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sometimes i get nishiki i really do
#snap chats#like from an outsider perspective it is utterly hilarious watching everything go wrong for him#BUT GIRL NOT ME STOP HAVING THIGNS GO WRONG FOR MEEEEEE WHAT IS ALL THIS#this month its actually one thing after another if i start wearing white everyone needs to be concerned#you guys remember my bullshit roommates yeah well TLDR im getting fined for their messes im going to SCREAM#I HATE IT HEERRRREEE I KNOW IM EVIL BUT CMON#literally had such a silly night last night and now everything sucks again is this life is this what life is#its not its not what life is im just hearing my mom bitching in the other room and im letting her vibes ruin mine#everything going to be ok this is just a hiccup .... a small pinprick in the tapestry of life ....#i am incredibly annoyed though cause this is one of those situations where youve done nothing wrong but youre being shot for it#its just unfair but whatever we ball ..... im putting the hair gel away guys im not slicking my hair back just yet ....#i got a new friend last night so maybe ill just hang with them later and ill remember life is beautiful ..#heh ... jk ... i can remind myself life is beautiful right now ... im gonna go eat some tiramisu ...#jesus christ i really do love italian food what the fuck. pasta / calamari / tiramisu#i dont think calamari is italian but i got it from an italian place w/e we get the picture#its not my fault that italy has good food ... i would just never go there .....#ok bye ima go eat and drink water now. water will remind me how beautiful life is ...
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bye bye july ʕᵔᴥᵔʔ 🌼🌱🫧🌸🦋🌻🌺🎨 you were lovely
#queue 🦋#let me tell y’all something about those gambas and that fucking chocolate milkshake#exquis!!!!!!!! as they’d say in france#i think… idk#ive never had a milkshake so rich and thick before i thought i was gonna choke on it#like it was gonna get stuck in my throat#don’t even get me started on the gambas 😞😞 AND NEXT TO THE BEACH TOO???#i almost creamed my pants#im not sure what kind of sauce it was but#it had me clutching my chest in disbelief and pleasure#SO GOOD#DELICIOUS#scrumptious#best meal ive had in my life probably#i had a peach iced tea with it too#im salivating#anyways it was such a lovely month :(#it was so wonderful to be able to go on a proper holiday after ages and ages#im gonna cherish that time forever and ever#and weirdly#it taught me a lot about myself#like not to get romantical but#it’s trueeee#okay. that’s all <3#it was a very uneventful boring year but July swept in to save the day!!#i hope august is good.#♡ dear diary…#i hate my face in selfies i always look so uncomfy#and also i forgor what movie i watched 😞#okay BYE!!!
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petition for fanatical christians to only have access to youtube kids rather than the full platform
#it’s the christian ‘you’ll thank me later’ for me 💀#like hello?? you are not moses in the cave staring at the burning bush because you saw a youtube video that essentially everyone on earth#has reasonable access to#god is not sending YOU a message because you happen to now be aware of celestial events occurring and can somehow admit that the world STIL#sucks. genocide isn't god sending you a sign.#i stg every three months these mfs think the rapture is coming.#AND SHE CLEARLY THINKS I WOULD GET LEFT BEHIND WITH THE MEEK#miss ma’am- if anyone is meek it’s the sheep who follow religion like people bred for nothing more than servitude and xenophobia#fanatical and hateful religion is a plague in and of itself#YOU CANT SAY YOU DONT BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY AND THEN ACCEPT CELESTIAL EVENTS AS SIGNS FROM GOD#PICK A LANE!!#your man in the sky won’t save you when you voted republicans into office who cut disaster relief funding#btw i did not watch that video she sent because i just know it’s gonna be WILDLY offensive and stupid. im just going to pretend she#was trying to be nice
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🎶 they tried to make me go to rehab and i said PLEASE PLEASE HOLY FUCK I FEEL SO BAD WILL NOBODY HELP ME I CANT STOP WHY DOESNT ANYBODY NOTICE HOW BAD IT IS PLEASE HELP
#IM SUCH A LIGHTWEIGJT NOW AND I FEEL SO STUPID I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IM FINE I CAN HANDLE IT WHAT'S ONE BEER YOU CAN DO IT YOU LIKE BEER#AND I HAVENT HAD WATER OR EATEN ALL DAY AND IM LIKE WHEEEE I KEPT MY TAB OPEN (DUMBASS) ORDER A SECONS#even a second is too much#i cant stop#like actually i dont know what to do bc i know even if i went to rehab WHICH I CANT AFFORD AND NONE OF MY FAMILY WILL HELP i just would#return to the same shit bc no matter how sober i get i cant stop bc that's how fucking addiction works#and im too scared to tell anyone i actually need help#the people who know i need help are just judging me and watching me fall into this fucking pit#i dont know what to do#im just gonna pass out drunk now#i hate feeling like this it's so fucking humiliating#i dont even like it#and im admitting defeat to WHAT? A LITTLE GLASS OF JUICE? YOURE KIDDING ME#prolific linguistics researcher and author cant stop.. why do we always treat academics like we're the pinnacle of society#im fucking awful man im a schizophrenic with an addiction problem#but im so much more than that! anyone who knows me knows that! but i cant stop#i want to stop#and im trying and then every few months I think ive tried enough and i expect it to go away but that's how the cravings trick you#fuck this man#drugs tw#sobriety update#lessons of the hand and the mouth
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so many expenses this month and most of it isnt even for me :(
#i hate that my family thinks i have lots of money even though my brother made a lot more than me#mom keeps telling me my brother might need it in the future so she refuse to ask him any#really shows that they do not respect me at all about this#and the worst thing is its always very sudden#a cold 5 min call where mom tell me “pay for this now! dont postpone it” and the payment is almost 1K#and my stupid ass cant even say no because if i say no they will make me feel guilty and then i feel like i wanna kms and end up paying anw#god#parents are gonna go on vacation soon#watch they'll be calling me soon to give them more money#and then go hom from there#and not bringing me any gift as usual#why should they care about the faggy child that failed to achieve his parents assigned goals#if anything putting all family expenses on me will quicken my death or worse force me to go back to them#so they can hold me and mold me back into what they want#i know their plan and i refuse to follow it#but they probably just need to shout on me once and i'll follow whatever their ask.. sad#i want to recoup by taking commissions but last time this happened and i took too many comms it ended up taking more than a month#i dont think i can handle that much anymore#AAAAAAAAA im tired
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houses head wilsons heart crushed me wtf doctors...
#this isnt supposed to happen bro i watched this show as a joke#because of tiktok because i love robert sean leonard#why am i bawling because of this man bro its always robert sean leonard media#ive only cried for neil perry and james wilson wtf man#i didnt even like amber i didnt hate her but my fave was mormon cole i wanted him to wij#i knew 13 would get the spot cuz ive heard her name before from tumblrinas i knew forman had a spot#i thought there was 1 spot left and i wanted cole#i didnt hate amber she chased what she wanted i respect it#her death was sad like her pills killed her ya but oh gee wilson im#AND THEN I WATCH FUCKING S5E1 WILSON LEAVES?? “i dont think we ever were friends” OH MY#im not supposed to be crying over this fuckass show what the fuck#ive binged 4 seasons#in 1 week#i hate middle aged gay white men what the hell this isnt allowed in my pride month#and i already know how the series ends like i have moots who reblog stuff here and there so i have a bit of knowledge#KUTNER DIES?? I LOVE HIM I HAVENT EVEN WATCHED S5E2 HE CANT DIE#and 13 has a disease thats gonna kill her. taub gets on my nerves. wilson gets cancer and house fakes his death#i know all of that but what do you mean kutner dies. that's not even fair#its always the men of color in this show i dont even know if i wanna finish it (i will by the end of the month)#l speaks#shut up l#house md#hatecrimes md#spooky liveblogs (kind of)
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i feel like i need to do laps of the house rn i have so much to talk to you guys about and idk where to start
#going from insisting on updating you freaks on every stupid little detail of my day to NO CONTACT for two months is insane actually#im here like 'i NEED to catch them up on my life' when in reality it's like. i want to tell you about my breakfast#but there was also fandom shit that i missed like HELLO LIVE ACTION ATLA TRAILER. HOW WE FEELING#INSANEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i hate to clown on myself but. i am excited#i know I KNOW it's gonna be bad stop YELLING AT ME but i literally teared up watching the trailer whatever WHAT EVER!#those are the sillies. MY sillies. zuko is right there. with his weirdly small scar 🤨 AND AZULA!!#a lot of people are hating on the casting choice bc of how young she looks but personally i LOVE IT#like it's harder to convey that kind of youth in animation and i think that's why her character gets done so dirty by the fandom so often#so knowing we're gonna be forced to see a girl who actually LOOKS YOUNG is bonkers im GOING to cry#i can barely survive the last agni kai as it is. im just a girl in the world#OH AND ALSO. AFTG FANDOM HOW ARE WE. I REACTED REALLY NORMALLY ID SAY#VERY AVERAGE REACTION FROM ME
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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan#i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch#shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else#even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress#but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside#academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project#i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send#myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it#but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or#maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something#just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there#it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so#tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing#ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position#and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle#sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux#i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices#even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany.#and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it#unrelated
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genuinely wish there was a way to take out my anger on corporations i want to shred netflix with my teeth if the executives of netflix were in front of me right now i would maul them all to death im about to go take a road trip to the netflix HQ to plant a bomb
#i hope so many people cancel their accounts that it immediately sends them into bankruptcy#im about to start sending them death threats. EIGHT EXTRA DOLLARS a month to share your password#who fucking cares if i share my password bc my buddy wanted to watch the witcher. who gives a shit#i shouldnt have to pay extra to be nice to my friends or share an account w my cousins and grandma#'pay extra for something youve done for free' FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!#its literally not gonna get them any new subscribers. people share others accounts bc they otherwise cant or wont make their own#this is not a potential audience for them to tap#i hate you capitalism i hate you netflix im killing you with psychic waves#i hope every business executive dies in a plane crash
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leviathan has gotta be the most sibling coded group out there like ..... the cain instinct is soo strong
#parrotx2#spokeishere#mapicc#roshambogames#lifesteal smp#lifesteal s4#theyre SO lame . like not even wet cat theyre just indescribably bad at their jobs#i watched zam streams so i was like omg theyre kinda scary :(#but the last half of that auction stream ???? why are they like this (affectionate)#anyway mapicc telling ro n spoke to shut the fuck up is so funny like my brother does that all the time#and then critting each other out :handshake: my brother trying to break my arm for three months straight#ok bye i hate lifesteal for mkaing me try to expand my art range im gonna die#art <3
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Hey so Snap this is going to be so fucking weird, but honestly don’t care. So I was watching a clip of Drag Race Philippines and it was the make over episode and I think they were making over family members and this father was all about getting into drag. So, I just wanted to tell you never forget how much of a lovely loving kind and caring father you have, who loves you and protects you and makes you feel heard. That’s all.
i'd have to die before i forget how great my dad is thank you for the opportunity to brag about him again anon
#snap chats#no smarmy one-sentence response i fear i never play about my dad's character and its been. A Month so i gotta be earnest#Comically And Topically tho i still wonder wtf my dad meant when he said 'i always thought of being a girl' when i opened up to him#part of me thinks he was just joking and thats probably it but also ....... //audible confusion + vine boom + eyebrow quirking//#its so funny you brought up my dad though i was thinking of visiting him this weekend#last week my Bitch Ass Mom wanted to watch a movie with me and since speak no evil was coming out i proposed we see that#since starting therapy shes been 'trying' to be closer with us but she still doesnt like me on a fundamental level so get bent ig#but she hates horror movies and made a whole show of not wanting to go and how american movies are so brutal and blah blah#this was right after she took me ice skating with her .. cause shes obsessed with ice skating now ... like maam please#i like skating so thank you but ... idk ... she never wants to do things i wanna do#then again we're pretty different i think so. LOL sorry i like horror movies and nothing you like apparently#im glad she didnt come cause i just went with my bro and since the theater was Virtually Empty we just cracked jokes the whole time vjlaekv#plus i just know my mom wouldve been annoying and i wanted to enjoy the movie !!!! which i did ty !!!!!!!#but yk who LOVES horror movies and who i used to watch horror movies with all the time growin up !!!!!!!!!!#i havent seen a movie with my dad in forever.... the last one we saw was so long ago but it was some weird owen wilson movie i think#wait now that ive dragged my mom into this she started therapy Did I Share That. Im Reminding You Anyway#but the most vile thing i ever heard her say was that she admitted to me she never loved my dad 'emotionally'#like wow ..... a thousand life times in hell for you i think i cant even begin to describe the rage chat i could write a novel#but i only have 30 tags so i wont. i should call my dad tho.. this is inspiring me to call my dad thank you anon#if youre still reading Double Thank You. i havent complained about my mom in a while and this was just funny timing overall vjRLKJAEVK#ok im gonna go talk with my dad now. my college friend's coming oevr in like three hours and we're gonna watch glass#cause that came up in convo yesterday Long Story so that should be funny vjlekjlakj
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if there are any dogs out there that are good w computers and want to help me figure out why my pc is stuttering every 2 seconds for no reason...... i will give you a kisskiss. maybe even head
#pls i want to get gbfrelink soo bad but whats the ppint if i cant play it.#every time this happens i just. dust it. and then it works(?) again so like idk if its just dust again or what .???#but like i JUST dusted it last month ..?#tearing my hair out i dont know what keeps fucking it up and im tired#idk if its my drivers or what ...#at this point i am like. going to call in a pc repairperson or smth bc i cant fix it at hoam. sniffles#i cant even run the amd dofteare installer to see if my drivers are fucked im gonna cry...#i cant even watch like a 4 minute yt video without it stopping every 5 secs thats how bad. it is#and like !! it fucks me up bc like. ill dust it and then it works and then im like yaaaayyy#tjen like. i wont use it for a little bit and then when i go to boot it up again it does it AGAINN#like is it bc im not using it for a few weeks. does it hate me.#sniffles am i stupid im stupid. im dumb
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Me when phones no longer have headphone jaks and home buttosns
໒꒰ྀི •̥ ̯ •̥ ゙ ꒱ྀིა
#GOD I WANT HEADPHOEN JACKS BACK#I HATE HOW I HAVE TO USE SEPERATE EQRBUDS JS TO LISTEN TO STUFF ON MY PHOEN#AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON HOW LITTLE THIER LIFESPAN IS I DONT WABT TO SPEND 30 BUCKS ON EARBUDS EVERY FEW MONTHS#AND I HATE HATE HATEEEEE HOW THEY ARE IN THE CHARGER SO I CANT LISTEN WHILE MY PHONE IS FUCKING CHARGING#AND I MISS THE FUCKING HOME BUTTONS DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES IVE ACCIDENTLY PRESSED SOMTHING JS CUS I WAS TRYNA EXIT AN APP#GOD I HATE IT I DONT CARE ABOUT “ MORE SCREENSPACE” OR HOW ITS MORE “MODERN” IDGAF#GOD FUCKING DAMMIT IM GONNA STRANGLE APPLE#WHEN I FIND THE STUPID FUCJER THAT TOOK THESE BEAUTIFUL FUNCTIONS AWAY I WILL PUSH THEM DOWN 50 FLIGHTS OF FUCKING STAIRS#AND WATCH ALL THIER BONES BREAK#Anywayyyyssssss yea
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glances at the mtl schedule. okay awesome! two r32 matches eight r16 matches and two quarterfinals to get through. on one day. people will actually die
#our blessed toronto vs their barbaric montreal#ugh i always hate when this happens when ppl end up having to play two singles matches on one day#thabk god ben is out but hubi might die if he wins tomorrow#given both of their histories with rain delays the past two months lol#also cause hubi shouldnt be playing at all much less twice in one day#tennis#AND im gonna be missing all 12 of these matches because ill be busy watching the women all day and most of the night#which is fineeee i guess. i only was hoping to see jannik and tabilo play i guess#im intrigued to the outcome of others but i dont need to see em
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as much as im complaining because i can’t watch im actually so grateful for dnp and so happy with how much content we’ve been getting and im so excited to watch this game and such a long video is a nice treat
#if any of that makes sense idk#i love them so much#and hate them#im gonna try watch 10 mins at 2x speed because i just can’t wait#dan and phil#but seriously dnp pls upload earlier its a really busy month
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im rereading asunder and keep having to remind myself that all these characters have french accents fml
#well. most not all. but yknow#personal#da#im only skimming tbf im working on something that has me going through Everything#hopefully i can get through it all in one go. hopefully before the stream in less than 5 hrs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#im not that excited for it actually. im keen for the dav announcement and that's it. it had better be near the start#anyway. i rewatched redemption yesterday and idk why i had in my mind that it sucked#like it's not *good* but it wasnt as bad as id made it out to be since first watching it. it's just kinda *ok*#but it was a relief after spending the last week reading through talktables. god almighty im glad im done with that#i think when i get up to dai im gonna go through it in frosty#it's gonna take probably 2-3x as long as if i read the talktable. maybe even longer. but i wont lose my mind quite so much#weirdly the dao and dai talktables are about the same length (all dlc included for both) which always really surprises me#but i didnt read the full dao talktable. only for the dlc (and awakening was a CHORE). i read everything in the toolset#and i was able to do most of da2 using those spreadsheets i made of plots and conversations a few months ago. i knew those'd come in handy#the only time ive ever been glad da2 doesnt have item descriptions#ANYWAY. back to asunder. the start is interesting but rhys goes through like. anti-character development and i hate him by the end#obv that's still character development. i just really prefer when a character becomes better or at least doesnt become frustrating to read
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