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mydr3aminvi0let · 4 months

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i wanna go back to school already i miss it im such a whore for academic validation. negl i love the stress. i love the late nights and the feeling in my brain i love the fear of success and i love the fear of failure i love working towards something obsessively, relentlessly. i love having a reason and an explanation to let myself go as far as i want to for the sake of understanding. i love devoting myself to something completely. i love the frustration and the clarity of unraveling something to understand the system it operates in. i love being pushed. i need the satisfaction of mastering something in a definitive, provable, measurable way. i need methodical structure to my obsessions. my enclosure requires enrichment

#when society collapses and we're rebuilding our systems can we pls make college free id do this for fun #id die at 85 with a degree in everything #not that this stops me from researching anything but i always wonder #if im missing something a curriculum would have that would tie some of the loose ends of the strings in my together #even if i didn't know i had them i like a layered understanding this bothers me a lot. i need structure #alas society isnt there yet. woe is me or whatever #guess ill die at 30 like god intended

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