#ig if you've read all this let me know what you'd like to see :o

[platonic-qpr-selfshipping]

okay let me finally show you my updated f/o list!! I am also planning to add some s/i info but tbh i still havent gotten to it cause im procrastinating it while trying to relax doing other stuff klsdksj here it is!! (I am aware that the first photos look weird in phones so pls bare with me and put it in pc mode lmaoo im a carrd super-beginner)

now if you'd let me, Imma talk a bit about the changes just because

I wanted to get a bit more specific mentioning platonic f/os so even if I like many characters in sources like Obey Me, you can now see which characters I think my s/i would be the closest with :D!! I also played a bit with labels ig but I read this fic where Mammon said there was no need "to be anything" as long as we were in peace with each other and I felt that on a spiritual lvl so instead of overthinking how to label f/os sometimes I just put him as unlabeled lol I just love self inserting in his world being really close to him and he's my fav character of the game and all but ig it becomes hard sometimes to try to fit that into something so I said whatever, it's my little self insert world and they can do whatever they want that brings me comfort XD yknow, sometimes partnering concepts just feel off but at the same time I enjoy saying I am a Mammon simp cause I love the character so it's a bit of a mess in my brain sometimes, trying to make both my experience as a player and my s/i's fit for my best comfort

(yes this was another Mammon UR+ I did not get on Nightbringer)

talking about labels, I've decided to put all the Golden Deer as platonic soulmates :D! I think it suits us all and all the unique bonds they form with each other, and I thought that the whole thing of my s/i probably having this huge feeling of admiration and loyalty towards Claude felt better like this somehow, like it's a part of my s/i lore and not so much about what their relationship can be or not? I dont know if this makes sense worded like this but it seems to work out in my head XD I still plan to someday develop my s/i's story a lot so who knows

anyway, FRIENDS AND FAMILY!! I feel like it's pretty obvious that I've started to play Honkai Star Rail because suddenly I got a friend, a brother and a father from there- listen everytime I see the Astral Express Family written in the groupchat I emotionally cry happy tears (also I wouldnt be surprised if i ended up also f/oing Himeko in the future lmao, I love found families can you tell)

from Genshin Impact I've officially added Thoma as a platonic f/o :D!! (my hearts craves to befriend kind characters, yes) I think my Genshin s/i is probably the one with the most lore right now so I'm excited to write about this in the future! well,,,,, actually my Super Mario Bros s/i also has some info around themselves already,,,,,, like would you believe me if I told you I was already making up s/i lore while still watching the movie,,,,, the self-shipper experience huh.....

I love her

and do you know who I also love a lot.....?

those platonic f/os I've been mentioning in some reblogs lately saying I still havent talked about them......?

the dudes that may have taken over my brain recently using the power of friendship....?

yeah

yeah

aren't they the coolest tho

anyway I love them (repeating it as if i hadnt made it clear already) and I had to rewrite part of this cause I accidentally deleted it it so I think I'll finish it here ksdhkjs I believe there is a bit more to see in the carrd though, I'll put it in my pinned post soon :D! now if you'd excuse me imma go consume more hypmic manga as a healing experience, if you've read until here go drink some water, listen to Break The Wall and thank me later

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New Rulers AU makes me go aksajhnsuasdfhc. Since Shadow can become part of Link in place of Vio, are you imagining the two of them completely switching roles, both narratively and magically? I already noticed that Vio was the one to come up with the plan to overthrow Vaati in this AU.

yep, you got it! the role reversal is gradual, there’s character development on Shadow’s part to go from how he is at the beginning of the manga in canon to a full hero, though his scheming and underhanded tactics will find their use for good. Vio is pretty evil from the start though hehe! so narratively yes, Shadow and Vio totally switch roles. as for magic :3 well, I don’t know if I should write an ending for this AU, but I do know how it would go... so yes, there is an element of that reversal with magic too hehe >:)

[karasunology]

━ ❛ ➶ LOVE IN TRANSLATION ❜

➜ a walk through of oikawa's love language told through headcanons.

-ˏˋ ➶ character(s) ━ oikawa tooru <3

[ ♡ ] you've received two love notes from jae ! would you like to read both of them ?

💌 . . . TOORU🚪OIKAWAS ❌ FAVORITE 🎂 FOOD 🥘 IS 🕊 MILK 🥛 BREAD 🍞 HIS 🤤 PERSONAL 📽 MOTTO 🏛 IS 🚕 IF 🦽 YOURE 🧿 GONNA 📈 HIT 🚢 IT 🥃 HIT 🤾 IT 🏐 TIL 💡 IT 📬 BREAKS 🚫

💌 . . . dedicated to my fellow oikawa bitches and these lovely people that helped me put this shit together @tetsuwhore , @miel-meraki , @paripedia , @owlywrites i appreciate y'all😈💞

OIKAWA TOORU.

➜ oikawa is a passionate guy, so if he ever finds someone ― that being you ― that he knows will be worth being with, he'd be very much devoted to you as much he is devoted to volleyball.

➜ oikawa probably doesn't even have an ideal type i would like to say, since he's prolly too busy no thoughts, head empty & just volleyball, to even actually THINK of his own ideal type for an s/o

➜ but he didn't even need an ideal type ― all he wants is for someone to be understanding with his passion for volleyball and just him as a person

➜ and that person was you

➜ you were not only understanding his passion for the sport ― whether or not you play it too ― but you also support him in his games, which somehow was quite a darastic refreshing experience compared to his fangirls.

➜ you started out as a friend, a good one, but it didn't take him long for him to see you in a completely 180° angle.

➜ an angle that he wanted you to see him in too.

➜ he only probably had one or two girlfriends ― both probably dumping him because of volleyball, and he couldn't risk his chances with you.

➜ so when y'all FINALLY got together, he was a bit more clingier to you ― too scared to loose you because he isn't paying attention to you

➜ so when you learned that he was like that because he was terrified of you breaking up with him because he was too focused on volleyball, YOU WERE HAVING NONE OF IT !!! 😡🙅❌

➜ no sirrrr

➜ and when you guys talked it out with you reassuring him that you love him AND HIS UNCONDITIONAL PASSION for volleyball??? MANS ALMOST GOT UP TO TAKE YOU TO THE NEAREST CHURCH AND MARRY YOU RIGHT THEN AND THERE OMG

➜ oikawa : i aM KNEELING IN ONE KNEE BABE 👁👄👁💧💍

➜ mans was all 🏩💒💍🥰

➜ and that's when he knew that he would never fall in love with anyone again if they weren't you in a different life

➜ fuck man why do you got me on my feels like wtf tooru who gave to the right to make me feel like that

➜ loves pda, but not too much of it, you get me??

➜ like he could do it when his fangirls were there to ward them off, and with his teammates around.

➜ but he wouldn't be all over you in the middle of a crowded streets

➜ speaking of his fangirls, he fEELS SO BAD AND GUILTY THAT HE HAS THEM especially when they just crowd over him even tho they know his S/O IS LITERALLY RIGHT THERE BEING ALMOST TRAMPLED ON JSJSJSJSJ

➜ he used to love the attention but now all he wants was yours

➜ holy shit man that's tEETH ROTTENING TOORU

➜ so he knows he can't do much about his fangirls knowing that they're just there to support him too and give him love, but of course he'd definitely let borrow you HIS jersey and only you to let them know who's superior

➜ ✨y/n supremacy✨

➜ never wants to make you uncomfortable with his affections, he's also a very understanding guy and he'd never make you do something you don't want to

➜ that doesnt only apply to pda and stuff, just overall everything

➜ HE IS SO PRECIOUS OH MY GOD PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF HIM FOR ME😭

➜ do😢 it😤 for😆 oikawa🐽tooru🚪

➜ HE'S A HOPELESS ROMANTIC Y'ALL

➜ like for real,,,,,

➜ when you do this thing where you take off his glasses at home just to kiss the bridge of his nose? MMMMM MANS A SUCKER FOR THAT

➜ LIKE BABY HEART EYES

➜ would be 10× clingier to you whenever you do something that made his heart palpitate like it's blasting tf off from earth to meet god himself mm sounds like a plan sir <3

“ but y/nnn-chann, you don't know what you're doing to be and it's unfair even for me ” he'd whine, as he wraps his arms around your shoulders, burrying his head to your neck with a pout rested on his lips.

➜ one of his favourite intimacy with you is kissing you, like call him old fashion or whatever but that mans is hearing NONE OF IT

➜ oikawa : call me old fashioned but i was raised to serve my spouse. i clean the dishes and cook their food. i do whatever they says bc they are my spouse and they make the rules around the house. they own me. i am their property. if they ever cheat on me it's bc i was lacking

➜ he loves getting his nose kissed but he loves kissing yours too

➜ like the first time he did it was a forehead kiss gone wrong and he accidentally kissed your nose leaving him UTTERLY FLUSHED AND EMBARESSED, he has never been so hot-faced before because he thought he just embaressed himself in front of you and aHhhh

➜ YO MANS GONNA BE THAT GIRL WHO FARTED ON CAMERA THAT PLAYED IT OF THAT IT WAS A GHOST

➜ like when he plays it off that he didn't just accidentally kiss ur nose <3

➜ same energy, same chaotic energy.

➜ LOVES IT WHEN YOU KISS HIS TEMPLES AFTER PRACTICE WHEN HE COMES TO CUDDLE YOU AFTER TAKING A LONG BATH BECAUSE PRACTICE WAS A BIT TOO MUCH THAT DAY

➜ just what @tetsuwhore discussed in her ted talk hosted in my inbox, oikawa does NOT only leans on traditional physical affections

➜ like there'd be a day where he'd be randomly clingier and very vocal of his adoration towards you. he'd be nibbling your ears, whispering sweet nothingness and telling you everthing he loves about you; from your acne to your moles

➜ if you got freckles? you bet he'd make constellations of them, connecting them with a pen, and would 100% make up his own constellation name for them AHHH SO ADORABLE

➜ he's a soft dork please please take dont hurt him or I WILL HURT U🔪

➜ and of course you'd hAVE TO give it back to him, like 10 folds, because this baby boy gets REALLY INSECURE and needs dem assurance okay???

➜ like if you ever noticed that he seemed a lot gloomier or especially pressured with up coming matches, or when he does bad at practice, AND YOU TREAT HIM RIGHT AND GIVE HIM CONSTANT RESSURANCE AND LOVE THAT HE DESERVES ( as you should💅 ) mf would would fall in love with you all over again

➜ please do it, give him love he needs

➜ i could see him be vulnerable in front of you when he's that comfortable with ur relationship that he gets to express his worries about beating kageyama or ushijima

➜ or even his guilt when he almost hut his underclassmen because of the pressure he felt while being in the wrong headspace

➜ and that's when you know that he completely trusts you

➜ loves to spoil you !! especially when he finally got a stable slot in the volleyball industry profession

➜ a thank you for dealing with his clingy shit <3 but ig u could never really get rid of him, you love him too much to do that

➜ this mf buys milkbread and SAYS IT'S FOR YOU BUT YOU AREN'T THE ONE CAUGHT AT 2 AM SNACKING ON MILKBREAD WHILE REWATCHING MATCHES IN THE KITCHEN

➜ bold of u to assume that he actually bought it for u <3

[baka-writings]

Forgiveness - Owen Ovadoz (mkit rain)

Warnings: Angst, Mentions of depression, anxiety, panic disorder, language, drama & sadness, language

Summary: You are dating Owen, but after some time you realize his work is more important to him so you break up. However when you see his depressional IG lives, posts, too much hate you decide to help him and be with him despite past events even though the trust between you is broken.

A/N: I have tho thank this anon for the ask, because even though it happened in past I still remember what this is about and I could never really talk about this w/o being attacked so I'll try to include my own emotions and views in this. I hope you'll enjoy it :)

(i was listening to LOOPFLA- Ex just sayin)

You checked your phone, but nothing. It was silent. You looked through your apartment. It was silent as well. Your whole life was silent now. The person you loved more than anything else didn't love you; well he did, but unfortunately you weren't what he loved the most. You couldn't blame him, you're a normal person, he is a rapper, he is famous, you are not..or could you blame him? Honestly you didn't know anymore. You still recall those words in your head.

Yes maybe my music is more important for me and you know why?

You were already sad from his actions, couldn't he see it? Or maybe he did but didn't care at all. You knew nothing nice will come out his mouth, it's not like you will hear an I love you from him.

Because music brings me joy, fame and money, but what do you bring into my life?

You remained silent, was he serious? After all you've done for him? So the nights when you didn't sleep, because he was frustrated from all the hate he gets and YOU stayed with him, confronted him. All those times you tried everything you could, many times forbidding things you used to love just because of him.

Exactly, nothing.

Did you expect him to actually love you? Yes you did, but all of that was a lie. You were curious how long he felt this way, but you knew. It was best to be quiet and leave. There was no point in wanting to get hurt more.

That's the past. It happened not a long time ago. It's only one month, but you still recall these words everyday. However you feel a lot better now. Is it weird? You were telling yourself that you had to move on and forget it. Deep down however you still cared about Owen. For the past month, exactly the time you two are separated, he was getting more and more hate and not gonna lie, you were getting worried.

The worst thing about it was that some said things were extraggerated. Let's be honest, you were not proud of things he's done in the past. Neither was he. However he was getting hate for things that didn't happen as they were described. That pissed you off more than it should've. You just wanted to scream to the whole word that the bullshit they are saying is wrong. You've seen people calling him a rapist and those who defended him- such as you were called rapists too. You weren't scared of the hate on you, but you were scared about Owen If he saw what people are saying about you.

Owen's POV

I can't believe I told Y/N those things. I don't know what I was thinking, I loved her now it's all gone. All because I'm a loser. All these awful things were going through my head as I was reading the hates.

It's already a month, but why do I feel even worse than when I told her those horrible things? I know I deserve it, all of the hate I'm getting. I wish Y/N was here. She always knew what to say or do to make me feel better. Now when I lost her, I'm also losing my will to live.

These thoughts slowly killing him more than anyone could imagine.

Your POV

You opened your phone and there was a notification from instagram. It said that Owen is live. You wouldn't watch it, but you still cared and you were worried so you went to his live.

Oh shit.

Was that all you could say? Oh shit?

You've opened the live and there he was, crying. Your eyes were watering as you listened to what he was saying.

" I'm so sorry .. please everyone forgive me" there was no hope, only pain in his voice. He was not okay and you knew it well. There were many people telling him not to cry and being nice to him. How pathetic. You thought to yourself. Where were they when he needed them the most?

All you could here now was only Owen, taking deep breathes and crying. Enough.

You got up and quickly hurried to his place. You knew it might be too late If you don't hurry. Not once he told you he wants to end it all and seeing him in this state made you wish he doesn't do it. That's not what he deserves. I forgive you. This one sentence made you cry as you were running through streets and through people to his place. You wanted to tell him that you forgive him. If he died, you'd however never forgive yourself that you could never tell him that you forgive him.

You used the key he gave you when you were still dating. There he was, laying on the floor, having a panic attack. You quickly rushed to his side and hugged him.He looked at you, surprised. You were the person he'd expect the least after he hurt you so bad. You remembered the last words from his live

I'm sorry...please everyone forgive me

"I forgive you" you told him while still hugging him, your soft voice making him calm down.

How could she forgive me? I hurt her so much.

"Thank you .. I..still love you" he said hugging you back. You stopped hugging him and looked straight into his eyes. Yes you forgave him for hurting you, but you could believe his i love you anymore. He told you many times before, yet there was no sign of it.

"I forgive, but don't forget" you gave him a last kiss and left the apartment.

He was looking at your back as you were walking away from him. He wasn't surprised, he wouldn't trust himself either. But now he knows that you care. He wanted to change. Not only for you, but for himself as well. He also knew that it will take a while, but now all he wanted was to be a better man and renew your trust, because he's realized that no career or money can give him what you gave him, love.