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mtt therapy moment except dust keeps taking breaks to talk to phantom papyrus and horror just wants this to hurry up so it can get to his turn because he couldn't give two shits about dust and killer's trauma and killer physically cannot discuss his issues and just starts zoning out while crying for some reason during it
and i'm the therapist listening to all of this writing down notes fervently because ITS CANON MATERIAL CANON I NEED TO GET THE CANON MATERIAL
#i have to break apart like 34 potential fights with my otherdimensional godly creator powers#i would be an ass therapist i will not lie. infact i would make them worse with my knowledge of their lives. never put me in a room w them#OH MY GOD I JUST REVISTED THIS IDEA AFTER LEAVING IT TO COLLECT DUST (hehehe) IN MY DRAFYS FOR A MONTH#ANS TJIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY HELP 😭😭😭😭😭 HELP😭😭😭😭😭😭#still real tho highkey i havent changed 1 bit. ITS CANON OMG WRITE THSY DOWN WHAY WERE THE EXACT REACTIONS#ive got these guys wearing microphones i got cameras in the room i got advanced psychologists watching to explain every detail#is it a therapy session or just a badly disguised interview#nooo nooo its therapy......DONT LEAVS!!!! (activates the chains (that coincidentally all are connected to eachother) (heheheheh))#now youCANT leave😈😈😈😈😈 not until im done asking my questions ASSHOLES. dont question the handcuffs that keep you guys together please#actually id probably get like nothing out of them because theyre all repressed and defensive and whatever. BUT im simply more determined so#tricule rant#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#fandom event if the mtt ever became real. we're all lining up to the facility to ask one question#world's hardest challenge: if you could ask the murder time trio one thing what would it be#FUCK idk...... id simply hav too many questions!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!#triglycercule do your homework SHUT UO RESPONSIBLE VOICE IN MY HEAD!!!! I WONT!!!!! NOT UNTIL THIS IS DONE#fall headcanons for the trio when. i'll think of them once i'm done with homework#see a reward system! now i have a thought that i dont wanna say in tags this will be going to the side blog#anyways! i think that's enough drafts undrafted and posted i REALLY need to do my homework#i dont even have that much it's literally 2 assignments but i know damn well doing 1 of them is gonna bring me to dream and nightmare's age#sigh......... i hate school bring me back to summer break i wasSO productive. SMH
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☽༓・*˚⁺‧͙ ‧͙⁺˚*・༓☾
#this has been in drafts for awhile#don’t even ask me what these faces are#cause idk#and yes this is my favorite filter#so fuck right off ya wee idjit#girls with glasses#girls with tattoos#girls with long hair#girls with faces 😂#girls with piercings#personal.#s#these have been sitting in my drafts for awhile so I’ll just leave these here
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i think. fuck. im gonna try and make the ed/izzy getting back together au actual fic. who the fuck am i
#this probably lowers the chances of it ever seeing the light of day even more now but#i feel like its way out of scope for a tumblr post. nobody would read that. and its gotten very precious to me#nyxtalks#it wont be good. i have absolutely no writing skills and cannot maintain a tone to save my life but. i think thats gonna be the only way#to do it justice. so we will see#ive actually tried a couple concept before. tried making them read like a narrative. but ive never made something im proud of#i hate taking things seriously too bc it means i cared n care when its back. a stupid silly post is fine whatever happens but if i cared#i want it to be good#sorry this is miserable justttttt. idk. i think im gonna try and then ill leave it as a draft foreverrrrrrr
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#*beep* oh. hey. guess you're sleeping? maybe you're at work. or out with friends. i hope wherever you are it's good#or that it's getting better. i really do#i'm not good. but you knew that already. otherwise why would i be leaving this message?#sorry. i just need to talk for a bit i guess#cause it's like. every day i write a hundred posts and every day i delete most if not all of them#and i could not tell you why#this is my blog after all. my words and thoughts go here#but also. this is my third place. and i can't lose that#isn't that crazy? i can't lose the handful of notes from reblogging other people's posts#the idea that somehow i'm constructing myself in the cut and paste instead of doing something myself#and i do try to make posts of my own. but nothing's ever worth posting. i don't even let it rot in the drafts. it's just gone#and i try to think about what would stop me from doing this#which inevitably brought me here - what would i be doing if it were fifty years ago#and i think the answer is i'd be calling someone who used to care and blowing up their answering machine#and i think about old answering machines. the ones that need a tape to record the message#does dora just re-record over the tapes that harry fills?#does she trash them? i'm guessing she doesn't listen to them#i won't tell you what to do with this message. i'll spare you a call to action#it's not like a diary would fix this. i have a diary. i've been keeping one regularly for months now#i think i want to be perceived but i refuse to speak unless spoken to and i will not reach out on here unless i'm being a kindly anon#and when i talk irl it's all broken disjointed subjects without predicates#it takes such effort for me to talk that people stop asking me out of kindness. but there's still thoughts i haven't said#thoughts that don't need to be said. we don't *need* another person rambling on about whatever random fandom topic or half-assed scribbles#i tried making serious art and meta posts for like four years across different fandoms#it's all gone now. as is most of my poetry. lotta things i don't know or care to know#and i can't bring myself to do that again. esp if that's not why you're here. so like. it's easier just to remain quiet?#because. i know people *can* understand. but it takes effort#and i can't guarantee a return on investment. i don't know if the cost of teaching me how to talk again is worth it#god i want to infodump but that was beaten out of me. the need is still there but i can't. it hurts#idk. things are good and then things are bad and on the whole they're good and getting better
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ㅤㅤdue to being an original, klaus' blood is very potent; any supernatural that drank it would feel power they've never experienced before rushing through their veins. it would also basically give them a high, and they'd be extra energetic and more powerful for as long as his blood remained in their system. and naturally, anyone, including humans, would have any injuries healed basically instantly upon consuming his blood. it's important to note that due to being the original hybrid, his blood also contains werewolf venom. this would normally be a big issue for any vampire feeding on him, considering how negatively werewolf venom impacts vampires. but luckily enough, klaus' blood is of course also the cure for a wolf bite - so a vamp feeding on him would basically be simultaneously getting a bite and being cured of it at the same time. overall, it won't harm them, just basically gives klaus' blood a bit of a kick. think of it kind of like the supernatural version of hot sauce. spicy, but worth it if you can handle the pain.
#i know in canon werewolf venom is only produced in the mouth but as always im taking liberties jdfka#plus klaus is already so unique; why not add another thing? also his blood is literally the cure so i feel like it could make sense?#idk even if it doesnt pls leave me alone im small and dumb 😩#this was originally saved as a draft that said “talk abt klaus’ blood dipshit”#bc i kept forgetting to do so lmao#does the hot sauce thing make it obvious that i dont take anything seriously? fdksa#headcanon.
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do you ever hear the phrase "I was so scared of wasting a day that I nearly wasted my life" and have it haunt you for a month
there are so many times I've felt like I simply lost years, and you'll finally do something and realize you spent six months saying "I should do that soon" without doing anything or "I should get back to that" each day for months on end
#this post is primarily about a mix of gender and writing stuff#but there's also a lot recently where I've felt like I came to thinking when did it become too late to do anything#I spent the last 8 months unsure what was happening with hrt treatment and it took 10 minutes to get the next process to start happening#instead of waiting unsure#(to be fair my doctor was just On Leave for 4 of those months but still)#and likewise it has been six months since I properly worked on my novel and it kills me inside not doing so#but it's also about like#idk missing people that just kind of drift away and u never really noticed when it just kind of happened and suddenly its been forever#it is a Rough Melancholy Evening#and while this is also celebrating the fact I did get the hrt ball rolling again#and trying to really pump myself up to return to The Shape of a Lie to finish a shareable draft with my friends#I think I spent a lot of July just kind of mourning many months of these things being on standby because I was afraid of wasting a day#and wasted half a year again#anyway love u guys I had a little bit to drink at a work party tonight and it made me sad and reflective lmao <3
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#OKAY BUT LIKE. IT STARTED AS A JOKE BUT LIKE. HEAR ME OUT..............#could be fun if suki and jie have a bit of a situationship that absolutely blows up when suki decides to leave the island#could be fun!!#suki could be absolutely in the wrong!!#could be a little heartbreaking!!#casual came on while i was folding laundry and i'm still nonstop thinking about this fic and...........#could be fun!#we'll see if it makes the final draft lol#writing tag#idk i've been thinking about how sure the warriors all call each other sister#but i think it would be very common for the warriors to date other warriors#so how does that conversation go? probably something as simple as ''can we stop being sisters?''#look i love breaking characters' hearts and i'm just compelled to break jie's with suki never ''being in the place'' to commit to anything#and so it's this casual situaitonship that jie just deludes herself into believing that they'll lead the koi bay warriors Together one day#and that suki will definitely come around -- she's just reeling from the loss that surrounds them -- she just Needs Time--#and then right before her fucking eyes this asshole boy shows up from the southern water tribe with the avatar and suddenly--#now suki's ready to leave the island and???????????#i might even let her see suki kiss sokka's cheek like.#could be fun! could be heartbreaking!!#could be just me who feels that way but like this fic is FOR ME so like.
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Usui's design makes me wanna make a HM/Story of Seasons dmmd AU... Fuck it:
Aoba - Player character therefore out unsuspecting farmer, gets left his parent's farm on the edge of town. Doesn't find out till he turns 23. Previously worked at Haga-san's general store. Can see forest sprites, which other people cannot.
Tae - Town Doctor who runs a small clinic that sells animal medicine as well. Aoba used to live with her at the clinic before moving out to live on the farm. Still comes by all the time to eat.
Haga - Runs the general store in town. Sells farming supplies and basic goods. The terrible trio still run amuck in this shop too.
Yoshie - Mayor and #1 nosey neighbor. Gives town improvement quests. Often sends Aoba treats and recipes in the mail. Akushima - Town's police. Constant harassing you about regulations and minor rule violations. Always patrolling around town.
Sei - Mysterious stranger that starts showing up in town after Aoba takes over the farm, seen in town only on sundays. Sometimes can be found in the forest clearing. Turns out he is actually a human form of the Harvest Goddess. Goddess form is Usui. Gives player farming quests to restore the town to balance with nature. Mizuki - Owns the town's only inn. The Black Needle, which is also a tavern that the townsfolk often gather at in the evening. Still does tattoo work in a private studio in the back. Sometime people come from out of town to seek out his skills.
Koujaku- A hairdresser who moved back to town a few years ago, used to play with Aoba as kids. Opens up a shop that- in addition to serving as a salon- sells new outfits. Very well liked in town and known for lending a helping hand to anyone who needs it.
Noiz - Moved to town somewhat recently and has a permanent room rented out at The Black Needle. He is barely seen out around the town, only at the occasional meal time in the tavern. No one knows him very well or why he moved here. Sticks out in the otherwise tight knit town. Said to be a programmer of some kind, working freelance.
Mink- Runs his own farm just outside of town. Lived here a long time but is fairly reclusive, but well respected. Comes to town to do carpentry work for the townsfolk. He offers to sells seeds from his farm to Aoba once he starts his farm. He can be commissioned to improve farm buildings as well.
Clear - Somewhat mysterious man who lives down near the ocean. Moved here after his grandfather passed away. Wanted to be near the ocean. Collects sea shells and baubles for a living. Gives the Aoba a fishing rod he bought but never figured out how to use (wanted to catch jellyfish). Can still be a secret robot, harvest moon get's wild sometimes. Ren - Basically the secret bachelor option in this game, like the witch/wizard character usually is. Forest sprite that is close to Aoba. Was in the form of a small fluffy talking dog that Aoba has known since he was a kid. Hangs out on the farm with Aoba. As part of doing a side harvest goddess quest line, Sei grants Ren a human body.
Allmates - Torn between keeping them as-is (minus ren) or making them all Forest sprites that start socializing with townsfolk as your progress the Harvest goddess quests and more people are able to see them again.
Virus and Trip - Weirdos who come to town on occasion and cause problems for Aoba. Interested in the the legend of the Harvest goddess and the power associated. Show up to hinder or help with the main questline depending on their mood.
Thank you for reading this far if you did lmao
#i wrote this a week ago and forgot completely till i looked at my drafts#let me make a niche au for even more niche content#i need someone to throw into the mines#blacksmiths are essential to HM but i can't think of anyone atm maybe kou and hagima can be a blacksmith duo#i could have made it koujaku with his sword stuff but clothing store is also a HM role and I don't wanna take his hair stuff away#leaving toue out of the list but im imagining him as like a former mayor who really fucked shit up in the past#i mostly don't know how to translate his atrocities into chill farming game but maybe later#ryuuhou probably shows up in koujaku events but idk what the au version of their beef is#has a HM game ever gotten into murder lmk#my post
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cyberpsychosis could maybe be so cool if it was people being possessed by some sort of rouge ai,or as part of a corporate conspiracy. like as a planned obsolescence thing where certain parts during production are programmed to make people Do That after a certain point so you have to buy the next new 20,000eddies cannon arms to replace the nearly identical previous model or else you might kill everyone you love and die because your cyberwares "outdated". or untraceable viruses infecting competing corporations cyberware using their rival's customer's livelihoods to sabotage their profits. and maybe any one of those things works in such a way that its designed to detect atypical brain chemistry in a host,and thus triggers more frequently with them to tage advantage of and use those people as a scapegoat and a way to further fear monger against them,and you can uncover that this is the case. or something along those lines. and the more cyberware someone has the more likely it is that they could encounter any of these scenarios. but no it is just #crazy people being too #crazy.
#they kinda toyed w something like that in earlier drafts. with dollchips and the project ghost thing thats too much to explain in tumbletags#but yeah#honestly w how little its present in the final game beyond Go Herd Them Up And Beat The Shit Out Of Them So They Can Recover In Therapy#Offscreen In An Optional Sidequest With Literally No Conclusion they couldve easily just retconned its existence in the world entirely#especially since really the only reason why it exists in the lore in the first place is so the humanity system in the ttrpg keeps your#character from becoming too overpowered from too much cyberware. like thats it.#but for how much they dont wanna flesh out any other conspiratorial type stuff for the sake of ''It is a Mystery👻''#and how much they went with ''idk where cyberpsychosis comes from we dont know if its even real'' ingame#edgerunners and mike pondsmith himself sure have a lot to say about it and exactly how it works#we cant even leave that up for interpretation for players to find some way into coping themselves into believing its not as weirdly ableist#as it is#and we cant do anything else with it that would actually be cool. or make sense. in universe and just logically.#however. im a dumbfuck and am not beyond thinking about how like. in a hypothetical scenario where melissa welles is still around#And jackies bled out corpse is still used for the arasaka supersoldier program and is going around killing people.i cant not think about ho#mama welles would have to handle both of her kids dying and also going on rampages out of (mostly) anyones control. like think about that.#heart wrenching and whatnot. could you fucking imagine with everything else shes been through.#anyway sorry for talking about things that very literally probably less than a dozen ppl know/care about its just. interesting.#i froth over the potential that it had#that im tricking myself into believing that it had
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moving on from the whole splatfest situation [really just gonna take a lil break from the game. maybe like a week or two until things calm down at least bc i really dont have the energy to deal with it at the moment]
i got an idea for orca to go on its first "date" with big man but. its under like. really awkward circumstances
like. it catches big man snooping around some forbidden areas in alterna, and threatens to disallow him from ever coming back unless he can prove he isnt just there to steal, again. big man ends up trying to prove it by taking orca on a "date" to show it around splatsville and specifically shows it everything it has kept note of that it finds interesting.
turns out big man was just trying really hard [and failing] to be subtle about figuring out orca's interests so he could come up with a peace offering. and now they're on a "date". and now neither of them really know what to do because big man is more used to doing this kinda stuff with shiver and frye [they know splatsville far better than orca and typically just drag big man around to wherever they feel like going. with orca, that doesn't really happen, and he has to come up with stuff to do, himself, and he doesn't wanna risk upsetting it] and orca. is really not used to just hanging out with people, or even leaving alterna
i imagine it ends up being a complete mess, but in the end, somehow, orca decides "yeah. this man's kind-hearted enough to try to make up for it when he knows he made an incredibly stupid mistake and fucked up, bigtime" and gives big man another chance. and big man gets all excited and promises to come visit just to talk, now and then. not that orca exactly wants him to come back, as it will feel weird around him, for a while, but yknow. some company might not be a bad thing-
#this was written as a draft at 6am when i was supposed to be getting sleep for an interview at 11am. i couldnt sleep i was too anxious :']#splatoon#splatoon 3#splatoon au#o.r.c.a.#big man#idk how this whole idea i got of them being together even started. i think it started as a crackship but evolved after about a day or two#anyway he l p they are on my mind and they will not leave
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#.txt#^imagine that as me yelling#strawberry#HELLOOOOO REEAMA....#i write to you via textpost tags because it is tradition and i am in anguish#man ive been doing things w for the last.. hm. little under 2 months. i am trying to figure out how to tell him-#that we will never be anything. that me leaving (abroad) didnt delay us dating. we never were meant to be#because well.. looks left. looks right. yeah i am still a lesbian when it counts (cant fathom growing old w a man. boy. wtvr)#and idk. even despite that no matter how sweet and kind and cute he is i think we are incompatible in a longterm romantic setting#though that is harder to describe. like. i dont think wed be able to fufill the others needs in certain ways#but i do love him so. just not enough to be his girlfriend with the certainty of becoming his ex girlfriend. and i dont love him correctly#(lesbianism)#i drafted a letter today but idk. cried my eyes out. do you think he'll still be my friend?
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hm. the dream of being a published original author vs my love for writing fic
#hm#hmmm#the idea of writing an original book has been intruiging since the fall#so very recent#& ive been intruiged since i realized i really really love leaving long analytical comments on fics#as my mutuals know#& mb i could use my love for literary analysis... & write my Own book......#& since then i've been listening to like writing podcasts & following authors on ig#it's not like i want my career to be Author#im a theatre major im pursuing theatre thats not changing#but like. GOD it'd be so cool to even PUBLISH a SINGLE original book#like 6th grade me writing that cringe book all 6th graders write at some point. would be SO happy & proud#but like#im afraid trying to publish a book would kill my love of writing bc publishing requires so many more layers of planning & drafts & edits#guys i wrote a 5k fic in 1 day yesterday i LOVE running around w/ a story#idk#im afraid the reasons i love writing fic do not align w/ the reasons ppl write books#also im afraid if i try to publish a book all the goodreads comments will be “is this. is this pjo fic”#OR EVEN WORSE “is this solangelo”#BUT LIKE....... i want to write about lesbians >:(#ARGH#idk i got an amazon gift card for christmas might just buy myself a book on writing#oh well#thx guys
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Starting tomorrow (July 19th), some of you will see a new navigation layout for the desktop website that we’re experimenting with.
I have the sudden urge to leave this site and never come back.
#salad-txt#why do I have to expand account to see the blogs#takes up so much fucking space#give blogs its own top level point#the account settings should be closer to the account menu point#not separated by the blogs with the blog settings oh my god#also idk what is the POINT of putting literally everything on the other side of the screen??#do you want to piss your users off or what#menu goes left search bar goes right#just give your UI devs a box of legos to play with and leave shit alone#and the moment I am in drafts or queue or anything I have the same menu to the left and to the right#to I guess the right one might get the axe#yes yes yes needs to make it more like other sites because users are too stupid to find a button labeled acc I guess#what would I send feedback for they can't even fix bugs in the mobile app#oh ALSO#i hate the bright “create” button i stg if they take away the completely useless but pretty top bar with the post types I will riot >:(
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Called to the Devil And the Devil said... ________________________
Rules / Muses
#;;self promo#Idk if I hate this or nah sksks#I've never been good at making promos#I just wing it tbh#also posting this now even tho no one's online. purely so I don't leave it in my drafts n forget abt it forever#tlou rp#the boys rp#mcu rp
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Idk. Felt cute, might delete later:
—Oi, wolfboy. Sit.
Suiryu watches him with the patience of a river carving itself into rock. The effect on Garou is the same; wearing him down as he wears away.
Garou narrows his eyes. —Why?
Suiryu sighs, shaking his head. —Why, why…You love that word, don’t you?
But Suiryu is already shifting his body, making more space, trusting that Garou will follow as surely as smoke follows beauty, or night follows day.
Above them, the sky flares with the first flames of a firebird sunset. Lurid hues of orange, and red consuming pallid shades of yellow and blue.
Garou is shivering. From the cold, from the scene, and from something else. He digs his fingernails into the bare flesh of his crossed arms. He shouldn’t feel like this.
—Sit with me, Suiryu says. Please.
But Garou’s body is already moving for him, toward him, moving on its own. There’s no question of heart; it doesn’t occur to him. But the answer comes easily enough.
Suiryu watches with a sly smile and eyes you could drown in—how chilling, how dark, how deep.
Garou stares back with eyes like flame; with a gaze as readily kindled as extinguished.
#one punch man#opm#opm fanfic#garou#garou x suiryu#idk probably won’t delete? Unless I come up with a wildly better draft and even then#my drafts are like my children I love all of them equally#it’s just that some of us are no longer on speaking terms#if you couldn’t tell it isn’t going to end well#I think I am getting tripped up writing this bc at that age / in this scenario I am definitely Suiryu#as in ‘indulging people’s desires without understanding that they have different feelings about sex than I do”’#‘so uh we did some stuff last night… technically what does that make us?🥹’ ’idk dude very close friends?’#I bring a ‘consenting adults are free to explore whatever mutually beneficial arrangements best suit them’ to the conversation#that many heterosexual men do not like to hear from a 21 y/old girl#(and still don’t really like to hear from a 30-something woman tbh)#anyway sir please kindly get dressed and leave my dorm room I would like to go back to drinking $5 Trader Joe’s wine & reading atlas shrug#*shrugged#plot twist ! the entire time I was asexual which in retrospect explains a lot
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im feeling so many ways abt late a5a2 homestuck (i just finished it actually) but the sufferer hit way different.
homestuck late a5a2 spoilers incoming!!!
adding this after writing way too much shit that im not fucking deleting: vent cw too
ok so my main thing that made me feel something (a rarity, like almost unheard of /gen /srs) was the signless' story. something about it just envoked feelings within me, i dont even know how to describe them
something about this fucking frame just made me feel... idk what. dread? pity? genuinely idk. obviously its not the whole "ouuuu tied up so hawttt" bullshit, idk i think the story combined with the music and imagery just made it to the farthest pits of my soul, and this point was the breaking/overwhelming point.
i almost want to sit thru all of it again just to try and figure it out. i want to feel that again to understand it. obviously if i read it again i wont feel anything cuz thoughts, emotions, and feelings are a rare experience for me.
i feel like the story felt like a metaphor for my life, not to get all emo and dark and edgy or whatever about it, im being completely level-headed and genuine with this.
fuck thats what it feels like's happening inside of me. i feel my compassion and love for others depleting, as its been for years, with the cards ive been dealt (not getting into that right now). ive been conscious of an eternal rage slowly growing inside of me, and these past few years i feel like the ratio of compassion vs. rage within me is leaning in a way that im just barely able to see how bad and scary it is. ive been subjected to a life of suffering in almost every place i could imagine, yet i always tried to stay a loving, caring person for the few individuals who bring about some light in this darkness.
yet i can see it happening before my very eyes. i see i am no longer who i once was, im worse, im violent and enraged all the time and its getting worse and harder contain with every passing day. its scary being able to watch yourself rot away into a bottomless pot of boiling rage.
torture and execution has always been the metephor ive used when describing how i live and feel inside. i think to see something so deep within me and something so relatable in front of me, written and drawn out as a story, i think that broke me.
#homestuck spoilers#cw vent#the signless#homestuck#this comic is the only thing thats made me feel something like this#it kinda makes me feel.. less lonely and like im not the only one whos lived like this.#kinda fucking wild how its the mutant bloods who i relate to the most#its almost like i am them in a way. perhaps my creation triggered a reaction throughout the universe to have them created#like i was their inspiration or theyre based off me#i know its not true but it makes me feel better#idk how i feel#i learned feelings the way an AI learns how people talk#or how they act etc. so like all these complex things are impossible for me to compute#ive written too much my hand really hurts cuz the whole possible fractured wrist thing or whatever. bye#no fucking way im leaving this in the queue or drafts#this is being posted publicly so everyone can see my fucking stupid fucking meltdowns#i really need to stop writing so much self deprecating and self exposing and self discovery bullshit#is that even what this is??? i dont fucking know anymore i cant stop typing fuck#nobody even reads any of my rants or tags or vents or whatever anyways. not like im looking for help or pity#but fuck i dont even know what reason i write or post shit like this#nothing good will ever come out of it#god i hate myself more than anyone else#i guess its good im my biggest adversary. i keep close tabs on each and every move ive made in the past#and everything i may or may not do in my future#i just realized this sounds like im playing a character wtf is wrong with me am i really this fucking moronic?#this is genuinely such a pathetic depressing annoying piece of shit to read back but i still feel like i have to post it#fuck the tags are longer than the post this is so stupid#fuck
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