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prosopopeya · 4 years

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New Year’s Meme

this survey has been a tradition among my friend group for YEARS, but i haven’t filled it out since 2015 apparently. i’m not entirely sure why except 2016 was the year a lot of stuff changed for me, namely in that i finally got out of school in some form and started a new job, but i also had a few health problems that kept plaguing me (thyroid medicine being off, vitamin d) and my anxiety was all over the place. so here we go i’m doing it again and feel free to do it too if you want!!

1. What did you do in 2020 that you’d never done before? tried on wedding dresses. taught virtually. dealt (poorly) with drunk teenagers. performed in a pep rally. wore face masks all the time. i’m going to lump in living with someone. jon moved in october 2019, but i don’t think i did this quiz last year so. taught ap.

2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions and will you make more for next year? i don’t really like resolutions. they put too much pressure on me and i am a fragile person when it comes to setting expectations and living up to them. i did want to try to read more this year, and i maintained that until the pandemic, and then just kind of gave up requiring myself to do anything but live.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? i don’t think so. a coworker did.

4. Did anyone close to you die? jon’s cousin committed suicide in march or april. the circumstances were pretty upsetting. um. andy died in february, very suddenly. andy was my high school boyfriend for four years with whom i had a very... he scarred me in a lot of ways when it comes to sex and consent. it’s taken me a long time to unpack all of that. and i struggle with how much any of that was his fault or just bc he was a stupid kid too. our mutual friends had nothing but nice things to say about him on fb. anyway. he would guilt me into saying he’d kill himself if we broke up, and jon’s cousin killed himself over his girlfriend. so that was a complex part of the year.

5. What countries did you visit? none. literally the week before the quarantine, we went to asheville to visit jon’s cousin.

6. What would you like to have in 2021 that you lacked in 2020? maybe a different job? or at least some peace at doing mine.

7. What date from 2020 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? march 13 we cancelled classes and had a technology training day; the 15th we had another one, and then we were virtual the rest of the term. it was such a sudden shift and while i so loved working from home tbh, it was such a relief after a supremely shitty january/february work-wise, i still had a lot of keyed-up, stressful days centered around transitioning to being the senior upper school spanish teacher. i hate it!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? writing 50k in the month of november. i have literally never done that before and actively reject nano as being typically unhealthy for how my mind works, so it was nice to do it entirely by accident.

9. What was your biggest failure? mishandling the drunken teenagers on that field trip in january.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i sit crosslegged in my virtual teaching chair and i did it so much that my ankle hurt for the entire summer.

11. What was the best thing you bought? we put a deposit on our elopement in ireland. jon’s wedding ring. (i didn’t buy my wedding dress.)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my best friend at work who keeps me sane and is represented by benny in my au, which other than the fact that he is not my sidepiece, is perfect he is crucial to my survival at work and i love him so much. (also he is gay and the french teacher so the benny parallels just keep coming). everyone who tore down a statue in virginia (and other places, but especially monument avenue). everyone putting their lives on the line during this pandemic.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? guess! but aside from all the obvious, i found out a friend of mine at work voted for trump. my work bff and i had been trying for years to sway his politics, but that had us both deciding to give up on him.

14. Where did most of your money go? food, ALCOHOL. god., our savings account. i did a pretty excellent job saving this year, though a good deal of that is because jon moved in and makes more money than me, and also we split all the bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? my wedding dress but strangely only when i went to try it on after it came in bc after the purchase i was so sure i’d made every mistake possible. my wedding band. wellbutrin changing my whole life. and, last but certainly not least, the gay angel and the bi(lingual) hunter. i wouldn’t have survived nov-dec in school without that distraction. the election.

16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2020? the entirety of taylor swift’s oeuvre this year, maybe specifically “this is me trying”

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. Happier or sadder? happier, i suppose, perhaps contrary to what should be the case, but wellbutrin is a hell of a drug. ii. Older or wiser? wiser. ii. Richer or poorer? richer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? reading. cleaning. exercising.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? stressing. chaperoning.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? so, an update; last year was the first year i didn’t go to my mom’s for christmas. i was supposed to see her for thanksgiving last year, but she basically told us not to come bc she wasn’t feeling up to it (cool!), and we went to jon’s for christmas and my mom’s for new year’s.

this year, obviously we couldn’t go to my mom’s. instead, we rented a little cabin by the lake. it was perfect; it was really really nice inside, the beds were SO SOFT, the pillows were the best things i have ever laid my head on, like i took off the pillowcases to try to find the brand. we had a little tiny christmas tree with tiny ornaments from walmart that we decorated. the 23rd, we went and picked up our wedding bands. we slept two nights in the (cold) back bedroom so i could wake up and look out at the lake. it snowed for christmas. :)

we opened presents on christmas eve, per jon’s family’s tradition. on christmas eve, we also went to his family farm and sat outside and hung out a little. every year his family does like a secret santa sort of thing and i got my first present in that exchange, which is notable bc jon and i are not yet officially married. i got a remote control car -- jon’s idea bc i couldn’t think of anything, and he was so delighted to hear that i loved playing with rc cars when we went to the beach as a kid.

christmas morning we facetimed my parents and opened some presents together. then jon and i marathoned mandalorian (after spending the previous few days watching several die hard movies), and then we watched wonder woman 1984 which was a bad movie.

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve? ok LAST year for new year’s, we were in a hotel room, so that was nice, bc it meant minimal stress with my parents. i had always wanted to go to this restaurant near us that has a special new year’s menu, so we did that. the night before or after i think we went to cheesecake factory, which was also amazing.

this year currently i’m tumbling and he’s playing pokemon, and in a bit we’ll try to time it so we finish schitt’s creek in time for the new year.

22. Did you fall in love in 2020? i re-fell in love with supernatural so that was nice.

23. How many one-night stands? 0. i submit we should randomly change question 23 each year to something more relevant to any of our life experiences.

24. What was your favorite TV program? what did i even watch this year. schitt’s creek. mandalorian. i mean obviously we know supernatural. the circle. are you the one (the queer season). pose. unsolved mysteries. we’re here! perry mason. watchmen. oh maybe that mcdonald’s monopoly fraud documentary. avenue 5. i’ll be gone in the dark. of those i think my favorite maybe is... pose or we’re here.

OKAY UM. on my 2014 version of this there were a bunch of questions about tv shows that i’m putting back in if only for the memories:

25. Which TV shows did you start watching in 2020? the haunting of bly manor, which we still need to finish. derry girls.

26. Which TV shows did you let go of in 2020? HERE’S WHY I WANTED TO RESURRECT THESE. here was my answer in 2015: “supernatural. goodbye, my sweet prince.” CAN YOU EVEN FUCKING BELIEVE

27. Which TV shows did you mean to get into but didn’t in 2020? Why? so far, queen’s gambit and that one on hulu with catherine the great. EVENTUALLY. 28. Which TV shows do you intend on checking out in 2020? fleabag. queen’s gambit. 29. Which TV show do you think you might let go of in 2020 unless things significantly improve? idk i drop things pretty regularly if they don’t entertain me 30. Which TV show impressed you least in 2020? GUYS HERE’S MY ORIGINAL 2015 ANSWER: “supernatural. :(”

anyway back to the rest of the quiz:

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? every person who refuses to listen to facts and information.

26. What was the best book you read? killers of the flower moon: the osage murders and the birth of the fbi, or the his dark materials series.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? well i knew about tswift so i’m not going to count her albums. i will count this song that jon played for me once in the car that got stuck in my head for two weeks straight and led me down into a great related-songs spotify playlist: through the roof ‘n underground.

28. What did you want and get? a wedding dress and a very specific kind of wedding band. a gay angel. a christmas getaway. animal crossing.

29. What was your favorite film of this year? idk i don’t know how many films i saw this year. maybe mucho mucho amor: the legend of walter mercado

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i was 32. we went to an escape room with a BUNCH of people -- work bff, my old work bff and his wife (old bc he quit and we’ve fallen out of touch :(), the cool new physics teacher and his fiancee, and the aforementioned trump voter and his wife, before we knew... we went out for brunch/lunch after. it was pretty great!

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? not having to chaperone that school trip in january. dean being bi in english as well as spanish. cas just ilke, appearing in 15x20. not having to physically go back to work this fall.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2020? no! real! pants!

34. What kept you sane? jon. supernatural (in a way?). animal crossing for a while. wellbutrin! i haven’t really been able to detail this yet, but finally i did something about tumblr and my therapist making me think about adhd. my doctor gave me wellbutrin (bc i lack any official diagnosis and was on anxiety meds anyway, and he was like let’s try this!) and it’s fucking. it’s a fucking godsend. surprisingly enough, my students. trying to provide them a safe space has been a calming thing for me.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? jensen ackles’ silence. misha collins again, i guess.

36. What political issue stirred you the most? the summer was so fucking intense. i guess though it was me trying to exert my influence in a responsible way with my students without trying to try to make them feel uncomfortable but then one kid was a vocally upset trump supporter after the election and i had to try to defuse that situation.

37. Who did you miss? my old work bff. several old friends that i’ve fallen out of touch with bc i have no object permanence.

38. Who was the best new person you met? people i met through the spn resurgence!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2020: if you manifest it in an au, it will come. no really though. maybe that expectations are only as important as i make them out to be.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: usually i have a hard time coming up with anything for this and i default to looking at my most played songs of the year. my most played song of the year received each and every one of its plays within the month of november and you can guess why. anyway see if this works

I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you Take me back to the night we met I don't know what I'm supposed to do Haunted by the ghost of you Take me back to the night we met - the night we met, lord huron

#happy new year #annual meme

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userseokkie · 5 years

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Steve Rogers is a walking contradiction: the anti military soldier

After reading this meta on a gifset about Steve and Tony i got carried away and wrote essentially an essay about the analysis that had been made. and while i agree with the general sentiment of the post, some things didn’t sit right with me. btw i decided to make this my own separate post because this isn’t intended to start an argument or derail the original post, i know it can be annoying for gif makers to have dozens of comments added onto their posts.

(the meta in question)

ok so full disclaimer I’m not American and I’m not white. i just felt like this analysis was really interesting and when I read it I couldn’t stop all these thoughts that formed in my head, next thing I know I had written all of this in like 30 minutes. I’m not trying to argue or start shit, this is my own personal analysis of Steve’s character and why I don’t agree with some things said above.

First of all, let’s get this out of the way: Steve does not trust the US government. at least not blindly. the fact that he’s still the little shit that had a real problem w authority figures is something they touch upon on catfa a lot. he changed on the outside but on the inside he’s still that idiot punk kid and like, I get what the tags above me are saying but also Steve’s arc is more than that? and let’s not forget this stupid movie was written and directed by thanos Joss “I’m the true feminist ally” whedon so I would take this exchange with a grain of salt. I mean this is the movie that gave us “gOllY tHeRe’S OnLy oNe gOd m'Am” and “sOn oF a GuN” Stephen Rogers which is the most ooc thing I’ve seen since endgame’s Steve. Steve is a fucking potty mouth ffs he’s Irish and a soldier, so that doesn’t even make sense. but anyway, my point is something else, nvm this movie’s portrayal of Steve in general.

I guess we could probably argue all day long abt which Steve portrayal is the most accurate one since his character in the MCU is the one that’s suffered the most at the hands of inconsistent characterization, but I prefer thinking he already WAS someone that was well aware of the horrors of war and how unfair it was to recruit people w lies and the promises of education opportunities and loans for the poor to join the army, because he LIVED that he grew up dirt poor and had to see his mom take on three different jobs to support herself and him, so he’d consider this attempt to bring civilians into the military life by preying on their needs disgusting, he’d be fucking seething with anger. and if he had lived through the 60s (which I think it’s better for everyone involved that he didn’t, can u imagine poor guy would’ve died from the disappointment in what his country had become) I highly doubt he would’ve been the bitter WWII vet that defended Vietnam and shit on the protestors……. Steve would support the citizens’ rights to ask for accountability and demand justice!! even the hippie movement I think he would’ve been ok with when he saw that they were advocating FOR PEACE. that’s why he enlisted on the war after all, to bring the fight to an end and to have Bucky come HOME. I think Steve rogers would be all for peace. I mean, civil disobedience and telling the government to shove it? that’s Steve Rogers’ goddamn ethos. he would be all over that shit.

I agree w op’s tags where they say Steve doesn’t represent America, he represents what America wishes it had been. and I think Steve himself would be well aware he’s the anomaly here, the one that should have been America’s highest ideal. and I think that makes Steve very wary of his own image, anything he endorses becomes what America endorses. Steve rogers isn’t important, Captain America is. but I think Steve’s response here has more to do with his coping mechanisms to deal with loss, rather than coming from a place of “oh we’re soldiers, it’s what we do, we die for our country.” while Tony’s response comes from a place of anger (we are NOT soldiers!!! fuck u old man, i never asked for this!!! coulson didn’t ask for this!!!!!) Steve’s reaction comes from the intrinsic nihilism and dadaism product of his own time. it’s not that he’s minimizing Coulson’s death, it’s more that he’s so used to losing people, the thousands he met that died in European soil, the sick and ill from his ma’s work that died everyday, his own father whom he never even met, that his mechanism is to just. shut down. shrug it off a bit, even. people die. every day. “for believing” means for standing for something, because Steve is WELL aware that people that stand for nothing will fall for anything, and standing for something gives counterbalance to the official agenda. in his eyes, Coulson died not because he’s a soldier and winning the war means being prepared to make a few sacrifices. Coulson died because he chose to believe in something that the majority didn’t care about or even actively sought to destroy (the wsc over fury’s shoulder) and he died because he would not back down from the fight. I can do this all day is something Steve feeds off of because he knows that when you stop getting up from the ground, anyone and anything can strike you down.

but on another note, I get that Avengers happens literally 6 fucking days after he woke up from the ice, he probably had no time to catch up on all the atrocities the US had done on his behalf, or rather on what they said he represented, on the ideal he died defending and the US took and twisted and tore apart until it was no longer recognizable. Steve being a week out of the ice is super sad and to me, the biggest crime this movie did was literally brushing off Steve’s trauma, being riddled with PTSD and shocked from waking up seventy years in the future was not even addressed. at all. this could’ve been easily avoided by setting the movie at least a couple of months AFTER he wakes up. but whatever. After learning of all the shit the US has done, I think Steve rogers would be the first to walk out of there and be like “fuck it, I died for this country and you took it and fucked it up and now young people and people who’ve been killed for protesting your shitty ass decisions genuinely believe I would side with the government. they think I’M the stubborn baby boomer who kisses government boots and would approve of the Gulf War or the Vietnam War or the Central American coups or the war on terror or any of the stupid shit you’ve pulled in the 70 years I was gone!!! YOU MADE ME A SYMBOL FOR YOUR BIGOTRY WHAT THE FUCK”. so he obviously needs time to catch up on all of that before realizing how bad they fucked up his memory and how corrupt the system has become. but Steve’s depiction as a boy scout who believes the US can do nothing bad is inherently wrong and something only this one movie tries to do. no other movie featuring Cap tries to drive the point home that Cap is a goodie two shoes who still believes in american exceptionalism.

CATWS was the gold standard because it truly touched upon the cognitive dissonance Steve experiences coming out of a 70 year nap. the loss he experiences not only for being “the man out of time”, but the true man behind the symbol. heavy are the shoulders that carry the world indeed. and he’s been carrying the entire world on his since he decided to become Captain America. I truly believe the tragedy of Steve Rogers comes from the lack of agency he has over the Captain image, one that has been used to prop up political agendas over and over again. of course, he’s the one that decides to be Captain America as much as he is Steve rogers, blurring the lines between the two men. he could’ve retired, he could’ve adopted a new mantle or even go the old reliable route and try to keep a civilian life away from the superhero gig. but he didn’t. even in the comics whenever he tried to do that it didn’t stick for more than a few issues. so, you know in CATWS he truly experiments what it’s like to pull back the curtain and see the wizard behind it, he faces this disenchantment with the institutions that created him, both SHIELD and the US government. this helps pinpoint the moment he grows super distrustful of politics and agendas, because up until this point he’d only been in the battlefield, and he realizes governments cannot be trusted to make the right decision or even act in benefit of their people.

this way, Civil War does make sense when you see how Steve has grown so disappointed with modern politics that he sees the Sokovia accords as one big red flag, and the first step in a direction that only points toward authoritarianism and civil control. this movie deals with many things poorly of course, but one thing that doesn’t feel ooc is Steve telling the UN to fuck off. He wasn’t around to see the formation of the united nations remember? he literally has no background on what collective security and globalized autonomy are. there’s many things that could’ve been different in CW, but Steve was on the “right” side of the conflict for his character. (i’m NOT saying there’s a wrong and a right side on the Civil war dilemma. that whole thing was badly written so let’s just say it made sense in a hypothetical way). supporting the government in any capacity isn’t a part of Steve’s “thing”, but even when/if he sided with the US govt, he’d never endorse a political agenda that he perceives as “wrong”, knowing it’s hypocritical to do so.

he doesn’t think the end justify the means, which is highly different from Tony’s pragmatism. if Steve and Tony represented opposing philosophical movements, Tony would be utilitarianism and Steve would be deontology. this brings the analysis full circle by pointing out that yes, Tony and Steve operate differently in theory, but in practice they both work for the same objective. Tony is the cynic product of his own doing, he understands how war can destroy and he knows the US has a bad track record of owning up to its own shit. and because of that, he believes that the most good he can do is in his own hands (and because of his extremist way of thinking, he also equates that with being the only one who can do it and therefore, he must, no matter the personal cost). On the other hand, Steve is the idealist product of other’s people efforts, he understands how sometimes war can be the only way to save what is worth saving, but also how it can corrupt even the noblest of men. and because of that, he believes that the most good he can do must be done because other people believe in him, and because by setting the example, others can follow and make the world a better place. (and because of his very stubborn nature, he also equates that with being the ‘tree that must plant itself in the ground and say no, you move’.)

so what I guess I’m trying to say, is that to me at least, saying that Steve Rogers would be in favor of US militarism or that he equates the word “soldier” with hero is a huge disservice to his character. the fact that he’s a fictional character that was first conceived as WWII propaganda is not relevant, because I choose to believe the idea that says fiction stops being the creator’s own the moment it’s out in the world. And Steve Rogers NOW is a different character and serves a different purpose than what he was originally intended to. His entire origin is based on being a soldier, yes, but what makes his character so compelling is the juxtaposition between being a soldier and being essentially opposed to what the US military complex entails. he embodies a lot of american values ofc, like freedom and right of free speech and so, but my take is that he defends this values in a way that is distinctly non American. setting aside discussions of propaganda and the integrity of an art form, i think he’s been written in a way that evokes patriotism without being exclusively american. i mean heck, Steve rogers makes me proud to be from my own country, and inspires me to be better while never reminding me of the fact that he’s from an imperialist super power. Star spangled suit aside, he’s probably a fair enough representation of what one's love for their own country can bring to the surface, no matter which country specifically. i could delve more into that, but this is already getting too long and, since i already mentioned, I’m not from the US and my cultural upbringing is far different from the US. so i’m not sure i could make such a poignant analysis about the military culture and the way it impacts characters such as Steve.

#why tf did i write this #full disclosure i took two adderalls today oop #maybe that's why #steve rogers #marvel meta #mcu #marvel #captain america

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jrubalcaba · 6 years

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Testing

CHFIL - Testing

author: jrubalcaba feat. @suz-123

featuring: OFC Evelyn “Evie” Rogers x Steve Rogers, Sarah and Robby Rogers, Bucky Barnes x Alice Winters, Becca Barnes, Simon x Maggie

word count: 10723 words

Rating: PG

warnings: cussing, fighting, drawing blood

A/N: Here’s another bonus chapter for CHFIL and Impact. This explains how Alice was able to have Becca at all.

A/N 2: In the comics, T’Challa and Storm have a son named Azari. In our ‘universe’, T’Challa has a son with Gail, and we came up with T’Zari, so it would fit with how T’Challa and T’Chaka were named.

Life with three babies is insane, but we wouldn’t have it any other way. Becca, Sarah and Robby loved playing together, and I know it made Steve and Bucky happier than ever to see their kids growing up together.

Growing however, has got me thinking overtime.

While I was pregnant, I was exposed to the super soldier serum, which enhanced my hearing and strength. It’s been almost nine months since the kids were born though, and I’ve noticed that I’m not as strong and my hearing has gone back to normal.

That’s a problem.

If my exposure and the resulting effects wore off, then what would that mean for Sarah and Robby? Would it wear off on them too, making them more like me? Or would it stay in their system for life, like it is for Steve?

As an anatomical pathologist, I set myself the mission of finding out what would happen. Since Steve and Bucky are the only men to have the serum, there’s no precedent, which means that any research that I do will be the first of its kind. The thought of being the first to discover the long-term effects of super soldier serum in Steve and Bucky’s offspring was both exciting and terrifying.

I began by running tests on myself. I know my genetic makeup like the back of my hand, no pun intended, so it was easy to see if there were any real changes. The serum, apart from making my hearing and overall strength better, did nothing to me. I could still get sick, there were still hereditary illnesses I could develop in my life, and I was still ageing at the same rate as I was before I even met Steve.

That was the main thing that worried me about all of this, the ageing process.

The main function of the super soldier serum is to keep Steve and Bucky’s cells in peak condition. That’s why they’re as strong and fast as they are and can heal almost instantly. The serum finds an issue and cures it. When cells age, their functions break down and the cells die. The serum, however, keeps that from happening, meaning that Steve and Bucky’s cells don’t age. The average person’s cells change every seven years, which means that the cells you had at birth are completely replaced by age seven. In Steve and Bucky’s case, their cells are the same from when they received the serum. In the 70 years since they were injected, their cells should have changed ten times, but they haven’t. If the cells ain’t broke, the serum won’t fix them.

That’s when it gets interesting.

If Steve and Bucky don’t technically age, then what would happen to Becca, Sarah and Robby, since they are only half super soldier? Will they age like their mothers, like normal? Or, would they reach a certain point in their lives and begin to age slowly, looking like they’re in their 30’s when they’re actually in their 100’s, like their fathers?

Do Alice’s abilities have any kind of say-so on what happens to Becca? Alice has explained to me that magic is what made her into a Slayer, but what extent would magic affect Becca’s growth and development? Normally, I would have laughed at the notion of ‘magic’, but I work for SHIELD, I’m married to a literal super soldier, and I’ve met an actual God, so I’m willing to go on a little bit of faith.

I was hesitant to breach the subject of testing the kids with the others because, well, the three of them have been through enough labs and testing of their own, especially in Alice’s case, so why on earth would they want to put their children through that?

The seven of us were hanging out in the living room one day, watching as Becca was trying to teach Sarah and Robby how to crawl. She started to get ahead of herself when she fell over and got a little bit of rug burn on her chin. Bucky beat me to her (damn serum), but I still checked her out because I’m the actual doctor. I watched with utter fascination as the spot on her chin went from angry red to shiny pink to not even there in the span of a few seconds.

“That is amazing,” I muttered in wonder. Bucky grinned proudly.

“Well thanks. She is mine, after all,” he joked smugly to which I rolled my eyes.

“I meant her healing, you dum...my,” I corrected at the last second. With Becca being over one now, we’ve all had to watch our language, much to the amusement of Bucky because Uncle Steve still swore like he was in the Army. “It’s incredible how fast she healed, and she’s only half super soldier.”

“Well, she’s also half Slayer, so that helps too,” Alice tacked on. I nodded, still amazed.

“I know. I just wish I could figure out what that's gonna mean in the long run,” I muttered the last part under my breath, forgetting that they could still hear me.

“What do you mean ‘in the long run’?” she asked. I turned to her, shaking my head.

“It's nothing, really.” I was not wanting to bring this up now, so I hoped she would drop it. Her hand grabbing my shoulder and holding me still was proof that she wasn't.

“Evie, haven't you learned by now to not keep things from us?” she snapped. I sighed.

“Yes Alice, but this is something that I know you'd say no to, so why bother bringing it up?” I challenged. She smirked at me.

“Okay, but it wouldn't hurt to hear the windup and the pitch,” she teased. “Come on Evie, you know you'll end up telling me anyways.” I huffed in irritation, because dammit she's right.

“Fine. So, you know how the kids are all half super soldier, right?” I turned to glance to Steve and Bucky, including them in the conversation. They all nodded, curious as to where I was going with this. “Well, I’ve been wondering, ever since you told us about Becca really, about how that would affect her, and now Sarah and Robby’s growth.” They all gaped at me like I had grown another head.

“What would that have to do with the kids growing up?” Bucky asked.

“Think about it, the primary function of the serum is to keep your cells in peak condition. In a normal person, like me, when my cells start to deteriorate, they die and new ones replace them. My cells change every seven years, which is how long it takes for them to deteriorate and die. That’s how I age.” I stopped to catch my breath before going on. “In your case, when your cells break down, the serum fixes them, which in turn means that your cells don’t get replaced with new ones. Your cells are basically the same as they were the moment you were injected with the serum, which is why you still look like you’re in your 30’s when you’re way older than that.” Alice, I could tell, was intrigued. I guess she didn’t really know how the serum worked.

“Huh. That’s interesting. So, if the guys don’t age because of the serum, what would that mean for Becca, Sarah and Robby?” she asked quietly.

“That’s the thing, no one knows. Becca, Sarah and Robby are the first children to be born with the serum already in their veins, so we have absolutely no idea.” I looked around before adding on, saying the one thing that was sure to scare them. “There hasn’t been any testing done on them, so their future is literally unknown.” Alice’s face went white as the reality of my words registered with her.

“No. No. No. Absolutely not,” she refused, eyes wide with fear.

“I know, that’s why I didn’t bother bringing it up before. I knew your history with testing and labs, so there was no doubt in my mind as to what your reaction would be. Out of the question, I know,” I replied. “Becca is off limits, which is entirely understandable.” I turned to Steve next, walking over to grab his hands. “I have to ask, but will you let me test our children’s blood?”

“Wait, you’d be running the tests?” Alice interrupted, her voice cracking at the end. I looked at her over my shoulder and nodded.

“Of course. You really think I’d trust someone else to do it? Besides, it’s literally my job to do testing like this. It’s my field of study,” I answered her. “I’d draw the blood myself and run the tests too. These are my children’s lives, and the only other person I’d even remotely trust with any of this is Bruce, and he doesn’t even have any idea I’ve done testing on myself.” At that last statement, Steve grabbed my arm and turned me back to him.

“Wait, you’ve done your own tests?” he asked incredulously. I nodded slowly, not understanding why he sounded so tense.

“Uh, yeah. Who else would do it?” I looked at Bucky and Alice, who also looked like they couldn’t believe it. “You guys do realize that I am both a medical doctor and a scientist, right? I can do both sides of the doctoral profession, and if I may be so humble, I’m fucking phenomenal at both.” I smiled smugly at them, loving the look of awe that spread across my husband’s face.

“Why did you have be tested?” Bucky asked after a brief pause, which caused me to sigh.

“Because the effects of the serum have worn off on me, and I don’t know if that will happen to Robby and Sarah.” It was Steve’s turn to go pale as comprehension dawned on him.

“If the serum wears off on the kids, then it might wear off on us?” he asked, somewhat hopeful.

“I honestly don’t know. That’s why I want to run tests,” I replied. “So, do you give me permission to draw our kids’ blood and do the tests?”

“Evie, you’re their mother. Why do you need Steve’s permission?” Bucky asked before Steve could answer.

“Because it’s a conflict of interest if I just do it on them. As their legal guardian, he has to give permission for me, a doctor, to run the tests. If I publish the results, I have to show that I got consent from the patient’s parent. It’s unprofessional to just run tests on someone just because, even if you gave birth to them,” I explained.

“Even though most of this is science jargon and I don’t understand it, it’s dead sexy when you talk doctor to me,” Steve cooed, pulling me into his arms. I smirked up at him, as this was new to me.

“Is that so? Maybe I should go get my white coat and stethoscope then,” I teased. Bucky cleared his throat loudly, bringing us back to reality.

“So that’s why you liked going to the doctor so much back before the War. Seeing the doctor turns you on,” Bucky teased. Steve began to blush as Bucky and Alice chuckled.

“Yeah, it’s no wonder he never got over Evie! She’s the prettiest doctor he’s ever seen!” Alice joined in. “I bet he got a stiffy when they were introduced!” Steve’s face was now the color of Tony’s suit, and I felt bad for him.

Kinda.

“Alright, that’s enough,” I insisted. “And for the record, Steve was a perfect gentleman when we met.” He smiled, while Bucky burst out in hysterics.

“Yeah, okay,” he snickered. “How’s that saying go? ‘A gentleman in the streets, a freak in the sheets’?” He started laughing again, Alice joining in. I bit my lip to keep from laughing, as Bucky didn’t realize how right he was. Once I got my laughter under control, I swooped in to save my husband again.

“Getting back to business, Steve, what say you?” I asked one last time.

“Yes,” he answered. “I’m honestly curious about all this now too, so definitely yes.” I smiled, glad he was okay with the testing.

“Well, if it’s okay, I’ll go grab my stuff and I can draw their blood really quick, since we’re thinking about it.” I headed for the stairs.

“Evie,” Alice said shakily, catching my attention. I turned back to her, waiting for her to go on. “You said you’d draw the blood yourself? And run the tests yourself?” I felt my forehead crease as I tried to see where she was going with this.

“Uh, yeah? I mean, I did spend all those years in school learning how to do all that for a reason. Why?” I asked. She began wringing her hands together, looking around nervously.

“If you were to, I mean, if we were to say okay, you would be the only one to draw Becca’s blood and the only person testing it, right?” I walked over, stopping in front of her.

“Right. Don’t get me wrong, I love Bruce dearly and I trust Helen with a lot, but this is one thing that I would do on my own, off the record.” I looked over at Steve and Bucky before looking back at her. “This is our family business, no one else’s.” She nodded before glancing back at her daughter and then Bucky, who nodded as well.

“Good. Okay, you can test Becca’s blood.” She sounded sure of her decision, which blew me away.

“Alright. Just tell me when and I’ll do it,” I replied. I started to head for the stairs again when she grabbed my arm to stop me.

“You’re gonna draw the twins right now, right? Well, just go ahead and do Becca’s too.” I could tell my eyes were huge as the reality of her statement sank in.

“Sure. Do you want to come with me and watch me get my supplies? I find that having patients watch me get everything set up helps them relax,” I offered. She nodded as she followed me upstairs to my room. She was next to me as I pulled three sets of tubes out of the container and set them on my tray, followed by gloves, my sharps container, some suckers, bandaids, cotton balls, alcohol pads, a few vacutainers and butterfly needles. We went back downstairs and headed to the kitchen table, where Bucky and Steve were waiting. “Let’s do Becca first, but let me get my stuff set up before you grab her. The longer she sits, the crankier she’ll get when she can’t move.” I washed my hands in the sink before pulling my gloves on, sitting in the chair next to Bucky. I got the bandaid half opened and set it down so it would be easier to place it when I was done with her. “Alice,” I started as I continued getting things ready. “Would you rather stand and watch as I draw her blood or sit and hold her while Bucky stands?” She took a deep breath and thought it over while I finished getting ready.

“I’ll stand and watch,” she answered before walking over to pick Becca up and bringing her to Bucky, who set her down on his lap.

“Becca, sweetie, Aunt Evie has to poke your arm, okay?” I told her as she looked at me with interest. “You just sit still on Daddy’s lap so Aunt Evie can do her job.” I checked her left arm first, looking for a good vein before checking her right.

Bingo.

I grabbed a pad and swiped it over the vein, cleaning the area. I dried it off with a cotton ball, looking up at Alice to make sure she was still good with me doing this. She nodded, to which I smiled.

Here comes the fun part.

I grabbed the needle, making sure the tube was in place and the vacutainer was connected properly, before bringing it to my niece’s arm. “Little stick sweetheart,” I warned as I carefully pierced her skin, causing her to fidget and cry. I glanced at Alice, who was slowly squeezing Steve’s arm as Becca fussed. “Daddy, you need to hold her arm still, or the needle could hurt her,” I instructed Bucky. He secured her arms, which upset her even more. Her little heart was racing, which helped pump the blood quicker and fill the tubes faster. Finally, all the tubes for her were filled, so I placed a cotton ball over the injection site before slowly easing the needle out and putting it in the sharps container. I grabbed the bandaid and put it over the cotton, keeping it in place before opening a sucker and handing it to her, kissing her forehead. “Such a big girl you are, Becca. You’re all done.” She was all smiles as Alice picked her up, cuddling with her. “Mommy, are you okay? Do you need medical attention?” Alice’s face was white, so I steered her to the couch before she fainted. I looked over at Bucky, who had an amused look on his face.

“I half expected her to throw you across the room when Becca started crying,” he confessed. “She did good for her first time.” I quirked an eyebrow at him.

“Who, Alice or Becca?” I asked. He smiled softly, while I giggled and Steve flexed his arm. “Do you need medical attention, Captain?” I teased. He rolled his eyes at me.

“Not in front of them,” he replied, sweeping his arm out to include everyone, sending a wink my way.

“Behave, Captain. Doctor’s orders,” I stated. His eyes dilated and nostrils flared as he took a deep breath. Wow, I had no idea this would turn him on this much. Bucky watched us, fighting the urge to burst out laughing.

“Pretty sure Evie has all of the power now,” he chuckled. “All she has to do from here on out is wear her stethoscope and white jacket and Steve’ll do anything she says.” Alice chuckled weakly from her spot on the couch at this, causing Steve to blush even more.

“Alright, alright. Bucky, can you grab Sarah so we can get her done? She’ll sit still better on my lap than yours,” he snapped, shooing his brother out of the way so he could sit down.

I got my stuff ready again as Bucky handed her to Steve before finding a good vein in her left arm. Feeling so incredibly guilty, I cleaned the site before grabbing the needle and sticking my daughter, who immediately began to cry. Knowing that I was making her cry made my own tears begin to fall. After a few minutes, all of her tubes had been filled, so I gently removed the needle, covering the site with a cotton ball and placing a bandaid over it. I gave her a sucker and some mega hugs before Steve sat down to cuddle her. Alice was feeling better and Becca had gone over to comfort Sarah, so she sat down with Robby, who was a complete surprise, not flinching or crying at all. He also got a sucker after he was all done, prompting Sarah to grab his and give hers in exchange. They love to share everything.

“I’m going to head to the Tower and start the tests. Anyone wanna join me?” I asked, to which Steve, Bucky and Alice all agreed. Once we had the kids ready, we headed out in my Suburban, since it has plenty of room for all of us, including the dogs. After arriving, I headed straight to the lab and began working on the samples.

Robby and Sarah’s were interesting to look at. I could see the serum had penetrated every cell, just like it did with Steve. That was good news, because if the serum was present from the beginning, then there was a good chance that its effects wouldn’t wear off on them. Since it was introduced to me in such small quantities and wasn’t present at the time of my conception, it wasn’t remaining in my system, which was fine with me. I could tell their cells were aging properly, but I wasn’t sure if it was because they were only half-enhanced. I’ll just have to check it from time to time and see.

In the years I’ve known Steve, I’ve gotten to know his genetic background quite well. After all his time in the ice, on top of all the years that have gone by since he was first given the serum, Steve has been curious as to how it would affect him. Since Dr. Erskine never got to pass on his notes on the matter, I’ve kinda become the expert on Steve. Looking back on it though, now I realize why Steve didn’t really mind coming by the lab all the time.

When Bucky (and Alice) came to New York, Steve somehow got him to give a sample of his blood for, as Shuri calls it, ‘research purposes’. I’m not an expert on him, but I know his genetics pretty well. But, when it came time to check Becca’s sample, I hit a snag.

I don’t have any of Alice’s blood, so I have nothing to compare Becca’s to. This was going to be fun.

I went back upstairs to hang out with everyone. I didn’t say anything to the others, as we had all agreed to not say a word in front of anyone. We spent the whole day hanging out with the team, all of the kids completely worn out. After nursing ours to sleep, I told Steve what I had found out.

“Well, that’s good. What about Becca?” he asked. I froze, looking over at him with wide eyes.

“Yeah, about that…” I trailed off. He quirked an eyebrow so I went on. “I’ve only ever gotten Bucky’s blood. I don’t have any from Alice, so I can’t really do any testing on Becca’s.” His eyes got wide as the implication sank in.

“She won’t listen to me. Maybe you can talk to Bucky about getting it from her.” I shook my head at this.

“No, I need to be the one to do it. Ask her for the blood and take it if she says yes. If she doesn’t, I guess I won’t do any testing on Becca.” He nodded at this, realizing that I was right. We went to bed, or rather, he went to bed while I stayed up trying to figure out the best way to ask Alice if I could have some of her blood. Exhausted, I finally fell asleep.

The next few days went by before I could approach the subject. Luckily, Alice and Bucky didn’t ask about the blood tests, which was good for me because I wanted to talk to Alice about it alone.

Alice and I were watching Steve and Bucky play with the kids outside when I finally got the courage to talk to her. I couldn’t remember the last time I had felt this nervous, so nervous that I was shaking as I walked over and sat down next to her.

“Hey, Alice?” I asked, my nerves making my voice vanish. She looked over, a residual smile from watching our men play with our kids.

“Yeah?” I swallowed thickly before rushing out the words.

“InorderformetorunthetestsIneedyourblood.” She raised an eyebrow and chuckled.

“Come again?” she replied. I squared my shoulders and tried again.

“I need some of your blood so I have something to compare Becca’s to.” Her smile was gone in an instant as my words registered. “If you say no, then I drew her blood for nothing because I just have Bucky’s for comparison but she’s only half him. Having yours would help so much, but like I said, if you don’t say yes, then I can’t run any tests.” I sat and waited for her to make her decision, even though I already knew her answer. There’s no way in God’s green earth, Midgard, whatever, that she would let me-

“Okay.” I felt my jaw hit the floor and end up halfway to China. “You’re right, and it’s not like I’ll be held down like I was in the Lab. And it’ll be you doing everything, so I have nothing to fear. Let’s do it.” I stared at her, waiting for her to laugh and say it was a joke. When she stood up and began to walk toward the house, she looked over her shoulder at me. “Let’s do it now so we can get it over and done with.” Realizing she was serious, I jumped up and followed her.

“Since all of my supplies are up there, wanna do it in my room?” I asked, to which she nodded. We climbed the stairs in silence, steeling ourselves for what was to come. Once inside, I had her sit on the edge of my bed while I grabbed the chair from my vanity and brought it over. She watched with wide eyes as I got everything I needed, holding every item up and showing her that it wasn’t messed with in anyway. When she was satisfied, I brought my supplies over. “I’m going to go wash my hands. You can watch me through the door, okay?” I walked in and stood in a way that she was able to see everything I did. Finished, I came back and sat in the chair, slowly pulling on a pair of gloves. “Alice, I’m going to check your arms now to find a good vein. Is that okay?” She took a few deep breaths, no doubt trying to keep calm.

“Yes, thank you for asking.” I shot her a quick smile before holding my hand out for her arm. I waited for her to give it to me instead of just grabbing it as I figured grabbing it would be a bad move. She gave me her left arm first, letting me check but I was unable to find a good vein. Then she offered her right arm for me to check, and I was finally able to find one.

“Okay Alice. I’m going to clean the site with an alcohol swab now.” I wanted to already be done with this, but I knew that I had to tell her everything I was doing so she wouldn’t freak out. “Alice, now it’s time for me to insert the needle into your arm. Are you still okay with this?” This was it, the big moment.

“Yes, go ahead,” she answered after taking a few more deep breaths. I nodded before reaching over and grabbing the needle and bringing it to her arm. She began to tense up, so I stopped, knowing I had to give her time to adjust. “Just do it Evie.” She was still tense, her face all screwed up as she waited. Seizing my chance, I brought the needle back and carefully pierced her skin with it. Her breath caught in her chest at the feeling before slowly releasing it. I let go of the breath I had been holding as well, now that the hard part was over. One by one the tubes filled up until the last one was done. I put a cotton ball over the site before pulling the needle out, grabbing a bandaid to put over top to keep it in place. I disposed of the needle before I took a good look at Alice. Her face was still pale but the color slowly returning and her breathing was still heavy. I grabbed her wrist to check her pulse, glad it was returning to normal.

“If you want, you can lay back on the bed until you get your bearings back,” I offered. She slumped back at once as her body continued to calm down, and after a few minutes, she sat back up, looking like her old self. “So, how do you feel?” I asked, checking her pulse again. She smiled softly, taking one last deep breath before answering.

“Ya know, out of all the times I was tested, that was the least...objectionable experience.” She reached out and grabbed my hand, squeezing it. “While I’m not keen on doing that again any time soon, as long as you were the one doing it, it wouldn’t bother me.” I felt so happy knowing that I was able to do this for her. I gave her a huge hug before helping her up, in case she was still woozy. When she was able to walk down the stairs without fainting, I knew she was alright. As soon as we got outside, she all but ran to Bucky and Becca, whispering in my brother’s ear and the three of them went to their apartment. I walked over to Steve, who looked puzzled.

“Why’d they leave?” he asked. I kissed him before smiling.

“I just drew Alice’s blood. She’s just wanting some snuggles I’m sure,” I answered. He grinned back at me.

“I’m impressed, and all without any bloodshed. Well, from you,” he added, as he realized what he had said. I chuckled at him.

“Wanna go to the Tower with me so I can run the tests? Figured they’d want some alone time and I’m sure Bruce won’t mind seeing the twins again so soon.” He nodded so we took the kids inside to get them ready before we headed out, leaving a note on the counter in case Bucky or Alice happened to come over looking for us. Once we got to the Tower, Steve took the twins upstairs and I went straight to the lab.

Looking at Alice’s blood under the microscope was amazing.

Her cells were normal, but there was this faint bluish glow to the entire sample, which was the coolest thing I’ve ever seen in my years of study.

I came to realize that this must be the Magic that made her a Slayer. Getting deeper and deeper into things, there wasn’t much else that made her so different from me. I could see that she had similar traits that Steve, Bucky, and the kids had like the accelerated healing and increased strength, but apart from that and the Magic, we were the same.

Now that I had something to go off of, I was able to run tests on Becca’s blood. There was no glow to hers, but unzipping her genes was amazing. Whereas Steve’s genes mostly overrode mine in Sarah and Robby, Alice and Bucky’s genes had combined so well for Becca it was honestly like looking at a complementary set. Not that Steve and I weren’t compatible, but Alice and Bucky were truly made for each other. I also noticed that Becca’s cells did age normally, but I couldn’t be sure if they would suddenly stop or slow down like Alice’s did when she was Called. Hopefully, Alice won’t mind me checking every few years, like I would do with the twins.

Finished with the tests, I returned to my family so I could hang out with Bruce. He took ‘Papaw Boo’ detail very seriously. He doted on all three kids, which surprised some people (cough Alice cough). I could see where she was concerned though. Becca wasn’t related to Bruce in anyway, so why would he treat her like another granddaughter?

It was because she was.

We were all family, from Thor, our hipster cousin down to Peter, the little brother we were fiercely protective of. Over the years, our ‘family’ has grown, starting with Tony, Nat, Clint, Bruce, Thor and Steve, and expanding to include myself, Pepper, Rhodey, Laura and the kids, Coulson, Maria, Nick, and Jane. Then, Wanda (and briefly Pietro), Sam, Vision, Scott and Cassie, Peter and May, Bucky and Alice joined. With the addition of Bucky and Alice came T’Challa, Gail, Kerry, Shuri, Simon and Maggie, and just when we couldn’t think our amazing family couldn’t get any bigger or better, Becca, Robby, Sarah and T'Zari came into the world, proving that life finds a way to give you everything you ever wanted.

One day, some time after I had run all the tests, Simon and Maggie arrived in Wakanda to check on the status of Kerry and a retired Slayer. Simon called to see if they could stay with us for a few days, as their visit had been spur of the moment.

“Hey Si. Of course you guys can stay here,” I answered. “That room has unofficially been dubbed yours, especially since neither of the kids will ever move into that room after you two defiled it.” His subsequent snort made me giggle, but what he said after had me rolling.

“You defiled it first. We’re just adding a bit of flavour to it.” I cringed as I started laughing.

“Alright, but it better not look like a Jackson Pollock painting the next time I take a black light in there,” I warned with a final chuckle. “SO, how are things over there? The remaining Slayers doing alright?” I wish I could visit over there, but Steve doesn’t want to chance it in case any vampires happen to attack.

“Eh, they’re doing okay. Ever since this ‘ole thing with Gail and Alice ‘aving kids, Slayers’ve been cropping up pregnant more and more. There’s these two girls, Tina and Amy, that’ve been friends since they were able to walk. Tina is a Slayer and just gave birth to a baby boy about a month ago, and now Amy is pregnant. It was the weirdest thing, ‘cause Tina ‘ad no inkling of wanting a family until one day Amy pushed her out of the way of a oncoming car. Not too long after that, Tina turned up pregnant. That ticked Amy off, ‘cause she and her boyfriend wanted kids but she wasn’t getting pregnant.” Simon stopped to take a breath and I was able to interrupt him.

“Wow. That sounds like how it was for me and Alice. Steve and I were trying like hell to have a baby, but we just couldn’t. Nothing wrong with either of us, but it was like as soon as Becca was born, a few weeks later BOOM.” I sighed. “Hell, even to this day we still don’t know why it took so long for me to get pregnant.” He was so quiet on the other end, I thought the call had dropped. “Simon?” I asked.

“Yeah, I’m ‘ere. I was just thinking about Maggie.” I rolled my eyes.

“God you’re such a sap. And people used to be afraid of you? Gimme a break,” I teased.

“No, not like that. Maggie and I don’t exactly use much in the way of protection, but she ‘asn’t ended up pregnant yet. Not that we’re trying, but it still ‘asn’t ‘appened,” he explained solemnly. “I was just wondering as to why.” Well, now that he’s brought it up, I’m wondering too.

“Really? Like, there’s no protection at all, but it’s still not taking?” I was curious now.

“Yeah. I mean, kids might be in the cards for us someday, but ‘onestly, with as much as we go at it and the minimal precautions we take, you’d think we’d would‘ve ‘ad one by now.” It was my turn to be silent.

That’s exactly how it was with me and Steve. Once I came off the birth control, we went at it like bunnies, but it wasn’t until Becca was born that I finally got pregnant.

“Evie? You still there?” Simon called through the phone. I brought it back to my ear, not realizing I had dropped my hand.

“Yeah Si, I am. This Tina and Amy, they’re best friends, borderline sisters? Are both of them Slayers, or just Tina?” The wheels in my head were turning with a theory, but I had to gather more data before I wanted to say anything.

“Uh, yeah. Been best friends since forever. Grew up together and do everything together, until Tina was Called. Amy is a regular, like you and Maggie. Why?” My heart was starting to race with the direction my thoughts were going.

“And Tina didn’t get pregnant until Amy pushed her out of the way of that oncoming car, right?”

“Right. Evie, what’s going on?” Simon sounded impatient, but my brain could only go so fast.

“Simon, the Magic only affects women, right? There’s no way it could latch onto men?” He paused for a moment, clearly not expecting me to ask that.

“No. Never in the history of Slayers ‘as a man been Called. It’s only ever been women.” That kinda explains it…

“Did Gail happen to mention anything...out of the ordinary happening before she got pregnant with T'Zari? Like something that maybe Queen Ramonda or Princess Shuri might have done for her?” He sputtered on the other end, trying to figure out where I was going with this.

“Well, fuck I don’t know Evie!” he snapped. “I do remember Gail saying how Shuri took some kind of oath to protect her like the Dora Milaje, now that I think about it,” he added after a brief moment.

“Shuri, an ordinary woman, like me and Maggie,” I murmured. “Speaking of, has Maggie gotten close to anyone in particular over there?” I could almost see his face contorted in thought.

“Yeah. She and Kerry are like sisters. Can’t ‘ave one without the other,” he said fondly.

Just like me and Alice.

Just like Gail and Shuri.

Just like Tina and Amy.

“Si, when will you and Maggie be here?” I choked out, my theory finally having substance in my head.

“Uh, we’ll be there tomorrow morning. Why?” I could hear the uncertainty in his voice.

“Because I got something that I wanna run by you and Alice. See you tomorrow.”

“Uh, okay. Bye.” He hung up, worry evident in his tone. I took a few deep breaths to calm down as the implications of what I was thinking sank in.

The rest of the day I spent in my head. I did everything on autopilot and it wasn’t until dinner that Steve and Bucky ganged up on me to pull me from my thoughts.

“Evie, what the hell is wrong with you?” Steve called from my left. I blinked as I turned to him.

“Nothing. Why?” He and Bucky rolled their eyes at me.

“Yeah, I don’t believe that for a second. What’s eating you, sis?” Bucky retorted. I smiled, shaking my head.

“I talked to Simon earlier. He and Maggie will be here in the morning. They decided to make a spur of the moment trip over to check on the retired Slayer they sent to Wakanda,” I stated. The three of them looked at me in surprise.

“And, you’re just now telling us?” Steve cut in, eyebrows raised. I rolled my eyes at my loving husband.

“Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t realize I had to get permission for friends to come over, Dad,” I sassed. “Daddy, can a couple of my friends come over and stay for a few days? It’s not like we don’t have the room,” I asked in a too sweet baby voice, batting my eyes for effect. He clenched his jaw as Bucky and Alice began to laugh.

“I don’t care, just don’t call me daddy ever again.” He shuddered, causing Bucky to laugh even more.

After dinner, I was on my computer when I got a wild thought, and pulled up what I needed.

Holy. Fuck. I have to show this to them tomorrow.

The next morning, Simon barged in like he owned the place, Maggie trailing behind him.

“Alright Evie. What was with the Spanish Inquisition yesterday?” he snapped as they walked into the living room. Steve looked at him in surprise, ready to throw down as Simon normally didn’t have such an attitude with me.

“‘Cause no one expects it,” I replied, smirking. Simon huffed and crossed his arms as Maggie and Alice cracked up, leaving Bucky and Steve looking confused. “Relax, Si. I was waiting on you two to get here before explaining everything.” The other four turned to me, Steve, Bucky, and Alice finally understanding my preoccupation since yesterday. “Come on. Let’s go in the kitchen and talk while the kids play in the living room.” We all walked in, the five sitting at the table while I stood at the counter, opening my laptop.

“Evie, are you keeping shit from us again?” Alice snapped and I pulled up the blood results I had looked at last night.

“No. I literally thought all of this up yesterday,” I answered. “Okay, so when Simon called yesterday, we got to talking about this and that and he told me about how now that you and Gail have had kids, Slayers are coming up pregnant more and more. He told me about this one, Tina and her best friend Amy. The two of them have known each other since infancy, growing up and doing everything together, until Tina got Called and Amy didn’t. Simon then went on to tell me that one day Amy pushed Tina out of the path of an oncoming car, saving her. Shortly after that, Tina ended up pregnant.” I stopped to catch my breath before going on.

“That wouldn’t be an issue, but Amy and her boyfriend were desperately trying to have their own baby. They tried and tried for months, but it never took. Within a month, however, of Tina having her baby, Amy wound up pregnant. Sound familiar?” Alice, Bucky and Steve all looked at each other, because we had all lived that same scenario. “Some time before Gail got pregnant with T’Zari, Shuri took some kind of oath like the Dora Milaje to protect Gail. After the oath was made, BOOM, Gail is pregnant. Simon, what did you tell me about you and Maggie yesterday?” I directed at the gruff looking man. Understanding washed over his face as our conversation came back to him.

“That Maggie and I barely use any kind of protection, but she ‘asn’t gotten pregnant in the three years we’ve been together.” I nodded as the other three gasped, looking to Maggie for confirmation.

“And are you close to anyone in particular, Maggie? Someone that you would, oh I don’t know, protect with your dying breath?” I asked the brunette. She nodded.

“Kerry. She’s the sister I never had. I have her back, and I know without a doubt she has mine.” I smiled, because that’s how it is with me and Alice.

“The Slayer to a Regular. Like Tina and Amy, Gail and Shuri. Like me and you,” I spoke directly to Alice now. “The Magic is jumping. It’s jumping from a Slayer to a regular woman, one that has proven that she would do anything to protect the Slayer, such as pushing them out from in front of a moving car, taking a warrior’s oath, always having their back, or...putting a tracker on the Slayer so they’re always accounted for and therefore always safe.” Alice’s eyes grew big as the weight of what I was saying sank in.

“That’s…..” she trailed off, not sure what to say.

“Impossible? Unheard of? Crazy? I’m gonna go with option D: all of the above. If you want more proof, here. Take a look,” I said, turning the laptop towards them. When I was met with silence, I explained what they were seeing. “The sample on the right is the one I took from Alice a few weeks ago. The blue glow that you see? That’s the Magic. Under the proper magnification and filter, you can actually see it.” Alice and Simon jumped up and crowded the screen.

“Bloody hell that’s amazing” she wondered out loud. Simon nodded in agreement before pointing to the other sample.

“Who’s is that, then?” I smiled sweetly, knowing I was about to drop a bomb on them.

“That’s mine. Taken after we returned from our honeymoon and before Becca was born. Proof that I’m right.” I heard the table crack before Steve stood with a chunk in his hand.

“You mean to tell me, that all of the heartache and pain you went through, all the tears that you shed over not being able to get pregnant, were because Alice’s Magic had latched onto you and kept me from knocking you up?” he reasoned slowly. When I nodded, his jaw clenched, and I knew that he wasn’t happy with my discovery.

“Steve, come on,” Bucky said calmly, noting how angry his brother was getting. “It’s not like we knew this would happen.” Steve glared at him, nostrils flaring.

“But Evie didn’t ask for this! You have no idea how many nights she spent crying herself to sleep over not being able to give me a child or how much she beat herself up over not getting pregnant month after month. It killed her watching Alice parade around with the baby that you guys never even wanted! You don’t realize how hard it was to watch her go through all of this, and to find out that it was because of Alice, who didn’t protect Evie at all while she was pregnant!” Bucky stood now, looking equally angry with Steve. Alice and I jumped between them, hoping to keep it from coming to blows.

“Take it easy,” I warned Steve, placing my hands on his chest. He looked down at me, those baby blues peering into my soul.

“Baby, don’t you remember all the pain and suffering you went though because of this?” he asked, placing his hands on my shoulders. I nodded.

“Well yeah, of course I do, but Alice went through her own pain and suffering. It’s only fair that I share the load.” He glared down at me, clearly upset that I wasn’t on his side. “Besides, we were rewarded generously. We have two kids instead of just one!” I was trying to help him see the bright side of things, but then Bucky had to open his mouth.

“You think Alice wouldn’t have helped if she could, Steve? The woman who put her life on the line for strangers?” he snapped, stepping closer.

“Evie, I didn’t know! I would never have stopped you from having kids if I had known!” she pleaded with me over her shoulder, as we didn’t want to take our eyes off our men.

“Allie, you came to terms that I could protect you when I put that tracker on you, huh?” I asked over my shoulder. When I heard her murmur ‘yes’, I laughed humorlessly. “I fucked myself over with that stupid thing. When you fully understood that I would risk life and limb to protect you, the Magic sensed that and jumped to me, taking my ability to get pregnant and gave it to you. Once you had Becca, I was able to get pregnant, but the universe apparently took pity on me and doubled my chances, which is how we ended up with twins.” It was startling to come to terms that I had done all this, albeit unknowingly. Alice scoffed.

“Evie, c’mon. Neither of us could’ve known and-” she was cut off by, guess who? Bucky.

“Well, y’shoulda never put a damn tracker on her, should ya?!” he chastised, and I could tell he had his hands on his hips.

“DON’T TALK TO EVIE LIKE THAT!” Steve bellowed suddenly, causing Alice and I to jump.

“FUCK YOU!” came Bucky’s reply. I put my hand over Steve’s mouth, as I could tell he was about to go off on his best friend.

“Buck, last I checked, you were okay with it, so hush,” I called over my shoulder before glaring up at my husband. “Steve, he’s family. He’s got more right to talk to me like that then anyone, even you.” Alice giggled before I spoke to her. “I’m not blaming you Alice. I’m just reaching an understanding that I did it to myself.” She and I let our hands drop but stayed between Bucky and Steve. I heard her mumble something about ‘your husband’ which made Steve take a few more steps forward, pushing me up against Alice.

“Alice, I’m warning you-” he began before I cut him off.

“And what are you gonna do, ‘cause you’ll have to go through me to do it!” I snapped, pushing his chest with both hands.

“He won’t have to go through you, Evie. I’ll knock Steve on his ass if he comes for Alice,” Bucky growled from behind me. I bowed my head. Can’t Bucky just stop goading Steve for a bit?

“Firstly, Steve? Bite me. Secondly-” Alice started.

“Bite you? Like Ivar did?” Steve spat at her. I felt Alice freeze at my back, and I knew that Bucky was frozen too. My right hand came up and connected with his left cheek, leaving a red handprint there. I was shaking I was so mad.

“Steven Grant Rogers, how dare you!” I snarled at him as he held his face. He blinked rapidly for a few moments before his vision cleared. “Apologize to her now!”

“I’m gonna go,” Alice murmured before leaving, no doubt heading for their apartment. I was suddenly aware that I was the only thing keeping two super soldiers from beating the hell out of each other. Steve was still reeling from my slap so I turned to Bucky, who clearly had murder in his eyes.

“Bucky, please don’t. He didn’t mean it. He said it out of anger,” I stammered, trying to keep them apart. Bucky was slowly striding forward, so I put my hands on his chest, which was about as effective as trying to stop a train with my bare hands. I kept pace with him until my back was up against Steve’s chest, sandwiching me between a rock and a hard place. When neither of them said anything, I tried a new tactic. “Uncle James, please don’t.” Bucky blinked before looking down at me in surprise. I’ve never called him that, but apparently it worked as he started to back up.

“Fine. I’ll go. Evie, you’ve got Becca right?” he asked quietly, still glaring at Steve.

“Yes,” I answered, nodding. “Absolutely. I’m sure Simon and Maggie won’t mind watching her either,” I added after seeing the two aforementioned were no longer in the kitchen. Probably good that Simon didn’t hear what Steve said, ‘cause I don’t think I could fight off Simon and Bucky at the same time. Bucky stomped out of the kitchen after Alice as I turned to Steve. “Give them both a chance to calm down before you go fix this. You will not be sleeping in our room until you do, so you best figure out how you’re gonna do it or find the comfiest couch we have.” I stormed out, leaving him there as I entered the living room, seeing the kids playing together. Simon and Maggie both shot me a quizzical look before I shook my head. “Later, when the kids are asleep.” They nodded before we all joined the kids in their little games.

Steve’s POV

I have fucked up royally.

My wife has kicked me out of our room.

My best friend/brother wants to kick my ass.

My sister hates my guts.

All because I let my anger get the better of me.

I stood in the kitchen, still reeling over the fact that I had actually said that to Alice. It was a truly despicable thing to say, and even though I was madder than hell, that was still no reason to say that to her. To top it all off, Evie slapped me! I know I’ve really messed up when she feels the need to get physical on someone else’s behalf. I walked to the doorway of the living room and peeked around the wall. Simon, Maggie, and Evie were playing with all three kids, not paying attention to anything else.

Hanging my head, I turned and walked through the house before going down the walkway that connected the main house to the garage. I looked up at Bucky and Alice’s place, guilt flooding my whole body. I sighed before getting in my truck and driving away. I sent Evie a text that I was going for a drive to clear my head and to figure out how to apologize. I didn’t get an answer, but I knew she had seen it so she knew where I was.

I headed to the city, but decided against going to see the Team. Tony said that he was going to be moving them to the Compound, but since it was out in our direction, I didn’t feel like doubling back. I drove around for what felt like days, but it was only a few hours. I remembered that Alice was out of tea, so I stopped and bought her more along with her favorite chocolate. I grabbed flowers for her as well, before heading back home. Once I parked in the garage, I sat there, hoping that I was able to fix this.

I walked up the stairs to their apartment door, taking a deep breath before knocking. A few minutes passed before Bucky opened the door, his patented Winter Soldier glare in place.

“What the FUCK are you doing here?” he snarled. I held up the stuff I had bought to which he shrugged. “What the hell is that?”

“I got Alice more tea, some chocolate and flowers. I’m here to apologize because I need to fix this,” I explained. “Also, Evie has kicked me out of our room until I do, and I don’t want to sleep on any couches.” He smirked but still wouldn’t let me pass.

“She’s a Barnes alright. Our temper is legendary.” His smile fell as he went back to glaring. “That was a fucked up thing to say to her, Rogers.” Last name? Ouch.

“I know, and I’m sorry. I was just angry and it came o-” I tried to apologize before he cut me off.

“No. I don’t wanna hear your sob story. The mother of my child is distraught because of something you said, and you honestly think bringing her food and flowers is gonna magically fix everything? No. I don’t think so.” And with that, he shoved me.

I set the tea, chocolate and flowers down before pushing him back slightly. He shoved me back harder, to which I responded in kind by openly shoving him through the door into their living room. We started pushing and shoving each other more and more, each time getting meaner and meaner. I couldn’t see an end to our fight until Alice stormed in, looking angrier than I’ve ever seen her and yanked us apart, sending us falling back on our asses.

“Bucky, you’re better than this, getting into a shoving match, and stupid Captains of America shouldn’t be fighting like a little bitch,” she snapped. We both stood, heads bowed.

“Sorry, Alice,” we both apologized before I grabbed the stuff I had bought and held it out to her.

“I come bearing tea, chocolate and flowers. All I ask is that you give me a chance to explain myself and let me apologize. Hell, I’ll even let you hit me as much and as hard as you want,” I explained quickly. She snorted indignantly.

“Why?! So Evie can bitch slap me too because you came back with a broken jaw?!” She had me there.

“True, but the offer still stands.” She looked around for a moment before sighing.

“Bucky, could you give me and Steve some space to talk?” she asked. Bucky took a deep breath in before walking to their bedroom, passing by to press a kiss to her lips.

“Buck, if you’re still pissed after we’re done talking, we can go out back and I’ll let you kick my ass,” I offered as an olive branch. He raised an eyebrow at me.

“You’ll let me? Motherfucker I will, whether you like it or not,” he shot back, taking a step toward me. Alice jumped between us again to keep us apart.

“Bucky, come on. Give us a minute to talk.” He huffed before storming to the room.

“I’ll come back if you need me,” he promised before slamming the door. Alice rounded on me then, and suddenly I was wishing I was still fighting with Bucky. “You are such an asshole!” She screeched, poking my chest with her finger. “Why would you even say something like that?” Her face was all blotchy and her eyes were red, obviously from crying for most of the day.

God I’m such a jackass.

“Alice, I am so sorry. I know nothing I do will ever take that back, but I will send the rest of eternity trying to earn your trust back.” She raised both eyebrows at me, surprised.

“Eternity, huh? You’re awfully optimistic that it’ll only take that long.” I am in such deep shit.

“Whatever it takes, I’ll do it,” I swore. She scoffed, clearly not believing me. “You don’t think I’m serious? Alice, I pined after Evie for years! Waiting for the right time to strike so I could finally be with her. Then you came into the picture and fixed it so I could, so I owe you.” Her face was turned up in such a sneer, it was truly remarkable how scary she could be when she wanted.

”Is that so? Then what the fuck is your problem?!” I hung my head in shame. “What possessed you to say something so vile and cruel to me? It’s not like I don’t still dream about him.” Fuck. I didn’t think she still had nightmares.

“Alice, I’m sorry. You know I would never mean it.” She shot me a look that would have killed me before I was born.

“Then why did you say it?!” she yelled, throwing her hands in the air.

“I was just so angry about all the suffering that Evie went through, I wasn’t thinking straight.” She shook her head in disbelief. “I know it doesn’t excuse what I said, but can you find it in your heart to forgive me?” She looked so upset, and I knew I was to blame.

“Possibly with time I could come to think about forgiving you, but as of right now, I can’t. That was the lowest blow anyone could’ve dealt me, and it came from my own brother no less.” I nodded, knowing that this was better than nothing. “Do you honestly think that Bucky and I didn’t want Becca at all?” she hissed at me.

“No, Alice. Of course not. I didn’t mean that you guys didn’t want her at all. I meant that you two had come to terms that you couldn’t have kids, or so you thought, so it wasn’t as devastating when you ‘couldn’t’ get pregnant.” I started to tear up as I remembered the anguish that Evie went through all those months. “Evie was in so much pain, negative test after negative test. She got it in her head that I deserved a better wife, someone who could actually give me children. She was sneaking out of our bed and sleeping in what’s now Simon and Maggie’s room. Night after night she did this, because she didn’t feel that she was worthy enough to share a bed with me anymore.” I was full on crying now, but all she did was glare at me. “Then there you were, going on and on about how happy you were and what a miracle it was, and Evie kept it to herself how bad it hurt. You know how much it hurts you to see Bucky in pain?” When she nodded I went on. “That’s how it was watching Evie cry herself to sleep every night over something we didn’t even ask for.” I stopped to catch my breath and to try and stop crying.

“Steve, I am truly sorry about that, but Evie and I already went over this. It’s not fair for you to keep bringing it up and using it against me. Evie has forgiven me and I her.” She walked over and shoved my shoulder hard, and I tensed, waiting for more, but it never came. Instead, she gave me a tentative hug, which I gladly returned. I saw the bedroom door open as Bucky stuck his head through, gauging the situation. He walked out, approaching slowly and stopping once he reached us.

“Everything okay?” he asked quietly.

“I’d say possibly, but I’m not the one who got their feelings hurt by me,” I answered as I looked down at my sister, unsure of where we stood. She smiled softly before nodding.

“I’m not forgiving him right now, but I could eventually see myself thinking about it,” she replied. She grabbed the tea, chocolate and flowers from where I had dropped them and carried them to the kitchen. “You got me the proper kind of tea and my favorite chocolates. Not a bad way to start on the road to forgiveness, Steve.” I smiled, happy to know that I was on the right track. My reply was lost however as the door swung open to reveal Simon, who stalked in and decked me. I stumbled back as his punch registered, and I noticed Maggie and Evie standing at the doorway, both looking worried. Simon then dove at me, tackling me to the ground as he began to punch every bit of me he could reach.

Evie must have told him what I said to Alice. Shit.

I knew that I deserved having the crap beat outta me, so I let him get all his anger out. He finally stopped, his chest heaving. I stood slowly, noting the soreness all over. Luckily he’s not as strong as Alice or Bucky, so the injuries I had would heal within a day or two.

“Where the fuck do you get off saying anything like that to her?!” he bellowed.

“Si, relax,” Alice replied, placing her hand on his arm. “He’s been over here apologizing to me for it, and he’s going to be apologizing for the rest of his life.” I nodded in agreement as Evie walked over to inspect me.

“Apart from the broken nose, you’re okay,” she assessed. “Travers, is that really the best you could do? Even Bucky was able to put him in the hospital.” He snorted before going off.

“Yeah, well I don’t have a fucking metal arm and I’m not super like them! So yes, that is the best I can do!” Evie smirked at him before turning to Alice.

“Honestly, I don’t think apologizing for the rest of his life...is enough. Whoop his ass, girl. He totally deserves it,” she taunted. Alice laughed before shaking her head.

“Nah, it’s okay. It’s not like he hit me at all. Besides, you, Simon and Bucky got him for me.” Evie smiled as Alice looked around. “Where are the kids?”

“Oh, they’re asleep. We put on a movie and the three of them were cuddled up together and just zonked out all at once. Figured it’d be better than bringing them over here and possibly witnessing their dad/uncle getting the hell beat out of him by their other uncle.” We all nodded in agreement, as we all had agreed to not fight or yell in front of the kids. “Come on. Dinner should be done here soon.”

We all trickled out of the apartment, Simon and Maggie holding hands in front, Evie and Alice linked arms behind them, followed by me and then Bucky. He grabbed my shoulder and turned me to face him.

“I’m still mad at you, but I’m glad you apologized. That was a pretty shitty thing to say to her, and it’s gonna leave a mark on her,” he scolded.

“I know Buck. Like I said, I’m gonna spend eternity trying to make it right between me and her.” We paused for a moment before I thought of something else to say. “Maybe tomorrow morning you can kick my ass when we go on our run.” He smirked widely before nodding as we walked back to the kitchen for dinner.

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Klangst: The Hanahaki Disease is an illness born from one-sided love, where the patient throws up and coughs of flower petals when they suffer from one-sided love. The infection can be removed through surgery, but the feelings and or memories of said person disappear along with the petals. It can be cured without side effects only when the feelings are returned. Keith begins to develop it.

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Keith started to seriously doubt the universe’s intentionsby this point.

Sure, they kicked ass in their latest mission and Zarkonwent out of commission. But that brought them a whole new wave of ugly withLotor, who seemed to have all his father’s ruthlessness combined with thecharisma that seems to be winning him heaps of loyal followers. Needless tosay, they haven’t gotten the breather they needed so deeply.

Keith woke up with a throbbing headache, followed bytightness in his chest. This wasn’t unusual as he had been experiencing thisfor the past week now. He can’t really remember the triggering point, but hewas sure it wasn’t due to a hit as he was just spat out of a pod last night, sohe blamed it on exhaustion for now.

He walked to his bathroom to freshen up. As he reached hissink, he was greeted by a much paler version of himself staring back at him.His eyes bags looked almost like bruises under his eyes, which were bloodshotas if he had been crying. He brought his hand up to his mouth just as a chestrattling cough tore its way up his mouth. He stared down in horror as he saw apetal.

At that moment he remembered once going to a funeral of oneof Shiro’s relatives back on earth, it was an aunt that didn’t even make itpast the age of 30. She had died of Hanahaki Disease. She had died of Love,unrequited love to be exact. He remembered being so scared of the concept thathe decided to never allow himself to get close to anyone. Regardless of whomthey were to him. Shiro being an exception as he raised him; he thinks of himas an older brother and a mentor figure.

The petal almost didn’t look real. It was white, withblue-ish corners. It was beautiful if not for the context.

Keith was brought out of his thoughts as someone knocked onhis door.

“Keith? You in there, buddy?”

God, that voice… That voice was the only reason he was evenin this mess in the first place. Keith could almost picture Lance standingoutside his door, with a crease between his eyebrows. And his brown hairgrowing longer each day they stayed out in space, he was just a couple of feetaway from Keith. He never really realised how deep he was in this until thisvery moment.

He kept coughing until he was able to breath properly again,washed off the blood and the petals from the sink. He looked at his reflectionagain, there was nothing he can really do about his eye bags so he at leastwashed his face and brushed his hair back with his fingers and opened the door.

“There you are! You sounded like you were dying in there.”Lance took a step forward. “Hell, you look like you were dying.” Worry itched itselfon his face, as he reached forward and touched his forehead. “Hmm you don’thave a fever. Guess it’s not that serious, then. Man, you really have to take afull 8 hour sleep.”

Yeah, right Keith thought, not that serious myass. He knew how dire the situation was but he would rather die than letLance know of his feelings towards him. And besides if Lance’s flirting withAllura, Nyma and the mermaids told him anything, it’s that Lance was straight.Keith knew that Lance seemed cool, like he would accept, but he just didn’t wantto test that theory in fear of the opposite. How would he be able to live withLance if he felt disgusted to be around Keith?

“I’m fine.” Keith said, hostility much more than what heintended. “I had a long night.”

Keith training late wasn’t news to anyone.

“Oh. Well, Hunk says breakfast is ready. Wanna walk together?”

“Do I have a choice?”

“Not really, mullet!” Lance swung his arm around Keith’sshoulder as they walked side by side towards the kitchen. His sharp wince wentunnoticed by Lance.

By the time they reached the Kitchen, Keith was out ofbreath. It was like he was breathing through a straw. He tried to take a deepbreath and sat down at his designated seat between Lance and Shiro, just asAllura walked in with all her royal grace.

“Well princess, someone had their beauty sleep!” Lancewinked at the princess. Keith started coughing, not noticing the silence of theroom. He brought his hand up to cover his mouth, it was too much but notunbearable just yet.

“Keith, that sounds like a bad cough.” Shiro rubbed his backin attempt to soothe his fits. “C’mon let us get this checked in the medbay.”

“No.” He rasped, his vocal cords sound like they were beingrubbed against broken glass. It felt like that too. “I’m fine. It’s justallergies; it’ll go on its own.”

“That doesn’t sound like allergies. Believe me; I haveallergies from practically everything you could think of.” Pidge unhelpfullysupplied.

“Seriously guys, it’s nothing.”He knew he was lying through his teeth, but he really couldn’t handle the truthruining what he small bond he already had with Lance. And even if he didn’t saywho it was, they will treat him like glass, and that goes against everythingKeith had to learn his entire life.

He started to regret everything at once. Everything.

The petals grew more and more around his trachea. Keithstarted getting breathless by the simplest of movements and his chest pain wasstarting to become the only thing he can think about, besides how totallyfucked he was in terms of Lance.

On his way to the lounge, he started contemplating the ideaof telling Lance and just ripping off the band aid to save himself the trouble.And hey, he was dying anyways. As he was passing the kitchen, the voices insidestop him dead in his tracks.

“I don’t know, Hunk” The very distinguishable voice ofAllura said. “I am just sad that he keeps getting the wrong idea. I really dolike him, more than just a teammate. His flirting and remarks, as inappropriateas they are, do lighten the mood. And I hate to admit it but they are startingto become something I look forward to.”

“That is so relieving to hear princess. He really does careabout you, and you remind him of someone back home that he loved deeply.” Hunksaid, the trace of a smile evident in his voice.

“Then I only wish for them to reunite and I would do my bestto ease his longing.”

Keith almost passed out then and there. More than just ateammate he thought the worst was passed him. But seriously the universeseemed to be testing him on whole new level. How the hell could he compete withAllura?! A fucking princess. The person Lance has been flirting with, andpining over, since day one. He turned around to walk back to his room.

He made it about two stepsbefore his vision turned black.

Keith let out a painful groan as he raised his hand to rubthe white spots from his vision, that’s when he noticed where exactly he was.Shiro, Coran and Allura were over him, looking at him with deeply worried eyes.

“Number four, can you hear me, my boy?” Coran said, passinga shining light in front of his eyes. “How are you feeling?”

“Like someone was tap dancing on my chest.” He didn’t missShiro’s wince at his remark.

“Keith. Who is it?” Shiro said sternly.

“Shiro…”

“Who?!”

“No one, okay!” Keith yelled, immediately regretting hischoice as his broke into a fit of coughs.

“They are increasing by the minute.” Coran said grimly. “Theyhave completely taken over his left lobe and are in the process of doing sowith his right. We need to do the surgery now.”

“No. Please, No.” Keith pleaded, his eyes betraying him andpouring tears down his face.

“Keith, we are trying to help you.” For a second he feltanger towards Allura. After all those months in space, of Lance basicallymaking a fool out of himself, she finally decided to reciprocate his feelingsthe exact same time Keith was dying due to his.

“I am not forgetting him.”

“So, it’s a ‘him’.” Shiro said. Keith could almost see gearsin his brain turning. Before he could do anything, Lance and Hunk ran into themedbay.

“ITS HANAHAKI!!!” They yelled in union, then froze as theysaw the scene infront of them. “uhh how late are we?” Lance asked.

“Very.” Allura said, trying to hide a fond smile as shelooked over to Lance. And just like that, he felt his lungs contract as thepain started again. It felt like they were in a blender getting torn to shreds.He tried to inhale but it just wasn’t happening anytime soon.

Coran inhaled sharply. He started running around the Medbaylooking for some equipment; he laid them down on the table and immediatelystarted working.

“I am going to explain this to you once.” He said whileproceeding with the procedure. “The thorns in his lungs just grew and broke somecapillaries. I need to drain the blood before he chokes on it and drowns.”

“How did-“

“You see that screen?” He pointed at one of the monitorsover their heads. “This is a real-time x-ray. You see that white stuff? Thatshould be black, indicating air. The presence of the white indicates fluids inhis lungs. So you are going to help me drain his lungs. Unfortunately, this isjust to prolong his life. It won’t solve the problem.”

He grabbed a large syringe and punctured Keith’s chest atthe position of his 5th rib, connecting the syringe to a long tubeand on to a bag. The blood started to move due to the difference in pressure.Shiro stared in awe at the tube his held in his hands, careful not to move itin case of hurting Keith.

While the procedure washappening, Keith went in and out of consciousness. He could register thatsomething was wrong just as he felt sharp pain in his chest. Coran observedKeith’s breathing, making sure it was somewhat normal. Keith’s vision wentblack for the second time that day.

Keith’s stay in the Medbay was extended due to the recentmedical necessities. He had the drainage tube on one side and a bloodtransfusion IV on the other, to prevent the effects of blood loss.

The paladins would come and go, never once leaving him alonefor his thoughts.

Every time Shiro would come he would keep telling him thathe should’ve noticed Keith’s feelings to whoever it was. That he feels like abad friend and an even worse brother. He didn’t dare tell keith anything abouthow bad the team has been doing without him.

Hunk would walk in with a tray of amazing smelling food andjust sit with him and chat about nothing and everything. He was the only onewho didn’t demand to know who the mystery ‘him’ was.

Lance’s visits were the worst. He would just sit and not sayanything, which was unusual for the blue paladin, but it seemed like he had alot on his mind so Keith didn’t bother him. Until one day he did it himself.

“I think I know who you love.” Lance said looking down atthe ground, his fingers fidgeting with his shirt sleeves. “It’s Shiro, isn’tit?”

Keith gaped at Lance. Shiro? He thinks it is Shiro?!

“I mean who wouldn’t. He is basically Hercules, have youseen him!”

“It’s not Shiro.” Keith said, finalizing his answer. Hereally did not wanting to hear more about how perfect Shiro was. He had enoughof that in Garrison.

“Hunk, then. I totally understand.” Lance continued. “He islike a walking teddy bear.”

“Not Hunk.” Keith turned hishead and faced the other way; Indicating the end of the conversation.

Keith’s condition kept getting worse and worse.

Coran went through all the castle’s medical files trying tofind anything that would help Keith, but not remove his memories. Keith stillhasn’t admitted who it was and didn’t seem to be going to any time soon.

The atmosphere of the castle was grim. Everyone kept havingthe passing thought of what if nothing worked? It was too real for anyof them to linger onto that thought.

Shiro started eyeing Lance after he told Shiro about hisconversation with Keith. He now had an idea as to whom, and was startingto see why.

He walked into the Medbay and sat next to Keith.

Due to his lack of daily movements, his muscles have gottenatrophied, making him seem so much smaller than he actually was. It was achingShiro’s heart to see this somewhat of a little brother, look so defeated.

“It is not too late, you know.” Shiro said gently.

“It kinda is.”

And that was that. They sat together and enjoyed each other’scompany.

Lance walked in some time later. He looked so much thinner,as if he was the bedridden one. He had eye bags under his eyes, matching Keith’sand he keeps fidgeting like he might bolt out of the door at any given moment. Shirodecided to give them some time alone. If things don’t go as he had hoped, thenthis was goodbye.

Lance sat in the chair next to Keith and grabbed his thinhand. He really hated seeing his fiery hot-headed teammate like this. And alldue to love. Fuck love. He can’t believe how much this mystery guy made it seemlike it was that impossible to love Keith back. Like it was evenpossible to not love Keith, with his thick hair and violet eyes.

He felt his hand stir as Keith shifted to look at him fromhis bed.

“Hey.” Keith said, completely drained of all life. Hedecided that thinking of Keith lifeless was something he would never evenconsider until absolutely necessary.

“Hey, yourself.” Lance replied.

Keith coughed a couple long painful coughs before he wasable compose himself and look right into Lance’s eyes.

“Don’t hate me.”

“Hate you? I could never.” Lance said confused. Keith’s eyeswere slowly dulling. It took everything in him to not jump and cradle Keith andjust lay there with him.

“I am so sorry.” There were tears in his eyes by this point.Whatever Keith was about to tell him, it was scaring him big time. He wasslowly closing his eyes as he said, “It was you. It had always been you. And Iknow you are straight and you might not admit that you hate me for dumping thison you but I love you. And I hate myself for it.”

Lance brain short-circuited as he started replaying whatKeith just said to him over and over in his mind. Hate him? Dumping hisfeelings? Straight?

Lance decided to throw logic out the window, as he jumped upto Keith and held his face this time.

“I would never hate you for loving me!” Lance said quickly.“I love you! I love you too. You hear me, Keith? I love you too and I havealways loved you, ever since Garrision.”

Tears started pouring down Lance’s face as he couldn’tbelieve this was happening. Lance was bisexual, so he might admit that most ofhis recent flirtatious advances have been to strictly girls, it was because hewas scared of how the team would react. He had his fair shares of bullies backon earth that would call him slurs and profanities, all due tomisunderstandings, but all in all, he wasn’t ashamed of his bisexuality.

Keith eyes tightly shut as hecoughed and coughed, his lungs seemed to be getting rid of all the flowers. Andas much as he was relieved that it was him who Keith had feelings for, he stillfelt extremely guilty for making it seem like Keith couldn’t trust him with hisfeelings.

Keith’s condition would take a long time to go back to howit was before. He spent most of his time coughing, vomiting and trying to ridhis lungs of all the petals and thorns that seemed to have grown in the pastdays.

There was a new found closeness between Lance and Keith thatwas masked by guilt from both sides. Keith’s due to the fact that he misjudgedLance and scared the shit out of the Lance and the rest of the team, whileLance’s towards how he should’ve been a better friend to Keith. He never wantedto experience being this helpless to save someone he loved, so he made sure toalways keep reminding Keith how much he means to him.

One night as he was sitting in the lounge after a long dayof physical therapy, trying to strengthen his atrophied muscles, Keith turnedto Allura.

“Is my relationship with Lance bothering you?” His voicesounded small to his own ears.

“No. why would it?” Allura asked, confused.

He told her about the conversation he overheard between herand hunk, about how he kept thinking about it and that he felt awful if he oversteppedor ruined something between her and Lance.

Allura stood up and hugged Keith.

“There was never something between Lance and I. What I meantwas that he is becoming like a brother to me.” She said with a soft smile.Allura let him go, eyes locking for a second before she looked down at theground. “And the person I remind him of, is his older sister.”

Keith felt stupid to say the least. But for once, he felt atpeace knowing that, for once, everything had worked out for the better.

My anxiety was so bad last week. I can usually just throw myself into writing and just pour out everything, but this just didn’t seem to be the case this time. I don’t take medication, i deal with it on my own. Today was one of my clear headed days and i was able to whip this up. i am so sorry this is bad and late but i have never written Hanahaki before. just read a ton of it tho.

Any thoughts would bedeeply appreciated.

Gotany prompts you’d like me to write? Feel free to drop by and send it ❤

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Day 3, Tuesday, October 3rd

I wake up at 9:30 am, attack my phone alarm with a vigorous "fuck that" and set it again for 10:30 am. My alarm goes off at 10:30 am, and I officially wake up.

I fell asleep around 1:00 am last night, and I mentioned yesterday how I love my 9 hours. I'll try to go to bed earlier tonight. I had a dream that someone was trying to force me to drink blood, so if any of you super cool dream interpreters can guess what that means, let me know.

Yoga class - "Pranayama Yoga To Move Energy" - 12:34:

SIKE!

Apparently while doyogawithme.com has lots of free classes, but a few videos are subscription only. So when I click on the link to this video and see "subscription only" I simultaneously roll my eyes and harshly exhale out of both nostrils at this minor inconvenience. Ah, yes, minor inconveniences; the bane of any millennial's existence. The same video is provided for tomorrow, so I will have to find yet another replacement for it for day 4. Okay, now for real this time...

Yoga class - "3 Yoga Breathing Exercises for Anxiety" by Caren Baginski on YouTube - 7 mins:

If you try this video, you'll noticed I picked a pretty easy video for today. It was very helpful, especially the switching nostrils one (forgot what that one was called). I'll need to remember these when I have anxiety.

Guided Meditation - "Transform Yourself" - 15 mins:

Okay guys, I have a confession to make on this one. My brain could not shut off and I was too restless, so I only made it through 8 minutes of this guided meditation. I tried to follow the imagery of imagining light flowing through my body, and I did my best but it didn't help much. One thing the speaker said that I will mention is that you choose how you think and feel about yourself, your life, and your surrounding. And while people with mental illness such as myself can often think the opposite, that you can't control how you feel or think, in many ways you actually can. More often than not it's within the means of actually forcing yourself to replace the negative intrusive thoughts with positive or realistic thoughts than actually making yourself feel something, but if and when you continue to make yourself think healthily, you'll start to feel better emotionally. This is easier said than done, but it is true.

Read a Proverb - Proverbs 3:

This is a pretty famous chapter of Proverbs for Christians and Catholics of the world. In it are these verses, 5 & 6: "Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take." I first read these verses in early 2010. The fact that I can actually remember the year is pretty cool, since my memory pretty much sucks. Actually, my memory basically works of it's own will, selecting at random what information I will and will not remember. Anyways, these verses have always had a lot of meaning to me. It pretty much sums up God's intended experience for a person who believes in the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ and His salvation. That's why I don't worry too much about how my life goes and the way I choose to live it. As long as I'm saved, and I believe I am, regardless of what happens to me, I know how things will turn out for me in the very end.

The rest of the chapter reiterated the theme of Proverbs, which is to delight in wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, so that you live a good life. It ends with some good general pieces of advice for life: use common sense, when you see someone who needs help, don't hesitate to help them, don't hurt people, don't pick petty fights with people, don't act like violent people act, and if you dedicate your life to wisdom, you will "inherit honor".

Blog post - TWLOHA - "Beyond Shades of Gray" by Sharleigh Thomson:

At the beginning of this article, Sharleigh defines how we as a society talk about something clear and defined. "You've either attempted or you haven't." But then she begins to describe what she calls a gray zone as the place where you desperately want to escape from the pain and being willing to die to do so. "A place where you might have the means, the will, the plan, the note—everything but the follow through." And good fucking god, I know what the gray zone is like. I instantly identified with the author of this blog post. She proceeded to describe how she was once unable to find the words to truly explain her experience and her pain. That there weren't enough syllables in the English language to describe just how hard what she was going through was. She started talk therapy, but had trouble opening up and finding the words to explain herself to her therapist. He suggested that she start writing down how she was feeling. My therapist told me to do the same thing, and I reacted the way Sharleigh did: with stubbornness. At that time she believed that writing was some sort of cop out. I used to believe that if I couldn't find a way to say it out loud, how the hell can I get it one paper? Well, as I've discovered, the opposite is true sometimes. If I can get my thoughts, whether they are complete sentences or not, out on paper (or most likely, the notes app on my computer), then I can form the way to say it out loud. As a matter of fact, writing down my train of thoughts has lead me to more epiphanies than I ever expected... I've got to start doing it again.

Finally, after another suicidal episode, Sharleigh gave in and began writing. She said that it started out dark and emotional, but eventually became something personal, beautiful, and hopeful. She found a way to break down her problems in her writing. Then she began to write plays, poetry, and blog posts about her experiences with mental health and suicide. Hey, I'm doing that last thing now! What a coincidence.

I haven't written poetry since I was a teenager. My poetry back then varied in quality, a good portion of them being angsty emo depression poetry about how much I hated my life. But I'm sure if I looked back into my old journals (which I somehow still have after losing the rest of my belongings over the course of a few months before moving to Florida), I could find two or three good ones. I wish I remembered how to write poetry. Not that it's all that hard, so long as you're good with words. But I have no idea what to write a poem about. I don't want to write one about my depression or anxiety, because I have grown to enjoy poetry that ends on a positive note, and I have yet to find a positive note for a poem about depression. It's not that I'm this huge pessimist, I know there's a light at the end of this dark ass stanky ass tunnel, but I just don't know how to end a poem anymore. I don't like writing poems about nature, because those are boring. I have a sense of humor, but for some reason I'm put off by funny poems. Oh well, maybe I'll find something to write a poem about someday.

As the blog post starts to near it's end, Sharleigh tells of how she rebuilt herself through writing, and how while she still feels darkness, she's still willing to keep creating things and searching for hope when times get hard. I'm trying to have that same attitude. Practice makes perfect, I suppose. She ends the post with some encouragement to stay alive, to find a way to make your voice heard, and most importantly, to find what you were made for. I appreciate the encouragement she offered, and I hope others who read that article find comfort in them, but more often than not I read inspiring words and ideas and they have little to no affect on me. It's the reading equivalent of "in one ear, out the other" (in one eye, out the other? I don't know). But when push comes to shove, I do get it. Really, I do. And she's not wrong. I suppose one day I'll find myself smack dab in the middle of what I was made to do. Maybe I'm doing it now. Regardless, though I don't feel encouraged, I'm choosing to be encouraged. I'm making it my state of mind rather than waiting to feel warm and fuzzy. It's all I've got right now.

Encouraging someone on reddit - r/anxiety:

I found an easy one. And when I say easy, I mean I had the experience to give to this person who was nervous about increasing their dosage of their antidepressant. They said they were afraid that increasing their dose from 10mg to 20mg would make them feel "weird". I let out a light chuckle when I read that, because if any psychiatric drug is gonna make you feel "weird" (or in my case, a fucking zombie), it's not the antidepressants; it's the antipsychotics. I told them about how I was misdiagnosed a year ago during my mental breakdown and was put on some VERY HEAVY antipsychotic drugs, which made me act like a robot. Ask my dad, he saw me a lot at that time. I had no emotions. My mother, who at this point lived across the country from me, even noticed that I was different. Now I'm not saying antipsychotics are bad, because some people really do need them. But if you don't need them, they definitely make you more numb than anyone needs to be, and not the "high" kind of numb, but the "I feel literally nothing; good or bad" kind of numb. I then told this person that I have had times in my life where I was only on an antidepressant. I've tried a bunch, and coincidentally, along with my vast experience with psychiatric medications, I've also experienced being on Lexapro alone. So I told them it doesn't make you feel weird, and that it is more likely to help them than anything. Or a bit less likely (but still possible), it could just not work for them at all and they need to try a different antidepressant. All in all, I hope I at the very least encouraged them not to be afraid to increase their medication, so long as the doctor says it's best.

Walk:

The neighbors came by today to let us know a few sex offenders live in our neighborhood. One guy even lives just a few houses down. Fortunately, all the ones closest to us are child sex offenders, so I'm pretty sure I'm too old for them to want to assault. Regardless, my mom made me take her stun gun with me while I went for my walk. I listened to another one of my favorite bands, Gazpacho, this time. It was nice and peaceful. On my way back a dog started following and barking at me for a few yards, until its owner got it to go back to its house. I laughed as this was quite amusing. Instead of getting followed by creepy sex offenders as my mother fears, I was getting followed by a medium sized brown yapping dog. When I got home I felt refreshed, and my depression went from like a 8 down to a 6, so there was some improvement. End of Day Notes: I don’t know if I feel any different yet. But then again, it’s only the end of day 3. Any noticeable improvements seem small: the morning pranayama yoga centers and calms me for the day, I’m starting a routine which always brings a sense of accomplishment, I’m learning a few things from what I’m reading, and I’m getting better at giving encouragement or advice. So at least it’s something. P.S. I promise I’ll make this blog look pretty at some point. I could have done it today, but along with all my goals, I spent 3 hours cleaning to whole house, so I didn’t have time to work on this blog’s appearance.

#self improvement #jessi-31days #mental health #yoga #meditation #challenge #depression #anxiety #change

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I am getting off my parents auto insurance and getting my own. The Quote from the agent my parents use who is local to the area was nearly two hundred dollars more per year than the quote i got from progressive. Is there a reason to use a local company? he tried to sell me on customer service but i only deal with my insurance company maybe once or twice a year so i'm not sure that its worth $200 to me. Is there a reason to use a local company?

Florida Home insurance help?

I was recently dropped from my insurance company.My credit is bad so no one will cover me what should I do? I will also need flood insurance.

What health insurance is best and affordable for my wife?

We had a baby 3 months ago, but I am looking for health insurance that is good and affordable for my wife. Any suggestions?""

Can't pay my insurance?

I paid my tickets and was going to renew my license but was told I was suspended from paying insurance till next year, is there really anything I can do?""

How much will my car insurance be?

I'm a 17 year old male and have recently passed my driving test, how much will my car insurance most likely be if I buy a second hand car for about 2000. Thanks.""

How can I get insurance for my kids?

Does anyone know of any affordable insurances out there? We are a family of 4 and my two kids dont qulifiy for Chips, or medicaid. Is there any advice anyone can give? My kids are little. 1 and 7. It really sucks because my husband and i work full time and arent bums and cant even get any insurance for our kids.But i wont even get started on all that!.""

Why is it a requirement to have a car insurance in the UK?

i have just passed my driving test last week. i already have ford fiesta (its so loud). why would i want to insure my car against what. what is car insurance about? what/where is the cheapest company to go and why? what are the benefits of car insurance?

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Will my drivers insurance rate go up after this accident?

Im 17, live in California and am insured under Geico. I was driving in a parking lot going the speed limit and this girl back out super fast (presumably without looking) and slams into me. Her car was fine but she left a small dent and paint chip near the door and rear tire opposite the drivers side. Will my rates go up even if I wasn't at fault? Should i even go to insurance on this? Please help!""

Car insurance!?

im looking to get a car and insurance on my own is outragous. the question is my mum has her own car with her policy with NIS. on direct line i want my mum to be the main policy holder with me as an additional driver. is this possible for my mum to have 2 policies on 2 different cars?

Cheap car insurance for an 18 year old?

I'm hearing so many different things. Some people say you can use part of your parents' no claims to bring down the price, but I can't find any sites online who say that. Does anyone know of any cheap places or best companies to try by phone to get a realistic car insurance quote for an 18 year old? Thanks in advance.""

No insurance..?

Okay I have went to 2 doctors appointments with no insurance.. but now I have insurance.. How much do you think its gonna cost for them two visits

Can I still collect money from a life insurance policy even if my husband divorces me?

I have spousal life insurance through my company on my husband which I am automatically the beneficiary. We are currently going through a divorce and he is currently dying of cancer. If the divorce finalizes before he dies, can I still collect on the life insurance?""

How Much Would Insurance Cost For A Renault Clio 182?

Car insurance uk only pt 2 ?

i just posted a question which i have varied answers.. another question of mine is that ok they took the whole years insurance.. now my mums left with 154.77 with not enough money to pay for another car.. she is fully comp, they did not give her a courtesy car which they are suppose to have done for 3days the car had been gone and one top of it the policy claims to give replacement cars until another car has been bought! any opinions?""

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CAR ACCIDENT WHOS AT FAULT AND DO WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH INSURANCE?

I was in a car accident yesterday a very minor one, the damage to my mother in laws BMW was just a cracked head light, and damage to theres was hardly apparent although the man said there was a tiny bump in door and a scratch. what happened was i was leaving a duel carriageway and on the side lane one lane was closed and a cone was in the road i swerved to miss going into work access (plenty of room as cones missing ETC cos of bad weather) then i pulled straight back out into correct lane having dragged the cone and seeming to leave it in work access... although all this happened in matter of seconds when i pulled back out i have hit the car that was originally behind me in the side door he obviously didn't break in time to stop when i swerved... i have a feeling because it was me that hit him that i am at fault? problem is i don't want to really go through insurance as it means both me and my mother in law will lose our no claims and because it was me driving not my mother in law excess is 600 as i am only a named driver.... I would rather just pay for damages if i am at fault than give my mother in law all the hassle...how much do you think it will cost? only thing is when i said this to the man he said he needs to notify insurance anyway and mine which i have been told will lose our no claims anyway... any ideas info please as im quite confused?""

Car insurance Q??????????

Im 16 years old and Ill be geting my car In June that I paid $3,000 dlrs for Can I get the car title in my own name or do my parents half to also be on my title and when i get my car insurance will my parents be on that? im paying for every thing with my own money... And I live in the state of WI.""

What is voluntary access on car insurance?

i saw it on the go compare web site but i dont know what it is as im a 1st time driver

Car insurance for a 16 year old!?

I get my license next month and I finally saved up enough money to get a 1998 BMW Roadster, how much would the monthly insurance cost on average? & if i own the car will that help?""

Do I really need travelers insurance?

We are taking a trip from Oregon to Cancun Mexico soon and am wondering if I should purchase travelers insurance. We are going to purchase airline tickets directly from Delta Airlines and also from our chosen hotel. I'm thinking that if there are any problems, the airline and hotel would take care of it. What are your thoughts?""

How much will my car insurance go up?

Two weeks ago I rear ended a Ford F150. There was very little damage done to their truck, but my mazda protoge was declared totaled. No ambulance was called and the people in the truck acted just fine. The driver was a lady who I thought was just obese but it turns out from the police report that she was 9 months pregnant. I was not arrested or anything at this scene but I did get a ticket for careless driving by failing to yield. I am a 25 year old male btw and I was on my mom's insurance driving her car. We called the insurance and found out that she was monitored and the baby was ok. She was due next week, but the insurance hasn't heard about the delivery or anything. The lady, however is claiming neck and back injuries. Will my insurance go up more because of the accident AND her claims or just the accident itself? I have to go to court in June just for the accident (it is mandatory here for every traffic violation). I need to know how much my insurance will go up to get a newcar""

Should you Always have health insurance whenever going under the knife ?

I would like to get a breast augumentation, and I was wondering if most people has health insurance whenever going under the knife? My credit is not good,but I've heard of something called Credit Care, is the health insurance included? If not,which health insurance is the most affordable and covers cosmetic surgery?""

Is there insurance for Antique Cars?

Hi, I have a 1971 chevrolet camaro. Wanted to ask if there was insurance for antique cars? I know i could just get liability for this car but i was wondering if i could get better coverage for my vehicle? Thanks.""

Does having a coupe or a sedan affect your insurance rates?

I'm going to get a new car, and realy want a coupe, but I heard that insurance cost more because is more sporty. Can anyone help.""

How much is insurance for a 2004 Nissan Maxima?

I'm 16 and this is my first car. I'm going to get liability and was wondering how much it's going to cost every month ? Thanks

Help on car insurance.?

I am 17 yrs old. I am about to get a 2008 Honda accord but right now I drive a 2002 Cadillac escalade. my insurance is $130 a month right now and I was wondering if it would raise it? the escalade is an SUV, & it has a v8. the accord is ofcourse a car and its a 4 cylinder! ( if that makes a difference) thank you to all that answer! :)""

What would the insurance be like on a Mitsubishi Lancer Ralliart?

I'm nineteen and looking to buy a lancer. From what I've been told the Evo's insurance would destroy me. I've had people tell me that the Ralliart would be cheaper but I was hoping for clarification. I have a clean record and a good student discount. Driving a Mustang at the moment and it's pretty much a killer lol

Can i change a court order insurance?

My kids have been on medi-cal since i separated with their father and it has been great. I have a child with special needs and we were able to go to the best clinics in town like UCSF and Stanford. i felt that my child gets the best medical care. The court ordered the father to provide a new insurance and we came to Kaiser last year. In almost a year dealing with Kaiser doctors i don't feel the same professionalism and quality of care as we used to get being at different other clinics. I started to think of changing the coverage to what we had prior to this. But i am not sure how i could change the court order and what evidence i need to provide asking for the change. Kids are still on Medi-cal, but its their secondery now.""

Mazda RX-8 insurance cost?

I'm 16 about to turn 17 in a mere few months. After getting a job I looked into cars for myself and set my eyes on a Mazda RX-8. Since I'm only 16 does anyone know a basic price per month on a 2004 model? Currently I am co-insured under my mother on a 2009 Honda Civic for about $80 per month. I'm just curious as to how much I'd be charged if I were to get a RX-8. Thank you for your time.

I desperately need auto insurance. i got my license like 6 months ago and i need cheap insurance?

as u guys probably kno, insurance for teens is ridiculously high!!.. the cheapest i got it was liek 215 a month.. but thats like.. no coverage. do any of u kno a good company or a good alternative way to legally have insurance which is not necessarily a monthly payment? (my friend told me about insuring mye license but im not too clear on how that works)""

Is there a car insurance company that only ask if you have any convictions within the last 3 yrs instead of 5?

I have insurance for a car I had for 6 days. The insurance co. says it's a total loss. They gave me a value?

Audatex is not kelly blue book they look at craigslist & not the dealer. Craigslist sometimes has cars where a mechanic might not catch it but is damaged. The price I paid is higher due to getting sick & credit went down so I had to go to a local dealer with higher interest. They want the insurance check plus $1700.00 & interest. So I will pay for this thing for over 1 1/2 years. I had it 6 days when some crazy driver almost hit me I turned & hit a wall. The insurance company says I loose my good driver discount. Since I will have to wait to pay off this car I can cancel my insurance once the dealer gets the check. Is there any California law that would say if this happens I would be able to pay off the car. It's worth more as a loss then to try to fix it. Please help. Thank You.

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Do i still have to pay excess on my car insurance?

can someone please tell me if I still have to pay my excess after a claim on my car insurance, it was my fault and alot of damage was done to the 3rd party car, i never got mine fixed...the thing thats confusing me if is my insurance is up for renewal next month but my current insurance is quoted over 1000 I have found it a lot less elsewhere so if course im leaving my insurance, but will I receive a letter stating i owe them the excess, as I paid nothing at the time of the claim?""

When is it the cheapest car insurance rate based on age?

I forgot when I got my license, freshmen in college though in NY. I was told that the older you are the cheaper your rate, like if you start at 25 you pay less. Is that right? I was told the opposite??????? I think I was 18.""

Do i have to have insurance on my cycle or car.?

So i know it is best to have insurance but i was wondering is it an absolute must, like can i have a car and drive it legally with out insurance?""

Ow much does it cost to deliver a baby without health insurance in washington hospital california ??

Cost of Car Insurance for an Escalade EXT?

How much would it cost to insure a pontiac firebird?

Im turning 16 soon and will be getting a car I was wondering how much money it would cost to insure a 1997 Pontiac Firebird.

""How much is insurance for two adults, two small kids under 10, and two cars?""

I know for each company, it's different and varies, but how much do you guys pay personally for your company? Also, do you have to notify insurance after getting married. what happens if you forget? Do they call you personally or do you get fined?""

Will filing a claim for broken car window raise my insurance payments?

I woke up to a broken driver side window this morning and the first thing i do is call my insurance to ask if its covered. My insurance said it would cost 350 bucks to fix it and i have a 500 deductable so i gta pay out of pocket anyway. He scheduled an appointment for me to get it fixed at a local shop. Is this claim going to affect my rates?

Affordable health insurance in texas?

I am self employ'd make enough to pay my bills cannot afford the average health insurance can anybody recommend me to affordable insurance that does not have a high deductable?

How much would car insurance cost on average?

How much would car insurance cost on average for a 19-year old male, living on his own, drives about 40 miles a day and has had no traffic violations. what would the cost per month be?""

Does your insurance cost increase if you get a ticket but no points on your license?

Best New York Health Insurance?

i got married 2 months ago, I m waiting to start the process for green card! at this time I wanted to get a good health insurance, my husband doesn t know aythin about it so please help me!!!""

What is a good car insurance company - value and a known company - not high risk?

I would like to switch car insurance companies - one because when I buy a third car and add it to my policy they charge me $5.00 for installment billing even though I pay in full - this leads to the second more serious complication which is that my husband works in the car business and on occasion decides to buy a new car b/c it is a good value and he like the car, then we sell the second car. We typically have the second car for 11-22 months. I mentioned to the insurance company that in the future I want to avoid this $5.00 fee since I always pay in full and I waving it this time wouldn't solve future issues b/c my husband is in the car business and we buy a third car to sell the second when he finds one he likes. THEN the cust svc guy goes on a rant - ARE YOU RESELLERS... blah blah blah and WE HAVE STRICT UNDERWRITING GUIDELINES blah blah blah etc. I tell him that holding onto a car for the time periods that we have would certainly indicate that we are not... and titling it""

Where can I find cheap roofing insurance?

I am looking to start a roofing repair company (residential only at this time) . What I am going to do is secure the jobs, draw the contracts, purchase material and collect payment. I have 3 crews that will do the labor and they each provide liability as well as worker comp on their crews. What I looking for is a company that will insure me with liability (1 million) for my protection. What I am running into is that every company that I talk to says that you have to be in business for 2 years or greater or they are quoting me 7 to 9k a year. I have over 10 years experience in quoting, selling and installing, can anyone help out in finding affordable liability insurance? Thanks""

About a car and insurance?

ok so im 17 goin to turn 18 this decmber and i want to get a this nice car a 1987 Pontiac Fiero and i want to know what would the insurance on it would be

Does insurance pay total or worth?

My car is considered a 'total loss' with about 8,000 in damages. My payoff quote is 12,000. will my insurance pay the amount I owe, or the amount my car is worth, minus my deductible?""

Where can I get cheap auto insurance?

I am looking for good and low cost auto insurance.

How much will 1 point affect my car insurance???!?

I got a right turn violation about 8 months ago and i took traffic school so im assuming that my insurance won't penalize me. Now i got another ticket(stop sign violation), how much would you estimate the percentage of my insurance? I live in California btw and im 20 years old.""

Question about car insurance?

1. How long does it take to get insurance? Can we go in and apply for it tommorrow and have it when we walk out? Or is there a waiting period? How long until you are legally covered? 2. If you get insurance on a car you are going to sell/trade in - can you switch over your insurance to cover the new car? Or how does that work? Problem is, our truck isn't insured right now but we're planning on buying a new car in the next month or 2.. will that make things more difficult for us? - first time insurance buyer""

How much home insurance & tax for a cheap studio?

I know 0 about this: are home insurance rates annual or monthly? Could someone give me just a very rough idea about how much a cheap studio's home insurance & tax would cost? (in ...mostrar ms

Cheap car insurance companies?

i've just passed my test and own a renault clio sport 1.4 w reg all insurance quotes have been over 3000 pound does any one know where to go for cheap car insurance

Whats the average cost a month for car insurance in california for an 18 year old?

Proof of Insurance for Driver's Test?

My Dad bought me a car about three days ago and the dealership said they will insure the car for 14 days while my dad gets insurance through his company. I might take my driver's test tomorrow and I want to use this car for it. If I show the dmv the insurance papers the dealership gave me, will that count as proof of insurance for my road test? Thank you.""

Will my insurance be raised because someone else got a ticket in my car?

My boyfriend was driving my car and got a texting ticket. Will my insurance rate increase?

So is there any health insurance for those with serious medical conditons?

My younger brother who's only 20 years old has a host of serious illnesses: crohn's disease, rheumatoid arthritis, irritable bowel syndrome, and a few more conditions that has constantly kept him sick for a good portion of his childhood. He's missed at least half a school year on a number of occasions, and despite his maturation he's still heavily affected by his conditions. Obviously, it's practically impossible for him to hold a steady job, he'll work for a while and then he'll have to take off a month or two just to deal with his illness, with that said he surely won't have employee health insurance. Currently, he's using our state's medicaid, however once he turns 21 he's no longer eligible for medicaid. With the health care system being the way that it is, is there any possibility that he could continue receiving health care despite his ineligibility? He takes a ton of drugs daily, and even takes some of the same medications that our grandparents take lol. I know some of you heartless conservatives believe he should provide his own health coverage, but how? His drugs cost thousands, and he's in the ER constantly, thus making his health-care only affordable to extremely rich individuals. When healthy, he does contribute as much as he possibly can, however for someone in his condition it would be downright shameful if he can't continue to receive any healthcare.""

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