#if i could survive my father and my illness and fucking speedrunning an MSDI (in fucking t*xas!)

[notjanine]

life has been a slog lately, everything is so hard and i give myself shit for struggling all the time, but. i did it. i completed everything i needed to do to get my dream job in record time and this is the year i finished. like. i did it. i was miserable for a good chunk of it, and i am reaping that arrival fallacy now (a dream job is still… a job), but wowee. not only did i finish it, i kinda crushed it. everyone’s goal in starting this career is to get hired out of one of their internship rotations, and i got hired out of TWO of mine.*

i also fell in love with a person i might actually spend my life with. we live together and now we have a baby** together. i’m still in this state that i planned to leave as soon as i finished school, but oh well. i miss my dog every day. i’m trying to make all this worth it, for when i finally get back to him. i’m beyond tired, but here’s to hoping the worst of my life is over. 2023’s been a wild one.