#idk I just notice this every time I see him as Billy vs seeing him as anyone else including himself lol

[heartbreak-sandwich]

I love Dacre Montgomery as a person and an actor. And I am well aware that he is a gorgeous man. BUT can we just talk for one second about how when he plays Billy, he looks wildly different than he does in his other roles? And I'm not talking about the costume, or the blast from the past 80s yassification, or the fake tan, or any of that. Dacre is a master at his craft.

He looks MENACING as Billy Hargrove. He looks tough, and angry, and edgy, and terrified, and hurt, and just.....SO DIFFERENT from himself and any other character I've seen him play. When the cameras aren't rolling, and he's chilling behind the scenes in costume, he looks like Dacre. But when the lights go up, and he channels Billy Hargrove, he CHANGES ENTIRELY, and it's fucking uncanny. Does anyone else notice this, or am I delusional??

[rnegitsune]

Ok so I thought I'd put together some horror stories from my time as a babymetal fan bc of how drastic the shift in the fandom has been the past year or so. For context I got into babymetal in like june of 2014 (all 3 girls were still underage at the time, I was 22; when I first got into them I thought I would be considered an older fan lmao the naivete, the innocence of new fan me wow I know now I'm not at all in the older half of the fandom esp considering I was born the same decade as su and moa), and I made this blog in I think may of 2015.

I've had people say I should compile men being gross into a post and I just couldn't do that out of fear for my own mental health but this will be pretty close. These are all my experiences with this fandom over the years; I'm definitely missing some but what I do remember should do well to cover most of how this fandom used to be vs now. It's gonna be a lot and tw for men being gross about minors.

Back in my first year or so of this blog I on multiple occasions got dms from men asking to be friends. At the time my bio only said my name and my pronouns. I've always been cautious of dms so I'd ask their age and every single one was considerably older than me. I wouldn't usually answer after that bc no thanks but they would generally try to continue convos til I blocked. The only one I still had was this one

After I put my age in my bio, which was 23 at the time, I never got a dm like that again; take from that what you will. But if you're young please be wary of this hell fandom even now. And if you're an older fan and esp an older male fan reading this, don't dm people trying to be friends. I was over 18 and it still creeped me out to no end.

One of my real first men in this fandom are disgusting moments was a blog back in like 2015 or 2016 who I had some contact with due to common interests; he was a huge yui stan and made bm content. He was like 28 or 29 at the time and I eventually noticed he would tag idols, mostly kpop girls, by their body parts (legs, butt, etc) which is disgusting enough as it is but then I saw him do the same for literal minors, like tzuyu from twice. I messaged him asking what the hell he was doing objectifying women but also actual children and he blocked me lmao. He later unblocked me to let me know that's just how he tagged things and it was my fault he had anxiety and then he blocked me again.

Back before the tumblr purge this fandom was repulsive to a degree I cannot even begin to describe. Someone would reblog something from me, I'd go to their blog and it would be underage jpop idols and japanese p*rn all the way down. I even stumbled upon a man editing underage su into p*rn gifs. Obviously no proof of that but I did go find my initial reaction to it

The number of times I'd get a follow from someone then go to their blog and it would be as mentioned above or their bio would be the most misogynistic trash I'd ever read was staggering. I genuinely considered giving up and deleting this blog so many times bc i felt oberwhelmed and outnumbered by these gross old dudes; and so the fact that this fandom has evolved into a bunch of chaotic wlw?? Amazing, I could cry.

Fun phenomenon of women running bm blogs was men sending messages asking if we liked babymetal. No joke. I think this happened to me two or three times but I spoke w other female creators at the time and it had happened to them as well. My entire blog is babymetal, and yet???

He said the weird guy idk bc he sent some random ass messages vaguely insulting me and when I responded coldly, he acted confused so I said you're some guy idk, hence the above message starting as such. Also that pic and the one up above that has my current pfp bc I just took those screenshots. Like I said I typically blocked weird dms but I guess these passed me by so I still had the messages.

Most people know the sub reddit is the worst and don't need me to tell you but it's a hellscape and I highly recommend avoiding it. A short list of things I've had to see as a result of going there: men discussing at length kano and momoko's appearances and how they look in costume vs in normal clothes. Men discussing at length the hope that the girls would marry men who aren't Japanese, a thread that was from when all 3 girls were underage. They aren't gonna marry you dude they're really not.

The insulting of billie Eilish, a 17 year old at the time, was horrible too. Su and moa got to meet her, something they were extremely excited for, and they posted a pic; the comments were disgusting as you can imagine. The yui rumors were terrible too, fatshaming, slutshaming etc all based on nothing. Some man saying the rumors about yui leaving bc, no joke this was a real rumor, she "got too fat" couldn't be true bc "look at saya." Saya being a barely 18 yo back up dancer who covered the third spot after yui left but before the avengers. Not to mention the upskirt shots from when they were minors, the constant editing of their faces onto explicit photoshoots etc. I remember being a new fan looking for a su pic on google and being horrified at the fact that one of the top suggested results after her name was “bikini;” she was 16 at the time. Also, the uptick in massively creepy posts and messages sent to bm blogs as each girl, but esp moa and yui, approached 18 was disgusting.

Now for some personal nonsense. A big reason why I haven't touched my youtube channel in months is bc I got tired of dealing with the men of this fandom. I poke fun at metal and get told I deserve to die. I say ped*philes and creepy men are gross and get a swarm of middle aged men cursing at me. Had a guy cry about how men are shamed for liking bm and then he turned around and said some gross shit about wlw. Had a guy call me racist for liking a band he also likes (and despite him having no way of knowing my own race) and tell me the babymetal fandom doesn't need my kpop feminist bullshit, which is honestly a great description and I thought about putting it in my yt about lmao. Had a middle aged man unironically say he'd never seen a man be creepy towards bm but fans su and moa's ages calling them hot was creepy. The disillusionment....the level of unawareness is astounding. If you want to see screenshots of some of these comments they are fairly recent in my don't mind me tag; I don't want to see them anymore tho bc they're infuriating so I'm not going to look at them to post here.

Essentially I haven't looked at my channel since may bc men are exhausting and rude and refuse to examine the fandoms they're a part of no matter what. They're told by a woman of the fandom that she's had bad experiences personally and they all start crying about how it's either a lie bc they haven't seen it or unimportant. I did stop reading comments in may and I will never read another one again probably as a result of this shit. Trash men being trash are not worth my time and I refuse to give them anymore of it. I do plan on making more videos tho and let my ~feminist kpop bullshit~ live in their minds rent free.

I will also continue to make fun of metal and the creepy men in this fandom bc it's important and I'm a spiteful asshole who likes disrupting these dudes perfect bubble of a fandom. It genuinely brings me so much joy seeing all the new fans recently (which sidenote if you got into them recently I am kinda curious as to how you found them; I've gotten tons of new followers and considering how inactive they are rn I'm curious). People sending messages about how they finally feel like they belong or that they have a safe space....like I don't even know what to say and I never feel like my responses fully convey how genuinely wonderful that is and how thrilled I am that this is where we're at now and I have had at least some part in it. As this post shows, my experiences have been negative for the most part so the shift recently is such a relief I cannot even begin to explain my gratitude.

So to anyone who read all of this and hasn't disintegrated from the male bullshit, thank you. Keep being yourself and fighting for your place in this fandom, esp if you're a young woman; keep making fun of the creeps and keep making wlw memes!! Babymetal's music is in such a huge way meant for girls and to see more and more finding their way to this previously hellish beyond belief fandom is incredible.

[violet-harmxn]

American Horror Story Tag :))

Thank you so much @mistydany13 for tagging me in this! Sorry it took a while; I was stuck on a couple of these questions but I finally just decided to go for it. 

Overall: 

1.) What season is your favorite? I have always really loved Murder House and Coven, but Cult is amazing too. Probably those three, although I do tend to alternate between them for the top spot . ATM I would say Murder House.

2.) What season is your least favorite? Really unpopular opinion but Asylum was just... boring. It was great watching it once, and the plot sucks you in. But I find this season (and Freakshow) the hardest to rewatch. I couldn’t even get through an episode of Asylum for the second time watching it. 

3.) Do you have a favorite episode overall? If yes, which is it? I love Hotel with a burning passion and the final episode for that season was probably my favorite episode in AHS history. 

4.) Who is your favorite character? Violet Harmon (wow, shocker!) and Winter Andserson, but I also really love Dandy Mott/Edward Philippe Mott. I don’t know why but I just can relate to them in a weird way?

5.) Who is your least favorite character? Maggie Esmeralda or Hayden. They were both quite annoying. 

6.) Who has been your favorite guest star so far? I love Darren Criss so much and when he appeared in Hotel I nearly passed out. I love that man. 

7.) If you can have anyone be a guest star, who would it be? This may seem funny, but the crew of Ghost Adventures. In Roanoke I like how they were sort of mocking them, but if the actual guys came onto the show and ‘collabed’ with Billie Dean, I’d love it. 

8.) If you could come up with the next season, what would it be? Ghost Town in the American West. Once you get there, you can never leave and you can never die. I want them to be in a sort of time warp. The townsfolk believe they’re alive and are unaware that they’re all dead and living like it’s 1860. A traveller comes across the place and thinks they’re all just freaks, but they notice that there's some freaky shit going on when they can’t die. There’s someone else there who stumbled upon the place too who confronts the traveler and says some shit about a weird supernatural force coming to the town every so often. Shit then happens. 

9.) If you could meet any of the cast members, who would it be? Sarah seems like such a nice woman, I feel like I would wanna meet her the most. 

10.) What are you looking forward to with the next season? I like how so many new fans are coming into the fandom due to characters returning and the hype. But I will most look forward to seeing the Coven and the Harmons again. 

MURDER HOUSE:

1.) Which episode is your favorite? Maybe Piggy Piggy? I liked the side plot of the whole ‘Piggy PIggy’ thing and how it tied in with Roanoke. 

2.) Which episode is your least favorite? Afterbirth.  Mainly because of how we never got  closure with the whole season. I know this setup Apocalypse 7 years later but still... 

3.) Who is your favorite character?  Violet, but I also really like Nora and Charles Montgomery. No clue why, they just intruige me.

4.) Who is your least favorite character? Hayden. “I want my baby, Ben.” I love Kate Mara, but after a while Hayden just got on my nerves! 

5.) If you could change anything about the season, what would it be? Ben wouldn’t die. I think it would have made for an interesting plot to return to Ben Harmon later on in the show and maybe he’s insane or obsessed with getting his family back. I just wanted Ben to live (even if I didn’t love him). 

ASYLUM:

1.) Which episode is your favorite? Madness Ends. I didn’t like this season but the finale was great. 

2.) Which episode is your least favorite? Any other episode tbh. 

3.) Who is your favorite character? I loved Sister Jude a lot. 

4.) Who is your least favorite character? Grace. I still say there’s something sketchy about her. 

5.) If you could change anything about the season, what would it be? Thredson wasn’t bloody face, but instead Bloody Face was a random guy who is forcing Thredson to help him by proving Kit to be guilty. I just thought it was so predictable that he was the villain. 

COVEN:

1.) Which episode is your favorite? Bitchcraft. Sets the tone for the season perfectly. 

2.) Which episode is your least favorite? IDK what it’s called, but the one where Marie and Fiona team up and the Witch hunter plot as well as the voodoo vs witch plot just vanished? SO MUCH POTENTIAL WAS LOST. 

3.) Who is your favorite character? I loved Misty, Fiona, Myrtle and Zoe. 

4.) Who is your least favorite character? The neighbor bitch next door. 

5.) If you could change anything about the season, what would it be? I wouldn’t have Fiona and Marie team up, and I wouldn’t have the witch hunter plot vanish either. Have the Coven prepare for war with Marie and the school blows up while Marie gets jealous and angry. That would be a great ending. 

FREAKSHOW:

1.) Which episode is your favorite? Show Stoppers.

2.) Which episode is your least favorite? Curtain Call; this was the second worst ending. It’s only exempt from that spot because of Pepper’s backstory (it’s in this one, right?)

3.) Who is your favorite character? Dandy. His character was amazing and again... had so much potential for a good plot line. 

4.) Who is your least favorite character? Maggie or Jimmy. Both annoying as hell. 

5.) If you could change anything about the season, what would it be? Twisty wouldn’t die so early on, the Dandy plot line would be played out a lot more and not pushed to the side. Also, scrap the whole last episode. Have Dandy shoot every freak and end  the season there with him standing on the stage. It gave me chills and I wish it would have ended right there. (Maybe have a montage of Elsa/Jimmy/Desire reacting to the events while the final shot is in back of Dandy with all the dead cast just laying on the ground in front of him). 

HOTEL: 

1.) Which episode is your favorite? Finale. 

2.) Which episode is your least favorite? The one about the vampire kids at school. The plotline was unnecessary and I just didn’t... like it. 

3.) Who is your favorite character? Iris and Liz Taylor were the best characters. And throw in James March, John and Donovan too.

4.) Who is your least favorite character? The little vampire kid that Alex brought back from sickness. 

5.) If you could change anything about the season, what would it be? The vampire kid plotline. Also Donovan dying. Not because I like him but because I feel like it would be more interesting.

ROANOKE:

1.) Which episode is your favorite? Chapter 10 only because Lana comes back. 

2.) Which episode is your least favorite? Chapter 9. I hated Lee and wanted Audrey to live. 

3.) Who is your favorite character? Audrey, Rory, or my babe Edward Mott. 

4.) Who is your least favorite character? Lee or her husband. 

5.) If you could change anything about the season, what would it be? The real Edward Philippe Mott shows up and vlogs everyone’s deaths in return to Roanoke. 

CULT:

1.) Which episode is your favorite? Winter of Our Discontent. The whole Messiah-Baby plot was the fucking BEST! And the one with Kai and WInter’s backstory when they go to the creepy Murder House (no, not that one).

2.) Which episode is your least favorite? The final episode. 

3.) Who is your favorite character? I loved Winter but also? I kind of really liked Kai? And Meadow?

4.) Who is your least favorite character? I hated Ivy. No clue why. 

5.) If you could change anything about the season, what would it be? Winter’s death, but I know it had to be done. 

Surprisingly, that took a long time, but I just wanted to thank @mistydany13 once more for tagging me! I don’t really know anyone (I’m fairly new to Tumblr) but I tag everyone who reads this who likes AHS but hasn’t done this tag yet.