s apologetic whilst the boy is frustrated, trying to dust it off but failing miserably; he gives it up as a lost cause, glaring at Harry before sitting up from his slouching posture and leaning against the window.
“I’m fine.” He says, words dragged from his mouth as he looks to the side, striped tie swinging haphazardly, right to left. He seems as if he wants to return to his business, but Harry tries to interrupt again.
“You sure? You look a little messed up.”
He glares again, brows drawn together whilst brown eyes are fierce, a dark glare sent her way. While Harry’s hair could be likened to the autumn leaves, this boy truly carries the fierceness of the vibrant colours around him, despite being coloured more like the earth, eyes a dark, fathomless brown whilst his skin is a chocolate cacao, rich and vibrant and much at home among the vibrant colours of the autumn day.
“Yeah? I didn’t notice.” He snarks, arms crossed. “I’m fine, lady. Leave off, yeah? Don’t let the troubled youth and the bloody hoodlum bother your day. I don’t need help from you, and I didn’t ask for it.”
He pulls the cigarette to his lips again, clearly dismissing Harry and her attempt at conversation.
It doesn’t bother her, not really, but it is fascinating, the way that he handles the cigarette so skilfully; Harry had tried it once, stealing a pack from Dudley’s friend Piers, but all she was able to do was choke on it.
She much prefers alcohol, simpler and much more refined; the ability to pick the perfect drink to get wasted with is as much of a skill as it is to smoke a cigarette carelessly refined.
She still wants it, though.
This boy hasn’t mastered the art yet but Harry’s sure the time will come, based on how he seems to be doing now.
The traffic is speeding up now, the bus finally pulling its weight.
“What’s your name?” Harry asks.
She doesn't know why she is so persistent, but this boy reminds her somewhat of herself.
(But then again, maybe all teenagers will – do.)
The boy glares mulishly before twiddling the cigarette between his fingers, answering slowly as he takes in her curious face, “Why’d you wanna know?”
Harry smiles, a tiny thing, like the lap of the wave before a storm approaches. “Fair enough.” She acquiesces, benevolent in her graciousness. “At least tell me who roughed you up?”
The kid sighs, as if tired of her confusing adult shenanigans.
(She’s barely even that – an adult, that is.)
“Listen, lady, I get you’re trying to help and all, and thanks, but no thanks.”
She draws her hands out of her pockets, swinging her arm round the chair and fiddling with a curl as she turns to speak to him, the bus finally gaining momentum.
“You sure?”
Her glasses slide down her nose, broken more than once and in sore need of a prescription change, she’s sure.
The teen sighs again, rubbing his surely aching, swollen, cheek. “I’m fine, lady, how many times do I need to –”
He cuts off midway, a strange curiosity entering his eyes.
“How did you get that?”
He’s pointing to her hand, the red scarring of ‘I will not tell lies.’, the writing stark against her porcelain skin.
She traces the slope of the letters, written in her own hand. She brushes her fingers over it, feels the grooves of the scarring despite being mostly healed by murtlap essence.
“Teacher had me do it.” She admits, a frown on her delicate features. “Bitch, that one. The old hag had me carve it into my skin in fi – er, Year 11.”
She pauses.
“Repeatedly?” He asks, eyes wide and wondering.
“Repeatedly.”
The boy frowns, deep in his concentration, cigarette burnt out and forgotten. “Must’ve been shit.” He finally says, a question in his eyes.
“Yeah,” Harry says, wondering what she’ll say next. “The whole year was fucked up, to be honest. Godfather died, and then a whole lot more shit later.”
The teen looks pensive, scratching his arm.
She wonders why she told this nameless child this, when even Hermione and Ron can’t get her to talk about it.
(She knows why. Talking to a stranger is easier than talking to those she knows.)
“M’name’s Dion.” The boy - Dion - says.
“Yeah?”
(Time to leave.)
“What happened to you then, kid?”
He scoffs.
“You can’t be much older than me. What are you? Eighteen? Nineteen?”
“Twenty.” She proclaims, proud and spiteful. “Still older than you. What are you, then? Sixteen?”
“Fifteen.” He states, voice muted.
“Hmm.” She replies. “What happened to you, then, fifteen-year-old Dion?”
He glares at her, glancing to the side and picking up his now-extinguished cigarette, fiddling with it between his fingers. “Bunch a fuck-wits called me a faggot and then decided they wanted to rough me up when I told them to piss off. I got the first punch, ‘course, but got suspended for ‘inciting violence and disruption’,” he finishes, the last few words said with mimed quotation marks.
“Is it true?” Harry asks, a rising of the brow following her question.
“What’s it to you?” He throws back, defensive.
“There’s nothing wrong with being queer.” Harry says mildly, thinking of Luna and Dean and herself.
(Thinking of Sirius.)
“There is, when they call me that.”
She snatches the cigarette from his fingers as he lets it loll, rolling it to and fro between her pointer finger and thumb.
Mission accomplished.
(He doesn’t seem to realise that he’s just given himself away.)
“What’re you gonna do then?”
“Huh?” Dion asks, a tilt of the head.
“You can’t retaliate every time someone calls you something like that. I learnt that the hard way.”
Harry lights the cigarette, a tap of her finger against the roll all that is needed.
Dion gasps, and seems a little spellbound.
He swallows, still enchanted but scuffing his trainers against the seat, narrowly missing what looks like either dried ketchup or blood.
(Could be both, either or none.)
“It’s not easy to control my temper. It just…overwhelms me.”
“I know.” Harry says, smiling softly, eyes warm and understanding.
And she does.
She really does.
“But you’ve got to try, that’s the best you can do.”
The bus halts to a stop.
“That’s my stop.” She says, making her way down the aisle and down the stairs, passing the sleeping baby, and ignoring the pointed glares at the cigarette between her fingers.
She leaves the bus, stepping under the shelter.
She brings the cigarette close to her lips, draws in an inhale, and lets out a stream of smoke, ringlets visible in the cold.
It burns down her throat, but not like alcohol, which is quick and burning and fast. No, this is slower and more cloying, leaving effects that must build up over years to cause significant, irreparable harm, symptoms visible all the same.
Alcohol does much the same too, she muses.
They are much the same, these two weapons of self-destruction, but both different in their own ways.
Dion looks through the upper window, watching her like a hawk.
She goes to the nearby litter bin, puts out the light, and leaves the cigarette butt there, kept company by only a few others like it.
She raises a hand to Dion in farewell, he blinks once, just once, and she is gone.
He goes home and wonders about that odd, odd, lady whilst his mum sighs and cleans up his shirt, her NHS lanyard left on the table as she scrubs the suspicious tobacco-smelling dust off.
(He’s having a talking too later, she’ll make sure.)
It’s only when he’s in his bedroom, doing some maths homework and trying to work out the missing angles that he wonders about the woman, young and scarred, holding herself like how he imagines a soldier does: posture straight and body open yet face and mind guarded.
He never even got her name, he realises while he presses in some digits into his calculator, that lady with green eyes like spring and red hair like autumn.
(He never even got her name, he remembers whilst eating his dinner, that lady that could ignite a fire with only a tap of her finger.)
***
Diagon Alley is resplendent, warm and bustling and coated in a blanket of magic, just as during the summer. Leaves cover the cobble path, and witches and wizards bustle pass, dragging children and shopping bags whilst bundled in warm cloaks and robes. Nothing like the deserted streets of war time, yet still carrying scars all the same.
The economy flourishes, yet it is not so easy to build it up to what it was pre-war times. New stalls decorate the alley, gloomy, war-mongering markets during the war disappearing. Those like Mundungus, profiting off shady dealings and dodgy traps, disappear to further corners after the DMLE cracks down on those that took advantage of the fear rampant during Voldemort's reign.
It’s only a few days till Halloween, and pumpkins litter the street, carved with spooky faces while children too young to know the true extent of war marvel at them, enchanted by how they glow. Weasleys' Wizards Wheezes is still as prosperous as ever and as much as she’d like to drop by and greet George, that’s not why she’s here.
No, that’s not it at all.
She passes Florean Fortescue’s Ice Cream Parlour, offering pumpkin ice cream and pumpkin-spiced tea and hot chocolate, tempted by the smell reminding her of her childhood days spent in Hogwarts and wants to make sure she’ll pick up some cups later for the three of them. She weaves past Slugs and Jiggers and past Flourish and Blotts, making a note to pick up a book for Hermione.
Harry breathes a sigh of relief when she makes it past a group of bustling adults, high off firewhisky by the looks of it, and makes her way past to her destination.
There.
Orpington & Jules Wizarding Solicitors.
The reason she is here, braving the quiet anonymity muggle London provides her and the precarious anonymity of bustling Diagon Alley, only guaranteed by her heavy scarf around her shoulders and her Notice Me Not charm, is because she is here for Tonks and Remus.
She is here because she is required, and because Andromeda Tonks is here.
She is here because Andromeda Tonks is the key to Teddy, her beloved godson.
She is here because she is Harriet Potter and whilst Harriet Potter is kind and brave and compassionate, yes, she is also simply, undeniably, wonderfully, Harry.
Harry (not Harriet, not her, the Girl-Who-Lived-Twice) is reckless and stubborn and simply far too guilty. She loves too fiercely and loses those dear to her heart too quickly and she is without a lick of common sense, always jumping head first into action, flirting with danger, and evading death only by the barest brush of her invisibility cloak.
Harry is purely Gryffindor, the best friend of Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley, and she is an honorary Weasley, their second (or first, depending on how you look at it) daughter. She is, too, the daughter of Lily and James Potter, and she is the goddaughter of Sirius Orion Black, yes.
She is all these things, but she is also something else:
She is broken.
Harriet Potter, the Girl-Who-Lived-Twice, the Dark Lord Defeater, is sane and alive and simply undefeatable.
Harry, the girl who lived in a cupboard and fed her pet owl scraps from her own plate, the girl who cried herself to sleep when she had visions of murder and who knew she would either kill or be killed, is broken.
Harry Potter (not Harriet, the Chosen One and the Darling of the Wizarding World) has lost too much during the years she has lived; she’s lost a mother in Lily Potter and a father in James Potter and a dear friend in Fred. She’s lost a mentor in Professor Dumbledore and a hated teacher in Snape and someone she could finally call the closest thing to a parent in Sirius. She’s lost a potential friend in Cedric Diggory and a beautiful, brilliant one in Dobby. She’s lost a wonderful teacher in Remus and lost a bright bubbling confidant in Tonks.
She's lost all these wonderful, beautiful people, all out of her control, but now?
Now, with her heart fierce and bloody, with her cracked mind and soul forged together for this one tiny, important moment; now, with her determination iron strong and her magic crackling like flames, she will forge on.
She’s sacrificed her heart and her mind and her sanity for the world; she’s lost so many precious people for the lark of it, and she’ll be damned if she’s losing Teddy too, she thinks fiercely, stepping through the plain oak door and past towards a desk.
Her face is firm and her determination dogged as she lifts her Notice Me Not just as the woman looks up, enchanted by the client with piercing eyes of spring and flaming hair of autumn.
“Name?” The woman asks, eyes a pale blue and hands covered in quill callouses, moving over to write something with a black quill on a piece of formal looking parchment, most likely a register of the day's clients and visitors.
Harry blinks, startled, and smiles, radiant in her determination.
(She is lost in her grief and her rage and her guilt, yes, but for this child she will fight.)
She has a broken, bloody, soul, yes, but it is undeniably hers.
“Harriet Lily Potter,” She starts, pretty pink lips forming around her name elegantly, like fire forging a sword or a wand maker carving out a friend, “I’m here for the reading of Remus John Lupin and Nymphadora Tonks’ will.”
She is here to reclaim family.
(She is here to reclaim a fragment of herself.)
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