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joltning · 4 months

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older analysis

#ik this shit is REAL surface level n ive never been good with reading characters but I like blabbing Ok #IF I MISSED SOMETHTING THATS MY BAD. I HAVENT REWATCHED SHIS TRIL #rvb #red vs blue #rvb tucker #tucker rvb #lavernius tucker #txt

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bangcakes · 5 months

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#personal #i think that like... the dam's broken. for lack of a better term #or i guess the ice ???? idk man #either way. been messaging back n forth with him like crazy for the past few days #i just decided that like.... whatever. if i feel like saying something i should just say it to him !!!#and i think me being open has led to him being open....#god its so hard when both ppl only really talk when they have something to say JFJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJJD #like... i cant even make up a reason to talk to him. i cant pretend to be dumb n not understand anything. he'll know its bullshit NDJDJDJDN #n e way...... defs met my match here lmao. but really its been so nice just being able to talk to him when i want. bc waiting until being i #person was getting so !!@@@ long !!! like god. i didnt know i could miss someone so bad...... its so !!@@@@@@#gah !!!!!!!!!!!!#n e way. things are goin in the right direction #and hahaha !!!!!!@ i have a game plan to make sure we stay in touch too !!!!! me n one of my other friends promised to keep in touch with #each other and i was like oh should we invite everyone else. and she was like oh !! maybe ____ so i was like !!!!!!!!#so true !!!!!!!!!!@#gosh im so excited i really like them both so much we're all similar temperaments so ya..... ive wanted to make sure i keep them JFJFJFJD #n e way. we still havent asked him but hopefully he says yes !!!! bc he always sits behind us n im just like !!!! ik you wanna sit with us #so just sit beside us istg !!!! but ah ... i think hes shy #god hes so cute #and shes like not competition btw. like..... she has a bf. she knows i like this guy now (i spilled. i couldnt hold it in 💀💀💀). and ya !!#hopefully exciting things coming!!!

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saeshiraw · 8 months

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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

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vamptastic · 2 years

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it's just like. okay. when i say i like men in a gay way and women in a lesbian way i don't mean that i think straight attraction is icky or my attraction is somehow more enlightened and progressive. i mean that I've spent the formative years of my sexuality in a place with my gender presentation where people are equally as likely to see me as a man or a woman and often seem to think of me as both, and i cannot separate both my attraction to men or to women from that. ive always felt drawn to butchness because its this concept that your love for the same gender shapes your gender presentation and vice versa, but it's specific to womanhood and attraction to women as a woman in a way i can't entirely relate to. like, in many ways i am both a man and a woman, and i am attracted to both men and woman in a way both shaped by and reflected by that fact.

#there's not really a clear label for that is there #i suppose i don't need one it's just to have that cos you can find similar people #i suppose bisexual as a gender is the closest i can get #like both sexes and also attracted to both sexes and those two things each are linked to and affected by the other #i don't know. i expect my feelings on this will change as i transition and people start to really see me as a man #and not the in-between ive been in since puberty (thank you pcos combined with massive badonkahonkawonkadonks)#it's just sort of frustrating to feel like nobody gets it #like lesbians are into me cos they think im butch #a specific type of man-autistic nerds (affectionate)-seem to just see me as a regular ol woman #and when confronted with the reality that i am not seem to not really care either way about my gender #other trans people are into me and they do generally get it but not always #and gay guys are into me sometimes but i don't really pass consistently enough for it to happen often #like im not actively seeking a partner n i don't both passing day to day cos everyone knows im trans already #n binding is a living hell when you're fat with a fucking. idk the size like E or F probably. cup size.#so mostly ppl approach me thinking im butch but occasionally ppl think im a guy in photos i post and such or #strangers will ask my friends abt me thinking im a guy #but like generally speaking no matter what i don't get to just be A Man. and i don't know if i really want to be! i like being trans #and it sucks because ive missed out entirely on dating in middle/high school like when you find out who you like #simply for being trans. ik most queer ppl end up doing it all in college its just frustrating yk. cos all my cis friends get to do it #realistically speaking im p much just t4t i really only have actually tried to date trans people + trans people are hotter + they get it #which im fine with. i love trans people . just sucks to be excluded sometimes even when u don't want in

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aashiqvi · 8 months

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Starting to honour not needing a talent or a consistent hobby. Who gives a fuck. Try a little of everything in baby steps. U drew 1 scenery? Amazing beautiful ur now an artist. U learned one part of a song slightly on the piano or guitar? Ur an artist. A musician ur so talented to do that. U wanna move onto writing? Planned a story? Congrats ur so creative! It rly doesn’t matter if its just a hobby. If u wanna discipline urself n rly delve into one then do it. If u don’t then don’t. There’s also literally no deadline. No rush. Just enjoy fr

#like guys #ive made beats on garageband im now metroboomin 2.0 #and then i animated a two second clip so basically i can make the next spideyverse #and ik how to play the beginning of chahun main ya na on guitar i’m arijit singh fr #SO LIKE ??? it rly doesn’t matter like now i wanna dj its rly not deep just collect little pockets of experiences and one day find one u #miss n love n practice it !! NICE #diary

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haganez · 3 months

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Suprises me that you hate makoto p5 calling her boring w no personality and then go and like the protag whos literally a pseudo self insert with almost no personality

i dont like makoto bc she still ends up trying to become a cop and generally just bored me compared to all the other fun personalities. also dont ever say no shit to me that the protag has no personality dont piss me off

#hi anon ive missed u babe really #ik u dont care n just say shit to stir stuff up #but i really wish they kept more edge to her personality even as she became closer to everyone her best moments are when shes a little weir

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celestadore · 2 months

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considering making separate side accounts on here for in general translations (cg stuff most likely) and one for my writings bc i dont wanna go back to ao3 hmmmm

#dont think ive mentioned this on here but i went insane like a few weeks ago n made a whole cg side content masterdoc #ik im prob still missing quite a few things but a few of the stuff i found was just untranslated #and i think having a translation for stuff like this publically avaliable online would be neat #like the kallen light novel Red Tracks and all the KOTR novels (i only found 1 translation of ginos TT)#also if u want i can hand u a link to the doc i just dont wanna make it fully public bc its linked to my personal email lol

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daymiire · 3 months

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// i miss them

#ive been getting back into omori kinda and i rlly miss my funnie lil guys but things have been a Lot overhere n i dont know if id be able -#- to manage two blogs since i can barely write for one rn :(((#ik moving them to quillheel would make it alot easier but idk?? muses are finnicky and they dont wanna move so i'll have to figure it out :#━ ♔ your slightly mad sea captain : ooc.

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whomturgled · 10 months

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i have so many feelings and i hate it

#and regrets of any time ive acted up or feel like in hindsight it wasnt cherishing the time i have w them as i shld be and #and things i want to do with them still and ways to love them and be loved and understand their way of loving and #i think we can be so good together and. i miss them. and i hope they miss me.#i really hope theyll miss me soon and want me again and . ik its maybe a little messed up but i want to believe and trust and #its hard and it hurts but. i really feel theres a great connection and if i need to chill out a bit and remember myself more thats fine #and on me for getting so like. moody recently. altho i kinda feel like part of that is med changes but u__u still i need to be able to like #be better and i think they make me better and so happy and. im so comfortable with them and i love them and i wld want to make it work #even if it had to be distance but i dont think i want to just be their friend like maybe but it would hurt a lot bc i love them so much #and i hope they wanna be with me too still and will allow me to romance them yknow flowers and adventures and love and take care and... yea #and maybe some of this was just them going thru a lot rn and im sorry for adding pressure to it and i want to be the comfortable respite an #auurgrgghfhdhdhhfhfdhh i miss them #i just keep thinking abt them like ill have periods of not but then i do again and. idk.#theres also a lot of complicated feelings and thoughts and its like i want to like. idk. know some of their friends n stuff n. :^( idk #i dont feel well from the stress and emotions and ow of it all #i really hope it isnt just a way for them to let me down i really hope they come back eventually like i wanna believe they will but #ourgsghthfhdhfhghghdhdhwkelftk4bfbhwiwjtjejAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i love them a lot. and need to listen more abt more alone time stuff bc it is good for both of us but not like this u_u #ok sorry for rambling i needed somewhere to write feelings so here we are #i guess part of me is hoping theyre thinking abt me at least a bit and maybe will check this and see it and be like wow i do miss them too #but ik thats silly and eitth3u2ieigjtb4jirifjwji24jgntn aahhhhhhhhhhh. i say a lot of things wrong esp when scared or overly emotional and.#urgevshehrhtjrjeitjtnjeeitjtjwjeiigvjiw9384847rhfbwjoe4j4n4j289djrnrnf #i just really really hope they come back soonish and like want me and are like yes i do want you sorry for that but not a huge sorry bc #like i understand where theyre coming from and. and. yeah. idk. soon doesnt have to be today or tomorrow but maybe a week or 2 idk #i just realy miss them and it hurts and i really dont want them with someone else or to just throw it all away andni want to prove i can #like. idk. love them and be better and more positive i guess we've both been dealing w a lot of stuff and i do need to learn to accept and #more patient w how we communicate differently and we do have to face that but its a difficult topic to confront ig and aurh4hwhshhrlffff #i think they love me i want to trust and i really hope they dont try to make any decisions for me or like based on what they think best 4 m #bc i get to decide that :^(#when i said let down i meant like. leave my life and never talk to me again and stuff.. ;^(. idk how to feel abt some things but. idk. idk.#theres so many feelings and that all is just a pretty vague tip of the iceberg ugh

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jeffysatur · 2 years

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i cannot tell u how stressed out i am about whatever this is

#kinnporsche #mostly bc ik well get kp and vp being cute and in love but what the fuxk are they gonna give us for kimchay huh?!?#awkward exes whos only screentime is their uncomfortable eye contact?#i feel like that most likely bc they hate us lmao #but like what if chay going out of his way to treat kim like shit and ppl start noticing #he starts making these snarky offhanded comments and porsche is like 🧍 ive missed something here #or maybe tankhuns figured everything out by then and trys to meddle n get them to talk #i just i know we're not getting anything substantial i know they wont but i realy want it : (((((((((

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bangcakes · 3 months

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#ive finally calmed the fuck down NDNDDDDJN #realistically... we've only been buddy buddy like the past 2 months.#and like i think i was doing a lot of assuming. like he may be playing it cool bc hes not sure if i like him... Like That. you know NDJDJD #IDK. i think i was rishing bc i was scared id never see him again #hut now that i saw him... after graduating... and being out of school.... and we have semi plans to meet in feb....#really dont think theres a need to rush. like i want him in my life and i think at least that feeling is mutual JDJDJDJKDMDMDM #like he basically signed up for double hang outs with me. idk if he realized it JDJDJDJJD #bc every month or 2 we'll have plans with the bigger group AND ones with just me him n our other friend (that wants no part of the #bigger group JDJDJJDJDJD) so !!!@@@@ ya....#feeling much better and calmer !!!#i do miss him tho JDJDJDJDJJD. i wanna message him but idk what to say. but ik i'll think of something heheheh #and who knows... he may message me too !!!!! ya....#gotta focus on getting a job anyway HDJDJDJDJDJDND #my applied to count is still 1 LMAO #a lot of the companies.... dont seem real????? idk being a software company and not having a website.... or having a website #and having lorem ipsum or like the dedault wordpress blog post on pages.... its giving scam JDJDJDJJDDKDKD #but ya... the search continues...#personal

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jiminshoney · 7 months

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well

#not sure any1 will ever read this cuz this blog is so dead #I miss writing nd posting so much #i still use this acct to read n find other fanfics lol but ik its been literal years since ive posted #actually I doubt anyone will ever see this which is why i feel kinda safe posting this #ive been writing a lot n i wanna come back to this blog but #i feel so insecure ab my writing these days and ik my old readers are probably off tumblr or #have long forgotten me #but idk in case anyone does see this... hi person. i hope u are well #ive written so much of wyb my friend told me to post it but lmao #like I said idk if its good n who would read it anyway yk?#i miss this blog tho. a lot

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nomaishuttle · 7 months

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sry im like willing myself to get up and brush my teeth and all that but im literally like Maybe i should finally actually listen to tbi. as in the bifrost incident not traumatic brain injury which it would be insane if there was a mechs album named traumatic brain injury.

#i legit never listened to it idk why i think i got scared n then yk and blah blah blah and yada yada and my granny died and yeah.so yeah #basically i need 2 listen and also i sort of just need to listen to every mechs album bc idk that ive fully listened to either of the ttbt.#<- i know a few of the stand outs but i havent fully listened basically.... and i miss the mechs so bad rn its crazy. i think they would #killing eachother over mild disagreements #i say that like its a hc im pretty sure thats canon i think its awesome. if iiii was an immortal space pirate whos only exists #to power the narrative and i was on a ship with like 7 other immortal space pirates who only exist to power the narrative.#well 1 me and those guys would be having the most insane sex possible crazy shit guns would ABSOLUTELY be involved we would #be fucking in the airlock opening the doors just for laffs itd be fucking wild shit. second of all yes wed kill eachother at least once a #day r u crazy andf itd be awesome. id make a to do list of every single death i could imagine and id do each at least 10 times and itd be #crazy !! wah wah immortality 1. seems fun 2. they die eventually 3. legit whenever they want they can just kill themselves and not exist fo #an hour tell me that isnt my dream world i dare you.#also ik ive exclusively talked abt the crew members which is kind of one of my pet peeves bc they legit arent the focus #but im nostalgic for them and rest assured the albums make me craaaaazyyy #mdni #minors dni #sorry i forgot what i said about the guns and whatnot #nsft #a2t #covering all the bases here

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jadeneppy · 1 year

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I think i do wanna go on t

#ive been thinkin about it and honestly i reaallly wanna fo on it #the thing is..... im afraid of needles..... and uh money :(#I JUST #Wanna look like myself :(#i wanna look masc. so baf.#with more new people joinin my team at work i keep getting misgendered no matter how hard my other managers try n tell the new poeple they #they just keep callin me she/her/miss/ma'am #STOP STOP STOP PLEASE.. please :(#i let it slide till i get upset and tgen tell em like.. hey guys #im a guy #pleade ik i dont look like it but i am :(#siiiighhhhhh #anyeay i saw hals t journey and man i hope i can look like that i want just a bit of facial hair and a decent voice #i feel weird like sheding my self #the person my mother knew tge person my friends know the physical one at least #they will never be back if im happy and god ik its gonna be a long journey but i really really wanna try #neppy nyas

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suesylvesterf · 2 years

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I've got two months to finalise my decision to study in England next year, and I've been looking forward to studying abroad for literal years but now I'm 😨

#is it stupid to worry about life here in aus passing whilst I'm like. out of it #pros of going overseas is i get to see my bestie! i get to see a whole new country!#cons are: there are people I'll miss here :( ik its only for a few months but a lot can happen in a few months #but I've wanted this for years. like studying abroad has always been my plan and I feel like its silly to just Not Go because ive made #stuff complicated in my brain #it would be a chance to meet new people as well!#and I've been looking for a chance to run away from things so this could be that also... idk. idk!#if I go it would probably give me the chance to get my mind off of [redacted] BUT I don't know if I want to get my mind off of [redacted]#idk! suddenly two months does not seem like a very long time #but! but! going overseas would give me the chance to travel around a little bit.. could do a trip to n ireland to scotland to wales which #would be fun as #and again like I said i get to see the bestie #I've never lived alone before and I think I would really like the chance to as well but I'm very close with my family so idk how I'd go #that long without seeing them :(#ik ive been mega vague but if any1 has any advice or just anything feel free 2 tell me #personal

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herogardn · 2 years

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is it cringe that im lowkey tempted to give an oc of mine a sonic verse just so i can write with some of my moots again

#like is it......#bc ive been thinking abt it for So Long its driving me insane #n im terrified of being perceived as cringe or weird for it ahbhjffjdg #or just in general #anyway hiiiii #sorry to live again just for This but i miss writing with my moots here a lot :<#dont have the muse for any canon characters n Only for said oc who im. v picky with #i ask just bc theyre human n ik that can kinda be Awkward #unless anyone has other muses that would mesh better or just straight up dont Care #if it Is cringe i can just try gettin muse back for anyone i got here u__u #anyways. makes a heart with my hand

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