#if someone shows me they're capable of cruelty or harm i don't know how to stop the reflex of constantly waiting for it to happen again
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i know in my heart that things are very rarely ever as idyllically simple as "forgive and forget" but i do genuinely wish that i was better at the forgetting part
#i'm good at forgiving#or as good as like a normal flawed person can be i guess#but i'm a flincher#if someone shows me they're capable of cruelty or harm i don't know how to stop the reflex of constantly waiting for it to happen again#and i will always just wish i could go back to seeing them how i saw them before whatever happened that made it different#also it's difficult coming to understand that forgiveness is not always something that stems from a transgression#like it's not always something that someone asks for or that you're in a position to even give#someone can do something that hurts you or sometimes it's just who they are or choices that they make that disappoint you#and then you have to mentally either choose to forgive that failing in your own eyes or just always let it sit with you and wear you down#anyway i'm sleepy i hope u all had a nice day
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